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Details | I do not know? | |

bloody wrists

I'm sitting on the floor
I'm crying so much more
trying to erase this pain
trying to forget your face
sitting here with the blade in my hand
running so slow blood dripping down
in a deep red color
flowing freely the way i want to feel

I'm sitting on the floor 
holding my hand out
I'm holding a bottle
a bottle filled with pills
I'm crying so hard
the pain is unbearable
I'm feeling so weak 

I'm sitting here on this floor 
holding a blade
crying like crazy
trying to take this pain away
I'm trying my best trying to fight
my eyelids feel heavy
my door is so far
the whispered yells to far
falling deep in to sleep

deep..deep..deep..deep
I'm laying on a bed
I'm so confused 
where am i?
my throat feels sore
my body screams in pain
I'm looking around
I'm in a small white room

i try to move,
my hands are stuck
i try to get up
i feel restraints 
what happened to me?

I'm laying on a bed
trying to get up
my head hurts
a nurse is here
a shot is administered 
i drift to sleep
I'm in the psych ward
why am i here?

I'm lying on a bed
laying so still 
my wrists hurts to no end
I'm crying out loud
screaming and cussing
my body hurts
i can't remember

all i remember are my bloody wrists
and a bottle of pills
all i remember is the pain i was in.....





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Suicide Mind

What makes the decision
To flick the switch
To end ones life
For the sake of it
 
Troubled, debts
Bullied at school
Fork in the road
To let death rule
 
Mums, dads
Daughters and sons
What ever affects them 
They just can't outrun
 
Sadness and tears
By all left behind
Will they ever understand
Suicide Mind


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Her Masterpiece Is Her Story

Her paintbrush is a razor,
Her canvas, her wrists,
"I deserve the pain."
She shrugs and insists.

One day the brush will push down,
And it will cut so deep,
That this girl will fall
into an eternal sleep.

She doesn't remember how she started
What brought her interest to this,
How do you discover,
that cutting is your form of bliss?

No one would have guessed that she does it.
No one would have considered this one.
This girl is forever fighting a battle,
that she thinks the demons have won.

Her artwork is all over her,
Her beauty is on her thighs,
and if you look in her old trash,
you'll find her letters of goodbye.

Her masterpiece is quite disturbing,
Her masterpiece is a little gory,
Her artwork is her escape.
Let me tell you her story.

She compares herself to every person,
She is compared to each girl.
She thinks she's hideous,
And there's this boy that is her world.

She was bullied and picked on,
She was teased from head to toe,
Hard to believe that her best friend,
was her one and only foe.

Then later she disliked every little thing,
Her body, face and even her mind,
Soon she saw she was a failure,
and it was just in due time...

That this girl couldn't take it anymore
She'd decided she was done living this,
So one day she went home
and decided to end it.

Everyday for multiple days,
This girl would try to drown,
Hard to believe this girl at school,
never ever wore a frown.

Sometimes she'd just fall asleep crying,
Praying that she'd be enough,
Because she didn't want to leave her family.
She knew about their sweet love.

This girl found hope in small things eventually,
She soon would see this beautiful light,
and find a REAL best friend,
that helped her put up a fight.

Her masterpiece soon was leaving,
Her artwork was almost faded,
and it gave her a sick feeling,
the feeling of being jaded.

She found a boy that actually loved her,
And showed her love exists,
And this boy too had a masterpiece,
placed close to his wrists.

He related to her and she related to him.
She kissed his artwork and said he's not alone,
When she cut herself it hurt him,
Her masterpiece now wasn't just her own.

Her masterpiece effected others,
Her artwork wasn't just for herself,
She now had people, 
who saw her cries for help.

And then her family found out,
So then they saw the art too,
to them they were just scars,
To her they were the truth.

She's trying to be okay now,
She thinks she might survive,
Even though they didn't think
to take away the knives.


Details | Free verse | |

I got your message

65 minutes reduced to 120 seconds

Bright lit room
White glossy tone with flowery curtains
Upon window's darkened vision

Your radiance emanated in celebratory gesture
As my eyes fell in love
All over again

But your smiles were too bright to see me cry
Dry heaving sadness gasp

As I looked down...I became the great
Pretender

The smile pretender

You wore a dark blue blouse, w/body-fitting jeans
Tall, plus-size model stature
My walking fantasy

Dark brown locks of joy slow danced upon flesh that

I

No longer embraced

You had something to tell me
"I'm getting married to a man who called me, sexy.
We work together in the same building, so everybody knows."

Spanish music behind the scenes
Your witty humor against song
Crackin' my smile within sadness pores

Showing me blank invitations
As I leaned in, inhaling this broken emptiness
Writing out words with her voice
My gentle grin, the eraser

Tears in Cold War mode

Heart enunciating disconnection bliss

"This wasn't how I wanted to see you again"

As satin comforter tries to soften my falling
Falling...into true love's innocence

The same comforter that covered those tracks
Asphalt scarred remnants from the bus you threw me under

"I always wanted you to wake me from my sleep
But not like this"

You became my dream, come true
Becoming dream again
In 120 seconds

...

He may have called you "sexy" with words
But I called you "beautiful" with heart

Yet you will never value how deep it was

Well, at least you can rest assured
That I got your message

© Drake J. Eszes
"True love never dies...even if the recipient never reciprocates." –D.J.E.


Details | Free verse | |

Again, and again

The doubt and anger are here again
No surprise, my new friend
Believed I could keep it all away
Now it’s about to steal me away
Come steal me away. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Hearts are craters, deep as wells
Fill them up and hold on well
Sand and mud, the liquid seeps
Dirty tears and sorrows creep
Creep in to swallow me. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Told you, I told you. Remember I did?
This time it was raw, nothing I hid
Unacceptable loathing and regret
Nothing to explain, at least not yet
You will see though. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Consuming distraction, love that I know
It’s dying already with no place to go
You won’t agree and you won’t see
It will never be enough for me
You will hate me so. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts that I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Let me go, for I am already gone
I’m sorry to make you believe this long
Hopeless rage, directed at you
Walls constructed to block the view
But you will still want me. Again, and again.

I can’t change the parts I hate, and I’ll never be happy again. Again


Details | I do not know? | |

Sweet Nothings

I miss when I could just curl up and cry within your arms,
I have someone else who I can do that with now,
But still I miss when your arms felt right around me,
My heart still crys, at whats broken and missing,
There once was this connection, this bond between us two,
I dont know what happened to it, why this feels so different, do you?
And though I love this other, my heart still loves you too,
Dont ask me who I love more, because my answer might not be true,
I love you both, with all my heart, you've just hurt me more,
But still the dreams sometimes seep in between the cracks of our closed door,
And still I see myself, again within your arms, 
Only this time, I would be there, forever and ever more,
Love, can you tell me, what happened to us then? 
Why is it that when I touch you, you feel like less even then a friend,
My heart says yes, it wants you, but my body rejects yours like a plague,
My lips dont whisper sweet nothings with yours~ within the years hidden in the days,..


Details | I do not know? | |

Sweet Nothings

I miss when I could just curl up and cry within your arms,
I have someone else who I can do that with now,
But still I miss when your arms felt right around me,
My heart still crys, at whats broken and missing,
There once was this connection, this bond between us two,
I dont know what happened to it, why this feels so different, do you?
And though I love this other, my heart still loves you too,
Dont ask me who I love more, because my answer might not be true,
I love you both, with all my heart, you've just hurt me more,
But still the dreams sometimes seep in between the cracks of our closed door,
And still I see myself, again within your arms, 
Only this time, I would be there, forever and ever more,
Love, can you tell me, what happened to us then? 
Why is it that when I touch you, you feel like less even then a friend,
My heart says yes, it wants you, but my body rejects yours like a plague,
My lips dont whisper sweet nothings with yours~ within the years hidden in the days,..


Details | Free verse | |

I fell in like with you

Inspired by one of my favorite bands, Rise Against, and the song is called,
“Ever-changing” (Acoustic). Please listen to this song if you don’t know of it. It’s raw &
powerful.

“Have you ever been a part of something? That you thought would never end. But then, of
course, it did.” –Rise Against

“I fell in ‘Like’ with you”

With her smile
I melted unto oblivion’s redemption
Candy coated perceptions, windows’ gap
Seeping brilliance refreshment

Uncertainty resolution, polished
Absorbed into closeness sun
Yet these eyes still…see
Butterflies taking notice, missing you…as you stood in front of me

Strong, yet soft legs
Foundation of my face to rest upon
Scars…fading
A cremated sin 

Yet, elongated moments of silence
Created abruption’s new face

The face of change
When she turned to me and said
“I’m not sure, anymore”

Emotional lullaby, rocking me to sleep
New battles with spectral flashback
Trying to get under my skin, a drunken tick facing demise

Phoenix’s sunrise, rejuvenating my recycled defenses
Yet, today, these rays just aren’t bright enough to burn sadness away

And with these sounds of storm clouds & Fall on horizon’s breath
These grounds are so familiar, yet bittersweet
This heart doesn’t want to be enlightened by karma today

It wants to be held for how it shines now

Denied…distance wins again today
Slavery whipped punishments in miles and blocks
This must end

Because I try to keep lines open to get a call from you
Yet all I hear are booty calls with busy signals

And yet something has kept me here too long
But can they leave me, if I’m already gone?

Something has kept me here too long
Karma’s laughter

But, through it all, I will shine

…

How I wish my mere presence can bring joy’s tear to her eye

Sadly though, now, the lines are drawn
Yet I wonder if this feeling is gone
Have the best parts of this…come and gone?

…

Maybe I’ll never know the truth

Perhaps she was misguided by jealousy’s deprivation
Deteriorating heart’s splendor

While I fell in “like” with her

Perhaps “Better Man 2.0” appeared from Cloud 9’s fallacy

While I fell in “like” with her

Perhaps
She held onto the past

As I, drawn to waterfall’s edge
Allowed myself

To let go…and F
A
L
L

© Drake J. Eszes
“We adore those who hurt us. Yet, we hurt those who adore us.” -Anonymous


Details | Rhyme | |

The Love Letter

Dear lover, and soulmate, and friend, How I hold you so close to my heart; If your love for me ever should end, My soul should refuse to take part. Should your mind overpower emotion, And you flood all my sunshine with rain; I'll still send you my truth, and devotion, While my love and best wishes remain. The flow of this pen be the truth, Like an elegant flow of the river; Though denied and rejected such youth, My heart is still sure to deliver. Our miserable love shall fill the distance, Our love has created two holes; Taken apart by social resistance, By those who deny our perfectly fit souls. Such love defined by separation, Without a touch to create a release; Finding my drive in but desperation, Though without you, my love shall not cease. Unless the blood in our hearts have to dry, And mold both our hearts into stone; My heart refraining such love, be a lie, For without you I shall die alone.


Details | Rhyme | |

Love finds a way

Life changes like the seasons
Laughter bubbles, tears flow.
There's a quiet look as the mind reasons
to let the sorrow go.

Colors change as hearts do,
Flavors seem so rich.
As a new beginning follows through,
The paths to truth have switched.

Thunder rumbled as lightning struck,
Water flooded the ground.
A different storm, life crumbled.
I watched as it tumbled down.

But now to rebuild with new parts,
Tears provide the mortar.
One fourth respect, One half love
With laughter as the other quarter.

I'll cry tears for all the pain,
But it lessens everyday,
And life has taught to put trust in fate,
And love will find a way.


Details | Alliteration | |

My Worst Christmas Ever

Snow falls around us 
as we hug for the last time
Niether of us let go
Our first Christmas apart
since you met my parents
I feel as if holding on forever
could possibly prevent the end
As I look into your eyes
You brush a tear from my cheek
"I'll always love you," you say to me
As we kiss for the final time
I remember all the time spent talking when we met
Knowing you was enough back then
I never thought I would lose you
We finally let go
You brush back my hair and said not to cry
As you walked to your mom's car
it felt as if I died inside
You climbed in and closed the door
and we waved our final goodbye



Details | Free verse | |

Carbon Monoxide (CO) Week 2: Carbon Cabrona

Smokeless inhales hurt.
I cough tar on my shirt.
As my black lungs breathe,
Shrilling exhales wheeze.

Cabrona
Falls me
Down to
My knees.

The nicotine cracks
My will.
My composure
Spills.

I want 
This.
I must 
Have this.

I sink
Into
The brink
Of madness.


Details | Free verse | |

Careless

I slept
full of hope and dreams
I awoke 
empty and forgotten
Careless as I was back then

Morning sounds
swirling in my ears
Pointless thoughts
filling my head

"She can."
but will she ever again
"She is."
though no longer for me

I stood
alone and stiff
I walked
slow and without purpose
Careless as I was back then

The smell of spring
mingled with sunshine
as the touch of day
warmed me no more

"I was."
but I threw it all away
"I did." 
though I do not know why

I hoped
for a day without me
I cried
where no one could see
Careless as I was back then

Was this longing
joyless and caretaking
awaiting its chance
to bring me home again

Or was I lost
forever here like a wounded angel
Despaired and angry
the evening came again

Without warning
Without love
Without consumption
Without her

"In her arms,"
I wondered as the sun slipped away
"would I feel whole again?"
my hurt had wasted another day

I laid down
empty and forgotten
I slept 
full of hope and dreams
Careless as I was back then


Details | I do not know? | |

before you came along

Before you came along
 everything was going all wrong
 i didn't know what to do 
but that was before i knew i needed you

 i would walk down the streets all alone 
going every where but home
 
before you came along
 
i would turn my face to the sky 
wishing i could tell this world a quick  goodbye 

before you came along
 
i would fall down 
so far down i had to look up
 to see the ground 

but before i could shed another tear
 you were here 
 holding me in your arms

you had finally come along
 just in time to help me be strong
 
i love u
 
now u are ready to go
 i did something, 
what,
 i guess ill never know
 this has all played out like a bad song
 because now your going
 going
 going
 GONE :(
 




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How Can We Hurt The Ones We Love

How Can We Hurt The Ones We Love?

How can we hurt the very ones that we love?
How can we easily neglect our God above?

It seems like I often heard about many victims
Many times, it’s from a loved one who’s been with them!

The hate and the anger that boils from deep within.
Often “boils over” toward our family and friends.

It’s the love of Christ that we need to find!
His love can totally cleanse our life and mind!

The hearts of many families are bruised and broken.
By the harshness of many of the words spoken.

If we would allow Jesus to rule and reign.
We’d have little reason to murmur or complain.

If we would yield our lives to the master’s will…
The emptiness and brokenness, he shall fulfill!

If we could allow ourselves to sit at Jesus’ feet…
He can make any family totally complete!

If we could just listen to what Christ has to say.
His words of life would brighten our day!

As a family…  Won’t you give HIM a chance?
And allow his love to change your circumstance!

Won’t you allow his spirit to bind you together?
You can experience his peace today and forever!

He can change your family throughout!
This is his will and what God is all about!

By Jim Pemberton


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Unsettled

My eyes grow heavy,
Yet I can't sleep,
My soul feels weighted,
But I can't weep

I dream on
Without the hope I need
I need to talk
Yet my tongue's not freed

I clutch my pillow,
I cling to the thought
Of how we met,
And why we fought

It all seems so silly now,
And I wonder why
We could let this stand
And let love die

Pure "saving face"
Holds me back,
Especially since
Your verbal attack

Being a person,
No easy thing,
You've left your nest
And the protection of
Your mother's wing

Should i call?
Or hold out?
Be the weak one?
Or stand and shout?

Oh, Lord, please guide me
Let me know
The way to be...

I roll over in bed again,
And turn on the light,
But light doesn't help.
I have no sight...

Indecision means inaction
I start to groan,
To lose your love,
A fear greatly grown

Turn off the light,
Again to bed
In many ways,
Wishing I was dead.


Details | Free verse | |

Why do I bother ?

                             Why do I bother waking up
                            when everydays the same 
                              life has no purpose
                             while we are estranged
                              
                            Why do I bother going to sleep 
                            when all I have is nightmares
                                 
                             Why do I bother breathing 
                        when  I just end up gasping for air
                       
                              Why do I bother eating
                               when all I want is you
                              
                               Why do I bother bathing
                             When everything feels so dirty
                                   
                         Why do I bother talking
                       when I just feel like screaming

                              Why do I bother living 
                             When i feel like im dying
                              

                                By,Jessica Bowie
                        


Details | I do not know? | |

princess in a tower

far far away 
lives a girl with nothing left to 
say

tears tumble down her pale 
white cheeks
but they're  are all getting used 
to it
because she has been crying 
for weeks

she only wanted one thing
it was a small diamond ring

the ring was to set on her 
finger 
and by her side
 a man to linger

her world soon proved
it wasnt so great 
for they cast away 
her one and only true soul 
mate

their love was one that would 
last
for forever
but now because of them
it would last for never

oh the pain!
 how it never changes
but stays the same
 
she feels so lost
 in a world so framiliar  
she turns round and round
on this cold life less land

she wants to scream 
and she wants to shout
 but she she is haunted by that 
shadow of dout 

so she cries
and slowly kisses old happy 
dreams 
goodbye


Details | ABC | |

A Yearn for a Smile 9-21-11

	A yearn… simply something that you want or long for. As a yearn to finish, a yearn to achieve, a yearn for a like, a yearn for a smile is something that you drastically want, a desire. Something that you spend long hours, nights even day dreaming hours thinking about how you can earn that smile. What can you do…. or what can you say … things such as a conversation sparks, likes even dislikes, mostly anything that will crack a smile. These are things that truly show signs of something far greater than fame, sex, money, power. What is it? Something more than I have yet to find. So as I search for the answer I over shoot the entrance with rapid thinking of what she wants, her likes, her dislikes. But truly it will only be earned by who you are, what you want to be, yourself, your feelings your desires, your yearn. So when you yearn for that smile or that special something it can only be earned by being you, no one else. Take a look at yourself in the mirror and try to see past the makeup or tan or piercing and just look at yourself… then take that image and imprint it to yourself forever because to find happiness and your yearn  can only be earned one way. Trying to watch her and she how she reacts to certain things just to make myself seem better when I finally open my mouth to her will only make you distant from that special someone.  With me I personally see myself as buff pierced orange person, while trying to continue to follow the people who I look up to the most. So as you struggle and go through life’s trials and tribulations always look at your yearn or what it once it what was. Think about how you felt when you failed or succeeded and try to make yourself a better person from it. Not by adding more glamour or appeal to yourself but by being closer to yourself. What you really are. Because only then can you truly say you earned your yearn of a smile or that special someone, even if there not with you, apart of them will be and that’s the part they left. The part that made you better. More complete. 			So never forget your yearn of her..


Details | Couplet | |

I'm Sorry Part 1

I'm sorry that I'm always sad, 
That I do things to make you mad.

I'm sorry that I've lost my hope,
I'm sorry for the ways I cope.

I'm sorry that I bring you down,
I'm sorry that I make you frown.

I swear to God that you must believe,
I love you more than you can see.

I'm sorry that my heart is dying,
I swear to you that I've been trying.

I'm sorry that I cannot see,
much future left in front of me.

I'm sorry that I'm so depressed,
I realy know that I'm a mess.

Writing this note's made me see,
Just how much hurt I've made you grieve.

I'm so disgusted with myself,
I'm so damn bad for your good health.

I know that It's hard to admit,
I've made this such a long hard trip.

I feel like I have ruined your heart,
Like I have torn you all apart.

I have a question for you dear,
And, yes, your answere I do fear.

You said that you missed her big picture,
When you saw, you changed your fixture.

For your sake, love, please look at mine,
Before your heart's put on the line.

I'm sorry that I'm so impatient,
I'm just afraid life's not worth waiting.

I really don't want you to leave,
I want for us to both believe.

I want to once again find hope,
But it will be hard on my own.

But then again if I'm too much,
I don't want to kill all your love.


Details | Couplet | |

I'm Sorry Part 2

I'm sorry for the ways I fight,
I'm sorry that I dim your light.

I'm sorry I'm so negative,
That I am so competative.

I'm sorry that I'm so outrageous,
I'm sorry my hurt's so contagious.

I don't want to see your heart eache,
Cuz when I do my heart it breaks.

I'm sorry that I'm not so strong,
But you inspire my hearts song.

I'm not alone cuz now I see,
Your light that's shining just for me.

I'm sorry that I'm up and down,
But, Dear, You win the patience crown.

My love for you's so strong, please see,
A fire burns for you in in me.

I know that It's hard to believe,
But God will help us, just you see.


Details | Free verse | |

Did you not Notice?

Did you not notice I was slippin,
                       cause you didnt catch my fall.
                        Did you not notice I had fallin 
                             cause you didnt help me up...
                                 so I stayed there for awhile.
                                 Did you not notice I was drowning,
                                   cause you didnt offer me your hand....
                                 so I sank to the bottom.
                               Did you not notice  I was dying,
                             cause you didnt try to revive me.
                            Did you not notice I was Dead,
                         Cause you werent at my Funeral.
                       Did you not notice I was in Hell,
                    When i would haunt you with my soul caught on fire...
                                   and you didnt put out the flames.
                           ... And im just Wondering how did you not notice?
                                                

                        By.Jessica Bowie


Details | Free verse | |

steph

I can’t help but thinking of you.
don’t have to say a word just want to be with you,
I look at you, you make me smile. 
friends think I’m crazy, all I think is WOW,
I look at you, chills run down my spine,
always thought you were beautiful and fine,
life has changed since I saw you,
which makes me want to be with you, 
looking at you is more than a dream come true,
words can’t explain of how I feel about you.


Details | Blank verse | |

Love Song

Here’s what I’m thinking now 
at the end of the world: 

There are no atheists in foxholes— 
no theists in politics. 
If knowledge is power, 
and power corrupts, 
then why did I bother reading you, Cicero? 

Does it matter that I didn't’t love you? 
Would it have mattered if I did? 

There’s a poetry reading tonight 
whence I’I'll chide other poets 
who don’t sit alone. 
I won’t bring up death 
but I might have to breathe, 
even into a mike 
and mouth lines to get a snap or a boo 
maybe even a wince or two. 

Just maybe I’I'll talk about love 
and how following your heart is like following a dog— 
it only leads to vittles and (female dogs). 
But how many times have I used that line 
since the story I wrote about you, 
a witty and sexy and fictional you? 
Most likely I’I'll read something tonight about you. 

I won’t recite it from memory 
because I don’t think about you that much anymore, 
not even when I search for my socks in your drawer 
or when I put on the scratchy sweaters you give me, 
horizontally striped to bring out my eyes? 

I don’t remember your eyes 
except they are blue. 
And I don’t remember you, 
not even when I smell cucumber and apple, 
not even when I sleep on my side of the bed 
or when you walk through the door 
happy to see me; 
even then I don’t remember you. 
Does it matter that I don’t love you? 
Would it have mattered if I did? 

How about a few one-liners 
for the end of days?— 

Depression is self-awareness, 
which you’d know if you were; 
I need Ritalin to listen to you, 
Lithium to hug you, 
Viagra to feel you, 
and Valium to sleep. 

All you need 
is me standing there, waiting at home 
with turns of phrase and word plays 
telling you about why I hate Ayn Rand 
but want to buy as much as I can 
and how I love celebrity gossip 
and detest poetry slams 
and find rhyming trite 
except when I am. 

Hypocrites can still be right, 
which you do understand 
because you nod at my nonsense 
about fighting the man. 

But now, at the end of all things— 
I’m speechless and witless and pointlessly well-read, 
and you’re just sitting there, smiling 
asking me to pass the bread.


Details | Lyric | |

Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


Details | Rhyme | |

lie to me

tell me now,
you are mine,
love is good,
life is fine,
lie to me,
and stay tonight,
make me feel, 
wrong is right,
tell me how,
we will end,
together forever,
love can't bend,
lie to me,
hold me tight,
lie to me,
and love me tonight.

@};~


Details | Free verse | |

Note to Self:

Don't cry,
It won't do any good.
Stop thinking of him,
The pain will only get worse.
Try not to remember,
You'll only hurt more.
Don't think of the way your hand fit into his perfectly,
Don't remember the way his eyes twinkled when he was happy.
Forget how he would get angry at whoever made you cry,
Forget his awesome smile, his warm hugs.
Shy away from his name,
Push him into the depths of your mind.
Move on, stop wallowing in self-pity.
It's not like you were going to be together forever.
Even if you thought you would be
Just forget all the days you spent together,
The amazing dates you had not so long ago.
Face it; he's not coming back.
Stand up straight, and walk forward.
Be brave.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

That Which Is Real

Oh to be just a friend
To laugh, joke and play with you
Is not something
I know how to do
Oh how I wish it were
For it’d sure eliminate
All this pain I feel
Sometimes it happens
That starting off fun
Turns into something real
And what was meant to make you laugh
Turns into tears
That seem to take
Life’s  breath away
Leaving you to feel
Like there’s so much left to say
If only this, if only that
If I only could, if you only would
So many tricks of the mind
As we try to find
Justification for holding on
To what should be freed
So we can move on
Yet we hold out hope
In each accidental hello
That tides will turn
Though they have long washed away
It’s just the way of life
And how love burns
Until we learn
The difference in what we feel
And that which is real


Details | Free verse | |

-Bittersweet-

I was naive to believe you'd always love me
Living in my dreams until you stabbed me with reality
Your dagger's still lodged in my heart
Every now and again, for your amusement
your words twist it ever so slowly
Tear's of blood trickle down my breast
Pain is unbearable, leaving me immobile and screwed
Turning my mind bitter and mean
You were nothing but a dream
A fantasy that I thought I could hold onto
For a split second, I let emotions take over
Spinning me in every direction
Should of awoken before my life had no meaning
With no one to love me, and no one that cared
We both know now I'll never be what you need.


Details | Free verse | |

Losing You

Liquid tears
fallen rain
down my face
emotional droplets
caressing skin
bittersweet hearts
cracked in half
drowning passions
in a sea of blue
floating away
stranded feelings
oceans streaming
soaking sand
dissolving dreams
crushing hope
into pieces
of losing you.


Details | Rhyme | |

Come Back

I sit here waiting, watching,
Wondering when you'll come back,
Wondering what I did wrong,
and what is it that I lack?

Was it something I had done,
That made you go away?
Was it something I did?
What did I say?

I sit here loving every memory,
And everything you gave to me.
Your words, your love, your touch,
I loved you so much.

Now your gone,
Where? I cannot see.
I sit here waiting, watching,
For when you come back to me.


Details | Bio | |

Explanation Long Overdue

I know it matters little, 
At this time, I am sure,
But I've always felt,
I owed you,
A reason why,
We did not endure...

As I approach,
The final destination,
I've unfinished chores,
I must amend,
And I guess
It's up to each
Of us to tend...

It may sound insane,
In fact, I think it is...
I was feeling too much in love,
Something had to give...
All I'm sure of,
Is this, I do swear...
It was never a question...
Of if I did care...
All I'm sure of, that is,
Whoever followed me,
The luck was his...

I felt I was losing control,
Felt jealous and insecure,
Withdrew into a defensive caccoon,
But there's even more...

I knew I blew my chance
With the most beautiful girl 
I ever had,
One who shared my love,
And to this day I'm sad...

I did what I'm good at,
I ran away and hid,
My life was forever changed,
The dumbest thing I ever did...

I know it sounds insane,
And I'm sure that this is true,
But one thing I can swear,
I never ever,
Stopped loving you.


Details | Bio | |

Just Once More

Just one more time
to lay next to you
to feel your love
and know it's true

Arms encircling
the one I so love
To kiss your lips
Like paradise above

To be alive once more
And not in this vegetative state
To feel one last passion
With the one I so adore

But like a wasted stamp
On a letter long unsent
Within words I hoped would show
My love is truely eternal
There is no way I'd go

But somehow,
Like a misdirected letter
Our plans, they ran aground
My dreams so deep, so shattered
To miss the one I'd found

So, in a coma
of numbed pain
I live
and often wonder why
I see now only darkness
Where others see blue sky

I look at your old pictures
Read old letters that you sent
My heart does start to ache
To where and why you went

Where you are, I often wonder
And cry myself to sleep
I only hope you realize
Just how my love was deep

I hope that you are happy
Fulfilled, with all you crave
I'll carry this heavy love
Into my final grave.


