My life is a journey forever to explore lots of things to do and so much more.
the heart-aches and pain are plenty, only to find love and friendship I could gain and close friends maintain,
but then a once closed door opens and there is joy and happiness that replaces
the missing spaces of the years that brought me Pain, misery, and many tears.
I don't wish to dwell on the saddest of times in my life, but I want to express the true heart-ache and emotional un-rest I had to face
It was like a slow and painful death, I felt alone and that there was no-one to call my own.
There were times when I would break-down and cry,wishing for an answer of the reason why,
through lack of sleep I wanted to just curl up in a heap, and Die.
It was the fear of what would happen next that made me not want to carry on
anymore I was broken,crushed right down to the core I didn't want to live one day more and felt I had to
go, and walk out of the door. It was too painful to bare the hurt inside that were destroying my soul and mind I had to go and leave it all behind.
From that day on.... I have been able to regain my heart and to live and move on. This is where I gained my closest of friends who I confide in and was able to un-burden my heavy load as the experiences did unfold.
I now feel a great sense of joy and relief of the whole situation instead of the once heart-ache and grief.
It has brought a new way of life to be able to be myself and have an inner peace from this I find solace and release.
Nearly Three years have passed and I am a stronger person now I feel I can enjoy my youthful years while the time allows I am living my life and make everyday count as I now have a meaning a new life that is not filled with fear and stife. I have a happy content life that I would not change it seems strange now to look back at the years that I call Black.