Disordered Poems - Poems about Disordered

am i going crazy? those words will consistently ring out in my head like a bomb that has just struck land sometimes it feels like you're walking on eggshells forever i am labelled as i am unbalanced unstable my head is so loud but so quiet at the same time like the silent whirring of tv static head-splitting chattering is buried deep within my...

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Galley slave to obsessive compulsive disordered behavior announces... Fore score minus xv orbitz ago from being centenarian strong contractions forced me to pass thru cervix, buck naked bare lady, I ranked as only grandson sharing same surname as Aaron, (mine paternal grandfather) me the sole heir – foreshortened to Sol Aire evinced scrawniness then (as shown via ultrasound), which at birth became crystal clear, unbeknownst to parents obsessive hidden compulsive...

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May all sacred, but not quite omnipotent, fathers learn this day as we impatiently correct our stress-disordered sons That respect is earned, so maybe disrespect is too positive and negative layered for and against authority for and sometimes restlessly against repeating Business As Usual white middle-class dadisms: You snooze you lose May apply to your lethargic chronically anxious thuggish couch-surfing cannabis-fed son And yet feels counter-intuitive for babies and us great grandads who need...

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Sometimes healing is messy It is a rollercoaster Ups and downs Sometimes I can handle it Other times I lose control I say I am in recovery for my bulimia But I still struggle I still consider pushing myself that extra hour in the gym I think skipping lunch that day won't hurt I sometimes spend too much time looking at teeth enamel...

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They say this sense of martyrdom is disordered. And so is the sense that this world is growing broader. There is nothing behind the revival I had promised- The revived connections that are a secret, there is order to it, honest! As my thoughts become harder to understand… My plans to be a savoir are in limbo, this light...

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“Kafka Disordered” Kafka disordered never complete in himself burning stories fuel for Nero dreams of you reading him wrapt under the covers of his last pages tattooing his voice on your tongue lips pass keys legs entwined love notes never run Metamorphosis the trial (LadyLabyrinth / 2020) "Mirror Forever" / Weyes Blood https://youtu.be/tQ1CH2_Arws "Andromeda" / Weyes Blood https://youtu.be/Aki1Xn36eJ8 “Every thing you love is very likely to be lost, but in the end,...

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Sometimes I follow my negative thoughts, and think Am I losing you? I know I'm unsafe I'll be a catastrophe I just can't leave you Lonely lonely me I can't stand to be apart dreading your goodbye I know I am wrong as I can't love you without harmful expression Somehow you love me through all of my disorder I love you for that...

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you hold my gaze fix upon my eyes and lips then back to my eyes 'Do you believe in chaos?' I ask 'No, Babe, I don't' 'That word is just a farce...

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My stomach twists, Empty. I'll run to forget the pain, Busy. Drinking water helps, Better. I go home and shower, Clean. My reflection catches my eye, Fat. I look away, Shame. I flip on the TV. Bored. Victoria's Secret ad comes on, Curious. Their bodies chiseled into perfection, Jealous Tv turned off, Wishing. Empty refrigerators will stay, Almost. Next workout to burn off more, Thin. My stomach wrenches, Empty....

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