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Daquan Bowrin Poem
Can no one see this
smile I'm faking,
See, how, inside,
I'm constantly
shaking?
These people all
claim they know me
well,
Yet no one can see
through my crumbling
shell?
"I'm fine", I
whisper, my sadness
unknown,
They leave me to
deal with this
anguish alone,
I've hidden behind
this wall most of my
life,
I've managed so far,
I've dealt with my
strife,
Watching as, slowly,
my blood leaks away,
It helps to keep
life's true horrors
at bay,
I pull down my
sleeve to cover my
hurt,
For approaching
footsteps, I'm on
the alert,
I guess my pretense
is just all too
real,
No one has to know
of the pain that I
feel,
The real me inside,
where no one can
see,
I can fool everyone
else, but why can't
I fool me?
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Poetry;
Silence;
Who wants violence?
Dark dreams;
Evil screams,
Hold on strong,
The fight is nearly
gone,
Fighting to breathe,
Fighting to see,
It's hard to believe
this is me,
I never saw myself
falling to the
blade,
But in the end this
is how I'm paid,
Suffering from
tears,
Torn from fears,
All I know is that,
I'm not sure why I'm
here,
Told to live,
But living a lie,
Stuck in a place
where everyone wants
me to die,
Hurt and confused,
Broken and bruised,
Not sure what to do,
But i Will fight
till I can't move,
This is what I must
do,
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Daquan Bowrin Poem
You give into peer pressure and hesitantly cut class,
So you can smoke cancer sticks and,
Get high in the school bathroom with,
Five other boys that are your so called friends,
A security guard smells the cigarette smoke and,
Chases you out of the bathroom and down the hall,
Everyone gathers at the classroom windows to watch,
As eight more guards join in on the chase,
You run up and down the halls all the way to the eighth floor,
Quickly you hide in a supply closet as the guards turn the corner and run past,
Once the coast is clear you sneak back downstairs to the first floor,
Unwittingly you stop to talk to a girl,
In doing so the guards spot you on the cameras and give chase once again,
Unsuspecting you are rushed at by a guard and tackled,
Soon after all of the other guards pile on top,
All the while the girl you were talking to watches in amazement as you're,
Hauled off in flex cuffs to the principals office,
You sit in silence as the principal yells at you and,
Gives you three weeks of detention,
All the while you never knew that a fellow student recorded the whole ordeal,
And posted it on youtube under the name,
"kid gives school security guards a run for their money"
Which has already been viewed over three million times in the last five minutes,
You don't know it yet but you just went from being a nobody,
To a five star bad boy,
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Daquan Bowrin Poem
Hey guys this isn't a poem it's more like me telling you all about myself and my life.
As you all may know from the content of my poems that I suffer from mild to severe depression. I've been depressed for a little bit over a year but it's only now that it's really starting to set it's roots and kick in full effect. It used to just creep up on me one day I'd be happy, smiling and laughing then the next day I wouldn't want to get out of bed I'd suddenly become sad for no apparent reason at all. It would so bad to the point that I'd get excruciatingly painful migraine headaches daily during which any kind of light made my eyes hurt. If I tried to get up and walk I'd get dizzy and lose my balance there were times where I couldn't see, I couldn't eat. I was also very self conscious about my body image and weight and still am. I used to weigh 105 pounds and my doctor would tell me that I have a high metabolism and I'd hate myself for that no matter what I tried to do I couldn't gain weight. That alone would be enough to send me into a downward spiral of depression I'd try out for the football team at my school and I'd get rejected because I didn't meet the weight requirements and that would make me even more sad. Ok moving on I now weigh 120 pounds I'm still not happy with it but I accept it for now. Nowadays I get so depressed over anything literally will trigger me. I'd worry about things and then I'd obsess over it. Recently there have been times I'd obsess over things to the point that I'd get suicidal. Just recently last night me and my girlfriend had a fight and almost broke up I got so depressed about it that I couldn't stop thinking about what I'd do without her and I got extremely suicidal I did something that I hadn't done for almost a month. I self harmed. Speaking of self harm when I first started doing it I'd cut my wrists almost every night it got so bad that at the end of that first month my wrists and forearms were covered in scars. Through the times when I was extremely suicidal I did everything I could to kill myself I hung myself from the ceiling fan, I've tried to drown myself, I've slit my wrists, I've overdosed, once I've even attempted suicide at school in the restroom. Over the past months I've tried to be strong, I've tried to set a good example for my little brother and sisters, I've tried so hard but on the inside I'm just really sensitive and weak. I've just recently started thinking about reaching out for professional help.
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Daquan Bowrin Poem
I hate my life,
Because of all this
strife,
I just wanna take a
knife,
And end this life,
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Daquan Bowrin Poem
When I first met you,
I didn't know what to say,
But when I got to know you,
Everything went okay,
At first we were confused,
But later we found out,
That we both were used and abused,
When we really needed out,
I told you how I felt,
And you did the same,
But look at us now,
With our hearts in tame,
I wish I had told you,
But I kept it a secret,
That I really do love you,
And you won't be a regret,
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Daquan Bowrin Poem
The drug in me is you,
Our love is new,
Your love is like,
A medicine for me,
When I'm sad it makes me happy,
It's impossible to be depressed,
When I'm around you,
Your love is my addiction,
Addictions are bad,
But my addiction to you,
Is my everything,
You keep me alive,
Most people need,
Artificial drugs to get high,
All I need is your love to get to cloud nine,
The fact that I get to call you mine,
Keeps me alive,
If I lose your love,
I'll go into withdrawal,
And slowly die,
So never stop loving me,
Because,
The drug in me is you,
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Daquan Bowrin Poem
I stray onto sacred ground,
The resting place of souls by gone,
Solace is what I seek,
But there is no solace,
No succor to be found,
Not here among broken, fallen stones,
Nor bent, wilting trees,
I search for you under the moon,
Thoughts of you race through my mind,
Feelings better left unspoken,
This was our place,
The fertile earth from which the black rose of our love took seed,
We exchanged blood amidst these graves,
Transfused our darkest thoughts and dreams,
It is here too that our love died,
A fitting place for something that is no more,
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Death, my friend, you are always there,
From you, no one flee, you are everywhere,
Still, I wonder, why you are never here...
Death, my friend, you release others from pain,
All those people, they get free, so many slain,
Yet, I ask, why am I still here in vain...
Death, my friend, you're everywhere see,
From you, just redemption, can I plea,
Here I ask, come here, set me free...
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Daquan Bowrin Poem
Theme: chance meeting
8/4/14
I never really knew you,
You were just another friend,
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend,
I couldn't help past memories,
That would only make me cry,
I had to forget my first love,
And give love another try,
So I've fallen in love with you,
And I'll never let you go,
I love you more than anyone,
I just had to let you know,
My feelings for you will never change,
Just know my feelings are true,
Just remember this one thing,
I will always love you,
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