Details | Blank verse | |

When We Were We

When We were We it was just me and you. But then We became an Us. You 
added someone else to the picture. A picture that I didn't agree to take. When we 
were We everything was good. But I did something wrong, or I didn't love you like 
you thought I should. When We were We I loved you with all my heart. But We 
now being an Us the place where you once sat is empty and dark. When We 
were We I thought that forever we'd stay that way, But I should have remembered 
that We were now an Us and thought some other way. When We were We 
nothing could make me not smile, but Us being an Us my smile is always a 
frown. We were we but now you and her are a ya'll. We were We but now you and 
her are a them. We were We but I wasn't comfortable with being an US. We were 
we, but were is in the past. We were We, I wonder if she knew We were an US? 
And if she knew that We were nolonger a We and We were an Us I'll make her a 
Was.


Details | Free verse | |

Hand Me A Drink

   Hand me a drink and pass me one more........

Let me pass out before you leave with that whore!
Dont tell me her name or where she comes from.
Don't wake me when you'r night out is done.

   Hand me a drink and pass me one more...........

Please don't wake me when you close the door.
Don't come home wearing that other girls scent.
Don't be upset when you hear me vent.

   Hand me a drink and pass me one more.............

Make sure I'm dressed warm before I hit the floor.
When you awake and I'm no longer their,
just know I left because you treated me unfair.

   I asked for a drink and I asked for one more............

So I could kill my pain and forever shut the door.
The door I shut lies beneath the ground.
and when you miss me, its because true love you had found.
When you visit that forever shut door.........

   You'll ask for a drink and you'll ask for one more!!!!!


Details | Rhyme | |

OPPOSITE SEX

      OPPOSITE  SEX

Every morning I wake and gaze my lover in her face
Her eyes are close so tight
I wonder who she is dreaming of
Maybe in her sleep is the only place she forgives me.

In a bit, she will awake
Walking towards the shower
Her fresh smile in the morning is fake
I can smell her odor,  like a flower.

How could I do this to you?
I know you are hurting everyday
With all the things I did to you
Thank you for not walking away.

Seeing as you get dressed in front of me
With a body so nice leaving me aroused
Afraid of you going your own way
Every time I see you leave with an open blouse

The harder I try to make it better
You gain authority  over me
Holding you near in the cold weather
You push me away when you remember

You are the best thing that ever happens to me 
How could I be so dumb with my stupidity

May be one day you will forgive 
Without you I realize I cannot live
My days go by me very slow
The love for me, you no longer show

Lying by your side where you rest
You turn away before I turn off the light
I want to touch you with a nice soft caress
You say you are tired just about every night
I kiss your neck to see if you respond 
You give me the cold shoulder as if we just had a fight
I touch your curves with my fingertips
Still, you do not give into my lips.

I beg you please do not make me wither away
You say you have nothing to say
Regretting what I did everyday

I am still deeply in love with you,
Without you I do not know what to do!!!

 =====Opposite Sex=====
                 


Details | Rhyme | |

Let Him Go

This poem I wrote. I call it " Let Him Go "

Sweetheart don't cry
Don't let him make you feel like your nothing
You do have family even though we are not close by
I know your heart is crushing
Don't harp on the past
Don't let him play with your head
You need to get over him fast
His feelings for you are dead
Over 2 years and you still don't have a ring
Your not the one he calls his wifey to be no more
Take a seat and listen up girl here is the thing
He's playing with your feelings and using you like a two dollar whore
I know you were smart once and can be again
He has you so brain washed it's not funny
I know hearing all this is a strain
Think of the example your setting for you little ones honey
Hold your head high and walk away from that loser mama's boy 
Show him that your the one that is too good for his sorry ass
Hell he's such a mama's boy you can find better pleasure in a toy
Your related to me so come on show your sass 
Let go of the past and look to a new future
Let go of the pain and the control freak
Say bye bye Looser
It will get easier one step at a time week by week......


Details | Free verse | |

If I Had The Guts

I know i have kept a lot from you.
I know its not fair. 
I know i should tell you.
I know i have to tell you.

Maybe i can tell you some, but not all.
Maybe i can keep it secret just a little longer.
Maybe i can hide it from you more.
Maybe i can get the guts to tell you everything.

Everyday, i wanna tell you.
Everyday, i hope i get the guts to tell you.
Everyday, i feel bad for not telling you.
Everyday i think about you.

Sometimes, i dont want to tell you.
Sometimes, i just want you to know it all.
Sometimes, i wish i never knew you.
Sometimes, i wish you were all mine.

If i had the guts, i would tell you everything.
If i had the guts, i would tell you how much you mean to me.
If i had the guts, i would tell you your the only reason im alive.
If i had the guts, i would tell you my biggest secret.

Just knowing that i love you.
Just knowing that you may or may not love me back.
Just knowing that i care.
Just knowing that you probably dont.

Breaks my heart.
Breaks my soul.
Breaks my dreams.
Breaks my life.

If i had you, my life would be complete.
If i had you, my life would be perfect.
If i had you, i would be happy.
If i had you, i wouldnt have to search anymore.

I know i should tell you.
I know its not fair.
I know i have kept a lot from you.
I know i should tell you.

But, i dont have the guts, 
The guts to tell you i love you,
The guts to tell you your the reason im alive,
The guts to tell you,
I need you in my life.


Details | Rhyme | |

Goodbye Stranger

The person I see today
so different from yesterday
Its like it wasn't you
It's like it wasn't me
Its as if this is all new
what happened in the past
not a soul knew.

Life happened so quickly
life happened so fast
my heart was once attached

Now I see you
but its not you
Its like it was a dream
I woke up and you were not what you seemed.
Am I the only one that dreamed this dream?

Now when I see you
when I look in your eyes,
all I can see is lies.
All that I believed to be true
everything I saw in you.
Such lies you spewed to me
how selfish you could be.
The words you spoke to me,
the experiences we shared,
are moments in time,
now unreachable, lost in the past.

I see you as I walk by,
I don't understand how you ever made me cry.
I now realize our relationship was a lie.
But this one fact,  I can not deny,
I wanted to believe this lie.
I wanted you to be true.
I wanted to start anew.
I look back now,
I should not have chosen you.

I have nothing more to say.
Maybe the words you spoke to me
will haunt you with the memory of me.

Goodbye to the person I once knew..
Goodbye to all the thoughts of you.


Details | Lyric | |

This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


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Help Me

HELP ME

When we fight 
I want to run away
But there’s nowhere to go
But down, down, down

Your vicious tongue lashes thru my heart
As you beat me with your soul
And I want to run away 
So far from you and this town, town, town

If I could just tell someone 
I’m just a piece of trash
Would they help me or am I just all alone?
Metal and glass crash. 

I never thought I could hate someone 
Until I met your sadness
Evil never felt so bad. 
You’re driving me too madness

Running, running away from you 
To nowhere lasting
Screaming and nobody hears me 
As my blood pours fasting 

Please save me from this ilk. 
I’m too weak to drink my milk
The time has come and gone my friend
I fear the near is coming to an end…help

Leah
1/30/2013


Details | I do not know? | |

The break up- Footle contest

Cold stares
heart tares


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


Details | Alliteration | |

Cheater's Chair

A destructive dance indeed,
betwixt the two we bleed.
A bellowing, bloody abate,
this stale, seductive state.

Simple, senseless steeds,
jealous fires feed.
Perjuring petty plights,
demons do delight.

A crimson, cheaters chair,
awful angers air.
No trust, truth or taste,
wallowed wantons waste.

Envious, eager eyes,
rejoicing a wrathful rise.
Coveting, careless couth, 
yesteryear's eager  youth.


Details | Ballad | |

London

She called herself London
On that day 
She fell from the sky
Child of apple blossoms
Dancing wildly
Into your mind

The snake that hung from her neck
Bites your hand
Expels you from Eden
Tears into the cool flesh
Of your madness
Posing as reason

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share

Her name was London
Call her London

She called herself London
On that night
She prayed to the moon
Apollo’s lyre
Played darkly
In a portent 
Of your own doom

The hell she hides 
In her soul
Toxic drug you’ll never escape
You crave the milk of her touch
Her strange and dangerous ways

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share  

Her name was London
Call her London

My baby, London
Call her London
My moon-girl, London 
Call her London

I love her, London
Call her London
Forever, London 

I call her London……


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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




Details | Rhyme | |

Thoughts That Grow Louder

With a whispered thought comes a dream
To be above the shame and guilt
Of losing pride in what would seem,
To most, the whole of what we built.

With a quiet thought comes the fear,
And shadows close the doors of reason.
I see racing frames of pictures clear, 
Rendering unbearable deeds of treason.

With that clear thought, I stand corrected-
So much love has come and gone,
But I, alone, must stay connected 
To what I know and where I belong.


Details | Lyric | |

If Only I (Song)

The end was growing closer
I could feel it all around
Before you said it's over
from all the times I let you down
As I lie beside your pillow
It's getting hard to sleep at night
Every single lonely tear knows
That I did not love you right

If only I,
Could turn back time
with the words of a rhyme,
I'd be someone instead of me,
I'd show you something new to see,
Girl I need you in my life,

If only I,
Could live when you were mine,
And learn to let love shine,
I'd show your heart a better me
And be someone instead of me,
To keep you in my life,
If only I....

The last thing that you told me,
Before you walked out of the door,
Baby you never hold me,
How can I make you love me more,
I wish I would have listened
To the thing you tried to say
If I would have paid attention
Maybe then you would have stayed,

If only I,
Could turn back time
with the words of a rhyme,
I'd be someone instead of me,
I'd show you something new to see,
Girl I need you in my life,

If only I,
Could live when you were mine,
And learn to let love shine,
I'd show your heart a better me
And be someone instead of me,
To keep you in my life,

If only I, could have been
what you needed,
Since I hurt you,
our love's bleeding,
Out of time
and out of sight,
If only I could
make this right...

If only I,
Could turn back time,
when you were still mine,
I'd be everything that you need,
And give your heart a better me,
I miss you in my life...
If only I...


Details | Rhyme | |

Angella

O’er this land I roam
Eternally through sorrow
Escaping thy ‘morrow
Seeking thine home

Pocketed tools, head hung low
Stones kicked roll swift
They flee thee as on I go, bereft

Woeful and yes full brimmed regret
Tears nay neither sweat nor dew
I would shed existence for you


Details | I do not know? | |

I'm Sorry For Being So Cold

My words may feel so cold,
Yet this feeling of falling and 
Then trying to be so loving
Eventually misleads me to 
Feeling like she or myself 
Is gradually shoving my feelings 
Through an invisible door.

It's all so not worth 
Letting this sorrow corner me in,
My mind is wondering if I'm truly fine with
Having no one special in my own current life.

My reasons for trying to 
Move onwards from there
Were nothing but idealized dreams
Turning into unpleasant realities. 

Who knew that a few days 
After those euphoric moments
I would be realizing that 
The strings of my heart were pulled
By desires so unnecessary for healing 
My own inner strife.

My words may have been so cold,
But it's only because this sorrow I go through
Will always continue beyond tomorrow.

You don't deserve being 
My eternal object of depression,
Yet you are also even taking it 
All too simply to be the object
Of my true love and affection.

My feelings from loving you 
Were absolutely true,
But I now see I was so wrong 
In believing in my own naïve thoughts.
So fleeting was the beautiful 
Rendering of my soul,
Except that no one knew then 
That it was only a game of pretend.

Wanting my first kiss returned, 
Yet again I guess first can mean the worst,
So I guess I'll find someone 
Who will become my second best.
After telling you I can't love you anymore, 
I now feel as if I can finally rest.

My words were only so cold,
Because something in the depths of my heart
Was calling out to be heard.

In the end though I have released myself
From the bittersweet feelings I gained from 
My voice and feelings that once were forsaken.
I'm sorry for being so cold.


Details | I do not know? | |

Coaster Of Emotions

The man I fell in love with is a man who has more than one side
Sometimes I have too just cross my fingers and strap on for the ride
There are times when he is funny and does nothing but make me giggle
Then there are times when he makes my toes curl and wiggle
There are times he comes home angry and takes it out on me
I try to understand there are going to be times where that’s how it is going to be.
Sometimes he snaps when he is real bored.
That's when I have to be patient and pray to the lord 
I don't think he always sees how much he means to me.
How deep in my heart I know we're meant to be
I know each day with him is like a roller coaster ride
My feelings about him I will not change or hide
Strap in it’s a new day, here we go again. 
Up, up, on top
I can see the world 
Down make it stop
Round the curve, ahh missed that fight
Whew
What days not over yet?
Oh no...
Ok strapped in all set
Hold on tight here comes another turn
Bump bump bump the coaster goes on the track of life
I can feel the anger make my heart and hope burn
All I ever wanted was to be his wife
Up it goes again high high high 
It's now Friday night and we just started another fight
I can hear him sign 
Down its going again
This time I'm holding on with all my might
Coaster of emotions your ride is not fun at all. 
Coaster of emotions you want me to weep in sorrow
Coaster of emotions I will not fall 
I'll stay strapped in and take the ride again tomorrow.


Details | Tanka | |

Bye-Bye

Stay away from me
Our good times have gone away
Cheaters never win
Come on sing me a sad song
So I can laugh, while you cry
Written for: "Tanka"me" a sad song Contest Sponsored by: ~P.D.~ Written by: Carol Brown 6th Place Winner


Details | Free verse | |

The Breakup

Waiting. The minutes groan arduously.
Somehow, perhaps – my heart fails to beat
with the rush of your momentary attention.
Perched precariously on spikes
Flesh colored, yet artificial – 
Manikin fingers, fidgeting.
Mournfully drenched in factious apology.
Our eyes meet briefly, then dart with bashfulness,
Choreographed precisely. 
Words uttered repetitively from wine stained lips 
Fill the tortuous silence – hesitantly.  
Your hollow ghost memory, porous and unsubstantial.

'We can work at this, ' you finally choke
An unfamiliar innocence, grasping -
Your voice childlike in its simplicity.
And for a second, I recognized that old stranger. 
I muster a skeptical nod – and smile limply, dismissively 
Fingering the rim of my glass. 
'And deceive ourselves with promises made before?'
I winced with audacity – impatient of your feeling,
As the words ripped your heart out clean.
You clear your throat in an effort to speak -
Those words never did surface...
My acid tongue, an all too familiar indulgence.

I raise hesitantly, your gaze fixated as I shrink.
A tormenting embrace, clothing saturated in your scent
Sodden with tears unshed.
Humoring your touch with finality – 
An unspoken understanding sneered behind the mask.
Face taunt with incomprehension, as sorrow squeezed out the substance.
I avoid the depths of my black dying heart, defiantly.
Anemic with reluctance – I usher the door
A smiling parody of phantom reminisce -
Poisonous and seductive. 
An enormous tear got away,
As you lay fragile and broken – bereft.


I’m sorry.


Details | Free verse | |

Final Adieu

Final Adieu

Let another sun set,
Let another flower wilt,
Let another autumn cast its gloom,
Let another tear role,
As ye part, and bid
The final adieu.

Suyash Saxena
St. Stephen’s college


Details | Sonnet | |

Loves deadly spell

Together they live happily forever
in a life filled with sorrows and sadness
they will be together, always never
excluded from reality for life

Forever or never they live to cry,
away they will be gone with but a knife
the choice to live happily or to just die
A knife or life, forever or never

a quarrel, a death, leaving one alone
he lies on the ground, a knife in his heart
a plan, a scheme, its never to be known
She says to herself "we must never part"

Now two dead hearts lie, killed with the same knife
Why? Was it love or just a wast of life?


Details | Rhyme | |

Friends With Benefits

Living my life on the Dole*, Because my Mum told me so, Interview at ‘McDonalds’, but that Tyrant told me "No!", See, we're a family with pride, Don't sell fries at super-size, But where's the pride, If I can't provide, For my own style of life, Spent my money from the *Brew, On Irn-Bru**, I swear that’s true, Dreary, damp & cold, This black hole, I call home, Only 'joy' I get in life’s the 'stick' I use for X-BOX, And I aint got a tumble dryer so I step with wet socks, Work-shy, but money-hungry, Flats cramp-sized & pretty ugly, Arrogant guy, Until I woke up and realised that no-one loves me. Brain melts to slush, in this non-testing occasion, ‘Gain Work’ is a must, for a teenage Caucasian, Nothing separating me, From drug-addled Dads of three, No payday, Just giro day, No jobs… great, Keep trying mate, No end in sight as unemployment rises, Government gives you cash like they were handing out prizes, Where’s my reason to go out & work? My motivation, Its pleasing no-one now, this escalated situation, Experience is something that you earn, not that you’re born with, Inexperienced forever, if I don’t get employed quick, I don't enjoy sitting on my broken couch for hours, I'm your Friend with Benefits, can only wash with cold showers. (*Common British phrases for Jobcentre or Jobseekers Allowance Benefit) (**Famous Scottish soft drink mass produced around Britain)


Details | Ballad | |

Rose Hips Lady

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Taste those sweet confessions
On your baby breath
Lift this wounded flag
Into your burning nest

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Tame the roaring tiger
Never lets you rest
Take my last reward 
From your moonlit breasts

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Daddy’s gone hunting 
He’s gone away
Daddy’s gone hunting
Won’t be back for days

Left you with a lover
Makes a shrine 
Of your skin

Left you with a lover
Takes you down
Roads of sin

Left you all alone 
Alone

And the knots cut deep
Through the musk and flesh
Of hot regret
And the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

You release the Beast
From a well that’s wet
You will confess
That the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

Rose hips lady
Aaaaaah......


Details | Light Poetry | |

When I grow old

I will grow old
I tremble in the cold
None to care
I have nothing to fear...

But my love is alive
Though I strive
Beautiful roses to pluck
Yet I am stuck..

I grow old with wrinkle
Yet I will kinker
You will always remain in my mind
This is how you will find...


Details | Narrative | |

The Woman In White

It was a cold and rainy night.
The stars were shining bright.
It seemed as if the world was at a pause and not a person was in sight.
I sat quietly in my car, 
the sound of music I heard blasting from a far.
I opened my door,
stepped out slowly and looked around.
Now suddenly the music stopped,
not a word is heard, not even a sound.
I turned my head, looked over my shoulder,
I saw a woman running.
She was wearing a white gown.
I couldn't help but wonder why this woman running
flaunted such a frown.
I followed her footsteps,
I listened for the sound.
Running through the darkness,
one question came to mind,
Who would leave this woman?
Who would be so heartless?
How can someone leave her when she is so obviously distraught?
Abruptly a sound was heard.
I came to a stop.
I listened closely.
It was a gunshot.
Now fearful I stood.
I began to run as fast as I could.
I ran so fast, I could hear my heart beating.
I came upon my car and noticed a woman bleeding.
She was gasping for air.
Someone had shot her and left her to die there.
It was as if they didn't even care.
She reached for my hand,
whispered softly to me
"never trust a man"
At that moment her hand dropped.
I knew her heart had stopped.
I looked at her white gown now dripping red.
I I cried to myself and pondered what she had said.
This could be me.
I could be lying here dead.
I will remember her words always.
They will haunt me for the rest of my days.
This moment I will never forget.
No man should ever be such a threat.

This was the day my life would change.
From this day on I would never be the same.
The lesson I learned here,
never have such fear.
Fear that will keep me from being free.
I learned that I can be happy just being me.


Details | Rhyme | |

I Hate Aunt Floe

NOTE: This poem is a humoruos stab at PMS from a mans point of view

I can see your blood boiling
through  the blades I once called eyes,
they were once beautiful  like jewels
now they hurt my deep insides.
cutting at my guts
and like a noose on my  lungs;
your words seek like bullets 
your mouth like sniper guns.
I’m hit with each inaccuracy…
Being killed by words untrue;
and you even got the nerve
to tell me what you think I do.
But let me get mad
and try to plead my case;
then suddenly the world
is a f--ked up place.
You got tears running down…
What the Hell did I do?
We were just sitting and laughing
I could swear that we were cool.
Oh God…
Oh no…;
I should have seen it… 
It’s Aunt Floe…,
This battle can’t be won or reasoned
I think its best I go.
Cause I hate Aunt Floe 
and she hate me too;
she sit and talk sh-t
about the gum I chew. 
The color of my shirt…,
She say my look is a stair;
She say my best has no worth
And she doesn’t stop there.
I didn’t change
I’ve been the same 
these 28 days,
 but now I’m f_ckin A__hole 
Aunt Floe gave me that name.  
She said get out my face 
This aint your home no more,
But I’m more puzzled by 
What was said before.
I love you 
With her glossy eyes 
I knew it was true, 
But horribly sly
You see these words
make me the fool.
The one that’s cruel
That a__hole dude,
That sparked the fuel
To this f__kin feud.
But I swear to God
I didn’t start this sh_t,
Why would I give up my love 
To live my life like in a pit.
 This is horrible sh_t 
Wasted days spent,
On nothing but the worst
I could be bathed in your sent. 
You could be laughing 
While I’m smiling
But Aunt Floe Won’t let this be,
And the only way to make this right
Is hold my tongue  a week.
And that ain’t gone happen 
I’m a person too,
Not soft
But I got feelins
and don’t know what  to do.
Now its been six days
Unbelievable  rage,
She locked herself 
In the room
I call it her cage.
I smell a sent in the air
It wasn’t there before,
Now lookin down the hall
I see an open door.
Is this a trap 
I’ll guess I’ll see,
If I fall for another
 You know that’s dumb ass me.
Curled in the bed 
I think I know that girl,
But where’s the hells Aunt Floe
The one that f__ked my world.
She packed up and gone
Didn’t even say good bye,
Just came wit gang of bullsh_t
And vanished in the sky.
Is that you my dear
Can you please come here,
Listen close and crystal clear…
I hate Aunt Floe
 Next time she here
Make sure I’m stocked
with weed and beer.
I love you punk.  ?


Details | Verse | |

Scorn

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Abomination scorn Affection Passion Yearning
Struggle Attempt Cherish Relationship Flame
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I was a woman scorn 
Unknowingly  cherished a relationship
where the flame was no longer existent;
where time flew by in the distance and I missed
everything in my life I intended 
because I was accepting a me that depended
on him
I made an attempt to bamboozle the truth
and convince myself that he wasn’t screwing Kim
Ultimately I faked passion and lustfully feigned for affection
since I’d been betrayed
So, I got down on my knees and  I prayed 
I began yearning for knowledge of my Inner soul
I began to taste freedom and feel whole
The healing began and my consciousness rose - fresh bloom
It was no longer a struggle to end an abomination that would 
prove to be a path of doom


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Confused

Confused

If there were thing's I couldn't understand,you was one of them.
Going back and forth with one another,like the wind and does in the howls 
of winter.You'd follow me to escape your own reality,only not knowing your shattering mine.You tell me to be me there was a time when I was me and you couldn't stand it like it was looking into the eye's of a demon.How should I respond? Running away only brings more then I can offer.
Now I'm drifting and everything left me,I'll suffer the venom of past and the reoccurring pains.
From the tell's of literature to the mounts of the great wars have I been able to tell just from their looks what they thought that very moment but as I look into your eye's does it not only confuse me it refuses to tell me the truth,why am I looking into my own eyes?
Let me touch your face.Let me look into your eye's.Let me see the truth which is clouded and locked away.Let me see your feelings fall from your eye's.
Burned. Chain. Shackled. Scared. Tortured. Entangled with lies.and yet harbors no hate toward anyone then yourself.How much do you loathe yourself? To the point your a sacrificial  offering of your own whim's?
As I search for the truth,I see the many heartbreaks and the lies been told to help but nothing prevails. Yet you look at me looking for the same thing.
We're both confused? We're both in agony? We're the same? 
This isn't right.This is a lie.I don't wish to see anymore.
I won't lose to this,nor bow down and be your toy.Yet when I'm close to you,it never cold.
Hold my hand as I fight with myself. Never mind hold me closer until neither of us is cold.Don't lie to me with those pleading eye's,that are like dark's as coal and beautiful as an onyx.
Let's be ourselves.Let's shut ourselves away from this world.Let's search for our own truth.But if there only fear in your mouth,then there's lies.I shall grab your heart and I will hold it like it was the last gem on earth.So scream,hate,and be gently.
I'm confused.Your confused.I will listen,if you will talk.
Have you ever heard these words before? I never have but I will say them to you,you who has the same pleading eye's as me.When we're so much alike yet so different to the point it confusing.


Details | Rhyme | |

the love we had seemed so far away

i look to stars and wishes flew through space never to be heard again
fun to friends hearts do meld and break facing until time ends
this loop that plays and beats that syncopate become but a gem
pleasure a chest opened in surprise feeling no need to defend
galaxies away lonely planets  please keep me in mind
 distance could grow something fond or lost between the lines
gps my love you can see  its still where I  left it behind
thoughts fade away with life love lives forever in my rhyme

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

without air i couldnt breathe squeezed until I'm passing by
no water flow my skin would dry and I return to the sky
sunny days would blacken out, attracting need for desperate lies
to make up for the beauty lost from death slowly closing my eyes
that fire once sparking motion snuffed in huffs slipping away
dwifting I sway shaky grounds where once I sat easily and stay
upon my feet I still float drowning out all thoughts that stray
Tho these ends can come swift its worse to miss and hear you say

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

down the road,flying free, I ride the wave and hope for your return
through several seas and cloudy peaks, storms of sand, I will not turn
helpless to fate and future events, nothing prevents something to learn
  sights may not sore, nothing much looking more, isn't my concern
I hope the best and happyness is true to bless you, not just in dreams
we can meet when we sleep discussing life while sleeping seems
thanks for trying Im not exactly dying, banes of  sentient beings
real enough moving on is rough, i'll love you forever, writting my means


Details | Ballad | |

Little Black Horse

little black horse, I've seen you around
little black horse, destined to terrorize the town
little black horse, you've seemed to have caught a mare
little black horse, with your long shiny hair

little black horse, why drag that mare around
death so coupled to you that she's destined to drown
fate cruel to her, to make her love
her soul tarnished and beaten, no longer white, and as pure as a dove

little black horse, do you not care at all?
crest fallen and withering, she still heeds your call
little black horse, she will die at your hand
yet her presence to you, just a mere grain of sand 


Details | Ode | |

All I Want is to be With You

All I want is to be with you.
Time beats on, but I miss you no less.
Sadness hits me hard, I want nothing but you.
Life here is so dark, you are my only light.
Forced apart, tearing me apart.
All I want is to be with you.
No smile shows while you're gone.
Only sad eyes and cold stares.
All I want is to be with you.
This life I'm living, so bleak.
In my mind, all I see is you face.
I hear only your voice, feel only your touch.
And I search for your scent.
All I want is to be with you.
Time beats on, but I miss you no less.


Details | Lyric | |

Garden Rose

Written August 21, 2013


There's a girl in the garden
She's messing with your rose bed
Plucking weeds out from your head
And watering the seeds in your bed

But where will she wander
When the roses are dead
Will she come back for more
When they turn back to red

She can run all alone
Write this story in stone
On concrete slabs
Of skin and bone


Details | Alliteration | |

Wasteland of Shame

Bound by blame, broken by blight,
Scarred by a stolen satire,
nuzzling necrophiliacs within the night.

Tangled in torment, tied untamed,
blemished by the blasphemy,
of never speaking your name.

Shackled in sin, shredded sovereignty,
dealing death’s doses,
murdering you and me.

Cuffed with candor, calling our crimes,
to an impetuous enslavement,
tortured through time.

Set me free, to flee this fool’s game,
where we're always left wandering,
in this wasteland of shame.


