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Long poem by J. W. Earnings | Details |

Live 2 B U

{intro}
(Whisper) mmmmhmmm
Turn me on by your tranquil, no-drama-no-trauma tune
It will be noon soon,
My sweet maroon moon
Don't panic, maniac of mine...you're swimming in your lament lagoon 
Ohhhhh...
Please
Hear me out 
At ease,
I hear your victory shout!!!

Ooooo I-I-I-I...

{verse 1} 
Naturally, out of breath
Out of hate's chains...
Strangely, the scent of death
Got graveyard brains...
Suicide takes a ride into my mind and heart
I didn't know my silver soul would break apart 
I just thought if I rot, I'd have a happy ending 
I just thought if I hurt myself, I would need mending 

{refrain}
I have an ability 
To see energy around a person, place or thing 
I have the capability 
To give up giving in to failure's success, making me feeling less than nothing and you're everything — in your self-absorbed life, am I anything?

{hook}
Rub your filth bubbles on me
I'm naked and ashamed, baby

{chorus}
Live to be you...
And I'll live to be me
You leave
I grieve 
I'm insecure with or without you by my side 
You cover up your negativity tide...where does your soul abide? 
Live to be you...
And I'll relive our moments of ecstasy 
You're timid 
I confidently get rid 
Of everything and everyone that reminds me of you...desperately in need of a beautiful bride 
I'm sorry for being bisexual when I should be straight, oh Lord of Accord...I'm overwhelmed by shame that embraces me long and wide...
I'm sorry that I heartlessly lied
To receive the truth
Of my hello that got goodbyed,
An ever-aching tooth 
Live 2 B U (x7)

Ooooo yehhhhhh 

{verse 2}
Give, don't get
Live with no regret 
Receive, let die
Let live, don't lie 
High until I hit a low 
Blessed breeze do blow
You know? Know? Know?
You blew up in front of me
I did dat too, I forgive easily 
I hold a grudge on my mistakes 
Putting everyone's lives at their own individual stakes 

{refrain}
I have an ability 
To see energy around a person, place or thing 
I have the capability 
To give up giving in to failure's success, making me feeling less than nothing and you're everything — in your self-absorbed life, am I anything?

{hook}
Rub your filth bubbles on me
I'm naked and ashamed, baby

{chorus}
Live to be you...
And I'll live to be me
You leave
I grieve 
I'm insecure with or without you by my side 
You cover up your negativity tide...where does your soul abide? 
Live to be you...
And I'll relive our moments of ecstasy 
You're timid 
I confidently get rid 
Of everything and everyone that reminds me of you...desperately in need of a beautiful bride 
I'm sorry for being bisexual when I should be straight, oh Lord of Accord...I'm overwhelmed by shame that embraces me long and wide...
I'm sorry that I heartlessly lied
To receive the truth
Of my hello that got goodbyed,
An ever-aching tooth 
Live 2 B U (x7)

Ooooooooo ahhhh

{verse 3}
Music makes me move 
Your hit makes me groove 
Show me your ways
Of one of those days 
I went through those
"Teen" phases...sending tingles from arms to toes, 
Counting my endless friends and foes...
I feel angst in a rebellious amount of rows 

{refrain}
I have an ability 
To see energy around a person, place or thing 
I have the capability 
To give up giving in to failure's success, making me feeling less than nothing and you're everything — in your self-absorbed life, am I anything?

{hook}
Rub your filth bubbles on me
I'm naked and ashamed, baby

{chorus}
Live to be you...
And I'll live to be me
You leave
I grieve 
I'm insecure with or without you by my side 
You cover up your negativity tide...where does your soul abide? 
Live to be you...
And I'll relive our moments of ecstasy 
You're timid 
I confidently get rid 
Of everything and everyone that reminds me of you...desperately in need of a beautiful bride 
I'm sorry for being bisexual when I should be straight, oh Lord of Accord...I'm overwhelmed by shame that embraces me long and wide...
I'm sorry that I heartlessly lied
To receive the truth
Of my hello that got goodbyed,
An ever-aching tooth 
Live 2 B U (x7)

Oooooo ohhhh 
Shhhh...

{verse 4}
Love all tho 
Don't LOL at my BRB's 
To and fro,
Goes the blessed breeze 
I'm gonna do what I can
To be a loyal friend and fan
Paparazzi, soon I'll be your celebrity 
I will not take heed to anyone's Hypocrisy 
I like your constructive criticism 
It makes me a polished prism...

Ohhhh 
So...
Hmmmm...

{chorus}
Just...um...
Live to be you...
And I'll live to be me
You leave
I grieve 
I'm insecure with or without you by my side 
You cover up your negativity tide...where does your soul abide? 
Live to be you...
And I'll relive our moments of ecstasy 
You're timid 
I confidently get rid 
Of everything and everyone that reminds me of you...desperately in need of a beautiful bride 
I'm sorry for being bisexual when I should be straight, oh Lord of Accord...I'm overwhelmed by shame that embraces me long and wide...
I'm sorry that I heartlessly lied
To receive the truth
Of my hello that got goodbyed,
An ever-aching tooth 
Live 2 B U (x11)

{bridge}
Cuz I lived 2 B me...
No one cares...their starlit hair are scarred and their skin from deep within is tattooed with without-a-cares that worsens the tear-jerking tears
That's what I see...
I'm not the sparkling sea - why all the bittersweet stares? 
All cuz
I lived 2 B me
Was
It my fault that I live free
In trapped freedom...
I flee to seek His KINGdom...
I'm the Numb scum with mental instability and fooldumb 
Wisdom is heard by some with His symmetrical spirit of faith that is stepped on like a pizza crumb — minus the sum (meaning not appreciated by society for doing God's Word)
Your nature of immature pride is not tolerated here
It's inadequate to my dilemmas, which are of fear

{hook}
I dare you to rub your filth bubbles on me
I'm naked and ashamed, baby
What now?

