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Farewell, Year of Turmoil

How innocent can we begin?
How icy cold can we get?
Thousands of miles away
Yet my story remained static

As I lit a fire up in the night
I set fire to my foes
A true monster hunter
With a heavy load to bear

And as we fell deeper into despair
And grew stronger as a team
I reached out for a sign
That never came to be

I left my teenage years behind me
And emerged lonelier than I'd ever been
The world began to slow
And the end loomed near

The guillotine fell 
And severed all we believed in
I gripped onto the idea of hope
Though the rope sliced into my hand

The world slowed down
As I watched my past repeat
You flew across the country
As disease claimed my friend

The summer sun shone eternal
As we embraced the time we had
Cool waves against warm air
As we burnt ourselves against each other

I took my first steps in a strange land
The nights were lonelier than ever before
The days passed completely alone
And I found solace in an old habit

Summer's last onslaught of heat
Drenched my clothes as I carved my path
A sea of wyverns cast its waves upon my shore
And I let my socks get soaked

I severed my past for a new future
I'd truly thought it was correct
I lost out to lust one last time
Before I let the reaper make his call

As regret washed over my sands
I chose to fight the best I could
But the world of autumn colors before me
Fell victim to complete gray in time

I'm spiraling through turbulent winds
And stealing each moment I can in the candlelight
I'm clamoring to rebuild what I destroyed
In the hopes that an answer will become clear

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Despair Trigger

I'm thinking I have a disease
Despair has gripped me by my feet
Dragged me down to the cold floor
And used me until I couldn't take it anymore

I found a cure to eternal life
Slower and longer than a rusty knife
But it hits me just the same
Cauterized with a smoky flame

My throat is burning
Fingers turning
Over a lighter and a smoke
And my brow is soaked

How long til something finally breaks?
How long until it's more than I can take?
I'm too exhausted to even talk
I'm being worn down like the smoothest rock

I try to strike the match again
Burned my fingers and my smoky brain
A sudden fear comes back to me
Won't you come help me lose my memory?

It's getting easier
To fail to please her,
My addiction to despair
Is stronger than for air

I'm a victim of my own design
I am my own executioner
I'm a victim of my own design
I am my own worst enemy

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Question

It’s easiest to hide behind
The written word
Typed data
Ashes strewn across the pages

Through the rhythm of the keyboard
The scratch of pencil on the sheet
Thoughts come out from deep within
Don’t leave quite yet, just listen

I’d sooner state it face-to-face
But the sight of you eliminates
All the courage saved within
Standard teenage fears, you know.

I realize it may sound odd
And sudden
But hey…
What fun is linearity anyway?

To summarize, to condense
I think back to whence
These thoughts emerged
And the question I pose…

Is the same one I asked all those months ago.

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I Don'T Owe You Anything

So many days
All passed in a blur
With all my thoughts
Focused all on her

It was no way to live
Trapped within the past
But now today
I can say at last

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you put me through things too

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But it's time to run

Those days were nice
Back when you still cared
I really did
But I was really scared

It's been a year
Since you killed our hope
I suffered all these days
Tangled in your rope

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you were just as bad

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But now it's time to run and

I spent a whole year trying
To sort out what you left
And now I've finally got it
You didn't leave me so bereft

You helped me find
The man beneath the boy
You helped me grow
And learn how to destroy

Apologies
Don't mean a thing anymore
You've already made your choice

So I don't owe you anything
I'm glad it's finally done
A year of atonement ends today
The time has finally run

Out, the sands of time caress
My face as clouds give way to rain
We're even now and now I can walk
Without my heart in pain

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Cure

It all seems so simple
To load up the vaccine
Bang
Cure this world of my existence

Every problem has a solution
Now matter how bad you screw it up
It can all be fixed
In one concentrated flash

Everything's gray
Everything's spiraling gray in this world
Every shade between void white and pitch black
So, so dim

Take it all, I don't want it
Show me the way
Boom
White as snow, my consciousness fades

Down, down this spiral
The bottom is rushing to meet me
So that I may kiss it
At breakneck speed

Everything's gray
Turning darker as time goes on
Nothing mattered then
And nothing matters now

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Solid Stone

You aren't worth killing myself over
No matter how much has fallen upon me
No matter how much the days ahead will bring me down
No matter how much my own body tries to waste itself

I'm not gonna let you decide my fate

I'm not gonna let the absolute abuse kill me
The gaslighting you put me through
The insults followed by praise
The opportunities I wasted by being at your beck and call

You aren't worth my life

Whatever's left of it anyway
As cysts reappear after a year of bloody warning
As the depression continues to set in harder than ever
As I refuse to be medicated because of the games you played

You're the worst kind of parasite

Bleeding everyone you know dry
Flashing a smile and getting your way
You never intended to grow
Just as long as you could keep drinking everyone's life

Now before me is solid stone

For everything I gave
Has turned to rock beneath my grasp
Stone chairs, stone pencils, stone beds
And for now, I'm too weak to raise a chisel