Details | Lyric | |

One For Excuses Song on CD

Darling, I didn't aim to let you down, or to leave you lonely,
I also have a frown, baby you're not the only,
I meant to hurry home, and didn't mean to take so long,
I didn't realize time had flown, please forgive me if I wrong,                           
          

Honey, I'm not one for excuses,
But I'm so sorry with regret,
And my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet,

I did say I'd be right back, I even called you on the phone,
And my heart didn't cut me any slack, when I heard the busy tone,
Please accept my apology, honey, I haven't lied,
And if you still won't talk to me...well, at least I know I've tried,

And I'm not one for excuses,
But I'm so sorry with regret,
And my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet,

Darling, I didn't aim to let you down, or to leave you lonely,
I also have a frown, baby you're not the only,
I meant to hurry home, and didn't mean to take so long,
I didn't realize time had flown, please forgive me if I'm wrong,

No, I'm not one for excuses,
but I'm so sorry with regret,
And my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet,
Yes, my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet.


Details | Free verse | |

Hidden Treasure

Hidden Treasure
Hidden, locked away
A last resort
A compromise
When your well has gone dry
You search endlessly for me
Certain that my presence 
Always awaits your lonely soul
Underneath your dreamscape 
Here I remain
Your reality
I will be your mirror
When delusions are before you
For you I bear this cross
Because my heart beats for you

Just a memory to you so often
Your buried treasure lies here
Waiting to be discovered


 

©  2008 Courtney Dyer


Details | Rhyme | |

The Abuse

He knocks her to the floor, In the night, her blood bleeds black She starts heading for the door, But then he begs her to come back She's in ecstacy, then pain, This has happened times before She's addicted to his game, So she comes on back for more He whispers sorry in her ear, And prays she'll say okay He's always scared that she'll give up, But she always says she'll stay She kisses him, and holds him tight, She knows she'll never leave She tells him it'll be alright, As her heart goes on to bleed


Details | Personification | |

DISTANCE

Sometimes I still use a cordless house phone. 
When I call her I imagine her wrapping an invisible cord around her finger 
as if she were only walking slowly the opposite direction as the cord stretched further. 
When she talks she says she likes to feel her voice as it runs away from me. She says that she wants me to believe distance is just a myth our minds created. When she held me I was a last box on a moving van. I was stretched out like piano wire waiting for a hammer to knock the breath back into me. Her hands forced me upward like keys pounding harmony. 

She is the hottest day of summer telling me to wake up and find water and her bed is an oasis. 
Our clothes scattered a mosaic across the paint spotted carpet. 
We read to each other from the bookshelf on the corner. 
The one that sagged in the middle until all its shelves were smiling, ready to laugh loose their stories. 
The morning she left the half-closed shades left cords of sunlight stretching across her chest 
and I traced them but there were highways, and she the smallest country. 
When she calls me she traces her breath as it spirals like a hurricane to the wall and bounces between cities. Her voice is strangled with 350 miles of telephone lines. 
The clothes we dressed our floors with for months have been stripped away. 
The room is naked now and the bookshelf, half empty. When I think of that house 
she is the only thing I can remember. Everything else fades, the room disappears entirely and I remember only having lived inside her. Home is where the heart is. 

The first astronomers who looked up there had to have discovered sparkling new words about how far two things can be. We build telescopes to force everything closer. 
I have built myself a telescope with bed posts and bathroom mirrors. 
On warm nights I climb to the top of my room and look west where the world curves her away from me. I know now why the myth of a flat earth existed for so long. 
It is not a story of people afraid of falling but of people terrified of growing apart, 
reading that if you stare hard enough at the horizon, you’ll be able to find anyone who is left you. But “listen” she says. The blind man on my block had his cataracts removed. 
He told me when he looked out his window for the first time he couldn’t understand why his hand was larger than the houses across the road. 
He couldn’t grasp how things look smaller at a distance so close your eyes. 
Stop looking for me in satellites fading below the skyline. Let us make this world flat again. 
I am always right here. 
This continent is just our kitchen table. 
These highways piano strings. 
The same note ringing resonating between us.
God keeps our sight stronger with eyes that we will never see by looking in a mirror.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Wine and Dine

Wining and dining,
Dancing and prancing
Hoping I'll score,
My money I'm chancing...

Desperate for love,
A body warm
All my sensualities
Begin to swarm

Peck on the cheek,
My $100 prize
I stood there still,
With glazed eyes

Inside she rushed,
With ne're a word,
I stood still on the stoop,
Like a highschool nerd

Was it my hair?
My breath?
My looks?
Does she see
My hands as hooks?

Home I went,
Head hung low,
Well, at least,
Now I know...

No vanity
Do I see...
Worthy of...
Overcoming me.


Details | Rhyme | |

A Hole in the Universe

There’s a hole in the Universe
And I can see it from 
My 
Hearse

Driving to the graveyard 
For one final look

While the mourners 
Take photos
Filling an entire 
Facebook

There’s a hole in the Universe
And I can see it from
My 
Noose

Wrapped round my head
For one final jerk

Because I sent you 
Away
And it really
Hurts

But I won’t say a thing
Not a single peep
From a  man 
Made of stone
And the blood of a
Beast

Sing me one last melody
In that way you did
In a La La so sweet
La La La
La La La
My sweet

Sing me one last dirge
For the body 
You once held
In a La La so sweet
La La La
La La La
My sweet

You see

There’s a hole in the Universe
And I  can see it from
My
Place

Where the sky meets
The fire

Roasting hopes upon  
A pyre

And leaves me 

Wanting

One last
Touch

One last
Kiss 

One last
La La

So sweet

A taste of  perfect heaven

The complete Universe

I once found 

In

Your 

Baby Face.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Controlling Men: Physically, Mentally, and Verbally Abusive Men

All men (the loser boyfriends/husbands) think that it's their right to be physically, mentally, and verbally abusive toward their female companions (girlfriends/wives), well they're wrong. Most guys are always beating their girlfriends/wives up every single day just because they didn't make their men dinner, do chores around the house, or whatever. It seems that these womanizing losers are way better than their women. Actually, they're not; they're idiots. Controlling these women and being physically, mentally, and verbally abusive toward them don't make these Neanderthals men; they're like childish cowards. All guys think that they're the only breadwinners in their families and the women aren't. But guess what--they're not; some of them don't have jobs. And does anyone knows what gets on my nerves? Men always cheating on their girlfriends/wives with other women, getting them pregnant, and not taking care of the children they already have. And those controlling, abusive men, they're always telling their female spouses/lovers what to do, what to eat, where to look, and who to talk to. I mean, who are these womanizing losers to judge other men and to boss these women around? I mean, who does that? Everybody doesn't even know why they'd bother spending the rest of their lives with those abusive idiots. This whole saying by these controlling abusive men have been getting on everybody's nerves and my nerves, as well: "You're-not-to-speak-unless-spoken-to," this "You're-not-to-talk-to-your-family" ordeal, this whole "You're-not-to-have-guy-friends," and this whole "You need me! You're nothing without me! You have no money! You have no friends! Everything's in my name: the house, the cars, clothes, everything I own! You're useless! You're worthless! I own you for life! And you will respect me!" Where I come from, the rest of us nicer guys, we treat our women with the respect they rightfully deserve. The last time I checked, the mothers have raised their sons to treat women and other people with respect, but they now know where they've gone wrong with those womanizing clowns. My suggestion for the women is for them to leave their abusive husbands/boyfriends before it's too late because if they don't, they'll end up in the hospital or the morgue. To be honest, these women, they never should've met, let alone dated or married those abusive men to begin with. And if these abusive men think that they can control those women forever, they've got another coming.


Details | Carpe Diem | |

Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Til The Well Runs Dry

I could never argue that it all failed.
Finding where we fell.
Seeing the bottom of this pit,
Knowing
With what we have left
It's the last drop of water in the well.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Wilting Girl

Petals wilting, one by one, Falling where they may Still burning with insanity, And pain that's here to stay Petals falling, one by one, In the hands of strong desire Burning in a heart of passion, Only filled with fire Petals falling, one by one, Floating down with empty bliss It's too late to bring their color back, So say goodbye with one last kiss Petals falling, one by one, With only hate, and pain If only there had been more sun, If only there had been less rain


Details | Free verse | |

Empty

And when I learned that you died
How can I describe
The empty
Empty
Empty

You were my boxer in the night
Sparred with you 
About every aspect of
Life

My secret tonic
Made everything
Feel alright
Got me through it all
All the frustrations
Disappointments of 
Life

And when I learned that you died
How can I describe
The empty
Empty
Empty

We called each other friend
Even when
Our bodies came together
That single
Lunatic
Moment

That single 
Lunatic
Time

And it felt so 
Full
You made me feel
Full
How can I describe 
The full
Full
Full

My life was full
When you laughed
It felt so full even
When you 
Cried

The times I was mean

And my body left
Your body
After 
That single
Lunatic 
Time

And so we pretended 
We were just
Friends
In the end
We pretended
Then

And now you’re 
Gone

And I can barely speak
Or write 
I can barely write
A 
Single
Meaningful
Poetic
Word

And there’s a quiet room
In my mind
Where your laughter
Once
Played
My innocent child
Woman
Gone 
Away

How can I describe
The Empty
Empty 
Empty

How can I describe
The empty
Empty
Empty

How can I describe
The
Way
I
Feel?


Details | Sonnet | |

Eternal

My love, what shall you leave me with tonight? What words are there to mend my broken heart? Will our love be repaired with morning light, Oh, or will nightfall be our last depart? My darling, sha'nt I leave you without this, My eternal promise of love to you How could you pull apart this final kiss? Don't let such love fade, whilst such lovely hue So, before you give your final goodbye, And your anger and hate bury your love Remember what wishes, and dreams, will die And the future that we had spoken of So, I'll remind you with my final breath, My eternal love is as strong as death


Details | Light Poetry | |

A Change in His Love

Is my love for him still there?
What is it as time goes by?

Is it a flame thats being constantly ignited,
  Every minute? Every second? Every mili-second?

Or is it just a flame thats burning away the wax of the candle,
  Soon to be vanquished with nothing but smoke that is to disappear,
    As well, into the atmosphere?

Love...Love is what i feel...

But as each day passes i am saddened more and more.
A mask is what i wear to hide the pain, the depression, the despair.

I once was a rose,
  full of beauty and life.
Now im withering,
  And slowly dying inside.

How could the love of my life
  Choose another man?

A deep shock to others it may be,
  But i knew what his choice was from the very beginning.


Details | Rhyme | |

A LOST MEMORY

You became my best friend, someone I would never ignore.
I know I was selfish, but I wanted more.
She became the one I wanted, and the one I got.
She definitely became the one who showed me love,
And taught me the past should be forgot.
To me she is a memory,
I do sometimes wonder if she remembers’ me.
Constantly she said you loved me I knew she lied,
I could see the fear in her eyes.
I’m letting the pain out,
With out any doubts.
I have to hurry up and let it go,
Before this pain consumes me and I lose control.
When she is around I have to wait a while,
See she doesn’t know but I have to force a smile.
I’ve moved on, so did you.
It’s scary to know you love me too.
Sure I could find someone else so I did not always feel so alone.
But they could never be you I would never feel like I am home.


This poem is for those people who can’t move on…..


Details | Canzone | |

Flowers

Flowers

Love is like a flower
It needs room to grow
kept in a pot of soil
to watch over, has nowhere to go
It stems become lifeless
petals scatter and no longer vibrant
A boquet it will never blom into
I wish I never met you
Can't believe I let you
Suck the life right out of me.

k*


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DECEPTION

Hand in hand and
Eyes to eyes,
Promises unending
As if from the heart,
Pregnancy struck
Then hand out of hand
And eyes apart from eyes
Leaving the girl in stark anguish...


BY: CHARLES MELODY (LIGHTNING INK).


Details | Lyric | |

Piece of my Past

walking along the beach today,
i saw you,
you looked at me, then slowly 
walked away,
you had told me that you were 
different from the last,
but you turned out to be 
just a piece of my past,
you really know how to make 
me hurt,
was it love? 'cause im no expert,
i thought it was, at the time,
but now lookin back,
you were never mine.


Details | Narrative | |

What I want to Say

How is it that I feel this way?
I don’t even know what kind of feeling it is
But I know it’s not a good one
I can’t even begin to tell you
Because I can’t even explain it myself
All I think about it you
I start to get these thoughts
They won’t go away
I wonder if you feel this way too
Like something’s missing
I re-read your texts to reassure myself
We lay on the bed in silence 
 I desperately want stories and laughs
I feel physically connected
But not mentally connected
day after day I’m the one puts in the time
Goes out of my way to make sure you’re ok
Why doesn’t it bounce back my way
Arnt I the one you said I meant the world to you
Then why don’t you show it
Im the girl that needs to be shown that what you say is true
That’s all I ask
This to me doesn’t seem like a big task


Details | Rhyme | |

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry for the times I made you cry
I'm sorry for the times I didn't take the time out to understand what you were 
feeling inside
I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me
I'm sorry i didn't  care about anyone but me
I'm sorry I didn't see how much you loved me
I'm sorry I wasn't the girlfriend you wished I'll be
I'm sorry I didn't listen when you said you'll always love me
I'm sorry that my took me away from you
I'm sorry I acted like a baby when things ain't go my way
I'm sorry that I caused you pain
I'm sorry that I didn't give you your way
I'm sorry that I made a fool out of you
I'm sorry that i didn't know you was suffering 
I'm sorry that I hurted you
I'm sorry that I losted you
I'm sorry that were through
I'm sorry that I'm no longer apart of you
I'm sorry that I've changed
I'm sorry that i lefted you this way
Only if you knew how I felt inside you'll know that I always wanted to apoligze



Details | Lyric | |

Mirrorred Refrain-GOD GAVE US LOVE FREELY

Smell the spring aroma and 
let it delight all your senses...
don't the softest roses bloom
on windless, sunniest days?


Let my slow fingers caress your lustrous hair,
feel the pleasant warmth of a lovely afternoon;
on windless, sunniest days...
don't the softest roses bloom?


Only the truest lovers can set the white moon ablaze,
as the passing stars shed more light on their faces;
don't the softest roses bloom
on windless, sunniest days?


God gave us love freely as the air we breath;
humans have turned it into lust and doom...
on windless, sunniest days
don't the softest roses bloom?

Entered in Jared Pickett's contest,"Mirrored Refrain"


Details | Quatrain | |

First

Haunted by your memory,
You're in my thoughts and dreams,
They say you never forget your first,
There's truth to that it seems


Details | Imagism | |

Withered Sentiments

The petals rains on me,
Smothering the blemishes on my skin.
An idyllic red bleeds to a crimson shade,
And my heart feels it once more,
Withered by my sentiments.


In the midst of reds and yellows,
Hands held out in a field of shadows.
Swirling in the echoes of a laughter,
Running away,
Chasing for the scent of a rose.


They said a prayer would stop the pricking,
Should I choose to hold on to a rose.
To embrace a memory made of thorns,
To linger on the pathway of forlorn,
And enjoy the moment of my fall.


But, a piano starts to resound in the heart,
And a tone of darkness blends in with the lies.
Its taunting melody sings of him,
While his memory turned its back on me,
The withering rose starts to cry alone.


What’s left of me is lost in you,
But I can’t find you.


Details | Rhyme | |

Slumber

How he sleeps in the corners of darkness, . . In the welcoming sorts in my mind; Will he sleep until the blood flow halts, And the secrets I've kept must unwind? For he stirs in the bit of what's conscious, Though hiding in what sha'nt awake . . How long will he keep my sorrows comp'ny, How long 'til my walls of stone break? These 'mares have woke me from slumber, And smothered my dreams full of peace; No matter how quiet he sleeps in my head, My heart still refuses release


Details | I do not know? | |

foRbiDdeN aFfaiR .?

gut renching sorow
a passionate touch
embracing eyes
unknowing guilt 
matters not 
already taken 
for it matters not 
forbidden outside these white walls
spoken only through eye contact
secrets roam about 
through my shouting eyes 
inhumane embraces
speechless actions 
sweat druns down your back
tears down myy cheeks
our bodies meet
as do our lips
.. .ahh this forbidden affair .


Details | I do not know? | |

I'm Tired Of It All

I'm tired of the lies,
I'm tired of the deceit,
I'm tired of the rumors,
I'm tired of it all.

I'm tired of the pain,
I'm tired of all the heartaches,
I'm tired of the break-ups,
I'm tired of it all.

I'm tired of the hatred,
I'm tired of the sadness,
I'm tired of the anger,
I'm tired of it all.

I wish everything was perfect.
I wish everyone could get along.
I wish all the negative things in the world could be tossed away.
I wish, I wish, I wish...but this is reality, and here...NOTHING is perfect.


Details | Blank verse | |

When I'm Without You

The bed feels lonelier when thee is not lying with me.
I lay here in agony, longing to hold thy body.

The room feels emptier when you're not home.
I pace around in here all alone, waiting for you.

The life I live feels sadder when I am without you,
I pray we'll be together for at least whatever seems to be forever.


Details | Free verse | |

We Were Drunk Once

Movies played but seldom watched
As we entangled on the couch
Intoxicated by each other, we drank wine to clear our heads
Things were simple in those times

You were red-eyed and freshly mangled
I wanted so badly to make you smile and forget her
For a time I think I succeeded 
We were blissful in our distraction
Playing grown up as we discovered each other

Long nights where sleeping was forsaken
We preferred to lie intertwined 
Talking 
Smiling
Laughing
The sun would rise and you would leave, reveling in how the hours had escaped us
Smiling at the pink tinged sky
Only to repeat the process nightly

Then we traded places
I am the red-eyed one, and another tries to help me forget you
Sometimes he succeeds
Perspective feels like a cruel joke
Could have
Would have
Should have

Someday he will have red eyes too
A cycle perpetuated


Details | Rhyme | |

Buried love

He is sleeping in my bed unsuspecting,
As I sneak out the back door again.
I stalk across the dimly lit garden,
Stricken with guilt, remorse, heart-piercing pain.
 
Even during blissful moments in his arms,
Your face flickers in the reflection in his eyes.
I close mine only to see your face again,
In the blackness, dark as night skies.
 
How can I be happy with someone else,
When thoughts of you haunt me, asleep or awake?
How can I smile up at him,
When its your features I'm trying to remake?
 
Even though he makes me happy,
Its nothing compared to the joy you brought me.
I start the car and stare at the lucky charm,
Remembering when you said, my happiness it will guarantee.
 
I guess it never did work,
Because now I'm sitting in this empty car,
Wondering how things could have gone this wrong,
When we had promised stay together upon a solitary star.
 
I'm driving down the familiar road,
Wishing an accident would take away this pain.
Better a quick unfortunate incident,
Than a slow death, plagued by guilt, going a little insane.
 
Walking through the wrought iron gates,
I cant help remembering the many times I've sneaked out.
Each time I reach the graveled path,
If you're worth the trouble, I doubt.
 
But I cant help stalking out the house,
You've become my obsession, my pilgrimage.
Praying silently he never finds about you,
For I'm sure he'll have me put in a cage.
 
I feel the steady calm rising as I near you,
Your voice is in the wind, the rustle of the leaves.
I can hear my heart beat in my ears,
I move to your headstone among the other graves.
 
As usual I trace the engraved heart,
Let a few tears slip and lie down on your cover.
Wishing the block of marble between would disappear and so,
For the last time I could see my sunshine, my one true lover.
 
- Miliya Parveen


Details | I do not know? | |

poems

poems of love 
poems of hate 
closing doors
 and clicking gates 

Gates of white 
Gates of blue
 all beg for something new
 
something new
  something old
 something saying lets be bold 

i  know you
 and i know something you 
would like to do 

 so take my hand 
and lets leave behind the seas
 and the sand
 
 fly to a new beginning 
leave all these people we watch 
sinning
 


Details | Quatrain | |

Fallen Victim

I have fallen victim so many times
To nobody's fault except only mine.
I will ask for forgiveness and have faith,
Even though I feel like I am not saved.


Details | Lay | |

Winds of a Changing Way

	I see darkness; coldness; an abyss. I feel cold; lonely; and fear. I know not of how I am able to change my current course in the sea of indifference. My oars are but a shell of the person I used to be. My boat is a hollowed out soul. The fear I feel is irrational, but it’s my truth. My anchor is the pain of my anguished self. The water I float on is the tears that I can’t cry and hold within. My destination is unknown but not worth the trip. My navigation equipment is the smile of yours that I will never be able to obtain.
	Does the course make the person or does the person make the course? Will we ever know until we get there? Is the pain of life worth the trip?  When does one know when the trip is even over? When we die? Is it before our death? Is it after our death? Does it even matter? Why do we make impossible plans for our future, when our present needs the most tending? How can I allow one person dictate how I choose to course my voyage? Not anymore.
	I tried to hold on to you with whatever strength I had. I don’t have the strength any longer. Now you are nothing more than debris in the river I am forging. Your opinion is like a drop of water in the midst of the ocean I have taken my voyage on. The tides are lower everyday because I no longer cry over you. There is nothing left for me to do, but to ride on my present course, and to find my true inner self. My course has been changed. My navigation set anew. Now my course shall be whatever I choose. No longer will it be what I think you would have me choose. Never again, will you be my tugboat. I am my own ship now!


Details | Rhyme | |

No-one Ever Stays For Long

Fragile joy suddenly smashed,
Shock predictable attack,
Little fragments raining down,
Cutting at me deeper now,
All of you are just the same,
How much more can one heart take?
Straining underneath the lies,
One more way to make me cry,
Disappointment yet again,
Just give up and let you play,
Let me down and tear me up,
Use me 'til you've had enough,
Pass me round, then forget me,
Just the same. You'll regret me.

No-one ever stays for long.
No-one ever stays for long.


Details | I do not know? | |

The Broken Puzzle Piece

Your strength was my weakness

Your heart was like my home

Your love was mine to keep

But now I'm so alone

I thought this was for the best

Atleast that's what you said

My heart just seems so broken

Its almost like I'm dead

I've gotten so lost and confused

I feel kind of twisted and abused

It's like my feelings are a letter left unread

You would'nt take the time

You said you didn't care

But throughout it all I was still there

I guess it's time to let go

I guess it's something we will never know

The words left unsaid will be kept with us until we're dead

Heres my last goodbye

I cannot stick around while you watch my heart die.


Details | I do not know? | |

For Men Everywhere One Billion Rising

1 Billion Rising.

For Men Everywhere.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

Stop!

Stop the abuse!

Of grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Listen!

Listen to the voices!

Of grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Think!

Think of how you treat,

grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Act!

Act now to change yourself!

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when you stop,

the violence,
the abuse,
the rape.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

is perpetrated by,

grand-fathers,
colleagues,
boyfriends,
husbands,
nephews,
brothers,
partners,
fathers,
uncles,

men,

all men.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when us men stop,

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

today, now.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!


Details | Free verse | |

Masquerade

You saunter through the double doors
Head held high
Chest puffed out
Putting on airs
You think you’re so clever, so deceiving
Showing up baring the most ornate mask
But I see right through
The mask that you wear tonight
You think it will conceal
You think just tonight
In this hour
You can be somebody else
But you’re dancing with the Belle of the Ball
This is MY Masquerade
And this is the 147th event
You just don’t recognize me
Because I wear a different mask each time
Your mask is cheap material
Sequins missing, feathers askew 
Such feeble attempts
I smell your bravado
Putrid and reeking, stinking up the air
But I see right through
I’ve donned masks my whole life
That’s why I am the bearer of this sash
That you see around my neck 
“Strongest Person I Know”
But I allow no one to gaze under the mask
Sure I play the Belle oh so well
But if you all saw beneath
Saw WHY I’ve had to wear masks
You’d strip me of my title
You’d rip off my sash
Break the pearls from my neck
You’d run for the door tonight
Quicker than Cinderella at the stroke of midnight
That’s the beauty of a Masquerade
You can pretend to be something you’re not
When one guise becomes worn
When it loses its sparkle
It’s glamour and charm
That first catches your eye
Well it’s quite alright 
Because I have a treasure trove 
BURSTING with masks
Grab another and keep dancing
Twirling the night away
Never skipping a beat
But when the music finally comes to an end
When the door closes and the final guest departs
Empty wine glasses are seen scattered all around
The only sound is the echo of my heels
When the confetti lies lifeless on the floor
That’s when I remove my mask
Exhausted, worn and weary
When I gladly, almost desperately 
Take off my tattered sash 
And throw it beneath my feet
Because I’m not resilient and strong now
I feel weak, frail and reclusive in my realm
That’s when the tears start to brim
That’s when I wish someone else held the title
So stripped and naked
Alone to clean up the mess
Everyone else has left behind
But there’s no one to there to pick up the sash
Just me and the sound of my tears
Echoing as they hit the floor
Almost fearfully I pick up the sash
Dust off the confetti
Smooth out the wrinkles
Before placing it back around my neck
As I throw my shoulders back
Standing taller than ever
Wiping away tears that no one saw
I walk back to my trunk
My trunk of the most decorative
Ornate, obscuring masks
Finding another to wear
As I prepare for the next façade
The next Masquerade 


Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


Details | Free verse | |

Love Thing

She will not say she was Predator.
She knows she was
(She has that throbbing memory to
remind her)
But it's in her intuition,
Her breath (her life)
To be Victim.
Let her play the part.

"It was like a game of chess
Against myself and I;
I won
And thus I lost-

We met by fate
Intertwined by what we loved
The ice gradually cracked and broke
And I wanted his flesh on mine,
His breath on mine
But he wanted me wholeheartedly.
ME!

But I was too torn
I am torn to pieces.

Yet I consented knowing...
Knowing...
I will break everything
So long as I'm broken
And without action,
Without thought,
He was made broken
And now he breaks everything.
A pestilent sick that penetrates.
How was I supposed to know he would grow ill?"

Now nod.
Smile until your jaw cracks,
Else she'll bicker
Til you do.
Don't show signs that you tracked her lie
But show pity...
She doesn't deserve pity
But smile with pity
Pity that the b**** lied to you.

That she deserves.


Details | Rhyme | |

Beautiful------- BLOOD-------- Stain:::::::::::::::::::::::::

Living amongst Hell's battles with little to gain aftermath brings stinging rain as beauty dwells in the blood of the stain


Details | Ballad | |

Corpse Bride

The braeþ of lyf -- I've Learned to fear
Though, ta'en it was, so long sinsyne
I've wroot my song of skreighs
He tore the lyf out of me
In sooth did she speke this to me - Cassandra was she to me
Wistful - I am no bride to be
Wistful - is this soliloquy of skreighs

I cede to thee, deathly colleen 
Though remains - façades of humanity 
Angel kind - wicce of my welkin dreams
Casted by the lote of she
Ta'en the hollow Herefro way - ne'er!
Caught with twain
W'ie or swain

Angel dearest so fair - love does not share
Seemed a crux, when eath is lone
I rose for thee - cede all of thy love to me
Or was this not meant to be
Eros's deceit 
So wistful - corpse bride I remain to be


Details | Free verse | |

Dance in the Rain

There you go again crying in the rain.
You pour your heart out and your tears
fall like raindrops from heaven.
You turn away from this world and
contented yourself with isolation.

The rain became your refuge,
your only friend.

If only you have looked back.

I was there crying with you in the rain,
the sole witness of the tears you have shed.
The one who's dying to reach you within
those walls you have built around you.

There I go again running in the rain.
For this heart constantly cries and goes to
the past that was us,
And memories became my only friend in isolation.

The rain hid my tears,
And I pretended to enjoy the droplets hitting my face.

If only you have reached for my hand.

I was just there patiently waiting,
For you to see, to feel
that I'm crying for us.

But then,
the rain may have been too loud,
for you to hear the sound of my tears
falling in the ground.


