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Karolina Grimaldi Poem
Dear Mama, I know now its a bit different Beautiful cards and serenades, for you it was sufficient
I loved seeing your contagious smile
Never imagined your presence was just for a while
Now you're resting and I'm thankful for the early lessons learned
You're my idol, my inspiration and was always my main concern
And your absence aches my chest like a cigarette burn
But you've left me in great hands in return
Dear Papa, thank you & I know you don't hear that often
You were given this rare role without caution
And everything you've taught me can never be forgotten
The person I am is because of you
And you hide what you secretly go through
To give me and my little sister a better view
And that's something I've learned from both of you and look up to
Happy Mothers Day to my both parents
One taking care of me from above
And another guiding me with love.
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Its just so crazy how fast time seems to fly by more each day
Wasn't it just yesterday we were playing hopscotch, freezetag even in the pouring rain?
Waiting for the sun to set, our moms to yell out our names for us to come in
Still young enough for no room available to have happiness paused ln anyway
Times where fights were about claiming a crush & not about discovering infidelity & or betrayal
When there was no such thing as "goodbyes" but only "see you laters"
When moments were loved, felt & lived not captured, edited & posted
Came to discover that when people say "family comes first" its not always about blood related relatives
Because even those show you that they dont always love you but much rather hate you
And it stings so bad to find out cruel shit that was sugar coated making you give respect to those who didn't even deserve it
But time & wisdom do their magic dropping off masks on those who are the first ones to judge you
Within the years you start to feel deeper meanings in familiar feelings
You no longer want to just kiss someone but now be with someone
Or maybe no longer want to be with only someone but with everyone
Regardless, you'll do mistakes that will haunt you & test you, only it's up to you to choose to learn or to let it break you
They'll be times when you'll forget how to laugh & become an expert in shaping different identities
But you'll also discover different talents that you swore were not meant for you
Remember life always keeps going, never ending, never waiting for you
Love too much, laugh too much, cry too much, hurt too much & always, always live too much
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How dare I caress your face that does not belong to me
How dare I kiss your lips like if they were made just for me
How dare I hold your hand, the one that explores all of me
How dare I hold your heart that doesn't belong to me
I'm an intruder, the other one
I'm not proud of it and I know I'm in control
But I can't help knowing that I can still feel that little love that you give to her
I've put my guard down, my self worth to the side
Once again I gave you all of me knowing it's just for a while
You'll leave after, like you always do, as soon as your phone starts to ring and I know it's her
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My imperfect life is mine
My purest love is mine
My soulful touch is mine
My honest smile is mine
My deserved attention is mine
My unwanted mistakes are mine
My body of maze is mine
My beating heart is mine
Everything of me is completely mine
It belongs to me, I can't share what I'm not done loving yet
This women isn't afraid of the painful steps she will take, she always finds the way to where she needs to be
This little girl was born to be undeniably somebody, for surviving the rainstorms that made her appreciate the sun that shines so bright
She was afraid when She looked at herself in the mirror and saw all the missing love She wasn't giving herself
She cried and knew how to fix it but always said I can't fix it
Lying to myself is easy, making excuses is even easier, saying I couldn't do it made me feel like I was stupid
I'm not stupid
It's amazing how you can make a choice everyday, a change
How beautiful it is to say I can do this and believe in yourself when you thought it was over
To be persistent and faithful for what's to come your way
It changes
The bad times pass, then arrives the blessings
You look back and say, damn I did this
I take on every challenge like a hard pill to swallow
I got you
From women to women, believe in being innocently selfish
You deserve it
I'm excited for my life, it's been a lot of heartache
I was allowing it to take me to my lowest, Dear me, I'm sorry, it's truly been a roller coaster
I feel like the ocean now, my waves are getting stronger the more storms I live through, just wait on that tsunami
It's coming
Being a river was easier, following the flow was like already knowing the answers
But I became too much of a women, so I became the ocean, not afraid of the damage
Be the ocean
Innocently selfish
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I didn't know how to say sorry because I've had to always bite my tongue
Keep my eyes wide open but it feels like I still can't see at all
Staying positive and hopeful is what keeps me going you know
But then something small happens and it gets me questioning if I'm somehow cursed
Because the shit I go through is too much to be true
I do recognize my blessings but at times I question God
These roads get me lost and get a little to rough
At the end of the day though, he always has my back
He is after all, the creator of my life
I use to always tell my friends how bad other people have it
To wipe their tears away, count their blessings and keep on fighting
I'm sorry, although that seems like the right thing to do
You're still like a glass of water, at times you get filled up to the top and feel like you're drowning
Allow yourself to feel the pain, you're human, it's making you
Just know he's always at your side
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I'm a 17 year old who's living with a 25 year old mindset
Thinking to herself, she's got it all figured out, I say my future is set
When in reality, I'm still daddy's girl
With big dreams, I just wanna show the world what my life means
I have more reasons to give up rather then to keep going
Oh no! That's my fear talking,
I need to ignore it
Because I got to show everyone, I'm going for it
So many right & wrongs ones counting on me
Waiting To see me shine or to see me fall
I have to take in mind the one's who've believed in me
I promise I'll never forget about it at all
I got a wake up call, I wish I didn't
Made me realize I'm getting older, no kidding
I have to admit I'm mainly terrified of growing up
Got my childhood yanked, that's why I wish to be forever young
Instead of choosing which outfit to wear
I made decisions on what dinner to cook next
Hey we should go on a date? You decide, we can go anywhere
My Reply? Nah I can't, there's dishes, laundry & family tears I need to wipe away
Lost the person that meant the world & universe to me way too soon
Didn't even bother asking if i was ready to let go of my childhood at 12 too
Went from being the second youngest to the unasked eldest
How much easier it would be to just slit my wrists & go back home
No more fighting, no more crying, no more having to live anymore
But that wasn't what my mom died for nor why my pop chose to work through cold rain storms
I'm a 17 year old who's living with a 25 year old mindset
Came to realizing, I don't got it all figured out & my future isn't set
Just reality, I am in fact still daddy's little girl no matter what age
I got bigger dreams now, I'm just going to show the world what living life really actually means
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I'm laying in bed filled with so much love in my heart.