{refrain x3}
I have an ability 
To see energy around a person, place or thing 

{hook}
So don't you dare rub your filth bubbles on me
I'm naked and ashamed, baby
Now what?

{outro}
Ooooh
I...advise

You not to...interfere 
With your unnecessary remarks 
Wandering deer,
Don't hurry and worry, dear...you are as strong as arduous arks and as playful as children's parks 
(Whisper) Live 2 B U...
And I'll live to have me free 
Me...I luv u 2...darling boo...
Someday, we'll be set free...sooner or later, we'll find an escape route and swiftly flee

Copyright © J. W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016

Long poem by J. W. Earnings | Details |

I Can't Just Change Overnight part 1

(Inspired by my sister, Laura Breidenthal’s poem called “The Dream in His Eyes” and also, inspired by Disturbed’s song “Forsaken”. Special thanks to my sister for such an awesome poem and the writer that wrote “Forsaken”. It’s been a pleasure, writing this LONG poem! Please feel free to comment below and I hope you like reading it!)

I’m getting over the wasted times I’ve spent 
During the summer days, indoors…I wonder where the time went…
Debating on whether or not to write 
An inspirational song once again – that’s a might, 
Despite what I feel deep inside –
The need to hide, but a want to be brave…
Don’t mind me – I’ll learn to behave
For the night, I’d rather be with my family by my side
For the night, I’d rather sleep with dreams that won’t subside
From my sight…but once I wake up, they are soon forgotten
Why is my hope rotten? In God’s eyes, am I unforgotten?
In the vast abyss…the abstract abyss…
I roam in my lonely distress; it’s only in my head
Can’t shake away this hopelessness…
I long to embrace happiness, but instead, I hold on to dread
Again…again…
Why should I allow myself to fall away again?
Complaining is only for the foolish in heart
So, why should I make a big fuss of things?
Can’t they see I’m breaking apart 
Or…hm…do they see my depression as another work of art? 
Am I worthy of praise from the start?
Reality stings…these dreams haven’t mended my wings…
Failing to meet the finish line…
Pretending that everything is dandy and fine
But, to be frank, it’s not...
Sorry, negativity is heating up like water in the pot
I’ve been taught not to worry 
I’ve been taught to be happy
I’ve been taught to be joyous
I’ve been told not to fuss…and cuss…
Then again, I fall down on the ground,
Yearning to win life’s awfully difficult round
I want to change the world for the better
But I can’t if I can’t change my life around…
Sorry for my childish negativity…
It would be a miracle if someone can hold my head up
Sorry for my bottomless misery…
But, I know for certain that God gathers up my tears in His cup
He stores them in His heart of love
He restores my faith and lifts me high above
Anyways, I’m quite aware that my feelings are fickle…
And these emotions I conceal are as bittersweet as a pickle…
But I shall not lose hope, 
For tomorrow will be another day to look forward to
My tongue will rejoice, not mope
For yesterday has passed away and there’s nothing else I can do
I should be a brighter blue…a brighter hue…
Still clouded by the little bits of memory in my brain that gets me insane
I naturally feel relieved that I don’t remember too much of my past
Maybe it’s because I’m growing up too fast…maybe a little too fast…
I wish I can cast away all woe
I want to bestow bliss to all I know
Don’t you see me fading? 
Can’t you see the shame I’ve dealt with for so long?
Don’t you know that I’m trading
My shame with agape love…
I can never get enough of it…don’t get me wrong…
Don’t dig me a grave, but have a heart to save
A long lost soul that has been wandering the streets of avarice lane
I fear that I have lost touch of the meaning of life…most of the time, letting my poverty gang up on me and coveting the lives of the wealthy individuals…fighting duels in my mind – committing a million crimes 
Take my hand and hold it tight…
Strife and peace have been quarrelling for what seems like years…please, just give me a break…for the hope of heaven…bring me peace instead of strife…let peace win this time or we’ll face perilous times
Roam this land and don’t pick a fight…
Alive and well, I wish I could be… 
Alive and well, as glad as can be…
Swimming in the sea of shame 
Why did you shatter? 
Shocked out of my mind, hunted for game
What’s the matter?
Did I hurt anyone with these words?
I’m sorry…they come and go like herds of birds…
Or should I say flock of birds? Wait, scratch that…
I don’t regret writing these lines…I wear them like my favorite hat…
Forsaken…alone…down in the dumps…you can fill in the blanks…
And yet, when I’m with you, I say otherwise...I pour in my lament liquid in a thousand tanks...
I don’t delight in what I say…maybe I should have taken your advice lately…be careful what I see or hear…I was reclusive, sinking in my angst…
I don’t blame you for being incomplete…I envy the fact that you’re wise…
At least in my eyes, but what does He see in His eyes?
The truth behind the lies? The lies? 
The thoughtless goodbyes? 
The temporary highs?
Amongst us is the darkest of night...
I guess I’m not the only one, struggling to see the light
Forgive the heartless acts of men, oh Lord…
The sins that we must repent of is far too much to afford
Together, we are one brilliant nation…
We all share our moments of tranquil sensation and utter frustration
Oh noble, humble children of the Father in Heaven…
Can I be included in His family too? Can I be complete like You like the number seven? 
I’ve slept for too long and I’ve wept over the wrong…
Over the wrong I’ve done…
How can I feel like I belong when at home, it’s hard to belong?
It feels like darkness has won…
Masked in damasked delusions of the dreams I’ve dreamt
I have the desire to let go of the resentment that crept into me…one attempt…
Ended up as a fail, 
But in the end, 
It didn’t land me in jail 
I don’t mean to offend
My attempt to answer the call of composure
Will be quite a challenge, but it’s a challenge I’m willing to face
I’m pretty sure that I won’t find the ultimate cure
To end chaos when unpredictable predicaments take place…
I speak with a sincere, fearless heart…
I will vanish away the doubts that try to rip us apart
Remind me not to lose track of hope and stay focused on what’s uplifting and of great significance 
The wasted times of my life – something I shouldn’t mope too much about…instead, I should shine on with ripened radiance…
The masses of elegantless anguish transformed me into this monster 
This hideous thing called Wasted Away Love
This repulsive rage has burned away Peace, my dove…
My dove of passion-driven accord that I probably can’t get enough of
My opinions of out-of-the-world peace isn’t at all flawless
But, please…just listen to me or I’ll spiral in my distress…
Smother me with your astuteness of authenticity 
Enthralled by the waterfalls of wonderfulness all over again

