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I Used To Be a Dreamer

I used to be a dreamer Growing up within my mind, I was no heavy sleeper By creativity confined I used to be a hero One day, and then the next I could've been Jack Sparrow Prancing between the decks I used to live in a circus With carousels and flying cats, I'd muck about without a purpose All day out, with Mr. Tall Hat I used to be a rarity From anyone else, I was unique I used to live in fantasy Believed in fairy tales, even magic Today, I am another person As normal as they define Too scared to be uncommon Afraid to be left behind Today, I live in blunt reality A world of black and white, that outlaws every little oddity and punish them on sight I have been dead before, When they took my dreams away.


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Anxious Dissolution

IV

A soul was broken to make room
For dusty halls and labyrinths.
A gossamer, nylon bed-sheet shroud
Enwraps the remnants of that mind.
And no excuses can be made; 
This disease does not justify that one.
I do not sleep deeply, I do not wake easily,
I dream of cities built on sand,
Next to the swelling sea.
Oh, they should have lasted.
Why should they fall?
I dream of timber horses,
Brought between those city walls.
We should have known; we should have known better.

III

But, I am not an honest mystic;
Beware what you ask of me.
I will show truths within the liar's tapestry.
But, you will not believe; no, you cannot believe.

II

I howled for my motherland
When the mutiny began.
I heard the cry of treason; heard the cry and ran.
I saw blood be spilled,
Some of it my own, then
Felt the rest boil, that this could happen in my home.
I saw the battle through, until the very end,
Then wished the traitors pardoned,
Because they were my friends.

I

I cannot tell the difference
Between the sleeping and the dead,
So, I will dole out blankets, and keep the kettle on.
The streets are cracked and dirty,
And they all appear the same:
Shattered glass and roofing tacks
Where I place my bare and weary feet.
I don't want to go on.
But, I must rebuild; I must rebuild.
I have no grass to lay,
The trees and flowers will not grow,
So, I shall use nothing, but mortar, brick, and stone.
It's not the same; it is not the same,
But, I shall call it home.


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Dream, And Dream, And Dream

I'll Dream

. And Dream

. . And Dream

I'll dream until my soul awakes, And it's time for youth to part I'll dream until my passion breaks, And this child's abandoned heart I'll dream a lost and former friend, The innocence I've held to tight Before the colors blur, and blend, I'll dream of who I was tonight Before my tears drip down, and dry, I'll dream with colors pure and gold Before the innocence inside me dies, And childhood is hardened cold I'll dream as if absorbed in youth, Illusion moonlight show'ring light Blind to pain and awful truth, I'll dream of who I was tonight.
10/6/2011 "Dreams"


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A Soul Awakened

She is the muse to her own sorrow; She is the digger of her grave. She is the painter of her ocean view and every fatal wave. She is the shadow of her Father; She is the darkness in your sight. She is the night without the stars surrounding pale moonlight. She is the music with no words; She is sweet love without the reason. She is your dreamer with submission cold by warmth with every season. She is your pet with cold intentions; She is your baby scared and shaken. She is the bold and pure- the lost and found, She is a soul awakened.


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Rebirth

Ignite,
The missing light,
Forget,
What's behind.
Just believe,
That love comes again...

'Cause,
The skies,
Are like a hard glide,
In a shining rainbow's light...

All dreams and fantasies,
Can be reality,
'Cause fantasy,
Is based on reality...
But all histories aren't the same...

'Cause,
Sometimes, we dive,
In our lives...

So,
Don't judge,
For what you see,
Judge,
For what it is...,
'Cause time passes,
But, memories remain...

And,
Listen,
To your heart,
'Cause,
The body, does,
The mind, thinks,
And, the heart, feels...,
While, the soul, lives...

So,
Always remember,
To remember the past,
To live the present,
And to wait and pursue the future...

Listen to your heart,
Before you are telling goodbye,
'Cause destiny,
Might lead to demise...,
But, remember that destiny can be changed...

Life is unpredictable,
But space and time,
Could be controlled...
And even if some die,
We may survive...

Remember,
That life,
Might have an endless beginning...

All that remains,
Is to be reborn...


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Secretly Obsessed

Obsessed with the thought of you
wondering if it's only me or
if you sometimes remember the sweet things you've said
and if you meant them how I took them
or if I'm just obsessed with what's in your head

Obsessed with your very sentences
Every response I take personal
I know it's selfishness
Have you not noticed my eyes?
They hold secrets that only you can unlock
if you'd just take time to fill the thick juices of my pride
It's just boiling with lust, passion, trust and distrust
and other things I obsess over so much

I find myself writing to free myself from this prison I've created
where only you and I reside
I become confused about what I'm really feeling inside and I 
try to rid the thoughts that are highly debated as false and I
begin to cry and
think of casting love spells so that the universe can deliver this affair
I know it's unfair
but I don't care

I'm obsessed with what hasn't happened between us
I'm obsessed with your heart and that the fact that 
I don't think you've even noticed my selfish innuendos 
and secret undertones that blatantly express my lust
Or maybe you have and you calmly remain in resistance of distrust 
If you could only read my mind by simply touching my fingertips,
I'm sure I'd catch you out the corner of my eye biting your bottom lip
I'm obsessed with the passion and thoughts I think you have
Obsessing over an experience that I may never have....






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I would like to fly away - - -

To soar, take wing, take flight, glide ~ Be detached, apart from this life's reality Where past sorrows shroud my remembering To seal the heavy door to the past And to flutter on the edge of dreams To tremble, hover, grasping, peaceful and happy In imagination, floating and drifting Like a breathtaking butterfly with gossamer wings But then, but then ~ The cold fingers of the past come creeping Monsters, ogres, beasts of the long ago Memories screaming, shrieking, shattering my soul The beautiful lost in the carnage Oh the tears, the weeping, the eternal floating sadness The heavy door to the past is bolted, secure Impenetrable with many padlocks and thick chains Where anguish and bliss entwine in an endless battle And happiness died long, long ago But from time to time, whispering A single memory finds a way From under that weighty door locked, chained And I crush the sweetness to my broken heart, weeping . . . April 28, 2013 Free Verse


Details | Free verse | |

Forgotten You

Forgotten you
As your mind collects the memories of yesterday
Forgotten You
Epiphanies tie into knotty strings of realization
That very moment. . . 
You merely exist

Back then. . .those smiles
Those. . .distant laughs
Some you remember by name
Gone now maybe
Like the exhalation of the wind
Others dispersed in the world of arbitrary happening
Like leaves from falling, man-made trees
There is no doubt that they have
Forgotten you

Activate the bomb
Ignite the fuse
And you’re on next year’s history book
Never forgotten
But drained of all remaining good

That smile you gave
That happiness
The warm embrace so long ago
Salt-coated with piles of rubbish
Over last remaining mental spurts of comfort
Evil, evil, evil, evil, EVIL. . .
Always absorbed and remembered
. . .though never forgiven. . .

All good and gracious sentiments
Packed up in a box set nonchalantly in Downstair’s storage
. . .that chair with the broken leg in the corner of the room
That mangled cobweb holding a dangling, lifeless spider
A drowned sailor’s hat drifting through the current of the ocean
The single tear from a soldier’s vigilant, memory-stricken eye
The frustrating thoughts of a mute
The unchanged. . .HATED deformations

Forgotten you. . .
One soul brings to light weary, unthought-of happenings
Wedged deep into what she can only imagine
With not even a hint of understanding
. . .of the pain. . . .of the bewildering distortions
Of the ugly. . .
One soul merely vomits sickly verse after verse

As humanity embraces its downfall
The poet hangs onto her unjustifiable, forgotten. . .
Words


Details | I do not know? | |

Mystery

To a heart that can not yet forget

the moments he spent,

the beats that eventually stopped

at the same moment when

out of that door, people stepped!

 

To a heart that yet,

does not regret

the dream it lived

for a long time

and now, it woke up

and none of that is aside..

 

to a dream that turned to a nightmare

to a life that, by that time,

I thought it was not fair

But it repaired what it did,

or so it thought..

or so I don't believe..

But why can't I just forget?

 

Yet I don't want a turn,

but at least value what is there

what is now in turn..

 

What makes me hold on

for something that passed long time ago

what makes me forget

the smile that I have drawn now, on..

 

I don't know..

 

It must have been real,

or maybe..

I, so believed in dream..

 

I don't know..

 

But I thank GOD that this door

is now closed

and even the key,

is lost..

Maybe.. It is just..

Afraid of another fall..

That is for sure

 

Nothing is guaranteed,

and nothing is totally secured..

But what in hand do we have to do

when days are just passing through..

 

What is the mystery behind you my heart,

what is there inside of you my soul,

what are you thinking of, my mind

what else do you want

after being alive...

 

I don't know..

 

Afraid of tomorrow?

And who cares,

as long as we all unite..

Afraid of a fall down,

why not..

As long as we will stand up STRONG

just as ONE..

 

Just tell me what is wrong?

why are you so lost..

when the road is well lit around

and you know the way

so why are you lost..

 

I don't know..


Details | Free verse | |

Alive

And we are left here Like maggots—dirty, parentless…devastated Always feeding on the gruel…the cruel Fattening our lives in the moneyless bilk Shocking like a bee sting, yet soft as silk We are the forgotten I am watching the others grow rotten But I am cleansed and raw with glee Because…though blinded with slime…I SEE… I rise to the sound of the agonizing screams Of rapes, murders, of violent fists…weeping minds My definition of true finds… I smile when any possible hope arrives Fate laughs, knowing I constantly scream inside I am amused of it all…I can’t stop laughing As bitter tears began to fall I HATE ALL OF YOU… I WANT TO KILL YOU ALL… But I love that I can take anything From the nothing we have all been labeled The sick, the low…the mentally unstable Watch me roll up in a ball A naughty tease to death’s lull I love your silence… I love your intense fall And we are more alive than any of you We are crazed by your belligerence Aching to be emotionless SHARE YOUR INDIFFERENCE SHARE IT… Give us something to be left with So the others can die As Fate veers its head looking in the mirror Listen to her laughter—do you hear her? She watches and waits To find her maggots have grown wings… Screw your selfish indifference...we fall to fly We are more alive than any of you Though quickly we die


Details | I do not know? | |

But You Do Lie

Laying here in my bed
Listening to your deep and shallow breath
Such a smooth and calm sound
I roll over and lay a hand on your chest
Too much movement it seems
For you rolled onto your side
As I steal my hand away
I close my eyes and try not to cry
I get out of bed and move to the couch
I lay there in silence, smoke in hand
I try and calm my pounding heart
Finally drifting off to dream land
I wake with a start
A gasp caught in my chest
I feel strong arms gently squeeze
And a warm hand on my breast
I stiffen with fear
Until you softly say my name
The tension slowly ebbing
Until calmness has the reigns
You kiss the back of my neck
In that slow and sensual way
Repeating my name in a whisper
A game you know how to play
You gently roll me over
And take my head in your hands
You kiss my forehead lightly
The beginning of a dance
You gaze at me deeply
And said “I love you so much I can’t stand it”
You begin kissing my eyes and lips
Stealing like a bandit
I take you in my arms
And feel my insides quake
You run your fingers through my hair
Giving it a little shake
You pull away from me slowly
And looked deeply in my eyes
I blush and turn away
I don’t want to see any lies
You lay down behind me
And hold me so very tight
And then you said those words
I dream of every night
“You are all I ever wanted,
You are all I’ll ever need,
I’ll do anything you want me to,
Just spend your life with me”
I don’t know why I did it
But I begin to cry
He pulls me even closer
“I love you, Trust me I don’t lie”
I can feel myself roll over
What happens next, who knows
For I awake with a start
The tears still soaking into my pillow
I finally get my bearing
Everything is as it seems
It turns out you do lie
But only in my dreams


Details | Classicism | |

The Fall

then here,
idle now to some
small thought
i wander though
this timeless court
 
and drift beyond
what i have known
and see the weight
of pastures sown
 
discover i must
unknowing why
who i am
beneath the sky
 
i close my eyes
and feel the pull
of timeless days
I know the rule.
 
down down
to the depth
discover i
what is left
 
of what began
a simple boy
innocent full
of joy
 
down down
does this end
as i wash
in its decent
 
down down
and still it goes
back to where
a spring was sown
 
a fear grips
the torn grey heart
as it descends
to the start
 
will it stop
as still i fall
clawing at this
living wall
 
down down
out of sight
the noisome wind
the fading light
 
faster still
as i fall
dropped down
inside
a pit-stone wall
 
and slowly now
i reach the depths
of mind and soul
of what is left
 
the air is damp
i breath in deep
uneven bottom
beneath my feet.
 
and here i am


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Dream You'll Never Mention

Tell me
Have you ever had a dream
A dream where your own blood fell upon blue roses
And you fell through the ground as petals floated on the wind
Tangling in your hair
Red and blue rotting jewels 
The thick smell of old blood at the bottom of your own well
A dream where your heart felt the impact before the rest of you
And stopped for just a moment
Cold in your chest with the realization of death
And woke up
And then you cried
It didn’t change your life or the way you acted
It did not make you stop your closed door ritual 
Or throw your kit away
It scared you so bad, and yet
You never told another soul about your dream
Or what lies just beneath you tattered sleeves and ragged jeans
You want and do not want to be saved, for someone to know
Tell me
Have you ever lived a nightmare
You didn’t know how to escape? 


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Felo-De-Se Dream

I just drank a fifth of vodka
A lot on my mind
I start crying
But not because I'm sad or scared
It just feels like I'm supposed to
Razor blade in my hand
Ready to cut my flesh
First I slit my neck
Then both wrists
See the blood drip
Feel it running down my skin
Hear it hit the floor
Smells great
One taste & reality hits
Blood is gone
No cuts
Or tears
A voice says,
"This is your future"
Then I wake up


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Dream

everything is peaceful and calm just like always
but then suddenly something is different
I wake up and realize yet again that it was just a dream
just one more dream that will never come true
for my life is far from peaceful and calm
I wake up yet again to a world gone wrong
a world as scary as any nightmare
maybe we're all just dreaming this world
and without dreams it wouldn't exist
maybe we're all just someones dream
someone like me dreaming their life away
hoping that things will get better some day
isn't that why we all dream?
to escape from our fears and problems
if only for a few hours
dreams are a never ending addiction
the almost perfect drug
and we all do it
we sleep everyday to escape our lives
only if we sleep will our dreams come true
but they're only an illusion
maybe the only way to make a dream happen
is to die and dream an eternal dream


Details | I do not know? | |

Remembering

Seeing your face every time
I close my eyes.
Every dream I dream is 
of you.
Wanting you near me, knowing 
I can't have you.
Knowing your life is with
someone else now, as so is mine.
Knowing that we belong 
together, knowing in my mind,
my heart, and my soul.
Thoughts of you racing through
my mind, my heart beats faster
and faster.
Can't catch my breath.
Remembering, remembering the 
last words you said to me.
Remembering the words,"I'll
get you back, you will be mine."
Waiting, hoping, praying its
not too late.
Why do we remember, remember 
the past?
It doesn't help the future,
it confuses the future.
If that is so, why am I 
so happy remembering the past
and yet so sad, living the future?


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"FADE AWAY"

Anytime you want to be right here just imagine me and all this will appear, you 
can keep this moment all your life Forever near, a Dream worth keeping.

When your feeling lost, I'll be your Star, just reach out and touch me no matter 
where you are, in a world of Precious things are disappearing over night, just 
keep my Star inside.

I Believe we found a Dream made worth keeping for more then just a day, and 
even when the winds of change may come creeping it's still a Dream worth 
keeping, so don't let it "FADE AWAY"

Someday you might be thinking that life has passed you by, your spirit might be 
sinking with Hope in short supply, that's the reason why.

I know this Dream's worth keeping as long as it will stay, and even though you 
see the darkness that may come creeping it's still a Dream worth keeping, so 
don't let it "FADE AWAY".                                THE END


Details | Ballad | |

Broken Dreams

  Do you believe in the things that you've always known,
Can you understand the things you've been shown.
   Is it the visions you see that make you believe,
Or is the feelings you get when you've been deceived.
    The pain you feel a never ending ache ,
Tearing your heart and soul from you every day.
    Time ticks slowly pounding away at you,
Throbbing heart breaking and there's you can do,
    Must I settle for these lost and broken dreams,
Because it has all the signs that what it seems.
    How much should a man endure to find his way,
It cant possibly be like this hard for me every day.
    There is nothing so frustrating as being so confused,
Especially when you've discovered that you've been used.
    I will get through this lonely phase I have no doubts,
But I'm sure there will come a day I'll figure it all out.
    Cautiously I walk the path that's been laid before me,
In faith I will continue for I know he will let me see.
    Life will be thrown at you in so many different ways,
I will be prepared for these things for the rest of my days.
    Broken dreams will be the learning tree for me to grow ,
Living my life with Joy Happiness is what I'll always Know.
tac


Details | ABC | |

A Shady Tree

I know its the summer time because of how naturally 
Your beauty compliments the caress of a summer breeze
As I watch the world from beneath a shady tree
I take in the delightful comfort of everything I see
But in the same breath I am holding up my hands
Lord will you please give me back the things I no longer have
They are even more a part of me now that they are gone 
As the sun falls below where the horizon is still holding on
Somewhere between the falling light and a star lit night
Is a dream that last forever and will never say goodbye
As the wind gently blows through the brush and shakes the leaves
It begins to hum a melody that I want to sing
At that very moment I smile for all the joy I have
Its so uplifting for me to see melancholy dance
Soon the morning sun will rise and capture my eyes
As I watch the hand of God paint a brand new sky
With every stroke of color I swallow all my pride
And I find a new place to dream of endless times
If I should ever get to the place I left my broken heart
Only then will I believe this brand new day will start
Again Im reminded of why my heart beats so restlessly
Only the speed of thought and my soul beneath this tree


Details | Narrative | |

A Land Bearing Green White Green

Which way leads to the 
land of green white 
green?
Which way are we 
heading?
   A country the wicked 
bears the rulership, and 
the people sighing 
continuously.
   A terrible thing sprouts 
beneath the sun: a 
pregnant woman 
delivering not.
Imps come to lime-light 
by snuffing air from the 
goose that laid the 
golden eggs.
The blind guiding the un
blind.
The weak suppressing 
the strong-a terrible 
thing.
Like the overthrow of the 
gods at Mt. Olympus by 
the Titans.
A country where also 
thieves appear as men of 
integrity.
Land of green white 
green,which way?
A land where the 
enlightened ones are 
overshadowed and 
peanuts given to them.
The masses are dogs that 
eat the crumbs.
 Which way to go you 
Land?
Iliterates stand on 
podium of power 
bellowing orders as milk 
of sorrow known as 
dividends of democracy 
is passed around.
The machine of progress 
manned by the 
unproductive.
"There is better 
tomorrow" we hear.
Land of green white 
green,my country 
where rule of law walk 
beside anarchy.
The proles are sentenced 
to adversity,and there 
endured death-like trials.
Chai! Aru! People 
dancing on thorns 
whimpering as they 
throng 
along.
  I see a new sun rising 
from the horizon,hope is 
rekindled as its rays 
grace on hopeless bodies.
 Look!! there soon be 
change!



Note: 
This 
is 
poem 
full 
of 
Nigeria 
political
 angst.


Details | Free verse | |

Final Adieu

Final Adieu

Let another sun set,
Let another flower wilt,
Let another autumn cast its gloom,
Let another tear role,
As ye part, and bid
The final adieu.

Suyash Saxena
St. Stephen’s college


Details | I do not know? | |

Well how do you feel

In high school everything changes
Teachers, friends, you, 
“That’s just life” they say,
And they never stop to ask
“Well, how do you feel?”

And your friends leave, and your grades decrease,
And your teachers begin to worry,
And they make you see a shrink,
But they never stop to ask,
“Well, how do you feel?”

The sky starts to crumble,
And the tears begin to fall,
And music and hoodies become your best friends,
And they never stop to ask,
“Well, how do you feel?”

And the tools come out.
And the objects fall apart,
And you reach for the closest one,
And the ask, finally,
“Well, how do you feel?”

But by now it’s too late.
Your time is up, your blood’s run out,
Your scars show for the world to see,
Cause they asked too late,
“Well, how do you feel?”

