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Natasha Peters Poem
dedicated to my deceased only brother, joshua
i'll stay with you,
as long as the wind blows
i'll always be in your heart
you know i didn't leave you all alone
i am of eternal essence
my spirit is within you
live my life for me
do all that i cant do
be the one that i once was
conceal the chances known as a flaws
and if contentment immerses herself
or sorrrow fills the air
you will hear my moral
and you'll know that i am there
there for you when you cant see
theres more to life than missing me
i wish you well, my sister, dear
for keep your chin up and wipe that tear
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Natasha Peters Poem
dedicated to my deceased only brother, joshua
i wish you could see beyond my tears
see past the fog that never clears
when i was with you i was okay
but once you left my sanity faded away
i cant take back what's already been said
it’s the question of forgiveness that I dread
my sanity faded when you didn’t show
you were gone for good and now i know
the grief and pain that lurks within
and reveals itself when my days begin
you were my hero, my role model, my friend
until that day that it all had to end
your death left me in a haze
emotional numbness had enveloped me in itself
i felt like a blind man lost in a maze
I cant take back what's already been done
i now realize that its just begun
as i write my throat swells
tears stream down my face
my heart is broken from the inside out
and i never miss a moment feeling out of place
it seems that sleep is my only retreat
all my days only foretell defeat
weeks after your departure i hallucinated to ere a voice
it told me to endure the thing that hurt me the most
I replied to the anonymous delusion -
why?
love is eternal that for my brother,
FOREVER i will grieve
i love u josh
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amidst musty furniture and splintering rafters
there it hung
draped across the manikin so gracefully
elegant and beautiful
white and lacy
with its gleaming pearls and lingering train
its a gown for a seraph
glowing luminously in the dim light of the loft
so glamorous
almost perfect
stunning like my mother
bold as my father
embodying love and devotion
memories and passion
inhibits a model's splendor
grants me a sense of ecstasy
my mother's wedding dress
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the beat of the percussion leads me to an isolated world
my fingers embrace the sticks
my elbows bounce with each pulse
my head nods with the rhythm
eyes closed, temples pounding,blood rushing
the base provides an echo of deafening rumble
as we launch into harmonious charm
the steady knock of each stroke conceives a cadence diverse
base guitar frets, keys scale,
the grand finale is initiated
with my solo cymbal clash
back to reality
take it from the top
time to depart again
on another journey with the band
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you can say i love you,
a million times and one.
but theres nothing you can say to me,
that will change the things you've done.
it pains me to reject you,
it really truly does.
but i'm just trying to protect myself,
from what already was.
babe you know i care for you,
so much that it hurts to say -
loving you is way too stressful.
such a costly price to pay,
for every doleful tear i shed,
so arduous to admit.
for every callous word you said,
but id have to say its been worth it.
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distortion
its the only thing you see
even though i try so hard
to hide that secret part of me
to keep up my masquerade
to be the someone you wish me to be
is it worth it?
can you even hear me?
try so hard to get your attention
and every once in a while mention
how much i love you and need your affection
your emotional support and your guiding direction
i wont give up, i wont stop trying
although your subconscious rejection keeps me crying
the need i feel is truly defying
my aching thirst undying -
love from you is my overwhelming zeal
is this my life?
is this even real?
if i wake up
will this all be a dream?
will my story be another?
will this puzzle of a life
finally be put together?
unanswered questions
and incomplete thoughts
my life's been a game
it seems so far i've lost.
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you were there when i wasnt
you saw what i couldnt
you heard what i wanted to know
you felt my pain
I envied a part of you
I understood
as I studied those tears
you felt my agony
I longed for the sympathy you gave
gave your all not expecting anything in return
inside me held the emotions that lived as if there were no tomorrow
lived each of my days to the extent
and in the end
tucked away the little memories
i managed to hold on to.
the reminiscent stories
i still had.
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lost in a world of my own
destination unknown
you just dont understand
this planes never gonna land
levitating above
the world as i see it
the person i am
i dont wanna be it
im just misunderstood
dont act as i should
it hurts everyday
affects what i say
what i do
everything i ever knew
changed
my minds rearranged
twisted, contorted
completely resorted
nothings like i planned
in the beginning and
its worse than before
the point i called home
the only place ive ever known
that kept me safe
where i felt in place
where my life
settled in
where my days
pursued to begin
a new page
of a book
left blank by the gods
in charge of my destiny
those who gamble the odds
thats it
my life's just a game
a casino and i
we're just the same
a string marionette
played by those superior
a toy puppet like me
found only inferior.........
some other poem i m working on - its really short.
the water so turbulent
rushing to incite
a riot so rough
calms to a whisper
-------------------enough
quells in the still of night
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oblivious before
but now i know
the painful lie
that stirred below
behind the masks
you hid so well
the ghastly face
on which the curtain fell
the ache and pain
that welled within
the truth revealed
the tears begin.
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this love
unrequited
my spirit
unguided
you know
just how i feel
from the knot in my stomach
to the broken heart that wont heal
so now
lets make a deal
weve come to the fork in our road
we'll go our separate ways
each to his own
and thats the way it stays
weve played this game
for far too long
and its only fair to say
that both of us were wrong
in each and every way
goodbye my love
we'll be together again someday
and until that time
that our eyes meet
its right here that ill lay.
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