The world is so void to me,
even in the Light, I long for darkness,
happiness has seized to exist,
and peace no where to be found.
The burden is just too much for me,
bearing it is putting me into total wreck.
I am completely restless and weak,
depressed like never before and full of shame
I no longer know if my body, soul and spirit co-exist,
or maybe its just one acting in place of three,
because it seems to me, my spirit is dead,
and my soul, detached from my being.
I know I have acted foolishly,
I have derailed and gone astray.
I feel too inferior to mention your name,
and grossly unworthy to imagine your face.
I am full of stains and bath in guilt
and I wonder what came over me.
it was like a force I could not resist,
like a battle of two principalities in my mind
but all the same I did it and not proud.
Though, I know it hurts so much,
and disappointment is an understatement.
Your trust for me, I have betrayed
and your confidence, have I shattered.
My reputation has vanished
and dignity very insignificant.
I know I cannot ask for all these Qualities from you.
But one thing I ask is for your forgiveness.
We are humans and mistakes are inevitable,
I have crossed your path and stepped on your toes.
But yet, you can still find a way, somehow to forgive me.
To err is Human but to forgive is divine.
I have learnt from my mistakes,
I have straightened my path,
and I am very much ready to make it up to you.
I come on bent knees and weary eyes,
just for you to show mercy.
All i need from you, is to hear you say
"Welcome back, oh! thou beloveth friend"