“She was so young” they all say,
But really you were old.
You’d seen so much and hurt so much,
It was time for you to go.

So you picked up the pills and washed them down
And grabbed the blades and cut
And when they finally noticed you weren’t around
It was too late you were gone.

They found your letter on the bed
And read it out at school
“You asked to late, but I don’t blame you.”
And your friends were moved to tears. 

In your tree house in the yard
They found you pale as snow
Your eyes closed, a smile on your face
And they realized you were gone.

They roll up your sleeves and roll up your pants
And scream at what they see
Lines, and lines, and lines of cuts
Some healed and some not.

And they realized they should have asked in the beginning
How you felt that is, cause, 
Honestly you didn’t, 
You didn’t feel anything at all. 


Details | Ballad | |

New Year's Eve

Can’t think about the Year that didn’t last
Can’t fight the time and how it passed so fast…
Voices were cheerful that night
Everyone was full of silver light

I heard the sounds but didn’t care
I couldn’t help but only think and stare…
I dreamed of love that possibly I’ll never share
And of life that was just like a fairytale.

In that second of complete despair
I saw the moon and realized it was all a dare
Then your voice whispered in my ear
Promising me all I needed to hear…


Details | Tanka | |

only a dream

the softest caress

of your hand touching my cheek

wakes me from slumber

... I reach across emptiness

your touch was only a dream


Details | Free verse | |

Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


Details | Rhyme | |

the love we had seemed so far away

i look to stars and wishes flew through space never to be heard again
fun to friends hearts do meld and break facing until time ends
this loop that plays and beats that syncopate become but a gem
pleasure a chest opened in surprise feeling no need to defend
galaxies away lonely planets  please keep me in mind
 distance could grow something fond or lost between the lines
gps my love you can see  its still where I  left it behind
thoughts fade away with life love lives forever in my rhyme

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

without air i couldnt breathe squeezed until I'm passing by
no water flow my skin would dry and I return to the sky
sunny days would blacken out, attracting need for desperate lies
to make up for the beauty lost from death slowly closing my eyes
that fire once sparking motion snuffed in huffs slipping away
dwifting I sway shaky grounds where once I sat easily and stay
upon my feet I still float drowning out all thoughts that stray
Tho these ends can come swift its worse to miss and hear you say

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

down the road,flying free, I ride the wave and hope for your return
through several seas and cloudy peaks, storms of sand, I will not turn
helpless to fate and future events, nothing prevents something to learn
  sights may not sore, nothing much looking more, isn't my concern
I hope the best and happyness is true to bless you, not just in dreams
we can meet when we sleep discussing life while sleeping seems
thanks for trying Im not exactly dying, banes of  sentient beings
real enough moving on is rough, i'll love you forever, writting my means


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My Future Generation

I can act insane
But DO NOT 
Make me feel worthless

I belong in God’s family
He will bless my future generation

Don’t punish me for
Being myself –
Don’t envy my glee 

I can act like an
Adult, but I’d 
Prefer to have joy…

Not stress…
That piles upon us in our 
Everyday lives

Being childlike is

A rare beauty – 

No one prizes it…

No one came across it…

In this lifetime…

I can laugh all day
I can make you smile
If you’d accept my 
Childlike dreams of mine
Don’t treat me like a sick swine

Renew my young heart
Give me the ability 
To kill the old man…

I have my place in God’s family
He’ll be adored and glorified 
We’ll exchange prayers and hugs  
By my future generation

I beg of you – 
Don’t kill my childlike mentality
I’ll behave myself…
I’m positively sure that I’ll make you happy

I’ll still have pieces of a child in me

And pass it on to my future generation…


Details | Concrete | |

dry cry

the child of a distant mother
whose cry ran dry over the other,
the child of nothingness in winter
whose feet ran cold to the toe,
to whom were she without 
a glow to the unknown?
for whom need she commute
when she does crawl than norm?
then who must follow when she cries
to the voice of a soul child; so dry?
where is the father gone too long
or were there a mother, done too long?
whose child a tender care must one render
to which child than love of a parent?
her lips cracked in instances 
and tears long soaked in her tearful skin...
 
opn28032013/0315


Details | Rhyme | |

Dialogue of Souls


Best of friends, for countless years,
we had the best of times.
Now as my eyes are filled with tears,
your soul to Heaven climbs.
The path we take, not always clear,
I feel so lost without you here.
Your last words, prophetic now,
“I’ll be home soon”- you knew somehow.
You left me here, I’m so alone,
but I dreamed Heaven had a phone.
We talked all night, you fell asleep,
I held the line to hear you breathe…  

 

   Copyright © 2013


Details | Rhyme | |

Jennifer Part 3

She has so much pain inside of her,
she doesn't know how to address it.
So she turns the pain into anger,
after she explodes, she becomes quiet.

She goes up to her room, upset.
Why does the world hate her so?
She thinks to herself, “That’s it!”
But in reality, it isn't though.

She lies on her bed,
Pulls out her book and reads.
As she turns the pages, she loses her head,
In her mind, she thinks “This is what I need.”

A place to escape the world,
Somewhere she can run.
For it seems everyone hates this girl,
And nothing she does is fun.

She plays her cello 
And loses herself in the music
She does this when she feels low
Then she plays the song of her pick

She listens to the beat she makes,
Trying to make it sound perfect,
But oh, she keeps making mistakes,
She thinks that she will never get it.

She leaves the cello alone
And watches her shows
She then grabs her phone
And tells her best friend the show as it goes.

She leaves the TV on, 
Then she enters her laptop.
She stays on till dawn,
She just can’t seem to stop.

She loves the idea of leaving the real world
And entering an imaginary one.
That’s the story of the girl,
Who is never done.


Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: III

Beauty of nature
Why condense it down to God?
Isn’t life enough?


Details | Free verse | |

Don't Try It

A single kiss from thy lovely lips,
so sweet and so divine,
yet I taste posion upon your tongue.

Your beauty so glorious,
like a blooming rose so beautiful,
yet, why do mine eyes go blind
in the sight that you walk along with another?

Yes you, walk with another,
arm under arm,
lips touching lips in romantic kisses,
it makes my blood boil,
for mine lips are dry.

For mine eyes have seen your glory,
yet no one here listens to my story.
You are evil, yes you are,
don't try to deny,
Listen to a man of experience,
you might as well save some expense.

I write of our long romantic walks
we took together, under the shade of olive trees,
how we went apple picking in autumn time,
and made love in the foyer.

Nomore of that sweet and passionate love,
nomore silent kisses in the night,
when the wind blows hard against the branches,
that tape violently on my windowpane. 
Nomore somber tears shed, when you got sick,
and nomore warm embraces when you shed tears of betrayal.

Betrayal now is a game played by a fool,
such as I,
to think I'd have a happy life with you?
Huh, only a fool would think such a thing,
but now I sit, looking at the foyer,
where we once made sweet, passionate love,
nomore will that foyer be filled with exotic pleasure.
Nomore will you be filled with smiles and exotic pleasure.
I've done my job, as a good man shall do,
now pack your things and get of my stage,
the spotlight yawns for anew,
and the audience grows tired and restless of you.

Now I live life anew,
you too shall see life in new eyes,
walking hand and hand with the blond, blue eyed devil
you call your own.
Shall he take one kiss from your lips,
and die of the posion he tastes on your tongue,
shall he go blind, when he sees your true, black beauty?
He will see the ugly soul, covered up by white rags,
and cheap makeup,
and then he will come to me,
and shake my hand in condolence
and say, "You were right!"

Now you are all alone,
looking for another, as you did many times before,
Now you are alone, walking an open road,
spying on another,
fear of being alone.
Now, you see when you play games with a good man's emotions,
don't try it,
because a good man is not meant to be toyed with.


Details | Rhyme | |

My Eyesight

the sky is gray and gloomy trees stand still, they cannot sway small birds chirp looking for their mum they also long for the brightness of the sun the scenic spots I usually perceive day and night am I now blind that they’re out of my sight the squirrels who give their biggest grin I think they’re all busy looking for the best cuisine looking at the ponds and lake outside they are so stagnant that no one likes to ride a sound of one cuckoo seems has a message to impart does it want to tell me that you’ll finally depart so now, as I lay down on my bed I close my eyes but dread creeps my head I just hope I only have a nightmare that my eyesight is lost or my vision is not clear again, I want to close my eyes for the second time hoping for another dream that tomorrow will be mine a dream full of hope and joys which will forever abide like in the past when you and I stayed together side by side
Jan. 13,2012 (A depression poem) 7th Place Contest: Under the Influence Judged: 3/12/13 Poet Sponsor: Poet Nathan A.


Details | Free verse | |

Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


Details | Lyric | |

Chasing A Dream

To what end can I chase a dream
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I can reach for the flowers in bloom 
But they're all consumed
The fires' to deep - I just wish I could sleep

I look to the moon for answers but she just smiles
I don't have a clue - I've got too many miles

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I cry out in the night - but the echo hurts me
It breaks me down into broken dreams
I run for the door but its no longer open - to me
I cover my eyes...... but still I can see

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

©2013C.L.Baker


Details | Verse | |

Inevitable Bear

Oh lonely Inevitable Bear,
Padding claws, death in white
Sorrow in recurring nightmare
Instinct’s test; fight or flight?

Camouflage against the fence,
A challenge; my subconscious fear
Ominous slowly moving silence,
“Let me in, there’s a bear out here!”


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

The Damned

Her devilish eyes beat at me 
taking flesh with every blow,her 
rendered heart beat sounds like 
tribal drum rolls an her skin 
drips venom from its pores , I 
find myself helpless and 
paralyzed , everything else 
seems trivial and meaningless 
to this moment,..she exhales 
smoke and lightning flows from 
her finger tips ,she is the 
antichrist the source of my 
device, but I can't help but give 
her my heart,I question my gift 
but remain entranced caught in 
her red moonlit ritual 
dance,sight of her is blinding , 
she is what Every man  desires 
but can't reach, it feels like 
heaven but I sweat from the 
heat,the pain she inflicts is 
bitter sweet an burns like salt 
in a wound ,she is gods most 
regretted creation born for the 
night with a hunger that cannot 
be fed,hold her down chain her 
up she cannot be contained , 
pentagrams burn white in her 
eyes,she's a shape shifting 
voodoo angel that sleeps with 
vipers ,yet I seek her and 
desire her with every thread of 
my existence and have turned 
into an insomniac who day 
dreams of her , cut by the 
thorns of the rose she wears in 
her hair , always the day of the 
dead and raining razorblades, 
the tree limbs reach out for my 
embrace but every one of them 
are shadowed with her face,I 
close my eyes I can always find 
her there , lay with her in the 
ground every breath she takes 
is sin ,she's a black rosé that 
cannot be changed a black rosé 
that cannot be contained , 
ashes to ashes dust to dust I 
cut my heart to be with her and 
bleed undying trust,it's only 
her....everything else I feel is 
not real .....


Details | Carpe Diem | |

Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


Details | Lyric | |

Over The Bridge

It is here I am safe
It is here that I know
but over the bridge 
Is where I must go

The bridge that gives passage
over quick muddy water
though why I say that
I don't know why I bother

over the bridge 
is a tall oak tree
and standing beneath it
is someone waving at me

crossing the bridge 
I see a man standing there
with paint splatered pants
and a head of white hair

looking closer I see 
exactly who's there
I see it's my papa
and I can't help but stare

I run right toward him 
and give him a hug
I ask how he got here
his response is a shrug

it's then I remember 
the fact that he'd died
it's then I remember
the tears that i'd cried

I ask how it felt
when he had died
he then looks at me 
and he promptly replied

he calmed all my fears
about what lies boyond
then he looks up 
because the suns almost gone

he says I must go
before the sun sets
but I don't want to leave
I'm not quite ready yet

he gives me a hug 
before I go
then tells me I can't share
the things I now know

I give a quick nod 
looking up at the sky
I don't understand
but I don't have time to ask why

turning around 
I try not to cry
I just cross the bridge 
when the sun leaves the sky

I turn back to look
one last time at the tree
but my papa is gone
as was meant to be



 


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Dreamer

Close your eyes for awhile my friend, I heard there lies a moon far behind the black sky, I heard lovers were dancing beneath, can you hear them singing? I can feel their tipsy steps making rhymes on floor, and smell of perfumes filling the air, I heard a sun rises to brighten up their world, and birds do sing them charming melodies at morning, they say they have roses in colors and beautiful trees in the streets, and have they told you about the sea yet? They say it smells so wonderful and the delicate air of seas caresses their cheeks with soft wet breezes, oh my friend, what have we seen in the dark but the fragile ghosts that we are!

“Hush” whispered to me, “I lighted up a moon inside my heart and I smell lilies and jasmine in my nose, my dreams play tunes my heart dance on, they speak to me all night and there I see a starry night floats above, I feel the warmth of a sun in my soul as it hugs tight, whispering to me hymns of love and joy, lightening candles for hopes which had accompanied me amongst the dark, why have you closed your eyes my friend? Look through the colorful roses I painted for you with eyes wide open, let the lights off so you would see clearer, let the lights off so you can brighten up the world that hides with you, for my friend, what have we seen in the dark but the free spirits that we have become!


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Details | Verse | |

Sandy

I had a friend ,, from long ago 
We were only young you know
She was my best friend
At least that's what I thought
We did everything together
I liked her a lot !

But then one day
I had to leave for school 
Though I wish I did not
Cause I missed her a lot
Then one day I came home 
When  I  called out to for her 
She did not answer  me
I looked for her high & low!  

But then I heard one day
From the TV news man
That she had met 3 bad men
And they took her away 
She is with the angels  now
For it could not  be any other way
And I know she waits for me 
Cause she was always that way !!!


I moved away from home, age 16, up to Oregon to get my degree in child psychology & teaching, come home at 18. had a dream that Sandy and I went to a house party "both of us age 18" then she went into another room with 3 men. So I stood there & knocked forever on the door. Sandy never came out.   This is a TRUE dream !


Details | Narrative | |

A missive from the damned to whoever have a little time to spend with this nonsense - Page 1

And so, I have made up my mind, once more.
I have decided to depart, to bid this husk farewell.
In order to do that, I must save coins if I desire to save myself.
For with it, I will be able to buy my ticket out here to a more blessed realm or the eternal void. Either way, I will be winning.
I mustn't, any longer, feel the starvation of affection and no more I shall be fed by the crumbs of fleeting joy they toss at me.

Thoughts of finishing are always in my mind, flooding it, making hard to go day by day, making hard to sleep, to have hope.
I fail to see where the hope is, I like to think that it can be find inside of one's heart.
But even so, I think I am mistaken, and when I glance at myself in the mirror, I quickly lose any spark of what could-be hope.

With the aid of the metallic sling, I shall leave this husf behind, heavy with its sins and sorrows, to no more nourish hatred.
For it does only to hinder my advance towards elevation.
With my metallic sling, I shall pierce, first, my heart, where lies the sorrow, then, my mind, where resides the sins.
Whilst the life in me start to wane, regrets I will not have, when my consciousness fade, my spirit will be no longer be trapped inside this imperfect cage of flesh.
Being free, my spirit shall roam far and beyond to, before, unseen places by men, to  untouched places by men.

Another day,someone inquired me "Are you happy now?" and for that I just said "Yes". How else could I have responded if not with a lie?
How could I tell them that I yearn for a premature closure in order to stop thinking and feeling but I also yearn for love.
"I am not absolutely happy, as per say, but I do suffer less when I am asleep" I could never say that to anyone...


Details | Rhyme | |

Get out of my Heart

I lay, dripping, soaked within a dark sweat,
seeing and hearing your soft voice abet.
I want to run, to leave this merciless realm,
but you pull me closer, without a choice at helm.
Get out of my dreams.

I miss you, but I hate you, every last memory.
You taunt my every being, you’re all that I see.
I see you in the crowds, or when I’m all alone.
You’re here and there, on your heartless throne.
Why couldn’t you stay?
Get out of my life.

I hear your laughter and see your beautiful smile.
Once so beautiful, now helping others with guile.
You’re now decayed, withering into shallow dust.
I loved you so much, and never again will I trust.
Get out of my head.

Tears I weep, when others aren’t around to see –
I remember the days, the months and years I bleed.
I try to forget, and to hate you and your choices.
But all I can hear are these damn forgiving voices.
Maybe I am what you proclaim me to be.
Was I really that monster, that demon you see?
I hate what I love and love what I hate.
I try to erase our past, and to claim it our fate.
But I can’t let go, you’re all that I hear and see.
I wished you could have loved, that loathsome “me”.
Get out of my heart.


Details | Free verse | |

Last Sonnet



Hither I stand, at crossroads,
And then I gaze, at the yonder end-
The vague horizon from where I began;
And all that I may ever deem
Is that- my days
Have been a waken dream.

Hither I stand, at the edge of my dream;
Then I wonder, at the depth of my trance-
An adventurous journey through the wondrous woods;
An idyllic stroll through the vicissitudinous meadow;
And from the final station as I depart,
All that I can ever say, is that
Perpetuation has been a rouge
Of fleeting phases of my life.


Suyash Saxena 
St. Stephen’s College.


Details | Romanticism | |

Can't Love be with me for once

Can't Love be with me for once

in my life.

Can't Love for once in my life

see the way I live

and accept me for who I am

and not for what I possess.

I have seen love bounce back and forth

through the darkened streets of life

and I sat on the park benches,

alone.

I can't wait till love comes again

but can't love just be with me for once

and live with me, embrace me, to see me late at night,

come through the doors of perception.

Can't Love be with me for once

throughout the valleys of sorrow and depression

and shine its glorious face onto me,

like the first morning rays of the sun at dawn.

I cannot understand, why

Love can't just be with me for once...

Why?

I ask you, why?

Can't Love just laugh, and talk to me

Can't the arrow of Cupid find me already.

I have found my time, now I have no love.

The beauty of Plato's words that melt of the page

as you read word for word, and my heart melts away.

Why can't love just be with me for once,

once in a great, blue moon.

Too walk through the dew sprinkled, dawn days in August

as I walk to my chamber

and ready to love,

but love can't be found.

Can't love just come already.

Show its pretty face,

Hold my hand,

kiss me and I kiss back,

to read a book of poetry to her

as she lays in my arms,

and then we shall make love

under the twilight.

The stars shall shine

the moon shall be bright and full

and I shall find love one day.

One lonely day, as I sit in the wayward cafe

drinking my sorrows away,

writing my poetry

and love shall walk through that door

I shall find her and take her by the hand

and kiss her upon her soft cheek.

I just ask,

Why can't love just be with me for once.


Details | ABC | |

Grey Bird

On that cloudy weekend in June 
I hear a soft and graceful tune 
from the grey bird on the tree 
branch 
Singing sweet lullabies felt 
blessed in the moment 
My body tingles of joy at sight 
Gazing out through 
my open door,
Letting thoughts fly free
Releasing love out into the horizon 
Heart filled with emotion came 
over me 
Grey bird stood playing its tune 
for awhile and on the wings of 
letting go
Then as the rain fell from the 
sky the grey bird flew away 
gracefully 
I blew a kiss to the clouds and 
utterd these simple words of I 
Love You father ( who's now in 
heaven ) and yet I hope to hear 
that grey bird sing again once 
more for me 
Farewell, love your son

Poem contest for Debbie -referential


Details | Narrative | |

Final Plea

Inspired by the untimely deaths of young people I knew. RIP


In a dream, tonight would be my last

and I demanded to talk to God.

Of all the things I've gotten past,

to go now seemed so odd.

"You've taken all my friends you see

and now you want me, too?

Unlike one who pretends to be

I've always honored you."

Those sinners who outlive me still,

all I have to ask is how?

It mad me question His very will.

Why take a good man now?

But God just sat and let me rave

on and on about my worth

and why I didn't need a grave,

but rather eternity here on earth.

Pride let my voice be rather loud.

He never said a word.

I told of deeds that made me proud

and good things that I'd heard.

And when I tired He simply said,

"No doubt your life's been good.

But many younger are now dead

and their legacy simply would

be the song that is never sung,

no children call them dad.

for they came to me so very young

and left the world confused and sad.

Yet now your time has come as well

and selfish thoughts are all I hear?

