I Can Take One More

Please believe me when I say I still can take on this pain That's slowly eating me inside, killing me, making me numb I'm not ready to end this road of mine Lord I'm begging you I can't let go Please I know you can hear me don't take me away, it's too soon I still got children, their hearts will break They need their mother by their side they're too young to go through something like that I still have my husband, he doesn't know how to not depend on my love, he won't know how to not be alone Please Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more I'm sitting here taking on this chemo Taking in all these pills with hope that one day it'll end and I'll be cured Especially for my little girl, she's eight, she won't remember me if I were to leave I've got seven children, we're very close they've seen me at my worst, they won't understand why it had to end like this The gaining and losing weight, how bad my self esteem got the best of me When my hair was no longer long, my eyebrows no longer visible and getting sick all the time, they're so strong Please Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more Can't you hear me? I still got my babies they won't remember me when I'm far gone They won't remember my hugs when I pull them close and hold them tight My kisses that showed all my love, to actually have someone to call mom Give me a couple more years Let me see them grow old, I can't do this, my babies, they're my world Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more As I'm laid to rest I think of my kids, my husband How devastating this is for them, they prayed to not have to go through this To know I won't physically bet there through the good and the bad, it kills me But I promise to always guide you guys in your toughest times I'll be there when you need me the most even when you swear I'm not there Lord I know you did this mainly for them, thank you for ending my suffering and allowing me to protect them in many ways I know they feel like I'm not there But I'll always be by their side until the day we'll reunite, I promise that -Mom