Copyright © J. W. Earnings | Year Posted 2015

Long poem by J. W. Earnings | Details |

Your Sanity

Stuck in place…
Free in space…
you’re insane 
I’m as sweet as sugar cane…
Whatever happened to your unique personality?
Whatever happened to your sanity? 
Has it transformed to insanity?
I like the way you make me feel
Oh, you don’t have to make it a big deal
I love the way you lie about me 
Right behind my back
I never needed you in the first place
I don’t want you back! I don’t want to see your hideous face!
You pushed me in the margins…and you threw me away
You took advantage of me as if it was another boring and laborious day!
I don’t want you back, 
So go ahead and run away with your pack!
I’m the last magazine, 
Left alone on the magazine rack
I don’t want you to see my cry a river…
Whatever happened to your sanity?
Do you see my ocean of emotion? 
Why are you sponging in melancholy?
Pray to God for forgiveness 
He’ll consider you His faithful child of serenity
I don’t want to bleed without you…
But you’re rather bittersweet 
You boast way too much – that’s just neat…
I hate the way you treat me – like B.S. literally  
You think you’re better than everyone else – 
I think otherwise, you stinging bee!
You are literally bad to the bone
Whatever happened to your sanity?
Do you understand what I’m saying? 
Do you consider my plea?
Pray to God for forgiveness 
He’ll consider you His faithful child of serenity
I’m a loner, talking to myself again, 
Walking all alone…in the streets of shame
My happiness is hardly ever shown – this feeling of rejection has no name
Feelin’ this shame without a name…
I know these feelings might seem lame,
But they’re real to me – 
I’m jaded corrupted
Am I the cause of your misfortune?
Am I a singer, singing out of tune?
I miss you, but at the same time, 
I’m happy that you’re gone
I’ve never grown out of my fears of losing you – that’s sublime!
But, it seems like I can’t move on
Move on…man…just move on with this life
Though I might be the victim of strife
Your envy and heartless comments stabs me like a knife
And you ask if I’m alright…
Good riddance, you weren’t my ecstatic delight! 
You disowned me 
You joined the pack…
You rejected me…
You never got my back
Instead, you stabbed me in the back…
Whatever happened to your sanity?
Do you even remember who I was? 
Your friend who would make your 
Heart jump with glee?
Pray to God for forgiveness 
He’ll consider you His… 
His compassionate child of jubilance
Am I of any significance? 
You are a wolf in sheep’s clothing
You will feel my loathing…
I’m gaining fruitful insight 
That you lack tremendously
Your thoughtless words 
Made me taste your envy and vanity

Whatever happened to your sanity?
 
Whatever happened to your sanity? 

What are you afraid of? 
Returning to your misery?
Pray to God for forgiveness 
He’ll accept you in His family 
We’ll all sing with merriness 
In our hearts, we’ll never let our passion 
Get in the way or our lament will stay
God is our Father and 
We need to honor Him 
And obey every single day
I’m surrounded by my enemies now….
Save me…deliver me from them, 
For they use their bullying ways
God will answer our prayer in His own time – 
It might take hours, it might take days…
Until He takes full action
But He wants us to have a cheerful heart, 
Beating vigorously with gratification 
My emotions are ganging up on me…yah see? 
Will you ever leave me be?
I’m fighting this battle for my own sake…
I will watch you suffer and slowly, but surely break
Don’t take it easy, you’re getting it the hard way
Whatever happened to your sanity?
Whatever happened to your singing, uplifting me?
Pray to God for forgiveness 
He’ll consider you His faithful child of tranquility
Tough luck, you jerk! You’re so berserk! 
You’re like a madman…
Bombing the city and doing abominable work!
 
Maybe you’ll find your courage another day
Do me a favor and unchain me free from my poverty
Maybe we’ll be in good terms 
And in the same demented boat
Whatever happened to your sanity?
Why are using uncalled for profanity?
I can relate to your eccentric insanity…
I need you to do me a quick favor and 
Pray to God for forgiveness 
He’ll consider you His faithful child of serenity
Pray to God for forgiveness 
He’ll craft His miracles of mesmerizing euphoria 
Free me from this abhorrent agony 
Keep on pressing on with your uplifting ecstasy…
You would win my heart 
If you’d be so kind to make me a root beer float
You are the opposite of gravity, 
Lifting me higher than the mountains 
That used to stare me down 
The morning will be brought back to life 
Sooner than you think
I’m not in the brink of total disaster – 
I trust you won’t break my heart 
Like you did in the past…
The past’s wicked adversaries reduced me to sorrow
IS there hope in store for Tomorrow? 
Please tell me if it’s so…or this envied grief and curiosity will grow…
You wouldn’t catch me before I sink 
I’d like to thank you – that was sarcasm
I’ll give you a wink that signifies my appreciation of having you, you little brat 
But, you and I have gone through hardships in our personal lives…
I should’ve not of trusted you, but you were as mysterious as a bat! 
You were as sneaky as a black cat! 
You are so deceptive…so corruptive…so inattentive…but I still love you 
Hey! Don’t even try to step on me over and over again like a mat!
I won’t let you stomp all over me like that! 
My faith towards You will never shrink
As long as You’re here with me…
That’s what matters most, you see?
I would like to visit you 
We’ll meet eye to eye one day with a smile on our faces – 
Not a trace of dismay is seen and we’ll share our embraces
I really don’t know what to do or say
I’m speechless, but I’m fatigued, 
So let me lay my head on Your shoulders for a while
I want Your relief to shed Your perpetual peace on me, 
Wiping away the despicable bile
Rinsing away the mixed emotions, piling on me for a while…
It seemed like a long time 
At least it’s all over – at least I don’t take pleasure in committing a crime

