i was in love head over heels knees bent waist deep in love.
palms sweaty mind racing emotion crazed blindsided nothing else matters
glued to he. my heart was bleeding the emotion never receiving he couldnt see
the connection. he was the description of my perfection perfectly flawed to be
my king. i was dedicated to the discovery of me inside of him.i was overly
submissive my usual submission upgraded to be. i didnt fight or challenge i
wanted to be easy like the flow of water. i wrote poetry b/c he inspired me. i
indulged in romance planned trips with gifts with wonders that made him smile.
i discovered floetry to be all he had ever dreamed in the interchangable. what
the heart didnt understand i fell in love at 15 he was my angel my gift we
disconnected so i latched to the boomerang effect came in u know that if it was
meant to be it will come back jive well it did again at 18 but i was feeling
myself to hard i couldnt be what he needed than at 24 i crushed him i wanted
that old thing back willing to fight because he was to be mine at 26 i tried to
sink my teeth in him b/c i knew he was the one.that he came again b/c this
was it i was ready. he made me nervous. caused me to blush . made my heart
flutter. reequired me to be the woman i was destined to be but we have now
transition to this.....nothing. i am consciously ridding him but my subconscious
resurfaces him just when i think i have let go, he has moved on but i continue
to live in the torture of love. i am openly addicted to romance to the
commitment and the institutuon of oneness. this spiritual love balance
madness.. my testimony to the mockery of misguided consciousness
the story contines in the book coming soon!