Details | Rhyme | |

What The

Being afraid of me is your cage
Nobody expected my rage

With my actions so unclear
The meanings are not here

I've only to regain again
What is lost now and then

Not to be more unclear
I hope to meet again dear

This I trust must not last
Or we could be a thing of the past

Come away and pull me home
I never really meant to roam

Still your my one true hope in life
Being more than this loving strife 

Being afraid of me is your cage
Nobody could expect my rage


Details | Light Poetry | |

The Stranger

Broken tears is where it all begins, the love has lifted for now a mist in the air. Tears fall upon and evaporate into love fog. Yours eyes became cold lacking compassion, unresponsive with those shallow stares. Stranger in your heart never knew the love we shared shall ever fall apart. Never would have I thought I would be an absence of your heart. To take a journey into your scorned mind, and really see how your feeling inside. Your eyes tells me a story of all your lost, even all of your lies. Your soul has begun to die. Yours cry suffer to inflict pain and torture. Tears began to burn and endure to enflame your pillows at night, intense dislike. No one is there to kiss, and hold tight behold your over night burial site. Leaveing you in a slumber your heart is slaughtered, savagely murdered. Yearning to once again become a slave, owned by another. Laughter is what you miss, going through withdraw from my kiss. Watching me from doorways is harder to resists. Remember me? It's the stranger you set a side, but now miss. Broken bliss pitiful, pathetic promises. Petty pleasures emptiness whispers, words that leaves blisters. Cutting deeper than any scissors. Tears over flowing deeper than any river. Symbolism repesentation of broken mirrors. Termination limits of love, I perish from existence. French kisses of death, hollow sunken indented last breath. Losing your voice likely to result in defeat, as you couldn't began to speak. Grief over becomes you difficulty, grasping for a glimpse of me. Shattered love we mastered, you discover no longer your partner. Forever thee foreigner you disclaimer... So therefore you became... The Stranger.


Details | I do not know? | |

I still miss you

Visions stolen,
Heart beat raised
You still touch me,
In the castle in the air

I don’t want to miss you,
Truth is, I still do
The smile, those eyes,
I still miss you..

The path has forked
The world has split
Memories tainted,
I still miss you

I yearn for a rendezvous
To reminisce the cold touch
The twinkle, the chuckle,
I still miss you

Cries of laughter,
Strength of bond,
The waiting seconds,
I still miss you

Time does not reverse
The road unveils beautifully
But, some are unforgettable
And, I, still miss you…


Details | I do not know? | |

Grim Reaper

The pain is deep
The cuts are deeper
I cant wait till my visit
From the Grim Reaper.
My time will be soon
I just wanna be gone
Away from this all
He'll get me at the crack of dawn.
No one will cry
No one will fret
No one will care
Thats what i bet.
Im misunderstood
Can i just leave now
Things would be better off
Iv lived longer than i allow.
I will leave with him 
Dont worry when im gone
I know you wont anyway
I was just the worlds pawn.
He is here now
I have taken his hand
We are on our way to forever gone
I was never a demand.
You all will forget me
Dont try to deny it
I was barely anything to you all
So i wont throw a fit.
This is my final good-bye
Im almost forgotten
I knew it wouldnt be long
But my love will never be rotten.
Only one person cared so much
I have just hurt him
I forever will love him
His life may turn grim.
Im trying to run back to him
The Grim Reaper wont let me go
I dont wanna hurt my love
But im already in the flow.
Ill break these chains
I love him so
The last thing i wanna do is hurt him
I dont want him to let me go.
Now its far to late
He has let me go
But not deep in his heart
He will forever love me that i know.
I have made a mistake in leaving
I took his hand far to soon
I left my love alone on that world
I will always look at him from the moon.


Details | Verse | |

Through A Prison Glass

You came unexpectedly, and i was surprised,
you smiled and placed your hand on the glass and cried.
I leaned my head against the glass and told you i am sorry,
i whisper through the phone line, ill start a new story.

You knew i was innocent but you still didn't believe me,
the only person i thought that would stay by my side but you couldn't be. 
Mom standing by your side and not wanting to talk,
i got really upset that you came at all cause i didn't want to see you walk. 

I needed you, when i was in need,
i was there for you when ever you didn't want to bleed.
I loved you and i cherished you with all my heart,
but before you left your words hit me like a really sharp dart.

You said i failed you,
you cried to me and i knew it was true.
But i needed you to understand me,
but you went your way and upset me.

The glass is now empty and i cant find you even with the fact that I'm out,
i tell you i love you but all you do is shout. 
I've lost you for good this time, 
so i think i have to do one more crime. 


Details | ABC | |

Love dont pass me by

Love don't paas me by because i'm sweet as honey freash as a
lily and i bloom just like a rose.
When you look into my eyes you can see the truth be told deep
within my soul.
Sweet love don't pass me by on this lonely night i cry.
I am as gentel as a feather i am as an angel who is always ther for 
you to protect and comfort you,
i am as the sun that shines after a stormy day,
i am a rainbow of luck that'll make your days so swell.
Sweet love dont pass me by when i am here for you: rather you are rich
or poor, rather you are right or wrong ,rather you doubt me
or beleive me, just don't use me or abuse cause what I say is real and 
true... true unto my heart and soul.
Sweet love don't pass me by on this lonely night i gaze into the moon and the 
glisten stars that shines so bright in the mid-night sky
hoping and praying that this love we share just 
don't pass me by.


Details | McWhirtle | |

This Valentine's Day

What happened to you?
You used to be so sweet.
The one and only guy,
My eyes would ever meet.

You were my man,
Once upon a time.
Giving me flowers,
And sweet valentines.

Now all I know,
Is you deserted me.
Won’t look me in the eyes,
And talk right on key.

You’ve become so cruel,
And I loved you so.
So this Valentines Day,
I’ll try to let you go.

From deep in my heart,
and deep in my brain.
All the memories we shared,
Will forever remain.

That I cant forget
My love is too strong
So this Valentines Day
I’ll try to move on.


Details | Rhyme | |

Clever

You always were so clever in how you lived your life,
How you joked and laughed and smiled, and how you dealt with strife,
You had the perfect answer when the time was right,
And you always found a way to win every single fight.
You always were so clever but you missed the biggest part.
You think that life is nothing more than showing that you're smart,
When really life is all about being loved forever.
And now that you are alone I bet you don"t feel so clever.


Details | Romanticism | |

Asphyxiation

        As the golden rays of sunlight creep into my bedroom window,
I hold my tears back, yearning for just a few more hours to hold you.
	Time has grown to be my nemesis, my curse,
For I realize that when the sun ascends into the heavens, I descend into the pits of hell. 
	As I give in to your embrace and caress your tender caramel skin,
I dream of time coming to a standstill, where eternity is our safe haven.
	For now though I must press my lips against yours and say my farewells,
Slowly walking away, gazing back as you depart, I begin to call out to you. 
	Don’t abandon me, let us travel the world, and discover things
 We never dreamed of, and grow old together.
	However you can’t hear me say these absurd things, and I begin to asphyxiate,
I lust for the sensation of your touch, and I yearn for the echo of your voice.
	Patience, I tell myself, in due time we will be as we should,
And when that time comes we shall watch the sun rise every morning and I will breathe
effortlessly.


Details | I do not know? | |

Can't Be Friends

Before, while, and after I said goodbye
I couldn't help but sit there and cry.
I cried on and off for 7 hours and slept one
Woke up and cried again, I still wasn't even done.

Two more hours…wake up again.
Every so often a tear falls in the open.
I literally feel an aching pain in my chest
Thinking of how I lost you, wanting to forget.

I'm feeling sick and I still haven't ate.
I want you…my thoughts aren't straight.
Mane, almost every tweet...is about you
And almost every thought…is about who?

Someone who could have been playing me
Or showing me where my desires could lead.
I wanted to tell you everything, I wanted to say more,
There wasn't enough time and now my broken heart's feeling so sore.

I just wanna be alone and listen to this depressing song,
I can't get you out of my head... it hurts. Is that wrong?
I understand that I may be foolish wasting my time hurting over you.
But in all honesty my dear, I really wanted us to be something too. 


Details | I do not know? | |

Lost love but I want u back

Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.


Details | I do not know? | |

You're my EVERYTHING

           This is not my WORLD.

           You're my WORLD.

           You're my EVERYTHING.

           You're the FLOWERS, the GRASS, 

           You're my THOUGHTS,

           You're my EVERYTHING.
            
           This is not my WORLD.
           You're my WORLD.
                     
          So now.....
                be part of my.....
                                    LOVE.



                  *please comment if you don't mind, i'd really like to know your thoughts (fav poem if you like)*
                                                  
                                                            -Angel4eva23


Details | Free verse | |

The Princess Knife

Sorry I hurt so much
its all for you.
Ive got a little bone inside me
that breaks everytime...

I need to be sheltered like you
in love
in love

Im just not that girl
Im standing here reading aloud
with a little too much panic
and a little too less glow.

Im never gonna be her
but she shakes up the cage im in.
But she wont take me home 
shes only here to cleanse my wounds.

Sorry that the bitter taste fills me in, like a balloon.
You have got to slowly come at me, cause you know Im feral still.
And after all this time
and after all this time.
in love 
in love

I dont like you in his arms
all broken-wings and shooting sadness.
But I wont have you any other way.
Im just looking on and peeking in
and I listen for my newest pseudonym.

I need to be sheltered like you
in love
in love

I need to be sheltered
in love

I need to be 
in love

I need love.


Details | Ballad | |

Without You (Song)

Daylight fade,
Burning through my eyes,
She walked out of my life
Again, I'm feeling low,
One more time girl here we go,
Now I'm falling, a final time,
Wish the sunlight didn't shine

It's getting critical
But girl I just can't help it,
I'm feeling miserable
Without you I'm so helpless,
I can't even sleep
Don't want to be, without you,
It's getting hard to breathe,
There is no me, without you,

And baby I try and try
to let you go,
The more I fight,
The more I know,
There's nothing in this life,
I want to do,
Without you,

Passing days,
I try to ease my mind,
I want make it this time,
because, she's really gone,
Lying here I'm all alone,
with nothing, to comfort me,
I'm hanging on to memories,

It's getting critical
But girl I just can't help it,
I'm feeling miserable
Without you I'm so helpless,
I can't even sleep
Don't want to be, without you,
It's getting hard to breathe,
There is no me, without you,


And baby I try and try
to let you go,
The more I fight,
The more I know,
There's nothing in this life,
I want to do,
Without you,

It's getting critical,
Girl I just can't help it,

There's nothing
in this life,
I want to do,
Without you


Details | I do not know? | |

You hurt me but I still love you

You hurt me but why do I still love you? You two timed me and it hurts to see you go. How do I trust you? How can I love you any more? You left when I gave up on us but then you came crawling back what do I do or say I love you or I hate you? What do you expect me to say to you that I'm gonna take back and say its ok? No I can't do that. You lied to me and cheated thank before you cheat next time.


Details | Lyric | |

I'll Stand By You

To my best friend, JAM… I know you’re tired and your soul is weary; twenty three hours 
Of each day you’re alone and in that cell. But be strong and know that you’re really not alone
If you could only look at it, this way..alone, away from the others, you are safe..away from
Deeper trouble..soon you’ll be going home.  Although my heart is heavy,
 I am sure your cross is far heavier than mine. I tried to find a song that would tell you that 
you are loved and I chose this  Please read these words to this song, 
“I’ll stand By You” by The Pretenders
Written by HYNDE, CHRISSIE/KELLY, TOMSTEINBERG, William E/
They don’t play it often on radio stations anymore, so I’m posting the lyrics instead.


Oh, why you look so sad, the tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now, and don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through, ‘cause I’ve seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you, you don’t know what to do
Nothing you confess could make me love you less.

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you, won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you’re mad, get mad, don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey there, what you got to hide?
I get angry too, well, I’m a lot like you
When you’re standing at the cross roads
And you don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along, ‘cause even if your’re wrong
I’ll stand by you

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you, won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Even to your darkest hour, and I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you
And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You’re feeling all alone, you’re wandering on your own
I’ll stand by you…………


Details | I do not know? | |

Losing You

Crying over someone who's probably not even missing me.
My poor heart's steady crumbling like an eroded rock in the sea.
Walking around as if you haven't even crossed my mind
As soon as I get alone all this pain just reveals itself, unwinds.

I didn't think I'd lose you like this... I was unprepared.
Things like this? That's why attachment gives me such a scare.
You don't even know how much I'm hurting inside Edmond.
I'm crying again... haven't eaten... barely been sleeping.

So many ways for you to be taken from me, I didn't see this.
I'm so frustrated... I'm so sad... but not at all pissed.
My dad's reasonings are more than reasonable, I'll do as he says,
But I miss waking up to your voice... and those couple lettered texts.






I am so ...sad.


Details | Lyric | |

I Aim (Song)

Staring at shadows,
Squeezing my pillow,
Trying to forget 
you are gone,
Refuse to let go of,
The faint taste of true love,
Your presence
is lingering on,

Since you walked 
away from me
I cannot bear
to see the day,
The waking sunlight
through my window
Takes your
memory away,
 
If I could
see you again
I'd say..
For you,
I Aim,

I aim to be
I aim to see
The day your love
once again belongs to me,
Since you left,
I'm just not the same,
because its for your love
I Aim

The friends 
who still know me
Know
 I'm fading slowly
Baby, I'm not 
doing too well,
Each day 
as I'm waking
For you I'm waiting,
Loving you
 and no one else,

When I, wake up 
in the morning,
All I feel 
is empty space,
Each second 
I spend breathing,
is me thinking
 of your face,

If I could
see you again
I'd say..
For you,
I Aim,

I aim to be
I aim to see
The day your love
once again belongs to me,
Since you left,
I'm just not the same,
because its for your love
I Aim


Details | I do not know? | |

Leave love to the brave

LOVE shoves us into glistening meadows,
Of unimaginable warmth, where ecstasy glows
LOVE also leads us to teary graves,
Of uncontainable darkness, where pain enslaves
So, teenage girls trotting over,
To find the four leaf clover
I say, leave love to the absolute brave
‘cuz, It’s more than just a fluttering rave!


Details | Choka | |

Surrendering Forever

                                        Two hearts surrender
                                      To what can no longer be
                                  A ravaged heart self-deceived

                                        Desire out of breath
                                 Passion’s fever now grows cold
                                    Our words have fallen silent
      
                                       
                                         Grief akin to pain
                                        Surrendering forever
                                    Past the point of no return.

   written by: Lori McClure
       contest : Relationship Break-ups


Details | I do not know? | |

Senorita Sorrow ( Spanish Rain )

Any teardrops that I can borrow?
In those Spanish eyes of yours
In those big brown Spanish eyes
of yours
 
 
Senorita Sorrow
Can you run away with me tomorrow?
We can chase our dreams around
And make love
And start wars
In those Spanish eyes of yours
In those big brown Spanish eyes
of yours
 
You have never lived
It's very hard to explain
I got lost in Senorita Sorrow
somewhere in San Sebastian, Spain
somewhere in her Spanish eyes
somewhere in the Spanish rain
 
We had the time of our lives
But she cried there on the train
She couldn't hold back the pain
She knew there was no tomorrow
My Sweet Senorita Sorrow
As she stepped out into the 
Mid-September Spanish Rain





Details | Rhyme | |

The doll has been collected

The doll has been collected
And she is on the shelf.
Her pure soul is empty
And one can`t hear her breath.

There is a rusty needle
In the doll`s gentle heart.
And this heart`s slowly bleeding.
But nobody sees that.

The doll will keep on smiling,
Her eyes are like bright stars.
She is alive but dying
Because of whom she loves.


Details | I do not know? | |

irresistible FADED memory

My heart is crushed yet is hushed,
I feel rushed, 
Six years was long,
I felt there is something wrong,
When I am with you, I don't feel strong,
Strongly feel things are prolonging.

Promises that you made,
Nothing came along, yet it fade.
Time is wasting into nothing,
Nothing worth while to keep.
We are still in step one,
My veins are popping out of anger,
My head is blowing out of pressure.


The storm has come,
My face is blank with no expressions,
Should I run?Panic?Relax?
Sorrow comes with a flow,
The mistakes that I made it shows.
Scared to face my fear,
Yet is near my dear,
Running without a parachute,
Walking on the clouds,


Not sure where life is taking me?
Curiosity kicks in,
Was all this a a long dream?
I want that dream to be true,
Your multi-personality is suffocating me,
Feeling your unpleasant status,
Makes me not want to be with you,
Question,questioning, questions?
You are unbalancing my weight,
I have always know that you are the one,
Until you ruined everything of my existence, 
With a long distance,
Now you made me unsure,
You are changing in a bad way,
I am scared to love you,
Because I don't recognize you as you.


Details | I do not know? | |

The Storm

Rain falls on the roof
Each drop plays a familiar note
I toss and turn no sleep to be found
The storm rages on

A chill fills the summer air
My body aches with fear and longing
No comfort to be found inside
The storm rages on

Raindrops hit my face
One by one, they awaken my senses
To erase fear, doubt, and sensibility
The storm rages on

Lightning streaks across the sky
I am blind to the dangers ahead
In the flash of light I see only hope
The storm rages on

As fast as it came
The rain starts to fade
I retreat inside my shelter
The storm rages on

My thirst overcomes me
I am consumed by the need
To feel the rain on my face again
The storm rages on

The stars shine like gems
On a cloudless night
I toss and turn no sleep to be found
The storm rages on


Details | Rhyme | |

I Never Was Trying To Play Games

I Never Was Trying To Play Games, though it mite of felt that way. I’m not going to sit here and make an excuse out of what was drug abuse. There is no excuse for me . I couldn’t let it be. Real is real Regardless of what you try an say away. If I told you, You where the most important. Could you plan to be here another day. Would you stand up and walk away from the love you know you can have and hold. All those old cliches, that standout so bold Lets grow old, or lets die together. Lets make this life forever. This real I feel is real relentless. But I am convinced with every fiber of my being . The love that once was so strong Still exist. In hidden Bliss.


Details | I do not know? | |

Was it just all a DREAM?

You feel like your lost in love?
  Me. Many times.

     like when you hear his/her's voice your heart just *skips*
Or when you see them walking towards you....you can't breath.
 When you had your first kiss.  But not their's. but they still thinks it's cute.
Ya'll talk 24/7. Non stop. 
When he/she just stare's into your eyes you feel butterflies EVERYWHERE through your body.

But... when they stop talking to you, you get worried, scared.
 Or when they don't act the same way that they did when ya'll first were together.
  You don't know if its over or not. but you get confused and you can't work up the courge to 
talk to him/her.

                       Was it just all a DREAM? you'll soon find out when you talk to him/her.


*comment if you please. just want to hear your thoughts (or fav poem)* :)

                                                                              -Angel4eva23


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Ex-Best Friends

Two people have broken their friendship ties because of either a disagreement or he or she has found out that his/her boyfriend/girlfriend had an affair with his or her best friend of one too many years. This type of betrayal has taken its toll on all people since day one. It seems that this friendship wasn't enough for him or her, especially when this guy chose this girl over her best friend and this girl has chosen this guy over his best friend. Why these people aren't best of friends anymore is because for one, his girlfriend or her boyfriend cheated on him or her with his or her best friend and for two, they've gotten themselves in a lot of compromised situations. It breaks the hearts of every human being just thinking about it. He or she, of all people, should know that they've been the best of friends since kindergarten and/or elementary school. So now that these people are no longer friends, thereby being "ex-best friends," I guess he or she has no choice but to move on with their lives. These people have broken ties from each other, eventually trying to rebuild them. But even if he or she has betrayed his or her best friend, one should be seriously forgiven for all the misdeeds he or she's done: trying to take his or her girlfriend or boyfriend, leaving him or her hanging, everything. These two people are best friends and they're all they've got. But the sad thing about two people being ex-best friends is that not only are they not talking to each other anymore, they've humiliated each other publicly and personally. So, if that's the way these two people want it and they want to cut off communication with each other, well, then two ex-best friends (guys and girls) have no choice but to wish them the best of luck and hoping that they'd forgive each other in the near future.


Details | I do not know? | |

You Can't Break Me: I'm Already Broken

He burned my life right to the core,
 But its not like i had much left to live for.
Your the only one who can choose this path you've chosen,
 And you can't take back the words that you've already
spoken,
                  You can't break me...
         I'm already broken.
He stuck his knife in my heart,
 So deep,
But it's not like i don't know what it's like to bleed.
 There's nothing to say, 
This is the path I've chosen,
 It's best I don't think,
About what you've already spoken
    
                     You can't break me...
        I'm Already Broken


Details | Free verse | |

I Never Knew

I never knew that you loved me so, 
you never really let me know.  You
always tried to pretend that you were my
love until the end. 

Then one day when you confess to me,
that all I was in your sight was a tiny
little pea.  That you know how much damage
these words did to me.

I never knew you thought so less of me
and now, I know this is the way it will be.
You never told me not once before that 
you were planning on walking out that door.

I never knew you had all these feelings and
emotions about me inside of you, they are
so terrible until I am really afraid of you.
Is this something you planned to do?

I never knew a person can pretend so well
and all along was nothing but hell.  You made
me think that I was alright with you and there
were nothing going wrong because you were
true.  

All of this has been corrupt, now I got a taste
from your bitter cup and it is enough.  Now
my love I never knew that you were the one
I loved so much and yet in still you caused
me so much pain and hurt.


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Ex-Boyfriends and Ex-Girlfriends

Since the men and the women are no longer dating, I guess the relationship is over. All types of break-ups have affected the lives of all would-be ex-lovers since ever. It seems that when the guys and the girls decide to break up, their hearts will have been broken into pieces. And after this bad break up, these people are really depressed, which means that they can’t eat, they can’t sleep, they lose interest in life, and stuff. And what is so sad about the men and the women being ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends is that they’re making fun of each other for no apparent reason or whatever. Why, this is starting to look like the battle of the sexes and World War 2 or 3. I’m told that all serious relationships will have ended in multiple break-ups, especially when a man and/or a woman will have found out that his/her boyfriend/girlfriend has cheated on him/her with another suitor or his/her own family members (male or female cousin, e.g.). On top of all that, it makes everybody sick just thinking about it. Not only have these people (the guys and the gals) have broken each others’ hearts, they’ve humiliated and embarrassed each other publicly and personally. And if these people knew that they we’re going to cheat on each other, then they shouldn’t have been together at all. Looks like the guys and the girls are better off without each other and alone anyway. So now I know why I’m not in a relationship with someone right now. And I have no time to think about getting into a serious relationship with one female. And if all types of break-ups continue to affect the lives of all men and women, there’s no stopping it. Something must be done this instant.


Details | Rhyme | |

It's Something...

The light of my depression,
The joys of my sorrow.
What's coming my way?
I'll know by tomorrow.


Details | Tail-rhyme | |

The First Heartbreak

Meet them once.
They stare at you.
Meet them twice.
They talk to you.
Meet them three times.
They ask for your number.
He texts, he calls.
Every morning, every night.
He says those three little words,
almost all the time:
''I love you".
Does he mean it? Maybe.
Until your best friends,
Burst your bubble.
''He's cheating on you," they say.
But I don't believe them,
Until I see it for myself.
I cried for days on end Never to feel comforted.
Never replied to any texts...
I did the hardest thing ever, 
I broe up with him.
He was lost for a while, 
Not nowing why,
until I told him what I knew.
He was flustered and annoyed,
But was ashamed by what he did,
Yes it is hard,
to get over your first love,
Even harder,
to get over your first heartbreak,
but your friends are there,
through thick and thin,
Supporting you,
Until the very end.
          xxx


Details | Sonnet | |

Unreal

Like roses on a thorn I never knew
 What I thought was beneath and what was there
 I look inside and all I see is you
 And there I found I actually do care
 More than I deserve, you make me feel
 Am I awake? Or is this just a dream?
 Heart Beats, with a tear and my thoughts unreal
 Perhaps this world is more that what it seems;
 I hope someday you'll see what I see
 Away with your pity and no more sighs
 You'll look inside and tomorrow we will fly
 You'll change and the sky will darken its hue
 Whatever you become I will still love you


Details | I do not know? | |

On the line.

I put my heart on the line, 
But you hung up.


Details | Quatrain | |

So Long

We said goodbye two years ago today -
I'll never forget the way I felt that day.
I couldn't breathe when the door closed between us
And your taillights dimmed as you drove away.

I never thought i'd breathe the same again,
As pain took away all my wind -
And i stood there deflated and broken
Refusing to accept the bitter end.

It happened on my best friend's wedding day.
I'll never understand why you did it that way -
I had visions of our wedding as I was standing there
But you ruined that for me and left my heart betrayed.

I never thought i'd get over it, not in a million years.
I cried what seemed a river's worh of tears.
I mourned for you like someone mourns the dead -
It was the realization of all my fears.

But once the salt left my wounds, I realized I was free,
Free from all the emotional torture you gave me.
Free from wondering where you were -
Free from the fragile little girl you made me be.

And I never looked back once you were gone.
I learned how hurt can make you strong,
I learned what a real man should be.
And with that, my old dear lover, so long.


Details | Ballad | |

Time to Add More Love

The world's just not the same
This empire in decline
Roses don't smell as sweet
Only grow half their size

And I say....

Baby, doesn't it make you feel sad inside?

And I say...

Baby, doesn't it make you want to cry?

Let's protect ourselves 
From the coming flood
Won't need no bullets
Just our shield of love

Let's protect ourselves
From the coming storm
Won't need no raincoats
While love keeps us warm

Time to put more wood
On the dying fire
Of hope

Time to add more love
Gonna raise this
Sinking boat

And I say....

Baby, doesn't it make you feel sad inside?

And I say....

Baby doesn't it make you want to cry?

You're all I need
To get through this 
Doom and gloom
Your love for me
And my love for you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Pardon my Insanity

I don’t want freedom. Forgive me for sounding paranoid or crazy.
But this man used me. After knowing my history of pain. 
Now I see why people kill the victims and themselves.
Doing away with all evil its emancipation. 
At my wits end. Where sanity has eaten away my brains.
Where my soul has no resting place. And tears are like acid.
That burns through my cheeks. Pardon my insanity.
For I have fallen too many times. Where getting up is just powerless.
My heart is caged. All the impact and friction it took, For years.
And still it beats. Keeping me alive to face another brutal blow.
Pain so severe. No medicine or words of encouragement
Can put me at peace. Love is inadmissible here.
For I am deceased .

01/17/13

 


Details | Free verse | |

Summer Steam

Thinking back now my dreams are eerily reminiscent
Of every mistake I made in my decent.
Of every joke and priceless muse,
Every smile that she gave me, as her mind I perused.		

I hate summer, it never gave me hope or want,
‘Till she came in, giving me memories that still haunt.
The sight was so familiar, an air of innate grace,
The mix of unrefined Circean beauty, painted so perfectly on her face.

Oh, Wanton lust, adoration unbound,
Betraying my every move, I could never gain ground.
It happened, we happened, the unceasing desire was filled,
But with a single mistaken word of betrayal, my fate was sealed.

Still I wish for it, to take back that un-kept promise,
To return to her, what she readily gave to me, a glimpse of solace.
What takes years of readiness, sometimes a lifetime to find,
I had for just one moment and then left it behind.

This reoccurring dream keeps telling me that I shall never find,
Not one moment of hearts peace, no more placation of mind.







Brokenness 
Contest Judged:  10/24/2012 12:00:00 AM 
~~2nd place~~


Details | Lyric | |

Ferris Wheel

You keep my head spinning around.
You never take my hand anymore.
You always try to bring me down,
and ruin my dreams I have in store.
Guilt is written all over your face.
I'm not sure I really understand.
You're not staying with me another day.
I can find myself a real good man.
Don't keep me riding your ferris wheel.
This heart of mine is hard to heal.
Some things you do just don't seem real.
Don't keep me riding your ferris wheel.
Why do you keep wasting my time?
I'm tired of your little white lies.
Your sad song alliby.
Your messing around withy my mind.
Yeah! The rain is falling down.
But I assure you it won't be my tears hit the ground.
I'll stop the wheel from spinning around.
You'll get what you deserve.
I won't be second best to her.
Don't keep me riding your ferris wheel.
This heart of mine is hard to heal.
Some things you do just don't seem real.
I'm not riding your ferris wheel.


