An Ultimatum
An ultimatum stood at my door
And greeted me so fondly
To the tune of my thumping heartbeat.
"Live as I seem or die as I am"
The words had reverberated in my skull and rattled my bones-
Sick with grief and mourning
Of a life never lived,
A lick of air never tasted on a tongue of a new man-
Not man-soon-to-be,
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Categories:
trans, depression, discrimination, introspection,
Form: Free verse
Trans boy wants you to know
Trans boy wants you to know that Im a safe place,
Trans boy wants you to know that I went through female puberty and that I get it,
Trans boy wants you to know that Im just like other boys, I just have a female body,
Trans boy want you to know that I go by He/Him, not
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Categories:
trans, 8th grade, anger, boy,
Form: Free verse
I am a girl
I am a girl,
Everyone sees it.
I graciously accept the label,
Twirling in a girls spool,
And playing it up for others.
Sometimes I feel an itch,
In a place I can't reach.
There are times when it quells,
When my voice cracks,
And I am somewhere else.
Where my hair is to my neck,
And my voice bellows.
But I am brought back to reality,
Because
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Categories:
trans, boy, gender, girl, teenage,
Form: Free verse
Trans Diagnostic Construct
A single thread, frayed by the wind,
Woven from sorrow, soaked in rain,
Trauma, a shadow that won’t rescind,
A silent ache, a voiceless pain.
In fractured glass, I see the sky,
Its jagged edge cuts through my eyes,
And though I reach, though I may try,
The light I feel slips far away.
Madness sings in cryptic tone,
A hymn of loss, a
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Categories:
trans, 12th grade,
Form: Rhyme
Trans-parallel-Ans'
Are u hu-man? Or?
P C imam bot legese?
Woe-ad priest Par'i?
Seine fish (aroma)
2000 years, new bottles old whine!
Crawling's not flying!!
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Categories:
trans, appreciation,
Form: Senryu
mirroring
some days,
i wish i liked my reflection.
i wish that i didn't hesitate when saying my name,
afraid of that a look will make me take it back.
i wish i my name didn't feel like an alias,
that i didn't feel like a alien.
i wish i didn't choose their convenience
over my identity,
my truth,
me.
because now,
i look in the mirror
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Categories:
trans, gender, suicide, teen,
Form: Free verse
Phantom Pain
at night, when the blue moon calls out to all wild things,
its azure a calming wave in the bottomless screaming night
I walk in time and with each furthering step,
sweeping strides
which pay more mind to any journey than its subsequent destination,
I wonder what translucent fish hook has ensnared me, finding myself dragged from bed each
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Categories:
trans, analogy, anxiety, gender, lonely,
Form: Free verse
Real me Part two
And I just want to be a woman
But I feel too trapped in these four walls
I can't break it
I can't make it
These traumas from family, school and life have scarred me
Have shaped me
Can't let it you see
Because of all the things I have been through
I know there
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Categories:
trans, abuse, angst, anxiety,
Form: I do not know?
Real me Part one
Four walls are enticing
Can't get out of my own head
Who is that figure in the mirror?
The face that haunts me
Nimble and limp - I feel misplaced
Envious and boiled and ready to put on simmer
Want to circle up in a ball and just tear my hair out
Can't get over
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Categories:
trans, abuse, angst, anxiety,
Form: I do not know?
Don't associate
Boys will be boys
Well, not this boy
Don't want to
Don't like to
Why do I have to
Don't associate
It doesn't align
Learnt differently
Lived through my parents' eyes and expectations
They became mine
Fighting myself
Hating myself
Internal conflict
It's a daily battle
Bullied already
Bullied at home
Nowhere is safe
Can't be
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Categories:
trans, abuse, angst, anxiety,
Form: I do not know?
A Transmasc Experience
Never so scared
Chains on my chest
Can't hear me
Help
Help
I am exposed
I will be hurt
So obvious
So vulnerable
Panicking
Shutting down
Can't shut down
Have to go onstage
Can't go onstage
Shutting down
Can't shut down
Have to go onstage
Can't go onstage
Shutting down
One hour twenty minutes left
Please help
Please help
I'm stuck
I need my binder
I left it at home
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Categories:
trans, anxiety, fear, gender,
Form: Free verse
Stimming Towards Euphoria
Stimming Towards Euphoria
She be riding on that trans train
Lost her wit and half her brain
Next time that I see her
She won't be the woman I know
All it took was a little gender education
The internet and affirming friends galore
To make her see what she was meant to be
Cause she was born in the wrong body
She
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Categories:
trans, change, gender, heart, lost
Form: Free verse
Lesbian Betrayal
You told me a lie
You said that you were gay
Found out you were lying
Now I’m feeling betrayed
Said you were a fem
And that you loved only women
Now you want to explore
That haughty trans woman
I’m hurting inside
Cause I loved the woman in you
Now you say it doesn’t matter
Cause it’s what they told you to do
Said you
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Categories:
trans, absence, anger, angst, anxiety,
Form: Verse
I Hate Being Trans
I hate being trans.
I hate repeating my name
i hate cutting my hair
I hate it when people tell me "they wish they had my chest"
and i hate it when people say to "look my best"
but my best isnt a suit and tie
my best is a dress.
i hate looking at people and thinking "i wonder if
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Categories:
trans, 10th grade, cry, how
Form: Free verse
True Trans To Paradigm
What do I project? Some of what I have
Absorbed. Also, that which I have
Reflected upon and have parts of rejected!
I am aware there is a so-called church of
The Devil – I am cognizant of the drivers for
Building
The British NHS were in the main committed
Christians. I am aware that Jimmy Saville
Was in his own words ‘operating
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Categories:
trans, appreciation, identity, life, truth,
Form: Narrative
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