Why Did You Leave the Way You Did?

Here I am, heart exposed once again to tell you, that I miss you so much. Its been forever it seems to be to me that I have been out of touch. Weve had our share of ups and downs but thats all in the past. And here I am exposed again. Ive broke out of my cast. Illusions in my head have held me down for too long I must say. I know that this is my final plea. Make me feel okay. My imagination wanders to years ago when life was like a dream. So many things have changed since then. To you, what do I mean? I know you live inside my heart. I never let you leave. The day that news ran into my ear. There was no way for me to believe. And then the day came when you met earth and everything became real. I watched you sleep eternally and I didnt know how to feel. I was numb and cold and so confused. Why did you have to die? Why did you give up on life? Did you get your wings to fly? I miss you still, it just dont stop. It never goes away. The sadness that you left behind left me not okay. You are more than just a memory. You live inside my heart. And every since you took your life my life has fell apart. I miss you still, after all these years because you helped me learn to live. How could you leave so selfishly? What made you finally give? I need to know to clear me up cus now Im still a mess and without you in my arms again, it just makes me too stressed.