Your life was full and I can tell

it's really death you fear.

Just remember that you have no choice,

for you all will one day die.

Be strong and with a humble voice

tell loved ones they can cry."

And in that moment I knew a peace,

and I felt a tear well up inside.

That most feared was now the least

as my selfish motives died.


Details | Lyric | |

Mockingbird

Written March 26, 2013


Hey you way up there in the tree
Hiding away for none to see
No I don't know why you refuse to be
Why can't you just see what I've seen
Hey little mockingbird don't mock me
It's these mystical one-eyed dreams
Keeping me from tossing myself
Twenty thousand underneath the sea

I am what I am
I've gone too far to rescind
These wonderful twisted dreams
Where we're skipping stones by the stream
I know what I feel
Now you're even more real
All I know is how to weep
With the birds lulling me fast asleep


Details | Hybronnet | |

Faded Life

Stuck in a situation, Not knowing what to do? Blocked from all directions, Tired of being sick, throwing and feeling weak, The people I thought I can trust walked away, I am tired of selfish people, I am tired of being alone and fighting this without any support, When this should be your responsibility too! All you want to do party and play, I am tired of facing problems one after another, I need peace, relax and have nothing to worry, Yet you bring hell to me! All you care about is you and your career, While I give my life and risk everything for us & baby, I give up my family, my car and now I am broke and homeless, And all you care about is you and your dreams, It bothers me how you think & blind to see, My dreams and goals for my life is in the trash can, You keep asking for respect yet you cant even understand your women, Without a cause there is no effect, I just wish you would understand that! This is not about who wins or looses! This is about us fixing problems togather as ONE!


Details | Imagism | |

Something good

The smell of coffee: hot and bitter in the cold winter night 
With the rhythm in the left hand and the rhyme in the right, 
He wrote a poem in his secret pocket,
A wistful star like a speedy rocket
Ready to leave this planet intense blue
In search of other traces of life anew.
He remembered after mother had died,
In the cold touch ,stalagmites and stalactites cried.
Father and son felt a strong taste for sweets.
As in the sunset, the blind boatman meets
With an awkward touch the water`s ring
But generally they needn`t to eat anything
For a while they rested an extraordinary team:
Father insistently (sometimes boring) told him
All his recollections:childhood,war and the rest…
All muscles and teeth pressed hot, like ice on the crest.
The son learnt them by heart, and later
He would retell them to father, even better…
One was on duty to wash the dishes;
The other tried to follow his wishes…

Their only joy was to read and read and read…
One had to cook at home ,and to bake the bread
In a bread factory:He was happy even when he was sad.
He could recognize each bread: All his loafs were bad.
He was like Chaplin in “New Times”.
He was speaking in figures and rhymes.  
He wore a monk beard and father was much more younger.
Looking through the window: grey hunger and anger …

At the weekend, he used to ask his father 
About the favourite meal, but rather
He would find a surprise the next day.
Each day was windy winter and grey…

Father had the same touching answer:”Something good”.
In the strange interference ,water and fire ,one was rude.
Solitude  was their common friend stealing in like a lizard,                                       
But, in the afternoon they played sweeping their courtyard.
They had leaves in autumn and snow in the winter.
The sky was grey without sun, the clouds were bitter.
Father was counting the leaves, in the old horizon
The son was painting the days ,in the cold horizon.


The war with the falling down leaves fighting hard 
With red faces like an inveterate drunkard .
And years after his father met his final hope,
The son would stop in front of  the sweets shop , 
Ready to buy recollections as Christmas tree sweets.


Details | I do not know? | |

Mystery

To a heart that can not yet forget

the moments he spent,

the beats that eventually stopped

at the same moment when

out of that door, people stepped!

 

To a heart that yet,

does not regret

the dream it lived

for a long time

and now, it woke up

and none of that is aside..

 

to a dream that turned to a nightmare

to a life that, by that time,

I thought it was not fair

But it repaired what it did,

or so it thought..

or so I don't believe..

But why can't I just forget?

 

Yet I don't want a turn,

but at least value what is there

what is now in turn..

 

What makes me hold on

for something that passed long time ago

what makes me forget

the smile that I have drawn now, on..

 

I don't know..

 

It must have been real,

or maybe..

I, so believed in dream..

 

I don't know..

 

But I thank GOD that this door

is now closed

and even the key,

is lost..

Maybe.. It is just..

Afraid of another fall..

That is for sure

 

Nothing is guaranteed,

and nothing is totally secured..

But what in hand do we have to do

when days are just passing through..

 

What is the mystery behind you my heart,

what is there inside of you my soul,

what are you thinking of, my mind

what else do you want

after being alive...

 

I don't know..

 

Afraid of tomorrow?

And who cares,

as long as we all unite..

Afraid of a fall down,

why not..

As long as we will stand up STRONG

just as ONE..

 

Just tell me what is wrong?

why are you so lost..

when the road is well lit around

and you know the way

so why are you lost..

 

I don't know..


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It was not easy but it was worth it

Having to accept that there will never be us
Having to accept that you are a branch of another man
Learning to leave with the new picture of you
It was not easy but it really was worth it!!
Learning to dream dreams that do not have you
Swallowing a bitter ghastly taste of you not being mine
Having to smile and act as if everything is just fine
It was not easy but it was worth it!!
Having to quit the battle before it even started
Abandoning the dream of all years and move on 
Putting the blinkers on my face so I cannot see what’s going on!!
It was not easy but it was worth it!!

For what significance is it wishing for something that is not yours?
For how helpful is it chasing a phantom, something that is not there?
For love means considering the happiness of your associate
Your heart is at its happiness state and so I should accept it but
It was not easy but it was worth it, believe me you








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CROCODILE TEARS

I put a smile even my heart is on vile
Dreading each step I made on each tile
Spikes of bounty promises, curves of guile
With you on top, an all around the bush lie

Selfless service we forgo never denied
You repaid nothing but your useless pride
Hopes afire, spirit wanting to soar high
Yet it seems everyday your deeds all a defy

I greeted you with warm sweet hello
Similar to white angels with golden halo
Yet you dismissed and discharged so cold
I wish I still can hold...  strongly behold

Of dreams unforgotten 'til dawns of tomorrow
Didn't barrow, bravely wandering like a sparrow
Bearing all thorns and cross, I absolutely follow
Is Tunnel of success on six feet under hallow?

(C) olive eloisa 
8:02 pm 
May 14,2014


Details | I do not know? | |

My Love

my love...

my love blossoms amidst the thunder

across the oceans and the beyond the seas

my love reaches out and touches

the moments of bliss as the loneliness flees

my love is simple
with profound feelings of yearning desire

my love rages within
the furnace of this aching heart's unquenchable fire

my love basks in the warmth of the knowledge

that in the spring it takes root and it will flower

my love breathes in the light fragrance

of her hair after her warm and delicate shower

my love remembers drowning in her eyes

of those ethereal moments frozen forever more

my love recalls the fleeting ticking of the clock

each minute apart stabbing at my very core

my love she knows I need her so

for she needs me just as much

my love she sprinkles light flourishes of her sensual touch

as my love for her continues to ceaselessly grow

my love reaches down into the crevasses of my of being

my love for her is held onto deep inside

for in the coming of the cold ache of seperation

my love settles between the folds of her heart, for 'tis there that my love for will reside

my love like an eternal dream caresses me in wakefulness and in sleep

and that is the feeling that I shall cherish

a feeling of love that has settled in me 

a feeling so pure and a feeling so very deep...


Details | Rhyme | |

Thought of escape

Staring at the moon glued to the sky
Like a bird he yearns to fly
Far among the clouds
Across the seas and above high mountains.
Alas! He was but a prisoner in chains.




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Her Final Words

"No." She whispered before drowning into her sorrows.
Her life had been a simple happy one. 
There were no pains and no troubles.
Life was life and people were people.
Life was simple.
and life was all about tomorrows.
Life didn't know about sorrows.
Her sorrows.
Those same sorrows that she drowned in never existed. 
They were never there, but where?
First to be sad in the naive town of joy.
Sorrow became contagious and what was known as happiness no longer was there.
It was non-exististent. 
A meager thought 
and a blessed memory.
She tried and tried.
She failed and failed.
Life was no longer hers.
For Pain was her only possession.
Her curse.
She lived and she died.
Yet, her legacy was passed on.
Never was it gone.
"No." She whispered before drowning in her sorrows, 
"Save them."


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To a love ill never let go of, sorry

you whispered sweet doubts into my ears
but i was so blind to acknowledge the fears
ill never regret how i felt for you 
but you seem so far gone, i don't know what to do

i only did what i thought was right
but i guess i lost all fear and extinguished the light

Bay, i wish i never left 
but its to late to take it back

Bay, i wish i had some sort of sign
to know your OK

i have this horrible habit of making a mess of things
you might think it funny
but i jump when the phone rings

i hope you dont blame me for what happened 
but then again it must have been my fault
im sorry

i guess all those times i apologized were in advance
for the heartbreak that i probably brought down upon you
bay, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry if you ever read this
you'll finally understand the way i still feel about you 

nobody ever said it was easy 
but nobody ever said i would fall this hard

i miss you 

im sorry
im sorry 
im sorry 
im sorry
im sorry

please bay, im sorry 
please bay 



Details | Rhyme | |

If I die before I wake

As I die he will be with me,
I fell in love he had the key,
And always knelt on one knee.

My last thoughts are of him, 
As the lights go dim,
Life circling on a rim.

All at once we are apart,
The taste is so tart,
It all hits me in the heart.

You are left to live,
My heart your captive,
There is nothing to forgive.

My cheeks blush so shy,
With a tear in my eye,
As I start to die.

Fear not for I am well,
As many up here can tell,
It is not quite hell.

As I look from above,
kissing the forehead of my love,
I wonder what he dreams of.

I look at him so fondly,
his lips curve so grandly,
as he sleeps so soundly.

I'm like a hummingbird fluttering over his bed,
I wish to be with him but I am dead,
My life over and has fled.

I fear for my love for he is kind,
Strong handsome and well lined,
But now I leave him way behind.

Finding love is like a quiz,
Never knowing what it is,
He needs love from a heart as strong as his.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

I Hope You Know I'll Always Love You

I am what you call a hopeless 
romantic,
But im also a lost lovers cause, my 
heart belongs to another
Yet in my head a love triangle starts 
to form, the girl I love doesn’t love 
me
She holds the heart to another and 
mine caged to the floor,
She isn’t afraid to fight for what she 
wants, not even when it comes to 
leaving another man torn
Trust me she’s happy, as that boy 
holds her heart ever so close
Seeing what I shouldn’t I smile as I 
wear my blind fold,
Blind to everything around, lifeless 
staring into air
My train of thought running so fast, 
the second I stop you’ll hear a crash
Derailing my hope, for ever finding a 
love so pure & rare
Wishing I could hold the hand of the 
lover who stole my flame,
Wish I could change the last days in 
which we parted ways,
Realizing now that we can never be 
the same
Finally saying it out loud as tears run 
down my face
You stole my happiness, as I walked 
away that day
But it’s because as of what you said 
I guessed I changed,
Now every relationship has just be 
the same,
No one can seem to bring back that 
flame,
Because a love likes ours comes 
once in a lifetime
Well at least it does to me,
But I mean you’re happy with who 
your with 
I mean I only wrote this as I heard 
exchanging “I love you” flow from 
each of your lips.


Details | Ballade | |

Guilt and hurt

Guilt and hurt

I’ve heard folk speak of hurting
And I’ve had my share of this
I’ve had my share of loving
I’ve had my share of bliss
But me, I know for sure, my friends
That the grossest of all things
{The mother of the monster clan}
That life can to you bring….

Is guilt, I say without a doubt
It’s the deepest kind of pain
Hurt gets nicely tucked away
But you can try in vain
To remove the guilt that you’ve accrued
It’s like a red hot knife
Just when you think it’s gone away
It’s there to give you strife.

I have suffered deep, deep hurt
That’s suffocated me
But guilt just like a mountain
That over towers the trees
He over towers all life’s pain
And reaches to the sky
No matter how you charge at him
That beast will never die.

25 July 2013 @ 1207hrs.


Details | Lyric | |

Loves Dream

Do you ever think of us
And wonder what went wrong
Are you in anothers arms
But feel you don’t belong
Was I someone special
Am I ever on your mind
Am I in your memories still
Or was I left behind
We almost had it all
I thought we’d make it all the way
But someone else’s hold on you
Just wouldn’t let you stay
I was the other woman
Always waiting by the phone
The one who always had to hide
Who spent her nights alone
My time with you was not enough
But still I can’t forget
For you will always be the love
I never will regret
Sometimes I still cry
For wondering where we went so wrong
But still I have this dream of you and I
That keeps me strong
That we share one more precious day
The way we used to know
And when I hold you in my arms
I’ll never let you go
And if this never happens
If my dream does not come true
These words I’ve never spoken
I now want to say to you
You’ll always be the one thing in my life
That was so real
I loved you then, I love you now
And I know I always will.


By Raina Hutchins



Details | Free verse | |

A Blue Boy's Death Wish

A fragile mind breaks 
Wake upon the rock laden shores
A muffled heart begs to echo
Whispers lost among a velvet chamber

Dusk comes premature time and again
Dropping the curtain on an optimistic sunrise
If you never witness dawn
There is no tomorrow

Always the dreamer aches
Never awake to make real what he desires
The restless corpse walks blind
Dead ends seem fitting for one of the kind

Lost in the labyrinth of strangling vines
Love is the motive and the weapon
Taking root in throats dry from weeping
Sprouts of amnesia in place of smiles
A garden called heartbreak holds onlookers captive
The comfort takes hold, sets in the bones weary of searching
A plea for rest lands on deaf ears

The hollow boy tires of himself
The last request he will ever make
"End me"
Lost and tired
He wishes to be weak no more


Details | Rhyme | |

EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


Details | Free verse | |

The Bird that is Loved and Loathed

It burns and it stings.
It hurts.
More than drowning beneath 
the ice.
More than remaining in a 
kindled flame
She hits and I no longer cry.
Why mother, why? 

It burned and it stung.
The markings remained, 
returned, and were relived
Looking, loving, and little 
known loathing were the known 
ways of living.
Never was their pity for the 
child that cried
Never was their relief for the 
child that tried

You were that lovely bird that 
understood the complications of 
felicity 
Nothing looked the same in 
those dewy browns of yours.
My everbeating would cry tears 
of joy.
The others-they were yet to 
appear.
Caring Mother, o' so fair
 You were that beautiful bird 
filled with care.

The others came and were not 
alone. Their two suitors sat on 
the throne.
Rampage and rage why did you 
come?
I began to wither and wither 
slumping along. So very soon I-
the child of fines- became a 
human raceme. 
The droops of the Lily of the 
Valley became the slumping of 
my heart.
My lovely bird the enemy had 
taken you and the person you 
were is far from near.
For that divine nature left its 
intricate self and you became 
irretrievable my big bird.
All of your fairness died.
With that went my pride.
 
Mother, Mother what moved 
you so? 
Your intense spirt vanished only 
to supplement a monster. 
Mother, Monster and your tar 
filled lungs. 
How did I kill that liver that was 
so, so strong?
The lesson of pain was one you 
came to learn.
My darling bird why did you 
turn?
 
My lovely bird and your big 
brown eyes
I'll tell you once, but never 
twice.
Pain is only a flower for it 
blooms and dies
And a mistake can be killed as 
quickly as lice.
 You dear bird hurt me well. 
Though, haven't you heard?
Weakness is a souls greatest 
strength.
You brought me up, then you 
brought me down.
You haved helped, hurt, and 
hindered my blazing spirit.
A hero in my heart-I left you 
down in your deep black 
slumber. 
Escaping those terrible nights
To go for the town of delights. 


Details | Personification | |

Winter

‘Tis winter season—
a bracing weather, foggy in its warmth.
The trees are drying, as bones,
gripping water from the winter soil.
It’s resting on an earth snow:
dancing in chilliness, dazedly.
Perchance,
it’s waiting for a poignant breath
that will give him soul.
To feel, once more, from being numb.
To warm his heart;
but the serenity and the turmoil have ended.

The dream is forgotten by the prized.
The dream is freezing the lover. 


Details | Lyric | |

Dream Liberty -- Butterfly Effect

Butterflies quietly fluttering In my soul Transforming my life Morphing into something so unreal So Different, silently beautiful So hidden and lost A fire dances on my pale iced face Lively prancing as each sheds more light The embers glow in your singed shadow Was this eternity meant to last forever? I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty Punishing the dead Can you never let anything go Is it all to hard to see That your bias takes you on a blinded delusion Where all they plunder is hate Terror is a virtue When becoming a king So cut off the strings of my life With your power And you will see the strength of the dream of Liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty


Details | Free verse | |

While you say good night

You live the night,
While I live the day,
You sing the birds to sleep,
While I awake them from there deep sleep…

You say good evening,
While I say good day,
You make a wish on shooting star,
While I only wish that your dream will go far…

I say good morning,
While you say good night…
I live in the light,
While you say good night…


Details | Rhyme | |

Just What Is A Broken Dream, Anyway

A strange sight upon a lonely road.
A dream ripped in half.
Looking closer, I wonder what was the travail.
An old price tag attached, making me wonder at what price it was sold.
Along the edges, tattered and torn, it gave forth an evil laugh.
As if some sly devil concocted a way to turn someone pale.

Onward I traveled, with pack upon my back.
To the left and right of the road were littered with more broken dreams.
So many that one could not keep track.
Some having been blown into the parallel stream.

So, I checked the pack upon my back.
And, yep all my dreams were there in a stack.

Cold winds howl, trying to rip my back pack to shreds.
Freezing were the winds, but forward I march.
Never losing sight of my dreams in spite of many dreads.
They all hold up strong even though many times I'm in a lurch.

Suddenly I see people returning to the road.
Going back and picking up their dreams.
Dusting them off and restoring them to their pack.
Each and every one said to me, you are quite bold.
To go forth and not let the cold winds of fate not destroy your knack.
To face life as it comes and not give up even if offered gold.

Good, bad fortune, are likewise of no importance.
Put a failed dream back in your pack and maybe a new day will appear.
Where you can unpack that dream and give it another go.
But, for today, march forward, today's failure might tomorrow's dance.
You gave it your best, and win or lose, that game has ended with a spear.
Win or lose, that game is done so pack it's knowledge away in your pack and grow.

Suddenly down the road a new vista appears and a brand new game.
Left high and dry or victorious are the two possible ends of any venture.
But in truth, knowledge is all you will have, win or lose.
For tomorrows game is just around the bend, all the same.
Win or lose, the game of life only ends for the moment within sight of the new adventure.
So, to quit and call it the end, only makes you look like a goose.





Details | I do not know? | |

I Stand, Alone



I stand, alone.

Scratching for my truths,
peeling away the veneer,

I stand, alone, before this
impregnable cliff so sheer.

Cocooned in my solitary shell,
wrenching a smile from a tear,

I stand, alone, a little odd,
and definitely quite queer.

I stand, alone.


Details | ABC | |

Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


Details | Rhyme | |

Obstacles in Life

I'm 16 years old I've been told I'm bold
I have a thug boyfriend that likes to do drugs
I found out that I'm pregnant I don't know what to do I have to drop out of school that's not cool
I was going to be a CNA one day I guess I have to live off of public aid
I thought about being a maid but I have to have to graduate for heavens sake I guess I just pray 
Maybe I'll get that chance one day

I'm 30 years old I work as a cleaner. My dream is to be a singer
I'm afraid that people are going to laugh at me and give me the finger
I'm afraid that people are going to say boo than I'm going to go  woo woo 
I'm afraid that I won't sing that good than people would say go back to your neighborhood
Maybe one day I have the courage to do it but I don't think I could do it

I'm 40 years old and I'm homeless no one is going to hire me for work 
I've been out of work for 6 years with no address that's a lot of stress 
Managers want to hire the best not someone who doesn't have an address 
I wish someone would help me but everyone wants to hit me with a belt when I ask for money
Maybe one day I'll be bless I guess

No matter what obstacles you go through in life you have to fight
Remember you can make a new start with God you have to receive to believe who agrees
Like Michael Jackson said you have to make that change 


Details | Haiku | |

Sad Eyes

Sad eyes are dreaming
Lost in visions of new things.
Strive to spark the soul


Details | I do not know? | |

My vacation to heaven

My dream vacation if it could ever be a trip to heaven to see someone very special 
to me. To enter at heavens gates I'd feel the sun's warmth on my skin, the air so 
clean, and with the touch of your hand my heart unbroken again, no more rain the 
tears would have end. We could sit by the waters edge and talk once again like 
how it once had been. I could tell you of my journey and while laughing at your 
grin I would be so ever grateful just being with you again. We could visit for a 
week or so then you would remind me how I had to go. Back to the place from 
where I belong and back to my children’s loving arms. A vacation with you would 
be just that but a dream for in heaven is where you are and here is where I am 
meant to be.


