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Jerimyah Horstman Poem
Looking into her eyes.
I feel so safe.
For once I am complete.
Life seems so much better with her
in it.
She is the air I breathe
in so many ways.
Pureness.
I love her.
I look into those beautiful eyes
and I believe in us.
Our future can be so real.
We give effort at succeeding
but never loving.
It just comes so damn natural to us.
We have something real.
Those eyes see me for me.
They dont judge.
They look with so much love in them.
I come undone.
I become dreamy.
In your eyes I get so lost.
Everytime our eyes meet
its like the first time
all over again.
All I need is to be
the man I am in your eyes.
You see the real me.
The softness of my heart.
You love it.
I am safe with you.
I am complete with you.
You are my all.
Copyright © Jerimyah Horstman | Year Posted 2007
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My life is sometimes an obstacle
waiting for me to overcome.
All I need is to believe in myself
and then it can be done.
Its hard sometimes because of the past
but Im beginning to learn to let go.
Its hard to heal what has been broke
but when it happens, I'll begin to grow.
I want whats best for me and my life.
I dont want to take the fall.
I want to love with whats left of my heart
but I must first break down that wall.
I built a wall inside of me
to keep my feelings safe again.
But heres the truth, since Ive had that wall
Ive let noone in but friends.
Its kept me from loving myself I believe.
I use to be so full of life.
But because of the hurt that I live with each day
my life just has not turned out right.
It is so up to me to break myself free
and let go of this pain.
I need to be loved. I need to be hugged.
Each and every day.
So one day at a time I will try to define
the man that I want to become.
I will focus my sight on doing whats right.
I will learn to love someone.
One day I will see what is meant for me.
Perpetual bliss of a kiss.
Certainly I will believe in myself.
And no longer will my heart miss.
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Jerimyah Horstman Poem
To hold you
and never look
back
with regret
is what I
desire.
Reveal yourself
your beauty
in every
aspect of the
meaning.
Inside and out.
I am here for you.
Always.
No turning back.
No more running away.
Instead
Im standing
and facing you
with my arms
fully
extended.
We are two
with
a love that
makes us
one with
time.
Perfect
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For so long now Ive missed you all.
You've left without goodbye.
All endings that were unprepared.
Why did you have to die?
My heart was ripped away from me.
My tears will always flow.
It seemed like when I started to heal
someone else would go.
My son. My mother. My sister. My friends.
It seemed to never end.
All alone I dealt with death.
How many funerals can one attend?
Death followed me with everything.
it took all that I had.
The right to be called an only son.
A brother. A friend. A dad.
It caused me to be scared of attachment.
If I'm distant, nobody can be close.
Ive lost the ones who had my heart,
the ones that meant the most.
My life is full of memories
that cause me to cry inside.
Every time I lost someone
a piece within me died.
And still I stand not knowing how
but I'm standing all alone.
I miss you more and more each day.
When will it be my turn to go home?
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At ease I begin.
Calm.
With an open mind.
Safe and secure
I am.
I am floating on
a moment.
A hope.
A desire that is
like fire beneath me.
Shaky and happy
at the same
time.
I put myself out there for
you to see
and for you to
know
what is really real.
Patience and understanding.
Thats what this is.
Mountains will be
climbed.
Obstacles overcome.
Illusions disappear.
You Appear.
My halo.
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Me and my babyboy, we ride like soldiers.
We got each others back.
Hes my life and sanity.
For me he will attack.
My babyboy is greyish blue
and he means everything.
Theres many nights we go to the park
and in the darkness, out loud I sang.
Without him, i wouldnt be here,
thats why hes my sanity.
I love my Malachi with all my heart
and he is my everthing.
Just me and my baby boy,
soldiers til the end.
Hes unique just like his dad
and hes also my best friend
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Here I have sat for what seemed
like an eternity.
A life long wait for
the unknown.
Slowly diminishing are the
fears which drug
me down.
So low that I could
go no further.
And now, it begins
to change.
It begins to unravel
in my heart.
This emotion is continuous.
Addictive.
Pleasant.
A newness of
sorts.
I will not run.
I will not hide.
I will face this like
the man who yearns
for what once use to be familiar
in my life.
Only this time,
Im prepared.
I will wait
and see
what this has in
store
for me.
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Somewhere along the way, I became torn.
Like the page from a book,
the most important one missing.
I became me, who I am today,
because of being torn.
Is it too hard for you to
understand?
This is me, a HOLLOW shell that once
use to be full of love
and joy
and happiness.
Where did it all go wrong?
I ask myself the same question.
It didnt go wrong.
This was meant to be
for me.
I am a human.
Made to feel what I feel.
Its okay. Im okay.
NOT really that okay
but okay.
Ive lived through it.
Survived.
Hurt.
Felt what it feels like to
burn inside.
My soul is forever searching
for that one thing
that can bring it back
to its rightful
owner.
Alone. I know this because of
choice. My choice.
My fears.
Anxiety.
Torn like that page that needs
to be found but
cant.
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Here I am, heart exposed once again to tell you,
that I miss you so much.
Its been forever it seems to be to me
that I have been out of touch.
Weve had our share of ups and downs
but thats all in the past.
And here I am exposed again.
Ive broke out of my cast.
Illusions in my head have held me down
for too long I must say.
I know that this is my final plea.
Make me feel okay.
My imagination wanders to years ago
when life was like a dream.
So many things have changed since then.
To you, what do I mean?
I know you live inside my heart.
I never let you leave.
The day that news ran into my ear.
There was no way for me to believe.
And then the day came when you met earth
and everything became real.
I watched you sleep eternally
and I didnt know how to feel.
I was numb and cold and so confused.
Why did you have to die?
Why did you give up on life?
Did you get your wings to fly?
I miss you still, it just dont stop.
It never goes away.
The sadness that you left behind
left me not okay.
You are more than just a memory.
You live inside my heart.
And every since you took your life
my life has fell apart.
I miss you still, after all these years
because you helped me learn to live.
How could you leave so selfishly?
What made you finally give?
I need to know to clear me up
cus now Im still a mess
and without you in my arms again,
it just makes me too stressed.
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In a room he sits alone thinking.
His mind is always racing.
His thoughts dont have an ending.
Within himself he is pacing.
He wants to reach out and feel
but its like he has no heart.
Hes left it alone from the suffering
which tore him all apart.
His mind is constantly thinking.
He needs to make that choice.
He fights within to break his curse.
He wants to use his voice.
Hes been alone for far too long
and yet he still remains.
He could move on with his life
but he will not break his chains.
Hed rather sit until hes healed
and then maybe he will rise.
When all is well like it should be,
he will be in someones eyes.
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