Descent And Ascent

I fall a raindrop from stratus to stratum birthed from clouds pregnant with thunder a lion’s roar —a pride in the sky— fierce! armed with lightning’s rip and slit the scythe of claw and tooth finds its prey knifing sunset’s skin desecrating cranberry rays it’s red demise fills my see-through-eyes Sun’s canvas shredded I fall through tattered pages of watercolor-layers accumulating dust and blood of the slayed day I arrive not a predator but a peace-maker my raiment fleece of lamb not mane of beast I come to rest a drop of rain who clings to a windowpane … translucence transforms me inside a room I see myself with my possession-pain a swaddle-bundle I rock to soothe pain held against my breast like a newborn crying to be fed nurtured with lemon-squeezed tears and sticky sick-sweet milk of revenge my fingertips trace my descent down the glass I pray not to let the dark moon be my doom I know myself like turmoil-seas know the shore let the salt-sea’s seethe meet still grains of sand abrasions cleanse one of crime and grime I know myself like the night knows the morn let the night be a knight and capture rapture with light-swords of dawn I know myself the games I played with leather fringe and lace his Marlboro face the Moët taste the magnet attraction pulled my limbs apart I am a tear liberated from the storm free to fall free to fall oh I had to fall so far to be free fall from heights where lust-wishes glisten slip the stardust handcuffs fall from nimbus find the limbus of self and soul find a way to rise above black seams and wanton scenes of my scream-dreams translucence transforms me I let go of the windowpane and die to myself casting off pleasure of pain and sin I fall to silent-sister soil inhaled to be exhaled on dizzy wind-whimsy-warmth of first light I fall a new drop of dew wet with sky light as I bear Love's cross like a white lotus bears its muddy birth