Been doing some contemplative thinking and maybe some are right,
Love is a dream that may just be beyond my reach no longer worth the fight.
God has a plan for each of us and maybe my ideals of love are not a viable option for me,
It could be His will to just exist in a life devoid of the love between a man and woman,
Pondering a life alone is not a very great existence to look forward to but I'd survive all on
my own, without anyone by my side,
Would just live each day and have my animals for company and my poetry, and God but
that's a given... loving feelings I would hide.
I would love myself as I have done for so many years, I have been my best friend for so
many long roads and trails of tears,
God would be by my side to help me assuage my demons and calm me and the onslaught of
demons and constant fears.
Quite honestly I would probably decide to just live out the remainder of my days in the
mountains somewhere, the wildlife my new family,
Being alone does not really frighten me as I have felt alone all of my life- felt as a burden- a
problem to be gotten rid of see.
My thoughts have been my true friend, my heart and soul the essence of who I am,
If alone I shall forever remain than so be it- to hell with love and any man.
So many people think that a woman can't survive without someone in their life to be with, to
feel protected, cherished and love,
Remember for me those concepts were just a dream- a fantasy- but not the definition of me
as a woman, God'll help me from above.