What to do, when you don’t know what to do?
Here I am between Sunrise and Sunset. All alone in my quite zone, far away from home. Head hung low, wondering how and why it all happen.
Talking to myself, but not listening to myself. Looking at myself, but not seeing myself. Listening, but not hearing myself. Walking, but not moving. Self is in motion, but also out of motion.
Looking up, I asked for help. And they said not yet. Looking down and all around, I felt ashamed. Because there was no one to blame.
I couldn’t cry, it was my fault. So much pain, so much shame. Sorry yawl! Life is not a game. At last, I know what to do. Seek Who? Na!
I’m back in control. On the defining path at last. No more left turns, without first, making the right turn. Now I know what to do.
Yes! I was lost without a boss. Wondering in the desert without H20, and was afraid to let go. So! What To Do, When You Don’t Know What To Do? Do What You Did Not Do. The answer was in front, behind, and beside me.
My eyes did not see it was me. My heart wouldn’t let go, when I asked for more. Finally, after taking intoxicating breaths, analyzing and realizing. Was I able to do, what I had to do.