Copyright © J. W. Earnings | Year Posted 2014

Long poem by J. W. Earnings | Details |

Give Me a Second to Breathe part 1

Verse 1: Nothing's in my way today 
I'm finally getting my way 
Glitter sprays in the air
We are on the bridge of without-a-care,
No longer in despair 
You fed me vibrant love, my starlit sky above
You healed my scars and sent my fears all the way to Mars
Trust falls did me no good because you let me fall away into the abyss...
But I climbed back up the rope of hope
All bad memories turn to rust and then, reduce to dust...they won't be missed, they were filled with hopelessness
You are forgiven and forgotten, I won't mope

Pre-chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe and feel a pleasant sensation
Drench me with your waterfall of wonderfulness 
You refuse to do so and you douse me in dismay and I'm left in my solitary wilderness 

Chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
I need to breathe in happiness and breathe out sadness
I'm dealing with a fistful of frustration that brings hardly any satisfaction
I need to breathe in gladness and breathe out distress...that threw into a misery mess
I don't care if I have the face my fears everyday 
I do care for you, if only you'd wipe away my dismay 
Give me a second to breathe in ease
I'll just do whatever I please while you act like a tease

Verse 2: You walked away
You vanished suddenly
I lost the race today
Slowly, recharging my bravery 
I didn't mean to start a riot
Compared to you, I'm nothing special
You were the warrior that was fought
While you're on your journey, I'll be standing tall
Baby, why would I leave you to rot?
Pound to the rhythm of my heart 
Pound to the rhythm 
Pound to the rhythm of my heart 

Pre-chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe and feel a pleasant sensation
Drench me with your waterfall of wonderfulness 
You refuse to do so and you douse me in dismay and I'm left in my solitary wilderness 

Chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
I need to breathe in happiness and breathe out sadness
I'm dealing with a fistful of frustration that brings hardly any satisfaction
I need to breathe in gladness and breathe out distress...that threw into a misery mess
I don't care if I have the face my fears everyday 
I do care for you, if only you'd wipe away my dismay 
Give me a second to breathe in ease
I'll just do whatever I please while you act like a tease

Bridge 1: Shadows of you keep following me, stalking me down the road where I tread 
Shadows of you crumbled down the bridge that held us high in the air...the clouds were above my once positive and peaceful head
Now, I'm left with the abandoned feeling of dread and you're still puffing up like fresh bread
I'm afraid of losing you over the fact that you've changed and I making up my mind to be with someone else instead 

Pre-chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe and feel a pleasant sensation
Drench me with your waterfall of wonderfulness 
You refuse to do so and you douse me in dismay and I'm left in my solitary wilderness 

Chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
I need to breathe in happiness and breathe out sadness
I'm dealing with a fistful of frustration that brings hardly any satisfaction
I need to breathe in gladness and breathe out distress...that threw into a misery mess
I don't care if I have the face my fears everyday 
I do care for you, if only you'd wipe away my dismay 
Give me a second to breathe in ease
I'll just do whatever I please while you act like a tease

Verse 3: Don't you feel joy in your heart still?
Why do I feel dead inside? Why aren't you abiding by my side?
Are you waiting to fulfill your thrill?
Where can I hide from the truth of your detested pride?
You have lied to me and that's hard to forgive and forget 
You have waved goodbye at me and that's heartbreaking to see as I sink in regret 

Pre-chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
Give me a second to breathe and feel a pleasant sensation
Drench me with your waterfall of wonderfulness 
You refuse to do so and you douse me in dismay and I'm left in my solitary wilderness 

Chorus: Give me a second to breathe...feeling this tension, this hesitation 
I need to breathe in happiness and breathe out sadness
I'm dealing with a fistful of frustration that brings hardly any satisfaction
I need to breathe in gladness and breathe out distress...that threw into a misery mess
I don't care if I have the face my fears everyday 
I do care for you, if only you'd wipe away my dismay 
Give me a second to breathe in ease
I'll just do whatever I please while you act like a tease

Verse 4: You were my paradise that fulfilled my fantasy from on high
You and I were in the tip of the iceberg in our ecstatic friendship that I couldn't deny 
The thunder of resentment strikes me in the middle of nowhere so suddenly 
Going through a phase of love and hate...all mixed in one glass
Hate that I love you and you love to hate me...you talk trash about me in class
Watch you fail the test right before your eyes
Watch me pass the test with truth in mind that leaves behind lies
You invited nothing but trouble in my life of ups and downs 
Let me breathe in and out
Without you, forcing me to swallow doubt 
Let me walk that recovery route
I'm pretty sure I know what I'm talking about

Copyright © J. W. Earnings | Year Posted 2015

Long poem by J. W. Earnings | Details |

Used As An Experiment

Used As an Experiment

THE SILENCE IS BREAKING MEEEE….CAN’T YOU SEE?


