The depression is strong
Sometimes I wonder why
I was even born
I’m nothing but a stressor
in most people life
I make one mistake after
another in life
I keep thinking I found
love just to have my
heart ripped out and
handed me on a silver platter
Why am I here
Why am I even alive
I’m nothing but a burden
to everyone in my life
I’d be better off dead
rather than alive
Yet I am still here
even when I don’t
want to be
I just keep asking myself
these days “Why am I here?”
I would like to know
These suicidal thoughts got me lost inside my head
It's hard for me to wake up and roll out of bed
I'm tired of feeling weak, sad and I'm tired of feeling dead every day gets harder i destroy everything I touch .....I’m afraid Of my thoughts
I'm tired of feeling judged because nobody understands
And it's hard for me to vent cause I hear the same
But you don't feel what I feel when the pain hits
I can fill my walls up, I can cave in
I see my downfall and I'm falling straight in
Nothing feels the same anymore, no,
I don't feel the love, all I feel is alone
What If I become so numb, so cold?
Wish that I can run far away from home
I've been holding on for far too long
Slowly letting go from the world in my palms
Sorry if this hurts, I don't mean no harm
Put me in the dirt cause my time has come
Slowly letting go
Of all I've ever known
But all you've ever seen
Is all I've ever shown
But deep inside I am trying
And deep inside I am crying
And deep inside I am dying
I'm tired of holding on .... God please save me someone help me please I can not do it anymore
How my mind races...how my heart breaks with every passing thought...each one weighing heavier on my heart! Every one causes me to roam closer to that cliff...closer to my escape...THEN I LOOK BEHIND ME and I see the hurt bewildered look upon my loved ones face...and I see a mirror image of myself...asking WHY? In that moment I begin to answer other's questions, only to realize THIS IS WHY!
I'm sitting here wondering.
What's wrong with me.
These cuts, blood, and scars.
Are all I really see.
I sit here alone.
With no one els around.
I have no one else.
I don't hear a sound.
I like to feel the pain.
'Cause I hate to be alone.
Finding someone else.
Pain is all that shows.
All I have are songs
And lyrics in my head.
Suicidal thoughts
When I'm sleeping in my bed.
I'm seeping in the dark.
Going further everyday.
But no one really cares.
If in a pool of blood I lay.
I know I'm all alone.
It's killing me inside.
Suicidal thoughts
Are all that's left inside.
©2009 ~FR34K0N4L345H33
Every day i smile
to hide every emotiion and all the pain
i suffer through everyday
I keep everything bottled up
I dont let anyone know what im thinking
Im tired of everyone saying
Everything will be fine
I just want to give up and die
I know that no one really cares
Because if you cared you would look right into my eyes and know that im not alright
You say im always happy
You say im a strong person
But what you dont know
Is that i go home and cry
And wish i would die
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