No, it isn't a guy, a job, a car, it's simply living life the way I should've had since a long time
I use to depend on others to show me and tell me how great I am. To define me
Those people don't even care about me
I was slowly sinking in this negativity some people so easily spread around
The jealousy, the hating, with no objective at all just, wanting to cause harm
Like why?
We can swim the same oceans, they were made for us
We can learn each other's different languages, we were born creators, let there be only love
We were made to pick each other up, not end the word us, and fight for us
There's enough room for us
It's very sad to go out and see many people looking at the ground, limiting our view
While we have this huge sky that's hungry for admiration and...the stars
Let's not forget the stars
I'm a star, you're a star, together we make the world shine bright, we give it light when times get dark
But
Only if all stand as one, us
With nothing but love
Next time you go out and see someone looking at the ground
Show them the sky and help them fall in love
Give them love
We all need love
All love
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No it wasn't my son who was shot and killed
No it wasn't my husband who was sent to jail
No it wasn't my brother, brother from blood
But that was somebody's world at some point.
No it wasn't my wife who was murderd with lies
No it wasn't my daughter who's death was covered
No it wasn't my sister, sister from blood
But that could've been somebody's mom
I can't go on and pretend that there ain't war in the streets
That there's something terribly wrong with the way some people think
There's so many words unspoken
So many lives just taken
Still so much injustice
And hearts still broken
My mama used to tell me that life was too short
That whenever something hurt me
To move on and just let go
But this time it isn't only about me
My heart is not the only one that hurts
People out there think they don't have a choice
They forget they have a voice
Mothers are losing their daughters
Husbands are losing their wives
Children are losing their parents
We can't continue to go round acting like everything is just fine
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I'm sorry for the times you were confused
For not having a clue of how to treat this heart of gold
The times you couldn't understand the language I spoke, its English but for you it was something unknown
Something you had never heard before
I'm sorry if you thought I only wanted your charm, your body, and your lips
You see that's something you were very familiar in giving, you had done it before and even during...us
You didn't have a clue I needed and wanted your thoughts, your soul, and your love
I believe you didn't know how to do that, how to open up to another soul
You've been used to close minded women with other open options, easy targets
You didn't have to take your time into unraveling them, nourishing them, into seeing them
I believe they didn't want to be seen
I loved you, I did.
I was willing to open up my options and put my thoughts to the side for you
Into closing my mind that was telling me don't, you're better than this, than him you don't need this
I loved you.
I didn't open up my options but I still did close my mind for you
I settled, for less, for whatever this was between me and you
I love myself. I do
Thank you
You helped me see myself, something you could've been able to but didn't want to
I'm sorry
I no longer would say,
It's okay, this is how good it'll get, he'll learn to speak this language of yours
He'll be able too see you more than you show
Realize he needed you
I'm sorry
I don't need you
Thank you
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Please believe me when I say I still can take on this pain
That's slowly eating me inside, killing me, making me numb
I'm not ready to end this road of mine Lord I'm begging you I can't let go
Please I know you can hear me don't take me away, it's too soon
I still got children, their hearts will break They need their mother by their side they're too young to go through something like that
I still have my husband, he doesn't know how to not depend on my love, he won't know how to not be alone
Please Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more
I'm sitting here taking on this chemo
Taking in all these pills with hope that one day it'll end and I'll be cured
Especially for my little girl, she's eight, she won't remember me if I were to leave
I've got seven children, we're very close they've seen me at my worst, they won't understand why it had to end like this
The gaining and losing weight, how bad my self esteem got the best of me
When my hair was no longer long, my eyebrows no longer visible and getting sick all the time, they're so strong
Please Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more
Can't you hear me? I still got my babies they won't remember me when I'm far gone
They won't remember my hugs when I pull them close and hold them tight
My kisses that showed all my love, to actually have someone to call mom
Give me a couple more years
Let me see them grow old, I can't do this, my babies, they're my world
Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more
As I'm laid to rest I think of my kids, my husband
How devastating this is for them, they prayed to not have to go through this
To know I won't physically bet there through the good and the bad, it kills me
But I promise to always guide you guys in your toughest times
I'll be there when you need me the most even when you swear I'm not there
Lord I know you did this mainly for them, thank you for ending my suffering and allowing me to protect them in many ways
I know they feel like I'm not there
But I'll always be by their side until the day we'll reunite, I promise that
-Mom
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