I remain too afraid of hurt again,
so allowing it so many times,
I can't possibly feel it any-more,
left cold, painless.... totally touchable!
I live through the past, building a wall
in which I find minimal pain, thought or fear.
To show that pain would be losing again.
' I can only be hurt again as long as I allow it
and I won't, I simply can't. '
The regret and fear has already hit me :-
Regret for the past....
Fear for the future....