V.1: Strong AS STEEL, wrapped up with silver, heartfelt ribbons
Give it to me – the rope of hope
You smoked me out like a cigarette…
Used like I’m an experiment…I mope…I mope…
I’ve been ruined a thousand times
Yet, I stayed strong – I never cried a tear

(pre-chorus)
You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you
(pre-chorus)
You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.2: I bleed…you were my disease once upon a time
Visiting rehab in my head…
Addicted to you like a drug…
Abused and moved by you….
I don’t care about me anymore…
Disaster unfolds, trapped in your scorching RIBCAGE…
Restoring rage….you called me hideous names behind your breath
I’m like an absurd bird, longing to fly out of her cage
Now, I get you…I get your motives of abandoning me…. 
You neglected me…you stubborn, attention-seeker
You never listened to my acknowledging complements 

(pre-chorus)
You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.3: You ditched me with heartless selfishness in your heart – you’re a 
devil! 
Your lips soaked up the poison in your heart…it cements
Deep inside of you…deep down inside…
Wait for me, so I can keep up with you…
I don’t care about me anymore…
Disaster unfolds, trapped in your RIBCAGE…
Restoring rage….burning wild like wild sage…
I’m like an absurd bird, longing to fly out of his cage
Don’t discard me – give your heart a break
Don’t hurt me – for Mount Heaven’s sake!

(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.4: Loving you ain’t easy, that’s for shore…we never were a fine pair (you 
only lived for your own satisfactions)
Blameworthy – I seem to be these days
Get up from the ground and think better about your actions (For all I’ve 
stood for, you were never appreciative…I swam lonely in the pool of misery 
and despair)
Next time, leave the front door…
I’ve been wandering in the maze of bewilderment
Find your own way out of my labyrinth of lament
Dare to wonder where I’ve been?
In the cave of sin…caved in by sin…
Getting devoured in the lion’s den…

(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.5: I don’t care anymore…
Disaster unfolds, trapped in your RIBCAGE…
Restoring rage…burning bright like a star with a tattooed scar
It feels so wrong to be in the dark, so far…so far…
Away from your charms…your warm, cuddly arms…
So far, I’ve been digging deep in your soul…
Anxiety banging at my skull…skull…
In my mind and heart again
Forget and forgive 
Feed the flames of uncertainty
You don’t deserve to die or live
Where shall I flee? Free me…

(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you
(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.6: Yet, I stayed strong – I never cried a tear
I’ve been ruined a thousand times
Used like I’m an experiment…I mope…I mope…
You smoked me out like a cigarette…
Give it to me – the rope of hope
On my own, feeling like I don’t belong – wrapped up with blue, heartless 
ribbons


THE DISTRESS ABYSS IS SUCKING ME UP – RELEASE MEEEEE….

Copyright © J. W. Earnings | Year Posted 2014

Long poem by J. W. Earnings | Details |

Staying Around

This free-verse was inspired by Bad Blood by Taylor Swift and Catch My Breath by Kelly Clarkson

Staying Around

I cried insane in a rush like an aborted infant 
This pain is killing me softly...I can hardly feel your heart's tune 
I have good blood in a gush of an instant 
You're dancing with the shadows of the Flames' heat...you're perfectly on beat, but it haunts me to see you go so soon

We should've fought the battle of cravings long ago
I crave your daydreaming drug...your dainty delight
We are making desire in the fire of our fury passions that are glowing by a single blow
I caved in on you...you snowed under on me...it's a pity that you're gone and now, I'm dealing with this envy 

Take a look into my multi-dimensional glass...the mirror of my past 
What have you done to my heart? I'm breathless...
I worked for your pleasure, but it hurts me to know that I wasn't good enough for you...my stargazing eyes are now downcast 
It's all your fault that I'm the target of the person to blame! I'm losing progress

Solutions can be made after we go through our problematic lives
We are like busy, brilliant bees in our own personal heaven-hell hives 
I'm staying around you from now on...I'm a free-spirited fawn 
Till my High Spirits are all gone like the sunset before the dawn 

This scarlet slit cannot be mended...my happiness has ended and my love haz been hated 
By a single stitch...
Every bit of me has rotted...in utter dread...I was so underrated 
By a sneaky, little snitch...

I'm sorry that I act bitchy all the time, speaking selfish crime 
Maybe, I need to learn to close my mouth 
I learned to shake off the stress from time to time all this wretched time 
Feels good to be good blood from the west, not the east, north or south 
Not that good blood from the west 
Is the best...I don't care if I'm the worstest
I can be a pest, but I can pass the test 
The test that I fail and awfully detest 

Trust turns to dust 
I cussed you out cuz you don't understand my issues of lust
I fuss over the fact that you don't mind me hurting like a pro...you ignored my call and left me on my own
I am not in the same rowdy bus as you and you should know - leave me alone! I'm a weak, delicate bone

You ruined me by slapping me in the face, leaving me with a red trace (blushing in embarrassment) 
You laughed at me and scoffed at me as if I was the living disgrace

You hit me all over the place, an unsolved case 
I'm a torn-up bootlace...a busted rose-pedal-designed vase 
I was just a waste of space all along...I was in the wrong...  
I was just that poet that failed to make a successful song 

Don't rub it in...auras fulfill the eyesight 
The failure I've become again...with my successless might
I live to let live and express,
Not to hopelessly impress...more or less...

