I thought that I could run away from You,
Separate myself from You,
Hide where You can't find me or read a single thought I think.
But I failed, because You always slip into my memory,
Every now and then.
As much as I try, I cannot forget You.
You are too persistent to be remembered,
In people I meet, in places I go.
It's hard to ignore that You are everywhere.
I realized even for a minute, nothing would take me
Away from You.
For You will always be lingering, waiting,
For me to come around and accept that You are mine,
That You are inside of me,
That I am a part of You and You, a part of me.
That we are bound forever.
Because You have left a great part of You in my heart,
And that is Your voice
That whispers ' I love You' and 'Come home',
In the darkest rainy nights of my existence.
Nourishing my weakening soul,
A warm blanket for my cold and unfeeling heart,
A comforting light that illuminates my gray world.
And I need all of it.
I can't pretend anymore that I could be on my own.
I have known how it was to smile with You,
When bright summer days shine upon my life
And You were there telling me,
'I love You' and 'I'm happy to be with you.'
And I miss You, being with You,
Everything about You.
Your generosity, kindness and warmth,
The joy that You bring, the hope that You give,
And most of all, I miss the love that You let me experience.
It makes a big difference when I don't acknowledge
How much You care for me,
And how much You wanted me to believe that You really love me.
And will always love me,
In spite of me? Yes.
If I only stop fighting how much I also feel for You.
Because once upon a summer time,
My soul was filled with so much joy and certainty
To say these out loud:
'I also love You very much',
'We will always be together, forever...'
I remember them now more clearly.
I belong to You.
And I am happiest when I am with You.
So now there will never be any hesitations,
I am coming back to You, dearest Father,
Never again will I allow myself
To doubt who You are to me, and I, to You.
I commit myself to loving You,
And honoring You, my Lord,
Now and forever, and for all eternity.