Details | Rhyme | |

Bedtime Story

Mistakes where made and fingers was pointed
Falling from the trees
Hearts was crushed and time was lost
Blowing away with the breeze

Words being said that slowed the time
In its depth we drowned
Our smile crosses its fingers
Hiding our emotions frown

Long forgotten fables and tales of dreams
Spoke till I sleep inside
Potions of sounds musical notes
Brewing what I hide

Chattering leaves confide our secrets
Their season pigment our lips
Entwined together forever 
Drinking in sips

Clashes of tides fill our cup
Running over with forever
Fairy tells crashing letting go
Of what we believed to be forever


Details | Free verse | |

Rave the Day

I went another damn day
Say what you say again now
Then go away
Sift through what’s left of us
Compile a short note for me
Find yourself the good one tonight
When I’m back you might know
Wound up in your cold again
Knowing when to breathe helps
Your language still contends
Body always wins with me in the know
Share your spitting thoughts in me
Parade my sickness like it’s your own
The carnage always looks grim
Colors are always stagnant here
Brilliant way to win, losing
Sadness will always shine for me
Who? What did he even mean
Too kind some would say
Differ the rest, go easy on this
Sit down for the end please
I’ve found the only good I’ll ever have
I went another damn day.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Die on the inside

Your in my gears
Cover me in tears
From head to toes stained in your blood
Just act like it's not there
An embellishment amongst a prayer
Feeling of left alone covered in disppear
Dying to cry or crying to die
What your doing to me is killing me inside


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An Unfinished Story

Step by step,
hand in hand,
I was always there for you.
Ups and downs,
lost and found,
I was always there for you.

Even though you never believed in us before,
and you chose the most hurtful way to slam the door,
I was always there for you.

You moved on quickly, never looked behind,
even though I smile today, it still hurts when I rewind.
Through happiness and pain,
every loss and every gain,
I have always been there for you.

The question still exists, the question about us,
my beautiful dreams went up in dust.

Now that you are here in front of me,
it brings back a rush of old memories.
You say hello, you said goodbye before,
I still believe that we could have had so much more.

Step by step,
hand in hand,
I will always be there for you.
through lows and highs,
till the day I die,
I will always be there for you.


Details | I do not know? | |

FEAR!!!!!

I RUN from FEAR.

I HUNT for FEAR.

I HIDE in FEAR.

I FIGHT cause of FEAR.

I'm FAR from you.

I'm SCARED cause of you.

You're the FEAR that I HUNT.

You're the FEAR that I FIGHT.

You're the FEAR that SCARED me for LIFE.

*Comment if you have any thought and if you like it. oh and some of the poems i write arn't 
always my feelings. their some times just to get through other people so they can have 
something to read that just fit's them.*

                                              -Angel4eva23


Details | Verse | |

Tear a Heart, Shred a Soul

She sat alone
Against jagged stones
Carving her misery into them
Watching the blood, red and worn
Retell her sorry tale

The ocean waves crashed at her feet
As if trying to warn her
As if trying to tell her something
"He isn't there anymore"

But she won't heed the angry voices
Nor will she try to move
Because the ocean reminds her too much of him
His blue eyes, and cold heart
And a midnight summer charm

She waits until it fades to black
and the ocean looks like a black abyss
Then she hopes it will swallow her
leading her to him

Maybe the ocean will take pity
And lead her straight to hell
And into her long lost love open arms
Where he's waiting for her

But the ocean refuses to open
And refuses to let her drown
They try to tell her that he isn't there anymore
She has no reason to cry

Tear a Heart, Shred a Soul
No difference will it make
Unless you head the silent whispers
That he is waiting on the sand
Beneath the moon
Watching and Waiting for her return

His tale too is a sad one
For she will never come back
Her ripped up mind
Her beaten body
Lay in the ocean, buried deep
Waiting for him

(i have the same poem up on a different site...username XxUnforgivenxX)


Details | Free verse | |

The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


Details | Free verse | |

Pieces

(Jordo)

He approaches her slowly
She is filled with butterflies
Bubbling through her
A smile lights up her face

The warmth of their embrace connects them
She fits against him
Together their bodies are molded to perfection
As he holds her he closes his eyes, sealing the moment in his heart

As they walk hand in hand 
His unhappiness engulfs him
Creating awkwardness
She feels it and knows, this won’t be easy for either

He edges closer to her
Her heart beats furiously
Their shoulders touch as he takes her hand 
Lacing their fingers together

He turns to face her, their eyes locked on each other
His bright green gaze deeply into her pale blue
He leans in
Lips meet, hearts burn with fire, he pulls away

They both close their eyes
Willing this moment to last forever
Both know its time to let go
Their existence together can be nothing more than a fragment of their imaginations

He takes her chin in his hand
Bringing his lips to hers
He pulls her close
Their kiss passionate and magical

As they break apart, she fights back tears
Although it has to be this way
His words still cut her deeply
Leaving painful, invisible scars

She watches him as he walks away
Tears streaming down her cheeks
And her heart shatters
Into a million little pieces


Details | Free verse | |

Crossed a path in vain

We were once a coupled one
Desperate, hungry trying to have fun
In spite of your freedom, you still pick me
This is the inspiration causing glee
Feel me purely satisfied only to flee
You will love my comfy ride indeed
Come to me and shower for free
All you need is to stand by me
You have given all to give to rid
Single-handedly made me live
This song you sing is clear to me
Like Anita Baker said, “You belong to me.”
Wipe away those tears for us
This is not going to be another bust
Or is this the fate of our lust
I can hear the ones hiding again from me
We could only imagine what they mean
Fate tore your heart again apart
We need to talk about this art
Make them flee away and far, you’ll see 
We could discuss them over tea
Rid of me is what you get
When you hide in the shadows, your new pet
Take my heart and make him see
I never thought you would do this to me
We were once a coupled one.


Details | Verse | |

Haggard Delusions

Save me your lies, just spare me the time
Beginnings and endings now hard to define
Greying and hazy, the edges have blurred
A hollow abyss but I'll never learn

No places to hide or discard this regret
No matter how dirty I'm willing to get
Haggard delusions of honeymoon bliss
Rasping last breaths through lifeless blue lips

Calloused,controlled, bloodied and bruised
I've a heart and a soul that I'm learning to use
I hate how I wait, standing in line
Parading and flaunting your evil designs

Yet still, you abuse once my senses are dead
I can't feel the beat so i claw at my chest
To check I still function, I'm being, I fight
To de-humanise me will come at a price

17th May 2011


Details | Rhyme | |

I DESERVED U

 I DESERVED U ?

 

True was My love , U never cared,

Can’t forget those moments which we shared

 

Never lost  faith in the love I had,

That’s the  thing now  makes me mad

 

Y  I loved U so much I always think,

Made My life hell , Swear  I  had no link

 

Forgetting  U is Impossible thing,

Like Flying for the Bird without Wing

 

Things  have changed ,

Figuring out whom to blame

Heart’s Crying ,

Hope U never  have the same

 

Still cursing the Day,

 For which I m paying the cost,

I Loved U ,

And now I m the one whose lost.

 

So,

Would Never want to Fall For that again ,

Love’s the thing , Would always give Pain.

 

------Yashu


Details | Rhyme | |

If I die before I wake

As I die he will be with me,
I fell in love he had the key,
And always knelt on one knee.

My last thoughts are of him, 
As the lights go dim,
Life circling on a rim.

All at once we are apart,
The taste is so tart,
It all hits me in the heart.

You are left to live,
My heart your captive,
There is nothing to forgive.

My cheeks blush so shy,
With a tear in my eye,
As I start to die.

Fear not for I am well,
As many up here can tell,
It is not quite hell.

As I look from above,
kissing the forehead of my love,
I wonder what he dreams of.

I look at him so fondly,
his lips curve so grandly,
as he sleeps so soundly.

I'm like a hummingbird fluttering over his bed,
I wish to be with him but I am dead,
My life over and has fled.

I fear for my love for he is kind,
Strong handsome and well lined,
But now I leave him way behind.

Finding love is like a quiz,
Never knowing what it is,
He needs love from a heart as strong as his.


Details | Lyric | |

Complicated Love

My life is so complicated,
It feels as if I'm neither loved nor appreciated.
This feeling I have inside of me, 
it burns...

To imagine the touch of his soft skin against mine,
It's like I'm running back and forth through time,
'Cause it's never gonna happen again...

To hear his voice whispering in my ear,
It would be as if I'm reliving that one special year...

I'll never forget the words he said to me...

"I Love You, Baby"...

It makes me cry, even thinking of it now,
As if I'm gonna die and won't remember how...

The feelings I have for him will remain the same,
Even though it makes me feel stupid and insane...

I'd give my life for him,
I'd just lay it on the line, 

I'd give my life for him,
To let him know the heart that he'll always have is mine

Just to show him...how much I...care...


Details | Triolet | |

Chains of Love

The chains of love do have you bound
  Joy inside of you is no longer real
The life within is hardly found
  The chains of love do have you bound
Your friends are no longer around
   I  do know just how this pain feels
Joy inside of you is no longer real
The chains of love do have you bound


Details | I do not know? | |

I Hate You Like*

I hate you like the Eclipse of the sun and moon====== 
Lightning, thunder, twisters,and Hurricane # 7 destruction upon my hate====

I hate you like the father who walked out on us======
Hating you is the only way we can relate========== 
Fire, burn, heat , and smoke, igniting the hate in flames=== 

I hate you like the lion who can't wait to devour his prey===== 
I hate you like ivy with poison to irritate ===============
I hate you indeed, deeper than the abyss in space=========
Black, ebony, coal, and darkness you fell in my pit of hate==== 

I hate you and dispise all your living ways==========
I hate you because I want to==========
I hate you and nothing compares================ 
I hate the living guts out of you ================ 

*Written by: P.D. as a request from me (an opposition to my original poem: I Love You 
Like)...thank you P.D. for your awesome talent
 



Details | Free verse | |

My love for you

Do you ever feel like...
You have made the wrong choise?
You...are hurting someone...that...you love...
I feel like that everyday...when I see them...
I had him all to myself...and...I took him for granted...
And now all he does is let her hurt him...over...and over...
I would never do that...again...I already went through it once...
But she does it over again everyday...I dont see how...
How she could do that and still breathe...
I love him so much it hurts...hurts to breathe sometimes...
I feel like Im...broken...in half...
The one half says, "forget him..."
The other one says, "steal him away..."
I try to listen to the one who says forget him...
But I usually hear the one that wants me to steal him...
Cuz he is the one I am supposed to be with...
I might be 14...but I know...
I know that I'm in love with him...
That he loves me
That we are supposed to be together...
I also know...I will die before she hurts him again...
Even if I die trying to stop it...
Let's just hope that it doesn't come down to that...


Details | Rhyme | |

Kardia Thief

This story is as old as time
But it feels new to me
A girl to whom I'd give the world
But it will never be.

Why is it that I have no say
In what my heart desires
My sadomasochistic mind
Which starts internal fires.

My subconscious is mocking me
And laughing at my sorrow
It ceases for the shortest time
Just to return tomorrow.

I try to shake this futile dream
But I can't help this feeling
Inside my heart
Which part, by part
She's unconsciously stealing.


Details | Rhyme royal | |

I miss You

Even though you’re gone for a year now, I dream every night of running into you,
I wish there was something like a friendship subscription that I could renew
I miss talking dirty, I miss acting flirty, for around you I was always very perky,
We weren't friends, we weren't more, bond we shared was anything but quirky
I’d come alive thinking about us, your bad boyish charm had gotten to me very strong,
Winking slyly you’d talk about guitar, other chicks, fantasies and I gladly played along
Gradually you aroused desire in me, you too said, to me you were physically drawn
You would readily take your chances whenever we met, a tight hug, a gentle brush
I’d get overwhelmed with feelings; I was convinced you were more than a stupid crush

Even though you weren't in love, you said you were attracted, u didn't know why
Like a hopeless romantic, I was all set to take the plunge hoping you’d come by   
Visiting me on your last day in town, you came close and I could feel your heart race
You made me sit on your lap and for a moment you did nothing but blissfully gaze
Already stunned by the move, I felt number as I saw this naughty twinkle in your eyes, 
You leaned and kissed, damn I thought what if I am no good, all I could feel was butterflies
I was cold, clueless it was my first time, I panicked thinking you wouldn't take it all right 
Talking about it was way easier so you were led on, but now you thought I was acting uptight
Helplessly I watched you let go of me, I wish I could express how lost I felt since then
Without saying much you withdrew realizing little how much on you I’d come to depend 

Even though you didn't take the high road, I still wish I could recreate the setting,
Live up to your expectations, go wild doing all things you had in mind without fretting 
For we were Best friends for 5 years, I genuinely hoped you’d give me another chance
Be by my side & tenderly make love to me, besides singing as we do some dirty dance
Reality struck me soon, as days passed no call, no message, you were no longer keen   Cuz you buried all the feelings, totally unfazed, and brought another girl into the scene

Even though I am finding it hard to get closure, I wish she loves you best in every way
As for me, I just pray our fond memories together keep me going through the day!


Details | Free verse | |

Checkered

I tried to regain whatever
it is that remained from
the shattered glasses
that broke the stillness
of that night.

I tried to smile again
and forget about everything
that makes this heart go into a 
place
where butterflies flutter in the 
breeze.

I tried to forget about
that day when the rain didn't 
stop falling
just when you decided not to 
come.

Time will pass.
The white statues by the park
will crumble but not
the memories of the walks we 
have spent there.

Time will pass.
I wish our memories would too.


Details | Rhyme | |

STEERING AWAY FROM U

STEERING AWAY FROM U !!!


Time has come for Me to depart
Its hard for Me to stay apart
Knowing that pain would just start
I kept U in dark My sweet heart

Days spent were really great
Cant forget the untimely wait  
U always made sure to be late
Just to see Me waiting at the gate

Ur memories being the only medicines , 
To get rid of the loneliness
And to get away from the stress
I know, those will never expire 
And would continue to lit the fire 

Would miss U
From sunrise to sunset
Dream of U
From sunset to sunrise

I know,
Days would not easily flew
My love for U would never discontinue
But For the moment 
I M steering away from U !!! 


-------YASHU


Details | Free verse | |

HATE ME NOW

Hate me now when you can still find your way back home
Hate me now to see what is good for you
Hate me now when your view of me is not what you see
Hate me now in the morning for your meaningful afternoon
Hate me now in this sunny noon so I can melt with the sun set
Hate me now before the crack of dawn for your redefinition
Hate me now for what I didn’t do for you
Hate you now for all the things u didn’t do for me
Hate you now when I can also find myself another home
Hate you now for all the promises you never live up to
Hate you now for I see the sun shines again for me
Hate us together for all the thing we didn’t achieved


Details | Free verse | |

Done For Good

Her look that day,
Should have told me everything she could not say.
Unprepared, I stared.
She walked away.
As she tossed our ring,
I felt the sting.

If I’d known then
How I feel today,
I'd heal the abscess and my heart’s decay,
Before her affection left me there that day.

JS Lambert


Details | Lyric | |

Storm In The Wind

(Oh Girl),
You're like the storm and the wind, 
Tearin up the city and breaking the 
trees, 
Whenever I'm around you girl, 
I get weak, 
You're breaking my heart, 
And tearing up me, 
(Chorus) 
Breaking my heart, 
Breaking my heart,  (Tearing up me)
(Ooh girl)
I know we will make it, 
Even though the wind is blowing 
careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'll get weak, 
Stop breaking my heart, 
Bringing me to my knees,
(Chorus) 2x 
Even though the love hurricane is 
blowing careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'm too weak, 
You breaking my heart, 
You're the storm of the week. 


Details | I do not know? | |

Love Right!?

People think they have to say "i love you" in relationships..
 
but no not really...

some times it makes me feel like i HAVE to say i love you if some one says it to me.

" i love you is a very very special word"

people have to understand that they have to be wise with the word "i love you" 

because if  you say it to anyone... then when you really mean it.. it wont feel ture....




*comment on what you think*
            
                                 -Angel4eva23


Details | Rhyme | |

Good Days and Bad Days of Love

On good days you're there,
You say that you care,
On bad days you're numb,
You're a ghost thats not there.

On good days you're happy,
And nothing will change,
On bad days I feel,
Like you're so far away.

On good days we laugh,
and say 'babe i love you',
On bad days I'm lost,
I don't know what to do.

On good days we are,
so into eachother,
On bad days we fall,
from eachother much farther.

On good days in love,
You never will leave,
On bad days our heart's
messages wont recieve.

Usualy you're head over heals over me,
Today you want nothing to do with me.


Details | ABC | |

You text Me

You text me today
Saying you wanted me back
I text you back
Saying your to late
That I done decide to move back home
It's like you expect me to forgive you
after you rip my heart out
I'm sorry
You do not get a second chance
To hurt me again
Sorry
I can't forget things you've done to me
You lied
You cheated
You toyed with my heart
After I gave my self to you
The best you can do
Is leave me alone
So I can pick up the pieces of my broken heart.


Details | ABC | |

MidNight Wishes

Even though i did not hear your voice tonight i'm still ahit,
I will go on like this for ever, i wont go out without a fight. 
I'll fight till the end of this life to win your heart,
All you have to do is tell me when to start.

The music blarrin in my head phones at 1:52 AM and i'm lovin it, 
cause it helps me remember your gorgeous smile like it was meant to fit. 
Wanting to feel your touch and kisses all over me ignites the fire in me,
Wanting to take you by your hand and run wild in a big sea. 

There aint much i can say to express myself but this will have to do for tonight,
I think its just that i haven't reached height.
You no I love you and that's all that matters or will ever matter to me,
I will love you till i die, like I told you before, cant you see? 
 


Details | I do not know? | |

I Will Rise

I’m about to call it quits.
One more f*cking Moron  and I’ll be sick.
I let you walk all over me not once not twice….
I lost count. Now I’m labeled conspicuous
Because I attract all the d*cks.
wasn’t it you who said you’ll stick around through
Thick and thin?
Now when the tough get going you hide like a b*tch!
How many more “demons” do I have to wave through
Let me go. Set me free. I don’t wanna be apart of you and your evil.
I’m not asking to live like Mario and Peach.
But enough is enough I’m tired of the blows.
I bent over backwards to save your as*
And in the end you put me last.
Who were the one who carried you when you were “weak”
Broke bread with you so to speak.
I was your bank when you couldn’t stand on your own damn feet.
So I’m walking away with my head held high.
They will be no more cries.
No more tears run down these cheeks.
Get behind me mother f*cker.
You are beneath my cleats!
12/02/12


Details | Light Poetry | |

The Right Key

The other day You did pull those curtains back ever so gently as you exposed me to the light With your opening of windows I could breathe again The air rushing in I looked at you and a tear jumped from the corner of my eye I knew your love was never a lie For you’re the only one that has found the right key That key engages the happy me


Details | Blank verse | |

Fading

For this, my darling, I swear you're to blame,
Gave you a last chance and you didn't even notice,
I turn my back on the magic, already started to fade,
I take back all the kisses, the embraces come back and
Warm my lonely arms. Swallow all my words and
Choke up yours, brush off every touch then soon
Forget your voice. Couldn't care how you style your hair,
Whether you choke on the spray, if someone else
Curls up with you and pulls it all out of place.

I'll walk the journey alone, pass by your house, sun
Piercing me as it leaps from your window, makes me
Frown. For all the weeks and months you've made
Excuses I think I can manage by myself, can do a 
Better job than you. Could do it without cutting people
Out of my life.

Should I see you in the street then I know what to do,
Stroll right on by, too busy to speak to you, no room to
Fit you in. Won't reply if you say hello, just wander home, my
Red glazed eyes proof I'm over you.

Hadn't time in your life for me yesterday,
Just gave me more time to run away.


Details | Free verse | |

The Man With Blue Eyes

There once was a girl
That had beauty and grace
Though beaten and broken
Had a bright smiling face

There once was a girl
Who felt aged and wise
Her heart was as large 
As the stars in her eyes

There once was a girl
Who longed to be loved
Though she never quite 
Found it till the man with blue eyes

He was strong and sound
He was older and wiser
Wipped the tears from her face
So trusted the man with blue eyes

There once was a girl 
Who fell for the lies
Beliving and trusting
The man with blue eyes

There is now a girl
Her smile erased
Her heart splitting and bleeding
A lesson she learned 

From the man with blue eyes



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Together Forever

There once was a girl and a guy
their love was more than love.
But their love was soon to part,
in minutes they would be together 
only at heart.

She lies in her bed waiting to die,
as he sits, he thinks in his head,
"I wish I was dead"
"There is nothing more that I would love,
then to go with you into heaven above"
He thinks to himself
"If only there was a way,
a way to keep you in my arms for another day"

He turns to her and says,
" I'll love you forever and when you die,
I can do nothing but cry"
She lifts her head from her dying bed and whispers to him,
"I love you with all of my heart"
She held his hand to say goodbye.
He looked into her eyes and saw her try,
try to hang on to what was already gone.
He held her hand and felt her pulse drop,
but before anyone knew what had happened,
they both were gone.

Together at heart, we will never part.
Forever and ever, we will be together.


Details | Rhyme | |

Something to do

Something to do. Each time I look at you, I wonder how it is that I'll fix this. The broken mind that is mine can I make the repairs, Before you lose your interest. I’m bent from this business Of begging forgiveness, while frantically running around putting out fires. You are my modulation as I hold out for hope. Once consumed by substance Now bailing water from my metaphorical tug boat. Dragging you along, against the current. To give up, would be Giving the water it’s way. That’s why I beg for one more chance, Please stay. Something to do. Like random nuts & bolts in a jar, You know the right size can’t be far. I just have to dig around in this damn jar. Something to do. This is always the case. My heart was always in the right place. Complacent was the world around me. My art, brought me bounty. I digress, and ask that you look How it is that you found me. You could actually count on me. People loved to hear the sound of me, But that was before my grounding. Something to do. Clipped wings I dive bombed into the sand. If I had broken a body part It would've been a hand. Mending my wounds, this is my job now. One day ill make you proud.


Details | Ballad | |

Better Luck Next Time

My heart...can you find it?
I can't feel it in my chest
Ever since the emotional hit
Leaving me months of unrest

You'll be fine, better luck next time

Every woman looks like the same
Decent hair, poor skin and a sight of breast
Nothing but another bland dame
Why can't I simply just rest?

You'll be fine, better luck next time

Lying alone in bed waiting
my supportive roommates in love surround me
I can't bear the noise as I'm debating
What is next in life for me?

You'll be fine, better luck next time

....oh shut up


Details | I do not know? | |

tHe siLeNt cRiEs oF aNorExiA .

my stomache burns 
i do not want to eat 
he says i shouldnt
i agree 
he stairs with disgust
i look away with shame 
after every meal 
i run to that bathroom 
..i gag myself
letting out all my anger
all my frustration
..all my hurt 
i walk out with a smile 
a smile ,hiding pain
hiding bruises
this is too much 
..for me
he finds pleasure in my pain
pleasure in my tears
..in my silent cries


Details | Elegy | |

No Title to This

Stuck at the bottom 

I'm caving in. 

One thought of you not here 

Puts me in a claustrophobic nightmare. 

I can't wake up. 

I may not see you again. 

Reality isn't different from my sleep. 

I'm still running aimlessly away to nowhere. 

I'm so blinded. 

Every second is hidden that I'm spinning in circles. 

Makes me reckless, violent, purple dead. 

Over and over something's wanting me to say 

I was a creep for treating you that way. 

Can you forgive me? 

I promise I won't make you cry. 

One more chance I'll be a loyal friend. 

Walk to your door. 

I'm closing in. 

Standing on thin ice there's no turning back. 

I'll say it straight out without fumbling. 

For once in my life 

I confess it was a mess. 

Screwed up everything special we had planned. 

But now I'm here alone. 

Hope is my only invisible ally. 

I raise my white flag to the skies. 

Will you operate my wounded heart? 

The stakes are high. 

But I'm willing to continue where we left off 

If you have room in your heart for rent.


Details | Lyric | |

Junkie

you know its wrong 
but you do it to overpower the pain
not strong enough to stay away from it
you would die without it
in its presence your heart knows no shame
even if you try to win the fight
your heart will overrule your mind
Theres nothing you can do
its chained to you
you cant get free
look what this drug did to you


Details | Free verse | |

A trauma that won't go away

I still  think the world of you,
 Just so you know.
Spaces between my fingers, 
 Where yours used to go.
Your arms that held my waist,
 Are replaced with aching pains.
I put myself in my cocoon,
 So time will heal my open wounds.
But the scars still remain,
 A trauma that won't go away.
Since we've been apart,
 I've been writing only the words of a broken heart. 


Details | Lyric | |

I Needed You To Stay

(chorus)

Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

 I sit and watch down the hall,
Silence waiting for your call,
If I could just hear you say
That you need me today
Then everything would be ok,
I cant make this go away.
Ive done it again
When will this end
Where is my friend
I needed you to stay.

(chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

You told me I was the one,
Yet its over before it begun
You took my heart
and tore it apart
Where the hell did this come from
All the tears I cried
From all your lies
I cant make this go away
I needed you to stay

 (chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me


Details | Free verse | |

Boys and their Deceit

Why is life so hard?
Problems coming like a pack of cards!!
Family trouble, car trouble,
the worse is boy trouble.
Using their words as their swords.
They call you, they text you,
they say you're their babygirl?
But that's not true.
They say they love you,
from their brains, not their hearts.
Some boys are such a pain.
Why won't they go away?
They play with your heart,
then throw you away like dirt,
Why do we go through pain?
Because good boys are rare,
Bad boys cheat on you,
they break your heart.
But in the end,
 they want you back,
Why can't they leave me alone?
Because they think they're the best.
Like if, give me a break,
Boys are such a pain,
it is best to abstain.
           xxx


Details | Quintain (English) | |

A CHEATER IS A LIAR

A cheater is a liar,
and with time more skills he acquires...
any woman would fulfill his desires,
if she doesn't care
whom he loves when his heart cries. 


An unscrupulous lover does 
is ignite more fire and open a wound...
until he burns and needs cool lips
to soothe what has consumed
with a hunger not easily satisfied.
  

A cheater is a liar indeed,
and he promises a hundred roses
by plucking their thorns,
so that no heart will bleed...
when it discovers his secret.


Love someone you can fully trust,
search for hints to avoid the worst;
getting hurt once is enough,
listen to the tone of his voice...
see the uneasiness in those eyes.


A cheater is a liar,
who hands you the key to Paradise,
and he constantly smiles to hide many lies;
if he showers  you with too little kisses...
somebody outhere arises his desire.


I couldn't see myself in his clothes,
or even walk in his straying shoes...
many more despised looks I will resent
for being so uncaring and unfaithful 
to whom I should prove my intent.       


A cheater is a liar,
when he takes off his shirt smelling of perfume,
jumping in the shower to get rid of evidence...
fearing the harshness of a sentence;
oh, he even forgets to comb he dishevelled hair!


Details | Lyric | |

Burned

It’s six pm
Dinner’s in the oven
Table set for two
One of us, here waiting
But that is nothing new
We agreed to have this evening
You got held up there again
Don’t like the way this’ going
Is this coming to an end

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

It’s six fifteen
The dinner’s still burning
Smoke fills the air
I’m ready to run
Cause it seems you don’t care
Supposed to be here at five
It’s now six fifteen
Not a word or a call
Not a text or anything

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart


Details | Rhyme | |

LIFE

Two hearts beat, now beating faster; beating until they're one 
Two souls breathe, now breathing deeper; breathing until they're done 
Two lovers see forever, and forever is where they run 
One child comes home tomorrow for life has just begun 

Even when the rainbow's glowing, the skies can seem so gray 
Even when the wind's not blowing, the tides can turn your way 
And when the water's raging, beneath skies that seem so blue 
It's just your body aging, and it has nothing to do with you 

So now when our God comes calling, I'll hold your hand and stroke your hair 
Yes, as snowflakes start falling, I will look for you everywhere 
And Mother, as you start flying, remember as you rise above 
Marlene, you are not dying, but finding everlasting love 

One child goes home tomorrow to embrace the Father and the Son 
One child who knows no sorrow, for life has just begun


Details | Ballad | |

A Broken Fairytale

Once upon a time, 
Almost 6 years ago,
A boy met a girl
With his best friend in toe.
This boy and this girl
Became young love in its essence.
His best friend became what some would call
Her own personal hidden blessing.
His devotion for his friend
Couldn't quite bring him to confess,
But he cared about that girl enough,
To warn her of future distress.