Details | I do not know? | |

i carry you

CHAPTER 1
Broken glass, shattered dreams, aching hearts- bleeding the memories of yesterday
Fading hope, faded conviction; where do I go to bury you and put the dream of us 
away?
To preserve it forever I’ll put it to rest in c chamber of my soul, I will carry you in my 
heart
This way, my love, you’re forever mine, breathing you even though we are worlds 
apart


CHAPTER 2
Our song, romancing the moon and the summer breeze
The words I’ll be seeing you put my mind at ease
Oh God! Yet, I have burned it all, the bridges crossing to you my dear
I have tainted our love and demolished your heart of gold I fear
Ironically, it all came crashing down on your day of love Sir Valentine
Picture of destruction, sex, drugs and fake friendships intertwine
I will never insult you by trying to say I’m sorry, for it won’t do
There’s nothing I can even dream of that will ever make it up to you
That’s is why I’ll rather suffocate in my pain, take the punishment and protect you 
from me
You think you want this, but I destroy everything I touch, trust me part of my life 
you don’t want to be

HELL
My deepest desire is to go back and find you, but I don’t know where I let go
I don’t know what possessed me, how did you later become my foe
I’ve lost my mind more that I’ve realized, condemning us to hell
Sickening memories, pathetic choices and a heartbreaking story to tell
Pieces if of me, all I have left is my blackened heart and tears
If I forgive myself, will you leave my dreams – these are my fears
I year ago, to the night, I was almost conquered by the bear
The nightmare didn’t end there, I still carry you – life isn’t fair

AUTUMN
The days are turning colder, the warmth of the sun is fading away
An ironic metaphor of how we use to be, oh God how I wish it’ll be okay
I miss you, but I will always be looking for something more
More ambition, confidence, initiative – always being something that I’m punishing 
you for
God knows I want to be with you, but I will destroy
You loyal, passionate and unconditional love give boy


Details | Lyric | |

Feeling My Pain

I’m feelen the pain 
and I’m hurten again
I’m somebody’s fool -here sitten on this bar stool
Tied to your chain

Bleeden like a hog
Getten drunk as a dog
I’m liven in a dream world- made up make believe world
Feeling my pain

Feeling my pain
Of loven you  again
Where I’m gona go now
How my gona stand now
while lying in  the pouren rain

Loves gone away
Pains come back to stay
I’m feelen the strain now
Hurten again now 
Feelen my pain

You’d said you’d be true
Not to make me a fool
But you slipped up again now- lied to me again now
Cause you’re the girl of my dreams

I can’t get away
You’re in my heart to stay
I’m liven in a dream world  - made up make believe world
Feeling my pain


Details | Monorhyme | |

Distant Dream Denmark -win


Life became a sweet song of morning lark As when Iris spoke to me from Denmark When first saw her in sensual style mark Young dreams reached a decisive landmark. The green days got an important bookmark, As I received the message from Denmark. Hoping life will become the rainbow ark, When Iris will come into my home park. My boat was on a smooth sail like a shark The soil was there, seed here hot and stark Needed the rain to sow but missed the mark Unlike Columbus sailed back with no spark. Dream stays with me, the emotions earmark Broken heart outlived joy of dream Denmark.
============================ October 6, 2013 Fourth Place win Contest: Lost Dreams by PD


Details | Lyric | |

Old Friend

OLD FRIEND

Familiar friend, your simmering glow
I welcome you whole and heartedly know
When day is night and ebb is flow
I trust in you, our love will grow

When dawn is dusk, then sun is moon
Your welcome face, the dullness soon
Neither red nor blue, no rays of light
Just shades of gray my dreams tonight

No princess to rescue
No tales of lore
Just spiraling down
And spiraling more

No faces or places or loves I’ve known
I dream of nothing and nothing alone

Together we cry, forever we moan
The pain my companion, together we’ve grown
Morning looms my bliss shall end
I’ll miss my companion; I’ll miss my old friend


Details | Rhyme | |

NO SUNSHINE, IS MINE

Away from the sun,  
    Ice cold has settled in;
No warmth,  no ray's;          
              Gone,
    is the brightness;
That once filled the moments,
     of all your days...

A cold wind,  blows strong;
  Allowing no entrance,
   Dusk till Dawn...

  A soft sleep,
     Though rare;
Releases your mind,
   from the frigid chilled air,
  allowing you too dream;
  Though skepticle, you dare...

 Quickly you embrace,
As you dream of the warmth,
     That once filled you with happiness;
  As you dream of the smile,
    that glowed from her face...


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The Throne of Bone and Stone

The throne I own while I reign alone 
is made of Sin and carved in stone! 
My seat is cold and feels like gold, 
but it's really made of teeth and bone...
Where is my Queen who rules my dreams, 
and makes the World as sad as it seems?
She haunts my sleep so quick and deep- 
Stabs my Mind with piercing screams!


Details | I do not know? | |

Distant African Nights

Those Distant African Nights...


1.


The shadows swayed in your candlelit room,

a cool breeze teasing your bare back,


streaks of lightning forked in the Johannesburg night,

as my hands stroked your hair,

kissing your soft mouth,

holding you,

ever so tight.



2.


You whispered that you loved me,

and I kept silent,


the rain fell, 
shadows danced,
thunder rolled,

the breeze teased your naked back,

you whispered that you loved me,
as my lips found yours,

the rain washed over our tender nights,


lightning and candlelight,

etching poems on your burnished skin,


yet,

a fear gnawed at me,

deep within.



3.


We parted ways,
and you could never forgive me, you said,


now, after numberless thunderstorms,

the rain that falls,


echo the countless tears that I have shed.



4.


You are long gone,

far away,

happy, I pray,


yet the memories persist,

those precious moments shall never, 
ever,

like the Jo'burg rains,
trickle away,

and I wish you well,
for loving me as you did,

for it was I who was not worthy,


then,


and it is I who is not worthy,


now...



5.


You were always true,


it was I who always,

always,

refused to,


to give myself,


completely to you.






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The Lake of Blackness

You look so innocent.
So easily you look into my eyes
But the lake of blackness in there
You still don't reach.

You look through sense.
You disappear when it's dark
But afterwards you are always back.
This lake of blackness lures you.

You are the enemy yourself.
You're destroying what you are.
You come to me like
I'm your heaven but
I am the darkness that
You should give up.

You are smiling softly.
So pure your eyes are
But you don't want a life that easy.
With the darkness you're
Dreaming to collide.


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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In My Dreams

Every night in my dreams
I watch you walk away
Every night I beg you No
But every night you will not stay
How long must I endure
This terrible horrible sight
When will I be cured
How long must I fight
Every night in my dreams 
you leave and leave and leave 
Because of these awful dreams 
I grieve and grieve and grieve
Every night in my dreams
I watch you walk out the door
Every morning I wake up crying
I can't take this anymore


Details | I do not know? | |

HE HAD A DREAM

He had a dream, a dream of freedom-- 
That noble eagle, soaring high.
A dream of equity and justice-- 
A living dream that would not die.

But there were those who had a purpose--
Their purpose was to kill his dream.
Those wicked ones conspired with Satan,
To carry out their evil scheme.

A deadly shot, from a coward in hiding,
Upon one bitter, April day,
Brought down that brave and peaceful soldier,
And the valiant eagle flew away.

So they thought they'd gained their purpose,
When that mighty heart was stilled,
But, although they slew the dreamer, 
His glorious dream cannot be killed.


Details | Romanticism | |

Away From Me.....

Whenever you are apart from me,
I dream of those beautiful moments; that  were shared between us,
Those closeness of yours, reminds me of you lingering towards me... 
When  you are miles away from me,
I close my eyes and see that cute smile on  your cute face.
Your words keep whispering into my ears when m alone,
Somethings which went wrong between us; when you who came to convince 
me...
When you go away from me;I dream of  me being with you..
Let's both go into sky; You and Me, no one else..
Will it be like heaven...?? may be yes.......
When I dreams of those lovely moments,
Glad tears too get scared to roll down;
'Cz you have warned them not to flow down my cheeks..
They too get afraid and  are  honest to u too..
The moment you entered into my small world,
My life changed...
Learnt good-bad things from you,everything  changed ...
I remember the time when your labials were brushed with mine,
Felt like that moment will never end...
And when we were together  in that dark room,
I was safe with you.
When you r away from me,
 I miss You and hope that even you do.....




Details | Free verse | |

awake from a dream

My hands loose
on the wheel
Darkness in sight
                The road invisible
lanes imaginery, 
conscious heavy

As the road ends 
so does my touch
                My skin bleeds as
my mind rises
A fury of sounds 
distort my screams
I struggle 
I fight



Helpless
I glide into the darkness
Begging and pleading...
Crying out to stay
As I vanish
into the night


Details | ABC | |

I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.


Details | I do not know? | |

A Chipped Heart

A Chipped Heart...


Dreaming, my heart brittle as glass,
my solitary facade a pitiful farce,

shards tearing out of my skin,
seeking release, from cages within,

I am lost, in the dream,
bellowing out a silent scream,

torn from reality, drowning in the now,
yet I refuse,
I refuse to succumb,

I refuse to bow.



My chipped heart, may be wounded,
wreathed in pain,

still,

I believe, love, truth, belonging,

will take my hand,

again...


Details | Rhyme | |

The Things I want, The Things I Get

Once upon a time I loved a girl but she didn’t love me back.
Once upon a night I wished on a star but my dreams never came to pass. 
Twice I think I hoped for the sun and not the rain pouring in.
But my cover flew away and the drops soaked through my skin. 

I think I could wish for hard times and the dark,
And just to spite my soul the world would set ablaze from a single spark.
My money would pile high, 
girls would wave as they walked by.
And the one thing can I say for this life,
Is no one ever got a damn thing from goodbye. 


Details | Prose Poetry | |

What have I Seen

 have seen bright-eyed daises open and baby yellow buttercups unfold,
I have seen these spreading across water-mead’s a cloth of purest gold,
I have seen white clouds scud across blue skies changing shape as they go,
I have seen storms from a distance rain, lightning thunder, hail and snow,
I have seen pure white sheep graze and lap water beside a crystal stream,
I have seen swallows playing games over mountains in my beautiful dreams,
I have seen wretchedness far from home my longing for peace haunts my mind,
I have seen deepest sadness and search for deep and good memories to find,
I have seen in my dreams I am leaning on an old gate down in a spring lane,
I have seen may time in England and lush green fields turning to gold again,
I have seen yellow pastures where tiny silver waters flow like a silver thread,
I have seen a skylark gently flying high singing sweet songs over my head,
I have seen a dream that in my future I am free to return to my home some day,
I have seen the truth it is all just a pipe dream and I can never find a way.


Details | I do not know? | |

Within Me


Within Me

Flowing through the rivulets of my everyday thoughts,
memories of you surface, gasping for air, breathing in,
permeating, absorbed by the pores of my ageing skin.

Famished, greedily gulping mouthfuls of fractured life,
awash in distant yesteryear, when your feathery kisses,
banished the vacuum, dispelling my anguish and strife.

You are eternally carved, and embroidered into my soul,
I wash ashore, smashing against the boulders of the now,
seeking solace, begging for absolution with my empty bowl.

The book of fate is sealed shut, the tea-leaves have been read,
nothing remains within me, the burden of smiling has been shed.

Now I am stranded, between dreams and the empty years ahead,
searching for forgiveness, in the miles I have yet to wearily tread.



Details | Free verse | |

For a Moment

For a moment, I believed I even allowed myself to breathe. . . To smile upon you in all that was said and done For a moment, you were there And a simple thought made me beam I was there looking you in the eye it seemed For a moment, doubt swept under my feet Threatening to bring me to the ground But your words pulled me up by the string For a heavy moment, I realized Just how far you are from me Too far to be close—to far to allow that smile And for another sad, long moment, I sit here in awe-struck despair Wondering why the smile was ever there


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Autumn Leaves

Autumn leaves.
The ones that coloured my days golden, I long for them during the winter of my life.
I long for their warmth and how I long for their beauty.
Why have they left me?
I cannot bare the cold.

Numbed by the snow I gaze out into what is left of the seasons.
I cannot see clearly as nostalgia dances around me, twirling among the blinding shadows,
always just out of reach.
I can never hold her again.
She taunts me, but I can never hold her again.

My heart, my poor suffering heart.
There is no fixing this break, there is no going home again and there is no hope for
another Autumn.
I have come to the end of the road and there is nothing left but fields of white.
They beckon me.
I take a step and all at once a feeling of calm, complete calm, washes over me.
The world stands still, waiting for my descent.
I realize, then and there, this is the final chapter.
My last season, ending.
I take one last look at the dancer and dream one last dream of Autumn leaves.
My finale.
I am forever now, in the endless white.


Details | Blank verse | |

Alone With No Sense Of Direction

I am a lost person, but I am not alone.
I make choices in my life and I choose to let go.
I need a change of space, and my lyrical notes,
The beauty and the face should fade, but more I want to grow.
The nobility in life is sad, when madness is a nuisance and insanity a fad.
I have some regrets, some I can't forget,
but If I can't forgive myself, then who will forgive my sins?
I'll give it my all, and pray I win.
I'll keep my heart locked and throw away the key,
never let anyone inside, so I can remain free.
Can I question a higher power, or would I be dead,
The scum of the earth, creating poetry that is read,
by the mindless masses, blaming the heart to death,
I hope this will heal me, burning the past, 
The beauty in the innocence, never really lasts.
I have a feeling tonight will open my eyes, 
and guide me too the light instead of lies.
I'm praying to god that you are how I think you are,
because I need compassion, not just a broken heart.
I don't know why I like you, but you seem to close to part.
Please don't leave me here, surrounded in the dark.


Details | Rhyme | |

Nightmarish Truth

I dreamed last night you cheated
You didn't even try to lie
When I said, "I felt defeated"
You wouldn't even ask me why

I dreamed I said, "I Love you"
You just turned and walked away
I said, "Tell me what I need to do"
You had nothing else to say

I dreamed you packed up everything
And headed toward the door
You offered me your wedding ring
Then tossed in on the floor

I dreamed I begged you not to go
But you never heard my plea
I said, "What'd I do?, please let me know"
You said you're done with me

A dream can drag you in too deep
There's no help when you fall
But that's the night I couldn't sleep
It wasn't a dream at all


Details | Rhyme | |

A Lost Dream

A decrepit scarecrow reminiscently stands,
Pensive of forsaken sweat, by a farmer's hands.
Windswept arms conduct as wind chimes toll,
As if to repossess his straw callous winds stole.


Likewise a farmhouse stood in the wheat field,
With broken shutters and paint peeled.
Aimless among the rows of parched bowing gold,
Screen door banging, a respite from the cold.


A genial candle flickers behind aged sheers,
Rolling thunder flashes, bloated with unshed tears.
Obtuse eyes eerily wink from scintillating light,
Self-preservation weary of the fire in the night.


Shadows wistfully waltz on the porch,
Avoiding detection from the candle's scorch.
Frigid wind seeps through weathered  panes,
Beckoning a soaking with overdue rains.


Cracks and creaks shutter’s mourn,
A tribute to the great depression's scorn.
The man of straw remembers the story,
When better times flourished in fields of glory.

Aspirations descend like the harshness outside
Crestfallen like the grain farmer's pride.
Remnants in the corners of a sawdust mind,
Semblance like wear and tear left behind.


Muted prayer to long dead patron saints,
stitched lips silence fruitless complaints.
Pursuant for redemption in a forgotten field,
Which heaven nor hell will nevermore yield.


Elements claim the fragments in the gales,
Adrift in time like lamented whinging fairy tales.
To recapture the illusion, fleeting magic slips,
Through rheumatic hands and chafed fingertips.


The barn shunned with shameful disrepair,
Delusions of grandeur a farmer can no longer bear.
Abandoned buildings like crumbled self-esteem,
Echoing between nightmares and a lost dream.


Details | Ghazal | |

Shikasta Khwaab--Broken Dreams



Abhi kaam kahaan sab pooray hein
Abhi kaam bahut say adhooray hein

ye dost hein kia ya  dushman hein
rah chaltay hum ko ghooray hein

Noor se aari chehray jin ke
naam ke moorakh Nooray hein

jurm e wafa hum karte rahein ge
hum apne junoon mein pooray hein

Ik jeevun mein na hongay khatm
kuch  kaam abhi adhooray hein

aaeena bun kar toot gayay
Ab khwaboan ke bus chooray hein.


Details | I do not know? | |

Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


Details | Verse | |

Curiosity

With each step I take into the forest of unknown
The more I become free
My true motives revealed
My inner thoughts voiced
My deepest fears vanished
My darkest secrets obliterated
I am no longer my self
My physical body is gone,
But my soul is healed
-m.b.


Details | Lyric | |

I Had a Dream





                                      I Had a Dream

                         I had a dream. Oh I had a dream.
                         I sat in a chair in despair thinking
                       of the love and memory of my mother.
     In my dream I built a stairway to heaven with tears to hug her.
              Halfway with out a sound or word in the silent skies
                              an angel appeared upon me.
                        It was a precious and beautiful site.
Oh! I said could you for me ask God to cross a rose and lilac together
to create a bush with large clusters of white, purple, and pink flowers
                             and the fragrance of memory
   And give it long green stems so it can stand free and gracefully.
        Also ask him to it a name, a special name ‘ Kollock ‘
          and let it represent never forgotten love and memories.
                       In my dream God did this for me,
                     and gave it to my mother as a gift from me






Details | I do not know? | |

For Bob Dylan

Ramblin' Bob Dylan Blues
(For Bob Dylan)



Why does the sun dry up so many scattered tears

slipping down the coarse cheek of a million hushed fears

where no one is scalded though the searing fog clears

while prayers are mutely spoken even as the end nears

We shatter and scrape on demented knees

Blindly begging for mercy as it silently flees

Searching listlessly for salvation drowned in the breeze

That spits at the soft rose suffocated by a wheeze


I know now what I need never have known

Of hope that was trampled before it had flown

Into a wasted sky filled with hate that could drown

The giggling of the crowd and the crying of the clown


A hope so fragile that its wings were of brittle glass

Ripping the veneer off the sewers of class

Twisting the fabric of the weighed and costed mass

Who numbly waited hoping that it too may pass


For when shards of that hope in all hearts scurries away

To a darkness where crowded night is emptied off the heaving tray

'Tis then when sewn eyes shall behold that doleful day

When all shall tear at each other while on demented knees we still shall pray


For a lifting of the veil of that wilful deceit

That's wrapped up in a flag swollen with conceit

While the limbs splinter in the claw of a winner's defeat

Yet still the drums roll for the ill-fated souls chose never to retreat


From that drenched battle-ground where blood flows through a sieve

And love's lost song plaintively begs for a reprieve

From eternal loss which into raw emotion does cleave

Only to slip through the fingers and like grains of sand, leave.


Details | I do not know? | |

Abuse

Trapped. No where to hide.You scream at me through the door.Though your words still 
sting me.
I sit on the ground alone.Blood drips down like tears. tears run down like rain.The room's 
spinning.  My heart bursts out of my clothes.We got into a fight.  Why is unclear.
I tried to leave.  You hit me. I fell.I started to cry.  You kicked me.A sharp pain burst out of 
my chest.  I could not breath. I have little energy,I kicked you.  You fell. I ran to our 
bedroom.
I am trapped.  No where to hide.I'm weak. I stumble to your Night stand.I see a gun.You 
break down the door.  I grab the gun.You start to choke me, squeezing my throat like you 
were trying to get some sort of juice out of me.
I pull the trigger.
BANG!Trapped.  No where to hide.Your grip feels looser.   Your face in pain.
You fall down. i fall into darkness.Free.  No need to hide.