Don't laugh at me because I'm doing this for me!!
You're like the stinging sensation of salt on a wound
I'm bound to be with you, blindfolded or not...I see...
You're bringing me down with your descending gravity...that made me feel like the sky when, in reality, I was down here on the filthy ground

Recalled the good times spent with you
I thought of you and the memories of you flood into my mind...
It's fine with me...I don't mind you putting the pressure on me too...
You tore me in shreds of shame that once embraced me; it was a part of me in childhood life... now, it's leaving me in frustrated sadness as time makes us blind...let the time of our lives unwind 

*warning: this part has a word that many would consider "inappropriate"* 

You did things behind my back...I know I have Qualities I lack 
Your jagged knife has evidence of the blood I shed on it 
You clicked with your clique and I'm not wanting you back 
When you call me a faggot, it makes me feel horrible inside...that's offensive to the core - you made me feel like bull's shit, so all you say and do is bullshit 
I came in last place
First place was never meant for me
I am a hamster, trying to take pace
With my heart beats...now, I take a bow and take a seat on my joy glee 

Running on the racing track 
Of the all-seeing-eye symbolism 
I'm in a vulnerable state and in a lot not my own...I'm a lonely magazine on the store rack 
I'm caught captive in the ribcage shaped as a triangle prism 

The eye is watching me
The government is attacking me, I SEE
Hm, I was involved in the research of the illuminati 
I know I've been naughty...I go against it with godly activity 

I thought it all through 
The reasons why I'm blue
Is because I've been missing you 
I caught my breath the moment the scent of death seeped through my nostrils 
I've been paying off all-aspects-of-life bills and I've been popping pills of chills (relaxing)
Time doesn't heal all wounds unfortunately, but God comes to the rescue by giving me the spirit of His Word thrills that enlivens the soul till it kills 

My good blood runs bad
Because I'm bad boy gone good - I have food on the table, not "good in the hood" 
My mind is filled with redundants and opposites that don't attract to be exact...I'm bad to the bone and I'm sadly mad
I'm doing what I should, but still enthusiastic due to this epic writer's block moments...dilemmas drive me to the conclusion that I'm misunderstood

I goofed off way too many times already...I'm still holding on with my writing will - all without a thanks 
Tourniquets don't heal stab wounds, my darling devil...fill in the blasted blanks

Copyright © J. W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016

Long poem by J. W. Earnings | Details |

Bluddy Toothpaste

{verse 1} 
Stream of blood drips unto the sink…it’s in a puddle of muddled, bittersweet blood – whisper hope in my ears
My heart pumps…in fear of losing you…uoy…u…
Teeth ache, gums bleed on…I blink…never good enough in the mirror, for I’m looking like crud for many years
I drink in my salty, sorrow saliva too…oot…2…

{refrain}
You are my fan and friend 
Till the beginning to end
You are the remaining daylight
I am the nighttime… 
I rise above the horizon tonight
We commit sublime crime 

{chorus}
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…
I brush my yellow-smeared teeth
With bloody toothepaste
You’re hard to please…so please…
Put my teeth and gum at ease…
You make me bleed out crimson regret
I wince in pain, knowing that I’m wet…
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…
Wet with upset tears, absorbing in my eye sockets
Naked and ashamed…I’m like 2 exploded rockets…
Free in space…stuck in place…I’m a broken vase…
Receiving vast grace…fell straight on my mere face…
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…

{verse 2}
Bang your hands against the walls of my shady solitude…DUDE!?
Heading your way as soon as possible…so don’t worry, my one and only love
Sang the lyrics to your song…for I belong with you, understood?
I forgot what I was thinking of…lost my train of thought, drifting-away dove

{refrain}
You are my fan and friend 
Till the beginning to end
You are the remaining daylight
I am the nighttime… 
I rise above the horizon tonight
We commit sublime crime 

{chorus}
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…
I brush my yellow-smeared teeth
With bloody toothepaste
You’re hard to please…so please…
Put my teeth and gum at ease…
You make me bleed out crimson regret
I wince in pain, knowing that I’m wet…
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…
Wet with upset tears, absorbing in my eye sockets
Naked and ashamed…I’m like 2 exploded rockets…
Free in space…stuck in place…I’m a broken vase…
Receiving vast grace…fell straight on my mere face…
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…

{verse 3}
Can’t see you, shining bright…nothing’s black and white…
Can’t see me, illuminating with all my undying might…
Radiant sunbeams, like a spotlight, reveal your true colors and your ugly flaws
Makes me sad that you let me go so quickly…your words injure all of me in oo’s and aw’s… 

{refrain}
You are my fan and friend 
Till the beginning to end
You are the remaining daylight
I am the nighttime… 
I rise above the horizon tonight
We commit sublime crime 

{chorus}
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…
I brush my yellow-smeared teeth
With bloody toothepaste
You’re hard to please…so please…
Put my teeth and gum at ease…
You make me bleed out crimson regret
I wince in pain, knowing that I’m wet…
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…
Wet with upset tears, absorbing in my eye sockets
Naked and ashamed…I’m like 2 exploded rockets…
Free in space…stuck in place…I’m a broken vase…
Receiving vast grace…fell straight on my mere face…
Paparazzi – you like to see me in exposure pain…you hover around me just for gain
It’s your sick pleasure…you follow me like a clothing with an obvious stain…
You’re bloody insane…makes me feel way more sane…

{bridge}
I can't hear a thing of what you’re saying, so don’t call this number again…where yah been? I’m an inkless pen…
Don’t break up with me just because I feel this temporary rage
Your shadows and my reflections are precious like the waterfall near the glen…I hear the morning hen…
I’m angry because, darling, I feel like we’re not on the same page
I’m hopelessly grazing in this maze of jealous bewilderment…
Caught a glimpse of you, kissing another person…I loved you a ton – what the living fires of hell? You fill’d my heart with cheers; now I’m hunted down by fears!!!
I sweat with nervousness and cry aloud with disappointment…
Hope you’re having fun in the sun…looks like it, hun…I hate you now – does it ring an ironic bell? You can’t hear!!? Reduced to tears...it appears-appears-appears……

Copyright © J. W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016

Long poem by Ruben O. | Details |

Drink Responsible - Slogans -

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                         Can you hear me now? Good!                                 
                       I can't seem to forget you                                         
                    I love what you do for me                                          
                 It must be love                                                             
              between love and madness lies obsession                       
           Like always. Like never before                                        