And even now I crave your touch

Take me in your arms and let this be a dream
Pull the strings and make me dance again
Flash that smile, laugh that laugh
And throw everyone away when you're done

And I'm gonna let you drag me down

Like I always know I do
Clutching, ripping at my heart
Screaming for another start
Begging for release from all my pain

You wouldn't care either way

You said it yourself that day
And in becoming just a bag of meat
All I accomplish is destroying all I love
For the sake of the parasite who tried to do the same

It doesn't matter either way

To be polite, I wished the best
And you walked off either way
Now who's the bigger man
As my tears type these words

So I'll bleed just fine alone

Sure, there's no one else around
But I'd rather be alone than deal with your abuse
From solid stone we were born
And from solid stone we've been dashed apart

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Entering the Real World

I'm well aware that you all are my partners
I'm well aware that you all are my friends
But the times are changing and fate is so cruel
We'll never share another word once we're done with school

At best we've got three months before fate splits us all
Humanity cannot hope to resist time's call
The shock will be great and I'll dearly miss you all
The sun's setting soon and our shadows are tall

And I don't ever wanna feel like it was all for naught
Twelve of my grandest years, these battles that we fought
And I don't ever wanna feel like it was all for naught
Even though the end is near, is this what I sought?

It's hard to believe that it's almost time to
Leave the ways I've only known my whole life
But the halls have grown thin, is this what it's come down to?
To leave this place behind and move on with my life

But I don't ever wanna feel like something's been left behind
Everyone I know and love, imprinted in my mind
And I don't ever wanna feel like I never said good-bye
When everyone I know and love go by like fireflies

Entering the real world now
Leaving the womb I know

Entering the real world now
It's time to start the show

Entering the real world now
No time to question why

Entering the real world now
It's time to say good-bye

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Some Things Never Change

Shirtless and nervous, I sit at the edge
Of my bed, all alone, my courage I dredge 
From deep within in my heart so long gone
The matters of heart can't by solved by pure brawn

I hear her getting ready and my heart won't slow down
Just like the first time, its pace is abound
And it slams to a halt as she opens the door
As she walks to me, I feel it drop to the floor

I take her in my arms and hold her close to me
Inhaling her scent as she presses close to me
We both fall back hard, her lips pounce upon mine
As I taste her sweet breath, I lose track of time

The minutes slip by as we return to roots
Scents more intoxicating than the sweetest of fruits
At the end of it all, we fall back with a grin
Some things never change, that's how it's always been

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Breaking Away

Heard whispers float around
Sacrifice your peers to live
All driven to the ground
Why would I stay?

Even if they are friends
It matters not at all
Means justified by the ends
The scars all multiply

Left an outcast
Among the freaks
Safe within
My mask of indifference

Alone I stand against
The constant warfare
I smile freely 
As they fight all the while

I'm breaking away from the life they serve me
Leaving to die those who don't deserve their
Lives

I'm breaking away from the fighting and lying
Political waste replicates in their dying
Eyes

I'm breaking away from what is defined as
Normal, I find it's all a great waste of 
Time

I'm breaking away from the curse of society
Outcast among outcasts, no one to me matters but
I

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Confessional Tale From the Mouth of a Sinner

I'm the son of all that's been
Drinking deep of my sin
Of premarital and of lies I've told
And responsibilities I hold

Scattered them all in the breeze
It barely even bothered me
I thought I was king, I knew everything
Thought the world was just a jewel on my ring

But now I see that I was wrong
And I'll confess my sins in song
But like a God that failed you all
You don't believe in me

I went through most my life 
Coasting by on luck
And when my lucky stars blinked out
Man, I'd just get stuck
But every day, I'd pray

To a God 
That I'm not even sure is a thing
But a spiritual energy
Inside every living thing
Praying to myself and you

City of the lost
Crying out for something to live for
Slaving away in this small town

City of the lost
In endless boredom we found sin's the cure
That's what history has shown

So me and her found a place to sit
No one else knew about it
An hour passed and the air was hot
The sounds were sweet and it was just what we sought

We didn't think about what we'd done
We were just looking to have fun
Now I'm laying alone in bed
Worried sick and I'm clutching my head

Can't afford a mistake
It's more than we could take
Hoping for blood
To end our flood
Of sin and tears

Dearly beloved, can you hear me from afar?
All the way in the other town, where distance keeps us barred
I'm sorry I've lied to you but it's something that I'll fix
Even if you never knew, it still makes me sick

I'm kicking my addiction so I can make you smile
Figured I'll toss my sins with it to make it worth my while
Might as well improve myself so if your blood graces our day
We can try again way on down the road some day

Til then, these are my crimes
From now, til the start of my time
I've lied, stole and coveted
The peace of the dead

And it took until today
When the sky was clear and blue
I left the shelter of my home

And maybe I'll find my way
And leave this town with you
But first, I must...
Atone

It's leaving
I'm leaving
We're leaving
Looks like we're leaving it behind