Details | Narrative | |

Red Eyes and Sinister Looks

Chains, hay forks, knives, and a hollow whisper,
become more true and sinister.
Halt in the middle of the moon light, 
and a waver image soon is no delight.
Voices run a muck in the head, 
so not calming you wish you were dead.
Gushing blood through the eye
not an image that you would rely.
Nails stuck on your neck with such pain
so your paralyze just little life sustain.
Hoodlums terrorizing people running a muck
did not really know they are in luck.
More dangerous beings are out their
to commit such act and with sinister stare.
Laughing with haunting echo's through
is an aspect of fear can imbue.
The wind changes direction to smother
the echoing sound of laughter.
The panicking state that you are in
soon drives a knife within.
Blood rushing out of your vain
a crucial part of your life dropping like rain.
Running without a destination
you will never reach anyone of your relation.
Sliding your body on a wall
keeping your fall in a stall.
Red eyes you can see it at night
is soon devouring you with little bite.
Changing your belief with tonics of relief
and it is to late to turn a new leaf.
Ears start to deceive the animals sound
eating limbs are chewing around.
Slowly your red eyes steadily getting heavy
is starting to take your life with a levy.
Dropping down with no attitude
and your life force slowly loses altitude.
Breathing comes not so easy
smelling flesh seems so beastly.
The change comes a desire
with frightening red eyes of fire.
Comes more lethal than the hoodlums 
your heart beating like drums.
Your hand becomes all fury
claws come out and your howl with furry.
Trance your in with no one to blame
a rage thats hundreds of centuries of flame.
Rising from a slumber of long lust
a animal instinct that you can trust.
Tearing things apart with no meaning
is a trait that is so deceiving.
Red eyes at night you see in a window
like a poisonous black widow.
Keeps you in attack mode of insanity
that takes all your vanity.
Ferocious emotions eating away
the soul that you had once betray.
The echoing sounds of loud thunder
breaks away the armor with sunder.
You fall once again to torturous agony
the feeling of one self is so lonely.
Shaking in the corner you are found
with blood soaked skin you drowned.
The night becomes day cruel in some way
your memories go in disarray.
The hunters with torches and sinister look
had parted way their hands shook.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Dreamer

The Dreamer:
The days I spent with empty faces,
That never ask your name,
Just to joke about their troubles,
to mask away the pain.
There really is no dignity,
for an animal in its STALL,
who can only dream and try and ignore
the screams down an echoing hall.

There`s a dreamer in the distance,
but his thoughts are far away,
You can feel his spirit dying,
it cannot bear another day.
The flame of hope started to flicker,
and you know it`s much too late,
When the anger stops its raging,
all thats left is bitter hate.

I think about my yesterdays,
then cry over things I`ve done,
There is no one left to turn to,
This battle cannot be won.
So, I`ll dream about tomorrows,
and all that should have been,
Beyond the walls that now surround me,
My future, could not be seen.

I close my eyes to beseech a higher power,
When I saw an open lea,
Running through the long tall grass,
I knew that I felt free...

The Dreamer was found with open wrists,
and blood on his pillow case
The KEEPERS could not understand,
The SMILE he left,...on his nameless face.......


Details | Couplet | |

That November Day

I will never forget that cold day in November.
It will be a day I will forever remember.

Anxiously sitting in the courtroom,
Praying that this day does not end in doom.

All the testifying that day is said and done.
I am nervously awaiting my fate and that of my sons.

The judge is gone but only an hour,
The expression she is wearing is quite dour.

She sits down at her bench and gives her verdict to me.
They are going to take my sons, the three.

She says I am not a good mother,
She says her choice was no other.

I sit there in disbelief and stun,
I cannot believe they are taking my sons!

She won't let me say goodbye,
I am not given the chance to try!

I sit there in that vile room and cry,
Please wake me from this dream and tell me it is a lie.

Unfortunately it is no dream and I lose my breath,
This is hell for me, without the death.

I try to make sense of this some, 
But I cannot, I am way too numb!

Life without my babies, this cannot be,
Please someone just answer me!

What I have ever done,
To make me lose my sons?

I thought I was doing right,
By asking for help that night.

God, If only a warning had been given,
I would not have made that decision!

You would think the pain would go away,
It does not, it is still with me today.


Details | I do not know? | |

My Countless Wishes -Part 2-

I wish
To demolish my sorrow…
I wish
To forget the despair and gleefully grow…
To forgive and seek the challenges of tomorrow…
My downfalls and my failures…
I wish
To disappear
I wish
I had no fear…
For God’s near…
I wish
I could be a cheetah in the grassland
I wish
To store all of my energy for an evening run…I’d never give up in the process
I wish
My whole spirit could simply sponge in God’s nature and make great progress
And I truly wish
I could stick to my daily plans of building a sturdier relationship with God 
I wish
I had the merriness in my life especially during hardships…

My countless wishes
Brings me down to my weakest point…
My countless wishes
Overthrows me…but it helps me in the long run…

I wish I could forgive 
My daily regrets and breakdowns
I wish I could forget
My despondency – embracing my frowns 

I wish
To live a life without error
Without a care
I wish
To be flawless when I make my everyday decisions
And scare away 
The darkness that tries to make me give up
I wish
I had more time to overcome…
These waves of emotions

My countless wishes
Brings me down to my disheartened state…
My countless wishes
Are like walls from every direction closing in on me…
But it’s a convenient tool in the future…

I wish
I could be live in someone else’s shoes…
But what good would it do?
Would it lead me to the narrow pathway?
Would it inspire me to push all of my doubts away? 
Would it push away the blues?
Could He give me any clues?


Details | I do not know? | |

Dreaming (Seperation Anxiety #11)

Analyze this dream for me - Tell me what this means to me
One more pill to make me sleep - or one to stay awake
Change this nightmare, please, for me - Take the pain away from me
Bend so far - so much at stake - Bend too far to f---ing break
Blood shot eyes, I'm so damned tired - Don't want to sleep - Afraid to sleep
Candle burns beside my bed - you never said goodbye
I dream about you when I sleep, I miss you so - Why did you go?
So alone without you here, but too damned tired to cry
Everywhere, I see your face - Another pill - I've lost the thrill
Too far away to hear your voice - A whisper blown away
Every night the bad dreams come - so far from home & so alone
i'd give my life & my last breath to hear the words you'd say
Whisper once again to me, " I love you so - I'll never go "
In my arms & in my dreams, but only in my mind
Time again - I need the sleep - to fall asleep - fall too damned deep
In my heart & to the bone - something I thought I'd find
Once again, into my eyes - from blue to gray - don't go away
I promise you I won't let go until the day I die

A sad, sad song beside a grave - An ode to life - goodbye, my wife
A rainy day - A eulogy - with no one there to cry
A simple stone lost in the weeds - flush with the ground - will not be found
A flower dried up in a vase that lies, now, on it's side
Looking at an empty screen - deep in a dream - I heard a scream
Waking up, I realize - A dream - I never died
To my left & in your sleep - breath in my ear - I feel you there
The nightmare never goes away - A pill to stay awake
in your face & in your eyes - A promise there - an answered prayer
But still, the nightmare tells me that my heart is going to break.


Details | Free verse | |

Falling Reality

I'm losing my sense of time, 
And I can't feel my nerves.
Trying to hold on for dear life,
Until a nightmare returns. 

I can't feel my limbs, 
And I simply fall overboard. 
I try my best to grasp reality,
But it's only a thin cord. 

If I slip up in reality,
It's doubled in my mind. 
As I fall beyond the edge,
I leave my reality behind.

My relationship with others,
It's simply disappearing. 
Holding onto a vanishing face,
This is what I'm fearing.

I'm pushed to my limits, 
And someone is there as well. 
Hands touch my back as I try,
Remembering everything as I fell.

I'm unstable, and I can't take it anymore, 
Tripping over my feet and falling from above. 
I'm losing my grip on my life as I fall, 
I'm afraid, for I'm also losing my love. 

Dreams turn to nightmares, 
But I can't figure them out.


Details | Free verse | |

Leaving

You didn't really say goodbye to me,
As you, waving your hands and half-pouting,
Barely even glanced at me, then left.
At the time, who knew these moments were numbered?
 
I swear I saw your complexion turn to a rustic sunset,
As fall dawned on me, and realized that your winter is nearing,
One did not know that you were a leaf,
Nor did one expect that you would be leaving so soon.
 
Leaving is what leaves do, and
I now dread seeing you any more than I have to,
All I can hope for is your goodbye;
The fates are unkind if that is all there is for one to hope.
 
They say leaves fall before it gets cold.
Nay, it will grow colder upon your leaving,
I still dream that you magically turn into a branch, or bark, or root,
Or that at least, I too would be a leaf, and fall with you
Unto this earth, as it prepares to dream its better dreams.


Details | Triolet | |

The Dream

~A tribute to “The Slave's Dream” by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow~ 


One night the slave had a nice dream.
And in the dream he was just free. 
He heard sounds of freedom's bold scream.
One night the slave had a nice dream. 
And saw the light of liberty's gleam.
No more felt flesh by whips just bleed. 
One night the slave had a nice dream. 
And in the dream he was just free. 



Details | Free verse | |

Hope

Holy books says it all
You taught me how to crawl
This will never change
Never ends never fades
Dear God where you are?
Shattered piece of childish dreams
This will never change
Never ends never fades.

I can fight for all my life,
Not broken, not broken inside
Never be so frustrated,
Not going to commit suicide.

Fuc*ing faith will fall,
Mortals will stand tall
Hell and heaven are all the same
Live your life, don't die in vain

Only you and I can make 
A better world for tomorrow
Have faith in yourself
And wipe off the tears of sorrow

Make me scream, Make me cry
I'll never fail to try.
This night's has an end
No pain will remain


Details | I do not know? | |

Heart broken

It’s hard to find someone new, When all I see is you. It’s hard to move on, When I want you to be the one. I see you everywhere I go, I heard your voice. I smell your clone. I taste your lips. I dream of your smile. I wake up each night, With tears in my eyes. Of course, Another dream about you. You’re the one I want. You’re the one I need. You’re the only one, Who can finally heal me. Forgive me. Hold me. Kiss me. Love me. Tell me you miss me. Tell me it hurts. Tell me you need me. Tell me you love me. I miss you. It’s killing me. I need you, Because I love you. I miss your laugh, Your smile, Your kiss, Your touch, Your voice, Your arms around me, Your eyes looking back at me, Your everything. It’s not about finding, A perfect one. It’s about seeing, Imperfections, Yet still seeing a perfect being. I messed up, Imperfection number one. But I hope you can look past, And see, How much you mean to me.


Details | I do not know? | |

Ghost

Every night I walk my grave,
Thinking thoughts that weren't ever made.
Lost in the darkness
My soul shall lie,
For I have not yet said goodbye.
Ever so certain that day would come;
When laughter, joy and happiness comes
My heart was broken in anger and pain,
For I no longer live in vain.
My broken dream shall mend no more,
For in pain and agony that I shall go.
My bones lay crumbled as dust and ash,
My memories no longer live with them.
My days are over and i'm gone,
And I shall only dream to be born...


Details | Free verse | |

Where I'm I

Where I'm I? 
What is this awful place?
Where hope exists only in intangible dreams.
Every futile attempt at happiness
Is a guaranteed success at sadness.

Where I'm I? 
What is this awful place?
Where the truth is never what it seems, 
And faith is replaced by endless doubt
Because disappointment is found in every route.

Where I'm I? 
What is this awful place? 
Where silence drowns even the loudest screams.
Where darkness cannot be pierced by even the brightest light, 
Plunging the world into an endless night.


Details | Lyric | |

Sentiment

I tried to see what life would be like on the other side of the mirror
I knocked on the glass for days, but no one ever let me in
Cracking, finally, the reflecting world showed me the truth
That it's just like the one I’m in; it only makes you bleed in the end

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Is all that reminds me I can still feel

Living this perfect life, dream lover, dream house, dream happiness
Take for granted the gift, not accepting your needy independence
Lust, greed, emotional gluttony; everything you've ever wanted
It’s only thanks to me, I created the twist in your soul, I made you who you are

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Taken by the presence of an all too familiar enemy
This man staring from the corner; he never leaves, never leaves me
Gentle whispers of deception takes hold and only tightens
Painful sobriety renders me vulnerable and helpless
He only laughs as I pray to God to save me

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Stare into a face, frozen for eternity
Never aging, never moving, never leaving; its world merely fades to white
Longing to go back, wishing to be, nothing humors the hope
Not tears, prayers, nor blood can bring them back
Trapped behind wood and glass; imprisoned in this photograph

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can tell me that I can still feel


Details | Free verse | |

Poverty grows

Poverty.
Hardship and suffering
all behind society's eyes
raised by the ghetto
slums cracked lights out
scavenges for life
its gone. 
The same face in all places
no father figures
can't support, gone
moms fiend for crack
the silent killer
hard to take, reality hurts
the youngest
nothing lives within him
unloved, felt like a colorless weed
wants to develop
a beautiful rose
society wont let
its a cruel world
only the streets
resist the temptations.
Death laid outside his doorstep
waiting to grab the innocent beneath 
Gang life sleeps in his thoughts
trying to fight the opposition
a deadly current war.
Getting older
need to make ends meat  
but how, never given a chance
selling drugs only option 
need to feed his children
and in his mind
nobody cares
people just stare.
Treated as the fungus of earth
and all this money
soldiers dying, the devils agreement
army of weeds, never stop regrowing
power making more poverty
not spent on the poor
only used for wars
its sad.
A war on drugs
to fight them off
but they made them
dirty tricks, crooked 
and deceived
and still we don't change this
mankind has the say
not the rich.
Children screaming, not heard
tears not felt
like a raindrop with no splat
it always keeps raining
in his eyes.
People so caught up in the power
like a wolf fighting for its food
wraps around the minds 
changing ambition to greed
Just share 
then i think things would be fair
for all the bad acts
its countless.
Going through his mind 
all the times he cried
number of life's he lost
early deceased
in the penitentiary
trapped left to die
a fly under a glass.
Certain peoples cause
an act with no redemption 
soon to burn in hell
tried to deceive us
saying they were against us
causing pains and misery.
A secret war
an epidemic
propaganda in its finest form 
defying the innocent
minds controlled 
eyes turned, no notice
no justice.
It goes on and keeps on growing.


Details | Pantoum | |

A Wife Of Someone (Dementia)

Thoughts of who she was has long faded in darkness
unknowing in her mind.... a day drifts in isolation
a silent cry of her love echoes through empty hallways
tormented within her walls of white satin her eyes search
unknowing in her mind.... a day drifts in isolation 
in a room of still shadows conversation dances free
tormented within her walls of white satin her eyes search
footsteps of her family arrive in a dream of yesterday
in a room of still shadows conversation dances free
a silent cry of her love echoes through empty hallways
footsteps of her family arrive in a dream yesterday
thoughts of who she was has long faded in darkness


Details | Epic | |

Reality 101

Reality has overcome everyone in today's society, even me. Everything we have believed really turned out to be a bunch of lies. It's been like that since day one. And come to think that some people are way more realistic than other people, including me and somebody else. There's always a difference between the dream itself while we're sleeping and the real world in our wake and it's always a discouraging fact. Why is it that we have to deal with reality every day and every night, anyway? What's the point of not living the dream or a fantasy? It seems to everyone that no matter what these people do, no matter how hard they try, it's always been the same and stuff. It also seems that day in and day out, reality always wins, especially when it has defeated all fantasies and created worlds one too many times. Reality has always been a part of our society since the day God has created the Earth. To be honest, some of us can deal with the real world, but some of us can't deal with reality. It's like living in a fantasy world, but filled with a bunch of lies and/or whatever. It makes everybody sad just thinking about it. and to be honest, some of us can't even try to be realistic as of now and/or then. And come to also think that I can't really deal with what's real and what's not; it's hurting me just like it's hurting everybody else. It's sad, it's a waste of everybody's time and energy, and it's seriously pathetic. But in the end, reality always win and we all have to deal with it, whether we like it or not. I guess we'll have to dream of something else, anyway.


Details | Free verse | |

Monster In Love

A beast was told to protect a girl
The moment he saw his assignment
He fell in love with her instantly
But it was no use whatsoever
For it is forbidden to love a human
If anyone found out he will be killed
So he let it go and did his job

He kept an eye on her everyday
And he often saved her from situations
That had nearly killed her
At night he would sit by her bedside
And he watched her dream pleasent dreams
Always making sure she's comfortable

One night he did what no other dark angel should do
He entered the girl's dream so she could meet him
At first she was frightened at his image
But then as she got to know him she too fell in love
They were so happy it felt like nothing could go wrong
But they were soon discovered by the beast's master


The beast begged to his master to let the girl into the lost world
He told the master that they're in love and they want to get married
But the master was too dissapointed at his top protector
The beast turned to the girl and spoke "I will always love you no matter what."
The master was so disgusted at the angel's behavior and destroyed him
The girl woke up crying later that morning and got up to get dressed


Details | Free verse | |

Communicating Hearts

In the brightest of the days,
I look for you
Whether a vision so pine or in blind sought...
When the heat takes its toll,
My coaled feet steps out with my shadow beneath
With my heart that beats to the sound of your name
To quench my isolated soul.

I gasp the air as a face conceived infront of my eyes
A desire to marvel aroused
Whether a word spoken or eyes gazed...
When the hot rays distorted an image of yours,
My awaited eyes dazed with haze of tears
With my isolated spirit held in solitary
To provoke my agitated fears. 

As I reach the realm in the darkest of the nights
I close my eyes
Whether a dream I want to see or a dream I had already seen
When the darkness makes its fall,
My heart set aflame to light yours
With internal fires deep within my being
To fetch the demon out from my soul.

I held the time as the clock ticked to dawn
In darkest night we were reborn
Whether we are the remnant or we are the neonate
When our hearts communicated to pair,
Even in the darkest of the nights you shine
With your most opaline presence and promise smile
At the end of the day We are a pair of connected heart!


Details | ABC | |

A lonely dream

Once upon a time there was a dream
And the dream found a lonely man
And the man started to dream
And he was happy
But the dream was too big to fit into man's life.

Once upon a time there was a dream that never finished.

Once upon a time there was a lonely dream
Without a dreamer.

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved


Details | I do not know? | |

She

She.

She,
remains just out of focus,
an elusive portrait,

etched in the corner of the mind's eye.

she,
sometimes strays into view,
a blurred mirage,
of burnished words cast in indelible dye.

she,
steals fragments of each day,
a welcome thief,
of emotions left in some dusty space.

she,
scatters my poems in the breeze,
an invited spell,
that vanishes into the wind without a trace.

she,
renders me mute and so often blind,
the wild dreamer,
a seeder of impossible thoughts in the mind.

she,
brings the elements of nature to me,
a gentle healer,
she unfolds my thoughts setting them free.

she,
comes and goes as she chooses,
an untamed spirit,
soothing the very place that she bruises.

she,
rouses me in nights of empty slumber,
a murmured breath,
brushing my cheeks with kisses too many to number.

she,
remains to me the enigmatic one,
a burning riddle,
yet she stays with me as each torturous day is done.

she,
my heart knows not why she stays,
my consistent constant,
filling up my nights and consoling my days.

she,
deserves so much more from fate,
the truest soul,
she loves too much and knows not how to hate.

she,
arrives again tonight as I lie awake,
a thoughtful shield,
my coat of armour in a world far too fake.

she,
stays with me and within me stays still,
the true one,
and to dwell deep in my soul is where she always will.

she,
from whose cup I have so greedily drank,
a giver of life,
I have not the words with which to her wholly thank.

she,
knows how desolate a world this can be,
my sustainer of hope,
and of life and of breath is what she will always be.


Details | Rhyme | |

As most things that dream a dream

In a mess of trees and cool soft breeze, swept
The branched fingers that kept
Scratching windows and stretching for sky.
Reaching further, high
For purpose and paradise.
 Uprooting from the stretch,
Concrete cracked under the pressure’s pinch.
Weeping softly, the willow
For it had given up the dream.
And the dying went unnoticed,
As most things that dream a dream.


