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My life is in a shit house....

Blog Posted:5/23/2012 4:03:00 PM

I don't think I can explain everything that has been going on in my life, but I will hit the high points.
Just from my point of view my husband hasn't had a steady job in 3 years. I was laid off of my job just last year in may 2011. We are loosing ours cars, and our house.
On top of this my health has taken a huge down fall. I was diagnosed with blood clots in my legs (DVT's) a few months ago. Apparently these are hard to get rid off. I have been in the hopspital 2 times and to the ER 4 times. As of now I still have large clots in my legs. I am unable to drive, walk more than a yard before I'm wipeded out, and so depressed!!!

There is so much more to tell, but I't can be hard to releive it all.
My life has been one trial after another; just read my poetry to see.

To end on I positive note, as you will also see in my poetry is that I am blessed with love. I have a husband I adore, children I worship, and parents that always provide.

I really just needed to vent.
Thank you for reading....
Your Poetry Friend
Kirstie

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Vince
Suzadail Jr.

Date: 5/29/2012 9:39:00 PM

Kirstie, I'll keep praying for you. My son was on life support in 2010 and I swear the prayers received saved his life. Don't understand why so many horrible things happen to so many good people. Hang in there.

Jancarl
Campi

Date: 5/26/2012 3:08:00 PM

Kirstie, I hope that things turn around for you. The old adage "Its got to get worst, before it gets better. Is true, just hang in there, and keep trying and looking around. It will happen! Benn through it years ago. You and your famiky are in my prayers. Jancarl

Kirstie
Fontes

Date: 5/24/2012 3:19:00 PM

Oh, Andrea, thank you so much for your kind words. You are right that unless I get some government assistance I am in deep shit. If only I was strong enough to tell you all the other problems going on. I really really do apprecite any help, support or prayer sent my way. Thank you.

Andrea
Dietrich

Date: 5/24/2012 2:54:00 PM

Kirstie, I pray to God you are in a place that gives you medical coverage, because unless you can get onto Medicare here in the states, you can't even have medical help without insurance. I really hope you are on some health care program! I totally empathize with you. things are really CRAP right now for many people. And nothing good in sight! My hubbie and I are hanging on by a thread and I thank my lucky stars for that. I will include you in my prayers. YOu have too much to be worried about on top of the blood clot problem. Luv, Andrea

Kirstie
Fontes

Date: 5/24/2012 12:18:00 PM

@ Mandy - I have also had 3 Pulmonary emboli. I fell one time on coumadin and almost died from that too (subderal hematoma). Now I have clots completely from my hip region all the way down to my feet. I guess I'm just in self-pity mode. it's one of the hardest to break free from.

Carrie
Richards

Date: 5/24/2012 11:34:00 AM

Kristie, all my best wishes go to you at this so difficult time. Just when life can seem too hard, and too overwhelming, the best thing is just what you have done with this blog. Reaching out for a little moral support can make such a difference, so soak up the love of people who care, whether it be at home, or here on the internet. We care very much. Hang in there, dear friend. Hugs!

Kabuteng P.Ink
K.

Date: 5/24/2012 7:47:00 AM

Oh shucks, Kirstie, I'm sorry for what you are going through right now-- my mom has also been experiencing these horrible, horrible blood clots and it really seems so painful-- she's tried those compression stockings, but it also causes her allergies-- worst comes to worst, she might try surgery.... I hope that things turn better for you and your husband-- That really is great that you have a wonderful family, they truly are a blessing! And nice to see you back here :D

David
Williams

Date: 5/24/2012 2:33:00 AM

Kirstie, really sorry to hear about all of your problems, hope thys soon clear for you and relieve some of the depression.. hang on in there..David

Mandy
Tams The Golden Girl

Date: 5/24/2012 1:12:00 AM

Hi Kirstie stick with it. I had a PE thirteen years ago which has damaged one of my lungs, I have a coupel sinces then and 4 DVTs I am on a huge dose of Warfarin for life, don't let it get you down if posssible I know that is easy to say and hard to do but you can get through this and believe you me here on the soup we love a good moan and are good listeners. I am s sorry about you financial worries and i hoe these get sorted out soon xx

Cyndi
Macmillan

Date: 5/23/2012 9:35:00 PM

Kirstie, so sorry to hear of all your troubles and you are welcome and encouraged to vent whenever you can! Many of us have had hard times, suffered financial losses, health issues, feelings of helplessness and frustration. I am so glad to hear you have a 'wealth of love' and you will be in my prayers! Hugs, Cyndi

Kirstie
Fontes

Date: 5/23/2012 6:29:00 PM

I really appreciate you comments. @ Paula I am going for SSD however it is a long process and I am expecting to be denied the first time out. This year or so has been pretty tough, there are other family memories and friends going through similair if not quite devastaing cirrcumstantel. I would like to thank you again for, the comments and support.

Joann
Grisetti

Date: 5/23/2012 6:06:00 PM

Love and prayers to you and your family.