After 3 long years,
Of the back and forth romance,
Their young love finally ended,
The girl was broken hearted and defenceless.
She had given her all
To someone who was only willing to take it.
The best friend tried to warn her,
But she couldn't see her lover fake it.

A year would pass,
Before the best friend would find,
His best friend's ex,
The one he longed to say was "mine".
A birthday of hers
Was his golden opportunity.
When he missed her night out,
He offered to take her to a movie.
She wrestled with the thought:
Do I open that door?
She kept pushing it off,
Until she couldn't avoid it anymore.
Neither one of them expected,
Or even could dream
Of all that would come
From one night, one movie.

A love affair of sorts,
Filled with constant ups and downs,
But despite their best efforts,
They couldn't help but stick around.
A year and 2 months
Of the greatest love that ever lived,
Was shared between these two,
Who were only just kids.
Neither one of them was ready,
They didn't know what to do,
They loved so deeply,
But this experience was so new.
A girl with a broken heart,
With no sense of true self worth,
Met a boy with a broken heart,
And the desire to move forth,
With her by his side,
Forever hand in hand,
Yet she felt she didn't deserve him,
And did what she could: she ran.

Now her love for him consumes her,
But his heart is in pieces.
Now he's too afraid of her
But his love he swears never ceases.
And she cries herself to sleep at night,
For the best friend she hurt foolishly.
And she prays for their future together,
The one he says can never be.


Details | Elegy | |

Hello.../...Goodbye to Us

So eloquent the beauty absorbed around you;

You uplifted me by your sweet aroma.

Oh, I'm very sorry to say,

That day in May caused a breath to pay.

You stole my heart away

And cured my parading heartache;

Only if I'd known what would have brought that day,

Then I'd have hidden and gone another time.

I felt plagued and wanted to die;

As a lover would take a shot for you, I'd dodge infinity for you.

Yet only a stranger we both were, 

I'm here writing this letter swollen with a million tears of heavy cries. 

Maybe it could have been fate that we unofficially met;

A destiny resulting in both loss and gain.

A second's glance is certain to be the catch,

Since here I stand alone in the rain.

A passive reflection of sorrow illuminates from the scar;

My heart begins to beat slowly in rhythm with my eyes. 

The ticking of the clock abruptly stops;

"I know you're up there," I finally whisper  

…….smile


Details | Lyric | |

Making Up for My Mistakes

Writing this cuz theres nothing left for me to do,
I hope you know im trying to make up for all of my mistakes,
Im trying to make up for all the promises i have broke.
Im sorry for ever trying to see if we would work,
Im trying to tell you that i will leave you be if you want me to,
But know their is nothing that i would ever put above you.
Im making up for all of my mistakes, 
Im trying to prove that im not the person you saw,
its never too late to show you the real me, the person you never knew.
I dont deserve to tell you i love you.
Ive done too much to you,
Im sorry for everything.
Im going to sing this song to you,
One last time,
And i hope you will understand.
Im making up for all of my mistakes,
Im trying to prove that im not the person you knew,
Its never too late for me to show you the real me, the person you never knew.
I know their is nothing that i can do to make you change your mind,
But i hope this song at least helps a little,
Im trying to make up for my mistakes,
Im trying to make up for all the promises i broke.
Im sorry for trying to see if we would ever work
I cant tell you i love you
I just hope you know,
That ill never put anything above you,
And im trying to make up for all my mistakes.


Details | Free verse | |

Dark love revival

Hate, depression, and sorrow
wrap me in a shroud of darkness
suffocating me, making me feel empty
it hurts not knowing happiness
yet there is light, hope to help me through
why is this little light
this tiny bit of warmth
in all this cold 
how does it survive
why does it stay
is it trying to help
is it love, is that why it's warm
is it hope
is that why it's bright
or is it a person
I love in a manifestation of light
It's the girl I love and always will
MY LOVE


Details | I do not know? | |

You and I



You and I.


You.

Your heart blazed,
with a warmth of spirit,

soothing,

alluring,

soaked in truth.



Your smile burned,
branding me permanently,

gentle,

tender,

enveloping my being.



Your love was complete,
from the depths of your soul,

unsaid,

yet fierce,

bathed in silent knowing.



Your dreams were poetic,
fluttering in the afternoon breeze,
infused with the distilled essence of rhyme.


I.

I squandered your generosity of spirit.

I vainly discarded your priceless poems.


Now I stand,

alone,

empty,

desolate,

wasting away,

rotting inside, day by day.




Details | Blank verse | |

Without You

I’ve thought this through,
I’ve decided to find someone better than you.

I know we’re through,
I realize our love was not true.

I am ready to follow on through,
I finally choose to move on without you.


Details | Free verse | |

Acid Rain

Once a upon a time, I stood next to you
Hand in hand, secure and safe
On firm ground, so tall, so beautiful
 in the glowing light of the sun
Like living in a fairy tale
But fairy tales are just that…tales
And the magic began to fade
Your words were once rays of light
Now began to pollute the air around me
I try to speak up and put up a fight
To use my strength and courage
You were like smog settling over a city
Nothing could keep you at bay
Trying every way possible
To clean up the damage done
But it was all in vain
The sun disappeared behind the blackness
As the clouds rolled in
No longer feeling safe
No longer feeling secure
I put on a rain coat
Hoping the rays of light
The goodness that was left
Would defeat the storm on the horizon
But the first drop fell
And then the flood gates open
I open my umbrella
Huddled underneath
Fear of the unknown
Building deep within me
Your toxic words now like acid rain
Begin to eat holes in my umbrella
Leaving me exposed
As drops start to singe my raincoat
No longer protected
Putrid, melting plastic invades my nose
Your words burning my face
Burning my heart
Drowning out my voice
No longer beautiful
I began to corrode
I stand in the rain
Leaving wounds that will scar
No longer standing tall
I hang my head 
As I stand in your rain

 


Details | Free verse | |

Cheaters

Why do people cheat??
because it makes them feel,
or look good among their peers?
No, they do it because they are stupid.
They don't care for the promises they make.
They are not faithful.
My ex-boyfriend was like that.
But the difference is,
he cheated on me,
with not just one girl,
but three girls!!!
Why would someone do,
something like that?
I cried for days when I found out.
I stopped talking to him.
It was hard,
but i did it.
Because i had to.
No one deserves to be treated like that.
This is a true story...
I have had a broken heart once,
he was my first boyfriend,
and I don't intend to go through it again...


Details | Lyric | |

away with the sun

Its getting late
but you already came 
and while you were here
things never change 
you lay with me
and tell me your words
then you leave 
and I feel hurt.
Its not you that hurts me 
but the sound of the door
closing behind you 
I know for sure 
you'd like to stay 
but you never do
I'm left alone 
missing you. 
These days its more frequent 
you leave so much
that you're gone more hours 
than the day brings sun
and I have begun 
to feel so numb
when the door closes 
another night I run
far away from the thoughts I have 
because its killing me to look
at my empty hands
I remember when we were on the sand 
you told me you loved me
but you weren't my man 
and so I walked, feeling okay
but too many months 
now I want you to stay
Am I selfish?
asking too much?
You only visit me an hour
after dusk
and I must go on
but should I stay?
when you see me sometimes
but its always too late.


Details | Shape | |

Not For Long

Where's the fun in saying you can't see me that day
When you could raise my hopes first and then
Knock them down like building blocks?
I only try because I care but you've
Worn me out, led me on, taken
All I have to give, until I feel
Empty inside without you.
Should be used to it but
I am naïve and still a
Part of me believes.
But not for long.
Not for long.


No.


Details | Free verse | |

Set You Free

Set you free I'm on the outside looking in i hear your words, as they're sinking in my head's filled up with your promises but what remains is so much less I'm on the inside looking out i see the signs as they're singled out redflags pop up and the end is near i might be blond, but not dumb my dear SO if you wanna go out and see pretend we're not exclusively I give you my blessing darlin for you no longer are with me I set you free, i let you be I set you free I'm on the edge of no return u take my hand but i feel it burn it's like the devil's keeping score while angels speak & I cant ignore Intuition is something I've learned to trust upon as to not get burned Surgesting hell, I know it's sad the devil's own is someone i had So if you wanna go out and play seduce and excuse your ways into the world of rock n roll where lust rules, love's on hold I'll set you free, i let you be I see you free Oh if you wanna go out and see pretend we're not exclusively I give you my blessing baby for you no longer are with me I set you free, i let you be I set you free, I set you free I set you FREE!


Details | Light Poetry | |

Love Mistress

An imported imperfection of his delayed conclusion of opinions leaves me restless.
I know I may not be the prettiest, I know my body may not be the fittest.
However, my heart remains the same, his love pumps blood into my veins.
As I start losing mental ability to my brain bleeding heavy quantities, my heart start hemorrhaging.
Blood vessels begin tearing up from my emotions, my eyes swelling.
His words burn like melting plastic, nonmetallic his compassion is synthetic, as lovers turn platonic.
It is hard to comprehend his love presence, when there are no immediate surroundings of his love emotions.
His actions are making me feel less of a woman, and very unwanted.
His presentation makes me hesitant, from the way his love is presented.
He is evil and ever so gentle, but he says he loves me.
He does not understand what his action does to my inner emotions.
Wretched in sadness marked by misery, embedded in love poverty he does not care how this affects me.
This is his way he shows his love for me.
Marinating in promises I get his love like an allowance.
He says that one day I will be his wife, so I stay in hopes of his change.
Again, he tells me he trying so who am I to complain.
A mistress of his love I became, I will not be ashamed for his love I pertain.
His love I can relate to, his pain I persecute and oppress as he overall abuse.
Pharmaceutical kind of love overdosing as a drug, I am his side effect I learned to suppress hold my emotions back. Like if, his words caress.
As I stroke his ego, I become humble. My pain is a ritual I know the procedure.
Mistress of his love I remain even longer, and I linger.


Details | Rhyme | |

No More. .

As time flews,
Worries exist for wasting the past.
No matter what happened last,
Its never goanna play a part vast.

Known mistakes committed,
If remembered, leaves heart punctured.
Mind keeps on compromises,
Spirit always confronts.

Smiles for no reasons, bent into
Inner cries in impending spring seasons.
Sorry if I made you cry hence
At least you could understand how I wailed once.

Learnt till extreme to block my tears
Since GOD accounts its every drops.
Thank u.. for your departure taught what World is!!!
And I became skilled of judging persons

I forgave whole heartedly
Please forget how I abandoned you  too.
All most a year over spent time in yelling
It’s the point to turn an expeditious back. . . 

No more scratched mind,
No more sensitive possessiveness.
No more affectionate tricks.
No more I Love the fake you. .

Time heals the shattered thoughts
Bringing bandages for uncut wounds,
Its my Life I need to take care,
Keep going with all obstacles there.

I remember no longer your voice, your smell,
Your touch. . No more and no more. .
I know you cant survive my Attitude – so
Make your way before your girl friend bid away.

					~Hannah


Details | Free verse | |

Up to up

Fed up
fixed up
dressed up
turned up
stood up
gave up
p.......up
fed up.

Peter Dome. copyright.2012.


Details | Rhyme | |

You said I love you and I am sad

You said “I love you” and I`m sad.
I feel unhappy, lost and worried.
For I can`t really understand
If I should take all this for granted.

I am alone. It doesn`t hurt me.
So please, stop hurting me with your words.
How should I know they aren`t a curtain
To hide some lie. Scared to be yours.


Details | Epyllion | |

Restless

Here I am, restless in my bed again.
Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind.
Wondering if the sight of your face will ever light up my eyes again.
I am afraid of losing you.
Afraid that I will never touch you again.
I miss the memories we made.
How we made love everyday.
How every word you tell me comforts even the deepest fears I have.
I love you.
And because I love you I will justify how devoted I am to you.
Regardless of what happened, I will never give up on you.
I will never quit on the promise my love made to you.
Your love for me I could never repay,
And someday you will see that we were meant to be together.
We were meant to get married and have kids.
We were meant to live our lives with nothing but love to fall back on.
I love you.
And because I love you, here I am.
Restless in my bed again.
Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind.
Wondering how a perfect love can go wrong.
But I will never give up because I am in love.
I may falter, but I will never fail.
I am too persistent to fail on you.
You are my driving force, the reason I do my best.
But without you, I am lost. I cannot go on.
So I ask myself,
Why am I here restless in my bed again.
Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind.
And today I swear this vow.
I am not an angel but I am true.
I will always love you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Difference Between You and I

When I got something mean to say I keep it in here,
Where I know you can't hear, 
Because I'm aware of your feelings, 
I don't like to crush, 
Maybe to hurt, 
Yes it's my intentions, 
But it's how you kicked me to the dirt, 
You say you still want to be friends, 
I'll keep my side not to hurt you with my rhythm or rhyme, 
But don't call me mic and you better stop being the tester, 
This ain't no joke I'm no jester


Details | Couplet | |

There is never enough time

There is never enough time to just hold you and look into your eyes
Just one more second is all i need but its never there

There is never enough time to tell you that i need you
Or time for the romance that i so badly want to share

There is never enough time to find out about your day
Because there is always way to much to do

There is never enough time for  your attention
Just to stop and say  i love you

There is never enough time to find out all your wants in life
Your dreams ambitions and were you want to be

There is never enough time for you to look toward the future
And if there was would you see me

Theres never enough time for you to truly be mine
Between work and kids and chores

There is never enough time for me to be satisfied
You always leave me wanting more

There will never be enough time to tell you all my wants in life
Or how i have the next three years planned

Theres never enough time for uss
And i dont think you'll ever understand

----,---'---,---'-(@)



Details | Free verse | |

An Emptiness Inside

~An Emptiness Inside~

Right now I'm sitting here
Staring into space
Feeling so all alone

As tears begin to fill my eyes
And I begin to cry
My heart suddenly feels an emptiness inside
That here lately I just cannot hide

If only you were here to hold me,
I'd feel so protected...
With you by my side

My world feels so sad and blue
Feeling as though I'm forever going to lose you
Our love I thought was forever true?

You told me just the other night
That I was only a simple friend
I then began to believe that our relationship
Was only just pretend

I've pleaded with you to help make
This relationship of ours last
Baby, I beg of you...
Let's not dwell on the past

I'm so sorry if I have hurt you
But never forget my love for you
Was always true

Baby, I pray that I can 
Mend your broken heart
But for now I will continue to look forward
Day by day
Pray continually...
That we never, ever drift apart


Details | Free verse | |

I don't like you but I love You

I don’t like you but I love you!

Yes, those are the lyrics to that popular song.

I hate that I have come to feel that exact way about you,

but why do you;

 tell me my paintings look like a child constructed them,

 push my bangs to the side and tell me to grow them out,

proclaim that I am only pretty in the town we live,

refuse to meet my friends,

and say I should not have children because I am unstable?

It’s as if

you don’t like me, but you say love me.


Details | I do not know? | |

SOMEONE I LOVED

There was someone, whom I too once loved,
A heart so pure, a flame that never swerved.
 
She taught a guy, ignorant of the world's ways,
Little by little, and subtly, most of its baffling sways.
 
Her verity and strength, instilled in me faith,
That if she was thus, truly, God must be great.
 
She made me believe, with all her flare,
That in God's divine plan, I too had a share.
 
Her eyes they were always, like a water so placid,
And in them were, the most enthralling thoughts lucid.
 
In the brilliance of her soul, why I could see Him plain,
And thus my friends was my heart, at her hands, slain.
  
When she was around, I could feel the universe rejoice,
But now there's just my hollow, echoing, yearning voice.
 
Those moments they linger, in the far reaches of my soul,
And where there was her smile, now it's just a gaping hole.
 
She was the one for me, but I guess I was not,
Oh dear divinity, really, was this my lot?
 
Gone she is, and there are no words,
To even distantly convey, how it hurts.
 
God grant me strength to witness my world crumble,
As i fall to my knees, and for the shards, fumble.
 
By asking for her affection, I guess I asked for too much,
So why am I still alive dear God, if things were to be such?
 
My share of happiness ended, before it could even start,
Guess I was wrong, for since when, did angels embrace a cursed heart?
 
Every morning is a curse, every night a torment,
To stare the day, blankly through, is the sole intent.
 
With unmeasurable grief, now I have just one wish - to die,
But rest you assured, that in your paths, will my best wishes lie. 
 
I never meant anything to you at all, and that's so so sad,
Yet I just hope that my heart, was one of the best, you've ever had.
 
My love, it's a pity, you could never comprehend,
But guess what, with this life...............it won't end.

ABHI.......


Details | Couplet | |

Kill Me Dear

The most incredibly ironic scene
To everyone, it is quite obscene
A scene where a lover has to kill
Their soul mate, against their own will
They were trapped in a wicked game
One must die or it would be lame
If they choose not to abide by the rules
Then the world doesn't need more fools
The killing weapon is a gun
So that the injury cant be undone
How is it you're supposed to choose
When your loved one you can't lose?
The two truly loved each other
They can't settle for another
Their code was always and forever
Now, will it ever happen? Never!
She wants them both to stay alive
But she's in denial, both can't survive
She doesn't know what to do
It's just a dream, none of this is true
She closes her eyes wanting to wake
This cruelty she can hardly take
She sits still and cries a river of tears
Struggling to control her own fears
He's already made his choice
But he doesn't want to lose his voice
The pain he's going through is surreal
He wished, it, he could seal
Facing his fears, he walks the line
He convinces himself everything is fine
Walks to her with all his might
His temptation, he must fight
He embraces her, he can't lie
Because one of them has to die
He can't lie and say it'll be okay
Can't charm her with his usual way
He pulls the gun to his head
Logic from his brain has fled
She grabs the gun and yells "no"
The gun has become their mistletoe
Felt like forever, a final kiss
with an eternal bliss
"But honey, you're the one to live
Protecting you is all i have to give"
He puts the gun in her hands
"C'mon do it" is all that he demands
He puts her finger in the trigger
Pulls it, a small bullet with a, damage, bigger
The shot, echoing still in her ear
While he mouthed "kill me dear"


Details | I do not know? | |

Always Hurt

No matter what happens to you or to everyone else,
I'm the one that always gets hurt.
I should be used to it,
But sometimes I'm not.

I brush off the pain,
Like it's dust on a shelf.
Hiding behind this mask, is my true feelings.
But a part of me doesn't know as if I should take it off.

They say I trust too easily,
They say I love too much,
They say thats how I always get hurt,
And that my heart's fragile to the touch.

They lie to me from the start,
That's their fault.
They should know better,
Unless their hamster wheel came to a hault.

They ask for help sometimes,
So I say okay.
I don't have to though.
Their problems, obviously, are not mine.

Yes, there were a couple of guys that hurt me,
Emotionally, not physically.
They're the ones I loved the most,
That's why it also hurt the most.

I was crushed,
I'm always falling for the ones that seem like they care,
But in the end, I'm hurt and they're gone.
They have already moved on.

Always hurt,
Sad to say.
It's true,
Especially when they say "I love you".


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With my convalescent mind

Remember all that time we spent on the back deck At your parents house. So very comfortable in that serene kind a way. On that beautiful day Late one may Ill never forget that sense of togetherness I felt. My heart melted. I knew I always wanted to stay, right here with you. A comfort altogether new Just as beautiful at It’s inside point of view. They seen us and knew! We where, the best of friends. Partners in a way that complements with such grace. Beatific, such as this spring breeze, We cheer the coming of the warm months. With a bottle of wine or two. Those conversations I hold so dear. Crazy Intellectuals, all together classy. I still benefit from the knowledge past to me. It’s been really hard Being torn away from this Knowing it was at the hand of my own demise. I still love them, With my convalescent mind.


Details | I do not know? | |

Holding Back my Grudge

I know I shouldn't say this
I keep my mouth shut
But don't worry this time I promise not to cut
For both of our sake 
I ruin it all with a snap
But don't test me because you just caused a crack

I do this every time
It’s the after party of hate
I don't appreciate
And I’m done with the negotiate 

It’s the rate that I’m falling
Let me take my time
Trust me I'm not stalling
Your weight’s causing me to drown
Why does it hurt?
I should be like you
Happy as a Jew

It’s a monster that’s trying to escape
And it’s something I sure can’t duct tape
Don’t rub it in the face
Keep it low key
Walk away with some pride
Don’t mention you’re so happy without me


Details | Free verse | |

Aeonia part 1

AEONIA-
   AEONI-
      AEON-

Vestal purity, all men succumb- the Virgin whose eyes stare silver beams- crystallizing his very soul. He,  and all who gaze upon she.

   Aeonia writhes behind fallen lids, unable to awake. Betrayal of her psyche-. Silk whispers upon her sweat soaked skin. 1000 nights have come and gone as she still writhes,  unable to awaken.

   Her **** swallows the evil the world has delighted in - all betrayal, lies and sin.

Dripping from between her great legs are left the dregs of green heat,
jealous heat that slides down and puddles on the floor.

   The vacuousness of her ****  has left no good...
fear, hatred and rage are ****ed inside of her... pounded into her birthing, ever birthing animosities.

   Sludgy sperm of bastards evil- threaten to fertilize her eggs. Gray fetuses passing through her pose the question- "Why?"

   She dares not answer, for to open her mouth would invite flies to lay their maggot eggs upon her very tongue...
Still she cannot- dare not open her eyes...not yet.

   Screams! tortured hyena throes of Thorazine echo in her mind.
   Do Not Open Your Eyes!
   Aeonia- and her aeons!
   Ever lay bare and never to see, never to move.
   Aeonia! Why have the gods punished you? Fair one of the crystalline silver eyes?
    
   Time immemorial, leperous tongue dies piece by piece, inch by inch until nay but a smarted stub exists.
Who hears you anyways? No one to hear your cries whore!
   Whore of all women, shall we call you Eve?
   Cocks of man and gods and kings all rape your syphallic cave-
one by one.
   Whore! You are blamed! Oh Aeonia, for misbegotten deeds by every wife, woman and queen!
   Succubi, WITCH! A potion of cat claws and rat maws you brewed, from Adam to the last man standing, you are to be blamed! For his infidelity, his disease, his shame!
   
  


Details | Sijo | |

Your Safe Now

<                         Safe Haven where others come when things go bump in the night
                              Abuse Homeless Protection Ordered   Greeted open arms
                                 Replacements of broken smiles caused by anothers demeanor act


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Emotional Hole

I did not find myself to be so important
So I ask my friends do I seem distant?
When I ask the question I had received an answer, Yes
So I think that made it clear that I had been not the best
I am a friend of a friend that talks so many things
That friend talks to much it is insane and insanity it brings
I do care, about my friends they are all good people
They tend to stand on their high steeple 
Today I find myself not so aware
Disbanding my fear of regret and care
Walking many different paths I see that I have found holes
It is the path that people choose to use to fuel their rage with coals
Coals are partially burnt wood or fossils a piece of fuel
It is the source of burden and fire a rage of emotions that stands cruel
It can be warm and caring, but it also can be baring
I just start to feel so low, below the ground I keep on staring
I reach for my friends so many times I feel so ignorant at times
Just once I feel I should not rely on them when feeling I can not find 
I dig my hole deeper and I can not climb out
For some reason I am just full of doubt
I care about so many things and what I have is confusion
One person should be all I should think about to get out of that illusion
My battle in my heart and mind is not at all so pleasant
I feel so alone in an island that is shaped like a crescent
My emotions is like coinciding with a diameter of the semicircle
Not a full emotion that is complete like a circle
My feelings is circular full of incomplete thoughts, so much deeper
I feel it will wake up my evil half a evil soul that is a sleeper
What question should I ask myself? to believe that I am not so alone
As I feel like a person who is deteriorating to the bone
I ask my friends the same question once again
I figure I should do it, to know what kind of feelings I should end
So many thoughts that come out of my feeling
I feel like my friends take, an emotional trauma of stealing
They ask me questions and I answer theirs
But when I need mine answered I feel burning inside like a flare
Are they even friends when they do not take me serious in anyway
Just put me in my hole cause I feel nothing in their will be getting in my way
It's just so simple to answer someones problem
I answer friends with beauty of a rose, but when they answer mine I get the stem
I know the stem is very important in life, with out it how can a rose be a rose
With a hole to put the root and stem in how can it grow
The words we speak I guess is like all natural things we reap and sow


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This Pain

I feel this pain,
That I can not tame.
I feel the emptiness,
That makes my life treasuries.
I did no wrong,
But I still cut long.
I have the sorrows,
That no one borrows.
Seeing it slip away,
Making my heart decay.
As it's devoured,
My heart sets on trial.
You made me who I am,
The strong being fan.
But as it slips beyond,
Where you can't go very long;
I sit and let my life betray,
Wishing I could save it for another day.
Why do I ruin it all,
When my love finally grows tall?
We were meant to be,
But our love got hung in a tree.
I can't help but say goodbye,
And sometimes;
I don't know why. 


Details | Rhyme | |

Life Beyond You

Life Beyond You. At the core of my heart, where the air is cool And the pieces formed have slowly parted, Lies the innocence used as your only tool Since the day when your hunger started. I remember the day our lives began, Cocooned in a silver cloud, But I knew I was right when I turned and ran, Our dreams, burned in a shroud. I tried to think what I did wrong Or whether it was even me, But your hate was as fierce as the day is long- The day when you set me free. A blow to the head would have been quite tough Or a bullet through the chest, But the way you killed me was just enough To lay me down to rest. How clever you were! I remember thinking When you dismissed every word that they said, But the evidence was clear, and your life was sinking, Whilst I slept silent in an eternal bed. But as I watch you now, with your head held high Smothering your face in a grin, I make my way forward with a smile and a sigh And I know you cannot win. For I know your greatest fear of all Of which you cannot see. Your life, my dear, is due to fall, And waiting there is me.


Details | Monorhyme | |

My Friend Is My Love...

I couldn’t read, I couldn’t write…
That my world would no more ever be bright.
With the morning sun I would rise,
The day ahead full with surprise.
He took me here, he took me there,
We planned the day for everywhere.
We sat together all alone,
Speaking of things, which were atone.

Our minds would argue, but hearts unite,
We kept opposing, although right.
He bought me chocolates I never shared,
I would joke on him, but he never cared.
He brought me flowers from the bushes around,
A red one hidden as yellows surround.
I always pretended I would never see
But in my heart I would just let it be.

Back in my room when it was 7 again,
I would sit quiet, and feel the pain.
As I realized that another day would end,
He would stay a day longer I would pretend.
With sleepless nights my eyes would swell,
Moistened with bitter tears and love’s spell.
The morning would come and go again,
But the realization would still remain.

And one sudden  day it was the day,
He kept staring at me and couldn’t say.
I made him promise he would never let know,
When it was time for him to leave and go.
But the look in his eyes I knew there was no next day,
I couldn’t make him stop, not in any way.
I ran away, far away from where he was,
Picturing him looking at me, as that was the last.


Details | I do not know? | |

Free

Closed eyes.
Deep breath.
Count to ten.
It's not the end.
A change. For the best.
I'm stronger.
I never needed you
I was just afraid.
I let the fear of being alone, Hold me down.


Details | Rhyme | |

My Last Plea

Though my eyes are open I cannot see,
I know my name but not who I be.
The sun it shines but I get no light,
Every second of the hour it seems you want to fight.
My love is a river with nowhere to go,
Like a puddle or pond with nowhere to flow.
Trapped and confided I can’t escape these thoughts,
Cursed and ridiculed; is this my fault.
I smile, I love, and I give my all,
But pain and bullsh_t is all I cause,
I’m surrounded...there’s no way out,
By lies and things I know nothing about.
Will you ever stop and present me the chance,
To have your love I worked for
and not be judged by your glance,
Not put down for someone else’s past,
Not acknowledge as the driver of someone else’s crash.
Not as the problem I seem to be,
An unneeded piece to a puzzle complete.
Is there a place that we can one day belong?
A place where this pain and the hurting is gone.
There is; but can we fix it before we get there,
Or do my eyes have to close forever...
before you see how much I care.


