Love Is Eternal...

dedicated to my deceased only brother, joshua i wish you could see beyond my tears see past the fog that never clears when i was with you i was okay but once you left my sanity faded away i cant take back what's already been said it’s the question of forgiveness that I dread my sanity faded when you didn’t show you were gone for good and now i know the grief and pain that lurks within and reveals itself when my days begin you were my hero, my role model, my friend until that day that it all had to end your death left me in a haze emotional numbness had enveloped me in itself i felt like a blind man lost in a maze I cant take back what's already been done i now realize that its just begun as i write my throat swells tears stream down my face my heart is broken from the inside out and i never miss a moment feeling out of place it seems that sleep is my only retreat all my days only foretell defeat weeks after your departure i hallucinated to ere a voice it told me to endure the thing that hurt me the most I replied to the anonymous delusion - why? love is eternal that for my brother, FOREVER i will grieve i love u josh