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Best Poems Written by Shyla Contreras

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Paint

I can paint you a picture
In colors gay and bright
But my favorites are the ones
I make late at night
The tortured works of art that see into my soul
The ones that help me feel in control
The ones that help me cope with all that's inside
The ones that can help me say
Goodbye

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Believe

I don't believe in anything anymore
Actually lets be honest
I don't believe in a big amount of things
I don't believe in love
I don't believe in people
I don't believe in safety
But mostly
I don't believe in myself
Not anymore anyways

Most people would find that sad
But I do not
How can I believe in myself?
I'm like a bird
Who should trust in their wings
To carry them up when the branch breaks

But I cannot
Because you see
If I were a bird my wings would be clipped
And tell me
Why would a bird trust in wings
That cannot make them rise?

I am a bird in a cage
And that cage is my depression
And in my cage is a perch which is my anxiety
Then on the far side their is a mirror
I can see myself
I can see a girl

Who is broken
Who is lost
Who is tired
And who is afraid
I look in that mirror
And I see not what you see
I see the scars and the newly marked lines
I see the demons
I see the mistakes
The horrors of my past
All of which make me
Me

I see a girl who can barely look you in the eyes
And I feel the tears that slide down my cheeks
Every night as I try to find peace in sleep
I see the girl that they have all made me into
The girl that they make me believe that I am
The girl that can't get away
The girl who can't save herself

Why do I go through this hell!
Why do I constantly revisit all of these memories
This life is not meant to be lived in such a way
It is not meant to end because someone cannot handle it
It was not meant to be filled with so much pain and fear
It was not meant to be such a tragedy
And it was not supposed to have to end so soon...

But maybe it doesn't have to end
Maybe my wings will grow back
Maybe I won't always be stuck in this cage
And maybe I am worth it
Maybe I can believe in myself
Maybe one day all will be different
But today is not that day
So I will wait
I will wait for the one day that may or may not come
When my wings can carry me
And when I will once again
Believe in me.

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Home

Home
Your safe place
Your comfort place
The place where you’re loved
The place you can cry
The place you can rest

Home is all of these things
For a normal person that is
But I
I am not a normal person

Home for me is
Pain
Sorrow
Depression
It’s hiding behind a door

Hiding in a room
With walls too thin
Hearing the voices
The ones that used to soothe me to sleep
Are now just angry noises
Constantly growing louder

For me home is a nightmare
It’s where my worst fears live
Where they walk the halls
Where they can torture me

They torture me in that room
I can’t even get away from them when I leave
They live in my phone
They live in the fear of looking at the screen
They live in the fear of getting in my car
And they live in the fear of never being free

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Demons

I am drowning in a sea of black tongued regret
They whisper and scream
They live my life and tear it apart
They caise pain and suffering
Damage and fear
They're my demons
And so I commend you
To never say
Hello

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Song Birds

Songbirds are singing
all day long
they sing a melody
their notes sweet and strong
songbirds sing
their gleeful little songs
but this songbird sings
the staying strong song

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Kitty

Naughty kitty, naughty kitty
Never look bad
Sad kitty, sad kitty
Scratch, scratch, scratch
Bad kitty, bad kitty
You'd never do that

Dead kitty, dead kitty
You never looked back
Dead kitty, dead kitty
You scratched, scratched, scratched
Dead kitty, dead kitty
You did that...

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A Cobras Words

The words said to me
Well they're not very kind
They keep me up late at night
And tear me up inside
They suffocate me
And slither through my mind
Then like a cobra closing in
They strike

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Albatross

The darkness
It surrounds me
It surrounds my heart
I feel it engulfing me
More and more
It grows larger and larger
With every breath
Every second

It is so hard to explain
My heart is heavy
Sad 
Weak
It is dying
This I know
For I feel it

Growing weaker with every beat
Every single solitary movement
My pulse gets slower with each passing day
Each passing hour
Each passing second

It is so hard to explain it
It is like death is taking over my body
Yet I am not dying
Not yet anyways
Eventually death will come
Not today though
Maybe not even tomorrow

But it will come
And my heart
My heart
Is preparing itself 
For when it does eventually
Have to stop pumping the blood
For when it eventually has to stop beating

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Her

Wanting to run away
Always wanting to
It’s an endless need
An endless craving
I shouldn’t be forced to stay where I am
Shouldn’t I be able to choose where to live my life?
Shouldn’t I be able to choose
Who to call mom
Who to call dad
Who to love
Who to call family
Who to look to for help
I don’t feel like I have any support
I feel alone
I feel like no one cares
I want to run
I want to run to her
I want to call her mom
I want her to hold me when I cry
I want to have morning conversations with her in the car
I want to have dinner with her
I want to go shopping with her
I want to do those simple everyday things with her
I want to make her laugh
Make her smile
Make her my family
I trust her
She’s the only one i’ll ever trust
I love her so much
Just like she’s family
She listens
She cares
She talks to me so calmly
She helps me stay sane
I go to her when I’m breaking
She makes me feel whole again
She makes me feel loved
Wanted
Needed
Important
She makes me feel like I make a difference
I need her in my life
I want her to sign those papers
I want her to be my mom
I can’t live without her
I wish she knew how much she means to me
But she doesn’t or maybe she does
It makes my chest feel empty when i’m not with her
It makes me feel alone
What am I supposed to do?
Do I tell her
Do I forget
Do I give up
Do I disappear
Oh how I wish I knew
I wish I knew how to make this happen
How to make this work
How to call her mom...