At the sign of the                                         cat 
have a break, have a                              Kit-Kat                    
Tastes so good cats ask for it by name 
                                                      Schhhh ... You-know-who       

I'd rather die of thirst than drink from the cup of mediocrity
                                                                  Perfect to you
                                                                       Purely you 
There's a smile in every Bar                                                                                   
               Obey your thirst                                                                        
               This Bud's for you                                                
One a day helps you work, rest, and play                     
               More fun than rum                                             
               Drink responsible                                   
Heineken open your                                            world                                                
Because  that's
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 ... nobody can say no to the honey nut O              
a bowl a day keeps the bullies away         

                           
                   Our plans are based on yours                      
                   You have my word on it                    
Be the first to know                       
Who we are                                 
                The "no problem" people  
                                                   Only smarties have the answer           
                                                   Making it all make sense 
                       
Drink responsible                    
                       Because that's the kind of mom you are                
Sometimes you've got to break the rules       
                       Blow your own bubble                           
You're invited                                       
                       Catch our smile?
Everything we do is driven by you                                     
Driven by what's inside                                            
                       We'll take more care of you                                 
                       You asked for it.                You got it                            
We know what it means to serve                 
On your side                                              
Allied on your side     
      
You're in good hands  
We make it happen     
We'll be there                           
Get the feeling                       
Im lovin' it                                   
You are the controller                       
Only on Playstation                    
                                 You are now free to move                
                            Unleash the beast       
                       Is it in you?       
                  Do you dare?   



About this poem:
To "write" this poem, I used slogans, short and often memorable phrases
used in advertising campaigns. Below you can find the name of the product 
(or the company) in order of appearance.

-Verizon Wireless; Wind Song; Toyota; Honda; Calvin Klein; Saturn
-Mercury; Kit Kat; Meow Mix; Schweppes
-Stella Artois; Wella; Dell; Hershey's; Sprite; Budweiser; Mars; Malibu;
 Captain Morgan; Heineken; Rice Krispies; Cheerios; Applejacks Cereal
-Assurant; Isuzu; CNN; Guardian Life Ins; Auto-owners Ins;
 Smarties; Microsoft
-Captain Morgan; Rice Krispies; Buger King; Bubble Yum; Red Hills Inn; 
 Pacific Southwest Airlines;  Ford; Subaru; British Airways; Toyota; USSA;
 Nationwide Mutual Ins; Allied Ins
-Allstate; IBM; Chevrolet; Toyota; Mc Donalds; Microsoft Kinect; PS3;
 Southwest Airlines; Monster Energy; Gatorade; Curious.


Copyright © Ruben O. | Year Posted 2014

Long poem by The Seeker | Details |

The day the earth stood still - Tangerine

The day finally arrived, the day all new parents eagerly anticipate!  The contractions were ten minutes apart.  We climbed into our 1999 Subaru and headed for the hospital, her belly sticking out a mile, the look on her face a mixture of pain and excitement.  Last month we celebrated our tenth anniversary.  It seemed as though she would never conceive, we'd almost given up.  I'll never forget the day she told me.  I'd had an especially trying day at work and came home tired and grumpy.  I spoke harshly to her about something, I don't even remember what it was about now.  Something trivial.  She took my hand and led me into the bedroom and placed my hand on her stomach.  It took me a moment, but I finally got it.  She was pregnant!  Our new lives were to begin on that day.

Almost there, just a half mile more.  Her pangs had increased in severity and I was afraid she was gonna have that baby before we got there.  As we approached the intersection at Main and 3rd, the light turned green.  What happened next is still a blur, but I remember an impact and a loud crunching noise.  The next think I knew I was lying in a hospital bed.  

"Mr. Johnson, Mr. Johnson?" someone called.

I woke up to see a tall, imposing figure standing over me.  He introduced himself as Dr. Kevin Green.  

"Wha, what happened?  Where am I?" I asked.

"Mr. Johnson, you were in an accident, but you are going to be fine," said the doctor.

"My wife, the baby, where are they?" I begged, my voice just above a whisper.

What the doctor said next I didn't fully comprehend.  I watched his lips move and could hear the sound of his voice, but the words seemed mumbled and weren't registering in my brain.  I don't know if the concussion I had suffered was the cause or if my mind was deliberately protecting me from the full impact, but I passed out before he could finish speaking to me.

When I awoke that evening, the words of the doctor began to coalesce, and I realized at that moment that my precious Amy was gone.  How was this possible?  We were on our way to welcome a new life into the world and now I have to say goodbye?  Surely it was all a bad dream.  I could hear two of the nurses talking outside my room.  I was certain that they were unaware that I could hear them.  The one was shaking her head as the other said something about a drunk driver, and how he had walked away from the crash without so much as a scratch!  I yelled out at the top of my lungs:

"AMYYYYY!"

The nurse rushed to my side, but I passed out once again.  I would not awaken until morning.

"The baby, what about our baby?" I asked Dr. Green as he made his morning rounds.  His voice was soft and kind.  This time I understood every word.  The infant had been successfully delivered, but was in critical condition.  I asked the doctor if I could see the baby.  He reluctantly assented.

I remember when my sister had her baby, walking into the pediatric unit was quite an experience.  Little wiggling babies crying for their mommies.  But as I entered this special unit for struggling infants two things struck me: There was no sound except the sound of medical equipment and the unit had a strange sweet smell to it.  I didn't know what to compare it to - citrus?  It reminded me a bit of tangerines.  I walked over to where the child lay.  A little girl.  How I hated to see her with tubes attached and monitors everywhere.  A tear formed in my eye as I contemplated how and when I would tell this precious little girl that her mommy had died.  And then it hit me like a ton of bricks!  What if she doesn't make it?  I would be alone in the world.  Just as I was contemplating these things one of the monitors she was hooked up to began making an awful noise.  I was rushed out of the room as a team of nurses and doctors hovered over her.

Six in the morning.  I couldn't sleep all night.  No one would tell me anything.  I wished I was dead.  Why couldn't I be the one?  Everyone knows that children need their mothers, for crying out loud!  

"Mr. Johnson?" the doctor called.  "I'm Dr. Kim.  I want you to know that your baby girl is going to be okay.  It will be a long recovery and it won't be easy, but she's going to make it.  I'm so sorry about your wife."

My whole being was flooded with a mixture of emotions - grief, joy, anger, frustration, guilt.  I immediately prayed like I had never prayed before in my life, asking God to help me raise this little girl, a little girl who would never get to be held by her mommy.  I prayed for wisdom and courage and the strength that would be needed to face what lay ahead.

As I entered the unit where my child was, I smelled that same scent I had noticed the first time I was here.  Only this time it was pleasant, relaxing.  I walked over to where my baby, our baby, lay.  She was sleeping, her chest rising and falling rhythmically with each breath.  It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.  I was looking at my future.  Just then, quite unexpectedly, her eyes opened wide.  She looked around with her gorgeous baby blue's and then her eyes caught mine.  We locked for what seemed like an eternity and I knew at that very moment what her name was going to be - Tangerine!  Tangerine Amy Johnson.

Copyright © The Seeker | Year Posted 2016

Long poem by Poetryof Providence | Details |

The Forge

I remember the beach sand and swing
when you and mother were still something
I remember the ducks in the lake
you held my hand watching their wake
I remember the sheep dogs when the day was through
and the mornings grass all covered with dew
I remember the dead man and blood on the floor
my hand in my mothers as she went for the door
I remember the stairs I thought I’d fall through
and the building where she was hidden from you
she tried drowning me in the bath and the tub
her hands on my throat on the dining room rug
the pain of the walls where my body flew
the floor of the closet when she was through
I remember you entering the door
as you picked up my body from off the floor
the words were so ugly I’ve forgotten them now
but things haven’t changed much anyhow
I remember the willows and switches not few
a home not mine and the children were new
a string of families never seeming to end
the abuse and the beatings I’m not on the mend
I remember the the rage and the red flushed face
what did I do to fall from your grace
I remember the fear when I tried to hide
the man and the 2by4 when it hit my side
the bruise and welts with noone to care
my mother and father aren’t even there
I remember the family that took me in
they had no daughter just two young men
one boy was loving the other was slime
but the parents protected me most of the time
I was safe for awhile with nightmares not few
and some of my demons she helped to slew
I remember you taking me home at last
you had remarried some six months past
I remember the woman was cruel and mean
she remained that way till I was sixteen
At fifteen I had been already raped twice
the drugs and pills and the wrist yet to slice
I remember the police to the hospital sped
the straight jacket and thorazine I should have been dead
I remember the airplane that sent me away
with my half brothers mother I was to stay
my neck with a forearm pinned to the wall
my half brothers brother screaming he will have all
I remember the screaming as I flew down the stairs
his violence had caught me totally unawares
the pain as he smashed me on the walls of the hall
the kicks in the ribs after my fall
the nine months I walked in a state of fear
how I passed my classes is very unclear
I remember the man when I hitched into town
the car was a sedan of dirty brown
the doors had no handles no way to get out
he pulled out a knife and proceeded to shout
how he would cut me and make me bleed
if I didn’t fill some sort of need
how I grabbed the wheel for steering the car
when he slammed on the brakes down the road not far
when he slid out the door by the side of the road
it seemed to me that all time had slowed
he released me with curses not language unknown
from the cage of his car this bird had flown
I remember the man preaching justice and truth
but to find answers one must become sleuth
I remember the marriage and I made him swear
that to hit or harm me he must never dare
I remember the baby with curls of gold
by seventeen to marriage my father me sold
I remember the lapses of time I had lost
the forge of my youth and the price it had cost
the thread that kept me alive was so thin
in my mind it was always me against him
I remember the children that helped keep me sane
with some sort of focus with the man I had lain
I remember the striving for some sort of truth
what kind of a mother my children had in their youth
I remember it all so plain and clear
that violence from men will always be near
I swore at sixteen no child to have
if you couldn’t play safely with joy and a laugh
forgive me my children for bringing you here
the reasons I do things are sometimes not clear
My parents are gone and I do not mourn
but only for the life I was never shown
I did try to spare you the same kind of fate
I hoped that my love would be never to late
I had no control of the time or the chance
that injustice would look upon you with his glance
I raise my eyes to the heavens and vent to his name
to save all the children who are yet put thru shame
In a blast furnace my life has been forged
the tool of the hammer has formed my discourse
in molten metal I have been shaped
the tool of another I have not escaped
what of the purpose he hopes to hew
a piece of equipment all shiny and new
I remember my maker and the state of his grace
the road laid before me and the words of his face
the view of my nature he seeks to tame
with so many others who walk in the flame
in wails united to pull heaven down
and with its brightness scour the ground
his promise to do so has not yet passed
when all of mankind will feel his blast
the call has gone forth the meaning is clear
to give an accounting is so very near
those who think themselves high shall be made low
the dust of the earth their destined to know
the one that I follow has carved out the path
his star has shown brightly beneath thorn and the lash
I reach my arm forth to take hold his hand
to walk among humans woman and man
he paints a clear future for those of us all
a paradise lost to man in his fall

COPYRIGHT © 2009 C Michael Miller
via Duboff Law Group LLC

COPYRIGHT © 2009 C Michael Miller via Duboff Law Group LLC

Copyright © Poetryof Providence | Year Posted 2014

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