Rhonda
Johnson-Saunders

Date: 5/23/2012 5:19:00 PM

I am sorry to hear of your troubles. Poetry Soup is the perfect place to express your frustrations and "vent". Despite it all, you seem to have a hopeful attitude and are still counting your blessings. That's very inspiring. Keep writing your poetry. There's no greater therapy other than prayer, and you are in mine. Love and Blessings, Rhonda

Carol
Eastman

Date: 5/23/2012 4:59:00 PM

I'll keep you in my prayers. My husbands' diabetes affected his mind so he seldom held a job down for the first 20 years. My elilepsy , syncopy, tremors, and a heart that stopped 50% of the time almost destroyed us all. The problems it all created affected my son. We almost lost everything when my company(that paid all the bills) went down a couple of years ago. At the last minute I got on disability and saved the house. My hubby now takes insilin by needle and is actually working, but I now fall a lot. Prayers, to you and never give up, no matter what. I never did... and I understand the pain of it all. Take care and again my prayers.

My Past Blog Posts


How do I go on.......... Date Posted: 8/11/2013 8:23:00 AM
My life is in a shit house.... Date Posted: 5/23/2012 4:03:00 PM
Happy Veterans Day Date Posted: 11/11/2010 7:41:00 AM
Man's Search for Meaning Date Posted: 9/13/2010 1:41:00 PM
On the issue of taking kids to school on the first day... Date Posted: 8/30/2010 10:05:00 AM
WAITING.......... Date Posted: 6/22/2010 11:51:00 AM
Que Sera, Sera Date Posted: 8/11/2009 9:21:00 AM
I'm Back .... Kinda Date Posted: 12/3/2007 12:48:00 AM
Now I have Pneumonia!!!!!!! Date Posted: 10/19/2007 6:03:00 PM
Thanks to all my Poetrysoup Friends Date Posted: 10/1/2007 8:48:00 PM
Believe Date Posted: 9/18/2007 1:45:00 PM
Update on "First Time Home Buyer" Date Posted: 8/30/2007 11:03:00 AM
In the mind of a Dreamer! Date Posted: 7/30/2007 1:27:00 PM
Busy, Busy, Busy Date Posted: 7/27/2007 4:50:00 PM
Sweet voices calling out Date Posted: 7/20/2007 9:09:00 AM
Thank you for your comments Date Posted: 7/13/2007 3:11:00 PM
First Time Home Buyer. Date Posted: 7/10/2007 2:55:00 PM

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9/12/2013	A Mother's Grief	Free verse	death
5/24/2012	A Partial Telling of the Molested Child	I do not know?	childhood,confusion,fear,
5/23/2012	My Plea	Lyric	depression,life,song-me,t
9/23/2011	Loss	Alliteration	confusion,
7/14/2011	Love Unconditional	Rhyme	anniversary,devotion,husb
7/14/2010	Happy Anniversay	Free verse	anniversary,devotion,love
6/22/2010	Life On Hold.....	Rhyme	lifeday,
12/9/2009	Christmas Poem	Rhyme	holiday
11/10/2009	Tattered Heart	Rhyme	loss,love,heart,heart,lov
8/11/2009	The Gift	Rhyme	faith,hope,life,loveme,li
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8/10/2009	A New Day	Couplet	hope,peace,uplifting
4/8/2009	Libra	Acrostic
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3/25/2009	My Little Girl	Free verse	childhood,daughter,happin
3/24/2009	Love Me	Rhyme	devotion,husband,loveme,l
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1/8/2009	Slowing Down	Rhyme	childhood,education,famil
8/13/2008	Inspire Me	Rhyme	friendship,hope,husband,l
7/21/2008	Call Into the Night	Rhyme	angst,confusion,death,dep
6/15/2008	Because You Didn'T Have To Be	Rhyme	devotion,father,love,me,l
5/15/2008	Purpose	Sonnet	angst,depression,introspe
3/21/2008	Birthday Wishes	Rhyme	childhood,daughter,philos
2/20/2008	Plea For Sanity	Rhyme	angst,confusion,depressio
2/20/2008	13 Years	Rhyme	husband,love,wife,day,lov
12/12/2007	A Sisters Love	Rhyme	brother,devotion,family,h
12/3/2007	Turmoil	Lyric	confusion,depression,hope
10/16/2007	Loves Embrace	Lyric	love,passion,time,me,time
10/13/2007	Is This It	Rhyme	angst,caregiving,confusio
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7/9/2007	Family	Acrostic	family
7/9/2007	Father	Acrostic	father
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6/28/2007	Life's Path	Rhyme	faith,life,future,me,i lo
6/22/2007	Sweet Emily	Rhyme	daughter,faith,happiness,
6/20/2007	Hope	Rhyme	faith,hope,inspirational,
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Molested	Acrostic	childhood,recovery from..
Bipolar	Acrostic	recovery from...,sad,
Mental Shoes	Sonnet	life,recovery from...,sad
Precious Time .	I do not know?	life,time,
Failure	Free verse	political,social,prayer,
Last Sunday	Lyric	angst,introspection,life,
Dry Tears	Rhyme	husband,introspection,los
Thats a Sin	Couplet	confusion,faith,life,peop
Rejected	Lyric	childhood,
My Pen Collection	Couplet	devotion,faith,hope,life,
Infected	Rhyme	introspection,life,sad,
A Date With Destiny	Rhyme	life
The Perfect Moment	Lyric	friendship,hope,peace,rom

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