Cancer took from me
Many, many years ago
My best and most cherished friend...
And over the years
It didn't stop just there
It has taken members of my family
It has taken lovers
It has taken many other friends.
It has been generational
It has been painful
Cancer has often signified the end.
It has signified the end of cherished kisses.
The end of conversations that last all night
The end of someone's companionship
Companionship that you will always crave
Throughout both days and nights.
Having one taking leave of their earthly pain and darkness
And moving on in to a heavenly light.
I still feel the weight of my friend's body
I have felt that weight throughout the years
I still feel myself telling myself to remember to breathe
I remember trying to stand strong through all my tears.
There is nothing, nothing sadder than that
Than holding up the casket of a wonderful friend
Its sadness will always be with me
Some things stay with us until our own ends.
And so on this Hallowed Eve
This first night of the Newest Year
I will be thinking of all those that I have lost
Those that I have loved throughout the years.
This night signifies a new beginning
It signifies some bitter ends
But I will always remember those
Those I have loved until their ends.
I will think about them often
How their presence has changed my life
I will chersih the fact that I had them
That I had them at all in this life.
And so I look toward this New Year
And all the new friends in my life
And I look forward to sharing myself with them
The continuation of the ongoing circle of life.
New friendships start out as being different
They are not the same as the beloved old
But they have the potential to grow into that
The silver can evolve into gold.
I love the people that I have in my life
I love having them grow closer and ever more dear
I love sharing fun and laughter with them every day
I look forward to this new upcoming year.
(December 31, 2010 Wausau, Wisconsin)
(c) Copyright 2010 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved,