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Details | Narrative | |

Sweetest Love Note

One night a guy & a girl were
driving home from the movies. The
boy sensed there was
something wrong because of the painful
silence they shared between them
that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over
because she wanted to talk. She told him that her
feelings had changed & that it was time to move on.
A silent tear slid down his cheek as he
slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note.
At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down
that very same street. He swerved
right into the drivers seat, killing the boy.
Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she
pulled it out & read it.
"Without your love, I would die."


Details | I do not know? | |

A Broken Lover

People look her way
But they don’t understand
No one knows the pain she’s felt
The tears she’s cried
And the life that has died.

There was once a time
When the love was alive
The tears never came 
And the smile never faded

The girl up above was the one who knew to love 
The one who’s heart and smile was free 
The one who used to believe in her dreams

Now that girl is gone 
Replaced by one who slowly fades away 
Destined to walk her own death 
Fading to a broken lovers grave.

Walking as if the life was gone
Speaking to a ghost of her past
Screaming to be free 
And wanting to believe again.

Will the life longed for 
Ever be relived?
Will the love she searches for 
Ever be received ?

Or is a broken lover…
 all she has come to be?


			



Details | I do not know? | |

Why would a 12-year girl want to die?

Why would a 12-year girl want to die?
What would make a 12-year-old girl end her life?
Why would a 12-year-old girl want to say goodbye?
Now I lay here with an empty bottle of pills by my side.
It was just too much to hide.
My little brother found me on my bathroom floor.
He went screaming out the door.
The ambulance came and I heard voices fading away.
I can still make out what they say.
Why would a 12-year girl want to die?
What would make a 12-year-old girl end her life?
Why would a 12-year-old girl want to say goodbye?
Now I lay in a hospital bed.
He can’t hurt you anymore the nurse said.
Thank god the gun box was locked.
Now theirs a knock.
The cops came in and said my sister talked.
They said after what my father did he will never walk.
Why would a 12-year girl want to die?
What would make a 12-year-old girl end her life?
Why would a 12-year-old girl want to say goodbye?
He came in my room at night.
Something’s a child just cant fight.
Tired of living with this dirty feeling.
Tired of all together feeling.
Why Daddy Why?
Why would you make me cry, lie, and all-together die?
Why would a 12-year girl want to die?
What would make a 12-year-old girl end her life?
Why would a 12-year-old girl want to say goodbye?
Mom didn’t know.
She said it wasn’t my fault and beyond my control.
They said there were more.
They just were scared to come forward before.
Now I’m on the stand facing a child molester.
The lawyer asks my father.
Why would a 12-year girl want to die?
What would make a 12-year-old girl end her life?
Why would a 12-year-old girl want to say goodbye?
What did you do that was so bad that your daughter wanted to die?


Details | Free verse | |

In Her Fathers Arms

The evening star glowing in a dust choked sky. A girl stands by a window, with a tear in her eye. She stares at the scene, hardly visible through the grime. She whispers in the wind, “Bring my Dad home this time” She opens the window, and climbs outside, Having a flashlight, in her hand, as her guide. Its glow shows the sides of the street. She’s afraid for what the light will meet Bodies piled everywhere she turns, She wants to go home, and never return. What brought this fate upon her town? All her emotions are stripped and torn down. A frightening sound explodes in her ear. Shadows in the road now appear. She run and hides behind a broken wall Praying to god the rest doesn’t fall. Footsteps coming closer to her She can’t tell who because it’s all a blur She backs away further so not to be seen in light, Quieting her heart pounding from fright. Gun shots and screams fill the air, All these sounds, her ears couldn’t bear. A slight whimper slips from her lips, And over the broken stone she trips. The shadows run closer, showering her heart with fear, She wishes they would just disappear. They pass by her; she fills with delight, She just wants to see her dad tonight. She shines the light, to show her place, And to the shine comes a familiar face. She doesn’t understand who’s to blame Because on the tag shows her father’s name. She holds in her tears and refrains from crying. She falls to the ground where her dad was lying. She lifts his arm and buries her face in his chest. She closes her eyes wanting to forget the rest. The shadows emerge yet she doesn’t see, How close the end for her would be. They look down at her, aim, shoot, and fire. Being with her dad is her only desire. The night had ended causing a little girl harm But she took her last breath, in her father’s arms.


Details | Rhyme | |

Suicide

I see the pain in your eyes
The fear in your voice
I know because I've been in your place
It's not your choice

I'm sorry
I would hate for anyone  to feel this way
Please don't leave this world
Just try and stay

This isn't the only way to go
At least don't leave without a fight
Just know
You were never alone

You had me right by your side
Even when you never wanted me around
I promise to you I never told a lie
I was always honest and true
Towards you

You don't have to end your life
I've tried to many times its not worth it
Please put down that knife
I mean it

Stay with me
Fight this battle with me by your side
You always had me don't you see
I was always nice to you

Even when you where terrible to me
I fought threw it and you can too
You're just a little seed
Waiting to grow into something beautiful


Details | Ballad | |

The girl

See the girl living on the streets? does anyone know she is there,
Do you see that girl down in the dumps? and does anyone care.
We don't know the reason that she left her home and do any of us want to know?
She's out in all weathers without any covers in rain, hail and snow.
Does anyone wonder if she's ever lonely when we're all tucked up in our beds,
when she's wet and cold,  and we're warm and cosy does it ever enter our heads.
She might have been beaten when her home she left, she's sad and she's lonely and often bereft. 


Does anyone see me alone on the streets? trying to smile at all that I meet,
asking for pennies for a warm cup of tea, we're not all on drugs, at least not me.
I'm trying to avoid going down that road I try to remember the things I've been told.
Stories of people lying in the gutter, and people passing by all of a mutter.
Do they care, what they see there? I suppose they think it's everywhere !
But I would like to say to all of you . I don't take drugs, I'm one of the few.
So to all of you sat home by your fires, spare a thought for me,
when you pass me by tomorrow, I'd love a cup of tea.


Details | Free verse | |

in absolute darkness

Do you know what its like to be 
in absolute darkness?
I do. 
And I want to be back
on a foggy night
where winter doesn't fall too far
the only thing you can see 
is a distant street light
yellow and gold
glowing from the distance
the wet leaves that fell from the trees 
fill the night 
with a dewy smell
darkness. 
I turn the key
bright headlights
flood the road
one line, two lines, 
they all combine
into a white blur keeping me 
from crossing into the abyss
I could drive forever 
alone. 
I want to be gone again
back to my home.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Girl You See Today

The girl you see today,
Is not what she used to be,
She used to be so fragile,
If you could have been able to see.

The girl you see today, 
Used to cry herself to sleep
Suffering with depression,
Her emotions ran so deep.

The girl you see today,
Was bullied for no good reason,
Hating school everyday,
And throughout every season.

The girl you see today,
Was lonely and rejected,
Had nearly no friends,
And by half her family was neglected.

The girl you see today,
Was so innocent and small,
Couldn't free herself,
From the bullies and their wall.

The girl you see today,
Is no longer what she was before,
She's rude and uncaring,
Because she doesn't want to hurt anymore.


Details | Lyric | |

Love went away

It hurt so much to let you go
It hurt me more then you could ever know
When it has to do with me you never really care
But I love you, Daddy, and I'll always be there

Even when my heart is torn
Even when when it's pricked by the love thorn
Even when we say our good-byes
Even when I listen to your lies

Your little girl is fully grown
Your little girl was so alone
So where were you dad
How could you make your little girl so sad

Even when I begged for you to answer my call
Even when you made me feel so small
Even when  I cried
Even when you were stuck in your pride

I always did my best
And even then you never were impressed
I never felt right, I never felt okay
Our love just went away




Details | Rhyme | |

Nobody Knew

Nobody knows the pain she hides,
No one cares to look inside.
This little girl that’s only nine,
Has to fight to stay alive.

Her mom’s an alcoholic,
And her daddy does drugs.
She gets beaten and bruised,
Instead of kisses and hugs.

Nobody hears the little girl’s cries,
Nobody notices her wet swelled eyes.
When her mommy is drunk and her daddy is high,
So she doesn’t get beaten, she has to hide.

She’s sick of the pain,
That she suffers from every night.
She’s sick of getting punished,
For her mom and dad’s fights.

So, she went downstairs and grabbed a rope,
And hung it way up high.
She stood on a chair and put her head through the noose,
And jumped and hung there to die.

Her mom came home drunk that night,
Her daddy came home high.
To find her hanging by the rope,
To find out she had committed suicide.

Nobody knew the pain she hid,
Nobody cared to look inside.
The little girl that had wet swelled eyes,
Committed suicide and no longer has to fight to stay alive.


Details | Rhyme | |

She was only 5

She was only five and this is what
happened when she was alive

Ser dad was a drunk her mom was an addict
They always kept her locked up in the attic

Her only friend was a toy bear
and it was old and worn with patches of hair

She always talked to it when nobody was around
she layed there and hugged it with not a peep of sound

Until her parents unlocked the door
some more pain she'll have to endore

Bruise on her leg scare on her face
why would she have to be in such a horrible place

She grabs her bear and softly cries
she loves her parents but they want her to die 

She sits in the corner quiet but thinking
god why is my life always sinking

Such a bad life for a sad little kid
she got beaten and beaten for anything she did

And then one night her mom came home high
and she got beaten as the hours went by

Then her mom suddenly grabbed for a blade
it was sharp and pointy the one that she made

She thrusted the blade right in her chest
you deserve to die you worthless little pest

The mom walked out leaving the girl slowly dieing
she grabbed hey bear and again started crying

The police showed up at the small little house
and quickly barged in everything quiet as a mouse

One officer slowly opened a door
to find the little girl lieing on the floor

It must have been hard to go thourgh so much harm
but at least she died with her best friend in her arms

A child dies every day from child abuse and if you have an ounce of pity in your 
heart for little auorura and you hate child abuse do something about it and let 
them know that someone cares about them


Details | I do not know? | |

Lost Innocence

With hope this young girl once dared to dream
She walks in silence from this bewildering scene
She came to this place with innocence and grace
For him to take away and put sorrow in its place
Innocence is gone now only emptiness and regret
He leaves her with a loss she will never forget
Her innocence he took from her that cold winters night
Though she struggled, in the end she crumbled in fright
He tells her it's her fault she asked for it ,can this be real?
She wonder 's why so degraded she's beginning to feel
From this day she will never trust in exactly that same way
As this memory will linger in her mind and forever stay
Long ago this girl lost the one she longed to be
As her dreams were shattered he went his way," free"
Never responsible for his actions there that night
He took what was hers to give in a sacred place that's right
Now he's gone and the nightmares may no longer be there
With Gods grace there will be recovery is my prayer




 


Details | Romanticism | |

Girl

Its so hard to say good-bye but I still cry, 

Now that I realize that you gone out of my 

life, girl I just can't stop writing poems 

about you, I love so much, girl I'm about to 

go insane all my days still look like rain, 

girl I go through so much pain, I don't know 

if I could remember my name, it feels like 

I'm about to loose my mind, I know your legs 

are tired, because you run through my all 

the time, girl, over and over I think about 

you, now I hope you see how much I'm still 

in love with you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Little Girl On Bended Knees

She’s a little girl abused in so many ways.
She knows for everything theirs a price she pays.
She doesn’t go where other children play.
So much lost.
So much at cost.
She’s berried with in her pleas.
Clothing tore to all degrees.
She runs to the church knowing everything he sees.
Maybe he can set her free.
Little girl on bended knees.

She can’t wash his smell away.
No matter how much she bathes.
Do you really have to love daddy this way.
Day by day she prays.
So many memories will prey.
She wishes they would just fade away.
In the bushes she hides.
Daddy is dead inside.
To god she will confide.

“God who will believe me?
Who will see?
Mom always said it was just me.
Now she has to see.”
Little girl on bended knees.

Her life is so hard in part.
Yet not compared to what she sacrifices in her heart.
He slices it up and rips it apart.
She wants to point blame
But lowers her head in shame.
God taking over this little soles hope 
And his heart is breaking.
There is so much she is staking.

She raises her bloody hands high.
Deep down she wishes she could die.
But she made daddy finally say goodbye.
Six years old murdering daddy to finally be free.
Little girl on bended knees.


Details | Rhyme | |

Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


Details | Lyric | |

Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




Details | Free verse | |

Girl Rising

Based on a true story from a television documentary on Human Trafficking...an international crime with participants from a broad spectrum of society...occuring on a daily basis. I have only seen documentaries on the trafficking of young girls between the ages of 5 and above!! Law enforcers, it seems are fighting a losing battle against the men and women who sell and enslave young girls and I have no doubt, young boys as well.

Somewhere this day on planet earth
A Mother-to-be, while in labor, cries
Not so much for the mounting pain
Nor the fear of possible death
So many fears for the future…
“What lies ahead in the coming years?
What “fate” will meet my child?”
And added to all her heightened fears is…
Will she be there to protect her child?

Those dark years have now passed into decades
When Tanya walked the shadowy streets of the city at late night 
While kids her age slept peacefully in their beds
They made her dress up so she’d looked twenty one
Days were spent locked in a room, under watchful eyes
She was fed cheap fast food to her young heart’s content
Soon she'd lose all hope of liberation
This was the second man she had been sold to
And after a while she’d adapt to the situation 

Still fresh in her mind was that last day at school
In her backpack was her favorite teddy bear
Her Mother had chosen to believe her step-father again
Now that her twelfth birthday would be in a month 
As no one cared, she decided to run away
While at the bus station she met this “nice” couple
Who listened to every word she spoke
They promised her a ride to any place she wished
And she’d always wanted to see Disney land

“Maybe, she thought, it’d be a birthday treat”
 However, that would be another promise broken 
Weeks dragged on and they bought her “stuff” 
Although treated well, sometimes she still felt alone
Then one day came the grown up clothes and make up
That night her innocence was stolen once more
Later she’d try to make an escape
Only to be caught and tied to the bed post
‘Make it easy on yourself and accept your “fate”, she was told

That was years ago, although it seems like yesterday,
When arrested by a new officer on the vice squad
Who saw the flaw in the picture before him
The pimp gave no reasonable answer to the simple question
‘Why are you parked late at night on the street corner with a minor?’
 
Looking back over the years, she came to conclude that “Fate” is just another word, made up to cast aside blame; when we do not want to see the path we’ve chosen which has led us to our present state
When Pilate symbolically washed his hands, though he had power in that moment to act..
When there before him stood truth and innocence, 
Yet, he chose to make a comfortable bed for his conscience

Today, Tanya is a college graduate and a Mother who has vowed not to leave anything to “fate”. She’d teach her children to take responsibility for the choices they make… 
She would teach them that no one is of lesser value than another..
 Male or female; black or white, all hues; rich or poor 
All have a God given right to live free!
~*~
8/03/13
For:  Richard's "Girl Rising" Contest

(3rd Place Win)


Details | Narrative | |

A little girl and her plastic bag

Yesterday while on my way to a supermarket I saw a little girl of perhaps five leaning at
a tree close to the road and watching a blue plastic bag which was drifting in the wind.
She looked very sad with her light blue eyes and her blond hair streamed out behind her.
The bag was lifted by a strong blast and I ran after it, crossing the road. A car came and
stopped, waiting for me to cross the road. A younger man on the other side of the road saw
that I wanted to catch the bag and he was also running after it, but the wind drifted the
bag far over the lawn up hills. After some unsuccessful attempts to get hold of the bag he
finally could grab it. I went to him and he gave me the bag and smiled. I then told him
that a little girl was sad about losing that bag. He wished me a nice weekend and I
returned to that little girl still standing near the tree but this time smiling. She shyly
whispered "Thank you", took the bag and ran to her little playmates waiting for her
anxiously in the background. 


Details | Romanticism | |

A Flower's Funeral

A sweet flower's funeral
displayed in the cold months
of snowy weather and bone chilling shivers.
A sweet flower burned away, dried up;
buried six feet under.

Oh, my sweet flower,
how you once bloomed with no remorse,
like a madman blooming with beauty
and a glorious halo over your head
shinned with such power and blinding glory.

Oh my sweet flower how you have gone now,
resting in peace in the land of paradise.
Oh, my heart it is weak when I see your face,
of once beautiful smiles and warm embraces.
I can hear your crying out to be free.

Snowing and bone chilling cold ripes at my soul
and feelings of sorrow rage through my blood,
boiling my hatred to the world, for losing your
sweet and ever glorious beauty.

What I would give away, if I could be with you
one last night, one last night together
to hold you in my arms, to smell your sweet perfume
that brings back sweet memories of you and I.
What I would do to be with you,
such romance travels through my heart in the highways
of my veins in my body, love is all throughout me,
and my heart breaks when pictures of you start to collect dust.

My love for you, my sweet flower,
is still ingering through the air,
as I travel and look upon a tombstone
which shows your beautiful name.

Come to me my dear flower,
when spring comes,
come to me my dear, sweet flower.
And bloom once again,
twice as large as last year,
and ten times more beautiful then last year.
Come to me in the first months of spring
in my dreams, so I could sit and talk with you.
I miss you already,
and my heart crys,
my eyes flood with tears of sorrow.
I miss our love we shared.
Long walks,
cosy talks,
warm cuddling embraces
and beautiful displayed in a picture frame.
Now I hear the tapping of raindrops on my window pane.
That is all that keeps me company,
that and the rose you gave to me
and a picture of you and me.
Love is endless, even when blue eyed Death comes to visit
and play a game of chess with us,
we all play our game, my love.
I shall go tonight
in my sleepy slumber
and dream of you in the times of our height in our love for each other.
My lost love, you are gone, resting in paradise,
but never forgotten my sweet flower.

-10/6/2013-


Details | Light Poetry | |

When I grow old

I will grow old
I tremble in the cold
None to care
I have nothing to fear...

But my love is alive
Though I strive
Beautiful roses to pluck
Yet I am stuck..

I grow old with wrinkle
Yet I will kinker
You will always remain in my mind
This is how you will find...


Details | Rhyme | |

Jennifer Part 3

She has so much pain inside of her,
she doesn't know how to address it.
So she turns the pain into anger,
after she explodes, she becomes quiet.

She goes up to her room, upset.
Why does the world hate her so?
She thinks to herself, “That’s it!”
But in reality, it isn't though.

She lies on her bed,
Pulls out her book and reads.
As she turns the pages, she loses her head,
In her mind, she thinks “This is what I need.”

A place to escape the world,
Somewhere she can run.
For it seems everyone hates this girl,
And nothing she does is fun.

She plays her cello 
And loses herself in the music
She does this when she feels low
Then she plays the song of her pick

She listens to the beat she makes,
Trying to make it sound perfect,
But oh, she keeps making mistakes,
She thinks that she will never get it.

She leaves the cello alone
And watches her shows
She then grabs her phone
And tells her best friend the show as it goes.

She leaves the TV on, 
Then she enters her laptop.
She stays on till dawn,
She just can’t seem to stop.

She loves the idea of leaving the real world
And entering an imaginary one.
That’s the story of the girl,
Who is never done.


Details | Lyric | |

Garden Rose

Written August 21, 2013


There's a girl in the garden
She's messing with your rose bed
Plucking weeds out from your head
And watering the seeds in your bed

But where will she wander
When the roses are dead
Will she come back for more
When they turn back to red

She can run all alone
Write this story in stone
On concrete slabs
Of skin and bone


Details | Free verse | |

Thoughts of You

Random thoughts of you run
randomly throughout my mind,
as I hold, looking through a simple picture of you and I,
smiles and holding each other,
embracing warmth brings me to sanity,
watching your hand on my forearm,
as you gaze into my eyes.
Oh the tears flood such emotion,
only you and I now in such madness we call love,
such madness we all call life,
such madness we all call reality.

Thoughts of me without you,
I cannot bear to see such a sight in mind,
to hear such words that tear my heart out
and sadness stabs me rapidly in the back,
and I can't bear to see such a sight as this.
Thoughts of you
running randomly throughout my mind,
my hair turns silver and white with stress
of not being with you,
and my liver covered with cancer,
and lungs black with smoke,
and stomach embraced with ulcers.

All I ask for you,
is not to be a thought anymore,
and come back to me in flesh and bone
in a portrait painting of you in reality
come to me with your beauty and glory
and kind heart and hold me again,
and let me kiss you again and love you again,
and call you mine again.
Don't say it is impossible,
when you know and I know,
that it is in fact possible
to love each other once again.


Details | Rhyme | |

Ana

She writes her songs and her poems,
not one person know 'em.
She listens to the sound of her music,
she's stuck to it like a tick.

If someone took the time to listen,
her true colors would glisten.
She's put on a mask,
and hid everything when someone asked.

She was the type of girl who would always laugh,
making you wish it would last.
She was the type of girl who would smile the day away,
too bad it is no longer that way.

She is now the girl who is depressed,
I bet you're impressed.
Since no one could tell
that she was going through hell.

Everyone thought she was happy, 
when really, she felt crappy.
Everyone thought she was having the time of her life,
who would have guess her best friend was a knife?

She spent her days alone,
she seemed to do everything on her own.
Never once wanted help.
Thought she could do everything herself.

Then the day came,
when she lost the game.
She fell apart,
and everyone saw her broken heart.

They saw the way she overreacted.
Oh, if only you saw the way she acted.
She bruised herself, scratched herself, and made herself bleed,
no one knew what it was that she needed.

They saw her tears,
and that was what she feared.
They found out she wasn't okay,
oh, she hated that day.

Everyone found out about her secret,
and she wish they'd just forget,
but she knew they couldn't,
and that they wouldn't.

She left that town and started over,
no one knew she went undercover.
She said she got better,
when really... something else occurred. 

She secretly hurt herself,
and walked away from help.
Everyone thought she recovered,
when really, she was undercover.

She secretly wanted to get worse,
no one knew of course.
No one cared to ask,
if she was wearing her mask.

Now it's too late,
she locked the gate.
Killed herself,
everyone had forgotten she needed help.

Goodbye cold world,
this was a story of a girl
who once loved everyone
then feared who it was who won.


Details | I do not know? | |

'Give me drink, rest, and solitude'

Give me drink, rest, and solitude--
these are all the things I long for.
Give me as well your finest food
and I'll ask of you, lass, no more!

My bonnie lass, what's the matter--
why are you all sorry and alone?
Don't be sad because you're fatter
than most, lass, for love loves its own.

Sweet lass, I'll tell you a secret.
If I were a young lad again,
I'd pursue you without regret!
But as I am three-score and ten

years old, indeed, I can never
be the youthful lad you most need.
But your pain won't be for ever:
for your heart will refuse to bleed.




Details | Carpe Diem | |

Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


Details | Rhyme | |

Death by Beauty

A smile moves across her lips
She gazes at her crime
A scar across her flesh and soul
To haunt her for all time
She’ll waste away for all she cares
Never stops to use her brain
Doesn’t care about the ones who are close
All she cares about is pain

She wants to be what the others expect of her
Doesn’t care about the self-respect for her
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Can’t she see what all she has got
Already?

Never to go back again
She feels the world is at an end
She will never show her grief
Although she’ll cry in empty streetS

She’d sooner live like a desolate mole
Living in fear in an empty hole
Screaming silent wails alone
Content to live in her mental home

A final tear falls from her eye
It hits the ground, it’s followed by
A beautiful body, mutated by hate
A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late
One two many bricks in the wall in her mind
Molding her demise because her heart was blind
This self conscious being could never have won
For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones

She wouldn’t fight back, wouldn’t respect herself
In the end, she managed only to wreck herself
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Little did she know, she had all she had sought
Already


Details | Sijo | |

LOTUS




Don’t cry, baby sister, I will tickle your tiny toes,

Though my broken ones are bound so tightly that each has disappeared,

There, see, the lotus blooms not in the foot, but in the eye.








By Cyndi MacMillan, For Nette Onclaud’s “On Your Feet” Contest



About this Poem

Foot binding was practiced in China from the Tang Dynasty until 1911. The binding began at the age of three. First, the feet were soaked in warm herbs and blood, as a preparation. Then, the toes were broken and bent down towards the heel. Next, they would snap the arch of the foot. After that, bandages were woven in figure 8 to push the ball of the foot towards the heel. The bandages were sewn shut so the child could not remove them. Finally, the girl was required to immediately stand up to further crush the bones into the ideal shape. The pain was excruciating. 

The bandages were removed, the foot was cleansed, then the bandages were tightened. 

Infection was a large risk. It was considered PREVERABLE that toes fall off, as this would further decrease the size of the foot. Some parents would insert small pieces of glass into the toes with this hope. The girl would walk on these bound, broken feet with shards of glass imbedded!

Over time, the foot was supposed to represent the lotus. The ‘Golden Lotus’ was thought to show a woman’s submissiveness and femininity. It was also considered erotic. The ideal size of the Golden Lotus was 3 inches. 

Unbelievably, tiny, Lotus slippers can still be purchased in China as “souvenirs.” 

Please, if you can, click on the About this Poem link for a picture of a bound foot.


Details | Lyric | |

Welcome to the Planet

Welcome to the planet
Wake me when it’s over
The dreamer’s always tempted
To come around and show her

And I just keep wastin my time
On girls that won’t love, me, like their wine
And it’s just too easy to blame
The rock and the system for causing my pain
And I just want you to know that I’m through
With being alone, when I’m with you 
And when you mask the truth with your lies
It just won’t get any better for the rest of your guys

And when you fall asleep
The night covers your tears
And the darkness sees you weeping
Cause your conscious can’t be cleared
This year you’re feeling colder
Your heart’s a little older
You haven’t found your soul mate
And now you think you’re too late

But one look inside of my eyes
Gives you the hope that there’s a guy
Who can make you feel happy and sad
And it’ll be worth it to feel that again


Details | Romanticism | |

To Be Apart

Her smile always greets me
As I close my eyes each night
The love in her voice is comforting
With passion, she's burning so bright

A sparkle in her eyes
And a fire in her heart
Let's spend together our lives
Couldn't stand To Be Apart

To Be Apart would destroy me 
Reduce me to the tears
Without her right beside me
All throughout the years

I don't know what I'd do
If I ever had to restart
And oh how much I'd lose
If we were To Be Apart

The most beautiful girl I'd ever seen
With every desirable too
She was everything to me
When we're apart, oh what will I do?


Details | Lyric | |

LifeLess

Life Less
By: IzaDonna

Such a lonely girl along the road
No one helps her, no where to go
Tears are falling from her face
She wipes them away with disgrace
Nothing but the clothes on her back
Once standing in light now in black
N I'm hoping she still has drive
N keep pushing to stay alive

Chorus:
As the memories come flooding in
She realizes shes lived in sin
Can she change it, starting today
Before her life fully slips away
Can she finally fight her fight
Cause if not she'll die tonight
Can't u realize she isnt a soldier
All she really wants is someone to hold her

As she looks at the poison
Her soul has finally chosen
She lifts it up n throws it on the ground
Thanking the strength thats deep inside
Finally free again, dont have to hide
Erase the slate, n take a stand
This is it now, one last chance

Chorus X2


Details | Couplet | |

The Second Man

Am I doomed to live a tale I cannot simply complete?
Shall I always remember her with every knocking beat?

I loved a girl who was never supposed to be mine, 
I drew her sky with lilies and her ground with pine; 

Saw new horizons from the beam of her blue eyes, 
Never knew these radiant cyans could be made of lies;

They warned me not to dream far with a too-closed lid,
Vanity told me it is envy and my vision became turbid! 

First month was a walk in Eden with roses flying in between, 
Second month declared the birth of a love yet not foreseen; 

The third summoned all jealous gazes and murmurs in a chest, 
In the fourth she disappeared and no it is not some silly jest! 

I wandered far and long trying to figure out as much as I can,
Why the only girl I loved would run away with another man?

Does love deceive humans when it manipulates and controls them?
How easy for us to blindly fall into a cleverly-webbed state of rem!

A year passed me by with all of its months and weeks and days, 
I aged in that empty year but had to bitterly live that phase;

Just then I saw her striding along the road, a vision to be seen,
The girl, who haunts me still, was carrying a baby so serene!!

My heart grew colder as I greeted her with the words I barely mustered, 
The scene deadened me since then and left me again heart-flustered! 


(True Story - Happened between 1996 and 1997)

© Guru Jad 2013


Details | I do not know? | |

For Men Everywhere One Billion Rising

1 Billion Rising.

For Men Everywhere.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

Stop!

Stop the abuse!

Of grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Listen!

Listen to the voices!

Of grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Think!

Think of how you treat,

grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Act!

Act now to change yourself!

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when you stop,

the violence,
the abuse,
the rape.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

is perpetrated by,

grand-fathers,
colleagues,
boyfriends,
husbands,
nephews,
brothers,
partners,
fathers,
uncles,

men,

all men.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when us men stop,

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

today, now.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!


Details | Rhyme | |

I'M A BIG GIRL NOW

                              Wher's my daddy?Have I done something wrong?
                              But I'll be good ,if he just comes  home
                              And I will stand so proud and say,
                              I'm a big girl now daddy I wont get in your way
                               I  wont be mean any more ,wont kick and scream;
                              Or fall to the floor,Iwont whine or fuss and get you upset 
                              I'm abig girl now daddy ,you'll be surprised I bet;
                               I can sit quietly while at play,daddy I promise ;
                               I wont get in your way;
                               If you come home,I'll be at my best
                              Am I big enough to make such a request?
                              Mommy said that you're up in Heaven
                             'Cause your name was oneof them given,
                              But if you told Jesus,that you couldnt stay;
                              And I'd ask for you back at night when I pray,
                              Then back to our house you will arrive-!
                               See mama, I told you my daddy was alive.


Details | Romanticism | |

Goodbye my Summer Love

Though the midnight summer rains
as we sit together under the geraniums,
hanging low and at full bloom,
we hold hands and talk of old times;
times that were kind to us and our youth.
As summer storms light up the night skies
We kiss the storm away, as it rolls through the grey skies
and the lighting cracks the clouds in half,
riping a hole in the universe, as we kiss the night away.

We sit throughtout nightlong summer dreams
and talk, and we hear the storms roll into the golden hills
of summer meadows filled with roses and a field full of daisies.
Love rests in time to see us grow old together,
and love strengthens its walls and pulls us closer together.
We shall go now, as day turns to night,
into our chamber of love and sleep the night away, together.
Hold us close to each other, as I rest my head on you sweet bossom,
and you nurture me to life of talks of love and beauty.

Nature whispers and sings us songs,
as we kiss and go for walks through the countryside
looking at the golden hills soaked in the rolling storms
that summer offers every year, upon a silver platter.
Sooth me, my love as I tell you of the sorrow I have witnessed.
Embrace me with your curiousity and tell me of the beauty in
the secrets of life and its hidden messangers
that hold secret letters from Devils that send temptations
to destroy something that we share, that is so beautiful and true.
Tell me that life will be okay, and my love is still true and with you.
Tell me my sweet and beautiful love, tell me if everything will be alright.

Love has seen us come and go, through the narrowed and sprinkled streets,
as we move through life fused at hands and eyes blind, not noticing the possiblities of death at any moment stalking us with knives jabbing at our backsides.
We are blind, for we see each other and only each other.
As we live life eyes a blazed looking at the sun, we do not notice the obvious between us.
Caring from me, at my time of need I never noticed the betrayal of our love.
My heart sees, but I deny the obvious and see what I hear.

As I see the knife drive deep in my heart,
you with a suitcase in hand,
I stand on my front steps and I watch the summer storms
come back over the golden hills to say, "hello"
Love is the same everytime, like a summer storm;
beautiful to watch, but when it leaves, it is depressing to say, "goodbye"
Now I sit, as the geraniums dry up and die
and the wrinkles at my eyes make me blind,
I see love walk past my house and mock me with lone kisses.


Details | Romanticism | |

Together Again

A girl whom he'd forgotten
At his door, showed up the other day
The one he'd always wanted
Just knew not what to say

The boy she longed to hold
She caught his eyes once again
Of her love, to him, she never told
But this time, all her love, she will send

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

She greets him with a smile
A sparkle in her eyes
For his love, she'd run for miles
To try this thing called love, just one time

Gazing at her beauty, he feels her in heart
Remembering those nights, with her, in his dreams
And how he felt at this whole love's start
Where they'd be one forever, to him, oh how it seemed

Well this girl's name was Katie, and his Steve
And oh how tears were shed, by them both, when they were forced to leave
But in the past that was, so now he holds her hand
Two angels together, forever they'll stand

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

An old couple now, a lifetime of love
They've conquered all, risen together, above
Together, all the years, oh how they've spent
And to each other, all their love they have sent

Feeling each others hearts beating every morning
Through all the decades, all the happy years
Steve's heart though, one of these days, stopped without warning
And Katie's wrinkled face, moistened with tears

How could Katie live now, without her beloved by her side
Knowing that beside her, his heart slowly died?
She dreams every night now, just as he did before, of heaven
Where they'll be Together Again

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again


Details | Free verse | |

SELF-LOATHING

Step after step I move forward.
Into the abyss, 	
Into the pit
Black, thick, silent,
The pool is filled
 Yet the tar is so bleak and empty.
Fully submerged there is nothing, 
Nothing but me
Nothing to smell hear or see
So I focus on me
My weaknesses
My faults
My mistakes
I feel all the pain as the air leaves my lungs
As the pressure of all that I’ve done bears down upon my chest and back.
Bones bend and muscles contract.
That last bit of air
 Right before sweet eternal sleep
 Escapes into the darkness
And for that moment the pain stops and the pressure fades…
I am cold.
I am lost.
Floating back to the top…
I inhale 
And life is restored…until next time.


Details | Free verse | |

Like the frightened Jackrabbit, I run away from Love

Jump up and down like a jackrabbit
running through meadows
running from what?
Could it be heartbreak,
a venemous snake that hides in the grass,
hiding with fangs ready to pierce the tender skin
upon the tight, bronze flesh of everyday life?
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now!
I need a vacation a long way away from the faceless smiles
and ignorance of young girls, who don't look at you,
who don't show you love and respect.
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now,
as jumping spiders hop everywhere, crawling eight legs around me
my soul black like carcoal, but my heart still beating
slower this time, not like the days before
and like the jackrabbit running from anything and everything,
I run to seek love and vanish away from the empty voids
that people call, their souls.
Recording a film with no tape,
talking to a woman you love, but not having the guts to tell her how you really feel
Jump my boy, like a jackrabbit, take my advice
tell her before she leaves
turns down the endless avenues of endless dark love
the trees grow taller, taller than you
and you sit there feeling away yourself die, missing out in life.
I cannot see you lose your love.
Say it, say it, Say it!!! Tell her! Tell her! Build the guts up!
Build up the courage, tell her how you feel. Take her by the hand and never say goodbye! Never say goodnight, stay with her till the flight comes in the morning
of the first rays of sun shine through your dorm room take her and love her!
Do not be like me, the jackrabbit! I see no happiness
Reading poetry it makes me sad,
to write of others falling in love and I never finding the one.
People tell me, you'll find yours, have hope
but I am a frightened little jackrabbit
who flees from sounds of deep emotions, not having courage to fall in love,
not building the guts up to tell her how I really feel.
She walks alone, I find my oppertunity and sing my love song
She smiles and moves on,
please tell me I cannot fight anymore.
All I have to say is Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
I need a vacation
to go to some sandy beach on an island of love
and write and write and write, the same poetry that depresses me
but makes you all fall in love with words!
Fiction about love stories, please kiss me
Blue eyed death comes, plays a game of chess with me
I bet twenty, he bets my soul
Kiss me death, the only love I'll ever get,
besides my poet friends who kiss my ass
Listen to my heart, truely, I don't write of beauty
I write for the sorrow soul, the fleeing jackrabbit
running away from love.....


Details | Ballad | |

Candlelight Flames Flickered in Fall - part 2

Candlelight Flames Flickered in Fall ~ part 2

Strip me in your ways today
Naked, dancing~ In this Rain
Strip me of this pain away
Naked, prancing, gaining fame
Strip me with your golden eyes
Your golden hair
Your golden stare
Strip me naked in the Rain
Strip me naked I so dare

Dancing & Dancing
So beautiful you stand
Dancing & Prancing
Our love in the sand
Dancing this Dance
A little late ~ 6-11 slammed

So scream for me in God's Name
Taking this pain~ A spiraling divine
Scream for me in God's Name
Fuqqed and preached slow ticking to unwind
Scream for me today as you
Make me Rock & Roll
You penetrate my soul
Forever we will go
Unclean we fiend for more

Dream all this away~ as we bleed,,masturbate this hole
Dream all this today, for together we'll " Stay Gold"
Dream & dream away ~ Little treasure cut me clean
Dream of her this way ~ Filthy pleasure ~ Lost control

So strip me naked in the Rain
Strip me, rape me~ So insane
Strip me, take me~ Play me, Friend
Kill me, fill me, this twist, a broken fist
Fuqqed me hard ~ So slit this wrist
A "fuq Me" card
So fuq~ I missed
So fuqqing hard and then we kissed

BURN ~ These Candlelight Flames Away
BURN ~ These Candles tonight for today
BURN ~ These Candles ~ And never stay away 

A lust list whispered understands
Her face so weathered, take my hand
A life so severed understands
Our love so pleasured rolled in sand
Our love so treasured ~ Destined plan

Cuz ~ In my psycho world
She's my psycho girl
My lyrics cold jam
And she's my psycho world

And in this letter to you
She's so much better than you
I wrote this letter, it's true
She's so much better than you

   by Christian Alexander


Details | Ballad | |

Without You (Song)

Daylight fade,
Burning through my eyes,
She walked out of my life
Again, I'm feeling low,
One more time girl here we go,
Now I'm falling, a final time,
Wish the sunlight didn't shine

It's getting critical
But girl I just can't help it,
I'm feeling miserable
Without you I'm so helpless,
I can't even sleep
Don't want to be, without you,
It's getting hard to breathe,
There is no me, without you,

And baby I try and try
to let you go,
The more I fight,
The more I know,
There's nothing in this life,
I want to do,
Without you,

Passing days,
I try to ease my mind,
I want make it this time,
because, she's really gone,
Lying here I'm all alone,
with nothing, to comfort me,
I'm hanging on to memories,

It's getting critical
But girl I just can't help it,
I'm feeling miserable
Without you I'm so helpless,
I can't even sleep
Don't want to be, without you,
It's getting hard to breathe,
There is no me, without you,


And baby I try and try
to let you go,
The more I fight,
The more I know,
There's nothing in this life,
I want to do,
Without you,

It's getting critical,
Girl I just can't help it,

There's nothing
in this life,
I want to do,
Without you


Details | Rhyme | |

A Nursery Rhyme Of An Ugly Kind

Poor little girl named,
No..I won't say who,
did not know what to do.
She has a great burden
that she must carry
given to her 
by a trusted man,
who was close and married

He told her not to say
how he stopped her at play
to teach her his many lewd
and ugly carnal games.

So in fear
she would be to blame
and in fear
of her love ones hurting
that poor little girl 
promised never to say
and now must carry
that enormous burden.

Written by me in the eighties for a child abuse campaign. Revised 2013







Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Ex-Best Friends

Two people have broken their friendship ties because of either a disagreement or he or she has found out that his/her boyfriend/girlfriend had an affair with his or her best friend of one too many years. This type of betrayal has taken its toll on all people since day one. It seems that this friendship wasn't enough for him or her, especially when this guy chose this girl over her best friend and this girl has chosen this guy over his best friend. Why these people aren't best of friends anymore is because for one, his girlfriend or her boyfriend cheated on him or her with his or her best friend and for two, they've gotten themselves in a lot of compromised situations. It breaks the hearts of every human being just thinking about it. He or she, of all people, should know that they've been the best of friends since kindergarten and/or elementary school. So now that these people are no longer friends, thereby being "ex-best friends," I guess he or she has no choice but to move on with their lives. These people have broken ties from each other, eventually trying to rebuild them. But even if he or she has betrayed his or her best friend, one should be seriously forgiven for all the misdeeds he or she's done: trying to take his or her girlfriend or boyfriend, leaving him or her hanging, everything. These two people are best friends and they're all they've got. But the sad thing about two people being ex-best friends is that not only are they not talking to each other anymore, they've humiliated each other publicly and personally. So, if that's the way these two people want it and they want to cut off communication with each other, well, then two ex-best friends (guys and girls) have no choice but to wish them the best of luck and hoping that they'd forgive each other in the near future.


Details | Lyric | |

I Waited for the Sun

I waited ‘til I saw the sun, 
The sun just slipped a note below my door                                                          
No warm arrival, as before, 
The fragile light of empty air, and cold rejection on the floor

The summer days are gone too soon  
I was a little girl with nothing wrong, eyes wide open without a sound  
In the empty room that once smelled sweetly
Now only left to face the gloom

I will walk a mile, just to feel the edge
Some place low enough to step right in
I can’t stop my self from falling, I can’t stop myself from calling
But my voice is weary, can hardly speak at all

I pick up a stone that I cast to the sky, hoping for some kind of sign
The wind is gone, asleep at dawn
The long day is over…I’m feeling tired
The embers burn on, with no reprise
The sun will rise, …again you say?
But what do you say, when it’s all gone away?
I’m on my knees empty, you humble me Lord
I’ve gone too far,  …., you can take me away…



__________________________________________________________
For Tracie’s Contest: Sing a Song poem
Songs from Norah Jones:   Following lyrics are from:
                                         
“Don’t Know Why”( I waited ‘til I saw the sun)
“Feeling the Same Way” (The sun just slipped its note below my door)
 “Shoot the Moon” (Summer days are gone too soon)
“Seven Years” (A little girl with nothing wrong)
“Toes” (Walked a mile just to feel the edge)
“Lonestar” (pick up a stone that I cast to the sky)
“In the Morning” (I can hardly speak at all)
“The Long Day is Over”  (The long day is over, I’m feeling tired)
“Humble Me”  ( I’m on my knees empty, you humble me Lord)


Details | I do not know? | |

her tears

so sad not to see her smile
My baby lost her puppy love
Her first heart break
To see her this way...what to say

My little girl so sad and blue
Guess its all part of growing up
We all have been there
I just don't like to see her this way

Her smile can light up the day
But not today
So young and foolish to believe
Forever that's what all sayu

I wish I could pick her and take it all away
Daddys little girl 
Frozen unsure of what to say or do
I just know without her smile I don't like it this way.


Details | Free verse | |

Skin Deep

Achilles' heel 
You’re another day older
The world’s much colder
She…

It’s not your fault
They were taken 
Don’t blame yourself 
for God’s mistake
Is…

Her beauty reflects your own
Her life reflects your future
Chasing rabbits will get you there faster
Loss of faith will bring you there faster
Watching…

The ball drops
It’s clever to see
What happens to us
And here we are
Waiting…

Yes, 
Take the evil out of this
You’re stronger
She’s stronger and always,
Loving…


Details | Lyric | |

Allie

Theres a girl that I passed by
And I wont stand idly by,
I cant let this one slip away.

Because time just falls still
You must not know how this feels.
Pinch me this all must be a dream.

For theres no way this is true,
A girl as perfect as you
Doesn’t simply come around.

So God give me a reason
To stop her from leaving,
Even if its just for a-while.

But if my words should come up short
I swear to God I wont abort.
I wont give up so easily.

So Allie lets say you gave me a chance
I’d lead you right by the hand,
So very far away from here.

We’d hopscotch among the stars;
Play dice with Pluto and Mars.
All you have to do is say you will.

Because girl were meant to be-
Why’s it so hard for you to see?
You better hurry girl, were running out of time.

Now Allie, Allie, Allie it seems you wont stay with me.
I knew this day would come, eventually.
Now all thats left for us to do is say goodbye.

But saying goodbyes to painful
I’d rather just walk away,
Turn my back on love and hope,
Then see your blue eyes pierce my soul.
I Guess The Truth Is Better Left Untold.


Details | Free verse | |

To a love ill never let go of, sorry

you whispered sweet doubts into my ears
but i was so blind to acknowledge the fears
ill never regret how i felt for you 
but you seem so far gone, i don't know what to do

i only did what i thought was right
but i guess i lost all fear and extinguished the light

Bay, i wish i never left 
but its to late to take it back

Bay, i wish i had some sort of sign
to know your OK

i have this horrible habit of making a mess of things
you might think it funny
but i jump when the phone rings

i hope you dont blame me for what happened 
but then again it must have been my fault
im sorry

i guess all those times i apologized were in advance
for the heartbreak that i probably brought down upon you
bay, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry if you ever read this
you'll finally understand the way i still feel about you 

nobody ever said it was easy 
but nobody ever said i would fall this hard

i miss you 

im sorry
im sorry 
im sorry 
im sorry
im sorry

please bay, im sorry 
please bay 



Details | Lyric | |

Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


Details | Senryu | |

The Kids of Divorce

Mom and Dad divorce; the kids are damaged for life; but some are relieved.


Details | Lyric | |

Thank you

Thank you for a good lesson,
For the times when you left me alone,
For all my sleepless nights in your house,
For the love that wasn't true,
For the smiles that never warmed me up,
For the looks that never made me stay,
For the realizing that there was nothing
To fight for.

Thank you for your promises that
You have broken in time,
For the words that were ugly,
For the comments that did hurt,
For your screamings, putting me
To work for never saying me
This simple “Thank you!”
Because I thank you.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Girl Who Could Never Understand

There was a girl so free and young;
untouched by the darkness she was yet to become.
Not yet grown up but wishing she would.
She didn’t realise it would make her numb

There was a girl who dreamed of the future,
who wished of being smart, pretty and free.
She told herself it take years to understand,
When it actually only took three.

There was a girl who became obsessed
with things such as looks and grades.
Every time she ‘messed up’ her confidence slipped:
until someone told her about a blade

There was a girl who was once so innocent,
never before heard of self-harm,
but suddenly she knew how to cope!
All she had to do was cut her arm.

There was a girl who was dead inside-
Not understanding the darkness she had become.
She grew up too fast just like she wished:
Now she’s dead because she felt too numb.


Details | Free verse | |

Das Ein Mannlein


Das Ein Männlein

The silent echo reflects through the lodge,
Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stum…
Repeating itself in the young boys head.
He is not yet a man, but stands proud enough to be,
Coming back here to relieve himself of his past.
Crying out as he reaches the splintering and tilted door.
The memories of the cold, the blistering cold overpower him.
He spends time collecting himself as the moon moves across the sky.

He had been here with his family-
Says the toppled dining room table.
He also wasn’t the only child in the lodge-
Says the curled up paper dolls in the fireplace.
There was music- Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stumm…
Echoes the toppled ivory-keyed piano in the corner.
There was a war, as the Russian Graffiti on the wall complains.
The crashed bomber-plane with the seat full of bones assures that fact.

He came back to the rotting lodge in the forest
Back to the overgrown pile of shambles to find something
As he digs he picks objects out of the rubble, a boar’s head, jewelry, dog-tags,
And finally the thing he seemed to have been searching for.
A baby’s bathtub, with a scrolled handle, stares at him through the dust.
What happened to the other child?
She still has all of her baby teeth in her sweet little baby head.
She’s been sitting in that bathtub ever since that horrible night.
When she was boiled to death by hungry war criminals. 


Details | Rhyme | |

The Mask

I once knew a little girl,
She was innocent and pure,
But pains of many bites and burns,
Have changed that girl for sure,

She always used to cry at night,
Her pillow getting wetter,
“It’s alright I’m sure”, she’d always say,
“Things are bound to get better”,

But as she grew she learnt,
That this was not the case,
So she changed and built a mask,
That would cover her true face,

This mask did help protect her,
From all emotional bruising,
But never did she suspect,
All the things that she was losing,

One day a few years later,
She took off that strong mask,
But no longer knew the girl underneath,
“Who is this girl?” she’d ask,

She’d cried that night only wishing,
She could go back to that day,
When she’d made that mask of cold heart,
And throw it far away,

But by then it was too late,
The damage had been done,
She’d lost that girl from underneath,
The one that was bright and fun,

So she decided to do the next best thing,
Get back what she had lost,
And though troubled by the future,
It was worth all that it cost,

Though she’d tried so hard,
Can I say they are the same?
The new girl and the first one,
No I think not, what a shame,

Though I do say she is better off,
Then those who still wear that mask,
But how should I know such a thing,
You probably do ask,

For I was once that little girl,
The one that made the choice,
To lose the mask; begin again,
And regain her old voice,

The moral of this story is, 
That there is no worse pain,
Then losing yourself and realising,
That you have to start again,

So just know one thing for sure,
And take it all from me,
That when you’re at your purest,
Then you should just leave it be...


Details | Ballad | |

A Broken Fairytale

Once upon a time, 
Almost 6 years ago,
A boy met a girl
With his best friend in toe.
This boy and this girl
Became young love in its essence.
His best friend became what some would call
Her own personal hidden blessing.
His devotion for his friend
Couldn't quite bring him to confess,
But he cared about that girl enough,
To warn her of future distress.

After 3 long years,
Of the back and forth romance,
Their young love finally ended,
The girl was broken hearted and defenceless.
She had given her all
To someone who was only willing to take it.
The best friend tried to warn her,
But she couldn't see her lover fake it.

A year would pass,
Before the best friend would find,
His best friend's ex,
The one he longed to say was "mine".
A birthday of hers
Was his golden opportunity.
When he missed her night out,
He offered to take her to a movie.
She wrestled with the thought:
Do I open that door?
She kept pushing it off,
Until she couldn't avoid it anymore.
Neither one of them expected,
Or even could dream
Of all that would come
From one night, one movie.

A love affair of sorts,
Filled with constant ups and downs,
But despite their best efforts,
They couldn't help but stick around.
A year and 2 months
Of the greatest love that ever lived,
Was shared between these two,
Who were only just kids.
Neither one of them was ready,
They didn't know what to do,
They loved so deeply,
But this experience was so new.
A girl with a broken heart,
With no sense of true self worth,
Met a boy with a broken heart,
And the desire to move forth,
With her by his side,
Forever hand in hand,
Yet she felt she didn't deserve him,
And did what she could: she ran.

Now her love for him consumes her,
But his heart is in pieces.
Now he's too afraid of her
But his love he swears never ceases.
And she cries herself to sleep at night,
For the best friend she hurt foolishly.
And she prays for their future together,
The one he says can never be.


Details | Verse | |

You are ugly too

Talk behind my back,
Discuss my weakness,
Prove them all that
I'm the worst but
I'm still standing.
I don't mind what
You say to them.

Tell them the secrets that
I shared with you being trapped
Within naivety.
But I'm so glad I did.
I destroyed my weakness,
Transformed myself for now,
Became indifferent.

Keep being dishonest
When you talk to them,
Represent your lies that
You prepared.

I know how good it feels.
You know I'm not denying
Because you are ugly too.


Details | Dizain | |

SANITARIUM'S SPRITE

                            


                                                             “A sex symbol is a heavy load to carry 
                                                              when one is tired, hurt and bewildered.”
						          ~ Clara Bow ~

Clara Bow was one fine-looking “colleen”, Though her judgment of men was “dubious”, “Quintessential” star, silent movie queen, Her life made some overtly envious, Smokey eyes, behavior promiscuous, Caused whispers with each new “affaire du couer”, Her fresh meat of the week, le goût du jour *, Lovers so many, lovers so “randy”, “Blokes” boasting of bedroom tours were just knaves who kept affection handy. Her Parties became quite legendary, She “titillated” with jokes rather dirty, Flaunted in front of her adversaries, Curved ‘round men, delivered lines flirty, Ended her reign before she hit thirty. Battling booze and numbers on the scale, Rattling her cage, a wild spirit so frail, A heart and mind that could not "acquiesce", Sanitarium’s sprite, a wraith so pale soon learned that black and white are colorless. Oh, how sad and tragic was her childhood, Hungry and unclothed, a tot destitute, And daddy did things that no daddy should, Mommy was a lady of ill repute who heard inner voices she could not mute. This unloved flapper loved to get “fuzzled” Often spoke out, until she was muzzled, Searching “hither and yon” for all she’d missed, A little girl remained lost and puzzled, First robbed by madness then by madness kissed.
For Debbie Guzzi's Language contest. 10 of her cool words used. * le goût du jour means “taste of the day” ** coeur has one syllable. About this poem Clara Bow’s beginnings are beyond horrific. Her mother was a prostitute and schizophrenic and the future starlet grew up in complete poverty. Her mother attempted to kill Clara by slitting her throat, and she was sexually abused by her father. A notorious partier who would tell all the juicy details of her liaisons with directors and famous leading men (including Gary Cooper), she ended up spending a great deal of time in institutions. Her story is a sad one, and testifies to how damaging child abuse can be. She was loved by directors for her ability to cry real tears on demand. She said all she had to do was think about being a girl again and tears would flow..


Details | Light Poetry | |

Where were You

Where were you
When i started to grow
Where were you
When my puberty started to show

Where were you
When my mind was confused
Where were you
When i was being misused

Where were you 
To teach me what i should know
Where were you
When i needed strength to grow

Mother 
Where were you


Details | Cowboy | |

I am what i use to be

I am what I use to be
the cild that played 
alone at night in the dark
I am what I use to be
the same little girl who hated to 
cry cause when she started the tears
never seemed to stop
I am what I use to be
the same little girl whos afraid 
of being alone
The same little girl who cried
her first day of school 
I am what I use to be 
but yet i still change
i am the flower bud that 
had


Details | Free verse | |

Impending Night

The impending night has fallen upon us
It woke with much persistence
Our hearts fled from its rage like a doe from a rifle
But the blast had already been made. . .

People fall like rain
The clouds are crestfallen with grief
And the darkness has no mercy 
Rain soaks...leaves an impact
The falls are devastating...

She was so strong, like a diamond she shined
Only to burn away and be one with the grime
I never saw her go
But the angry darkness of her essence—strangely glows...

He choked on his words, his memory
Like a child swallowing a pill
It is sticking in our throats
Against our will
And the dose ever grows. . . 
 
Who will stop the night?
You wicked thing how achingly stormy you have become!
Rich in your light as it smothers you whole
Leaving the rest to the droll sound of its toll

She burned
As they watched in angry happiness
The smoke of her spirits filling our hearts
No expressions...heavy depressions 
He was left to melt and rebuild

His wick ignites—burns are second nature
Though images are hard to swallow
She still talks to our souls
Her story still to be told
Like diamonds never found

A flame of hope hovers
We remain instilled in the rot
The darkness smothers
Its heavy slumber always waking


Details | I do not know? | |

Free

Closed eyes.
Deep breath.
Count to ten.
It's not the end.
A change. For the best.
I'm stronger.
I never needed you
I was just afraid.
I let the fear of being alone, Hold me down.


Details | Free verse | |

The Sad Girl Walks

The Sad Girl Walks

Walking through the cemetery
Her eyes stare blankly ahead
A veil of silk covers her face
Hiding her pale white skin
Her mouth is locked in a frown
There is nothing in her world to make her smile
She tries to talk but she has no voice
Not that anyone would listen to her
It is still easy to see what she feels
The pain that she had suffered
Tears have stained her dress
How long has she been crying?
Has anyone ever told her that she’d be okay?
That life has moments of pleasure
Who is this girl who walks among the dead?
What secrets do her mute lips hide?
She is all alone
Condemned to walk without a life
Just a sad girl in a sad world
Walking among the dead
Hoping that she will find a life
A life that will probably never come


Details | Rhyme | |

secret crush

be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of this big bad crush
if only you knew how much i care
the kind of love i have for you is rare
you dont even know my hearts on fire
and that your the one that i desire
i dream of kissing your lips
but when i wake away you slip
be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of thei big bad crush
i wish i could tell you how i feel 
then your touch i wouldnt have to steal
you would be mine
with our hearts and body intertwined
i wouldnt have to dream
and i could be with you always
i wouldnt have to scheme
this secret is hard to keep
into my heart its etched deep


Details | Rhyme royal | |

Another Child Deserted

Beautiful child a tear down her face
Skin soft soft a symbol of pure grace
Innocence to her eye holdings mummy's hand
Walking a bricked path until they land
Office of dust - she at two years looks around
Awaiting her mummy until she's finally found
Stranger approaches and walks her away
Where is mummy? She don't want to stay
Lump expands to her throat - tries not to cry
Panic enforces she must find her mummy - she must insistantly try
Screams fill the corridors as mummy has gone away
Why has she gone and why does the girl stay?
Stranger tries to show empathy and be gentle and kind
Feeling sick to her stomach - she has panic of being left behind
Mummy went home you see and got goodies with her new man
Not many young blokes want children or are much of a fan
Mummy had lost weight and smoked a smallish white rock
When the police came round  it was hidden in the little girl's sock
Little girl - a stupid one night stand and mistake
Wished her in care or would drown her in the lake
So selfish and cruel and greedy for her heroin and coke
Little girl crying in care as mummy chases the dragon with her new bloke

Claire Burke


Details | I do not know? | |

Chapters

Our lives are like stories 
Like the ones found in books
We all play our part in the plot
But you were a bit more than just a character
Babe, you were a chapter

Chapters begin and end so quickly
So fleeting, like the way we would flirt
A heart-pounding beginning with a dry, cold close

I'm saying good bye 
This is for every time I could have cried
This is for every night that you forgot I exist
But I haven't shed a tear on you and, boy, I'm not gonna try
This is for every single mean thing you say
This is me deciding not to pretend I'm looking the other way
This is something I'm doing for me
So good bye, cause no longer will I be the girl who is blind

The chapter has sealed itself shut
So sit in your room and play some mean songs about me
I don't care, I know somebody with nicer hair

As a kid you must have been the bully on the playground
I'm done being the girl you give affection to and push down 
And I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while you try to run the show
I'm gonna move on with my life 
Prove there are things you will never know
There are things that books can't tell you 
Things only the heart can understand
You don't have one of those
So, pardon me, if I don't consider you a man

The chapter has ended but I won't shed a tear
The future's too bright for me to look back to darkness










Details | Rhyme | |

Just Like The Others

" Just Like The Others "

They found her near the rivers bank
as the sun rose in the mornings rain
her body beaten and bloody with no clothes
her precious life went down the drain.

This young girl was such an angel
her feathers ripped from off her wing
they found her broken golden halo
as the church bells softly ring.

She was a families special daughter
her loving heart was full of glee
her childhood was love and laughter
she had a closeknit family.

Soon she faced her teenage years
Just Like The Others can't you see
they all had some fun with alcohol
which led to speed and ecstasy.

All teens will bow to peer pressures
she tried these things onto the next
and of course she had no creed
not until she boast of sex.

Sliding down further a twisted spiral
sadly another young wasted life
drinks, drugs and sex will take their toll
a young childs life is full of strife.

Many bad things done to fuel her habit
had caused her to lose her self control
to feed her cravings and ease the pain
this young girl has sold her soul.

She is so young and just turned twenty one
the last few years have not been kind
her pride and beauty is now all gone
the drinks and drugs have destroyed her mind.

Now she has taken to using needles
this young girl has fully given in
no more speed nor ecstasy
she is using heroin.

This young girl now street parades
in high heels and real short skirts
gaining her money for her drugs
and she is treated just like dirt.

Now there is no longer any help for her
she has thrown it all away
trying bad things unto the next
soon with her life she will pay.

Its sad to think we all have failed her
by ignoring all of the destructive signs
because we always let this happen
repeated again time after time.

We blame the media and this age
by branding the young folks all the same
citing the drugs and a drunken binge
its sad we never take the blame.

These precious youngs ones are our kids
why have we let them all fall down?
Were we too busy not to see?
To watch them flounder and slowly drown.

Yes, they found her near the rivers bank
as the sun rose in the mornings rain
her body beaten and bloody with no clothes
her precious life went down the drain...

Penned By MPK

Quote: Life Is Poetry In Motion, Great Poets Reflect Emotion.

Quote: The Best And Most Beautiful Thing In The World Can't Be Seen Or Touched.

It Must Be Felt With You Heart...


Details | Free verse | |

Coveted Girl of Thousand Lights

we feed in every lovely mysteries of love
others feed on tears of broken heart
garner on spicy concentrated kisses,
do we know karma holds its name?

pardon dearest shadow for stabbing you
every night i cried, tears of blood infinitely
the pain I'm feeling, i know couldn't be compared;
to that dead veins around you, coveted girl of thousand lights

remembered your days caressing my soul, 
seems like heaven always shines indoor
the days without you make the world stops,
earth shakes out of spin, crazy color of skyline reveals itself.

now we two hold in promises out of you
wishing every you becomes a dew, fragrance of joy
my spirit holds your name, peak of distant rain
wishing every you become a dew, treasure of soul.

thanks for holding my heart
thanks for showing your love
pardon my soul for letting you live in hell
your name holds the greater eternal fame.

thanks coveted girl of thousand light
with you had been the best thing in my life.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Away

Mostly I care about my heart 
But always crush my heart
I don’t want to know if there is anyone for me
Just sad for losing everything who was for me
All things going wrong out of that

Away! Away! Away! Away!
 


Details | Free verse | |

I See You Everywhere

What do I say now? Where do I start?
Without you beside me, I'm falling apart
Thinking of you, know it isn't too smart
But I See You Everywhere, oh my poor heart

Love in her ways
She drifts slowly past me
A spring in her step
Oh she's moving too fastly
Upside down now
She turns my heart and soul
Reflecting in my mind
And in my heart, a hole
Every time she crosses my mind
I'm reminded of the pain
No chance to love her
She'll forget my name

So what do I say now? And where do I start?
Because without you beside me girl, I'm falling apart
Thinking of you, I know it isn't too smart
But I Still See You Everywhere, and oh my poor heart


Details | I do not know? | |

6 o'clock news

Black rose petals drift ominously to the ground under the moonlit sky
There sits a girl crying beside the body she once knew
I take her hand in mine and tell her she’s beautiful
Even with all her scars
Even with all her flaws
She’s perfect the way she is but does she believe me? I think not
A couple days later she’s on the 6 o’clock news
A couple days later the world has stopped for her
A life once so pure, now so full of self hate
Taken by the shadows of doubt
Taken by the shadows of self starvation
Taken until she wasted away
There sits a girl crying at what she sees in the mirror
With each handful of skin her heart fills with fear
I asked her to stop but got no response
Her mind is made up her body has lost
All turns black, she’s barely alive, can’t open her eyes
The tubes in her arms are how she’ll survive
A couple weeks later she’s on the 6 o’clock news
A couple months later she sees a new light
The road to recovery is a long way’s away 
The road to recovery is what saved her that day
But now when I see her I remember that girl
She cried out for help and nobody came
She was taken away by the shadows of doubt 
She was taken away by the shadowy depths of self starvation
She was taken away until she wasted away
Would it be different if somebody cared?
Would it be different if you had been there?



Details | Verse | |

Crying out

Crying out loud,
Crying for no reason,
A girl without future,
A girl stuck in the prison.

Where dreams are coming out?
When they take her dreams away?
A girl without future,
A girl without desire.

How many things are missed?
How many words are left unsaid?
A girl is crying out,
A girl stuck in the world.

Where is an explanation?
Where is a hero?
Is it fine now when
Girls within are still believers
But outside they hate
Every detail and season
Hidden in the eyes of men?


Details | Free verse | |

Homesick

There's this girl that I know who misses her home
The place filled with laughter, her joy, and her hope.
This girl, she is sad, and I've seen her heart break.
She just doesn't belong here, and she doesn't want to stay.

When she's at the beach she just sits and she stares
Across the water to who knows where.
The ocean is the one place she has found on this Earth
That fills her with any kind of peace and hope.
Though still she is sad, she's not where she belongs,
But at least at the ocean the fierce homesickness calms.

She'll walk down the beach and look out at the water,
Totally uncaring of those who might watch her.
She knows she's not normal, that she isn't like them.
But she knows that they cold never understand.

This girl that I speak of, how I know her well. Yet at the same time I hardly know her at all.
It seems to me as I walk down that beach that
I'm never gonna know of who I truly speak.
Because as long as I'm here, so far from my home, my heart, my pain there, my hope,
I am only half here. 
I am only half home.
And all that I want....I just want to go home.


Details | Epic | |

I Have No Girlfriend

A girl of my choice is way too hard to find. Every time I see an attractive girl, I keep finding out that she already has a boyfriend or is happily married to her husband and has children with the guy. It breaks my heart just thinking about it. It seems that I'm trying way too hard. Maybe I'm looking too hard for this special someone. It also seems that I'm not good enough for any of the girls of my choice, let alone one girl who's about my age. Now that all of the good, attractive ones have been taken by random guys, I'm reduced to nothing. I should've met those girls by choice sooner rather than later. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, and no matter how many times I have to reach out to those girls from my past or whatever, I couldn't give her some St. Valentine's Day presents, let alone red roses, I couldn't ask her out on a date, I'm barely dealing with the fact that these girls each have boyfriends or happily married, and I've been rejected one too many times. I should be in a serious relationship with a girl of my choice and trust, I shouldn't spend Saturday nights in total boredom. But the fact that one of the girls I was interested in is with a guy who's way more attractive than I am makes me very sick. And no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it's just not enough for any of them. And since I have no girlfriend of my choice, even one of them outside my race, I'm forced to spend the rest of my life in solitude alone; thereby remaining in a real, depressive state. And every time I see a loving couple, it makes me depressed and they shove it right in my face. It's like someone had taken a butcher knife, plunged in in my chest, and yanked my heart out, killing me in an instant. I can't bear to handle this type of rejection. Well, I might as well die a virgin because there's just no point of me dealing with the fact that these girls are either happily married or already in multiple serious relationships with their current boyfriends. Being lonely and depressed and not having a female companion of my choice to talk to on a Saturday night is sad, and it's definitely pathetic. How legitimately disappointing. If I don't find me a girlfriend of my choice and I don't get married on time before my 25th or 30th birthday, I'm going to die a virgin. When will all of the rejection and the torment end? When will I stop being lonely and depressed? When will I ever learn?


Details | Rhyme | |

Be Her

You see her?
Why don't go be like her?
No one likes you,
so this is what you must do.

You must stop being yourself,
get off of you shelf.
You must please everyone,
to do that, you must be number one.

She's the perfect girl,
you're the no one in the world.
So go ahead, and give yourself away,
since you're going the wrong way.

You are no longer you,
see what you can do.
You are now her,
that's better than what you ever were.


Details | ABC | |

dancing at odd intervals

I find myself
dancing alone
at odd intervals

I'm that girl 
the one 
with crazy dreams and a heart full of nails

I'm the girl no one knows
and if you listen real close
you might figure out this is all a dream

something make believe
I created
and if I erase myself out
will you put yourself in?

I'm sure you have all these lies to tell about my soul
and if you pay attention you could learn something
about
dancing with yourself at odd intervals you could be the person nobody knows.


Details | Blank verse | |

Pretty Insecurity

Aren’t I pretty too?
Aren’t I pretty to you?
Aren’t I pretty enough for you?


Details | Lyric | |

California Girl

Saw a girl walkin’ down the road
Stopped to talk, then that pretty face glowed
"Hey there girl, where ya headin’?"
"California, babe. You’re a swinger I’m bettin’."

California Girl was her name
Thought life was just a game
Lived too fast, lived too hard
Now she’s been dealt her last card

We were drivin’ down the highway
Told her she was goin’ my way
To California, the place of dreams
The place of lies, the place of schemes

California Girl was her name
Put her momma to shame
Endulged too much, had a little more
Now she’s left this world, what for?

Made it to California, what a sight to see
We were gonna rule it all, just her and me
Stopped into this little hotel she knew
Not a lotta people were there, only a few

California Girl was her name
Never wanted to be the same
She had everything, she had it all
But then her life took a horrible fall

This hotel was heaven, you know
They offered grass, they offered snow
She vanished for hours then came back
I knew our lives had left the track

California Girl was her name
Knew she was destined for money and fame
Played the good boys, loved the bad
She never even knew of the life she had

A month into our hotel stay
My baby California Girl had begun to stray
Woke up late one night to find her dead
Layin’ on the floor right next to my bed

California Girl was her name
Thought life was just a game
Lived too fast, lived too hard
Now she’s been dealt her last card


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Too Close Am I

I shattered my own heart,
Wrecking balls, tumbling decisions,
It fell upon me too late,
Forever and now I will lose what I held so dear,

But I held it out at arms length,
I let it fall, the uncurling my fingers,
Sinking into an emotional seat that engulfs me,
I so desperately buried the threat,

Happy once, I have not forgotten,
The taste of joy upon my lips still,
How could one ever forget the ecstasy that is happiness,
For we all seek it within the nil,

Berserk and rampant in my head,
A beast set loose upon my mental state,
So silent am I, my comfort so walks away,
So silent I can hear the screams echo within the blank,

Damp and dark are my thoughts of late,
Cramped tight inside, no prison break,
Hoping to find my way,
Before fear swallows me in regret,
And I become lost in my own wake.


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The Widower

What is there too say now?
What is there to do this evening?
Nothing for I am without you,
I remember you, when my eyes first looked upon your brow and beautious eyes,
Your luxurious features and a heart of gold and platnium,
I am lost in a garden of cluelessness, and lost and forgotten.

My heart aches and shivers in the lone days of the mid December evenings,
You are gone and lost without a single trace,
But soon I had lost you for good and could never find you again,
I buried you in the gardens of the dead,
and the tears from my broken heart showered your grave.

Oh now I wish you were here,
To listen to my heart,
For it is out of tune and the orchestra is playing a slow melody,
and the chimes ring me to the dinner table,
To eat alone the lonely supper for the mourning of my woman.

So I eat alone tonight,
The house is quiet and empty,
The butlers and maids have gone home,
Nothing but lone, empty halls,
Once filled with love and music,
keep me company.

The slow music plays in my study,
I sit in my red chair,
I cry and cry again,
I read a book of poetry and think of you,
Not a life worth living without you.


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Should My Time Here End

My heart,
I have lived within you from the day we met
Now the passing hours seem to be shorter, still
Before I leave I must confess the reason why I drifted away
For had I known of your true desires from the start, 
I would have saved you all the grief
I tried to show you what love is but wouldn’t give you my soul!
You found it hard to trust ‘til I spoon fed it to you
It’s just too bad, late in the game, the picture became quite clear
So I stepped away though it hurt me to; I did bid you move on with your life
I’ve told you time and again, how very sorry, I am
I pray God will send that special girl so you can settle down
That finally, constant searching will end and peace will build a bridge
Have no fear, all will be well, and your angel I'll remain

Then come the day when you’re ready, God will send that girl for you
Know that, the many times our wills would clash, I wanted you to see
That, words come easy and are sweet, yet untill you truly love
That pain which haunts you still, will ever be
I am grateful for the times- good and bad; we saw one another through
I wish that you'd give God the chance to love you as you should 
We'll be forever in each others' heart no matter where we go 
With all my heart I pray, you find the happiness each soul deserves
Should my time here end this day  
Should the sunshine light up your world no more
It'll be my  fervent prayer to see you inside of heaven's gate! 

~*~

Notew:  For Waylayee Whitlock's "If I Had One Last Day To Live" Contest


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I Married My Flower Girl

This may sound a little bizarre
But listen to my tale of love
A tale so rare, so tender, so sweet
Transcends all others above

Way back in nineteen-fifty-seven
Sweet Linda and I were married
Our flower girl was her eight year old sister
A bouquet of roses she carried

Linda and I enjoyed many great years
Till tragedy struck in ninety-eight
Contracting a very rare form of cancer
A disease that sealed her fate

Sadly she passed away early next year
Losing her courageous fight
Gave her blessing to our flower girl and me
Her dying wish... we would unite

Never guessing two years down the road
Our lives would again collide
Flower girl Cathie so demure and sweet
Walked down the aisle as my bride

@Jack Ellison 2012


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A Subset Of Pain

I see a girl who hurting, yet hides the tears she cries,
I see a girl, who tries to be brave when ‘ere she meets hard times,
I see this girl ignore the taunts and jeers of all her “friends”, 
She bears the scorn her own family shows every time that it happens,
She has few friends who care for her, who understands her pain,
But people try to break her heart by turning her friends to hate,
This girl she hides behind a mask of expectance not dread,
When deep inside her heart is tearing her dignity to shreds,
I know this girl, she is my friend, and I understand her, you see, 
I feel the pain she feels inside, because that girl lives inside me.


Details | I do not know? | |

boungiorno

hello! hey! boungiorno! what is the date?/
this world of dimensions created duality/
no letters/ no words/ are enough to express/
someone like you/ in reality/

i filled all your emptines/ MY still quiet bay/
as Jhon opened world in his Yoko/
you searched perfect princes/ looked for "right him"/
now at only one overman looking/

i swear/ i will hold you/ as much as i can/
would become all the axes/ and outer space/
voice is speared by the screaming wind/
falling down/ flakes to your place/

going crazy just seeing your knees/
don't regret anything/ my Benito/
unbelievable/ perfect/ unbearable/
you whisper/ "la comedia e finita"//


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The Little Girl

There was once a little girl everyone called an "old soul"
This little girl had far too much self control
All the time she wanted to beg and cry
To be let out of this life, to be buried under blue sky
But she never did cry to die
Not out loud, but all the time inside
Everyone thought she was just quiet and shy
They had no idea that she wanted to die
Of course you wouldn't think a child of that age
Would be tired of life at this tender stage
But tired she was, tired of the nights
When he would come into her room
And turn off the lights
She wanted to die yes, each and every time
But no one knew and she could not tell
She would just peer over ledges
And wonder "What if I "fell"?
She often wondered how she could "accidentally" leave
Because in her life she only ever grieved
Grieved for her innocence forever lost
She wanted so bad to die at any cost
She did not die though, she was not brave enough
To take her own life no matter how rough
So she just went through the days listlessly wandering
Everyday, every year the same questions pondering
"Why do I continue to live this life
When all it ever had for me is strife?
I'll tell you why, because I' a coward
Too scared to take my life, too scared to be empowered
Too scared to live and be free
Too scared to know the deepest parts of me
I have to do something I can no longer abide
Living everyday just to die inside"
The girl made a promise, to herself and no one else
That she would put her pain on the shelf
She would leave it there and try to forget
Everything that happened, all the torment
There was a life she wanted to live
She decided it would be in her best interest to forgive
Not forgive him, that she could not do
But forgive herself for everything she went through
And try to live the life she always wanted
Being happy and vibrant but not haunted
Haunted by the ghosts of yesterday's past
She hoped she could be happy now, free at last
But the girl did not really believe deep inside
That from her pain she could actually hide
Pain and suffering was all she knew
What if this plan for her life also fell through 
The girl did not know what else to do
So she just went on with the days
Pretending to forget what she had been through


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Courtship

When being told you're “perfect”
but that it's not enough
what can you even do
in pursuits of love?

The seemingly endless process of
meeting and greeting
sharing, laughing, loving, caring
even becoming attached to family, pets
all so that it may come to an abrupt
ofttimes one-sided end- 
it wears me down
I'm far too young to feel as drained
I'm far too young to feel as pained
I'm far too young to feel as enslaved and betrayed
by this process of courtship as I do

Those older and wiser counsel: 
Patience, waiting is never easy
The right one will come along
You're a good person with a good heart
and you've got a lot to offer
It's their loss
*sigh*
I already know all of that, 
but it doesn't mean I accept it
It doesn't mean a part of me
cannot fear that the one I held dear
should have been mine to keep,
mine to fight for, mine to live for,
mine to die for
But what can I do?
What can I do?


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Fake Reality

You see those girls, always,
wearing bright colors all over
and they have too much
nonsense to chatter on about.
The ready, pre-made smiles,
and perfection shines from them.
They have "so much" to offer.
They are the cover of society,
and everyone loves them dearly.

I'm the girl with the scars.
The girl who can't always smile,
who sometimes can't be nice,
and doesn't like wearing makeup.
I have problems, and can't always
paint over them with happiness.

Which of us is more real?
Someday your silly dreams
will vanish without a trace.
and you'll face reality.
One day, I will face it too.

Or perhaps I already have?


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Shame of Silence

In the year, nineteen an’ thirty-nine, 
in a small town that seemed not to care,
a little girl tried her very best
to dress well, and groom her dark hair.
She’d fight for her life—whatever it took,
an’ survive her father so cruel,
her heart would stay strong , she’d try hard to belong
in this town, and much harder—in school.

Her mama had passed on to Heaven—
five years since she’d  breathed her last breath…
Daddy had tried to hide how he cried,
but then chose to live life in the past.
He drank every day of the week then,
and worked—but seldom, at most.
His life seemed meaningless—useless,
lacking life goals he might boast.

Food was quite scarce in the cupboards,
and her thin arms and legs bore the tale
of bruises and stripes from the whippings
she received every week without fail.
She was only a girl in the fourth grade
but her will and good marks got her thru’—
nobody would come to her rescue,
in those days—t’was the wrong thing to do.

Her dresses were hand-me-down clothing
with ties hanging loose in the back—
bright calico colors were faded
but worn proud no matter their lack.
She tried hard to comb her long tresses
and bathe whenever she could,
but water was heated on a potbellied stove,
and Dad wouldn’t chopped any wood.

The house, feeling cold and so lonely,
was never fresh cleaned as before,
looking neglected and run down—
crooked shutters and broken screen door. 
Kids teased her at school on the playground,
and shunned her when seen about town.
Her soul was burdened with sorrow,
and her eyes looked sad-blue tho’ dark brown.

Suspicion and rumors abounded
but folks minded their business back then—
they stayed out of another man’s family
no matter his obvious sin.
She struggled each day in her hard life,
making plans for a future to live
but fate was cruel and decisive— 
too soon, she had no more to give…

The town had just turned a blind eye—
neglected to care for this child,
protect the poor girl who lived in their midst,
and was known to be quite meek and mild.
Now, a grave lies stark—unattended,
her birth date and death carved in stone—
murdered by her drunken father, 
ignored by a town—left alone.

(dedicated to Donna who survived abuse)

              Tamara Hillman
                    ©2007


Details | I do not know? | |

This Is How I Feel

Life cant be hard when you have people to be right by your side
I seem to be the only sad girl who cant seem to keep her head held high
A girl with a smile so vain
It feels like everyday it seems to rain
But through this poetry , I release my pain
In my eyes I am a African queen and nobody can take me off my throne
I know I have been judged in life but is it because of my skin tone ?
I’m like fire
I cant bring you satisfaction
But I can bring a distraction
To me , fire brings desire
These rhymes I bring are straight from the heart
So sad to know how something so strong can split apart


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Today Is September 1 2007

On this day 16 years ago a beautiful baby girl was born.
As I cried they took her away.
My grandmother watching as if nothing were wrong.
Photos came for a brief moment then stopped
She was gone never to be herd from or seen.
It seemed as if she just vanished.
The agencies said her new family had moved.
No forwarding address to be found.
They apologize for the inconvenience.
Trying to convince me not to give up hope.
Hope what is this, something I find hard to have.
Years have come and gone and not a word.
The last photo I reserved she must have been 3 or 4 years old.
My search it still continues today, 
but not a trace of her or her family do I see.
On this the anniversary of her birth
 I still cry for the loss of my baby girl I bore so long ago.


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Change for the Better

I'll get better, one day.
I know I will.
I just have to keep going this way,
and try not to fall down this hill.

Sure, I'll fall out sometimes,
but if I don't, how will I learn?
These are the times-
it's strength, I'll earn.

It takes time to get better,
it takes time to be happy,
but I know if I do this with her,
I'll no longer feel crappy.

This is the time to change,
the time to smile,
time to leave this range,
and run the mile.


Details | Ballad | |

ASHLEY HAD A SMALL GOAT

Ashley Had a Small Goat
Oh, Ashley had a Small goat,
Small goat, Small goat,
Ashley had a Small goat,
And he had a coat of white

He followed her to school one day,
School one day, school one day,
He followed her to school one day,
And drank a some water.

 Oh, once he ate a spinach can, 
Spinach can, spinach can, 
once he ate a spinach can, 
Also a line of clothes.

The clothes can do no harm inside, 
Harm inside, harm inside, 
the clothes can do no harm inside, 
But oh! The spinach can!

 The can was filled with achemical,
chemical , chemical chemical,
The can was filled with a chemical,
Which the goat  thought was food

He rubbed against poor Ashley's chin,
Ashley's chin, Ashley's chin,
He rubbed against poor Ashley's chin,
His deep distress to ease.

 
There was a flash of girl and goat,
Girl and goat, girl and goat
There was a flash of girl and goat
And they were seen no more..

(Slowly)
Ashley's soul to Heaven went,
Heaven went, Heaven went,
Ashley's soul to Heaven went,
And Mr. Goat went there too.


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Knight

Like the girl with golden hair
awaiting her fateful kiss
you came from outta nowhere
my knight, my graceful prince
My hand you hold my heart you took
like the fairy tale told in that story book

Happily ever after
was on that last page
this girl that you captured
became a puppet on your stage

This Knight that you promised
turned black by day
This soul slowly vanished
and life began to fade

Happily ever after
was on that last page
this girl that you captured
became a puppet on your stage

My hand you hold, my heart you took like the fairy tale told in that story book
my hand you hold, my heart you took my tears fall cold with one last look

Happily ever after
was on that last page
this girl that you captured
became a puppet on your stage


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The Wayward Cafe

I sat in a small wayward cafe,
the smell of coffee beans being crushing into submission
tickled at my nosterls.
The sounds of tin cans and cups
some of them being stacked and others
drop with a violent crash.
The tables all red and round
There sat the women, with their novels, tea cups and coffee mugs
sharing small talk of innocent love.
Some women quiet and others talking.
All of them drinking something.

The cool air blew through the windows,
what a mess that wind made.
Blowing papers all around
and blowing the women's hair back.
A man sat there, writing away,
with an endless cough, a tickle at his Adam's Apple.
Then again everyone had a cough.

I sat there reading poetry, writing poetry, embracing poetry
with a pen in one hand and my head in the other,
gently resting of the red round table.
I wrote of the cafe, the women, the man with the endless cough,
that shattered your ear drums everytime he put his hand to his mouth
and coughed away.

A woman who sat reading way,
drinking lemonade and sometimes
taking long glances up.
She was waiting for someone, I could tell.
I looked at her and she at me,
and we both smiled.
Then a sudden silence,
she looked away from me.
A man, who had an ego,
(Then again, doesn't every man have one)
brushed my shoulder and pushed me away.
He apologized, not sincerly.
They kissed and hugged,
I went back to writing with a frown.
They went away in love, I guess?
And I sat all alone in that
lonesome wayward cafe.
Nothing to keep me company, but smell of coffee and tea
and the laughs of the women sharing small talk,
and that one man with Earth shattering cough.


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What Do You See

I found this old poem while helping to clean out a house that was vacant. I hope you 
don't mind that I didn't write it but it was too awesome not to post. Enjoy--------
          

                                   What Do You See

What do you see, nurses? What do you see?	
What are you thinking when your looking at me? 
A crabby old women, not very wise.
Uncertain of habit, with faraway eyes.
Who dribbles her food and makes no reply.
When you say with your loud voice, "I do wish you'd try."
Who seems not to notice the things that you do,
and forever is losing a sock or a shoe.
Who unresisting or not lets you do as you will.
When bathing and feeding, the long day to fill.
Is that what your thinking, is that what you see?
Then open your eyes nurse, your not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am as I sit here so still.
As I drink at your bidding, as I sit at your will.
I'm a small child of 10 with a father and mother.
Brothers and sisters who love one another.
A young girl of 16 with wings on her feet.
Dreaming that soon now a lover she'll meet.
A bride soon at 20. my heart gives a leap.
Remembering the vows I primised to keep.
At 25 now I have young of my own.
Who need me to build a secure happy home.
A women of 30, my young now grow fast.
Bound to each other with ties that should last.
At 40 my young sons near grown will be gone.
But my man stays beside me to see I don't mourn.
At 50 once more babies play round my knee. 
Again we know children, my loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead.
I look to the future and shudder with dread.
For my young ones are busy rearing young of their own.
And I think of the years and the love that I've known.
I'm an old women now and nature is cruel.
It's her jest to make old age look like a fool.
The body it crumbles, grace and vigor depart.
There now is a stone where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass a young girl still dwells.
And now and again my battered heart swells.
I remember the joys, I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and loving life over again.
I think of the years, all the few--gone to fast.
And accept the stark fact that nothing can last.
So open your eyes nurses, open and see.
Not a crabby old women, look closer,  see ME.

This poem was found among the effects of a patient who died at the Oxford
University Geriatric Service in England. Author is unknown.


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Life Of A Hurt Family

What life holds for a loved one out there,
Who choose the life of the dark streets,
Instead of living here,
What she has choose didnt make the two ends meet.
My beloved little sister choose the addiction of drugs,
And my mother and I sit in agony wondering when god will save her from the devils work,
We miss a part of a family wishing we can give her a hug,
We put all the pain and worry in the hands of the Lord.
We pray that he gets her off the streets in a safe way,
While she's out there throwing herself out there for the men to make money,
We pray we can hold that little girl we once knew again some day,
And be able to know we have that girl back and seeing she is as sweet as honey.
Not have a loved one use and steal off of us,
Just to know the streets won't kill my sister first,
All we can do know is have faith and trust,
All of this right now is just a curse.
We recieve a phone call one night,
The police arrested her for robbery,
We finally see the light,
My sister sitting in the jail house wishing she could win the lottery.
God answered our prayers,its better then the death of a family member,
Today I thank him and always will for saving her from the dark path she was heading to,
I'm glad that her life won't hither,
My sister would have killed herself and the unborn two.


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Stolen Petals

Little girls gotta grin,
bruised legs
shaved skin
red burns
frozen like a mannequin.
bowing to her audience
applauding her commence
calling her an on-core
little girl so heart sore
pouring her life down
upon the dirty floor.
crowds got an uproar
raping her like a new whore
petals, petals surround this girl
weeping, screaming so eye sore
hearts been ripped off its stem
laying alone in guilty flem
helpless, broken,
little girl torn,
all thats left now are her thorns.


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Mercy Killing

What happened last night brother, 
Please tell me it's not true, 
Was i a bother, 
Don't tell me you have no clue, 

Why am i locked up in an asylum, 
Don't you trust me, 
Am i getting my mammogram, 
it's my right to know please tell me, 

Don't isolate me please, 
I beg you, am only human, 
Tell them to handle me with ease, 
Am almost a young woman, 

Don't turn away when i speak, 
I need some answers, 
These injections are making me weak, 
Not forgetting my ulcers, 

Is this about the mercy killing, 
Please brother, don't cry, 
You tried your best but am not healing, 
Please let me die, 

I can's feel my limbs, 
The medicine is getting stronger, 
Please take care of the other siblings, 
Am growing weaker, 

Am done leaving on life support machine, 
Just let me go, 
You tried but am a broken engine, 
lease let my spirit go, 

This are my last words brother, 
Please don't try and save me, 
Last night when i had a seizure, 
The doctor defiled me...,


Details | Cowboy | |

I am what i use to be

I am what I use to be
the cild that played 
alone at night in the dark
I am what I use to be
the same little girl who hated to 
cry cause when she started the tears
never seemed to stop
I am what I use to be
the same little girl whos afraid 
of being alone
The same little girl who cried
her first day of school 
I am what I use to be 
but yet i still change
i am the flower bud that 
had


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I'll always protect her from you

You beat up your girlfriend because you are a brute.
I tried to send you to jail but your girl won't prosecute.
I'm a preacher but I won't marry the two of you.
If I did that, it would be a very evil thing to do.

It was a sad day when she agreed to be your wife.
I will not help you to destroy that poor girl's life.
Besides physically abusing her, you verbally abuse her as well.
How dare you expect me to help you make her life a living hell!

It makes me very angry when I see her battered and bruised.
I begged her to stay at my house but sadly, she refused.
Your girl is a fine lady who I've known for many years.
It breaks my heart when you make her burst into tears.

You will go to other preachers but I'll tell them all about you.
And when I do that, they'll refuse to perform the ceremony too.
I'll make your girl see the truth if it's the last thing that I do.
I'm a servant of the Lord and I'll always protect her from you.

(Even though this is a fictional poem, many women need protection from domestic violence.)


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THE GLANCE

There was this girl who I took in at a glance Would have missed her if not perchance In her early twenties, frail and tall Wearing hand-me-down pinks, near a shopping mall She was looking for someone, perhaps a brother Possibly young and playful and doted by his sister But her eyes were sad And the glance at her made me feel all bad Battered by rocks on a turbulent sea Family fortunes may have sunk to an unfathomable deep Deprived of strong foundations which make a girl walk tall Unable to claw back, crippled by the fall That haunting look still depresses As I see confident girls with swinging bags and long tresses Jauntily skip through the doorways of the mall To shop with carts in the well-stocked hall That look in her eyes had a story to tell Of reading the future from her present life of hell It reflected shock and portrayed loss And a life without hope or sheen or gloss


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To thine ownself be true

I look into my rearview mirror and see a glimmer of my past
I try to see through the eyes of the child that I once was
Everything was black and white, every choice so easy to make
Yet I wanted to grow up and belong to the world of grown ups
They could so whatever they wanted, do whatever they felt like
I remember wishing so hard to grow out of my clothes
Maybe buy some other fashionable clothes from Gap
And maybe then wear some mascara and lipstick, wear high heels
Why, I would look just perfect, and that would be all that would matter
So on that magical night with stars shining bright in the dark, 
I made a terrible wish- to be perfect without a single flaw
And so I resolved to be the first and to be the best
Everything must be perfect, from the start to the finish
And bit by bit, I grew out of my childhood 
And entered my teen years, doomed to be hard and bad
Oh, but I was perfect! I would say to myself
And I resolved to be that way
It was not surprising I had the perfect hair and the perfect looks
The perfect figure eight and the most beautiful smile
It felt wonderful at first, to be in all the attention,
To smile so gaily and feel so wonderful
It felt wonderful at first, to be invited 
To all the parties everyone held
Yet, one day, when I looked in the mirror,
And tried to find the little girl who had tried so hard to be perfect
All I saw was the teenage girl laughing and having fun
I realized there was really no me, I was no one
Just the perfect girl who could laugh off any thing and every thing
Yet, yet my laugh sounded so fake in my ears
I wondered if anyone else could see that too
I was straining to smile, I felt uncomfortable in my skimpy dress
I wanted so bad to be that little girl again, with freedom to choose
Whatever she wanted, whatever she liked
I wanted to be that little girl whose only pain had been her skinned knees
And she was true to herself, told herself the truth 
even when she was walking in a web of lies
I looked for her in my mirror, trying frantically just to see a shadow of her
But all I saw was many faces, all different.
My mirror was crowded with all the different masks I wore everyday
My smile was strained; my eyes had lost their twinkle
And I just wanted to start all over again

Be that little girl taking away that dreadful wish
So before you make a wish to be perfect, think again
To thine ownself be true,
you can never turn back time
To take back your wish to be perfect…


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The meat

A few toys were her trade standing on the side of the passage. Bearing the daring of a beginner she had being long hours frustrated. Seaming week enough a close forties male approach. Never looking at the toys he whisper at her ear. The toys were cheap but the girl choose to have no price. The man turned to go away. But what a price is to buy if you care for the one you wanted for party.! The girl looked down at the toys in tears wiping the edge of her sharp eye.


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A spare girl

A spare girl

This love you say is true
Is just a hoax,
Nothing more than a way to use an innocent girl for sex.

I thought what we had was real,
But it was only a fantasy,
My only use to you was pleasure.
Not love.

You only come crawling back to me
When that beautiful girl learns that she can find a man,
I don't understand why I can't learn this lesson.


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Jade

Jade
Young lady with a twinkle in her eyes
Surprise
Ready, with her past in disguise
Thighs tight
Bulge in her green dress
Rythmic swaying body
Drawing eyes to her chest
Steady and slow
Stride heel to toe
Show ‘em what heartbreak
Forced you to know
Sweetest fragrance 
Flows in her curls
So bright
She puts her own shine in her pearls
Lover of classy dine
But tonight her majesty wasted
Another non arrival
Lips she never tasted
Rolls in sheets
With only her flask
Mental note
Men always come last


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Little Refuge

Little girl goes down to the water.
Little girl climbs up the hill.
Little girl wanders in the woods.
Little girl collects little things.

Creatures and curiosities.

Puts them in her pockets.

Skipping and running and playing at hunting.

Now and then she stops, and rests.

Her every heartbeat,
her every breath,
conspires with the fragrant moist air,
the rocks and the trees,
to forget her home.

There she waits before the sunset.

She waits as long as she can.

Oh, how precious is this place.

Her refuge.

To the sea and the hills. . .
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.


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Just One Drink

What did she say when you told her you still loved me?

Did she turn away or try to disagree

Did you think about her or how she would be?

No you were only thinking about me.

 

She stands there now, all alone

Facing her fears of the unknown

Turning her head on what she's once known

Realizing now, she's on her own

 

With no one around to help her choose

She stands her ground, not ready to lose

Her head held high while hearing the news

To accept her fate, she must refuse

 

She tries and tires with all her might

To win you back every night

She has no plans to give up the fight

Any hope is out of sight

 

Her heart is now filled with hatred 

Will all the love that you desecrated

With just that one sentence that you stated

Her entire life is now dated

 

Did you ever stop and try to think,

Just how far she would sink?

How close she was to the brink?

Or how it could all end with just one drink?

 

Just one drink to end all the pain

Just one little sip to break the chain

Just one to do the job, to her disdain

Just one and she will die in vain. 

 

You don't even care to attend her funeral

To you she was just a girl that you could treat cruel

How could you be such a fool?

You don't even know of the fire you've fueled. 

 

You come to my door and ring the bell

You send thousands of messages to my cell

Repeatedly the words "I LOVE YOU" you yell

But for all I care you can just go right on to hell 

 

I don't want you anymore you Silly boy

I am no longer your stupid little toy

As for the loneliness you feel now, I hope you enjoy

Because you had your chance and my love you destroyed. 

 

I am my own person without you

I no longer rely on your every move

I am no longer clueless on what to do

I know now I can move on to someone new.

 

As for the girl that you threw aside

I hope you think of her every time you cry

You're the whole reason that she died

If you wanted someone to love, she would have been there by your side. 

 

She would have loved you the way you love me

But you never opened your eyes and seen what there was to see

I'll never love you no matter how hard you plea

So wallow in your self pity, you'll get no remorse from me

 

I hope you drown in your misery

Thank God that sad little girl is finally free

Thank God I knew it was time to flee 

This is goodbye, so don't bother calling me.


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Murdered for eating a popsicle

It just goes to show how much people have sunk.
A ten year old girl was found murdered in a trunk.
That poor girl was really in a pickle.
She was killed for eating a popsicle.
Her Grandma, aunt and cousins constantly subjected her to abuse.
When the law gets done, I hope they turn them every way but loose.
They killed her because she ate that popsicle without getting permission.
It was horrible to have to live under those terrifying conditions.
Just thinking about this gets me and many other people riled.
I hope they get the gas chamber for what they did to that child.

(Sadly this is a true story.)


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If You Only Knew

Dustin, 
My best friend, My x boyfriend, and the one I’m still in love with.
I know I have a boyfriend and he just happens to be your best friend too, but if I had the chance to tell you everything I would.
You and I still love each other like we did 3 years ago, but there’s nothing we can do about it.
I cant leave my boyfriend because I to scared of everything that will happen. 
I do love him and I do love you, but Who do I love more?
The one weekend I Saw you this year was the best weekend I've ever had.
We walked around like there was nothing else going on in the world.
The biggest smiles on our face, My lipstick on your lips, and the love in our eyes.
You and I even sang together on the park bench for the world to hear.
Shinedown is our favorite band because we both fit like perfect puzzle pieces in all their songs. 
I can't describe the way you made me feel with your big blue eyes, and the way you lifted me up like I was as light as a feather.
I know people might say if I love you so much then why don't I leave him. 
My answer is simple: I'm scared of being hurt… again.
Sure, every girl is sacred of a heart break but this girl? 
The bipolar , depressed, starving, love hungry, emotional, girl isn’t just scared she's terrified.
I do I love my boyfriend, but I don’t know who I love more.
Sure Dustin you broke up with me on my birthday 3 years ago, but we all make mistakes.
So for this years birthday you got me a beautiful “J” necklace, the color of my birthstone.
I know it might not sound like that makes up for it but the way I feel with you makes me feel invincible.
Every night we would go up to the hill, smoke a cigarette, and just hold each other. 
So if I had the opportunity to tell you  one thing that I regret not telling you.
It's that I love you and the way you make me feel more then everything in the whole world... except for Tyler, my boyfriend.
I'm sorry Dustin.


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They Forgot?

I wonder where that girl could be?
The one that hides behind the tree
Sitting with her back to the world
Thinking of nothing, nothing, but swirls

She wonders where on earth could love be?
The kind that keeps your tears from falling free
Where are the friends others have told her about?
She's wanted no where so her souls full of doubt

Me. I just know where that girl could
And why she hides behind the tree
I know how she feels when there is no love
Not even from the man that hides above
I know her feeling of wanting a friend
Hoping one day her storm will end

I know the lonely girl without a friend
The one that still prays for her pain to end
The one who doesn't know anything about love
No kisses and hugs, no kisses and hugs
I know the girl hiding behind the tree
Hiding from the world
That girl is
                   ME.


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Little One

Fields black and sundered so,
Mists of tears, forgot in woe,
Showers of rain, standing still,
Skin as white as snow,

Passers by wander not a sight,
Pay no heed to such a blight,
Showers of rain, lost in ill,
Wandering each... stone cold night,

Forgot, abandoned, this lowly one,
Hope is lost, all yet none,
Showers of rain, brights forsaken,
Misbegotten hope, now that all is done.


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Suicide

Standing on the shore, A girl fully clothed with no shoes. Her eyes filled with great suffering.. .lost hope ensues. As she notices the water stretches as far as she can see, her hearts implore won't let her be. The sky changes color. First green to blue then gray. Much to her dismay her shattered emotions now egress. "The color gray, the color gray." her tears profess traveling down her face "Oh, why the color gray." A color so dark, so deep, still allowing you to see the depiction of sadness it brings. To the sky, in her heart, buried deep in her mind. In the sky is that feeling. A very isolated out-pour of a feeling.. a feeling she tryed so desperately deny. The tide, closing in. small foamed waves now landing at her feet. It's so cold, the water. Identical to her, how she feels, all she only knows now. Numbness. Weakness. and her defeated soul. Depleted ..A heart is now left with no beat. She reflects on the lost hope her broken heart tried to hide. Seeing within herself the damage it has done. "Love is it" she says in a soft whisper ".. love is it." The disturbance of the oceans song snatched her out of realization. As she listened to the water, as it forcefully emerges hitting the shore and it's rocks with all it's might, as she listened to the water cascade back towards the ocean only to return hitting harder. The ripples and waves. Uncontrolled, involunterily. She is relieved for the ocean is singing the same song. Her song.."Love is it" she mumbled. "It understands how I feel. It knows exactly what I am going through." She smiles. "Love is it. The beating of my heart, with pain constrained inside it. The utmost sadness. Blinded happiness and misguided hope." The heart lies beat-less... No more discursion: Her last thought before submerging her body deep into the depths of ocean. In acceptance. Drowning. No longer standing on the shore. A girl fully clothed with no shoes.


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Statue

What is your perfection?
Is any of it actually real?
Perhaps I don't have styled hair,
and my makeup isn't very heavy.
I know the scars aren't nice,
and my clothes are very unique.
So I am not perfect.
Does this make me less than you?
Are you, the perfect statue, better?
So cold and so utterly heartless,
yet is is you that men pursue.
How can I ever compare to you,
a perfectly planned out sculpture?


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Skin Deep

I stare blankly ahead of me;
stare into the cracked soul of the being who used to reflect a smile
- the girl I used to love unconditionally.
That love evades me now.

Where has it gone?

I search desperately, but I fear it is lost forever
- lost forever in the turbulent streams of my --self--consciousness;
lost in the dark recesses of my mind,
in the shrunken cockles of my heart.

I fear I may never find it.

But surely nothing is ever truly gone;
surely it is simply hiding from me
- playing a twisted game of hide and seek - 
or creeping in the shadows of my despair until it is needed again.

I need it now.

Words cannot express how deeply, how utterly, I want to love that person;
to see something of worth or merit in those dark eyes,
to smile back when those pale contours
find their pride again.

But somehow, I just can't see that face the same way.

All I see are lips chapped from saying "no"
- from constantly repenting sins they will soon commit again and again.
All I see are those blank, empty eyes staring back at me
- the cracked soul within beating herself bloody to be freed.

I wish  I could see it - I wish I could set that girl free - but somehow I can't find how.

I want to see it again:
the eyes so full of promise and hope that they blossom,
the smile of a girl who knows the world will keep spinning.
the face of a girl who may be chipping away piece by piece, but is still trying.

But you can't see what just isn't there.

I'd like to think that with enough wishing, that face will return;
that somehow the withering girl - bound by her own will - may find the sun again.
That against all odds, the cracks will begin to fade - the splintered child will heal -
and maybe, eventually, time will turn back and her smile will find its way through the pain.

I'd like to think that miracles are a stones-throw away -  that all you need is a little bit of pixie dust.
I'd like to believe that love does conquer all - much as the world would like to prove otherwise. 
I'd like to believe that, beneath the face of a girl with only bad days left, there hides another girl.

I'd like to believe that inside those soulless eyes,
buried deep within a chasm of depression,
hiding, timid, in the shadows,
there lies another face:

A face that, maybe,
I can love
- or at least smile back at in the mirror.


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The Grime

She stands by the door waiting for 
her to come, the days finally here 
going home with her mum. 

She's 4 now, almost a year to the 
day, since the childrens aid workers 
came to take her away. 

When she was taken her mom was 
addicted to crack, pulled in by the 
streets and not looking back. 

Mom hustles the streets, living blast 
to blast, hoping this  will help her 
forget her past. 

But now her heart is filled with 
sorrow, "don't worry honey ill clean 
up tomorrow." 

Tomorrows come and go but she 
stays on the street, the drug that's 
too hard  to beat. 

Then it happens a sign from the 
gods, something makes her defy all 
the odds. 

Her boyfriend arrested sent off to 
jail, won't be a while til he can get 
bail. 

Now the light goes off in her head, 
she realizes that the street will soon 
make her dead. 

She leaves downtown and rebuilds 
her life, she can't believe why she 
caused all this strife. 

After a few weeks she gets a visit 
supervised, and she changes herself 
seeing her kids eyes. 

She goes back to school and gets 
her own place, help from family and 
friends she rehabilitates. 

Her boyfriend from prison promises 
her the world, says when he gets out 
it will be them and her girl. 

7 months go by her man gets out of 
jail, now this is not the end of the 
tale. 

Now the little girl stares at the door, 
which I'm sure she's done many 
times before. 

Todays the day, ribbons in her hair, 
pretty pink dress her mom will soon 
be there. 

She hears the door handle and yells 
"Mommy",   door opens its not what 
she expected to see.

The lady walks in sad look on her 
face. The young girl knows she won't 
be leaving this place. 

"Sorry honey, mommy can't make it 
today",
"Why?  Where is she?  What did she 
say?"

Her mom sits in the crackhouse, 
drugs in her hand, staring across the 
table at her freshly released  man. 

"Does anyone have a pipe I can 
borrow?"
"Don't worry honey ill clean up 
tomorrow!"
 



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How Did You Know?

How did you know
Behind her bright blue eyes
A sad girl cries
Reaching out for help
The mother just stares
As the father just doesn't care
She sits there in the dark
Tears fill her bright blue eyes
As the sad girl cries
How did you know


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Graveyard on two feet.

She walks alone
down a busy street
Fear painted on her face,
and blisters on her feet

Car horns are honking
People bustle by,
Not seeing the brokenness 
of the girl at the traffic light

but they wonder why...
but they wonder why...

Such a beautiful girl 
is alone in this world
No one to pick her up
when she's down
No one standing by her side

When you look in her eyes
you see the fear that's inside
her walls come tumbling down
but you'll never get the chance to see her cry


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Needless

It's easier to break yourself
In tiny pieces
To show them how you suffer.
It's easier to cut your hands and
See your blood flowing out of
Your body filling the silence which is
Killing you.
It's easier to say goodbye,
Pretend like you don't care and
Always smile, and smile all over again
Because it is nothing that
They want to know.

It's easier to walk out the door,
Easier to disappear when
You feel nothing holding you
To anything that in the end is
Nothing at all,
Especially all of them who were
Trying to be a part of your life
Occupying your mind and heart,
Steeling what was real once inside of you
But then they were all gone.

It's easier you think but
You don't know a thing.
Nobody is going to show you the real
That you pretend.
It's easier to say but
There is the hardest out there.
To prove you wrong
When it is needless
I'm not going to.

Because there is no sense
To teach the dead to feel the life.


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The broken fairytale

Once upon a time there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
So true was such their love,
There wasn't anyone who disapproved.
 
It had been love at first sight,
A fairy tale since that day.
The maiden had found the man of her dreams,
No one else needed to have a say.
 
They had done it all,
Candlelight dinners, shyly holding hands,
Kissing in the rain, dancing around trees,
Leaving intertwined footprints on white sands.
 
But it wasn't just another love story,
It was uniquely special like every other one.
They had eyes for no other but one another,
The best part of their lives had just begun.
 
They traveled around the world,
And she kissed her man at the seven wonders each.
People would smile at the storybook couple,
As they counted stars standing on a beach.
 
With her, he was the man he wished to be,
The one who wouldn't think twice,
About pulling her up to dance in a crowded train,
He'd protect her, keep her happy at any price.
 
He'd see through her weak smile,
All the way to the tears inside,
He'd whisper sweet things in her ear,
Hold her till all the tears dried.
 
Though they did have a fair share of problems,
They always came together again,
No matter what happened,
Like raindrops on a window pane.
 
On a rainy day, she had sat waiting,
Wondering about the surprise he had promised,
But he never came,
For the winds of fate had suddenly changed. 
 
Five years after that day, she found herself alone,
Sitting on the porch, counting stars on her own,
As she recalled the day he had been taken from her,
'An unfortunate accident' on the next the papers had shown.
 
She hadn't cried on the phone, she hadn't cried on the way,
She didn't even cry when she had to identify him,
Not a single tear or a heartrending sob.
She just stared ahead with an expression so grim.
 
It was only when she had received his belongings,
The remnants of his last minutes, did she react.
She screamt and cried, laughed and wailed,
For among others, was a diamond ring beautifully packed.
 
His surprise, the laughter in his voice,
The excitement, the secrecy of the evening.
He had been right, it had left her breathless,
But he wasn't there to see the sorrow it did bring.
 
Even now her eyes brimmed with tears,
As she looked at the ring as it sparkled,
And thought of that time when there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
 
- Miliya Parveen


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Monster In Love

A beast was told to protect a girl
The moment he saw his assignment
He fell in love with her instantly
But it was no use whatsoever
For it is forbidden to love a human
If anyone found out he will be killed
So he let it go and did his job

He kept an eye on her everyday
And he often saved her from situations
That had nearly killed her
At night he would sit by her bedside
And he watched her dream pleasent dreams
Always making sure she's comfortable

One night he did what no other dark angel should do
He entered the girl's dream so she could meet him
At first she was frightened at his image
But then as she got to know him she too fell in love
They were so happy it felt like nothing could go wrong
But they were soon discovered by the beast's master


The beast begged to his master to let the girl into the lost world
He told the master that they're in love and they want to get married
But the master was too dissapointed at his top protector
The beast turned to the girl and spoke "I will always love you no matter what."
The master was so disgusted at the angel's behavior and destroyed him
The girl woke up crying later that morning and got up to get dressed


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Your reflection

That girl staring back at you, do you know who she is?
With the eyes so sad, and the skin too thin.
Pick up your hand, try to touch her face, caress her hair.
But you can't. 
This is no random girl.
This girl is you. 
Cracked lips, pal face. When will you speak?
Feel your stomach, the bones filling in between your fingers. 
These bones aren't like sand, but your happiness is.
Slipping away in bits and pieces, and you can't catch it.
Your hair's falling out, and your lips have been bitten, like your nails that have been gnawed to the end. 
The demons are behind you, and you see no difference between you and them. 
They whisper words in your ears, and you look worse than before.
"Come," They say. "We will fix you." 
"Pack your bags, we're going down under."


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Somebody Got it Worse

Hold on to yo struggle,
Cause no matter what:
Somebody got it worst;
You goin through some
Changes in your life,
Crying and complaining every
Night…
Telling God the way 
Things
Goin aint right,
And how you deserve so much more;
But girl I’m here to tell you;
How you got the audacity 
To …
Fix your mouth to,
Question
God,
After all he pulled you thru..
How selfish are we…
And I can’t blame it 
All on you,
Cause I’ve been in that place too..
But before you open your
Mouth,
Lemme straighten you out,
It was days,
When you didn’t know what to do,
With nobody to run to;
But God gave you a friend,
& he promised to place,
Her in your life ‘til the end;
Remember that night when
You really wanted to end
Your life?
God was watching over you,
But girl I’m here to tell you;
How you got the audacity 
To …
Fix your mouth to,
Question
God,
After all he pulled you thru..
How selfish are we…
And I can’t blame it 
All on you,
Cause I’ve been in that place too..
But before you open your
Mouth,
Lemme straighten you out,
Somebody somewhere,
Living without a parent;
Scared to take action,
Baby girl;
Don’t even question,
Don’t fix your mouth 
To speak,
Cause you had your chance all week;
But girl, 
Please tell me
How you got the audacity to
Question God 
After all he pulled
you through..
See,
Its funny to me;
Cause I’ve
Had my problems too,
But I took care of my business,
So much better than you..
I smiled like nothing was 
Wrong, 
Honestly,
Believe it or not,
I still do!
You think you got it bad,
But girl;
It coulda been worse..
Some people
Don’t got nothing to their name,
And you sit up here and give
God all the blame,
But girl I’m here to tell you;
How you got the audacity 
To …
Fix your mouth to,
Question
God,
After all he pulled you thru..
How selfish are we…
And I can’t blame it 
All on you,
Cause I’ve been in that place too..
But before you open your
Mouth,
Lemme straighten you out,
Its crazy how you talking;
Like you’d switch places with
Them any day..
But girl,
Before you complain,
Try saying
“Thanks”;
Cause it coulda been worse…
Somebody somewhere got it 
Rough,
Hmm..
I guess, me 
Talkin to you ain’t enough
But girl I’m here to tell you;
How you got the audacity 
To …
Fix your mouth to,
Question
God,
After all he pulled you thru..
How selfish are we…
And I can’t blame it 
All on you,
Cause I’ve been in that place too..
But before you open your
Mouth,
Reread this, so you can get
Straightened out..

Inspired by Lyfe Jennings – it Coulda Been Worse


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I wish you did

You talk about how you can never find her,
or how you can't seem to keep one around
I try to hide the fact that I am that girl,
because I know that in your eyes I'm not.
You say that you want a girl that laughs at all your jokes,
 If you notice,
I do.

I let you cry on my shoulder, EVERY time you get hurt. You say that you want a girl that you need a girl, that's there for you when you need her One that makes you laugh when you don't want to. A girl that you can be yourself around.
If you notice, I'm her. If you notice, I'm everything you said you want. Do you notice? Not one bit.
But I wish you did.


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Mentally ILL

Someone please help me please call the doctor 911 it’s an emergency please
come save me
Because I'm going crazy a lot of people think I'm insane in the classroom
talking to myself as if someone is really there
But I swear I saw a girl sitting right next to me walking through the
hallways seeing different spirits
Walking home and I feel someone walking behind me but when I turn
around nobody there
It's like I'm losing my mind I swear I saw the devil looking at me through
my bottle of Hennessey
Dropping the bottle breathing hard as hell hearing voices calling my name
and asking me is I'm ready to die
Running upstairs to my room but before I can get to the door it close by
itself and when I try to open it it was locked
I started to get paranoid I started yelling running back down the stairs
reaching towards my phone trying to call for help
But my phone is off my head started to hurt it felt like somebody was
hitting me on top of my head
I drop to my knees and look up to the ceiling screaming at the top of my
lungs stop
Every minute gets worser I started to feel dizzy trying to get up but I
keep on falling
Hearing a knock on my front door but I'm too weak to get up so I crawl
towards the door and try to open it
But it opens itself I started to crawl back towards the wall but as soon as
I reach the wall my phone started to ring
So I crawl towards my phone and answer it I said hello but nobody
answer the only thing I heard was somebody screaming
I started to panic I ran towards the door and try to close it but something
with a great force push me back
I hit the back of my head against the wall and I was knockout cold
And when I woke up I was in the hospital in the emergency room my eyes
were very blurry that I could hardly see
   
I heard somebody calling my name I look left and at the ceiling and I still
didn't see nobody
So I look towards the window and I see the same girl that was in my
classroom
I started to get up but she started to walk closer to me so I started to panic
I got up out of my bed and said what do you want she didn't answer
She just kept on walking towards me so I ran out the emergency room and
ran down the stairs
The doctors tried to stop me but they couldn't catch me
I don't know why I keep on seeing this girl she always around me every
day
I don't know what to do I'm afraid will I die before my time I'm not ready
to die
Dear Lord If you hear me please save me because I'm mentally ill I think a
demon has entered me
Now I’m seeing things my life is darker I barely see light no one can't help
me
Everybody thinks I'm crazy they got me on pills trying to calm me down
but it ain't working
I'm asking for your help but you’re not helping so what do I do I can't
even help myself
Because I can't think straight I went inside this room with windows in the
back of it
I lock the door and took a deep breath to relax myself I sat by the window
and look up Into the sky I started to cry
Because I wasn't normal I don't know what's wrong with me
I started to hear the ambulance coming towards the hospital so I open the
window and look out
Before I could put my head back inside the window I heard the door open
so I quickly turn around and I saw the girl again
 Istarted to yell leave me alone but she wouldn't she start to run towards
me
So I jump out the window and the ambulance was right in front of me
I didn't have enough time to move out the way
Good morning everybody this is fox news Chicago and we're coming to you
live from Chicago
yesterday night was an awful night something tragically happen at the
Chicago hospital
A young man was found dead in front of the hospital a witness says that
the young man jump in front of the ambulance
  
And the person that was driving the ambulance couldn't stop in time to
save the young man's life
It's a sad story and the driver was very speechless about the situation
We will have more information about this accident once the detectives do
further investigation


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AISHA

Forced into womanhood at 12
betrayed by those you trusted
abused daily mentally and physically
forced to sleep in the animal shed
Your escape was short-lived
being captured and returned
to your tormentors

In the mountain
the cruel knife passed
on your innocent face
No, Aisha
that is not cold water
in your nose
It is your blood
Your nose is gone
and so are your ears

Your tormentors have gone away
and left you alone to die
But you refused to lay down 
and die
With your defiant spirit
you crawled down the mountain
to those who cared
and protected you
and helped you to a new life
away from the evil unjust system
you inherited by birth

What was your crime
to be dealt such cruelty?


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Diary Of Lost Love Part 3, Dedicated to a Lady

She finally tore down what we built
like rolling stones got our hearts
tripping over the hill.
Like a mountain
we finally reached the mountain peak.
Our love fountain
ran out of water
so I never stop to take a drink.
A deep emotion
going through my body
beating on my heart.
A deep emotion
telling me that the rapid beats
will never stop.
I kissed her lips
I kissed her cheeks
and told her the lovely truth.
I rubbed her back
massaged her feet
and told her that I'm forever loving you.
She looked away and walked away
like she never cared.
I chased her left and chased her right
throughout the years.
I caught up to her and finally
grabbed her hand.
Baby girl loving you is my only mission
and my only plan.
So love me kind and love me dearly.
Save me the last dance.
So love me kind and love me yearly
all over again.
They say your ex
is an example of what you don't deserve.
Well my ex I truly loved her
but somehow I found a way
to love to hurt her.
Baby girl I don't deserve ya
I know it's hard but I'm not perfect.
I know you love me
am I worth it?
The pain is unkind
but my heart is burning
and I'm yearning for your love.


Details | Couplet | |

Goodbye to an Austin Angel

She was headed off to college at 18 years old,
News of the crash leaked out, and the mood turned cold.
She was the best person you could ever know,
When she danced with her team she put on a show.
Recently in Ohio, I found this rock,
With its angelic shape I found this cross-walk.
In the crosswalk I found my old best friend,
If only my heart could find a way to mend.
As a young country singer once sang, 
“18 years have come and gone,”
It’s hard at this point, it’s hard to move on,
I guess it’s time to move down the line,
I need a reassuring sign to ease my mind. 
Goodbye my friend, may heaven treat you well,
In the past, I will no longer dwell.
Hello my guardian angel, you are my eyes,
For you are with God, and He is wise.
Goodbye Tracie Lynn, you made people smile,
I’ll be there for you after a while. 


Details | Free verse | |

the mistake

I never knew my heart can hurt this bad.
You broke my heart,you shattered my heart
into pieces.
I was always by your side,i'd always thought
you was my center of universe,part of my world
I can't get you out of my mind.
I should have stop dieing my feelings for you.
I every time I see you,I feel like my body is in
a state of shock.
I never thought I can be lonely in this world.
I should of thought of your feelings to.
But I put my image first,you was second.

I just can't believe I made a mistake of a life time.
you were the girl I loved,you made my life whole
your girl in my life.

but my chance is over,and my love is too..


Details | I do not know? | |

A Sad Story

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. 
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her, she could see everything, 
including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the 
world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her 
boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just 
take care of my eyes, dear."


Details | Free verse | |

Diary Of Lost Love Part 2, Dedicated to a Lady

She act like she cares
but she doesn't care at all
love is something she fears
but what is she fearing for....?
She said that she loves me
but that was all a lie.
If you truly loved me
then you would look me in my eyes.
I'm not a fallen angel
or a devil in disguise.
I'm nothing like the temperature
but I want our love to rise.
Our love was so hot
but now it's feeling cold
they called us Adam and Eve
but now were the Princess and the Toad.
Baby girl your so beautiful
I never ever lied.
Baby girl your so wonderful
I love that sparkle in your eyes
but when you left me
the pain corrupted my mind
but when you left me
I wanted to rewind time
to go back and love you
one last time.


Details | Rhyme | |

Hopeful Waiting

An adolescent living his life day by day
Who had once gotten into a fray
Tries to find his soul mate
As his life piles up with unwanted hate

He is searching and waiting
While life is using him as baiting
Life have attached him to a hook
For he was mistook as a crook

He  once found the love of his life
And wished for her to become his wife
But she mistreated him like he was a crook
Forcing him to live in a nook

The girl betrayed him and left him all alone
Leaving him on the ground in a prone
Sometimes he curls up and wept
Because the girl's promises were never kept

After a while he pulled himself together and stood up
He slowly live life day by day and bought himself a pup
The pup lasted for a day until he was returned
Which caused his heart to be burned
After that event he went around searching
He searched here and there while lurching
Hoping to find that girl that he love
Like someone who is missing their other glove

Soon enough his love found him
But she left him back into a grim
She wanted to be free
And soon enough she wants to flee

He forgave her for her betrayal
Causing him to be a portrayal
He decides to change for her
Like the kind heart Gir

And now he waits all alone for her
Seems like he was being a chauffeur
While she plays her game and live her life
And now he seems like he was a wife

His soul mate is like the boy playing games
As his hatred boils up in flames
But he remains true to her since he loves her
Because he believes their love will recur


Details | I do not know? | |

Poems I live by

These poems are some of the poems that mean a lot to me. They tell a lot about me and my life and none of these are mine just some I live by. 

Isn't me 

Behind my smile 
Is a hurting heart 
Behind my laugh 
I'm falling apart 
Look closely at me 
And you will see 
The girl I am isn't me.

Wrong

When I cry at night 
the only thing 
I can think to myself is...
How can I seem so perfectly fine 
In the morning 
Like nothing is wrong?
And how does not one single person 
Notice that I'm not okay? 

The prettiest 

The prettiest smile 
Hide the deepest secrets 
The prettiest eyes 
Have cried the most tears 
And the kindest hearts 
have felt the most pain. 

The girl 

I was the girl 
That was happy all the time 
I was the girl 
Who couldn't stop smiling 
I was the girl 
Who didn't know how to cry
I was the girl 
Who can be spotted laughing all the time 
Now I've become the girl 
Who thought of death constantly 
The girl 
Who faked smiles everyday 
The girl 
Who cried herself to sleep every night 
The girl 
Who has forgot to laugh 
But no one knows 
No one knows how I really feel 
And that's the worst part.

My death

The death of me is because of you 
I tried everything I knew to make you happy 
But everything I do is wrong
It breaks my heart 
I cry at nights feeling alone 
I'm hurt 
And scared I don't know what to do 
I feel so much pain 
I wanna die 
I wish for it day and night 
Don't make me stay 
With the lies you tell me 
You blame me for so much 
I didn't do 
I'm never gonna be perfect for you 
The death of me  
Will be because of you!

This girl I know 

She writes down on paper 
What's shes afraid to say aloud 
She shy around people she knows 
But confident around complete strangers 
She smiles on the outside 
But inside she's being torn into pieces 
By a boy who never cared 
She whispers songs to herself In class 
Praying no one listens 
She looks at her classmates 
And wishes she was normal like them 
She longs for strong arms 
To hug her and keep her safe 
She writes down songs that she loves to remember to download 
And listen to forever
She wishes she could be like the other girls 
She's insecure about herself 
And want's to be understood  
This girl that I know 
Yeah she's me!


Details | Quatrain | |

How much are you

How much? A phrase so common
The worth a commodity should wear on.
But what else can give it that price tag
Than the present value it now has.

So unfortunate most girls don’t know how much they are
Displaying what ought to be covered
And giving it all on a platter
So men have no need to dig further.

Howling and moaning under leaves and branches
The lucky ones get the honor of a back seat.
Even most animals can’t get so low
How cheap they are, this goes to show.

Wished only you knew
How “your honeys” now see you.
You can no longer walk by tall as you used to
Now they have known all that it is about you.

Painted withered flowers blooming around
So breath-taking yet so sour
Fading the more they are used.
How much now are you?


Details | Lyric | |

Dream of Me in Black and White

You can only see me
in colors that you can handle
in colors that you choose yourself, 
colors that you put me in, 
and force me to wear,
every time you look at me with your piercing eyes.

And it makes no difference 
what I wear, 
how I paint my nails, 
what shoes I put on,
or what color I dye my hair.
All you see is

Black and White. 

Because that's all you choose to put me in.
No matter how vibrant
the colors I sport,
it's still

Black and White.

the easy-to-read, easy-to-control colors
that really aren't so easy at all.
I'm complicated.
And your

Black and White

is simple,
easy for you to see,
easy for you to understand,
easy for you to make me be.
easy for you to stuff me in your choice of clothing,
make me into your "perfect" girl,
your little Barbie doll.

you say that it's "your right"
and that you have "earned" it
with what?
certainly not respect.

you say that it's "fair"
for you to be 
this controlling,
this demanding, 
this emotionally abusive.
but when I say something about it,
you counter-act.

"If life is so fair, 
why do roses have thorns?"

you ask me
as you are mentally counting, measuring, calculating, and documenting 
everything wrong with me.
as you are mentally molding me,
shaping me,
and dressing me
into your favorite

Black and White.

it's easy to pretend 
that you're not looking at the girl next to me,
wishing that I were her,
when you put me in

Black and White.

You can take your habits
and selfish, demeaning ways,
and stuff some other girl
into your chosen

Black and White.

because no girl, it seems, is quite good enough for you, 
and your double standards,
and your controlling fingertips
that know just how to press in on a girl's heart, mind, and soul.
And yet, 
you manage to make every girl ask herself
if she's good enough for you.
But the real question still stands.

Are you 
good enough 
for any girl?


Details | Rhyme | |

A Walk To Remember

It was a Friday night, and I took a long walk around
Just to ease my mind which stress seems to surround
It felt so great, the warm breeze hit my face
As I glanced at the constellations shining from the east
So I step forward, and continue to reminisce
Moving silently, to what Atmosphere acknowledges
And the moon moves an sadly grins from the view
As a young kid walks off the emotions he once knew
A cow moo's, I see it standing in the dark
Another sleepless soul, looks like were in the same park
I glance up, just in time to see a comet
Close my eyes and make a wish, maybe I can stop it
And pocket it, cause the luck it holds I need
I'm tired of being out of money for this toll of dreams
I look away, towards the long road ahead of me
Push the memories from my view, and walk into another scene

Now a new scene, I see this young girl of fifteen
Staring in the mirror as a tear reflects from a dream
All she wanted was to be a witness of compassion
Yet instead she became a witness of verbalized aggression
Now she stepped forward, and crossed the lines into depression
Eye's pierced with the tears of absolute neglection
Mentally altered, this girl took thee abuse
Later to encrypt her wrists with a knife she shouldn't use
Another fight, so she turns to a heaven's view
Cries and she prays to a God she never really knew
Never understanding why life takes it's sways
While she sees a loving family when here life turns to gray
So she sneaks out, to walk off all her memories
Walks down a boulevard, yet it's like a country street
Kicks a stone in the light shining from the moon
As I watch in the distance as she walks outta view

Now a Veteran, straight outta World War Two
Stares out the window, with his eyes so blue
Remebering the times as a strong young chap
Now he sit's in his wheelchair, he's now handicap
Cause he can not forget all the blood that was shed
Young growing boys live's end before it begins
Haunted by the image, it now pillages his brain
Can barley even speak, without hearing bullets ring
He dreams of, taking back what he'd seen
A young Jewish boy left slaughtered by his feet
Wondering, what kind of human can achieve
Such a gruesome status, and still be an elite
It penetrates his head, even decades after war
But still he dreams nightmares of both blood and gore
He closes his eyes, and he prays for an escape
From this terror that has haunted him through the life he's made


Details | Free verse | |

Their Souls Departed

   She walks the streets
Of dim lit lights
The heart broken homeless woman
Lady of the night.
.
   The world was yours
Gold and pearls, a platinum life
Married to a silver spoon
You were once a rich mans wife.
.
   Your husband befriends the spirit king
A storm of abuse and alcohol rain
Now you run to spare your life
The only hope is to escape the pain.
.
   State to state with blackened heart
Into the night is where you sleep
Within the darkness led astray
Where lonesome lives and gutters weep.
.
   To your new home
No key no door
Emptiness squared
Of paper board.
~~~
   He walks in silence all alone
Seeking out divinity
Mile upon mile on worn out shoes
Through the streets of un-lit trees.
.
   Contrition holds his broken heart
Bound to earth by saddened love
His soul was taken within a glance
He is now the lonesome dove.
.
   Once a father, a husband, 
A man
A wonderful life
Of dreams and plans.
.
   Until that night in the car together
Unknownst the evil seed
A green light passed and through a yellow
The devil in drunken speed.
.
   A wreck to fell the family tree
Within the night of silence brings
A horrid vision imprinted the mind
Of a soulless man with broken wings.
~~~
    Even while life continues to shine
    There comes a girl of only nine
    Abandoned, alone to hope adored
    Mommy is gone to be a whore.
.
    This child walks in huddled arms
    Frightened to be where evil charms
    She finds a box to crawl inside
    Alone to live, alone to cry.
.
    While tears fall down upon her face
    A sound has startled her in her place
    Unbeknownst the box with broken tape
    This nine year old girl will now be rapped.
~~~
   Now as I sit
In the comforts of home
I knew none of these people
Or the streets they called home.
.
   I lived like most, in ignorance
To those poor and suffering lives
Never once did I adjust
A thought or even an eye.
.
  Yet on the set the news I stare
Police lights shine in heavy glare
Those unknown people, those broken hearted
Lie still in the night, their souls departed.

     BY: DARREN J McMURRAY
     Placid Poet


Details | Free verse | |

Regrets

This anger that is inside me now is tearing me apart,
    After all this time I find you had been lying from the start.
I am hurting so much from the pain you have caused me,
    By using your beauty and charm so I would not see.
All the lies and deceit while loving you and giving all my trust,
    I will expose your evil ways and mean doings this is a must.
Never  should another endure what you have put me through,
     This I will make sure of if it's the last thing that I ever do.
How dare you break my heart and then treat me so bad ,
      It  takes a lot to upset me but girl you have made me mad.
You've no idea the rage that I am carrying inside me now,
      I will make you regret this one day I will figure out how.
If it's the last thing I do I am going to make a example of you,
      How and when I am not sure of but trust me it will be soon.
You walk away from me as if you've done nothing wrong,
      Believe me girl I will show you and it wont take me long.
Seriously do you think you can get away with treating me this way?
      So wrong you are for that and you will know this one day.
That deceiving the man thats so in love with you ,
      Is something you are going to learn not to ever do.
Why would you ever do this to a man that loved you so,
      I guess this is something that I am never going to know.
This anger inside that is slowly tearing me apart ,
       Blinded by your ways I was completely in the dark.
Just one more thing I must say to you before I go ,
       You are evil  and that's something everybody will know.
TAC
   


Details | Prose | |

The voids of life

I find this day is so hard, 
I know I am tiered but the pain of life makes breathing hard.
My heart feels like a void and I wish this life was over
I see images in my mind of dreams that will never be
Of smiling at an infant in my arms that belongs to me
To see the wonder in my child’s face as they run with joy
The images seem reflections from my own youth
The beauty of my daughter as she grows into a woman
The joy wondrous JOY of walking down the aisle, with her on my arm
To watch my Grandchild play at my feet
The tear in my eye and pain in my heart 
For what I’ll never have leaves life a void


Details | I do not know? | |

the girl behind this picture

The girl behind this picture has a sad past
the girl behind this picture feels responsable
the girl behind this picture hates the life she lives now
the girl behind this picture wishes it will all go away
the girl behind this picture is lonley from the disaster that has become her
the girl behind this picture is terribly mess up
the girl behind this picture believes the only way to make it go away is end it all
the girl behind this picture has hurt people in the process of living in the life that has
become of her
the girl behind this picture her eyes hurt from crying 
the girl behind this picture cuts her arms and lets the blood hit the ground like stone
hitting concrete
the girl behind this picture is lied to and manipulated
the girl behind this picture is eatin up by pain emptyness  hate agression 
the girl behind this picture needs to go back to the day wen it all started 
the girl behind this picture hates everyone thats held her back from being herself
the girl behind this picture hates the way she looks 
the girl behind this picture had her life stolen before it was her time 
the girl behind this picture lives a life of depression 
the girl behind this picture thinks its best if she ends it right now 


                                                                       SO BYE!!!!!!!!!!!


Details | I do not know? | |

once

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it "Chops"

because that was the name of his dog

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A



And his mother hung it on the kitchen door


That was the year that Father Tracy

took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus

And his little sister was born

with  no hair

And his mother and father kissed a lot

And the girl around the corner sent him a valentine signed with a row of X's

and he had to ask his father what the X's meant

And his father always tucked him in bed at night

And was always there to do it.


Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it "Autumn"

because that was the name of the season

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

and asked him to write more clearly

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

because of its new paint

And the kids told him

that Father Tracy smoked cigars

And left butts on the pews

And sometimes they would burn holes

That was the year his sister got glasses

with thick lenses and black frames

And the girl around the corner laughed

when he asked her to go see Santa Claus

And the kids told him why

his mother and father kissed a lot

And his father never tucked him in bed at night

And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it.


Once on a paper torn from his notebook

he wrote a poem

And he called it "Innocence: A Question"

because that was the question about his girl

And that's what it was all about

And his professor gave him an A

and a strange steady look

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her

That was the year that Father Tracy died

And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went

And he caught his sister making out on the back porch

And his mother and father never kissed or even talked

And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup that made him cough when he kissed her

but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do

And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed

his father snoring soundly.


That's why on the back of a brown paper bag

he tried another poem

And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"

Because that's what it was really all about

And he gave himself an A

and a slash on each damned wrist

And he hung it on the bathroom door

because this time he didn't think

he could reach the kitchen.


Details | Didactic | |

Do Not

Do not listen to this lonely heart
Or to this girl that's torn apart
Or to this girl who's dead inside
Or to these previous thoughts of suicide

Do not care about this decay
Or how she feels today
Or how she's going insane
Or how she cries on memory lane

Do not help her as she drowns
Or tell her jokes when she frowns
Or tell her everything will be okay
Or tell her she will be freed from this dismay

Do not project empathy towards this empty thing
Or her waiting for you to ring
Or her bouts of depression
Or her suicide mission

Do not give a thought or care
Or save her from this dispair
Or save this disaster
Or save her happily ever after


Details | Free verse | |

The Ugliest Girl in the World

I’m the ugliest girl in the world
I hide on the outside
With make up
With curls
When I’m thin people like me
Congratulations!
What an achievement
For abandoning myself
When I’m fat, people like me
Ugliness peeks through
So witty!
So smart!
So talented!
Thank god she’s fat!
In between
Mother says with mother bias
What a pretty face
Father says with male bias
I’m an 8 out of 10
Thanks, Dad
Lovers know what I want to hear
But won’t say
It will seem false
It will be false
After all
I am the ugliest girl in the world

Lovers compliment others
Words never said to me
For I am ugly
If I had the right kind of knife
I’d carve an X into my face
Diagonal
Right to left
Diagonal
Left to right
X-ed out
Then there would be no question
It’s the wondering that kills me

Maybe, maybe it doesn’t matter
Maybe, maybe I’m pretty
This woman lives in me, somewhere
Battling my ugly
Battered by my ugly
In me, two people who despise each other
No one sees my wounds
Agonizing wars, b*tches brawl
If I had the right kind of knife
I’d cut them right out of my chest
Leaving a void
Where the pain was
A void
My ugly pain
MY ugly
Where would I be without my ugly?


Details | I do not know? | |

I'm Ugly

I’m Ugly
Ijust do not understand on why I can’t never get a girlfriend
I go to school and try to talk to a girl
But she end up dissing me
Talking about me behind my back
Calling me ugly  
And when my buddies tell me the news
I get discourage
And when I come home I go to the bathroom
And look into the mirror trying to see if it’s true
The mirror breaks I started to cry because I’m ugly
And I cannot fix my face I never wish to be this ugly
But I guess my mother lie to me
Because she said I was handsome I try to look the best that I can be
13But it seems to be worthless because none of the girls are impress
They always go for them boys that’s popular and looks the best
But they never go for them boys that looks less attractive on the outside
But more attractive on the inside
Sometimes I wish that girls were more mature on what they look for
From a man but I guess they will always pass the good men by
Sometimes I ask God why he made me so ugly
Why couldn’t he make me fine as hell so all the girls can love me then
But I guess I will always be dreaming because no girls love me
And when I see the other dudes date the girls I love or fantasize
I get mad because they are only going with them for sex
But they usually have success on doing it
Come back to school the next day and see the girls I desire pregnant
I hate when Valentines comes around
Because I don’t have no girl to give a gift to or make love to
Watching couples make love through my window
Thinking like damn why that couldn’t be me
Man I’m sick of being lonely
14   
Sometimes I wish I had a girl like Brooke Valentine
A smart, pretty, and sweet girl that fears God
But I know this will never be true because I will never find a girl just like
her
But **** it let me stop crying
Because someday I will find me a girl that’s perfect for me
And I don’t know why my reader is laughing but this is how I feel at times
I wish I had a girl as a friend that can encourage me at times to build my
self-esteem back up
But I guess it will never happen because my self-esteem will always be
low until I finally get that one girl I desire


Details | Rhyme | |

The Cycle Lives On

A girl child is born given life brand new
To a mother so proud and a daddy too
Elsewhere mother gives a baby boy life
Daddy's not there he's at home with his wife
One day daddy's gone Baby girl wonders why
Baby boy hides his hunger so mommy don't cry
One mommy works from morning into the night
The other works streets sleeping thru daylight
Each mother making the best of her situation
Children denied mothers love and appreciation
Each child raise themselves all, alone
Kids with no childhood forced to be grown
A two parent love they'll never get to learn
15 years old to each others they will turn
Not knowing true love thinking theirs real
Only both parents love they sought to fulfill
A mother gives a girl life as they do a son
They're but babies, at 15 innocence gone
Reality of broken homes, the cycle lives on



Details | Narrative | |

THE PLAGUES OF OUR DAY

The blind man waited, 
at the intersection, for someone
to help him cross the busy boulevard...
and he was accustomed to live in twilight,
fumbling for a hand on his right;
and he finally found mine!


Judge humanly...not pettily,
you could be in that situation 
and feel abandoned and helpless,
unless somebody extends compassion
and lends that hand in time of need;
only human love can render a good deed!


The orphan girl recognizes a greed so mundane,
her body has grown, so has her world's view;
that person who abandoned her at the orphanage
when icy rain pelted against the foggy windows,
was her own mother that refused to knock on the front door!
She still feels unwanted, unloved and rejected by who,
for some shameful reason, dropped her off and was gone
into the dreary autumn's night to forget her despair!


Judge the pain...not the circumstance
that impels a misguided heart to err;
beneath an appearance of denial,
there's a certain humanity we can't conceive,
and what prompts us to act in unreasonable and strange ways,
is still not quite understood by all;
all we can perceive is the guilt we can't bear,
and the resentful restlessness which shortens this very existence!


The elderly woman, sitting in an old wheel-chair,
waits at the traffic light as the whisking wind
brushes her frizzy and gray hair;
the sunken-cheeked lady is the regular beggar,
whose life has never been mellow,
but full of tragedy and sorrow!
Her frail voice is not insincere, but thankful and kind... 
when I hand her a dollar out of my car's window!


Judge fairly... that could be you standing there,
or someone you love;  fate can be changed if we dare...
we assert truths without clarity and condemn unjustly!
Let's take the mendicant's place, at the same corner, and beg all day;
wouldn't we be humiliated, be scorned or even be ignored
by the glances of passerby that regard us not as their friend?


The run-away teenager with lots of make-up,
looks like a madam out of a brothel,
who tries to hide her identical age by smiling at strangers...
and her trade is that of an inexperienced gal,
unprotected and exposed to many dangers;
and it might cost her life...that's already a living hell!     


Judge not too harshly...when facts aren't known,
and the only assumption rests with our pity;
along the side of the street there are many eyes that weep,
eager to return home, to a home that was so warm and cozy!
And the lucky ones will make until dawn,
others will not open their eyes, but eternally sleep!



THE PLAGUES OF OUR DAY 


The blind man with a steel cane  stooped and waited
for someone to help him across the busy boulevard;
he felt warm sunlight, and wished his sight back without living in darkness,    
then he saw a glimpse of that light when he was touched by my kindness.   
The orphan girl wants to escape, but she is afraid to venture in the outside world
still feeling unwanted, unloved and shivering unable to shield herself from the cold.   
On many rainy nights, she sits by her barred window recalling her frail mom fleeing 
into the Autumn dreary night, and inside she longs for caresses to begin the  healing.
Another teenager, hustles in the dangerous streets of night...she barely 
can walk on high heels, but she endures pain for gain;
her home was blessed with good parents, but she rebelled and ran away... 
she has no choice but sell her body...what will she attain?  
Lend a hand to anyone in time of need,
only human love renders a good deed;
How can we help abandoned babies and run-away
and get rid of all the plagues of our day that infest society?


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Hate the way i lie

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie 

This is real and we both know how it fells 
Right now the pain, it kills 
We wont fight it almost doesn’t fell right 
The right fells wrong, its like that song 

Fueled by our hate ,Blind from our love 
Its like I am drunk,  and stuck in a funk
You give me breath, when I cant breathe  

I cant leave and I cant stay here 
The farther I run, the closer I get
When its good its bad, when its great its worse

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie 

Have you ever cared so much, when they are not there you cant breathe?
When they are there, you get week in the knees?
And when they leave, you can barley see.

I said I would never hurt you, and I see now how I did
Cant even look at you in your eyes
Trying not to think about all of the lies 
 
Crazy in love, or in love crazy 
Its time to go our separate ways, 
Its time for us to have a new day
That was yesterday, but today
Its a different day 
 
No promise I will show restraint 
Life is a game, play it without aim
I wont lie again, but I am still watching you leave
I guess that’s why you found Steve

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie 

I did things I didn’t mean, said things that whernt so clean 
I am in a new pattern, with a different routine
But your the same as me, and just don’t believe
But when it comes to us, there is always a fuss

I know it was me, and you should flee 
Our relationship was crazier then it seams
Like a hurricane and a blizzard

So I pack my bags, and go outside
I can fell the pain, with nothing left to gain
Cant even look in to my eyeball , with out needing a highball
Next time I fight , It will be though a peep sight 

No next times, because I am gone
I am sorry for my lies 
My games is what caused pain, and she doesn’t want me back
I know I should not have lied
This time I am gunna leave, and set my slef on fire, 
That we people know we expired

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie


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Not so sure

Slowly getting tired and frustrated with the situation that's at hand, 
but yet I'm trying to get a good grip on it and not let it go,
cause when it goes its going to fall and once it falls its going to explode,
the feeling that I'm getting gets stronger by day and weakens me by night,
I try to remind my self this is how it was since the beginning,
I'm not suppose to neither am I allowed to let it affect me like this,
slowly ill start pushing away.
I been hurting,
that empty feeling is coming back slowly the hole that was once patched up is simply 
reopening, 
as much as I try to maintain it shut the pain knocks at it making it crack. 
And it's not a feeling of loneliness because this feeling has just been growing 
waiting to escalate just building one on top of the other forming into this giant tOwer not well 
build,
I'm not losing interest just focus on what's in front of me and what I have 
needing something to pull me back saying look I'm here,
words are slowly just turning into words 
I can feel like I'm hurting not in pain,
just hurting that discomfort in my chest is annoying 
to the point where throwing up seems like the best option
as I hurt I know I'm hurting you to 
trust me its not my intension to. 
I love you 
forgive me or forgive me not but I blame you 
you have me so rapped around your finger you don't even notice how much I love you or 
need you 
when I need you the most your never really there your presences maybe but your mind is far 
gone 
I'm sorry I put you threw this the headaches and heartaches cause trust me i feel them too,
but you chose me and I chose you and we chose each other 
knowing that we
us aren't actually perfect 
we each have our problems you have yours and I have mine 
once your problems becomes me and my problem becomes you 
the world we have builded starts to drifted apart 
you on one side me on the other 
yet we still hold hands trying not to let go 
hoping and praying for the best to make it come back together again
I know there's a purpose to why our paths were put in the same direction  to each other
I'm still trying to figure it out
I love you I always have I just need to get reuse to being use to the beginning and how it all 
started and what it use to be,
But yes things are changing 
I'm still trying to hold of grip of the change
But at the end of the day,
It will forever be me and you,
Together again.


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Little Girl Gone

I see a little girl
unlovable to all.
I see an unforgiving world
waiting to see her fall.

I see a little girl
unwanted by most.
I see a tormented mind
with a devilish host.

I see a little girl
who has always been so strong.
I see the demons
who have stolen her life song.

I see a little girl
yearning to belong.
I see the friends and family
who tell her she is wrong.

I see a little girl
with tear stains in her eyes.
I see the people who have beat her down
to the point she can no longer cry.

I see a little girl
though living, has already died a death.
I see the monsters
who have taken her every breath.

I see a little girl
who once knew how to laugh.
I see now that nothing in
heaven or hell could ever bring that back.

I see a little girl
starving for affection.
I see the signs all around her
that this girl is far beyond redemption.

I see a little girl
beaten, bruised, and low.
I see those who say they love her
but who would rather just not know.

I see a little girl
who has lost the ability to hope.
I see the love that has let her down
it is a love that can no longer cope.

I see a little girl
barely hanging on for dear life.
I see the inner anguish and turmoil
that has caused so much unwanted strife.

I see a little girl
who never had a chance.
I can hear the voices in her head
that send her into a trance.

I see a little girl
can you see her too?
That little girl was once me
the one you hated that you knew.

I see a little girl
she is leaving us today.
She thought she would say "I love you"
one last time as she makes her way.

I see a little girl
this girl is no more.
She tried to help you understand
but you could hear no more.

This little girl, we no longer see, 
She never wanted to leave.
I sacrificed my very soul
just so you could be free of me.


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A Second Chance; dedicated to Haleigh Poutre

A little girl so badly abused
A spark has come back and restarted her fuse
The child is still stuck in her hospital bed
But some action has slowly returned to her head
I still remember the bruises we saw
The guilt inside still burns so raw
We only saw Haleigh once in a while
We didn't even know any reports had been filed
If only we'd known every reason she gave was a lie
Maybe this little girl would still be completely alive
Why did she fear being taken away
Were threats made that made her think she should stay
Little Haleigh will never get to live out her dreams
No more dance class or playing with friends on sports teams
How close will she ever come back to being whole
Will the world ever again get to see the love in her soul
The request from DSS to end her life was not denied
I'm so glad she showed hope before they allowed her to die
Things in life all the rest of us just expect to be handed
For Haleigh only come from the second chance she's been granted
She can now breathe and eat as if there was the flick of a magic wand
To simple yes and no questions she's now able to respond
Hopefully more function will return to her brain
Hopefully her entire life won't be filled with pain
If only those who knew hadn't been scared
This sweet little girl could have been spared!


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broken

a girl was broken. as broken as most are. no other heart could heal her cracks. so she was slowly chipping away into nothing. behind the rest she was shattered and broken...

walls of glass,

flying stones,

is broken diffrent,

from alone?

inside where her layers fell away the cold echos through her and she feels it empty her of her of her soul...

shattered walls,

empty heart,

growing colder,

from the start...

so in the end the girl was broken and came to be nothing more than that...

crystal dust,

oh so fine,

have you seen the broken,

friend of mine?

 

goes with alone. @};~


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She's a Runaway

While on patrol Down by the beach A shadow in the water Just out of my reach It's off a young girl About sixteen years old What would have troubled her For her life to fold We report it in And await the coroners van To unscramble this enigma As to why this all began Down at the morgue Through her belongings we look A bracelet we find And her diary book We check on the computer Under the missing persons file This girl so young Still a juvenile We sit and ponder At her watery stray This girl so young She's a runaway We head back to the patrol car For we have sad news to tell How do you tell her parents For inside me it dwells We knock on the door And her mother appears May we please come in As her smile disappears On the beach front tonight A young girl was found In the shallows by the pier I'm so very sorry, she drowned On the way back to the precinct I'm thinking of home Of my own young daughter Pray-fully, she'll never roam A week has passed Since they laid her to rest They said, look after your daughter I sure will mam, I'll do my best http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/loss-4.php


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Lost to the Wind

She’s lost to the wind
Long lost
Her dreams devour
Her every thought
Holding her captive
In a fairy-tale
That to her seems so real
Let her go
She’s lost to the wind
Long, long lost


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SHE IS GONE

                                      Cindy was very unique
                                    Very easy to get along with
                                    and critique even though she
                                    was not fuzzy

                                      I never knew a girl like her 
                                   even with out fur although 
                                   I never really heard her purr
                                  but used to think I might

                                  She was the kind of girl that
                                every man who does not wear
                                a hat dreams of- too bad
                                she was poltroon but I loved her
                                any way- very nice easy girl she
                                was despite the lack of buzz, sweet
                                little Cindy so sorry she is gone.


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No Mercy

She sees the fire flash in his eyes,
A familiar sight of rage about to begin.
She wonders how long this time it will last,
For a vicious beating was about to set in.

He strikes her hard across her face,
The familiar sting is what she feels.
Her body already black and blue,
For he beats her before the scars heal.

He use to beat her for no reason at all,
She would cry out and ask what she had done.
He would reply with another crack to the jaw,
But now she knew why, she was taking it for someone.

That someone came only three years ago,
Unplanned she had a daughter.
She loved that little girl,
And would not let him harm her come hell or high water.

The little girl had spilt her glass of milk,
He became enraged when she began wailing.
He began to raise his hand to come down on her,
She jumped in front to take the impaling.

He showed no mercy on her body,
He had not for over 8 years.
After he was done beating her he raped her,
She only let out one whimper and a few tears.

She would not ever let him touch their daughter,
That little girl was the only reason for her life.
She would kill him before he lay a hand on the girl,
For in her mind she was only a mother and no longer a wife.


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Sorrow

She only sees damnation
And in that sight she can feel a cold lonely sensation
The girl prays that the sands of time wont lie
For she has  no more tears left to cry
There are some things she might forget
But nothing left to regret
The girl tries not to look back on her past
For if she does  the girl wont last
The memories of yesterday seem so blurred
And the words she spoke are slurred
She must look towards tommorrow
Because yesterdays only bring sorrow...


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Mama Cries With Raindrops

I saw tears in my baby girls eyes today
I heard her whisper, mama can you hear me
She said mama, I really miss you and need you hear
She said can you see the flowers mama, here beneath this tree

And as I listened, I heard my baby girl say
Mama they're your favorite color, can you see them from above
And as I knelt down beside her, I said mama loves roses
I told her when it rains, it's mama sending her love

When mama's happy, mama cries with raindrops
Yes, mama cries with raindrops
So when the flowers bloom so big and bright
Always remember, mama cries with raindrops
Mama cries with raindrops

I saw a smile on my baby girls face today
Heard her whispering, mama it's been awhile 
She said mama, I planted some new flowers just for you
She said mama can you smell the flowers, beside this dirt pile

Just then raindrops started to fall
A soft white cloud moved in over the yard above
My baby girl turned to me with a big smile and said
Daddy look, mama's sending her love

When mama's happy, mama cries with raindrops
Yes, mama cries with raindrops
So when the flowers bloom so big and bright
Always remember, mama cries with raindrops
Mama cries with raindrops


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Sacrifice or Murder

I killed my son
I sacrificed my little one
So I could continue to party
He was to be just like his daddy
Smile and chase girls like his many god-daddies

I killed my daughter
It’s like I brought my baby girl to the beach
And held her head under the water
Like I put poison in her bottle

I gave my seed cyanide in a water bottle
Heartless bastard
What kind of man kills his seed
What possesses his heart to commit such a deed
Lord forgive your son and daughter
Who killed her son
Who killed his daughter 

We slit his wrists
Though there were no wrists to slit
Yet we put razors to her tiny hands
Cause he would mess up our plans
We should’ve made it work
Looking back I’d make it not hurt

To take her life
I would’ve done my baby right 
I’d been just like my daddy
Teach my boy to swim
Teach him to shave and drive
I’d teach my baby girl to ride her bike
Tell her that little boys were evil

I want my “daddy’s girl”
I want my son to see this world
Parents from two islands, paradise
Life would be a walk through paradise

But our seed is gone
That dream is done
That nightmare now relived
Spiritual pain now received 

Mommy’s gone
Our love is done
We sacrificed you
To murder our love
We sacrificed our love 
To murder you


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Your eyes across my soul

Its time to face the truth croons the singer on the radio and I die
Curling up in to a ball pulling my hair out and screaming
Because I know this to be true
I will be there again when it snows and snows
I will be there again if you call
I will be there again if you whisper out my name
In the eyes of my memories you're beautiful
In the breaths I stole with my camera you're beautiful
Across these lips that will never touch yours again you're beautiful

I thought I heard you call out my name tonight 
But I knew you weren't home
In the cold under the city lights beneath the blanket of night
What if it was you I think now as I linger
But you weren't home
And still... 
I wish I had turned around
To see you standing there in the gently falling snow
But I thought you weren't home

I have lost sleep tonight and I may never sleep again I fear
Because I don't know what to do
I don't know where to turn, where to go
So that I may, I might, 
Dream of your smile and your eyes across my soul
You're so beautiful, 

I let slip this pen from my fingers
Staining these last few lines I know it to be true
And I don't really care about that now
I will never be with you I know, I know... 

And this is the truth I must learn to face


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Trust and Lust

"I didn't do it, I swear," He said.
"That wasn't another girl in my bed."
"How can I trust you?" I replied,
"This would not be the first time you have lied."
"Trust is a bond that should never be broken
it's held together with secrets unspoken, so never talk to me again
excuse me if I was misled, but I know I saw a girl in your bed"
"Trust is a bond that I happened to break, I shouldn't have done it,
it was just a mistake, so give me another chance" He pleaded.
"It will be just the thing that both of us needed."
"I'm through, I'm done with all of your ways,
you can drown in regret for the rest of your days,
for you have broken the bond that should last the longest
you broke the bond that I treasure the strongest,
Trust is an important character trait
you ruined your chance, and now your too late."


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The girl of my mind

There’s no one like her in the whole universe!
No one can drive me crazy the way she does!
I would change everything if I could reverse!
I want to love her, no I don’t want to curse!

Only she can kill the beast that is in my mind!
Only she can heal the wound that I have in mind!
It seems, if I can't have her I will not find
The girl of my dream O the girl of my mind!


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A boy and a Girl

Love is such a powerful thing to feel people tell teens you dont know what love is ..Your just full 
of out of control hormones. Its so much more than that. what adults dont understand is we 
would do anything to be with theone we so very much adore. Take my little story for example. 
A young independent girl starts falling for a much older guy. There is a four year span but they 
both think age is just a number. The boy tells this girl she is beautiful an gorgeous every waking 
minute he gets. he makes sure she is all in tact making sure she isnt falling apart because they 
cant see each other b/c of their amazing age difference. They talk to each other whenever they 
can. Everytime they hear each others voices they start falling for each other even more. They 
had a long talk about what they wanted to do to be together. They both decided that the girl 
would wait three years until shes of age. He keeps telling the girl hang in there b/c patience is 
always the best way to deal with this situation. They both talk about the great memories they 
already have experienced. The boy tells the girl she is amazing an worth the long, painful wait. 
He says we will make it through this little bump in the road. The end of the tunnel is far away 
but soon that light is going to shine as bright as it can an im going to run as fast as lighting 
strikes this earth an jump into my future with him. My future looks so bright an amazing with 
him. finishing highschool then college is near. But after my school days of highschool he is all 
mine. This guy an girl are going to wait for each other. In the mean time they are going to 
remember the good times an focus on the positive things. When the girl starts thinking 
negative the boy will tell her its all going to be over soon an a new beginning will come.


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Burns and Blood

She lays in a hospital bed
As a nurse changes her bloody rags.
On those rags is the young girls burned skin
And boiled blood.
The nurse stumbles back because of the smell
Horrified by odor the nurse leaves the room.
The little girl lays their still breathing
Cords under her skin to keep her alive.
Burned form head to toe 
By the church 
Accused of being a witch
Her skin black like volcanic ash
a white plastic wall surrounds her to keep stuff from touching her.
Another nurse walks in the room
Just to see what is inside the plastic wall
As the nurse looks at the young girl
Who has been scared sad and alone.
For a long time.
The little girl looked back at the nurse.
She hurt her by just looking at the nurses eyes the windows to the soul.
The nurse ran out scared fearful of the girl
The little girl looked back up
A dark figure loomed towards the little girls plastic wall
Putting its hand on it promising they will pay for what they have done.
The little girl raised her hand to the figures and touched it.
Vein like cords spread around the plastic walls turning it black
The hole hospital turned to a rusted nightmare.


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Abducted

Is she cold, is she hungry?
Is she waiting for me?
Waiting for her hero,
To come set her free?

Is she hurt, is she wet?
Is my little girl crying?
Does she know that I'm looking?
Does she know that I'm trying?

Is she scared and alone,
While hope fades away?
Is my little girl praying,
That I find her today?

Does she think it's her fault,
Something's she's done?
Did she try to get away?
Did she try to run?

I hope he don't hurt her
I hope he's not violent
Is my little girl breathing?
Or is she now silent?

With every passing second
Her chances fade too
I'll find whoever took her
If it's the last thing I do


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Hold On

She falls like the winter snow
cold and fragile
left to melt without
Why hold on
when there’s no more hope?
Why press on
when there’s no one left
to press on for?
And so she cries herself to sleep at night
And all the demons 
rape her memories while she sleeps
Being used, 
always the best thing she could do
But she’s such a good girl (such a good girl)
She’s such a nice girl (such a nice girl)
But she’s such a sad girl (such a sad girl)
such a sad girl (such a sad girl)
She does not
does not deserve this
She cannot
cannot fight this
Her last kiss
was filled with poison
And now she’s crying
because he was lying
And now she’s crying
And now she’s crying
And now she’s dying
no longer trying
But beautiful girl
it’s not the end of the world
Just please hold on
Just please hold on
for another day
and eventually
your pain will
it will go away


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Friendemy

The girl shouted for joy in the middle of the velvet full moon.
The little dog barked twice interrupting the high-handed act of argument.
How many words will describe the perfect purification as we proceed to knavery?
"I must run to her before it is too late"my heart was singing repeatedly.


I relapsed when i saw her acting in the theatre of sobs,in front of thousand pearls.
I blessed all this time i was struggling,tried to bring myself to life.
How many times i had to apologize when her majesty sparkled into the dark?
I tried the e4 move once to estrange the defense of her black pieces.

The girl started to cry as the final stroke with a brush blinded the canvas again.
She saw her long golden hair dancing among the colors of omnipotence.
How many architects may manufacture the texture of her smile?
She wrapped me up with her wet deep eyes,burned me with her mind.


"I have to tell you girl, that my best friend is naphthalene."
"Ssssss....My name is Friendemy.Don't worry.Be my best friend not my best 
enemy".
Suddenly the girl disappeared and i alone face the discouragement.
Today,tomorrow and the day after.



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secrets

i may not be a mahammod ali but my words will float like a butterfly and sting like 
a bee
now there was this baby girl who was so unaware and didnt understand why 
daddy used to run his fingers through her hair and lay next to her while tuggin at 
her underwear See mommy never knew what was going on because sixteen 
hours out of a twenty four day mommy was gone and know it is two days before 
her daughters tenth birthday baby girl is dreedin it like its about to be her worse 
day daddy touchin her in inapproriate places was the first phase suddenly her 
mother realizing her daughter is always in a daze
happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday dear alexis happy 
birthday to you
as i close my eyes and begin to make my wish
dear lord please dont let daddy ask me for another kiss
visions of the past came into my mind daddy touching me down there until my 
vagina bleeds puttin his body parts on mine tellin me its okay no daddy! it is not 
okay you have made me into the monster that stands before you today good night 
alexis i hope you enjoyed yo birthday her mother calls i have to go to work i will 
see you tomorrow be good for daddy i love you good bye no mommy please dont 
leave me here aline alexis began to cry. whats wrong baby girl are you having a 
bad day no mommy scary and bad things happen to me when you go away her 
mother chuckled and gave her a kiss on her forhead goodbye and left her 
daughter in the care of her husband as a tear fell from her daughters eye as the 
front door closes the bathroom door opens and there in her doorway appears a 
figure not a father figure but a figure of her father with a grin on his face and his 
dick in his hand telling his only baby girl his is going to make her a real wo-man! 
but daddy its my birthday and im--im ready to go to bed hush your mouth baby girl 
and give daddy some head well you know how that story go 
six years later cant even walk the halls of her high school without being called a 
hoe. people look at her but people dont see her people hear her but people dont 
listen to her well listen to this she is not a garden tool you cannot used her and 
abuse her like some kind of fool.
then throw her in the corner when you are done and expect to pull her out again 
when your ready to have fun 
the moral of this story is to stop look and listen but her mother never did that 
now she must stop look and position flowers on her daughters grave because 
yesterday ladys and gentlemen alexis died of AIDS


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Story of a Child

A little girl walked to school one day to find her friends already playing. She stood 
wordlessly, and watch them pass a ball about. They ran and frolicked, and 
jumped with glee. With out even a word passed her way. As silently as she came 
she turned and left. 
In the school she went down turning halls, and up twisting stairs. To the highest 
point she could find. Here she sat near a window facing her friends down below. 
She removed a book from her bag. Its cover was black, and lacked a title. She 
opened it, its pages were blank, and began to write a story. 
Many years came, and passed, her friends had all gone on to different schools. 
Some stayed in contact with one another, but as they grew so did the distance 
between them. The friendship that had meant so much years ago, had all but 
vanished, But the little girl always remained.
One day a teacher approached the little girl, and asked her why she wasn’t 
playing outside with her friends. The little girl dropped her pencil, and looked up 
at the teacher with a smile. 
The unity between friends will never last, but in my story it can last forever. 
The little girl picked her pencil up, and began to write once more. The teacher 
walked off still astonished to hear such words from a child. She was almost out 
the room when she turned, and faced the little girl. 
Your right friendship doesn’t last, but it will also never die. For every persons life 
you touch a part of them you take as they take a part of you. New friends will 
come, old ones will leave, but that part will always be yours. Yours to keep, it 
helps unite us, it helps make us one. 
The little girl closed her book, and then she vanished. The teacher walked closer 
to the desk, but found only dust. The book still laid atop the desk. The teacher 
picked it up, and began to read its story. She cried while reading, she cried at the 
end. The story of a child who’s life had come to an end. 


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Jessica

Jessica, the girl I used to know,

Why do I never see your face,
But still we talk most every day,
And yet have not a word to say?

Jessica, the girl I know too well,

You can say you've turned over a new leaf,
But I know which kind, and it brings me grief,
Your bad habits beggar all belief,

Jessica, the girl I'm still associated with,

People tell me how you are,
And when they saw you in a bar,
As if you are a movie star,

Jessica, the girl I never see,

The picture of you on my wall
Cannot my heart and mind enthrall,
But I see it more often than you call,

Jessica, the girl who span my life around,

We used to sneak round classroom doors and kiss,
Still those times I sorely miss,
And every day I reminisce,

Jessica, the girl I've fallen for,

You'd think my feelings would subside,
Considering how long they were denied,
And still I keep them all inside,

Jessica, the girl I can't forget,

No matter wherever you go,
In my heart you'll always glow,
So my love will steadily grow,

Jessica, the girl I'm wasting for,

A dozen boys I could have had,
And although others think me mad,
For you always I'll wait, with a smile hopeful and sad.


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Why me mommy?

Oh mommy mommy, what did you do?
You not only took one auntie, now you take two.
I hurt truely and dearly, your too blind to see,
All of this broken heart bestowed upon me.
I came into this world, expecting to be,
A loving and nurturing place it should be.
I just don't understand, how you can't see,
A smart little girl and this is me.

I dream of gumdrops and ponies most every night,
Interupted by sounds of mommy and daddy into a fight.
It all seems so selfish, even I can see,
But what do I know? I'm not even three.
That's what they think, little do they know,
I'm tired of it all and I just want to grow.
I wish to be a happy little girl with a normal little life,
To grow up pretty and smart, and be the greatest wife.

I have the pretty and smart, right here in me,
A dashing little girl, take a look and you'll see.
Let me have my aunties, my nanny and my uncle B,
Let me have happiness with those so close to me.
Let me feel at one instead of ripped into two,
Everyone else has a heart, why can't you?


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What Happened to Us

I miss it.
I miss the laughs 
The cries 
I miss the adventures
The crazy things we did	
And the lessons we learned 
I miss trust 
The bond we had
I miss my sidekick 
My partner in crime
I miss fitting together like puzzle pieces
But I guess, sometimes,
The pieces are meant to be lost and never found. 


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**JUST ANOTHER

I’m just another notch on your wall
Of heartaches, breaks, and shame
I’m just another foolish soul
Caught up in your little game

I’m just someone you run to
When loneliness comes your way
I’m stupid for believing
You were ever here to stay

I’m just another tear you see
Yet you still watch me fall
You claimed you loved me
Well so much for the long haul

I’m just another countless face
Lost in your cloud of lies
I see who you’ve truly become
When I look into your eyes

I wish now we would’ve never met
I’m sure you feel the same
I’m just another girl to forget
Just another girl to blame

I’m just about to break down
This is hard for me to do
But these words need to be said
I’m just too good for you


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You could have saved her

Her heart weighs her down
And her laughter cannot hide her frown
Her hopes been shattered
And her souls battered
No longer can this little girl hide behind the blade
For the scars never fade
But through it all her blood still stained the ground
And still no one ever found
She hoped they would 
She knew they could
But no one ever seemed to care
So now today these burdens she shall bare
The girl will stumble down this path of hers
And her life shall unfurl
Her Tears will be shed
And her demons fed
But through out it all that  little girl wants you to know that you could have saved her life
And You should have made that sacrifice


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a rose

A rose lay dead and dry
As a Girl sits to cry
The rose feels her tears
but knows not of her fears
The dead, dry rose can sense her pain and sorrow
For it too has no tommorrow
Alas that girl and the rose will sit there together and crumble
Their souls shall tumble
And the two will wither away
They'll both rot today
That girl and the dead, dry rose will never see another sunrise again
For today their end began....


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Reflection

Who's that girl?
I don't recognize her
The girl I knew was pretty
She smiled alot
She laughed
Her eyes sparkled
What happened to her?
I guess she went away
I wish she would come back
I miss her
I stop for a minute 
And realize 
That girl is me


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Pass On By

He remembers the days of laugher, the warm rug by the door.
But now he watches from the street; deserted by the family who didn’t want him anymore.
The children laughed and played with him for a while,
But now nothing’s left for him, not a pat on the head or even a smile.
So now he lies by the tree with critters as his only friends
Wondering if this loneliness will ever end.
He begs for food with sad empty eyes,
But he goes unnoticed as they pass on by.
A girl sees him one day, a girl walking alone
She takes him to her car and offers him a home.
This same girl feeds him, plays Frisbee during the sunny days, 
And at night, by the foot of her bed he lays.
For even though his fur is mottled and he’s too thin,
She looked past the physical imperfections and saw his heart within.
So now Max has a home, a friend, and has been named,
So many things are different now; everything has changed.
Max would like to ask you, that if you see a dog with sad brown eyes, 
Please give him a home. Don’t pass on by.


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Her Pain

llooking up to the sky
 tears falling from her face
 never thought she would cry
 for someone who is such a discrase 
as she softly crys
 she learns to hate you 
and all of your lies are nothing new
 she knows you are gone 
she cant take it anymore 
what your doing is wrong 
she falls to the floor 
shes crying more than ever
 she feels like shes bleeding
 remember when you said never 
you were always missleading
 days turn to nights
 minuts turn to hours 
she started loosing sight 
of what you once called ours
 now she is broken
 and your the cause of her pain
 with all these words unspoken
 what could you possibly gain
 do you feel like a winner?
 do you feel like you won fist place?
 your just a siner
 it was never a race


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7 First time I saw you

I’m thinking of you, thinking if you’re thinking of me, because I’m always thinking 
of you and I can’t stop thinking of you because I’m so in love with you.
Since the first time I saw you, I couldn’t stop thinking of you, when I want to sleep 
I dream about you it was if like I was addicted to you everyday of every hour of 
every minute of every second I thought of you I couldn’t explain the feeling I was 
feeling inside everyday I saw you and you smiled at me, it was everything I 
needed to make my day happy every time you’re around me ,I feel like hugging 
you and never let you go, hold you in my arms and tell you that I love you, tell you 
that I need you, that you’re everything to me and without you my life would not be 
complete. I would take care of you and let no one hurt you, I would protect you 
with my life because you mean so much to me, no girl could ever take your place 
because no girl has made me feel the way you do I’m so in love with you.


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Lovely Precious

She laid in bed sobbing of what he had done to her. she didn't know what she was going to do. it had been a few months and yet she still thought about him. he left her for someone else. he yelled at her.
she began cutting her wrists
she tried everything in her power to kill herself..then she found out she was pregnant.
she wanted to tell him so badly that it hurt more than the cuts did. she screamed herself to sleep when she found out. the only thing had left was that baby. she lost her mom when she six, lost her dad when she thirteen...and lost her boyfriend a few months ago.
she's only sixteen and pregnant. she didn't know what to do next. she kept thinking she wanted to get rid of it. abortion or adoption? she didn't know...but then it was to late to do it. then that precious little thing was born.
she looked down at the hopeless little girl she had brought into the world. how could she be so stupid to try her and baby. she look down at the little girl in her arms and said "your name is Precious" and thats what she really was. a precious child. a precious life. a precious soul brought into this world by a lonely girl who made one mistake.


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Some Strange Girl

Some Strange Girl across the Room 
I guess she caught your eye
Some Strange Girl. it's odd
But she makes me want to cry

Some Strange Girl that you don't know
Fans a fire in your heart
Am I to be forgotten?
Will we be ripped apart?

I'll admit it's odd to think
That one time long ago
I was just Some Strange Girl
That you didn't know


Was there someone else?
Vying for your attention
And was I just Some Strange Girl
That you didn't want to mention

I hope that you don't think of her
When you're holding me
I hope you and that Strange Girl
Just aren't meant to be.


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Such A Little Girl With A Huge Heart Ache

I know a girl she speaks within me 
She's smart and funny sometimes friendly 
She has her ups and her downs 
Just tired of people here thats never around 
What she seeks is some support 
She speaks of hard times that shes fought 
Her anger is over powering 
She starts lacking as a friend 
So bitter she grow cold 
Suffering but nobody knows 
Trouble seeks within her head 
Bad thoughts and so  much regrets 
A long time of pain is in effect 
Thats when she loses all signs of respect 
Looks down on herself 
No longer searching for help 
She smiles these fake smiles 
And continues to ignore the pain for a while 
The girl life has changed to the bad 
She grew more bitter and very sad 
Now she a waits the truth 
And keeps dreaming that this pain will end soon. 


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Divine Intervention

Beautiful little girl
Devastatingly beautiful
The birds would start chirping when she walked past
Her mother’s daughter they all said
A mirror image
 
And suddenly she was shocked by love
5 years old being undressed like a doll
Caressed and bathed so lovingly
Such gentle touches
That no one suspected
 
Mother found a new piece to her heart
Wedding bells chimed
And a new father was born
5 years old she was…just 5
 
This beautiful little girl found love in her “new” father’s arms
He held her close, sometimes too close
But no one suspected
She didn’t know this love was pain wearing a mask
She learned that love was…
Shielded from the eyes of her mother
Night visits to her room from her father
Year after year
For 15 years this was the love she knew
 
She felt invaded, alone and abused
She told her mother
About her new father…the man her mother loved
She didn’t acknowledge, wouldn’t bring herself to see
What the water so clearly replayed in her view
The mother knew, just knew
That her husband would, couldn’t ever
Never…bring pain to his daughter, never
 
Little girl, what does it feel like to be loved?
It feels warm, and wrong but gentle
Strong hands unclothing you
Caressing your body as if you are a grown woman
With a glorified body to worshipped and pillaged over
Little girl, what does pain feel like?
Closed doors…darkness…my father…naked
Hopeless
 
Beautiful little girl
Devastatingly beautiful
Pain paraded as love
Molestation masked for discipline
When your daughter cries out
When she cowers in corners
And doesn’t trust the dark
When she says love is just another word
Just another synonym to let him abuse her
Trust what she has to say…
 
I was that beautiful little girl and now I am a woman plagued with fears
Some nightmares you cannot outrun
And some memories only God can wipe away
The blood of all my pain is on my mother’s hands
"I forgive you"
Beautiful they say…
It’s a mask for something more


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The Words That Go Unheard

These are the words that go unheard. The voice of a little girl crying for help 
because her mother is a drug user and her boyfriends all beat her. The screams 
of a teenager whose dad is molesting her. These are the words that go unheard. 
Listen to the young girl who ran away at just 15, she shares a tale that all should 
hear. Hear the words of the teenage mom who lost her daughter and don't know 
what to do with herself any more. The sound of screams from a young lady who 
gets raped and choked at the same time. These are the words that go unheard. 
Listen for the tears of the pregnant teenager whose baby daddy is abuseive. She 
cries and cries for help yet no one comes. For all of these are the words that go 
unheard.


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push

A little girl swings back and forth on a swing.

She uses her legs to get high up in the air.



The beauty and view of the sky lights up her eyes.

But she slowly goes down like she is trying to hide.



She jumps off the swing and stands afraid.

The little girl doesn't believe she deserves to see the beauty.

So she runs away.



As she stands there the swing keeps waiting for her to come back, 

But she pushes the swing away and moves up.



She has lost the chance to face her fear and a friend.

For the swing in her life was her friend Tommie who always wanted her to go up higher.


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I Could Be The Girl For You

I would never dream of depriving you
Of the happiness you have found;
He's not like all the others and for this I'm ironically thankful
For a smile is a smile and yours
Will always paint itself on my face,

But should you ever feel incomplete
You're the only one I have patience for and
I'd be your best friend once more,
Should you ever need a familiar hand to guide you through, then
I could be the girl for you.

Though I haven't a lifetime of experience,
I have an understanding of you and listen to your troubles,
Hold you until I've absorbed all your worries and
Let you leave lightly.

And so long as I'm around
There will be no struggles for you,
However, it's hard for a girl
To be a gentleman
But I'll take your bags in my weak but willing arms
Just to see you stroll freely by my side,

Then those days when our eyes meet,
The secrets we both know we're thinking of
Exist again, and your lips brush mine,
They will not be so rare, and in the
Surreal delight, I'm thinking
I could be the girl for you.

No, I'm not the best around people,
But for you I talk and laugh and it becomes a strain which I detest.
You glance at me, knowing what I'm putting myself through for you
And your mouth twitches; you're not sure how to feel,
It's times like this I wish that we could kiss
Like a regular, natural thing
Not some circumstance to agonise over,
But that's the way it is, and I watch you
Leave with him.
You look softly back and catch me thinking,
I could be the girl for you.

Do you hear my dreaming?
Surely I could tell
Because, well, I can always tell
But you're gone now.

So here I am back home again,
Another love poem you'll never read
Yet I feel somehow you can sense the words piercing my mind
The way I train my eyes on you and yet
Look down, afraid you're working it out,

Lord knows what this is; well, actually
One definition lurks in the grey area,
Impossible.

And as the time flies, men come and go,
I pick you up when they throw you down
With no recognition of the wonder you are,
Your tears sting my heart whilst your laughter makes it soar,
There'll be other guys and I'll see you through them all,
Rainy days and magical nights;

All this will I do for you because although
I could be the girl for you,
That would be too simple, and so
The harsh fact remains, though I'll admit it timidly;

You will always be
The only girl for me.


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i wish

I wish I never gaved him another chance
my boyfriend for 3 and a half years
he went back to that girl he screwed on me with
emotionally hurt
I shed so many tears
after all the pain
I stood strong and believe
I will find that one
but first I need to get over
the heartaches and pain to move on

time can only make me stronger
healin my woons and movin on
living day by day
prince charming will come my way
there is someone out there for me
but i wont go looking for love
cuz everytime I do
I come across the ones who hurts me...

I wish I never gaved him another chance
my boyfriend for 3 and a half years
he went back to that girl he screwed on me with
emotionally hurt
I shed so many tears
after all the pain
I stood strong and believe
I will find that one
but first I need to get over
the heartaches and pain to move on

its so hard, but im better off without him
I wont look back, I wont think twice
to be with him
my ex tim got the boot
now just let me be
im glad im movin on
to be stress free

I wish I never gaved him another chance
my boyfriend for 3 and a half years
he went back to that girl he screwed on me with
emotionally hurt
I shed so many tears
after all the pain
I stood strong and believe
I will find that one
but first I need to get over
the heartaches and pain to move on


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Never Heard

The night is still, darkness dead
Yearned for tears, shall soon be shed
The end of existence hopelessly lead
By the girl who was never heard

The tranquil moon breaks amidst the night
But beauty is lost in this unspeakable sight
As the silver of the stars catches the light
Beside the girl who was never heard

Awaiting across the midnight sky
Lay this girl with tears in her eyes
Nothing ever seems to be right 
With the girl who was never heard


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Rumors

It all started about a few years ago that girl was just unfair. She just  had to say 
those stuff.That girl was a lier, a thief and a disgusting wretch. What she did i  will 
never forget. She hurt me so bad but yet still she didnt know she was hurting me. 
She think it was funny but it wasnt. Man i sometimes said if i had a wish i 
wouldv'e kill but i cant because my intentions are worth living. Man if only she 
knew what she was doing? but yet still she was young she wasnt really thinking.


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I Love You &Good Bye

I went out one night and remebered what you said
You told me not to drink and drive so i had a sprite instead

i felt proud of myself the way you said i would,
That i didn't drink and drive even though some of my friends said i should.

I made a healthy choice and your advice to me was right 
As the party finally ended the kids drove out of sight.

I got into the car sure to get home in one piece
I never knew what was coming mom something  expected the least.

Now i'm lying in the pavement and i hear the policeman say
''The kid that caused this wreck was drunk.'' mom his voice seems so far away

My own blood all around me as i try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say this girl is gonna die.

I'm sure the guy had no idea while he was fying high
Because he choose to drink and drive now i would have to die.

so why do people do it knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me like a hundred stabbing knives.

Tell my sisters and brothers not to be afraid, Mom tell daddy to be brave,
And when i go to heaven put daddy's little girl on my grave

Someone should of taught him that it's wrong to drink and drive
maybe if his parents had if i would still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mom i'm really scared
These are ny final  moments and i'm so unprepared.

I wish that you could hold me mom as i lie here and die.
I wish that i could say i Love You mom, So I Love You & Goodbye!


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Don't Be Afraid

For several days her daughter would say
The angels said, "Don't be afraid"
Her mother simply dismissed it
Like it was a childhood game she played

But soon she started to worry
For the little girl kept telling this tale
She also said she talked to Jesus
And she described it in such detail

She told her mother that Jesus said
Tomorrow, He's taking her home
The little girl was only three years old
These things, she couldn't have known

Her mother was just a little concerned
For each day it was always the same
Was it just a little girl's imagination?
She was sure it was a childhood game

Well tomorrow came and all was fine
And her daughter never uttered a sound
So she fiiled up the pool, only eight inches deep
And that's where, her little girl drowned

Now, this story is true, every single word
For it happened to some friends of mine
This story took place many years ago
And their grief grew more distant in time

But I just couldn't imagine, the pain that they felt
As they remember what their daughter would say
The Angels would tell her, "Don't be afraid"
And that Jesus would take her away








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Shades of Blue

There was a little boy
With cornflower eyes
Who sat on a step
And silently cried.

There was no one to play with
There was no one to care
There was no one to stroke
His golden blond hair.

Many years passed
And the little boy grew
Until he met a girl
With eyes of sapphire blue.

'Where were you when I was small?
Asked the man with cornflower eyes.
'Where were you when I sat on that step
And cried and cried?'

The beautiful girl with sapphire eyes
Looked at the young man and sweetly smiled.
She stroked his hair and kissed his lips.
'While you sat on that step and silently cried
I lived deep in your heart, but now I'm here for a while.'

So the young man with cornflower eyes
And the beautiful girl with eyes of sapphire blue
Were happy at last in their love strong and true.



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Who I Am

The way I am you can relate,
I can sometimes be tough to break,
I act childish time to time,
Sometimes I still wish I was a kid,
My age only brings attitude,
Sometimes good and sometimes bad,
I have a hard time sharing who I am,
I try real hard not to get hurt,
My heart has built a wall around it,
I don't know if it can ever be knocked down,
It's hard to just open up,
To let everyone see the real me,
I'm scared to know what people might think,
After they see the scared little girl within,
Sometimes though I open up a crack,
Sharing just a little of who I am,
Don't get me wrong I am a nice girl,
It's just sometimes I feel like I have to hide,
I have been his way ever since I can remember,
I don't know if I can ever change,
I have been through so much bad stuff,
and then I try to keep it all inside,
I hope people can accept me for who I am,
and not judge me so much,
One day I will open up all my heart,
Opening up a little now is a good start,
Maybe someday I'll like who I am,
and share with everyone the girl that can


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Piles of Dirt

I’m no one anymore
Just a spirit around
My body has left this earth
My voice is no where to be found

You are looking at my coffin
At this funeral you’re at
A tear falls down, 
And you start getting sad

The first shovel of dirt
Is thrown on top of it
All of the sudden, a memory hit,
You remember the day we first met,
Our eyes were connecting, as we danced and sweat,

Another pile of dirt cover me through,
Memories of us, start rolling to you,
It was the day which you probably miss,
You spent time with me, and our first kiss,

Third pile of dirt makes a thump sound,
Two more tears start rolling down,
Our sour break-up, controls your mind,
When you left me for a girl who was a  waste of your time,

Your heart hurts more as 
the fourth pile comes down
Don’t call me no more were your
Orders to me and I was no where to be found,

The fifth one comes down 
as a really loud bomb,
The day that you came back to me,
yes we were not done,

The sixth one stabs you 
Down to your feet
The day comes where you 
decided to cheat,

The seventh one covers the corner of the hole,
You scream and kneel down, you can’t take it no more,

The tears that I shed, for you my King,
And the ignorance that you repetitively gave me,

The eighth one is the finishing touch at this time, 
As you remember when you were mines,
The kisses, the hugs, the I love you’s
The sacrifices, the battles that I fought for you!

You throw me a Rose and say this out loud,


“A Girl Like You, I’ll Never Find Around!!!”


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THE WOMAN INSIDE ME

Inside this girl is a woman contradicting what she’s suppose to be.
A woman is imprisoned inside this little girl’s body and face.
The girl hides the woman you can’t see.
Innocence gone without a trace!
What happened and where she gone?
This is the story of a childhood lost.
It will be too late when it comes dawn.
This is a story of a child that paid a fatal cost.
She lost who she was.
Where is god when suffering consumes grown up children fighting to be free.
She suffered defeat by rages enabling cause.
This is the story of a nine year old and the woman inside me.


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Lonely Girl

She sits alone in her room 
This pretty little girl with no one to love 
Tears run swiftly down her cheeks 
They show anger, frustration 
And now she feels weak 
She lays there and thinks about life 
Feeling stricken with nothing but pain and strife 
People talk behind her back 
Leaving her helpless and draining her soul 
But not a word she utters 
No emotion does she show 
Until she gets to her room 
Nothing but a pillow to hold 
She thinks of ways to end the pain 
But knows that it just can't be her end 
She hides away in her books instead 
Letting the happy endings sweep her away 
She drifts along caught in her stories 
Hoping that one day Prince Charming will come through 
"Foolish" she thinks to herself, 
"Prince Charming is only a fairy tale 
And wishes weren't made for you" 
This girl feels no hope 
No out to the things that make her sick 
She's alone in her room 
Crying with her nose in a book


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Permanent Scars

Once upon a time I was a girl who had dreams
I stood out and brought light to a crowd, making life easier than it seamed
I was a young girl who looked forward to the blue skies and the morning wind
Always wanted to run, scream, and play, never wanting the day to end
Sometimes picking flowers, making mud pies, or climbing apple trees
Too busy to stay in one spot, to much to do in one day, starting off with loosing my
mothers keys.
I miss those happy sunsets, and my pillow full of wondrous thoughts and dreams
So sad, a story so happy ended at age 6, now life is harder than it has ever seamed
Now age 17 and each new day means a new permanent scar
Loved ones ripped from my heart, no light is left, each was the light of a star
Smiles replaced by frowns, laughter replaced by tears, and love replaced with hate,
People say it wont last forever, your special day will soon arrive, just be patient and wait.
No more sunny days, or morning winds, just rainy days and cold nights
Will these days last forever? I'm lost! Which way do I turn, left or right?


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Sugar coat

This pain in my heart 
goes far beyond my pout 
I'm in need of a drainage 
that's how deep the bleeding 
in my soul is raining
I used to be a nice girl
Now I'm the statistic

I never knew how far 
the transmorphication had gone
until I saw the disappointment
in my mother's eyes
It showed me I was less loved
They flickered cold and sad
When they rested upon me 
As if she remembers 
the daughter she once had
I'm disappearing and it's quite sad

I remember what I used to be 
This new girl shall be the death of me
Sin leaked in through open wounds
pretending to soothe 
I trusted it's deceit
I liked what evil was doing to me
Such power oh what a rush
never seeing that inside I was changing

God no longer laid any fingers on this
future delinquent that I was becoming
the shimmer in my eyes went out 
like two dead light bulbs 
and I barely survived the struggle
Before I realized how deep 
the devil had pulled me under

I know now that I need my mother
I'm not gonna sugar coat the pain
cause life isn't candy it's demanding 
and it can turn a good girl out
Like pimps do to their prostitutes 
and I wonder everyday if I will continue to sway
I grow numb thinking about what 
will happen if I don't make a change


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I am

i wish you would understand who i am 
i am a teenager waiting for you to come to em 
i am a girl who is asking you to care 
i am your girlfriend waiting for you 
i am the one who is always sitting here crying 
i am a girl who cries her self to sleep every night 
why won't you care for me i am your daughter 
why won't you care for me i am your girlfriend


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Nowhere

A little girl sat on a big flat rock
Out in the middle of nowhere.

She sat and she watched as the people ran by
Out in the middle of nowhere.

The people they ran all over the town
Some smiling, some laughing, and some wore a frown.

The little girl offered each one a smile
And asked them all to sit down for a while.

But they were too busy running around
Each one taking their place in the town
To notice a girl on a big flat rock
Out in the middle of nowhere.


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who i am

i am a girl that is confused 
i am a child that has no life 
i am a girl wondering why this has to happen to me 
i am a student that hates school 
i am your daughter who wonders if you care 
i am a follower not knowing what to do 
i am a cutter trying to relieve my pain 
i am somebody wondering if anybody really cares 
i am a person that is always living in pain 
i am a girl who keeps her feeling trapped inside 
i am a person who wants to end her life


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Life Goes On

A little girl
With a grown up mind
She always felt
Like she was left behind

In a world so broad
She was all alone
The last place to go
Was her broken home

She couldn't love
She couldn't cry
All she could do
Was stare at the sky

She would wish
Every single day
That someone would come
And take the pain away

The girl grew up
With a very hard life
And now she's gonna be
Someone's wife

She can't go on
Something's not there
She doesn't want to live
Forever in fear

That sad little girl
Is the only thing in her mind
As she thinks again
About being left behind

A beautiful girl
So ugly inside
Every one seen her strength
Though all she did was hide

Hide from her fear
Hide from her past
Hide from the world
She always came last

She found the missing piece
But couldn't put it into place
There was one last thing
She needed to face

There was a woman
To whom she must speak
But the thought of that talk
Made her weak

How to tell her
Words of hate
Words of resentment
The girl is irate

The woman ran away
Never even looking back
Not caring what she left behind
All she wanted was more crack

The woman destroyed her life
And pulled the world down too
That girl is me
And that woman is you


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Half-Hearted

can a  girl who knows nothing of love fall in love?
Would someone ever come to love her?
She only had half a heart to give cause she had been threw so much pain.
Her heart grew less and less each and every painful day.
A boy who falls hopelessly in love with a half-hearted girl is he only bound to 
pain?
Will anything good come out of such a thing?
If he could turn back the hands of time and stop those who hurt the girl and made 
her become that way, he probably would.
The girl wanted to love him back as much as he did her, but she only had half of 
her love to return which wasn't enough to please.


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I can't love you

The only thing I cannot do,
Is tell you girl I don’t love you.
I held you for so many years,
I don’t want to make you cry those tears.
But I love another girl right now,
I wish I knew the words to tell you how.
That I want to hold you in my arms,
And keep you safe from any harm.
But I know the best thing to do,
Is keep you from this man that can’t love you.
I’ll think about you night and day,
I wish that I could find a way,
To see you other than in my dreams,
But the other girl I’m with means more than anything.
Even though she doesn’t know it now,
I want to tell her exactly how,
I’ll love her till the end of time,
If that girl will be just mine.
But her eyes don’t lie they tell the truth,
They told me today I can’t love you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Iam No One's Valentine 2-6-06

I am no one's valentine
It is something that makes me sad
It is something makes me angry
It is something makes me mad
It is something makes me sick
Why do I feel like this on this day that comes once a year?
Sitting on a bench at the mall
Seeing a guy giving his girl roses and a box of candy
Holding hands and kissy kiss on the lips
It tears me up inside, I'm no one's valentine.
Seeing the girls at work gettinf cards and gifts deliver to them
I just stand there, watching them reading the cards
I sighed and my heart is filled with anger and I'm no one's valentine.
I feel that no man on earth wants to love me for me
It seems that a man wants the perfect girl who deserves all
I know I'm not the girl yet love will fail in my life
Anger builds inside of me on the 14th, I'm no one's valentine.
Stuffed animals, cards, candy, roses, balloons, rings, ect.
Only for girls who think they are better than me and are in live
Makes my tummy turn upsidedown and my blood rushes to my head,
I'm no one's valentine which I will never have in my life.
I am through with a silly day that comes once a year to celebrate
Which is a total waste of time and in my life
No man will come in my life to love me and I'm no one's valetine. 


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An Unsheathed Dagger

The tear cut across the page
It's cry pierced the silence
Then another
Bitterness in each hand, finger
Finally
Parts left of a veiled note, about me
contents opened for me, for me
Anger lacing the uneven edges

Betrayal had danced upon the lines
Taunting
Across the page, each line was a stab
Into my back

A cold-eyed girl with a blunt sword
Of hurtful words
and
A fair-skinned girl with a shining shield
That broke
Both stand by my side, but one drifts away
Wrote those nettles of words
Each momentarily paralyzed me
Tranquialized
Until the end

Undecisive
was I
Wether to scream in mocking anger
Or cry, betrayal
But realization surfaced
Cold eyes belong in dark depths
Away from the light, the innocent

Forgiveness was a smile of the past 
A sweet thing, it was
But time itself had been another chance
After the many millions

A sheen of frigid ice settled 
My heart
A silent flame burned away 
My tears
I could have shed
But by now I was someone else
Someone filled with hate,
Pride

The new sheet I pulled out
Was clean
And my stiff words of truth 
Spilled onto it's white innocence
and
Tainted it with darkness
Tainted it with poison
The poison of the words I held back
For decades 













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The girl I love most

The girl I need most
There is no one like her from coast to coast.

The girl I love most 
Has broken my heart like a crispy toast!

The girl I want most
Has possessed me like a pitiless ghost!

The girl I care most
Does not give me in her heart a good post!


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Shadowed Personality

I walk into class, everyone just stares.
All I hear is murmurs, like I really care.

Different kinds of attitudes, an act is what I play.
All they see is this girl, with a smirk upon her face.

Guys want the hook up, while boys want to play.
What's a girl to do, What's a girl to say?

What's a girl to do when she needs to turn the page? 
She's growing up so fast, that she's older than her age.

There's intensity upon this page, the secrets are so deep.
The torment she would receive keeps her from her sleep.

If I were to talk how would I survive?
How would I word the things I hold inside?

There's a secret love I hold that no one can see.
Like no one can see past this shadowed personality!


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Trade

I look at your face, and I see:
A smile and a shy.
A girl and a grin.

I look at your hair, and I see:
A wave and a wish.
A cat and a crest.

I look in your eyes, and I see:
A twinkle and a tear.
A sparkle and a sad.

I look for your love, and I see:
Afraid and a friend.
A trade and a trend.

I look at your life, and I see:
A laugh and alone,
And a boy who's your own.

I look at my face, and I see:
A smile and a grin.
A girl and I'm shy.

I look at the sea, and I hear:
A wave and a crest.
A cat and a wish.

I look through my eyes, and I see:
A twinkle in the sand.
A sparkle in a tear.

I look for your love, and I seem
Afraid of a friend.
I trade for amends.

I live for your look, and I see:
A laugh on your own,
And a boy who's alone. 


Details | I do not know? | |

You killed me!


With Every touch you made
My innocence fades.
Everything that makes me, me is shadowed.
My insides are now hollow.
I am a walking shell.
A product of your kind of hell.
Trust no longer exist
And that little girl I miss.
You killed me!
You killed me before I knew me!
You killed me a long time ago.
So many things I wish I didn’t know.
Death has cast its claim.
I am forever condemned in shame.
You were my dad,
Yet you took everything I ever had.
You broke me like glass.
I disappeared so fast.
A little girl shackled in chains
Surrounded by white sheets full of bloodstains.
Now I am a farce.
Falling into nothingness like a fading star.
You killed me!
You killed me before I knew me!
You killed me a long time ago.
So many things I wish I didn’t know.
Where did I go?
Where did I go?



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The Child Within

I’m all grown up Daddy and all I can do is keep looking back.
I’ve traveled a long road just to be standing here dead on this track.
Many of my tears have been laid to rest and my smile I now seek.
Bruised and battered I cover the little girl that grows inside.
Yellow blankets and satin pink pillows to comfort her when she’s weak!
She seeks to hide.

I’m all grown up Mama and all I can do is keep looking ahead.
I’ve rode the Oceans waves just to be alive and not feel so dead.
Many of my laughs have been put to a test and my smile I have never found.
She’s lost, but sound.

The child within, they all attack.
The child within, they are all meek.
The child within, they all fed.
The child within, they are all bound.

In a world so far away,
Treasures and castles were her path.
It is where she always went to play.
Beautiful gardens and flowing rivers is where she took her very first bath.
Like watering a tree, that little girl just grew and grew and grew.
Finally, she broke free and was clear from every single one of you.

® Registered: Ann Rich   2007


Details | I do not know? | |

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO JEANIE

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO JEANIE?
THE GIRL SO MEEK AND MILED.
THE ONE WHO ALWAYS SMILED AT ME.
THAT YOUNG SWEET CHILD.

SHE LOVED PLAYING AT THE PARK
AND RUNNING AFTER DARK.
SHE LOVED LITTLE KITTENS
AND PLAYING IN THE SNOW IN HER CAP AND MITTENS.

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO JEANIE?
THE GIRL WE ALL USED TO SEE.
THE ONE DOLLED UP IN PIGTAILS.
ANS WHO’S SHOES SANG OF BELLS.

SHE CRIED AT SAD MOVIES
AND ENJOYED CLIMBING TREES.
HER BROTHERS USED TO CALL HER NOBBIE KNEES.
SHE WAS CHILD PERFECT AS SHE COULD BE.

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO JEANIE?
WELL HER DADDY CAME HOME IN A DRUNKEN RAGE, YOU SEE!
SHE GOT IN THE WAY TRYING TO SAVE HER MOMMY.
WHEN THEY FOUND HER SHE WAS GONE.
IT SEEM IT WAS HER SKULL HE POUNDED ON.

SHE USED TO RUN AND PLAY.
SHE USED TO HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY.
WE USED TO SEE HER EVERY DAY.
UNTIL A FATHERS MISTAKE TOOK HER FAR AWAY.


Details | Rhyme | |

Reflection

As I glare towards the glass opposite me,

A question begins to swirl in my mind,

Why do I feel this gust of uncertainty?

What is so extraordinary about this frail reflection?

Staring back at me?

 

I look back at the girl in the reflection,

Surely, there must be a friction,

Why are her eyes staring thoughtfully into mine?

Every movement I make,

Every step I take,

It seems like she is inside my mind.

 

Why is it so difficult to believe that this girl is me?

Is that what I look like when I am in misery?

I know this plain glass doesn’t lie,

It shows me for who I really I am inside!


Details | I do not know? | |

Sad Girl

Puddles form at the bottom of her feet,
another night she cries herself to sleep.
If only she could find a way to escape the pain,
to break this curse, and once again become sane.
She is so sick of the fights, sick of the lies,
what girl is this, who constantly cries?
She hates everything, and she hates everyone.
She lost her lust for life, when life lost its fun.
Maybe someday she'll be perfect again,
she won't hate the world, she'll be just like them.
She'll be that perfect girl everyone looks for,
she will be happy for once, and not want more.
But until that day comes when life is completely right,
she'll drown in the tears that she cries at night.


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A Girl and a Bullet

My eyes grew wide every time I saw her pass on by


I knew that when I was done with her people would question why


Everyday I would watch her walk, heading for her train


I would fantasize, myself with her, the remnants down the drain


I knew her smile, her step, her walk, the pretty ribbons in her hair


I would risk it all, for her I would, I had but not a care


One day good God, alas my girl, I saw her with a suitor


I wrung my hands in worry now, perhaps it’s but a tutor


Day after day, my girl and that man, it was hell indeed


My plan must change; I thought to myself, this is what I need


My fixation for her continued on, it consumed my every hour


How could I get her alone, with me, if I only had the power


My madness continued alone one day, having my race nearly run


I left my home, a purchase in mind and brought home a gun


I watched my girl that final day, walking to her train


I put the gun to my head, pulled the trigger 


and emptied out my ……


Details | Free verse | |

Little Things

She wonders about me so pitifully misinformed
But I'd rather she despise me than let her know the truth
A crazy decision; doesn't make sense and
I wonder what she thinks I'm doing
Can't even explain it to myself

Consequences, I'm missing so much of so little
Meaningless glances, mindless chatter
Turns to gossip, I listen intently and don't care about these people
Laughably solemn declarations of superiority
Such a modest arrogance
I must confess; somehow it's worth the struggle to bump into her

Wish she could see how she looks when she's sleeping
Sheets clutched over breath, a contented sigh
Then she could understand why
I watch her, take in every element of her

I like the tiny jumpers over old school shirts
Somewhere underneath she's still the same
The only girl I ever fell for
And when I try to get up, trip, stumble
I just keep falling
Bows and bracelets, no-one else exists
Such a girl as distinctive as this

She fills all my sketchbooks, notepads, journals
I can read her anytime

And then when she walks, puts out her arms for me, happily shuffles
Little things, not particularly attractive
There's not a part of her I could condemn

But forget it all.

I don't see her anymore.
Can't talk anymore.

And all the world is watching this fail; they all know.
Not one lets her in.

If she can't see, can't feel, can't sense it
Maybe that's supposed to be for the best
Or so I'm convincing myself.

You have friends, family, money.
You've got everything going for you.
So I'm happier than anyone
Wouldn't make sense any other way
And of course I want for nothing more
Days spent with kindly faces, good intentions, making memories

Hope she's jealous of this perfect life
She has no place in.



If I wasn't laughing I'd be crying.


Details | I do not know? | |

Transparent Friend

How can that happen?
How can one person think that?
She used to be just like me,
And even then she was skinnier
But she is the one in the hospital
She used to eat her food
Without a second thought
We used to laugh about
Stuff like that, and how
We would never stop eating
I guess we just never realized
How big of a problem it was
But then it happened to her
I didn't notice right away
That everyday after lunch
She would secretly slip away
Into the girls bathroom
But one day I caught her
She made me promise not to tell
But how could I not?
I couldn't honor my promise
When it meant saving her life
I told a teacher, not sure
That telling her parents myself
Was the smartest thing
When they took her to the hospital
She knew it was me
I went to visit her everyday
She didn't talk to me
For a long time
I would just sit in there 
And watch her play with her food
Only ever eating a bite or two
How could this be her?
That girl I used to spend
Every minute with
This couldn't be
This girl was a stranger
Her skin so white
It seemed transparent
Her bones sticking out
Face looking sunken
I couldn't believe it,
But I never gave up on her
I came everyday
I would eat in front of her
And eventually she began to eat too
A bite more each day
It was slow, but a start...
Now she is back in school
She eats her lunch slowly
But still eats every bite
Her face has came back a bit
The slightest bit of cherry red cheeks
I have to stay with her 
Whenever she goes to the bathroom
To make sure she doesn't puke
It's a gross job
It's taken a long time
But finally I have my friend back
And I will never let her slip away
Again...










This isn't about me, or anyone I know, but please pray for those people, who can't seem to get it in their 
heads that they aren't fat.  It's not just about not eating, it's a mental disorder, and it might not seem like 
something to happen, but it's more real, then many think...


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suicidal

I am living in this world
thats full of evil and hate
I feel suicidal
theres no more I can take
my pops beaten my mother
made her life a living hell
is there any decent men
well I cant tell
broken up families
Im from a broken home
my father left me strunged out
my mother raised me on her own
few years down the line
hes tryna make it up
I made up my mind
theres no makin up
promises been broken
lies are told
I wish i had a life
living richer that gold
black and bold
my brown skin is beautiful
emotionally disturb
thats why im so lyrical
I have a boyfriend at home
sometimes he do me wrong
even the ones I had before
they even did me wrong
whispers of deceit
tellin me, im the girl of their dreams
its so obvious to me, they only settled for me
since they cant have wat they want
the girl of they fantasy
they saId im the one they want
but its not wat it seems

"so suicidal"


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Afraid of the Dark

Daddy never told me
it was OK to fear the dark
or what lay inside of it
and here it’s left the mark,
of a neglected child
who didn't know what to fear
as the darkness appeared,
midnight chimed near.
Shadows beckoned from all sides
and the little girl doesn't know,
she calls out to a father
who will never show.
She tries to hold it in
because daddy never said
that his little girl could hide
from the monsters in her bed.


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I Wish I Had a Chance With You

I wish I had a chance with you
My love would be so true

I know I am not the girl who is right for you
And it makes me so blue

The girl you are with is the luckiest girl I ever knew
Maybe her love is true

But if she should ever break your heart
Just know that I'll be there
To mend the broken part

I know I will never have a chance with you
But my love is true


Details | Free verse | |

Quickstudy

 Quickstudy 
Quickstudy 
 
 
Have you ever asked someone for help with homework and got dissed they say 
whoa you want my help or you are just wanting me to DO THIS? There is no way 
to stay a friend the girl is not the best and she is married to her test she cannot 
aid and abet the criminal in you she will not make an animal of you she will not 
help you and it is likely that you will fail in life at everything you do and falter and 
then fall no motor car no stall to buy and sell no you are a cheater after all is said 
and done there is no one that can do the work you want the girl is on her phone 
now to everyone that she shares numbers with to tell them you're a bum. And 
then the time for class has come and you do not have the answers you wrote 
them on the bones of all the people that you killed to be someone go and read 
them after dark in the text of wishing land to be a doctor or a doctor here or a 
doctor there. 



Details | Narrative | |

Fallen Angel

There was a girl
She loved and laughed
She was one of God's angels
Her smile could light up the dark
Her heart was pure and trusting
She didn't know pain or heartache
Her wings were wide and flowing
Like downy feathers of a chick
And her halo was untarnished
And it had never been bent
She believed in nothing but happiness
Her beautiful eyes had never cried
And others looked upon her
With love, laughter, and hope
The little girl was broken
Someone shattered her crystal world
And as glass confetti rained down
She realized she was torn
Her wings had been broken
And they were covered in her blood
For her body had been violated
And she was innocent no more
Her halo lay at her feet
Bent sorrowfully in half
And she looked up to heaven
And heard a pitiful laugh
The little girl cried endlessly
She couldn't fix her wings
To fly up and sing with the angels
Was all she had wished to do
But because she was broken
It became all to clear
That little girl, she died that day
And I am what remains
A fallen angel


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Let Me Down

when I needed a shoulder to cry on,
you were never there,
when I needed someone to confide in,
you never really cared,
when I'd given up on living,
you left me there to bleed,
when I told you I was worthless,
you just smiled and agreed,
when I was standing on the edge,
you helped me take the leap,
when I was locked inside my head,
you threw away the key,
you were always there behind me,
pushing me closer to the edge,
you were always there beside me,
knocking me over the ledge,
nothing seemed to go right,
you made it all my fault,
when I finally pulled myself up-right,
you tried to make me fall,
when I finally opened my eyes,
and saw the true man you were,
you told me that I'm nothing,
and this is what I deserved,
nothing good has come from you,
the scars are all that remains,
of the girl that you once held in check,
the girl you caused so much pain.


Details | I do not know? | |

Girl in the mirror

looking in the mirror
what does she see
a girl lost in reality
abandoned by hope, deserted by fate
longing to be in love once again
but only one thing to do
she cant take her self any more
she breaks the mirror and runs away crying
as the girl in the mirror lays broken on the floor 
looking up in hopes someone will come along to pick her up
she felt as if she was the reason
why she ran away
but only the innocence left in the mirror 
could scare the girl, into running away
she didn't like what she has become
a lovesick girl
who thought that giving herself away would keep him
but only made him walk away 
now shes left with broken pieces and one sad story
she feels as if she can never love again 
but as the broken mirror pieces
give her hope, and will help her fly 
because she is the only one who still believes
that love is still just a fairy tale waiting to be read 
so the girl in the mirror will wait for someone she can help keep alive
and put them in the light


Details | I do not know? | |

Little Girl Inside of Me

Little girl inside of me...
hidden deeply are the memories that I keep...
treasures rekindled of the past...
painted delicately from white to black...
Inside is prison...
I make my home...
bitterness lies...
yet freedom romes...
Salvation comes...
with every pleading prayer...
agony destructs...
leaving dark despair...
My heart weeps...
My soul is dying...
For love, I keep trying...
never knowing when love shall arrive...
I keep this little girl inside.


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Shattered Mirror

I sit there, 
  pain pressing the back of my eyes,
  forcing them to leak.
Alone at a crossroad,
  I stand in the epicenter,
  of my own enigma.
This place looks so unfamiliar,
  but the sounds, the smells,
  I've been here before.
Treading through dark water,
  scenes from my past,
  are now my present,
  which is one gift that was better left untouched.
Undistinguishable utters leak from my mouth,
  I can hear them, but their meanings 
  aren't registering in my mind.
"No....stop!....Get off of me...Please....NO!"
  and like a flood of tears,
  the past washes over me.
I am drowning,
  in my own pit of despair,
  my own pool of pity.
A little girl lost,
  innocence corrupted,
  life interrupted.
Moving along, I see a mirror image of myself,
  my reflection is staring back at me
  she's crying.
Inside of herself,
  she's dying,
  hunched over crying.
As if sensing my presence,
  she looks up at me. 
I am speechless,
  for the girl in the mirror is me.
She is the very picture of my inner soul,
  beaten and bruised
  weary and worn out.
But she has nothing I want,
  but everything I need.
Freedom, to be her,
  without shame.
I want it, 
  she has it.
I reach out to touch her face,
  to make her real,
  make her a part of me.
As my finger grazes her cheek,
  the mirror shatters,
as does my world.


  




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Girl On The Beach

My heart broke for the girl on the beach.
For her innocent repose in the hammock,
For her smiling, dreaming eyes,
For her gentle curves and sweet lips,
For the enthusiasm of her travel,
For the vivacity of her youth,
For her fragile, beauteous soul,
For her bare toes upon the silver sand
For her ankles dipped in the crystal sea.
For her violation and untimely death,
For the pain of her parents,
For the anguish of her travelling companion,
For their dumbfounded devastation,
For pointless, mindless tragedy
For a world that breeds monsters
For her encounter with monsters,
For monsters who destroy life and beauty,
For those who suck the good from this life,
For my own daughter and imagining how I would feel,
For the inconceivable heartache, decimation,
For the sheer pulverising horror,
For myself and my incapacity to help her, or those close to her,
Or say anything that really matters except
My heart broke for the girl on the beach.


Details | Concrete | |

My sister`s kids

Their little faces remind me of there mother when she was a little girl the 
innocents in their eyes, their little grin as if they were up to some thing, and the 
way they act from the oldest to the youngest I see her,
 In Dannay I see the girl my sister could of been some one who is open to 
learning , ready to help when needed, who see`s the person she wants to be 
and watches over the ones that are younger.
 In Toni I see a smile that hides, I see the gleam in her eyes and the love that's 
tucked deep down in side a girl who wants to be free,
 In Ronnie I see my sister when she was nine, a tom boy with a smile of  a little 
girl some one who will grow to be all she can be,
  In Joseph I see the boy my sister always wanted a charmer, a kid who lights up 
the room and who can mess it just as fast,
   with all of them I have a blast. 
My sister was given every thing even these beautiful kids and like her life she 
never appreciated what she had,
  Now her kids live in my home given love, respect, and the care they were never 
given for my sister I fill sad,
  her kids are of wonder, they are fun, they are different from one another yet they 
are the same,
  kids who just want a chance to be, kids who want to love to receive love and be 
happy there life's before me was a shame,
  my sisters kids are given a chance to be, how they take is up to them, before 
them is a new beginning behind them is a life they did n`t deserve my sisters 
kids were always in my heart,
  my sisters kids now have a better start.


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Loneliest Girl

The loneliest girl thinks into herself 
in dreams of gold soliloquy, 
and knows not of her inner grace 
that pours forth light 
and love at the dawning of new day. 

She drinks the nip from fear's chalice, 
drowns in quicksand of ire 
and realises not her soul 
has spurned the decimating dark 
and torches with relentless fire. 

The loneliest girl has deeper feeling 
within the fetters of her heart 
and knows not her sensuality 
that can lay rule to men 
and rend their mind and flesh apart. 

She weeps and feels unloved, alone, 
steeped in quagmires of distress 
and realises not how much 
her inner beauty craves release 
from prison cells of emptiness...


Details | Romanticism | |

Sirens

It was late, We found her laying on the pavement..bruised..tattered and bleeding profusely
Every word just faded into a mouthfull of blood, Her skin ripped beyond healing power,
Somehow the aura potruding from this poor girl seemed so alive though physically
motionless, Attracted be every breath of her cold air...her frozen stare,
We have no time, her signals are lessening, her blinks more divided,
Those emerald eyes that ive loved for so long..almost gone..out of reach
Cradling this precious girl in my arms like she loves for me to do
Holding on tightly trying to put pressure on the wounds,
I can't leave you now she muttered..her lips now a shade of blue,
Because i love you so much....and you love me too
I know sweetheart... I know, But the bleeding is to extreme
I must be sleeping This has to be a dream, our crimson stained wedding rings
Are you really slipping away? All of our memories, All of the days we have spent
so much time together, I pray to GOD that your here to see better days,
But baby your heartbeat is so faint now...I can barely hear you breathing,
Our time is ticking quickly now, your veins now seething
A pool of tears in the moonlight Shimmering frosty bright, My precious baby
Even to these last seconds You're just as beautiful as the day we met, Just as warm as the day we sat in the grass with the butterfly nets
I wish so badly that we could change places, That i could die for you, I don't know what to do........
Try to be still now...try not to move, Can i kiss you one last time? and know that for the last few moments of your life
you were completely mine...I love you....I love you too,
Now i'll lay with you until your suffering is through..I'll be with you now As your life passes from this flourescent eleven
to the pearly gates of God's white Heaven..I'll always be with you, Until the end
our last words were spoken...silence overcomes the city....Sirens in the distance...Hand in hand... I whisper..............Wait for me


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"I wonder if she liked me?"

Are they really my friends?
Do they see?
The hurt they've caused me
The pain.
They misery.
The agony.
My wrists scared with depression
My heart forced to love them.
I don't know what to do,
What to think
I try to make them like me,
Yet still they don't 
Maybe someday they will see,
The actual me,
The girl who made it,
They girl who lived her dream.
They girl they thought,
I could never be
Maybe they will think
"I wonder if she liked me?"


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A young girl

A young girl lost in a sea of people and an ocean of heartache. The confusion 
plaguing her troubled mind and poisoning heart with anger had finally flooded 
over her entire being. All she could think of was the hatred building up behind 
those deep blue eyes and that fictitious smile. Pretending all the while that she is 
content with the life she despises. Dancing outside the suicide room,  reluctant 
to enter. But running through the door of drugs, like a kid in a candy store. 
Desperately searching for an escape from the chaos dominating her life, but only 
finding temporary relief from her anguish. Everyday she waits patiently for 
someone to rescue her from the pain that is eating away at her insides. As each 
day passes by, she slowly loses her faith that she will ever escape. Night after 
night, she lays awake consuming more and more pills than the night before, 
praying for a way out. Years go by with no relief, and the young girl has lost all 
faith. As she lays awake for the last time, she smiles her fake smile, and flashes 
those deep blue eyes, and her prayer was finally answered with a simple pull of 
the trigger. She escaped.


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Daddy

My eyes hold the saddest look
my heart holds all my pain and the lies
i hide myself from you
so no one will know the truth
how much i feel inside
i love you soo much
i know you love me too
your slowly killing yourself
skipping dialysis all the time
cant you see what it's doing to me
how its affecting you?
so keep threatenging to leave
all ur doing is hurting me
so ill keep crying
ill keep acting happy
ill smile for you
and cry for me
to keep myself sane
i cant look at myself anymore
cuz i know im not that same lil girl i used to be
i've grown up buh not to the girl i thought i would be
i've grown up but im the girl who cries when no one looks
im the girl who you once knew,
im your daughter
im scared for you daddy


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Are you sorry im not her?

Feelings from deep down inside
but they're not yours they're mine
don't try and make me something im not
I'm the girl you claim to love or have you forgot
don't try and judge me
I know i'm not perfect
All i'm asking for is love and respect
Are you sorry im not her?
I work hard for all I've got
I've spent to long being someone I'm not
its time to show off the real me
Be the girl I truly want to be
I won't live in the shadow of your dream
Are you sorry im not her?


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Jane

Two boys were playing one day when this dirty little girl came over to ask there 
name,
one spoke out "whats it to you your poor ugly" and the other said "and lame,"
the little girl looked down at her cloths that were old dirty ,and stained,
she then looked at the boys were still the same,
the boys laughed " your a girl were not the same we don`t even know your name"
the little girl frowned but didn`t cry" can I still play your game."
"NO GO AWAY" one of the boys yield then went on to play there game,
after playing they talked about that poor girl "what was her name."
out of no where a car came right at them it must have skipped a lane,
days later the boy woke in hospital beds with so much pain,
" what happen " one asked an answer came "you had surgery you`ll be the same"
" SURGERY" one boy screamed the nurse calmed them as it began to rain,
to one she told him he needed important parts to his brain,
to the other she told him he needed a new heart when in he came,
the boys eyes filled with tears so the nurse asked are they for  Jane?
they looked at one another "I wish for her it was the same,"
"there was no other just us two" they said "we were going to look at the train,"
then a lady walked in she was so sad crying holding a picture frame,
she looked at them and said "I`m glad you two lived and you were nice to Jane,"
the boys looked at each other for again she said that name,
"she was the sweetest girl in the world who only wanted to help or play a game,"
then she asked "was she happy that day with her gone I`ll never be the same,"
the lady turned the frame around it was that poor girl the one they said was lame,
they said "that's her," the lady said "yes that's my baby Jane" 


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Reversed roles

Come visit my grave.” Is what she said,
To little to have these thoughts in her head.
She’s only a baby she’s eight years old,
Through her, her mothers story will be told.
“let’s move away and start a new life.”
“Maybe my boyfriend will leave his wife.”
Every night drink after drink,
Her mind so clouded she couldn’t even think.
Her little girl so innocent and pure,
Left with no choice but to quickly mature.
The roles some how became reversed,
Night after night it seemed rehearsed.
Pick her up and bring her home,
Pour some wine and leave her alone.
One glass ALWAYS led to two,
Until she didn’t know what to do.
She only four then five then six,
Because of you she learned new tricks.
She learned to cry at nothing at all,
To avoid hearing you make that call.
She learned to say that she felt sick,
Couldn’t you see it was only a trick?
“Your fathers no good I need so money.”
“Don’t look at me like I said something funny.”
“Your to little to understand, But your Uncle 
now is my new man.”
“The time has come for us to move home,
Baby I love you but I need time alone.”
“You’ll go live with Daddy and you’ll start school,
Even though I told you ….he was a fool.”
“When things don’t work out with my new man,
I’ll come get you I’ll have a plan.”
A little girl so lost and confused
Her little heart has been badly bruised.
“Come visit my grave” is what she said,
Her tiny heart left hanging by a thread.


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The Little Girl

There's a little girl inside me who wants to be out
I can hear her scream, I can hear her shout
I know to you this may sound absurd
But the little girl desperately wants to be heard

He silenced her so many years ago
Now she wants everyone to know
To know how he came into her room at night
To know she was so little she didn't know how to fight

She told about him once before
But there were issues she chose to ignore
There were other things she didn't reveal
If she didn't talk about it, it wasn't real

But now she is ready to reveal
She needs you to know how he made her feel
She needs you to know how he sinned
And changed her life with his perversion

She wants to be able to live the life he stole
She wants to be able to just feel whole
She wants to be normal like everybody else
She wants to be able to love herself


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The Girl I know as me

Look at her sitting there all alone
Sitting there waiting by the phone
But as she waits, only her hopes fall
As she waits for him to call

Look at her standing there by herself
Letting go of everything she's felt
Waiting to fit into the crowd
Maybe then her mother would be proud

This girl has no one left to live for
She doesn't even want to live anymore
She has so much she wants to be
This girl I know as me 


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The Girl Who Wished She Was Dead

The girl who always got picked on
Was the girl who wished she was dead
The girl who hardly had friends
Was the girl who wished she was dead
The girl that always got hit
Was the girl who wished she was dead
The girl that got in trouble for no reason 
Was the girl who wished she was dead
The girl that got her feelings hurt
Was the girl who wished she was dead
The girl that cried herself to sleep at night
Was the girl who wished she was dead
The girl that one day died
Was the girl that finally got her wish


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Regrets

Everything can change in the blink of an eye,
One choice you make can change everything.
Just think, something that YOU do could change all your family and you!


It all changed,
It all changed when Joe was little and didn’t pick up his toys when his mom 
asked him to.
His mom hissed and screamed at him.
He thought that his life was destroyed because he wouldn’t get any more toys.


It all changed,
It all changed when Mary and her friends sniffed White- Out,
They went to school the next day and could barely read.
Mary regretted ever getting her and her friends into sniffing.
She knew that it was a bad decision and it didn’t affect only her.


It all changed,
Everything changes when you go to a party and get wasted.
You get in the car drunk even though your gut is telling you not to.
The butterflies in your stomach twisted, turned, twirled and tipped your stomach 
upside down when you decided to drive.
You hit a little girl on the way home and who is walking across a crosswalk, and 
you go to prison for murder.
You have just changed the life of a helpless little girl and her family forever.
Would you regret that?


It all changed,
It all changed when I went to a spring break party and didn’t feel very well, 
something wasn’t right.
Nine months later, my life changed when out popped a little baby boy.
I felt like I was putting a burden on my family because the lives of them also 
changed when I had a baby.
Everybody has regrets, now you know mine!



Have you ever made a bad decision that you regret and it has changed 
everybody’s life, including yours? 
I bet you have, because if you ask anybody, they have done something that they 
now regret.

Everything changes for everybody around you when you make a bad decision.
It’s not always you that it only impacts. Just think about it whenever you know that 
what your about to do is wrong.
Because you might just be changing someone’s life forever!!!!!!!!! 

I have regrets.
Do you?







 All of the people mentioned in this poem are made up.


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Skin Deep

when you look 
you see nothing 
but the girl you love to hate 

to you she's just a closed book 
who's exsistance is abhorring 
to you who's nothing but great 

but when i look in the mirror 
i see a soul that is on fire 
and a girl who's willing to fight 

to get even one step nearer 
to be all she aspire's 
on the night her life ignite's 

because beauty takes you nowhere 
you end up in a heap 
of nothing but the girl 
that you used to be 

you have to be willing to bear 
that beauty's only skin deep 
you have to hand over the pearls
and get up off your knees 

because life doesn't let you weep 
and life just come cheap 
you've got to take a flying leap 
because beauty's only skin deep


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My Little Girl

I remember when you
Were just a baby 
When I could hold you in my arms 
And rock you to sleep 
Over the years as you grew
You were a little handful at times
We laugh about that now
Part of me loves to watch you grow
And become more independent
Another part of me wants you
To stay my little girl forever

Sometimes I feel so frightened
For I dread the day that you will
No longer need Mommy to
Kiss your boo boos to 
Make them better
I dread the day that you will no longer
Need Mommy to hold your hand 
When you cross the street or
Give you kisses when I tuck you in at night

I will mourn your childhood years
Because it will be the ending
Of a time when you thought
I was the greatest Mommy 
In the whole world
I will miss the times when we 
Blasted the CD player
And danced around the living room
I will miss taking you shopping for
New clothes for school
I will miss our "girls day out"
When we would go to Dillards
And spend a whole day
Getting our hair done
I wish these days 
Could last forever
Because no matter how old you get
You will always be my baby
In my heart you will always
Be my little girl forever


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eternal peace

to know this pain
is to know a thousand deaths
a story once told
the story of she
a small girl 
cradled in a corner
single tears shed revealing the pain unseen

cries unheard through these empty halls
a young girl alone once again and forever
the promises of change where made
but they never came
hope and happiness lost at such a young age
a gentle touch 
could it be change finally made
a soft whisper to sooth the pain
"it is time"

could it be a savior found within this haze
or just a hallucination within this daze
with his touch comes the promises of tranquility 
"it is time"

"For"
is all she can say
His immortal whisper is the key to her serenity
"suicide"


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The Girl from Kansas (angel of sadness)

The girl from Kansas asked
“And you would never hurt me?”
The voice of sadness replied
I mean I would never hurt you intentionally
But eventually 
My selfishness and bitterness would run you away
Then again, alone, you would lay
The girl from Kansas asked
“I’ll be you know how to treat a lady”
The voice of sadness replied
Would you like me to hold your hand?
When we sit, would you like my pride to stand
Would you have me
Kiss you just above you forehead 
Every night before you drift off
And softly whisper I love you
When even in my nightmares
I only think of you
You want this why?
I’m no perfect lover
I don’t know how to hold you when you cry
The girl from Kansas asked
“Why not give it a shot?”
The voice of sadness replied
Where do we go from here
I wanna hold you, I wanna console you, but I’m afraid
It’s your tears I fear


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I'm The Girl

I'm the girl you wish weren’t here.
I'm the girl with nothing to lose, 
Yet everything to fear.
I'm the girl you poke fun at when you have nothing to do.
I'm the girl you never knew.
I'm the girl who stood alone.
Who is going to cast the first stone?
I'm the girl that wanted a friend.
I'm the girl you couldn't comprehend.
I'm girl who loved to love.
I'm the girl filled with rage and hate.
I'm the girl no one saw until it was to late.
No one knew suicide I would contemplate.
I'm the girl who had no reason to wait.
I'm the girl who was always left out.
I'm the girl you loved to talk about.
I'm the girl who fell through the cracks.
I'm the girl pulling knives out of my back.
I'm the girl who stuck a bullet in my head.
I'm the girl laying here in a puddle of blood dead.


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you dont know her very well

there is this girl that i know well and she had a story to tell.this girl wasnt really 
smart so she never took anything to heart.this girl got made fun of everyday by people in 
her house, til one day the girl got really depressed, but dont get my wrong that not 
where things got bad and she was sad. her mom was never around her brother was mean to 
her and her dad was no where to be found.by this point the girl was really depressed she 
felt like a pest.as time went on she thought living was what was wrong.


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Just a Fling

It started off as just a fling 
Nothing serious a simple thing 
Then my love for her grew deep 
It became hard for me to sleep 
People said we were too young 
Though we were she was the one 
Even still with feelings strong 
I was forced to do her wrong 
Cause I was just a scared young boy 
I played with her like a toy 
Then one day first period came 
I heard that girl shout my name 
I looked at her and walked away 
Not knowing her changes every day 
From the secrets that she had 
I learned that I would be a dad 
My time with her I did deny 
Now I wish I didn't lie 
She looked at me with such disgust 
In my words she once did trust 
How could I put her through such pain 
So I could be arrogant and vain 
Now the day is drawing near 
Would she still love me was my fear 
Or was my timing way too late 
To regain her trust and change our fate 
When I approached with teary eyes 
Her love for me she did not deny 
She told me that she loved my so 
And she never wanted me to go
She formed me to a whole new man
One who could love and understand
So with the largest stomach at graduation
I was her rock her foundation
And as those 9 months they quickly passed
I thought our love would forever last
One night she called and I awoke
When she yelled "MY WATER BROKE"
Just as fast as my happiness came
All my sunshine turned to rain
The doctors made me leave the room
At once there were screams that made my ears boom
I tried to suck it up and hold in my pride
But when I said I was okay it was all a lie
The doctor came out all teary eyed
"the girl u loved, she instantly died"
"but your baby sir she's healthy and safe
6 pounds 9 ounces that is her weight"
When I looked at you all I could do was smile
My pain left me for a little while
Now in you your mother she lives
In the sparks in your eyes and the warmth in your kiss
And though it started off as just a fling
To me your mother was everything


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Little girl

There is only one monster under daddy's little girls bed
Daytime she safe its night time she dreads
He comes to her the child is awakened 
Simple for him her innocence is taken
He leaves her in her bed silently weeping
Until he will return again to awake her from sleeping
She doesnt know why daddy hurts her so bad 
Leaving his little girl crying and sad
She does what he says so he wont be mad
For daddy's little girl doesnt want to be bad
So she keeps silent and her pain stored deep
And under her pillow a picture of daddy she keeps


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Daddies Little Girl

 Mommy and Daddy constantly fighting. 
     Daddy beating and bruising mommy perfusively.
          Daddies little girl crying consistantly praying asking God
                 to make things go back to the way they used to be.
                         Daddies little, little girl is crying so daddy peaks inside the 
bedroom to calm her, while daddy carresses her little body daddy 
         drives deep inside her. Now aint that something. 
                How could someone as close as a father touch his 10-year-old
                             daughter like she's a grown woman. Hmm!  This is crazy how  
   could daddies little girl be having daddies little baby. I knew 
                 they were to close, but the average family would this 
                                      right here is just gross.


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The Pain inside

where do i take this pain of mine? 
you were suppose to be there for me no matter what! 
you made a promise that you would never leave me side. 
each time you said you cared for me my heart was joyous 
thinking we would unite as one and be happy for ever 
you told me i was the greatest and sweetest guy you had ever met 
we were made for each other,even you said that your self 
i was counting the days that we were gonna go out 
waiting for that special moment when i was going to ask you out 
then you decided to take another path which i didn't understand 
i showed you the light of happiness and eternal joy, 
yet under temptation you went to the other side knowing that your going to get 
hurt 
maybe it was better if i just lied and didn't tell you the truth 
since most of the time girls want that 
not only did you break my heart you showed me that you never cared 
the love i gave you was pure and real 
yet you didn't seem to care what you did
how can one live with the fact knowing that our love is real? 
you wanted to take a chance with me?you said i deserved a chance to be with 
you 
that was a lie since all you could think about was the other guy 
not only that but i thought of you as someone who was unlike any other girl 
to me your just another girl who takes nice guys for granted 
you took my heart tied it and hang it to die.............. 
nothing else matters now since i have lost once again 
throughout the whole time we talked i thought we were best friends 
no i was just a rebound 
my heart is in pieces thanks to you 
i hope you find joy in what you did and remember what you have lost 
trust i saw an angel in you,but now i had a different your everything thats bad 
you have no idea how many tears i will cry just because of you 
all of this was just a lie......... 
now i know that i cant take my pain to you i will take it and deal with it by my self 
once again 
with no one to help me not even one i considered to be the greatest friend i have 
ever had


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sad little face

A lovely little girl With a life so sad
 She lost her mother 
And now lives with her Evil dad,

 Her sad little face
 Swelled up with pain
 Her tear filled eyes
 Cry out to be saved, 

Everday beatings all for no meaning
 Yet the little girl never made a peep
 She'd just lie on the floor And stare at the door
 Till her father went away

, Her sad little face 
Swelled up with pain
 Her tear filled eyes
 Cry out to be saved,

 Now several years have come to pass 
But the beatings still continue
 And her once lovely little face 
Now tells the story of her pain

, Her sad little face 
Swelled up with pain
 Her tear filled eye
s Cry out to be saved,

 Now there she sits so helpless
 Just waiting for that special day 
The day she set aside 
When she will take her life away

 Her sad little face
 Swelled up with pain
 Her tear filled eyes
 Cry out to be saved,

 She will never stop to think 
Of all the people she will miss 
You can call it ignorance
 But ignorance is bliss,

 Her sad little face
 Swelled up with pain 
Her tear filled eyes
 Cry out to be saved

, As she slides the blade across her arm
 She thinks to herself 
Of how the day has come at last
 When all of her struggles will end
 As she takes her life away,

 Her sad little face
 Swelled up with pain 
And all she wanted 
Was to be saved.


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FORGIVENESS

as a little girl i had bad dreams.
i awoke in the night to hear my own screams.
these dreams were nightmares i lived many nights, 
i prayed for help as i turned out the lights.
 the dreams had a monster i knew well, 
i was a good girl i could not tell.
the monster would hurt me and make me feel sad,
 what hurt me the most was my dad.
 i told no one about the game,
i could not tell mom because of the shame.
 without fear and refusing to cry 
i faced the monster and ask why?.
i got no answer to the questions i had,
i got my answer by watching my dad.
i saw him crying and shaking his head 
i saw my daddy wishing he were dead.
i felt no anger, hate nor fear, what 
i was feeling was so perfectly clear.
i felt so sorry for the soul trapped inside, 
i asked for forgiveness for wishing he had died.


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What the little girl saw one day (2005)

An innocent child one day witnessed a horrific crime
Young eyes paused in a collapse of time
Confused child who began to think and then she instantly grew
All her childhood was lost when she finally knew
The cries of helplessness break her sweet memories like a china toy
The little girl felt ashamed and dirty every time she saw a boy
A man attacks the rights of another
The poor little girl stood helpless as she looked at her mother
Now a grown woman stands never to be the same
She has learned that a victim is never to blame