Details | Free verse | |

Broken Dreams

Escaping another day of screaming rows
Another day of threats
The endless arguments
Growing rage
Escape the next sting of pain

Sent early to bed
For what, not sure
But at least in sleep I hope
For a little break from fear in wake

Lying on the side
That isn't quite so sore tonight
Their screams and shouts thankfully fade
As dreams gently invade

I play far from reach
Of the nettles that sting
In a field free of fear
I dream the dream captures me here

Clouds cruelly appear
A storm rips flowers from the ground
Trees tossed into the air
Colour drained from near and far
As my dream is shaken

With a slap to the face
I am awakened
My temporary haven
Brutally taken

Failed to reach my quota today
For an hour to lay in abusive rain
The rain mixing with desperate tears
Desperate for a dream to take me away from him

So desperate that a child's mind
Should wish to die
So desperate a child
Should try and take its life

As I move to the side
That now hurts less
As he lay drunk
His fury spent
I dreamt of a day
That was years away


Details | Prose Poetry | |

The Story Of The Lonely Princess

The Story Of The Lonely Princess I sat here from the start of the golden waves to the leaving of the darken blues skies.I often dream of what away from the tower I seat in everyday,I often wish for someone to come and save me and show me the world with no fear of death around the corner.To feel the grass under my toes and the wind in my hair could you believe that everything is harmonize in one with that dream.Me as the princess am only allowed to dream and not leave this place with only one window and one door.I sing to the skies and the animals that run and fly freely.Take me with I would say.I'm placing my dreams away for the are all that I have left.farewell world of the free and brave.


Details | I do not know? | |

my morbid fairytale

"I Guess Mama warned that there'd be days like this,"
but what she had failed to mention was,
Its really just some deep abyss.
Swirling,
Black,
Devoid of any bliss.
Just a Cyst,
Never letting you forget,
Everything that you have missed.
The Devils kiss,(or dead mans hand)


"Ill tell you a story children,"
If you promise not to cry,
For this is my tradigic tale,
A Modern Lullaby.
About a girl so unhappy,
She just really longed to die.
But its ok Baby,
No need to shed no tears,
She wont be missed by anyone,
there's no one that thought her dear.


"Cause' in this life there are no fairytales,"
No "Happily Ever After"
There are:
 No Dukes,
OR Dwarfs,
Or talking Mirrors,
there's no one to come and save you.


Now eat your apple,Deary,
Cause' the woodsmans on his way,
with nary a fairygod parent to come stand and block his way.
Cause' last I heard your prince got lost,
while riding in the wood,
but its ok,
at Grandma's house,
He met some new girl..with a hood.


"You Need your rest now Sleeping Beauty,"
For the clock is striking 12,
And No dream can last forever,
Like the prophecy fore-told. 
Cause mice cant pull a carriage,
And all step-parents are right,
And shoe's made out of glass...
Come On!
"You really thought they'd last the night?!?"


"So go ahead and dream someday,"
your prince will surly come,
While I'll stay awake in the real world,
and know such thoughts are dumb. 
Written by-Erin Anderson


Details | Blank verse | |

sharing a dream

Sharing of Dreams 

He had a dream of living a life of rustic idyll, to see and feel 
seasons, so he bought a derelict cottage in pastoral Algarve.
Took his wife along, explained how the cottage would look 
like when done up; she said nothing. With help of workmen 
he began repair and life for a while was primitive. He saw his 
wife was not happy, when she said she had go home to look
 after her daughter, he understood. Months went, but a day 
in February the home was ready, he had even acquired a dog. 
Outside the almond trees were shedding and petals looked as 
pink snow. Rang her, but she didn´t want to come and live in 
his bucolic wonderland . “But I thought you liked it”, he said. 
“You never asked me, took me for granted, this is you dream 
not mine…” The cottage was still and cold, his dog sensed his 
dejections jumped up on his lap liking his face. He went into 
the shed, collected wood for the fireplace, his dream was now 
like an old coat too comfy to throw away.


Details | Free verse | |

Light In The Darkest Moment - A Collaboration

I think I was born to be a frog, 
Staring across the lake, Into the distant horizon.
Or a lonely wolf, howling Into the cold moon face,
Seeking the comfort of warm beauty 
Tears. The star lighting dreams of lost Souls, silver lining clouds
On the cows back, over the milky way
And back. All I know deep Inside, Love makes
The world go around, sweet , beautiful, In every
living, breathing hour, makes life complete.
I think I was born to be an eagle,
Soaring on the wind currents, my eyes surveying all below
Or am I mere shadow, a Dark entity,
Seeking the comfort of Love, a Soul of light.
A Soul trapped In anguish, In a night world of shadows,
Embracing but shadows of reality, a Soul crying for light.
Love heralds In the light, my Soul eagerly awaits,
The shadow shall one day be seen, as a man of light and Love.
'til then he shall mourn In his sorrow, always the eternal Dark Man.

A Collaboration by Liam Mcdaid & Michael Clarke.
 


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Orphans and Angels

In dells and great glens groups of happy orphan children run and pick bunches of flowers,
They smell them, weave them into posies and garlands, they are blessed by angels in heaven,
And all these children are where they are, because a catastrophe has ruined their sad little lives,
Each kneel by their beds at night and they pray to God for someone to love and take them home,
To have real families and to know love not sorrow, to sleep in peace and not fear tomorrow.

Trees are bright green and the grass is long and warm the children run fast over the glens,
They whip their legs or graze their knees but say nothing, they may be told to sit in the bus,
Little girls making daisy chains under a June sun with their red rosy cheeks and red gingham frocks,
The boys fly past pretending to be airplanes, all have grey shirts, grey trousers and grey socks,
All are happy, but their happiness is never complete, as later it's back to the children's home.

It's picnic time they sit in deep green grass each is given a neat folded brown paper parcel,
There's apples and oranges, some bread and cheese and a few penny sweets in a twisted bag,
Nobody speaks, they hold tight to their parcel as they eat lunch and they must eat all the crusts,
Then the lady in charge reads the register and shouts out names each say 'yes miss' then carry on,
But the very best of all is munching on Black Jacks and the fruit salad chews, what a great day,

The angels watch these sad little people and kneel with them at night saying their prayers,
They kneel by each child in the rows of beds and listen to the tiny sobs and see the tears,
Some speak to Jesus asking for a mum and dad, maybe their best friend could come along too,
And as the sobs quieten and tears dry on small faces the angels smile and hold their hands,
Falling into a deep sleep they dream the dream of dreams a new mum kissing away their pain.
 


Details | Rhyme | |

Hidden

A play on words is said,
Lying in your bed,
Always feeling dead, 
Stand and shake your head,
Don't look at what bled.

The words you meant to keep,
Never let them hear you speak,
All a constant bleak,
Show you are not meek, 
Look in to the world and shriek.

Don't let your feelings show,
Keeping silent hidden low, 
Hide from all you owe,
Spill all that was in tow,
Tell them "No!"

Hide who you are,
Held back from afar,
Life like tar,
Wield your scar,
Break free from your mar.


Details | Free verse | |

Diary Of Lost Love Part 1,Dedicated To a Lady

Your heart can't even beat because it's swollen.
You can't even dream because the dream is over.
Your blood use to be warm until the love got colder.
You can't even smile because your smile is broken.
You can't even have fun because all the fun is over.
You can't even make love because your love was stolen.
Nobody ever calls you beautiful but girl you glowing
your always crying at night but no one ever noticed.
Your always wiping your tears but the pain is overflowing.
You always cover ya ears because your head is hurting.
You've been sick through the years and now your heart is burning.
Your broken heart makes you weak but you never show it.
I know the pain is unkind
but I can truly feel it
girl you were mine
and you were the realest.
I blew up ya mind and made you fall apart.
I rubbed on your spine and kissed you on your heart.
I played with ya feelings like it was just a game.
Girl I know you can hear me and this is everything you
never gave me the chance to say.
You can show me love right now
or watch it fade away.
We can fly through the clouds
and eat the milky way.
We can blow up the stars
and make the sun shine your way.
Baby you glow like the moon
every single day.
When I see you I turn the other way
but when I see you smile it brightens up
my day.
That's the realest thing I will ever say
god blessed my words
and for that I Pray. Amen!


Details | Free verse | |

Nightmare

I dream in vivid colors
Of the lost hopes
Of those forlorn.
I dream of woods
And horrific screams.
I dream of sickness
Devouring me.

Nightmares no longer twisting.
I dream now in colors of gray.
A solid unfold gray.
Never changing...
Never reliving those fears...


Details | Free verse | |

Spell or myth or just a dream

At an unusual time, I slept at 2
This is a real story... really true
went into bed, not sick or tired
and dreamt a dream so clear

was on a train.. don't know how.
was going where? can't remember now.
hopped out and was about to move,
A girl comes close enough

In my dream she was a friend,
Sorry can't remember her now.
We both were happy and so wild,
for a moment I found my lost smiles
I always wanted to spend some time,
she told, "I have a little time"
Till 4 she can only wait
Walked with me till my gate
She told we have a little time
It was our last meet  cuz it was 4


Suddenly I woke up.... AND THE CLOCK STRUCT  FOUR









based on a real life incident that happened with me couple of months before


Details | Free verse | |

The Forlorn Pacifist

The night, shrouds the water. 
Consuming light and mocking; A
sparkle endeavors and drowns.
 
Ripples converge upon petals 
fallen as teardrops drip from
the sadden sky.


Details | I do not know? | |

Lost to the Wind

She’s lost to the wind
Long lost
Her dreams devour
Her every thought
Holding her captive
In a fairy-tale
That to her seems so real
Let her go
She’s lost to the wind
Long, long lost


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Just Listen

Close your eyes...
Close your eyes my sweet girl.
Dream...
Dream happy dreams my sweet girl.
Stop crying...
Stop crying my sweet girl.
Talk to me...
Tell me what's wrong my sweet girl.


No.
I will not.

I will not close my eyes
-In fear of what might find me

No.

I will not dream any dreams
-In fear that I might not come back

No.

I will not stop crying
-I'm afraid I do not know how

No.

I will not talk to you
-For you will not understand, you will never understand, no one will ever understand...
I don't understand.

So open your eyes my dear friend
-Bask in the knowledge of knowing…knowing life, death, love 
[.For I can not.]

So dream my dear friend,
-Drift to a place where all is well, where no harm can come to you 
[.For I will not.]

So shed a tear my dear friend,
-And with those tears comes love, happiness and peace 
[.Though not for I.]

So talk to me my dear friend,
-Tell me your story, your happy ending. How all is well and kind and how this knowledge of yourself has brought you life. 
No confusion.

No loneliness.

No pain. 

Tell me about your happy ending 
[.For I do not have one.] 


Details | Free verse | |

No desire

I feel no patience
I feel no sorrow
I feel no pain

I want nothing
I want the air
I want no one

I dream of nothing
I dream of numbness
I dream of no speech

I crumble thought
I crumble reason
I crumble love

I need patience
I need sorrow
I need pain


Details | Bio | |

Shadow

My shadow always follows you 
Why it doesn't stop,I don't
You throw me away and bubble out
But my shadow goes darker, I want
You see my face, split and gat
That really put me dead
Afar you halt from my presence
But my shadow goes darker, following you straight
But listen, Once in your zest
Your gusto too will get broken
You will be on way and scattered along the side
My shadow will be there to gift you my life


Details | ABC | |

Endless loop

Tears fall down like crashing waves
Pain that follows me through everyday 
Broken and abandoned 
I turn to myself 
No one else is left to help 
A darken space where family should be 
A rotten taste as they make me bleed
Torched everyday, for words i dare not say 
A year and you ran from that place 
Beaten and forgotten, in the world you had no place 
Yet I'm going countless years strong 
With no way to tell this is all wrong 
Love was never taught yet numbness made the learning curve 
I dream as if one day it will all go away 
But I know tomorrow is just the same day 
I hate hope more then life 
Yet without it there is no reason to fight 
Hope is better then nothing 
So I hold on tight 
Dreaming of a day without fright
So I dream of things Ill never have
Pretending one day it wont be this bad
What else is there to do 
When your stuck in an endless loop 


Details | I do not know? | |

Ashes

Savage lies, mercilessly spoken,

battering emotions, a heart exposed, nakedly open,

companionship was all that was sought,

not blue-chip bonds, hastily sold and bought.

The bonds I sought were simple,

peaceful nights, scribbling verse in unseen black,

delicately caressing words of love, my fingers tracing poems, over the contours of your soft back.

It saddens me to say, my thoughts were dreamed in vain,

and it grieves me see, the ashes of our love,

floating down the streets we walked,

scattered in the rivulets of this night’s pouring rain.

Alone I scribble this paltry verse,

the darkest of nights, in the midst of howling storms,

and though I may heal some day,

the memory of the ashes of our love,

floating down the streets we once walked,

shall remain buried deep,

until my dying day


Details | Free verse | |

Grave Confusion

Just a sight of my love
Convinced me
With a whisper
That all my dreams
Have come true with her
Shiny glitter
The colour of life
Changed like the weather
But it was only an image
That caused a blaze
In the cold dying heart
Now I have to live
With this painful dream
My heart cries for her
In a silent scream
Which cannot reach
Upto the loving beach
All the shouting waves
Of sorrow and loss
Absorb my calls
And the broken image 
Of my own feelings
Are swimming
On the blood of my being
With every moving wave
I am being carried away
Into my love’s grave


Details | Personification | |

My Mother will not curse me

Mother, your insanity is my blessing!

Your cry, like a creaking door,
Opens to a lawn of sour,
Your eyes, like a flame of candle,
Pierce to my heart that fails to handle.

And, your insanity is my blessing!

Because, I am not a son of your dream,
The essence that dripped out of the cream,
The life that burns as a wooden window,
The deep woods that drenched with heavy shadow,

Mother, I am not a son of your dream.

The dream of becoming a morning dew,
A song that moves a failing crew,
A dawn, a dusk and a poem with lovely words,
A canoe in search of unknown world,

And, I am not a son of your dream.

See, I am a warrior of a loosing battle,
The blood was washed through the rains that clatter,
I see the children playing on the streets,
I do not know, is it sickle or flowers for them to treat?
 
I am not a son of your dream and still away from your curse,
Mother, your insanity is my blessing!.


Details | Free verse | |

To Far Gone

I had a dream that I could fly nobody could touch me I was so high.
As clouds went by I'd catch them in my hand.
It was like everything had been planned.
But as I thought things could get no better my happy world turned to bad weather. 
The clouds turned dark and the sky was no longer blue.
No longer could I fly, I was now falling and calling for help.
But no one  came because I could not be saved.
I was too far gone anyways.


Details | ABC | |

You

		At first sight of you on a warm day in the sunshine.
		By the river where you were gazing upon its beauty.
		Caught my eye when you walked a walk that was only yours .
		Deep, rich green eyes … you were a slow motion dream.
		Echoing through my head.
		For I had never seen.
		Gorgeous in such a way as you.
		How can I make you notice me.
		I love your face. I must make you notice me.
		Just when you turned to see me.
		Kindness in your eyes.
		Love struck my heart.
		My heartbeat like thundering hooves of a dozen wild horses.
		No one else was in this cloudy vision of mine.
		Only he and I in this place in my mind.
		Please, God let him see me with curious intrigue.
		Restless and excited I stood there.
		Silence was eerie as he began to move.  Away from me walked.
		Trying to draw him back my way with my thoughtshts.
		Unable to speak I stood there paralyzed.
		Very soon he was out of sight.
		Who was he I wanted to know him, to possess him, to melt into him.
		Young I was when that chance at love passed me by, 
		That warm day in the sunshine by the river.


Details | Free verse | |

Wept

It still kind of hurts
That you’re not everything I wanted
It still makes me sad
That loving you is a fear
But its okay you will remember
You will remember when I forget.

I wept

Maybe I’ll get over the heartache
Maybe this headache will just go away
Maybe I’ll dream myself back to life
Maybe I’ll just go away

I wept

It’s still kind of hard to accept
That I’m not everything you wanted
It still makes me sad
That loving you is a fear
But it’s okay I will remember
I will remember when they forget.

I wept and wept

Maybe I’ll get over the heartache
Maybe this headache will just go away
Maybe I’ll dream myself back to life
Maybe I’ll just go away.

weeping still for i wept


Details | Free verse | |

You Are Jamming My Dreams

I wait crossly
To get picked up straightaway
I wait optimistically
To step into the murky bowels of my car

I can’t advance…
When you’re dragging me to your feet
I can’t progress…
When you’re motivating me to be incomplete

I wait at ease
To get a ride home
I wait with heaps of crotchetiness
To jam myself into the jumbled car

I can’t drive on…
When you’re creating traffic in my dreams
I can’t carry on as fast
When you’re taking your time on the freeway,
Though your obedience beams

You’re jamming my dreams, sweet dream catcher
You’re liveliness gleams…It’s not what it seems... (2)
It’s certainly not what it seems…
Blame it on my dreams!
You’re just a dream come true…
It’s nothing that popped out of the blue…
It’s not that surprising
If you only knew…
Oh, you don’t have a clue…
This infatuation is positively true!

I can’t move on…I can’t drive on… (2)
I can’t ride on the road to victory…
I can’t burst forth by dashing proudly
Until you hit the brakes and cease from
Jamming my exotic dreams

I can’t travel on… I can’t light up the sky…
I can’t dream on and on and on
I can’t drift on and on
I can’t…I can’t move on
I can’t… I can’t!
Until you inspire me to gleam!

(the whispers grow soundless)
I can’t drive on…
I can’t drive on…
I can’t drive on…
I can't...I can't...
I just can't,
Dear friend...
*silence*


Details | Blank verse | |

OFTEN

 I never knew I can fall in love so often/I was embrace by your beautiful smile and your soft lips it just feel different now not be around you it just won't never be the same. I never knew I can fall in love so quickly  with a beautiful person/ tension became too cold and felt like lake Michigan so often/I was embrace by your  beautiful smile and your soft lips but now it’s  it killing me so often/ as I listen to the  wedding bells/   i just feel different now not be around you it just won't never be the same it just feels like this too often I cried every night losing you it just too often the same often tearful nights/Now there some many rain showers often now /dark clouds keeps these emotional feeling all kept in this room I wept these tears all in in my palms of my hands/and this too often/Often I just feel like this was meant to be. I was with you I don't even remember when the last time we hugs and kisses each other the days and nights is almost over and you asked me how often do I fall in love now I don't even think about the subjected anymore things just would never be the same.


Details | I do not know? | |

This Fragile Dream

I once dreamed of being loved 
when i could give love and have in return 
but this fragile thing is just a dream 
and so i let it burn 

I once dreamed that i was someone 
i had a name and lived in a better place 
but this fantasy was fragile still 
and so i had to show my real face 

Behind the mask I clung to a dream 
a dream that faded in fire and pain 
my fragile dream is lying broken on the floor 
and never again will i ever be the same 

No more smiles and naive bliss 
tragedy of reality had given me its loveless kiss 
no longer hiding in a dream of friends and family care 
this fragile thing i once had dreamed 
has become the inescapable haunting of a never-ending nightmare


Details | I do not know? | |

I am Nothing

I leave the place 
Where I first learn 
To laugh and to cry 
hungered and be tired 
To love and be love 
And to dream their dream 
Because the time ask for it 
Not to gain what I dream 
But to give what their dreams. 
I know my family need me 
To support them financially 
But I failed to gave what I keep 
By sending what their basic needs 
Because until now I'm just like my family 
Suffering from poverty. 


Details | Free verse | |

Eagle In The Window

The illusion of hope hangs bitterly above bedside, 
Cheek ever gently flattened upon windowsill, 
In hopes cool transparency mirrors density, 
So that I may take flight into night air on wings of an eagle. 
Or enter the kingdom of the gods by way of broken wing.

The sky holds no stars, or clouds, and offers no luminescence. 
Soul guided only by nature's intuition, 
Cast into the abyss of bright city lights.

But this window mirrors not its density, 
Yet another night laid by windowsill, 
Yet another night my soul's eagle heart shan't take flight.


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Musings of a Blind Man

Can I walk the roads alone ?
Why am I this scared ?

