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I’ve distanced myself
I didn’t mean to
Didn’t set out to do it
An unconscious act of the mind
For self preservation
My visits went to once a week
Sunday dinners that once lasted for hours
Became shorter and shorter
Until now its get in
Get it cooked
Clean it up
Visit
And we’re out
Occasionally circumstances would
Happen and one would be missed
Oh well I’ll go during the week
Sometimes I did
Sometimes I didn’t
Today my heart cried to be near you
I entered the home and immediately
Settled my mood into the atmosphere
Funeral home-esque for lack of a better description
I speak in hushed tones
Slow my movements
And quiet my spirit
You want something
Oh thank you give me a job
What do you need???? Anything
I’ll gladly do anything
So many things hurt you now
You who were so tough reduced to such pain
Questions, answers, questions, answers
Over and over and over
This is the part I know
I’ve practiced this so many times before
You speak and in mid sentence you cry
Have I seen my sister,,you can’t remember
Ever seeing my sister, have you seen her
Yes mom remember mom
My answers are calm
Almost rehearsed
Repeated
Sterile
You look searching in my eyes
Yours, sunken, confused,
Pained, with a depth of sadness
I haven’t seen before
I look away.
I meet all the needs you’ve asked of me
I pat you, hug you, pray with you
I look at my brother, the saint
He’s tired, worn, sad
I leave, I’m OUT
I drive
How’d I get here
How long have I been driving
The sky so desperately gray
Muted tones of nothingness
The air feels so heavy
Like a shroud encompassing me
Choking me
The river runs beside me
It rages from the wind
There’s no stopping its power
It’s dark and gloomy and brown
And suits my mood
I try to pray
HOW DO I PRAY
Do I pray for healing,
Health, life, death
Joy, maybe peace
I cry out to you
I DON’T KNOW HOW TO PRAY
I look to the sky and see
The smallest spot of the most beautiful sapphire blue
In a sea of nothing
And I cry
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I had waited for you seemingly forever
So long did it take before you were to come into my life
But in so many ways you had always been there
Your hair so white more than once people
Said that you glowed
Your eyes blue gray
Soft but piercing.
In the spring we’d plant flowers and you quite the digger
Would never tire of ‘replanting’ oh the control God blessed
Me with that summer
On the porch we would swing and sing until my throat would be sore
And still Id manage one more
Lavender Blue, You Are My Sunshine, Red River Valley
I can still hear the wee small voice
In the summer under the big maple the front walk
Would flood and we’d run back and forth barefooted and splashing
Your face, pure joy, your eyes animated, your smile so wide
And those cheeks I could tweak them right now
Is there any better sound than giggles and splashes
Autumn we would take long walks and picnics down in the woods
And sit on a fallen tree. We’d find ants and worms and spiders and rescue the most
Precious of treasures. Feathers, milkweed fuzz, acorns, so much
Bounty for the taking. We’d bring them home and glue them
On paper or cardboard or make touch books
Winter oh please let’s have snow for winter. Snowmen
And snow forts, snow balls and mmmm snow cream.
I remember the look on your face at your first bite as
If you had just made magic.
We read books by the fire, books and more books
Then you would touch my lips and ask me to
Read one with my mouth, which meant to make
Up one just for you.
