“Only girls cry!…Oh, boo hoo!” laughed my brother, (as big brothers often do)
He had been taunting me, teasing me, heckling me, as I whined, complained.
Neither of us would have won a prize, for being the angelic sibling pride,
of Kirby street one day outside, in hot July...
“You jerk!”..I cried,…a laughing stock...his mocking me..
He smirked, while our brawl played out for all the world to see.
No recourse, no remorse..(poor me!!)… I was the butt of his demeaning jokes
and by then my temper had been stoked, he had poked me once too often!
So HUGE, was my disdain for this smug, big thug, that grinning face,
so....in retaliation, for my humilation, (as an enraged little sister might do..)
I grabbed one of his model airplanes….and threw....! But then.....
it broke into shards, big shrapnel pieces…I dashed for cover...
cowering behind the hedge…waiting for his own revenge!…
Instead it left a gash, an ugly wound, I was aghast...!
Above his nose.........a bloody rose
Well, of course our Mother got involved.. .
It was resolved by iodine and bandages
And a tongue lashing...
“You could have put out his eye!! ….and then we cried, …the two of us
Well we would repent, and spent the day becoming friends...
The afternoon out in the yard….
One sudden, unguarded moment ….
there was a car,.... came ‘round the bend
and as our game was 'bout to end....his dog, (his mongrel friend) was hit
all time suspended........
My brother’s sweet dog, who slept on his bed, was gone
The next hours painfully hung…and long is the memory that still weighs a ton….
Ending with me alone in my bed..
Mute with grief ….remembering his words….”Only girls cry”….
Hearing his sobs……all through the night..
And my parent's cooed comfort, the soundtrack to this tragic movie
That still plays in my darkest theater….all these years later
I shudder still, have a lump in my throat…how that faint little scar,
above his nose.... can still emote…
such feelings of tenderness I felt on that day.
Over the years…we have shared many tears…
we have leaned on each other, me and my brother
Big girls will cry, just as little girls do…and big boys can cry,
..And hey,...ya' know what? ..That’s okay, too.