Special relationships are developed and strengthened over the years;
And those relationships reveal an obligation to fulfil when wisdom begins to knock during the tweens;
Oh what a shame, a shock, an ocean of tears brews like fresh coffee;
The aroma of unpleasant emotions desires to embrace the tide of positivity;
Hours of analyzing, wondering, weeping, twisting and turning;
The ray of hope from within crawls assuring that day would come where love, respect, and a big hug would return.
Every move, every thought, and every gesture seems deceiving from someone else’s perspective;
The battle to speak up or atleast share some distasteful sentiments to a near one were uneasy;
Every feeling seems cripple and a handicap;
Craving the desire of the kiss of sympathy, empathy, and aspiration became phony;
Determination, and the ambition to do it or make it right never faded;
Thus, the struggle to attain security from within first was the initial step.
A new day brought about a new learning that the power and natural sensation of maternal affiliation seemed insensitive, competitive, selfish, and unfair;
The joy and contentment of holding the baby in one’s arms was blurry and forgotten;
The result of feeling complete as a woman did not ring a bell nor the gratitude toward the Supreme power was acknowledged;
But, the cultivation of a new battle was instigated without notice;
The innocent tween was struggling with mind games with the assertive adult;
It was like a black magic being done when many things simply backfired.
Over the years, the achievements, praise, support, and love from people whom one would least expect from was given without any doubt;
Slowly trying to accept the fact that not everyone’s maternal relationship is normal or even a bed of roses;
However, the lucky ones receive a bundle of appraises, moral support, advice, a kiss on the cheek to show they matter;
The juggle between maternal and material relationship will be a long and awaited answer;
Till the last breath, the concerns over material possessions and security will be anyone’s concern because it is never easy to be happy with what you have knowing what you have may be distressful;
The weight of material and maternal affiliations still arises many questions, unwanted moments, and of course a salute to cherished occasions that anyone has undergone.