You have been blessed with intelligence
You have an uncanny ability to fix things
You’ve never seen before
Your sense of humor can put me away
Until I beg you to stop
You have a sense of logic beyond your years
You will sit on the floor for hours and build block towers for babies
Most importantly my son
You have been blessed for an unquenchable thirst for God’s own heart
At eighteen our time together will be changing but sitting here
I remember the words from a book we used to sing to each other
“I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
As long as I’m living
My baby you’ll be"
To Noah
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Breezes orchestrate
Windchimes melodius sounds
Music fills the air
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I want love
Not the normal kind
Multi colored hues
Nothing subdued
I’ve got a wildness in my spirit
And I don’t want to be tamed
Is there a man that is mature enough
To be done with the games
Can a man appreciate my freedom
And let me have a voice
Respect my decisions
And respect my choice
I want a man with a strength
And a passion inside
Not afraid of commitment
Doesn’t feel the need to chide
Where is that man that
Can love without restraint
To give his heart absolutely
He doesn’t have to be a saint
I know you’re out there
I know we will meet
Until that time baby
Just know I’m complete
I’m patiently waiting
Most of the time
But sometimes without warning
I break out in rhyme
Get here soon so we have time to play
I’m in the autumn of life
And I can’t waste a day
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Mysterious song
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Softly sung by mourning doves
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Soothes my aching soul
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Don’t take a walk after a large glass of tea
If someone says, “sure take as many as you want”
They probably don’t mean it
Darling you are sooo sweet I could never get angry with you,,,okay this one is self
explanatory
One size fits all-ohh puleeese
Help yourself to anything in the kitchen,,I really thought I meant it
Going 65 through a curve marked for 45 is just stupid, but exciting
Feelings are fickle
When in doubt, a sincere look and slow shake of the head seems intelligent
It will only take a minute,,,,yeah well Im countin by the long hand not the short one
If you climb that high are you sure you can get down, sure on the way
Up is different then sure at the top
Being really cold and getting into a hot shower and feeling
The warm water melt through you is better than sex,,,,okay its been a long time
The second time around is better
It will only hurt for a minute, then let me pinch you until it stops
Make up covers a world of hurt, but then it goes in the cracks and your
Face looks like a drought hit it
Friends that will laugh with you, cry with you, and never give up on you are
~priceless~
Wisdom comes from practice not from age
A good mood is a choice, okay most of the time
A snack to a teenager can be the roast you cooked for dinner
When you fuss at your kid then sit down and find no
Toilet paper,,,,there’s a problem
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The fountain in my office reminds me of you
Your free flowing spirit
The water plays finding it’s own path
The giggling sounds it sings
How many times caught up in work
I’ve stopped
And smiled
And let your spirit warm through me
Lest I forget
I’ll hike again this summer
I’ll go deep into the gorge
And when we stop at wonder rock
I’ll go alone to the stream
In deep remembrance I'll sit
And feel you once again
A jimsonweed I’ll pick for you
And breathe the bouquet deep
And then I’ll place it in the stream
And watch the course you seek
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Where is it now that I put my heart
The last time I took a break from love
I remembered thinking I wouldn’t need it for awhile
So I put it in a place high above
I feel so silly now
I mean it’s so important
And I knew I would need it again
But I was trying to be logical
And I wasn’t ready
With my heart to contend
I don’t know, maybe it’s a sign
And I’ll just leave it hidden away
It’d be so much easier if that dreamy voice
Wasn’t always purposed my way
Gosh if only you knew
Dag gone I bet you do
How when you lean in close for affect
The breath of your whispers
Leave me completely unglued
When they gently caress my neck
Oh men! I can’t stand ‘em
See that squint in my eye
And my nose pointed up in the air
My arms are folded and I’m quite determined
Then you turn and catch my stare
Oh Geez! I used to be much better at this
You ask for my number to phone
I give it to you willingly
But for three days
I
Will
Not
Be
Home!
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I ask you now is this my plight
I cry out to you all through the night
My tears run dry, my heart still stings
My soul seeks solace but no peace it brings
Words expensive hang in the air
They wound so deeply,
The air so thick
On the thorn of a rose
Did my finger prick
A drop of blood from innocence lost
Can't be regained no matter the cost
Is this my lot to live and die
To find no comfort when I cry
To seek with all that is within
And know I must begin again
A brave new world
A hard new truth
A past that I will never elude
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Loud Screammmms
Huge Smiles
Wind beating me so hard
Then
J
U
M
P
OMGosh!!!
Can you feel anymore alive?!
Wind pushing me upwards
Gravity pulling me down
Total EXHILIRATION!!!
The board strapped to my feet allows me some control
and I zoom through the sky arms outstretched
Catching clouds instead of waves
Wind, its' power!
I scream, I squeal
Reeling from pure joy
Smile plastered on my face
Eyes opened wide
I swirl a loop and it catches my stomach
and I feel like a kid
Every part of my being is in this moment
I AM ALIVE!!!
Balancing on a plank miles above terra firma
Living in the blue sky, wide open freedom
No rules, No boundaries
SPEED
The fierceness of experiencing such a heightened sense
of consciousness, an awareness of every part of your being
Being Alive
AND
damn glad to be alive
It's all good
~written for Ms Moses contest~
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