Do I fear torture
Or pain ?
What if I fall down ?

What am I doing now ?

Is it better to live alone
Walk alone
Aware that peril beckons
When you walk alone on the road
Braced for it.. and careful enough ?

Or seek help from the company
Ok…let me travel a bit
To a country with nice, friendly people
They all take so much care…
But when it comes to helping me cross the
Road… why aren’t they helping me ?

Oh… I’m not the only blind man here…
They can’t see me….
Oh…

What do I do now ?
Ah…let me go to my own land
And seek help
They are not blind
They’ll see me
And help me

So, I go…

On my way
I have a dream…

I walk the road
People willingly hold my hand
Walk me down the road
I tell myself happily… “why didn’t I come here earlier ?”

Half way down the road
Heavy traffic
And the effluvium
Suffocating me
Suffocating my helper too
He runs away

I wonder
He probably is getting
Too affected by the fumes….
Or… doesn’t he like my hand ?
My perfume ?
My smell ? …
What did I do ? …

I hear a kingsized motorbike…
“hello there.. how are you doing ?”
“you know that if you are found on the
middle of the road, you shall die”
I splutter… “but..i am blind…”

“Blind…and you crossed half
the distance…who are you kidding ?”
“Where’s my gun ?…”

S I L E N C E

I thought I was just blind
Now I couldn’t hear anything
I couldn’t smell anything
Not even my favourite perfume
The one that I was wearing that day
Hey… I couldn’t think…
How wonderful my friends would say…
The blind guys’ uninformed talk…

But somewhere in that deep sleep, I realized that my dream was reality…
For neither can I see a dream nor reality…
Everything is…
Blind men realize it half the way down…
And pay a heavy price…


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8 Every time

Every time I see her, my problems go away.
Every time she smiles, a light shines my way.
Every time I touch, her I melt away.
Every time I’m with her, I want to stay.
Every time I talk to her, I don’t want to go away.
Every time I’m sad she makes me smile right away.
Every time I’m mad she makes me glad.
Every time I dream of her, I dream that in my dream she loves me like I love her.


Details | I do not know? | |

HELP ME

I'm trying not to start crying
To see you at least tonight
So we can be able to reunite
You have the ability to make my worst dream become a reality
I want you 
I want you to help me love you 
To be with you
To see you one more time
This will be my best dream till the end of time
I love you tony
Just please HELP ME and come back to me


Details | Enclosed Rhyme | |

Why Me

Why me a lonely soul in a whole wondering where the wind would blow many 
times i say to myself why how do my life go around and around or even up nor 
down thinking to myself is there any one out there who cares about my feelings 
of  interest or personal being we all have to face the facts one day who to really 
say where our souls would be its always a end to a fairy tale dream think about it 
why me on this lonely earth to be we must stay positive not negative with both mix 
together this earth will be a shatterry dream and not a color to see


Details | Enclosed Rhyme | |

Awake

Awaken by a terrible dream
With a sign of struggle between you and me
As though it may seem
The dream becomes vivid and clear
Only for a second because your voice is near
I begin to hesitate as you kiss my face
Cause their is someone that has taken your place
All that time you were gone I felt lonely and unsafe
It wasn't a choice it just happened by mistake
I guess it was meant to be or it was fate.

I couldn't figure out the empty pieces of my dream
I never thought this decision would lower your self-esteem
Cause all I can remember is you being hurt and crying
But when I saw your reaction I felt like dying
Never knew that you would have came back for me
Cause this dream only reflects my reality
 
In this dream towards the end everything becomes clear
I figured out the reason why you left me dear
Cause even though someone has took your place
You couldn't let me go but you had to
So we said our good-byes and you kissed my face
I hugged you which seemed like forever
Your soft lips I remember everyday
But letting you go was my biggest mistake
Because I woke up crying and you weren't there
Only to realize that this was no dream
That I was facing reality the whole time.


Details | Bio | |

10 I'm that guy

I’m that guy that thinks of you day and night.
I’m that guy that makes you smile.
I’m that guy that when I dream of you my dream becomes wild
I’m that guy that when you’re sad makes you smile.
I’m that guy that when you’re mad makes you smile.
I’m that guy that listens to you when no one does.
I’m that guy that is there for you when no one is.
I’m that guy when you’re hurt helps you heal the pain.
I’m that guy that when you talk to me I melt away.
I’m that guy that when you touch me it blows me away.
I’m that guy that when you see me makes everything go away.
I’m that guy that when you’re near me my problems go away.
I’m that guy that prays for you to stay.
I’m that guy that prays for you every night and day.
I’m that guy that cry’s for you night and day.
I’m that guy that loves you even when you don’t love me.


Details | Rhyme royal | |

was it just a dream

was it just a dream that you care for me, and told me you love me.
when things were going well and i thought it was meant to be.
was it just a dream when you stare me in my eyes.
when we were together until sunrise.
was it just a dream when you made love to me and made me scream your name.
when you whisper in my ear telling me things i needed to hear.
was it just a dream when we lay together all night and watch movies.
when you told me the problems with the mother of your child.
when you use your hands and drove me wild.
was it just a dream when you got jealous of the other guy in my world then front 
like you didn't have a girl.
was it just a dream when you left and went so far away.
then came back to sex me and heal my pain for just awhile.
was it just a dream when we were together and you made me fall in love with 
your smile.


Details | ABC | |

14 Start with someone new

Start with someone new someone that is not like you.

Start with someone new someone that won’t lie like you.

Start with someone new someone that protects me like I protected you.

Start with someone new someone that cares for me like I cared for you.

Start with someone new someone that thinks of me like I thought of you.

Start with someone new someone that wonders about me like I wondered about 
you.

Start with someone new someone that would give up the world for me like I give 
the world for you.

Start with someone new someone that makes me dream wild dream like when I 
dreamed of you.

Start with someone new someone that would cry for me like I cried for you.

Start with someone new someone that likes me like I liked you.

Start with someone new someone that loves me like I loved you.

Start with someone new someone that I well love more than you.

Start with someone new someone that won’t break my heart like you someone 
that well be by my side for good and bad someone that cherishes every time 
she’s with me someone that wants to be with me.


Details | Free verse | |

I Spend A Lot of Time

I spend a lot of time crying

I spend a lot of time daydreaming

About how things could be

Or how I wish they were

Or perhaps those two are the same

I spend a lot of time remembering sadness so well

That it makes me sad again

I spend a lot of time being sad


Details | I do not know? | |

Crazy Dream

Last night I had a dream about you and me walking together on the beach...
We talked about the past and all of our dreams everything was going alright or so it 
seemed,we set on the shore for hours looking at the waves you looked down and kissed me 
then looked up at the sky,while you were looking at the stars in the sky i was dazing 
off at the stars in your eyes.
then i woke up and come to realize it was all a dream I had reached over and grabbed my 
teddy bear i rolled over on my side thought of you and the things we once shared.
i realized you were an angel sent to me in my dreams to help me get over my past and 
think about the future things.


Details | Verse | |

A Story Of Downfall

And as he was walking down the path of life
He was overcome by darkness  and the blade of a knife,
The shadow that once followed behind him had become his very form,
And the heart that once beat inside him was torn,
He was driven by hate, yet longed for the love of another,
He wasn’t sane but deep under cover.
He knew what had happened  but chose to conceal it,
He knew  it would hurt him but chose not to feel it,
What had happened was a sudden change in direction,
He lost his meaning and followed his reflection,
Eventually his life was lost and he lived in a dream,
A dream of a life that was anything but  his own,
A dream that one day he wouldn’t be alone,
He never did explain his pain,
He didn’t have to,  we saw his life drain,
He once was a boy that loved to be living,
If he wasn’t playing he was giving,
Giving his love and giving a reason,
A reason to live and…
Well, isn’t that enough.
It must have been rough,
To live life so happy then suddenly fall,
To fall deep in a hole, and come out so small,
He had a life but wished he could leave it,
“Its just another dream, I don’t think I need it,”
Some people cried and some of them stared,
Some were destroyed  but all  were scared,
A lot of them said they weren’t prepared,
But how can you prepare for something so tragic,
Something beyond life and all of its magic,
How  do you plan for the loss of a friend,
The only plans you had were to be there to the end,
This boy was a time bomb, just waiting to blow,
What went through his mind, we wish we could know,
He wasn’t crazy, nor was he sane,
He simply had his own ways to deal with the pain,
He would smile at those who gave him the time,
And was always excited to write down a rhyme,
He loved through his heart, and was loved through his words,
He talked to himself and sang with the birds,
Everyone loved him that’s why no one knows,
“Why would he do this, there’s nothing that shows.”
The truth is he lived life to see its bitter end,
He lived through those years as his own best friend,
Now he is dreaming in a world far away,
Maybe he’ll return, maybe someday.


Details | Elegy | |

my love for him

I lay in his arms
sleep but aware of his presence
I dream of blue oceans
I dream of blue seas
each warm kiss I feel from him
the water becomes wetter in my dreams
I dream of  a shipwreck
we're deserted out at sea
so I sing of my love for him in the sweetest melody
and I sing of my love for him hoping he'll swim along
I sing of my love for him as he slowly becomes the sea
the love I sing for him carries on through decades eternally
now I sing to collect souls
I cursed the sea to stir the waters and wreck the sailors boats
I sing of my love for him in the sweetest melody
to lure in and claim the lives as sacrifices 
for my love I lost at sea


Details | I do not know? | |

Dreaming to Dream

Have you ever had a dream
and wished you hadn't woken up
Wish that you could stay 
In that perfect place 
Just a little longer
I have

Have you ever woken 
From a dream and cried 
'Cuz you wished you could return
 Because the dream is so much better
Then the reality
I have

Have you ever gone to sleep
Hoping that one day if you're lucky 
All your dreams will come true
And you'll be happy
Once again
I have


Details | ABC | |

17 Because of you

Because of you I sit lonely and cry for you.

Because of you my heart scrims for you.

Because of you my heart cry’s for you.

Because of you my heart broke in two.

Because of you my dream are not happy like they use to.

Because of you it’s hard to forget you.

Because of you I’m depress day and night.

Because of you everyday is a sad day.

Because of you my life is been hell with out you.

Because of you my heart won’t love no one only you.

Because of you I thought I did not need nobody just you.

Because of you my dream did not come true.

Because of you every night I cry for you.

Because of you my heart is full with pain and sadness to.

Because of you I won’t fall in love no more because my heart can’t trust no one 
no more.


Details | I do not know? | |

Once

Why do I bleed
Why do I play with the thought
Why am I empty
Why not
Do you really want to know me
Do you think you relate
My thoughts so dark and angry
Myself, so easy to hate
I wish I could have that moment
Just once to shine in the light
Just wanting to see it through
My thoughts, my dreams, good night


Details | I do not know? | |

Dreaming

I dream of you and me each night.
I see me walking on a dirt road.
I hear the sound of a four-wheeler
and as it comes closer everything
turns into slow motion.
On the four wheeler, me and you.
We look so happy, so full of love.
The scene changes.
Now I'm in your Jeep. Backseat.
I look up and I see you driving and
me in the passenger seat.
We're laughing and having fun.
The scene changes again.
I'm standingg in my yard. Its night.
I look up and see us sitting on the tailgate 
of my dad' truck.
I gasp as I realize that this is the last time 
we were together.
The last time I hugged you.
Kissed you.
Your head is on my chest and we
both have smiles on our faces.
We're happy.
The scene changes yet again.
I'm standing in my yard still. Its day.
I am watching myself fall apart.
I have a phone in my hand,
I set it down and start crying hysterically.
I wake up then and smile 'cause its 
not real.
Just a dream.
Then I feel my swollen eyes.
My head is spinning.
I realize that it wasn't just a 
dream.
It is my days spent with you.
Playing over and over and over in my head.
I wish it were all just a dream and we were
still together, still happy.
Why can't it just be a dream?


Details | Light Poetry | |

Miracles!

Tonight I lie on a dream
As i sleep in my bed.
The water, from the dream
Streams down my face,
onto my head.

I'm so astatic as the dream continues
And the happiness makes me smile,
Like taking a breath away, 
I'm tired but happy, the dream makes
A way of having them smile back at you
And me too.

Miracles is what it was.
Miracles was the cause,
Of having a smile upon my face.
Miracles of Santa Clause,
Miracles of dreams, that are comming true, In the dream i'm having right now.

I toss and turn, and flip and cry, as laughter and streingth come arise.
I know its good, to come and try
Something you want to do, just fly!.

My dream comes to an end 
As the streams of water come to a stop.
The dream of dreams, the dream of goodies and people who bless you, 
and smile at you.

As I awake from the dream, I go up to My parents, and smile brightly towards 
Them.
This is I wanted to do!
Miracles was what it was.

The blessing of them smiling at me, Makes me just want to keep touching Their 
hearts.
The rise of brightness, and courage is What it is
For Miracles to happen.

If I breathe and know everything is alright,
I know its alright to smile, and have courage.

Miracles! Dreams! Laughter! Courage! Strength! Love! Cry! Touch!
Miracles, is all of that and more...

I know The dream, was a dream. 
But the dream also has a theme.
To always know that Miracles happen!
And that smiling, and having everything it takes, is the best.

So, today And throughout the future, I know I will have miracles available each 
and everyday.
AND SO WILL YOU! JUST BELIEVE!
This dream is alive. 
It comes true.
Cuz no matter what, the dream is alive, and you can achieve,
Too!
  
Just say it with me, say it with them
Say "MIRACLES!" "MIRACLES" "MIRACLES"!!
That dream ,was the best dream, I ever had before. It's the best lesson ever!
I'm glad that Miracles happen, cuz without them, what would everything be like? 

Just laugh, cry, smile, have fun, have courage, faith, strength, averything that 
makes a miracle in life... come true!
 I had a miracle,
It was life, and everything!


Written and created all, by Kayla H!








Details | Free verse | |

THE DISTANT PLACES I DREAM OF...

The distant places I dream of...
are as alive as the loveliest memory,
never erasing that strong legacy;
unfortunately...time slips into tomorrow,
leaving beyond a faint vision of
everything passionately loved
or anything fiercely unloved,
receding itself into a thin shadow!

And as I grow older and weak,
I sadly recall the formidable days
of my very short youth;
very early in spring...hords of sparrows
and red-breast robbins
flew over the blooming hills...
to venture themselves
into another adventure of delight!

The distant places I dream of ...
are eternally carved into this nostalgic soul:
to visualize them as they unfolded yesterday,
making me deliriously cry in sorrow...
and wishing they'd appear to comfort me
in my uncertain hour of death!

I merrily walked under the lustrous cypresses
glancing at the lovers touching and dreaming;
their happiness was mine to imagine,
but fate had a different task to be given
to that chosen one willing to sacrifice himself!
Days have gone,storms have passed... 
the curse has been removed at last,
a trecherous curse to test my resistance!

The distant places I dream of...
lie under the respendant skies,
which adorn the lush hills with radiance;
I'd like to abandon myself to an idle state
and placidly sleep on the same meadow:
imagining to travel to far-away lands...
very different from the ones I had known,
but a twist of fate might turm my dice
and urge me to make the choice...and go back
to the distant places I dream of!


Details | Light Poetry | |

Just Like Yesterday

A different night, same dream as the night before
I heard you say my name, seen your image at my door
~
I tried to kiss your lips, but your image faded away
So I dropped to my knees and cried, just like yesterday
~
Your fragrance was in my room, smelling oh so sweet
So I wiped my tears and searched, but your arms I could not reach
~
Thought I heard you say I love you, but your voice was kind of fuzzy
And I couldn't see your face, staring back at me
~
But I know someday I'll find you, when I finally reach the skies
For this dream that I've been having, keeps showing me how you died
~
I just wish that I could touch you, and send this dream away
And hold you in my arms again, just like yesterday

________________________________________________________

{This Is Not Written About Me}


Details | I do not know? | |

Drowning from my own tears

Are you merely a dream 
that is just passing me by 

would falling in love with you 
weigh down my faith in you 

I reach out to you 
and I wonder why 

I find myself drowning 
from the raindrops 
of my own tears 

this love I have keeps 
me in fear 

how long will you haunt me 
in the darkess of my mind 

As I turn away in silence 
my heart continues to ache for you 

I want to kiss your lips 
and share your desires 

where romances rages 
and love conspires 

When I awake 
will I remember this 
dying dream of silence 
 


Details | I do not know? | |

Morbid Nightmare

Morbid nightmare for the feelings that run wild
inner feelings i kept hiden tightly from the 
world as a child.
Desparation on an endless journey but there 
is no reality only obsession that i am urning.
Traviling a twisted road that seems impossable
to follow and thinking back on the past has 
giving me nothing but greif an sorrow.
The war between coruption an hate pins you
to a chair
You here what those people are whispering 
but you choose not to care.
Morbid nightmare your only true escape
but your stuck inbetween a dream that wants
to become your gate.
Sometimes you dont want to wake up hoping 
that you might find
A wired shut mouth with a little peice 
of mind.
There can be no haven until the final nightmare
so lye on your bed and close your eyes
but always beware.
You have finally enterd yout dream of morbid nightmare
Just be reminded of the knowledge you do not
share.
You come across three small children who have
no need for a protector
so you pss an begin your journey scared of
what you may encounter.
Intemidated by the blackness of the night an
the coldness of your heart
you feel as if your soul is being taken an 
torn all apart.
You come across a hill covered by thick sand
and you feel forces full of rage moving like 
wraths across the land.
You reach the top and look down only to find
an endless drop to an endless dream
You realize there is no way out so you close
your eyes an begin to scream
searching for a refuge from this unwanting dare
but there is no sanity that awaits for you because 
you promised your soul to a morbid nightmare


Details | Free verse | |

neverland

Today I will dream of the what-ifs.
I will dream of la-la land.
I will plunge into the deeps of the wishing well.
I will taste rainbows and drink from foamy rivers. 
I will dream today.
Dreaming neither of today nor of tomorrow but of the what-ifs. 
I shall weave a crown out of stars.
My robe shall be made out of hope.
My sandals shall be made of precious jewels. 
I shall be a queen and no longer the pauper.
Let me dream of what-ifs.
Let’s say the sun was the moon and vice versa?
What if you and I were royalty in disguise?
Suppose hate was turned to love ? 
What if the laws of never were broken?
Suppose “weird” became the new “normal” 
What then would I be?
If the world were turned upside down…then would I be good or bad?
Angelic or evil?
Let me dream of the what-ifs.
Only for today…I am not insane.
Just weary of living in the today.
Let me eat something besides bread of tears.
For  once let me dream of something better.
I sit here and I look around me and I dream.
For dreaming is escaping  a life that is filled with wants.
So I dream and stare at stars.
For my soul is breaking in to a million pieces.
Dreaming is the only way of remaining sane. 
Do not reach for me let me be.


Details | I do not know? | |

Closer

I have no desire to wake up in the morning
I hope for an eternal dream 
away from the world
But my dream never comes
I think my brain makes me wake up 
wishing that today I'll be on another world
as a different person
with a different life
A better life
A better place
A better person
But I'm always me,
the depressed
suicidal mess-up from nowhere
Time passes
nothing changes
I'll wake up tomorrow 
and I'll be 40
In the same town
with the same people
and the same problems
This is my life.


Details | Romanticism | |

dreams

i hear your voice,i see your face.
Smell your scent,my heart starts to race.
i open my eyes, only to realize it was only a dream.
dreams play with you heart.
dreams tantalize,and give you a start.
dreams tease you into thinking something is real.
until you wake up,and see the real deal.
i only hope that you dream of me too.
for i cant imagine life with out you.
so when we are apart,you have my heart.
i;lm see you in my sleep.
my love dream deep.


Details | Romanticism | |

A Little Dream

It’s trembling sadly in the misty air,
It fears to near you and touch your arm.
I squint at it, and I see it get scared.
I remain calm and silent not to harm 

The little dream between you and me.
It doesn’t know yet it’s unwanted,
It still thinks it’s beautiful and free,
The little dream I’ve just created

About going for a walk downstream,
About dancing on a forest clearing.
What a poor, little, and unreal dream,
Such nice, such bright, such trusting...

