[This is more of a RANT than poetry, I apologize.]
Some people say they fear being alone.
I am one of these people.
However, I fear being in a crowded room,
and feeling alone, more so.
You'd think if you feared something,
you would do your best to avoid it at any cause,
but not for me.
I feel alone, every single day.
No matter who I'm with, or where I am.
I guess maybe this is how it's going to be,
for the rest of my life.
This is who I am,
and I'm not going to change myself,
just to fit in.
I've seen people all around me become
fakes and phonies.
I'm generally quiet.
I don't intend to change that for a loud world.
I have a brain.
I don't intend to run my mouth to prove it.
I have feelings.
But I don't intend to let anyone know.
Maybe someday you'll see,
what it's like to be,
hated for who you are.
You walked away with a part of me that day.
A part of my soul,
I don't think I"ll ever muster the courage to get it back.
You took the happiness from my smile,
and you're doing everything in your power,
to ensure that I never get it back.
It sucks waking up every morning
disappointed in yourself,
for letting someone who doesn't even care about you,
run your life;
for not having control &
for not letting go of something..
...that should be SO easy.