Strumming the strings of a guitar.
Staring at the flame wondering where you are.
Stuck on you like fly paper.
I can't shake the thought of you.
Looking out the window staring at the stars.
I feel you in my veins, I feel you on my lips.
Patiently waiting by the phone.
Hoping one day you'll call, just to say hey!
Supposing anyone like you could ever love someone like me.
It's stupid I know, but I can't help but feel inadequate when I'm next to you.
Trying to shake this love sickness.
Enough of these thoughts unabated it's time to get situated.
Tuning the thought of you out of earshot.
Turning the t.v. & stereo on, trying to flood my head with static noise--
To quiet the memory of you.
Listening to Ke$ha Take It Off.
Watching Khourtney & Khloe Take Miami.
I still see you in the back of my mind.
There with your smile so warm & your voice so kind.
If only I could go back & rewind:
Press replay & play the fool.
I know I can feel so cold & over-brimmingly full of myself, but be patient.
Everything I do is an act.
Entertaining the masses with my mystique & ahead of its time sense of humor.
I'm not full of drama, just full of commas.
Do I wear you out?
Am I too out there for for your conservative values?
When the cameras roll I need to find my light, I need to hit my marks just right.
A professional at heart; I hit like an unexpected tidal wave tearing your little world apart.
Don't take everything I have to say to heart, I don't know what I'm saying half the time.
Just empty dribble running from my mouth.
I need a true friend, a steel love.
Nothing I ever do is enough for me.
I need to be something more, so much more.
I hear you knocking at my door, trying to ignore you like I did before.
I need you lying on top of me to stop these rhetoric spasms from shooting out my mouth.
How I'd love to just give in to you.
To surrender everything I am to you.
If you find this letter, I hope you see things clearer.
Just know I'm Lady Gaga in love with you.