Details | I do not know? | |

The game is over

The game is over, I'm so sorry.
I am to write another story…


Details | Lyric | |

Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


Details | Rhyme | |

secret crush

be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of this big bad crush
if only you knew how much i care
the kind of love i have for you is rare
you dont even know my hearts on fire
and that your the one that i desire
i dream of kissing your lips
but when i wake away you slip
be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of thei big bad crush
i wish i could tell you how i feel 
then your touch i wouldnt have to steal
you would be mine
with our hearts and body intertwined
i wouldnt have to dream
and i could be with you always
i wouldnt have to scheme
this secret is hard to keep
into my heart its etched deep


Details | I do not know? | |

looking back on the bad

i sit here on the tracks 
everything has changed 
i try to sort out these new facts

i was his number two 
I didn't know
 But now i do
and its time to look for 
someone new

today my old teddy provided no 
comfort
so im here instead 
  one of the few times im truly 
hurt

im looking back on the bad 
he was my number one
And now I'm  so sad

i run my fingers through the 
gravel
tears rolling down my cheeks
my world is slowly starting to 
unravel
 
im looking back on the bad 
but all i see is him
i think of what i thought i had 
 
I remember his sweet kisses
Tender moments I hope he 
Forever  misses 

I guess I never truly showed 
how I felt
How each time he warped me 
in his arms I would start to 
melt

I'm looking back in the bad 
And I'm ready to die
Ive wasted my trust
And I'm wondering why


Details | Free verse | |

Tell me

Are we meant to be?
Or is it just a dream?
You & I
Are we meant for love?
Are we ready to say I do?
You & I
I'm just not sure If I'm ready.
Are we ready to say I do?
Or say good-bye?
You & I
I'm just not sure whether to go back?
Or keep marching forward?
Without you
Don't know whether these are my directions.
Give me time to think.
If you can't wait, move on.
Just you.
Know I can't be without you.


Details | Verse | |

You are ugly too

Talk behind my back,
Discuss my weakness,
Prove them all that
I'm the worst but
I'm still standing.
I don't mind what
You say to them.

Tell them the secrets that
I shared with you being trapped
Within naivety.
But I'm so glad I did.
I destroyed my weakness,
Transformed myself for now,
Became indifferent.

Keep being dishonest
When you talk to them,
Represent your lies that
You prepared.

I know how good it feels.
You know I'm not denying
Because you are ugly too.


Details | Rhyme | |

Burn It, Or Take The Ride

  The night, she consumes me, leaving nothing left, 
I am not returning home tonight, I am being kept,
surely not against my will, it's wonderful out here,
she speaks in a tone: soft, direct, sincere.

  You exhumed me, and tied me to a post,
the things we love will hurt us the most,
still you are my drug, showing me things I fail to see,
but like any drug, you will be the death of me.

  Rage runs through me, I deem you my everything,
from the stroke of my pen, to the songs I sing,
from the words I write, to the reason I breathe,
you are an anchor for my sanity...

  Pain subdues me, leaving me helpless inside,
I'm aware of what it takes to swallow my pride,
so here I am, against this post with arms tied,
you bought the ticket, either Burn It, Or Take The Ride.


Details | Sonnet | |

Vast Love

The love that kisses with a tasteless tear
A pain that can’t be painted on the soul
A longing for a place without a fear
Longing for a feeling that makes me whole
Beloved, words can’t heal my tattered heart.
As thorns pass me by the pain cant compare
That of the pain of being torn apart
Even the wind howls about it I swear
Tell me was falling in love my mistake
I chose my own fate and decided to stay
I will not let this love become forsaken
Love can’t just get up and spirit away
Love is worth overcoming a mountain
My love for you flows like a vast fountain


Details | I do not know? | |

Why Should We Live?

Why should we live if we have 
nothing to live for?
Why should we live if we have
nothing to die for?
Why should we live if 
no one cares?
Why should we live if you're
loved by no one?
Why should we live if no
one likes you?
Why should we live if 
no one loves you?

Each day is just a day
Each day is a day closer to death.
What's the point of living?
Some may say none,
Others may say why.
Why should we live?
Tell me and I will think about your answer.


Details | Free verse | |

How I feel when you promise something

I'm not good for you. 
Broken and unworthy. 
You keep me around and I cannot figure out why. 
You are so amazing, so lively, and so different than I. 

I want to be loved by you. 
I want to hold you. 
But I see you there so happy and so care free... 
It will just hurt you to know the person hidden within. 

The real me. 
Not the smiles you see when we speak. 
Not the laughter we share...
But me. 

A lonely child, with fear in her eyes. 
Scared of the world she was born into and scared of the future she might have if she loses you. 
Do you still want me, knowing the little I have said so far? 
I close my eyes wishing you were here... 

But we all know that is a wish that will never come true... 
And it is okay... 
It is nothing new. 
To me at least it is something I feel each day. 
Wanting what is not in reach... 
Wanting for you to be with me.


Details | Rhyme | |

Remnants of a Shattered Heart

Pain, hurt, grief, emotional dissatisfaction
Tormenting in great detail my spirit being
Disappointments in distinct fashion
Immense heartache like never seen

Causative organism – a pretty disguised damsel
Deceptive thoughts made her look unique
Now her confessions piercing down my nostril
Deep regrets for entrusting my most cherished antique

Pieces of my heart scattered everywhere
Friends and loved ones showing colossal sympathy
Words of encouragement here and there
The ruthless “devil” displaying stinking apathy

Modest, true and faithful – one day I will find
So we can solemnize in holy matrimony
For now suicidal intent is running through my mind
I bear in my heart so much acrimony  


Details | Rhyme | |

My dream wedding day

Looking at the first blush of the morning,
I know its the perfect day for a wedding.
The big fat white wedding, the dream,
To which every little girl clings.
 
I tell myself as I watch the clouds turn white,
That this is the happiest day of a woman's life,
And that nothing should come in between,
The perfect bride and her groom.
 
I remember those young moments when I used to dream,
Of how our wedding would seem.
It was just like I had imagined,
A pretty day like today.
 
Slipping into my white dress and stilettos,
I think of the way you had proposed.
The way I had always wished for,
A dazzling ring in sparkling champagne.
 
I switch to happier thoughts from our past,
Holding hands, watching stars, laying on the grass.
We were high school sweethearts,
The perfect couple was what they called us.
 
We spent our days sneaking in a few kisses,
We used to pretend to be Mister and Mistress.
We were in love,
The crazy, eternal and rare kind.
 
Memories are shoved as mother comes into the room,
Holding a few red roses in full bloom.
Her eyes are teary and her voice is shaky,
As she whispers that she is proud of me.
 
Tears spill but I smile as I slide into the car,
Remembering the times you'd sing to me with your guitar.
The times you'd reach over and,
Tuck a stray lock of hair behind my ear.
 
I laugh silently as I remember on the way to the chapel,
You saying once you were the beast and I, the belle.
You  always bring little candles and gifts,
And laugh as I make my birthday wish.
 
I wonder if you'd be laughing today,
As you cut the wedding cake with the sugar bouquet.
If you'd remember our old ceremonies,
In the event of your new one.
 
I walk through the gates smiling at our old friends,
And take your brother's hand as his arm extends.
He takes me in but lets me go,
As we reach the door to the flowery hall.
 
I peek through the crack to see you there,
At the altar smiling, running a hand through your hair.
I slip in and move to the side,
As the wedding march starts to play.
 
In came the blushing bride, walking gracefully down the aisle,
At her friends and family, she nods and smiles.
As I hold my breath and wipe my eyes,
Our high school love story plays in my head. 
 
I remember the day we promised we'd never part,
Because I would always be the one in your heart.
But your bride and you exchange your vows,
And I find myself repeating them inside.
 
The priest asks you to kiss your bride,
And I quickly slip outside.
Because no matter how alright I say I am,
Letting you go was the hardest thing I had ever done.
 
 
- Miliya Parveen


Details | Free verse | |

High School Love

High school love
Is like a new game
The new GTA
The new Need For Speed
The new Call Of Duty
It's all the same

You see it
You want to buy it
Play it
Tease others about it
You go to the store and blow $100
Or find a nice girl and make her feel special
You start playing the game
And you discover it's not as good
As it looks at first glance
You want a refund
But the dog ate the receipt

High School Love is cold
GIRLS are cold
Full of betrayal
Wasted gifts
Shed tears
The flowers would rather die
Than being given to someone
With no emotion


Young love is overrated
I see teenagers kiss everyday
But I'm starting to realise
It's empty, meaningless
And painful

Save your love for someone special
Don't waste it on a player


Details | Free verse | |

A Letter To My Ex

You had me at hello but then 
Something happened in which you let go.
We use to love talking to each other day and night Because there were never any fights.
But now I see that all the things 
You once told me aren’t true.
About how much you love me and 
The things you will never do.
When we talked there was constant laughter
But now it’s like we no longer have anything 
To say to each other.
I thought you were what I wanted in a man 
But I believe I was wrong.
You send them random messages where
You play with my mind and tell me all the things
I want to hear but now, they place fear.
Fear in my heart and mind as if you are doing you 
And is no longer mine.
As I think about the things we could’ve 
Had I’m kinda glad. 
You use to run through my mind 24/7 
But that’s no more.
I feel that you never really cared about me
And now I see.
I know you have school and football to deal with 
But that was never a problem before.
Now, that you no longer make time for me,
I constantly talk to someone that actually listens
To me and enjoys hearing my voice 
And the things I say.
I know you say that your feelings for me are real
But it’s not what I feel.
You constantly call me your
“babymama” but never your
“girl” or “lady”.
But hey you don’t need to because
The things you’re not doing that you promised
Someone else is.


Details | I do not know? | |

My Hidden Pain

When you smile at me i laugh at you
When you laugh at me i smile back
I try and hide the pain and agony I feel
So i left this earth and went to Mars
To live closer to the lovely stars;
You might not think it's true

You say you know me 
You act like you know me
You even talk like you do,
But that's not true

You talk about me like you know me from deep inside
You have even tried to have that denied
But sooner or later i'm gonna die
And no one will care

To you and them it doesn't matter anymore
'Cause I'll be under the soiled floor
I'll be forgotten;
Never spoke of,
I'll be hurt and killed because of love.

No one will miss me 
I'll die with no one's sympathy
They won't even ask what happened to me

Livin' alone i think i hate myself
It's like i'm on the top of a never-ending bookshelf
Feelin' as if i'm gonna fall any second now
I'm gonna die and won't remember how

I'm sayin' to the world "good-bye"
Now i'm gonna ask you this:

Can ya hear my shouts and cries 
Can ya see the tears in my eyes 
Can ya hear, can ya see, can you feel me?

Baby, please...help me
Take the pain away
So i'll never deal with it for
Another day


Details | Lyric | |

A little Blue Dress

An evening on the shore
Where two people were made one
But became something more
The night of fun had begun
But there was more instore
A little blue dress had won
her smile had left mine floored
A sweet laugh that tied my tounge
Eyes that let my mind soar but
Before I could take a breath,
 my heart had plunged
deep into a sea of uncertanty
I was Wrapped up in a dream, 
Relations seemed to be something I had yet to feel in a while
A distance in between not emotions but miles
Years of built up blockades eroding at a rapid rate
Resesitating my ability to trust another mate
Her words that seemed strong as oak had me hanging on by a rope
Lured me in with a sweet false hope
So I poured my heart and her response was to choke
Pokin at the fact that Im the one who has to cope
Little did she know it was more than my heart that just broke
Now Ive lost it, trying to proccess these lies are making me naceous
Next time be more cautious my mother said, 
Its becoming a grind to deal with these losses again
And even though I feel as If I fell apart and landed flat on my face
God showed me I hit the ball out of the park and now were winning the race


Details | Sonnet | |

The next few moments

Jiggling keys,he gave his crown a scratch
then took another look at his watch.
"You're gorgeous, now please get out!"
for the 10th time he cried out loud.

Out she emerged, breathtaking, as always,
dropping baubles, tottering in her Jimmy's,
Smile still smeared, they left that hour,
unaware of the timed out counter.

Tyres screeched as he sped,
"take it slow honey"she requested,
when, an unexpected brightness grew larger,
until black, and then, everything grew calmer.

With excruciating pain he awakened,
looking around called, "Lauren!"
the teary faces dropped and nodded,
"We're sorry" , they whispered..

Suddenly lifted by a whiff of heat,
all he could hear was his own heart beat.
limped out, made a futile attempt to find his dear,
and crashed with thoughts of future fear.

Shutting the door behind him,
reminiscing love, life, past with grim,
clouds of  "what if" floating his self ,
whole world reduced into a tiny elf.

Moving on is most important at present,
Realizing a  reason, he may not accept,
 he still breathes, for that very reason,
And, taking care of himself will never be treason.


Details | Haiku | |

Gone

Tears stream down her face It was so unexpected He was in a wreck


Details | Ballad | |

An Escape From You

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

I ask myself why God would
Stick me in this jail, my own hell
So if I get help I might not feel
My own manic episodes, this is real

Am I bleeding
Am I seeing the truth
Or is it just a way
To deny my love for you

They say 
Just pop a pill
To numb 
All that can’t heal

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

Is it delaying the problem
Is it sticking a bandage
On a broken arm
Am I covering the truth
Is it an escape from you

I have no idea
If it’s the right thing to do
But all I know is
I must forget you

So I’ll take this bitter pill
And I’ll conceal my inner hell 
Cause it’s all I can do
To stop loving  you


Details | Couplet | |

The Deadly Dart

Wherever I go through out my whole life,
I end up struggling with lots of strife.
Thinking that my life is a total waste,
Wanting it to be over in a haste.

I can feel the pain inside my own heart,
Like someone through at my a deadly dart.
The wound is easing deeper and deeper,
Will the pain ever stop getting bigger?

Feeling emo is never a good thing,
Cutting your arm makes a really bad sting.
Blood is dripping from my arms and my heart,
Failing to dodge the largest deadly dart.

Drowning in all the lies and self pity,
I live each day but always feel sh*tty.
I have lots of thoughts about suicide,
But then I think about those who have died.

Those who have died not just from suicide,
But also those who are really nice guys.
...
...
...
...This "poem" was actually suppose to be a couplet (on any thing you want) for my english 
class but i made this kind bcuz i was feeling emo that day...and also after i was done i read it 
over and it almost sound like a rap song which, i guess, is kinda funny and cool.........


Details | I do not know? | |

I will not be forgotten

its the end inside my head
  i must say goodbye my dear 
friend 

im entering the unknown
im slowly starting to unravel 
and become unsewn
 you must not figure who i am 
for i am no one 

no one to be loved, no one 
forgotten, no one to grieved 
when the end is truly received
 
i will not be one loved, i will 
not be one forgotten
  for there there there is 
nothing to forget
  but this mere note of 
uncertainty and confusion 


Details | Free verse | |

Under the Moonlight

It's a very peaceful night,
under the twinkling starlight.
The sky awakens with golden light,
as I walk along this lonesome road,
under the moonlight.
The road is long, no end in sight.
Turn around, I just might.
These feelings are so hard to fight.
As I walk alone, it's too quiet,
under the moonlight.
Shadows chase me in the night.
You can't catch me, because I just might,
Not look back into the night.
As I walk on home,
under the moonlight.


Details | Rhyme | |

Everytime I See Him...

Everytime I see him, my heart aches and breaks.
Everytime I see him, my knees and hands shake.
Living with the pain,
I am in vain.
Thinking that I'm hated,
It's not appreciated.

Everytime I see him,my world turns.
Everytime I see him,my stomach churns.
Everytime I see him,the world goes around and around.
Everytime I see him,it's like my heart's falling to the ground.

Just hearing his voice, all rough yet smooth,
Just waiting for that one perfect move.
At the same time, his scent is sweet & bitter.
It makes my body feel as if it's gonna shiver.

Everytime I see him, a flood of memories come into my head.
Everytime I see him, it's like the burning in my heart is being fed.
This pain hurts so much that it's so unbearable.
To me, this situation is not understandable.
Can't he understand that I love him so?
Well, I guess not...


Details | Rhyme | |

Teardrops of sorrow

Teardrops of sorrow, stream down her face. As she thinks of tomorrow, and feels out of place.
 
Lies and infidelity, clouding her thoughts. She knows they were weaknesses, she could have fought.
 
As the one that she loved, slips slowly away. She lies to herself, saying she'll be okay.
 
Living her life, cold day after day. She'll one day break down, and quietly pray.
 
"Help me dear father, in heaven above. Help me be strong, and teach me to love. "
 
"Show me my worth, and my light that's inside. Give me my courage, and rebuild my pride. "

A hollow dark hole, sits in place of her heart. Cause her values and morals, have all fall'n apart.
 
What once was a sweet, and innocent girl. Is now lost and lonely, consumed by this world.
 
She'd sacrifice anything, just to fit in. Sacrifice everything, and give in to sin.
 
Loved ones may forgive her, but they'll never forget. She's strayed far from her path, but they won't give up yet.
 
Holding her hand, they'll help her get through. But it won't change the fact, that she was untrue.

She damaged the heart, of a very good man. Did things that he, just can't understand. 

Now I have no doubt, she loved him to death. But love's just a word, mumbled under our breath. 

For actions have always, spoke louder than words. And hate is the sound, most commonly heard. 

If you don't like the feelings, expressed in these lines. Then cover your ears, and cover your eyes. 

For a bitter cold boy, wrote down this letter. But he wrote it to say, that he's doing better.

Lying awake, in the mid of the night. He smiles and says, "I'm doing alright. "

Floating away, on an ocean of memories. He piles up the sand, to block off his enemies.

Moving along, he hopes she's okay. But he won't let the thoughts of her, get in his way. 

Lying awake, likely miles apart. They each fall asleep, with a hand on their heart. 

For life is a Story, often painful to tell. But sleep sweet tonight, for they're both doing well.  

   


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Time Heals All Wounds, But It Doesn't Rid The Scars

Faith lost, love failed All because of what's unveiled. And in this pain I have been jailed. It was not you, it was all me And no one else will ever see How these things all came to be But now it's lost, now it's gone I watch the sky for signs of dawn Yet I never played you as my pawn. I hid in dark, I hid in lies I kept it all from dark brown eyes I now await for harsh goodbyes. No one will see, no one will hear The reasons I held these secrets dear Yet visions' still blurred by means of tears I watched you rise, I watched you grow And that's why you did not know The deceit I had yet to show. It was your laugh, it was your smile That kept me quiet all the while Trudging every single mile You own my soul, you own my heart I can not bear for us to part Let me help the healing start I am a human, I am a girl And mistakes come about and whirl Causing rivers of silver pearls You do not believe, you do not trust This healing process is a must The reliance will rise up from the dust It will take long, it will take time And many, many clocks will chime Until our love's back in it's prime I love you now, I love you forever Please let us spend it all together I want to part not now, not ever.


Details | Elegy | |

Drops of May Weather Storms

I know your pain 
Although I don't know what's happening, 
I can still feel the vain. 
Seems like the beginning is the ending 

One moment there's bliss 
It feels much like a wet kiss. 
But out of nowhere you see a mirror, 
"It felt so real," as you stand there alone. 

You try to make sense of it all; 
Yet everything begins to fall. 
"AHHHH!" you scream to the top of your lungs. 
Your blue eyes are running waterfalls. 

It hurts me to see a single tear, 
You're not the only one to hide in the room. 
Swallow your tears, don't let it drop, 
A splash will only cause more bitter props. 

But like I say, 
Tomorrow will always bring another day. 
So Faith, throw away your thorns, 
anticipating a happy God-given next day.


Details | Epic | |

I Have No Girlfriend

A girl of my choice is way too hard to find. Every time I see an attractive girl, I keep finding out that she already has a boyfriend or is happily married to her husband and has children with the guy. It breaks my heart just thinking about it. It seems that I'm trying way too hard. Maybe I'm looking too hard for this special someone. It also seems that I'm not good enough for any of the girls of my choice, let alone one girl who's about my age. Now that all of the good, attractive ones have been taken by random guys, I'm reduced to nothing. I should've met those girls by choice sooner rather than later. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, and no matter how many times I have to reach out to those girls from my past or whatever, I couldn't give her some St. Valentine's Day presents, let alone red roses, I couldn't ask her out on a date, I'm barely dealing with the fact that these girls each have boyfriends or happily married, and I've been rejected one too many times. I should be in a serious relationship with a girl of my choice and trust, I shouldn't spend Saturday nights in total boredom. But the fact that one of the girls I was interested in is with a guy who's way more attractive than I am makes me very sick. And no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it's just not enough for any of them. And since I have no girlfriend of my choice, even one of them outside my race, I'm forced to spend the rest of my life in solitude alone; thereby remaining in a real, depressive state. And every time I see a loving couple, it makes me depressed and they shove it right in my face. It's like someone had taken a butcher knife, plunged in in my chest, and yanked my heart out, killing me in an instant. I can't bear to handle this type of rejection. Well, I might as well die a virgin because there's just no point of me dealing with the fact that these girls are either happily married or already in multiple serious relationships with their current boyfriends. Being lonely and depressed and not having a female companion of my choice to talk to on a Saturday night is sad, and it's definitely pathetic. How legitimately disappointing. If I don't find me a girlfriend of my choice and I don't get married on time before my 25th or 30th birthday, I'm going to die a virgin. When will all of the rejection and the torment end? When will I stop being lonely and depressed? When will I ever learn?


Details | Rhyme | |

An Unforgiven Tune

Scanting, ranting, seething persona provides –
the confinement and hatred inside you hide.
Screaming, steaming, aggressive overtones –
provide a key witness of a relationship unknown.

Shivering, quivering, the innocent will crumble,
to a raving lunatic with a malicious mad stumble.
Convicted, addicted, to the same vindictive game,
this romance conceived within lies and shame.

Silently, violently, cursing the call of creation,
vowing to avenge this marital bond castration.
Pawing, gnawing, at an open bloody wound,
strumming, and humming life's unforgiving tune.


Details | ABC | |

Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


Details | Free verse | |

Everythings changing

you once made me happy
now you only make me cry
You usta listen
now you only scream
why are you doing this to me
We once were a dream
now were a nightmare
why cant I wake up
you use to look at me like I mattered
now you just look the other way
you usta make me feel beautiful
now you make me feel undesirable
why do I feel so ugly
you once turned me on 
but nows the attractions fading
I usta love the sex
but now I cant wait for it to be over
what happened to us
I once thought you loved me
but now im not so sure
why did you make me so insecure
I use to feel safe with you
now im scared to death
why did you lie, you said you'd never hurt me
I once thought you were good for me
but now I know thats not true
why did you change,
what happened to make your personality rearrange
when you would hug me I use to melt
but now it just feels hollow
when you would kiss me I use to feel it
But now I dont feel a thing
why is this happening
Everythings changing and were falling out of love
and I feel is pain and regret
do you feel anything
I wish I never got attached
cause then Ide just be numb
and I wish underneith, 
that I didnt still feel that your the one
everythings changing,
and damage has been done


Details | Bio | |

Remember Me

Iv been there for you everytime you needed me,
Iv been there for you in case of an emergency.
I held your head while you were weak,
I whipped the tears off your cheeks while you were sick.

I brought you medicine when you had the flu,
I helped you out in any way I knew. 
I made you smile when everyone around you made you sad,
I cheered you up when everything was going bad. 

But now when I need you the most you are not here,
I'm down on my knees crying now and catching every single one of my tears.
I know all your secrets because I wanted to know how to help you,
But you don't even bother asking me how my day went, ain't that true? 

Iv done everything in my power to make you into the person you are today,
But now I'm reaching out to you, but you give me a smirk and walk away.
I guess this is what I get for being the person that I am,
I might of raised my voice on you, but that that just to make you into a man.

God created all men equally, why should I be any different from anyone else,
I treated you like I treated everyone, with discipline, love, care, without a mess.
I guess this is what I get for being raised by the streets,
Everytime someone went off on you I was there to have your back like the streets.

But now I feel alone and don't see anyone by my side,
I thought you would help me, that's why I cried. 
Now that my heart is barely beating, I want to say I love you,
Remember me as your teacher, care taker, soldier, your brother. 


Details | Free verse | |

I Miss Him Like Crazy

I miss Him Like Crazy and I dont know why, All I got now is the meorierys he' left behide, So baby if you go back to the place we loved to go, Dont look back and cry, Just remember me lying by your side, Dont look back and cry, Just remember Im still the one you sleeped with each and every night, As Im sitting here, I feel a tear and Im woundering why you left me here


Details | I do not know? | |

Letting Her Go

Fear runs through her entire body,
As she takes the dagger from her boyfriends case.
She quietly walks through the kitchen,
Writing a note telling him everything will be okay.

The open door lets in a cold winter breeze,
Her bare feet sinks deep into the snow.
She kneels on the ground holding the dagger in her hand,
And she thrusts it into her chest nice and slow.

The pain is excruciating but she keeps on going,
She feels the blood run down her fingers,
As she fights blacking out,
The dark begins to linger.

Her mind was made up,
But now she made the mistake,
She left her love behind,
She’s fighting to say awake.
She opened her eyes as wide as she could,
To look up into the face of her love,
He felt the warmth of her blood.

He carried her to the car,
And drove as fast as he possibly could,
Arrived at the hospital,
With thought he misunderstood.

“Why would she take her life,
She knows I love her so,
I never thought this day would come,
The day I had to let her go.”


Details | Rubaiyat | |

For the Love of Winter

And I can smell the windswept pine
Warmly holding hands, yours in mine
We move against the coming night
Our aching bodies drawing the line

Through the snow we lightly play
Laughing madly, in love we stay
Back to our cabin of logs and love
As the sun dwindles to a single ray

Bathed in firelight, glistened in sweat
We roll and writhe and love and yet
We two stripped and licked by flame
Fuelled by amore and desirous inset

These presents we give each our hearts
Bound together we lay upon fiery hearth
As winters coat enwraps this self bounty
We shall never be alone or torn apart


Details | Haiku | |

tell me

you told me one time 
you cared for me day and night
no im lost with time


Details | ABC | |

Your one mistake

I feel really hurt, I hope you don't notice the mascara stains on your shirt. I dont want you to know I still cry, I dont want you to know your the reason why. I know I have made many mistakes and caused you many heartaches. But I dont know how you handle this pain, I'm going insane. I feel like that one lie, has done more than make me cry. Its caused me to look at you a different way, its caused me to overthink everything you have said or say. I dont want us to change but now things feel so strange. I guess I'll just have to adjust but I dont have anyone to trust.  I dont know what all you have said is true, I dont know what to do. Should I be mad, is it okay for me to be sad. I hate the fact but I don't know how to react. I didn't exspect for that to happen, I wasn't prepared for my heart to be broken. I thought we we didnt keep secrets from eachother, I thought we could trust one a nother. But you have proven me wrong, showed me I'm not strong. I just hope you gain my trust back, before things get all wack.


Details | Narrative | |

Our Little Girl

The light I see
In your eyes
only when I speak of her.
Our little one.
She would have had your eyes,
your nose.
she would have had my hair 
and my my mouth.
Our little girl would have been perfect.
But that horrible day in July,
I cried and I hated myself.
That horrific day in July when I lost her.
My world broke down.
Now when I speak of her. 
Your eyes water up, 
as do mine.
But one day we'll see her. 
I promise.
Our little girl, 
is waiting for us.
I promise.
And one day,
she'll finally say daddy.
Our little girl.


Details | Rhyme | |

Broken Heart Street

Hopelessly lying, in a dying bed of depression,
miserably crying, while trying your confession.
Blackening walls, and halls of a fading youth,
Gruesomely calls, of gnaws towards the truth.

Fading beauty, so snooty to those content,
wailing a duty, sooty, those content dissent.
Towards a failing, unveiling of bloody torment,
concealing the name of shame, not so innocent.

So cheap, sinking deep, into a sea of emotion,
I weep, at the reap of sowing our lost devotion.
I shudder with stutter, at a marital decapitation,
you utter, like no other, at a romantic prostration.

A defile and vile odor is cast amongst the decay,
I smile in denial, as those lost lover’s betray.
Sinking deeply within, our sins have been fed,
doses of greed, they feed till all beauty is dead.

