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Used To

I used to always say,
I would never ever,
Be backslidden some day.

I used to always say,
That would never be me, 
No how, no way.

I used to always say, 
I refuse to give up, 
That I was here to stay.

I used to always say, 
That I have faith, 
That I could never go astray.

Some would always say,
Going to church sometimes,
That is still okay.

But it wasn’t okay for me,
I got weak in faith,
And I needed strength you see.

I’ll go this Sunday I said,
But it seemed to be much easier,
To just lay out instead.

I couldn’t believe that I slipped,
Just fell right through the cracks,
That my faith and strength was stripped.

It was no one else but my fault,
I just let it all go,
His strength I never sought.

I knew I needed to get back,
But I would fight myself,
And my world started to turn black.

It got to where I prayed less,
I stopped talking to God,
And refused to think my life was a mess.

I knew they could see it in my eyes,
They would ask me questions,
Most of them I tried to deny.

Depression started to seep in,
And I was given pills,
And I was living a life of sin.

I just got tired of the sorrow,
And not for sure where I’d go,
If I happen to die tomorrow.

The fight for God was deep down,  
But I needed a new church,
But one hard part was looking around.

It took a scary moment one day,
That turned out alright,
To bring me to my knees to pray.

I realized that I missed being on fire,
I missed depending on God,
And hearing the sweet songs of the choir.

I used to pray about everything,
Depending on His guidance always,
To his side I would always cling.

So I beat myself and went on Sunday,
I felt as if he was right beside me,
To the altar I had made my way.

I prayed for God to hold my hand,
To give me His strength,
After falling, I could finally stand.

The tears felt so good on my face,
I was turning my life back around,
Nothing had felt as good as his grace.

I know that I’ve learned my lesson
I never want to be where I was,
Cause having God in my life is such a blessin’.

I know coming back won’t be easy,
Now I have another battle,
Between good and evil in me.

But I have my Lord to guide the way,
To be a light unto my path,
To help through every day.

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  1. Date: 6/22/2011 5:24:00 AM

    A thought-provoking, and ultimately, uplifting poem.

  1. Date: 1/5/2011 6:16:00 AM

    I have tears, because this is my journey also, the sorrows in my life turned me away from God, but one day, I embraced him again, and my whole existence changed, this is really beautiful~~