It hides its face in the back of beyond, 
It freezes as if it went into a trance.
The little dream seemed true and fond
Yet, yet... it had nothing to do with us... 


Details | Free verse | |

Confusion of Love

Why must I suffer 
Why must I love a girl with all of my heart but only fill Half of hers 
Because I am unsure 
If she likes me but loves some other person more 
In my dream I dream a day that she is fully mine 
But am I only acting out the saying that love is blind 
Only time Can differentiate my feelings from the facts 
Only then will I relax 
But still I must ask 
If I am everything 
She wants and needs to see 
Why does she hold on firmly to the portraits of the past 
This question bothers me 
It seems to me 
That I can no longer be upset by these things I can only be disappointed by the actions I
consider wrong 
But maybe I am wrong 
For believing I can take someone and make them my own 
And own 
The key to their heart 
Maybe I have not played my part I guess I could considered my yearning heart not useful 
Or I can call it depressing art 
Several times I have awaited a call 
That did not come to me at all I wanted to ventilate my problems 
But could not because the person I loved 
Was not there to help me solve them 
Or give me strategies to resolve them 
But here I sit 
Wondering what is next I found out some but couldn't figure out the rest 
If two plus two is four 
And one plus one is two 
I guess you leaving me 
Makes me half of you 
This is what I feel 
This is my craft I figured out something but I'm not good at math 
So maybe you can correct me 
And help me do the math.


 





Details | I do not know? | |

Live Reality, Live Dreams

Maybe if I hold onto this dream
 long enough I’ll realize I was never
 asleep. How I wish I was not living
 this dream and you the real you would
 wake me up from this horrific slumber. 
But the longer this dream is the more I 
think its not a dream and just a smack in
 the face of reality. I can hear your words
 but they are from a world I am no longer 
apart of until I wake up. It’s getting distant
 and I fear when I can no longer hear your 
voice it will be the end. I wonder if these are
 my last breaths or are they my first to a new
 beginning. A Gentle hand caresses my face
 perhaps dawn's hands. I open up my eyes lying 
in bed, in a white room to see to flowers and get wells, 
I don’t dare to blink or close my eyes.


Details | I do not know? | |

Katrina, The Memory Of Yesterday

Katrina is the memory of yesterday
Once a reality, now a dream of today.
Her destruction of disaster she sent about
Leaving the gulf of catastrophies with-out.
Properties damaged and most lifes are gone
Survivors are making it, as help continues to grow strong.

Although, their lifes have been shattered apart
As they try to pull together their damaged hearts.
For katrina has destroyed their memories of yesterday
Leaving them with a reality dream of today.
Katrina is a memory, a reality dream
A destruction catastrophy, a disaster theme.

A dream foretold of a disaster made known
For katrina is the memory that lives on.
Who knows tomorrow what their lifes will be
Filled with heartakes from this catastrophy.
Once a reality, now a dream of yesterday
Katrina is the memory of today.


Details | I do not know? | |

Failure in Dreams

The strength in bleeding.
Weakness is for the pleading.
Begging for something better.
Or perhaps something worse.

The growth is something fake.
When feeble ways are there to make any mistake.
And the fingers are numb.
And your back is aching.
Because you dream of success.
Settling for nothing less.

Who's wrong for thinking this way? 
Who's wrong for being weak?
When you dream of something that you cannot reach.
And when you know that failure is the only thing that's able to breach.


Details | I do not know? | |

Still missing you

Today the tears run down my face
longing for your sweet embrace. I 
miss your touch, I miss your smell,
the thought of you being forever 
gone makes me ill. I wish to hold 
you once again to ease this pain 
that hell hath no end. My heart 
it breaks with every breath I take.
The tears I cry they have no end. 
Here I sit weeping still missing 
you and when I dream I'll dream of 
you and the fun we shared the time 
we stood. Until we meet again someday 
I love you, I loved you, I'll love 
you again


Details | Free verse | |

Sweet Dream

I have dreamed about you for years. I have pictured you in every detail. Your smile 
rings inside my head constantly. I see your eyes staring into mine. I feel so much 
love in between us. My love for you feels eternal. I can’t believe the dream is over. 
The dream ended before it could ever really begin. I feel so hurt and lost now that 
is over. I can’t believe I will never see those hypnotizing eyes again. I will never 
hear your lovely laughter drown away the pain. I have dreamed about you for so 
long that now that I know it will always be just a dream; it seems like everything is 
pointless. I can’t sleep at night for fear that I will dream about you. How can life 
deal me this hand? How can it be that you will never be? You seemed so real to 
me that I can’t believe it was just a dream. Goodbye my sweet dream.


Details | I do not know? | |

Dreams

I dream of you every night
Do you dream of me
I want us to be together
But I dont think we will ever be

Because in this life of mine
Dreams never come true
Especially all the ones
About me and you

But maybe this time
Is different from the rest
Maybe I should give it a try
And put it to the test

But it may still be exactly like
All of the other times
And that will hurt even more
Because it would forever haunt my mind


Details | Verse | |

I Will...

"I will..." you said in innocence 
with 
eyes of love-struck blue; 
"I will..." I said, concealing 
all 
my real self from you. 
For I will let you dream the dream 
then 
knife it in the eyes; 
I will seize your pristine love 
and 
choke it 'till it dies. 
I will make your world a Hell 
beneath 
the darkest skies; 
I will taint all you hold dear 
with 
anger, pain and lies. 
I will trample on your faith 
until 
its bones are dust; 
I will proffer tenderness 
yet 
visit primal lust. 
I will show the moon and stars 
but 
deliver only rust; 
I will drag your feelings in the dirt 
and 
kick to death your trust. 
What motive makes me do these things 
for 
I am but a man? 
I do these things instinctively, 
I 
do them for I can...


Details | Lyric | |

Perfect Mirror

I am a perfect picture
The background bloody skies
The centre full of angels
But the foreground steals their eyes

A massacre of demons
An agent with a smile
The scars depict an empty vessel
And the shroud depicts denial

I hold a dream of hatred
I raise my glass to hope
I promise I will wake up
When the darkness throws a rope

I am a perfect poem
The words were never there
Only people standing silent
As the paper makes them stare

A silence full of reason
A tear for the cost
Every second they are breathing
Is another meaning lost

We held the dream of hatred
It poisoned every hope
We could promise that we’d wake up
But we’d need to steal another’s rope

I am a perfect mirror
I reflect what you’ve become
I am the disconnected
If only so I never turn and run


Details | I do not know? | |

Fire and Ice

Sleeping in the flames and burning lies
Somewhere in the ashes I hear the cries
Was it me I saw in the fire?
Or was it you falling down but getting higher?

Sleeping in the ice and fading dreams
I’m slipping out and then back in
Is it true that I’m awake?
Or in my dream was there a small mistake?

Lifeless ashes served with ice
Dreaming in a dream that has enticed
Everything I lost is what I need
Things I have I’ll throw away into the sea

Lifeless hearts that cannot feel
Standing in a place where they can heal
Everything I took will never please
Things I gave turned into autumn leaves

I know I’ll give you your desire
I only have to take a look within the fire
The ashes left will let me know
They are the things I lost within the snow


Details | I do not know? | |

If it were so?

This country we all call home, 

where many have laid down their lives in the 

name of freedom and justice for all...

Where Pilgrims did land on Plymouth 

Rock and declared this land America!. 

A place where it was written by the Forefathers that every man is 

created equal in the eyes of God. 

Where justice is declared to be blind to the law... 

Where everyone can have a piece of the American dream

and a plot of land to plant his seeds...

Where everyone is entitled to 

vote on Election Day... If this country be so great? 

Then why does my color keep my children out 

of the same schools as yours?  My child dream no dreams of

ever sitting in the White House one day? They only dream of avoiding 

the jails or the jobs that don’t pay!

Jay Andrew Anderson-Taylor 

Copyright ©1997 Jay Andrew Anderson-Taylor 


Details | I do not know? | |

Dreams

Dreams...everyone has them
no one knows why we do
some are sad some are true
One, I had a dream of you
it felt so true, so real
As I lay with my eyes closed
without a care in the world
All I do is dream of you
Your face, your eyes, your touch
it all feels so real 
I want to be with you
I reach out every night to touch you,
When I wake I say "how can this be"...
after all it was a dream...
From the heart.



Details | Rhyme | |

Tinted Thoughts

In all my dreams I dream of you
they're dimly lit with speckled blue
in moments that I hesitate,
breathing softly...  stop... and wait.
With foggy head and crackling eyes
my room is filled with saddened sighs
Even as I dream my way 
I know that here I mustn't stay
For dreamers die before their time
and lose themselves in simple rhymes.
So fight I may with all my might,
gripping fingers, bloodless, tight
to clear my way to the present day
with a weeping wish that I could stay
But hazy eyes must open wide
with knowledge of the things I hide
My day ahead still tinted blue
remaining always, thoughts of you...


Details | Lyric | |

Dreams

The dreams I dream make me feel, the dreams I dream make me seem real, 
when they die and leave me alone, can I make it on my own?

Without my dreams who will I be? So afraid to look, so afraid of me... The mirrors 
have lied and told me what I wanted to see, now tis only a shadow that’s left of 
me...

 The mirrors lay broken and glass shards fill my room, reflections of a past lie, in 
the light of the moon...


Details | Rhyme | |

A VICTIM

                                                        A  VICTIM

I was told I should not have any contact with you. Maybe I can put all of 
this behind me if you know how I feel. It might not be a problem to you, but I want 
you to imagine what I feel. Don't take it personal I just want to get a few things off 
my chest. It might take a few tears, but I will do my best.

Exactly a few years ago everything was taken away from me even my ego. 
Sometime I feel like a piece of me is gone, however I have moved on. That day 
changed my life, and  with help from God I will one day be a loving man's wife. I 
somtimes sit and think what went wrong, why you didn't leave and leave 
me alone. It might sound strange that I forgive you with all my heart, because one 
day my soul will have to part.  TELL ME! Does that day go through your head? At 
the beginning it was so bad I wished I was dead.

When I lie down and close my eyes there is your face and no matter how hard I 
try I can not hide from that day. Dream after dream night after night it's a struggle 
to sleep, and I constantly fight. One day that time will come when we will meet 
face to face back in  "HELL" is where I call that place. I want to know why, why did 
you do this to me, you took everything even my insanity. Therefore, by the grace of 
God I will live day to day, but not one day has pass thinking have you found your 
way.

That day has come and gone. and I have had evil thoughts of what I want to do 
you. The same thing you have done to me. I am a forgiven person I will just let it 
be. I felt something for you, and I know you are lost. However I know God will 
guide you to his cross. Seek him, because he knows you, get down on your 
knees and he want you to get to know him too.  As you are down there ask him 
what is it that he wants you to do.

Again if you ask for forgiveness God will forgive you and from the bottom of my 
heart I will forgive you too.


Details | I do not know? | |

IF I HAD ONE DREAM

I wish I could talk to you
tell you how I feel
that will never happend 
you don't understand anything I say.
We started out friends, looked up to you,
admired you in how strong you were,
always there for me, no matter where I was
you'd find me, hold me , tell me everything will be o.k.
Without you, I felt so empty,
dreaming of the day that you'd ask me to be
your wife, live in a big house, a white picket fence
children we could call our own, a home.
This relationship has turned into a living hell.
I don't know any more why I'm here or even alive
a dream came true, that dream ended way to soon,
that night you pushed me that minute the sickness began
I'm not going to dwell on the past
I don't know how to forgive you,
you can't seem to recognize how wrong you are
no appology, just more justifications to cover your lies.
My heart has torn to the point of no return 
My God Mike I Love you so much
why does it have to be this way?
If I had one wish It would be
I'd be enough for you, make your life complete
realize were soulmates, Love Unconditionally
Before it's to late!!


Details | I do not know? | |

why would she do this???

This lie has me torn and scattered.

Torn the mind, and scattered the soul.

Everything suspended, anger unsettled.

Complacent, calm, cool collected.

The question is not the problem, just the answer

These words spoken unhindered, unbridled.

Betrayal, treachery, disloyalty, unfaithful…

Yet these words mean nothing.

Anger is misused, and misfired.

Dejection sets in, warmth leaves the body.

Deadened nerves feel no more, numbing all.

Can't take in air, stifling little box.

Willing to die for one belief, one ideal.

If it will ease the pain, by all means…

Voices beckon a return to the light.

Darkness follows leading light into the abyss.

Eyes clouded by tears, yet vision clearer than ever.

Sometimes the mind believes the dream you live in.

Sometimes the mind believes the dream you love in.


Details | Free verse | |

A Time

I dream of a time
A time when life was simple
A time when family was everything
And friend's were forever
A time of slumber parties
And boys being gross
I dream of that time
Where life was carefree
And my heart was never broken
Life's not so easy now
Now is a time of angst
And a time of depression
Now is filled with heartbreak
Girls look at guys and see love
Guys look at girls and see sex
But when guys look at me they see 'different'
They see a girl who scorns their attempts
And view as unworthy
That is my now
And why I dream of a time


Details | Romanticism | |

caffeinated dreams

ask me what i dream at night
when all the world's asleep.
ill tell you how i relocate 
in valleys young and deep;
of far green lands and gentle hands
and gardens full of life
of spring's rebirth in gentle earth
and music from the fife;
the daylight hours, filled with showers
warm, and rainbowed skies
of innocence, and further hence
all purity implied.
but as i dream i stand and seem
a sideshow, set apart.
i watch and gape and scratch the nape
while beauty breaks my heart.
the music plays, the sunlight grays
but im not fit to dance.
a fear of all, and sure to fall
id never take the chance
so ends the day, i slip away
and waking calls me back
to foggy eyes and distant cries
and creaking joints that crack.
two worlds denied their bridging bride
though one thin strand connects
my dreams at night and waking light;
one point where they transect.
my dreams i tell but think not ill
if they are but half true
for fear of chance forebodes my lapse,
and my thin strand is you.


Details | Lyric | |

Gently

We used to hear our voices on the winds that stirred the trees
And together watch the snow fall, every moment we would seize
Drinking till the morning light and sleeping on the beach
Funny how we thought we knew the things that life could teach us
So sure that death would never reach us

So many years between us, so much history has past
The changes we have gone through, all the things we thought would last
We thought we made our choices in the face of Destiny
But Destiny chose for us as far as I can see
It's just too bad for you, and worse for me

So bury deep the bones, and wipe away the tears
Set the dream in stone to last a thousand years
Listen to the breezes blow, and watch the silent falling snow
And the memories will know that I was here

I think a lot about us now looking back across the years
How we lived for every hope and dream, never dreaming of the fears we'd face
As time grows short, and colors bleed to white
The hour is upon us to at last give up the fight
I believe I'm going gently…

So bury deep the bones, and wipe away the tears
Set the dream in stone to last a thousand years
Listen to the breezes blow, and watch the silent falling snow
And the memories will know that I was here

Let the dying light remind me
Of the friends I leave behind me
I'll be thinking of you kindly as I leave with no regrets
There's nothing here for you now
Leave me gently, let me go
Tell me once more that you love me
So the memories will know.



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Whispers

Another day that brings a whisper
My ears have been deceived
 A dream that said I miss her
It brings a passion for disease

Screw me, make me helpless
Just kill these thoughts and stay
If only my lies weren’t worthless
She’s a dream and far away

Is it too late for love to help me?
Is love even a truth?
I see my mind has made this clear
There’s nothing now that can get me through

All these people make me angry
Let’s trade some angry pain
Seems deception makes them happy
I hope you choke on your vain

Take out my eyes and kill off my reasons
Kill my anger too
I feel I’m out of season
There’s nothing left that can get me through
Just take back time and let me touch her
I’ll fall into the sun
But soon it’s time to wake up
Soon my dream is done


Details | Lyric | |

TRUE LOVE

I have started to wonder about something about love, about true love.
Is it truly worth all the agony it has to offer?
Is it truly worth all the heart ache and pain?
Is it truly worth the emotional and mental strain it has on one self?
Does it have to be like a roller coaster going up and down to achieve the 
supposed gift's love has to offer?
I have been in love before. It felt amazing feeling all the bliss, the butterflies in 
your belly, the way your body quivers by the sound of their voice, and the 
adrenaline rushing through your body.Your body is on a natural high.
Then when everything starts to calm down, you get comfortable and then...........
{BAMB}the explosion happens, and your face is in the mud.You get up in a daze 
of confusion wondering to yourself, What just happen? What went wrong? You 
don't have any understanding this pain you feel.
Your at a loss not knowing why? Is it worth all this for the glory that love is 
suppose to be? Will we ever truly get that true love that people dream about or is 
it all just a dream that never comes true?


Details | Romanticism | |

Pools of Heaven

When I look you in the eyes, it’s no surprise, that I could never be with you. 
You are so beautiful and I can see it shining through. 
I’ll take a dip in those spinning pools of Heaven, 
then drown from the inside out,
as I allow the truth to settle in. 
You deserve the perfect man. 
Not a sad, confused boy. 
You deserve everything I can never be, 
everything I can only dream of being. 
You are a dream come true,
but if I were to say this to you,
I’d never see you again.


Details | Verse | |

The Gosht Of Her Still Follows

Sit, look back, dream back, remeber,
She reflects back
Through her eyes as a child,
The happy, carefree way of life,
Contrary to her now, lifes heartahces and pains
Years of tears, a heart of stone,
Sit, look back, dream back, remeber,
But the carefree gosht of her still follows.
 
She'll laf, rejoice, and she'll hide,
Her true real feelings deep inside,
Inside shes aching, inside shes breaking
But you'll never know,
For shes found its better to hide,
To keep it all deep down inside,
Sit, look back, dream back, remeber,
But the gosht of her still follows.
 
Wshing, sighing, imagine back then,
A life so easy, where troubles were none,
With dreams and hopes and so much more to come!
But now to her it all seems useless.
She was once happy and full of joy
But shes changed, things changed, she grew, time happend,
Sit, look back, dream back, remeber,
The gosht of her still follows.
  
Behind the mask upon her face,
There lies a broken soul, 
The fire has gone out with the anguish shes sufferd,
Hurtful words of the accusing crowd,
Ring forever in her ears,
She covers her ear, tries to drown them out,
She sits back, tears in eyes, looks back, dreams back, remebers,
Her childhoods gosht still follows

The happiness will always follow her,
Though the pain in her eyes is always evident,
Shes never been able to live life just the same,
For the sadness is there, haunting her for eternity,
Shes helpless as it overtakes, the power of her fight is out, 
And days, turn to weeks, and weeks to years,
Shes locked in this cage of melancholy
She'll just sit back, look back, dream back, and remebers.... 


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It Only Takes A Second

The world around you,
Keeps rushing by,
Somebody could help you,
But yet they don’t try,

You do so much good,
Throughout your day,
But all people notice
Are mistakes that you’ve made,

But yet you hold on,
To the dream you began,
To become a better person,
The best that you can,

But with all of the pain,
The dream slipped away,
People had noticed,
And started to betray,

The truth turns to lies,
And the love turns to hate,
Nobody cared about you,
Until that one December day,

If someone would’ve listened,
To all that was on your mind,
This could’ve been prevented,
If someone just had time,

It took months for this to happen,
All these thoughts were in your head,
But no one knew you existed,
Until they found you dead,

I am not blaming this on anyone else,
For I know it was your fault,
You were the on e who chose this path,
Now all the hope is gone,

But if someone were to open their eyes,
And take a second out of their day,
I’m positive that they’d realize,
That not everything in your life was okay,

But yet they live their isolated lives,
Without a single minute to spare,
And due to everyone’s busy routine,
My best friend is no longer here.


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Dawn

Dawn

 

 

Small in mind

Short in time

Thinking someday I will be someone

 

Dreams pictures in my head

They seem right there

A paradise of images lies

Inside my head

 

Dead the moment they touch my tongue

The page

The world

 

Aging on

The time grows long

No one am I

They rise so high

Doing my dreams with ease

 

No one

I dream to speak

Change the world with words of a speech

To write bring beauty upon the page

Or the stage

 

No one

Not a word slips out

Not an head turned and the insects notice not my words

The song sung deep in my head

Clumsy a brute its only grace the expression of pain

Scraping along the page

 

Not a dream come true

Pictures fade

The moment they're made

The dream gone

Pawn