Take cover in the pain, remain emotionally numb.
Hide within the sin, wherein you succumb.
Tread the waste, and taste the defeat,
of a shattered, tattered passion down
on Broken Heart Street.


Details | Free verse | |

the old you

How can love come and go so fast?
I really miss the way we were.
I still love you even though I hate you
I hate that you made me cry
And how it is so hard everytime to say goodbye
I didn't like that last hug
I can feel little heart strings given a tug
I want the old you to hold me 
I want the old you to come back
I want my whole life to be back on track
The ringing is about to stop
No more "I love you, I really do"
No more staying on skype till two
The old you is gone and for awhile even you're not coming back
I wish I woudn't have got mad for somethings so dumb
So that now my heart wouldn't be so numb
If we could have made game plans and talked things through 
Right now I wouldn't be missing you 
The old you would still be here
And I wouldn't have these painful tears


Details | Rhyme | |

The Little Things

It's not goodbye that breaks my heart
Or watching you walk away
It's not in the reason you say it's over
Or anything else you say

It's knowing you'll never trust me
With the secrets I swore to keep
It's knowing I'll never hold you again
To comfort you when you weep

I'm no longer your prince charming
Another has taken my place
It's never hearing, "I love you"
Or feeling your warm embrace

It's never seeing that sparkle again
That magic in your eyes
Or seeing that little sneaky smile
When stealing one of my fries

It's never calling at midnight
To send a goodnight kiss
It's holding hands like lovers do
Something I'll truly miss

It's never about the way it ends
That makes me want to cry
It's in all the other little things
That hurt to say goodbye


Details | I do not know? | |

Overcoming

She weeps into her open hands Which support gently her broken heart A love, lamenting, worthy of tomorrow Is but no more… her fading dream She pains to whisper of that love His name that she no longer calls upon But, yet, the tears of today erode The very memory of yesterday… and she sighs Breath takes life within her lungs As her eyes seek the light of day, upon drying Her heart, once replete, is now deplete but filled With hope of life, within a future of her dreams


Details | Rhyme | |

When I look at you

When i look into your eyes I see a pain that should have never been. 
With all my heart and soul I want to save you from the hurt within.
But in the mist of trying to save you I can't help but give you my heart.
My soul constantly telling me this is where it belonged from the start.

Truely you remind me of my favorite sad song,
Beautiful, sweet, sad and has a message that is strong.
The melody sweeps me away before I know it I've drawn a tear.
The beauty of it all has me wrapped up and has pulled me near.

If I could take away your pain, anger, and hate inside,
I feel I would be saving our love, so that it wouldn't have to hide.
If you could show me your whole heart, perhaps I could show you mine,
We could save each other you know, so we could stop being so blind.

When I look at you I see my friend, who I in secret loved for years
A love I thought was lost to me, that I could have had if I saw past my fears.
When I look at you I see a fighter who has his eye on what he wants
A lion if you will, an I feel I am the prey and you are on the hunt.

The feeling of this excites me, but I am reminded of a fact
I belong to someone else, and I just cant hurt him like that.
The pain of this truth has been killing me, I even thought about ending my life.
I would rather be dead than to hurt either of you, I love you both but thats not right.

I'm not trying to be greedy, or selfish, but the truth is I am confused.
My walk is not to find my own happiness, its to comfort the hurt and abused.
Somehow my heart gets stuck in the middle, and i become one who needs to be 
saved.
My feelings are strong and they don't lie, to my heart I am but a slave.

You came along, and you have givin me more than i thought you could.
And although you have caused me pain, my heart can only see where you have 
given good.
You hurt me with your words, but my heart turns a deaf ear to your defense.
My heart knows you are protecting yourself, and you have a right to, I mean it only 
makes sense.

This started off being words to a man I love from my heart
I'm ending this as words to that man who of me, will always have a part.
This life is not easy, we all have to do the best we can do
But my heart smiles brightly when I think of you.


Details | Free verse | |

Polar Opposites

Up and Down
Happy and Sad
Sky to the Ground
Ecstatic then Depressed...
I feel like a roller coaster,
On a never ending track.
A smile is more than I can handle
When I feel attacked,
Ignored and Outcasted
Boiling and Frustrated
Just go away,
So I can die inside.
They push me
And shove me
I break and they leave
No one i trust fully with my mind
Because I am used
He wants me there with him
When I want him here with me
I HAVE to be there and he's not here with me
Throwing me over the edge
Into a never ending abyss
Of heartache and depression
I just want to sleep
Never wake up
So I don't have to deal with this
Emotional Turmoil

Craving to be bound by no one
Instead of attached at the hip
I desire freedom and the warmth
Of the world itself
Not JUST another person

I feel like a wolf trying to become human
My heart is too wild to stay "civilized"
My only fault is me drunk off of love
I wish to be sober for once
And to have a limitless life
...But I don't want to hurt him
I gave him my heart and my body
What did I get?
Material things?
I don't know but it's not something I can hold physically
Will I ever know what life has for me
Instead of my internal suffering...


Details | Free verse | |

Return of She

Broken pieces of glasses
moves around the high-way
while water flows away,
Lights were drizzling
over the road - nearby
woods were mangrove
and someone,
someone was crying
between the hearts

I saw,
her shadow
Standing still scared

Over the walking sands

Somehow, Somewhere She is ....

The Wind
The Blood
The Glass

Bounces and flies

A floating glass runs way ! Returns the long trail


Details | Rhyme | |

Jules

To think for a second, to think I had something
I thought my life was so good
He told me things I cherished, secretly
But I never thought that he would...
He said I was the only one,
And you know it makes sense now
You were never mine, I never cared
You might have said it somehow
It would've saved me from this heartbreak
I never knew what it felt like till now
Loneliness, hurt, betrayal, tears...
Nothing but shaking and tears
Never wanting it to end, makes it end
Faster than we have years
Oh bittersweet heaven remove me now
So friendless and scared and alone
Hurt by two, who think they are the victim
I could tell in their voice, their tone
Why not? I think to myself
Let them think that I am alright
Because they don't care about it anyways
Why did I have to fall again last night?
Talking bout stars, about life, and the world
I could've let myself into his arms
I almost did, how I wanted to fall
His kindness, his honesty, his charms
Omg I can't believe that I was so dumb
That for a second I thought I was fine
I thought that I could come home one day
And not be surrounded by tears and rhyme
But this is worse than anything
I have ever felt before
Why did I think that I stood a chance
Against one with such beauty galore
Why do I care, it was I who broke away
I broke his heart I am told
If I did, is it rebound? Or is that what I am?
Nothing but hay against gold
Sobbing, hair pulling, locked door, locked heart
You shouldn't have opened it up, stupid girl
The wall was built for a reason, dear Jules
And now that truth will unfurl
Wicked girl, ugly girl, lost and alone
Give up, give it up, it's so clear
He doesn't want you, he doesn't care
But he whispers so softly in my ear
'I love you' he said, and now the tears flow
Again like they've never before
I'd love to stop crying but I feel so betrayed
It's obvious he cares for her more
What do I do, what can I say? 
I could run but what would that do? 
Jules, you're so stupid, I am so dumb
It's fake, love is fake, it isn't true
You fell once again into arms so strong
I fell once again, so strangely
Life hates me, time hates me, ugh I fell hard
I should've known that he wouldn't catch me


Details | Rhyme | |

I Hurt You I'm Sorry

Jacob, im sorry,
I'm sorry I've lied,
I'm sorry Ive cause all the tears that you've cried.

I know I am worthless,
I'm not good enough,
But even though so you show me truest love.

I'lll work on my thinking,
I'll work on my words, 
I'll work and I'll try until my heart just hurts.

I swear I'll be good,
I swear I'll do better,
Cuz baby I want you until death and after.


Details | Rhyme | |

Screw You

You left me slowly dying
Intensely crying
I felt like I was prying
But now I’m through lying

‘Cause you treated me like crap
As I fell into your trap
And I turned into a sap
But then you made me snap

I used to stick to you like glue
But now I’m as good as new
Which is hard really hard to do
With all you put me through

Now you’re treating me like dirt
So now I’m just another skirt
‘Cause while you went off and flirt
I was left there hurt

I used to be your short stack
And now the real me’s back
I’ve planned my best attack
So just stop with all the yak

See nobody listens to what I have to say
Nobody cares if I’m okay
They’d just wished I’d go away
And now you’re gonna pay

I heard you say It’s my fault
But you need to halt
‘Cause while you exalt
I’m losing by default

I’ve never told people how I really feel
It’s because I never heal
From the massive deal
Which caused me to be unreal

Nobody saw how you hurt me
But now I’m not gonna flee
You’re going on a lying spree
And I’m gonna disagree

Yeah I wrote that stuff
And it wasn’t a bluff
And now I’ve had enough
Of acting all tough

The things I said were true
But this you already knew
You’re acting all blue
Yeah well boo hoo

I gave you my heart
And then we drifted apart
I didn’t want to depart
But now I have a fresh start

See I don’t cry
Or even give a sigh
When you tell the lie
‘Cause I’ve already said bye

Now we are through
And there’s something I wanna do
As we say adieu 
Remember I said this: screw you


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Soulless Wanderer

Scared to walk on the flagstones that your love would lay in my journey
My journey to freedom
My journey to diffidence  
My journey to destiny.
I returned back flake of your sole that was with me as a keepsake
AND started ambling legs on the promenade of my journey.

I didn't want to bail out from our story
I just wanted to elide your presence in my sole
You never brought any elegy to our imperishable bond but
It was me who rusted ours amicable relation and decided our segregation.

Walking away from your home and stepping on YOUR FOOTSTEPS
I felt your breath and relived every moment with you again but 
When I turned back I just saw a dilapilated house and a barren dusty road

NOW as I am roaming lugubriously I don't have you with me
Your absence has quenched my thirst for search of destiny 
And I have realized that my journey didn't began after leaving you but it ENDED.

Its not that I have forgotton you and my brain has erased photographic memories of you in my kaput life
I still remember you while sitting on the porch and watching the stars alone
I still remember you when I want someone to hold my hand and walk with me
AND I still remember the last meeting of our eyes.

Whenever these feeling start taking control of me I console my heart by saying

How could I have asked her to come when even I don't know where I am going.
I am just a Soulless Wanderer` 


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Reservation for One

The words plunge into my chest like a poisoned dagger. 

I frantically tug at the cold knife but to no avail as the venom works its way through my body. My mind desperately attempts to wrap itself around the deadening reality, but the slickness of it is too much to handle.

My mind slips and as a last resort hits the panic alarm. I open my mouth to scream but the poison has worked its way to my throat and burns hotter than the 1000 lakes of fire in hell. I want to grab my neck but my panic stricken mind is unable to reason with my arms to perform even this simple desperate request. 

My knees buckle and I trip and fall, backwards I think. Think...thought...thoughts...none are there. Can't think. Brain dead...or close to it. A cold splash, more chilling than the deadly dagger, wakes my brain momentarily, long enough to realize I'm drowning and add that to the list of pain. Still unable to move I throw an upward glance into her eyes. 
my last chance, the ice thin line between life and death, in hopes she will toss me a rope, a stick, a smile, anything. As she turns her back, I close my eyes and invite the ominous death that is now seemingly warm from the coldness of her actions. 

My mind pieces together a few last thoughts of happiness, of her. The day we met, her smile, her eyes, her laugh, the sound of her voice that my ears welcomed with open doors and arms wide open. The venom and water seem to meet each other simultaneously at my heart as if they had reservations, 

I know its time. 

With my lungs filled and oxygen gone, body frozen, mind shut down, I miss her. I manage one last smile and mouth the words " I love u."


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Last Love

Love – a single word to relieve from all sorts of stress
A curing medicine fromcomplete sickness
A boosting therapy to energize oneself
A high-drug tablet to overcome worries
A model which doesn’t tear to pieces
A preservative to save human soul
A magical garden having summer throughout  the year
A blooming flower whose fragrance never sheds
A virus which cannot be shattered
A strange feel sometimes at first sight.

An endless stream taking source from mountains-where
 There is no instance of water foundation
  With neither a beginning nor an end
Starting from the eyes,
 stimulating the pulses,
entering the tissues,
 electrifying veins,
piercing the brainpower,
 pressurizing the blood vessels,
widening sensational thoughts,
 demolishing every part of incapability,
facing world with a chuckle in cheeks.

 -were the symptoms happened to me – when
  I too was caught as a victim.
It inspired whole organs of the body,
  making it a slave to Him.
Though grasped my heart's room for a short occasion - and
  Even if the person doesn’t deserve to be placed,
     The position is impossible to be replaced by any other
I was suspected to be flying far above ozone
  unaware my legs are static and silent in soil
Unsure of its advent, keyed up with its anticipation, 
  Moved at its motivation, wretched due to its annulment-and 
Now I’m in a lifeless state after the Loss of all my GAINS.

Clutching his hands, 
Clinging his shoulders,
Hours of conversations,
Desire to fulfill his every wishes ?
Locking my voice, when his anger raises,
A divine compromise following a huge quarrel,
Lived like a couple for awhile, unconscious that it was a play. . 
Believed of  walking unto the glittery path,
 I fell into the sun-which Burnt me entirely 
From brain cells destroying throughout my flair.

Clarify my doubts:
Am I attracted to your affectionate masculine talks?
	Is my mind polluted with your filthy lies?
	Is that warmth friendliness mistaken as Love?
	Is Possessiveness mistaken as Love?
	Is an act of care mistaken as Love?
	Is your Fleeting look mistaken as Love? Or else
	Is it substantial bodily Lust mistaken as Love?
Even after knowing U are a cheat, why couldn’t I ignore U?
May be I might have chosen a wrong person to love.
       But my Love never went wrong… being contented with my sorrows and tears.
Its my journey treasuring the pleasurable pain of my Last Love * * 		$$Good Bye$$


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Love Drug

The rain pelts down my window panes
Your face in my memory evokes emotional pain
and I wonder if you ever regret the things you do
make me cry
Or 
WORRY WHETHER OR NOT YOU’D OVERDOSE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND DIE
I HAD SO MANY COUNTLESS SLEEPLESS NIGHTS…….
You had me walking around like a shaky zombie, close to an an attack of anxieties.
You took my kindness
you took it like a selfish thief in the night
You stroked my hair and gave me promises of a relationship that would someday be right
But perfect was nothing further from it.
I gave you my virginity, my essence of innocence and
YOU MADE ME HURT
YOU MADE ME SICK
I'll never forget the time you slapped me across the face
The sting was numbed from your inebriated laughter
You tore me apart with your verbal wolverine clawed insults
Your tongue has left whip like scars on MY HEART
You threatened me with suicidal tendencies
To keep your addictive behaviour a secret
UNWILLING TO SEEK HELP
YOU POISONED YOURSELF WITH DRUGS MEANT TO HELP THOSE SUFFERING FROM ILLNESSES THAT ARE CANCEROUS
You chased away the love of my friends and my families
You punched a hole through your sister's door, so frustrated and blinded by
the drug's destructive withdrawals
You felt like your skeleton was ripping from your skin's molecules
You were monstrous.
Stole away my confidence, and shut down the sound of my voice
Luckily I found my way back to sanity
my addiction was loving you, when you were calamitous and noxious


Details | I do not know? | |

Jack Fros't love...a snowman's heart

Snowman with your love so cold
If I count on you, I'll have no hand to hold
Because when I get you all hot..you melt away
You leave me achy, and cold...waiting for another day
In my dreaming eyes
I place the HAPPY HAT
The "hope of love" upon your head
Having s_x like rabbits
You seem so magical and fun...
I forget you are only "in it for the sex"
And it is like TAKING OFF THE HAT...
And then you aren't fun, alive or real anymore
And because of sex
Like snow, with your PLAYER'S heart
If I love you too much....
I am like the sun
And you will melt and disappear
And I will be left upset
Crying and alone
And all that is left
Is a puddle of tears!


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Your Hurt Just Hurts So Bad

I know you hurt - I know you work,
You've never recognized your worth.

I feel your pain - its every day,
Please let your fears just wash away.

I know your scared - it's never fair,
Please realize I'm always there.

Your hope is gone - this feels so wrong,
Forever I shall sing our song.

I see your cuts- were stuck in ruts,
Please promise me you'll shed no blood.

I love your heart - a brand new start,
We never will be torn apart.

We'll run away - that flawless day,
I promise we will be okay.


Details | Pantoum | |

Break Up

This is the part where I open the door,
Give him a kiss, and say goodbye.
Knowing that our love is almost no more.
Knowing that tomorrow I will try not to cry

Give him a kiss and say goodbye
Let his headlights fade into the warm summer night
Knowing that tomorrow I will try not to cry
The next time we speak our words are lit by cell phone light

Let his headlights fade into the warm summer night
And I will remember his voice, till once again he is mine
The next time we speak our words are lit by cell phone light
I put down the device, and tell everyone that I'm fine.

And I will remember his voice, till once again he is mine
But slowly, ever so slowly, my hope is diminishing.
I put down the device, and tell everyone that I'm fine,
That its a sad movie that I was just finishing.

But slowly, ever so slowly, my hope is diminishing.
He looks at me with a hardness in his eyes
Like in the sad movie I was just finishing
Where two lovers said their eternal goodbyes

He looks at me with a hardness in his eyes,
I know that our love is no more
Where two lovers said their eternal goodbyes
This is the part, where I open the door.


Details | I do not know? | |

Distant African Nights

Those Distant African Nights...


1.


The shadows swayed in your candlelit room,

a cool breeze teasing your bare back,


streaks of lightning forked in the Johannesburg night,

as my hands stroked your hair,

kissing your soft mouth,

holding you,

ever so tight.



2.


You whispered that you loved me,

and I kept silent,


the rain fell, 
shadows danced,
thunder rolled,

the breeze teased your naked back,

you whispered that you loved me,
as my lips found yours,

the rain washed over our tender nights,


lightning and candlelight,

etching poems on your burnished skin,


yet,

a fear gnawed at me,

deep within.



3.


We parted ways,
and you could never forgive me, you said,


now, after numberless thunderstorms,

the rain that falls,


echo the countless tears that I have shed.



4.


You are long gone,

far away,

happy, I pray,


yet the memories persist,

those precious moments shall never, 
ever,

like the Jo'burg rains,
trickle away,

and I wish you well,
for loving me as you did,

for it was I who was not worthy,


then,


and it is I who is not worthy,


now...



5.


You were always true,


it was I who always,

always,

refused to,


to give myself,


completely to you.






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ice

tell me why you know
about the once icy cold
that was in my heart


Details | Free verse | |

Just a Girl

I am not, the kind of girl, to get jelous easily.
I am not, the kind of girl, to give up easily.
I am not, the kind of girl, to love and forget.
Once you enter my world, you will never leave it.
You will always be in my dreams, in my prayers, in my life.
I have loved you from the start, and i will love you till the end.
Guys, well they come and go, and well usually,
i can handel them getting with other girls,
but you, your diffrent.
Im jelous, the girl that has you, well she has my whole world. 
She is pretty lucky to have someone as amazing as you,
and it seems, just a couple days ago,
you wanted no one but me,
and like i said, you will move on, and i made it happen,
i got u with my best friend, eventhough it hurts,
eventhough its painful, anything is worth, seeing that smile, on your face


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Placing You First

I placed you first,

Even though you knew not.

For it was better done than said;

That it was truly from my heart.

 

And so I gave them up

I gave it all up for good

Left my mind heated from thoughts

As I lain every night to sleep

 

Thoughts so deep, I could not understand;

Whether I was going mad,

When I took that spit for you,

Or it was just love,

That I had for you.

 

My granny would not forgive me

For I left his funeral so early

To get you that ice cream

Else you would scream

 

Wishing to wake up and say,

"What a dream!"

NO! not a dream, it's a nightmare.

One that i cannot bear to share.

 

I pray you leave me now

My heart you wrecked

Lies in ruins

To think that place you had, but how.

 

I placed you first

Not because I knew you first

I placed you first

Because you were the best

 

And now I rest my words

For I now weep

Good-bye my sweet

Or may I say, my CURSE!


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I shall love you as a Stranger

Carry not my love with a sigh.
Let it not drag your steps, pull you from behind.
Weigh not your heart with guilt and regret;
Grieve not over the good and bad Allah set. 

Let my love fall on your shoulders, light as a moonbeam;
Let it be a faintest blush of colour on the canvas of your dreams.
Let it be a breeze that ruffles your outstretched wings;
Let it echo every note you sing.

I shall remember your smile
As I count my miles.
I might stumble, even fall --
Pray for me but do no more.

For such is my love for you,
For it runs pure and true,
For there is One who
I love more than you.

When the passions of this world come to fade,
We shall meet in a far better place --
On a day when there is no shade but His Shade;
When through the Fount of Abundance the faithful wade.

When the Promise is delivered
When we are gathered among Believers
I shall search the eyes of Strangers
I shall come to you as a Stranger
And I shall love you far greater.


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DAEP

Stuck here in this building,
Not easily amused,
This place is for the bad ones,
The ones mentaly abused.

So easily forgotten,
In this god forsaken place,
They make a point to take away
Our place in human race.

They suffocate our minds,
They take all our realities,
They take away our lives, 
And now they take our personalities.

So all of you back home,
The ones that have a choice,
Is there a place still in your heart,
For my pathetic voice.

I now shall feel forever lost,
In my beloved's minds,
Please Jacob don't forget me, 
Please dont leave my heart behind.


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I Cherished

I Cherished our moments together.
I'll Cherish them moments forever.
I'll capture our love in my memories
right before it dies.
I'll forget about your love
when you get sick of me
and I can't say that I didn't try
to love you
but Ima learn to forget you
and girl I won't even miss you.
They say love is pain and vice versa
well if you keep this up
our love will get worser.
I can't even talk to you
I don't even acknowledge you.
I'm not even proud of you
I don't even smile for you.
If you needed visine I wouldn't give you
or drop or two
but if you really loved me
I'd empty out the whole bottle for you.
I held your love 
right here in my palms.
I held your body in my arms.
Girl when you got cold
I definitely was the one who kept you warm.
Everytime our love got old
the love was religiously then reborn.
I guess our love rebirth
would be the answer.
does my my opinion even matter?
Making our love work
would of been the answer
but was the love real?
that is my final question
and if it was
it would take you
only a couple of seconds to answer.
Recent Moments. Endless Memories
a deep emotion that's living within me.


Details | Senryu | |

Veins

Veins are just highways.
Transit for blood from the heart.
Heartache dispersal.


Details | I do not know? | |

You THINK?

You think you might be in love.

You think he/her might be in love with you.

You think about a lot of things. Do you really know those things?

You think a lot, you worry a lot. 

But do you really HAVE to think or worry about those things?
  Or do you WAN'T to think or worry about those things?

Now that there is something to think about.

 
   

              *please leave a comment if you like it or fav poem if you might*
                                           
                                         -Angel4eva23


Details | I do not know? | |

What is it About You

I don't know what it is About you that i Love,

I can't stop fighting for you.

Even So many people have told me to Forget about you..

But i say I can't!

I can't Forget about you,

I can't Forget how much i Hurt you.

I can't Forget the Fact that i Want you.

-Brittany- 
(thank you for reading.. if you like please comment and rate :) thank you so much)


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Cryin'

You can listen to the song here: http://www.muziboo.com/mdegenhardt/music/cryin/

If you see me cry It means you’re too close Yet out of my world You’ve hurt me the most With a promise to love That never came true If you see me cry It’s because of you You can’t wipe these tears As they’ll never cease What I wished to happen It will never be You promised me rainbows There’s no color to see If you can’t love me back Then it’s cryin’ for me If you hear me cry I hope you hurt too It’s nothing you’ve done It’s what you won’t do I had hoped you would love me A dream not coming true If you hear me cry It’s because of you You can’t wipe these tears As they’ll never cease What I wished to happen It never will be You promised me rainbows There’s no color to see If you can’t love me back Then it’s cryin’ for me If tomorrow comes And you’re not here Then maybe I’ll stop These useless tears But for now you’re around It hurts me to see If you can’t love me back then it’s cryin’ for me


Details | Free verse | |

I'm Slipping

Someone please catch me,
For I am slipping.
Death is looking like a solution,
But not a path I want to take.

Someone help me,
For I am slipping.
I can't take the stress anymore,
And I just feel like I want to be under the soiled floor.

Can somebody help me?
I can't find myself.
I just want to die.
Many may ask why?

What outcome is good from a life lost?
None I say,
But I want that fading feeling anyways.
I'm messed up in more ways than one.

I'm slipping,
I'm falling,
And I want to never get up.
I'd be thankful once the darkness takes over me.

To be free from all this torment,
To live a life thats as peaceful as death,
Would be a dream come true,
But I know it won't happen soon.




*I won't commit suicide, though....there's too may people I care about....and 4 people that 
mean the world to me: Adalhi, Dillon, Daniel, and Amanda...I love you 4 very much


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For You

I wish I could tell you, just what you mean to me. 
The conversations we had just enthralled me.

If I knew what to say  to get you by my side,
I would say it in a heartbeat.

Though you will never read this, My feelings ring true.
I really do think , that I Love You.

You love both the things, I am so very passionate about.
You can hold a conversation, you don't just "Wimp Out"

You are the one I would want to have by my side, 
Through good times and bad, you know just what to say.

You encourage me when times are hard, Push me to do better.
You know my talent inside, even though I don't know it myself.

You shall never read this, but I write it for myself.
To remember you by, when good times have been lost.


Details | I do not know? | |

If You Only Knew

Questions must be asked but I can't 
ask you
For your answers are feared and I 
might sound foolish to you
They'd rather be kept in my mind 
and don't let you know


If you only know how much I need 
to see you
If you only know how much I miss 
you
If you only know how I dream of 
you
If you only know what you really 
mean to me


You were never been out of my 
mind
Though I was not in yours
Heartacges are not your intention
I surely know

Last night, I cried my hyeart out
Because I thought of you
Of course you don't know 
But, I wished you knew


Details | Free verse | |

The Separation of Life

Life as unexplained to the little mind
Grown to the desires of teaching
Separated by the essence of value
The little girl and her silver nugget
Will grow to appreciate all
That is of her demand
So be it the little boy of lesser value
With his silver plated nickels in hand
He will appreciate all
That is earned
Friends these two of a wonderful life
Childhood thoughts bring childhood dreams
However, to the child the scheme is vacant
Unlearned in their willingness to play
Walks and talks these children have
In the room of the open wood
Together in games of Robin Hood.

Tens and twelve’s are coming
Teens will begin a new day
The separation of life
By the saturation of value
A rose for you my love but yet,
You give me a whisper
   “My mommy says I should never talk to you again
You are not as important as I
Can never be as I am
Though I love you dearly
We can no longer be friends”
A growing young man sits in a room
Of nothing; staring,
At twenty jars of silver plated nickels
A single teardrop falls
   “She was to be my wife”
The separation of life.


Details | Couplet | |

Invisible's Invincibility

I am an invisible man.
Try and see me if you can.

Shy and quiet I remain alone.
Silent is my voice’s tone

No one can feel my pain and sorrow
As I hide inside of my burrow. 

Shadows consume my body and soul
As I embrace the misty cold. 

The reason for my unseen being
Lies in the fact I hate being seen.

This life and existence’s of my own choice
And I choose not to have a voice.

I am silent. Invisible. Inexistent.
Yet I am invincible, an immortal being


Details | Free verse | |

Perfect in Betrayal

The Betrayal was planned,
orchestrated with vehement pride,
This undertaking,
Designed,
with evil intentions,
in mind.

Don’t you know how she feels?
Trying so hard to make you feel better for your cruelty,
She cries for your mistakes,
She apologizes when you yell at her.

How long can she do this?
The wind in her face,
Before she falls,
Before she can’t hold on anymore.

You ignore her but she feels the guilt.
The guilt for your selfishness.
Maybe if she grovels before you,
You will love her at last.
You will respect her as an equal.

You are her only peace.
You are her only friend.
You made her cast away all the others.
Your insecurity, 
Lashes out and bruises,
And she cries,
And apologizes.
As you rape her body and spirit.

She sits enfolded,
in her security blanket of thorns,
Of tears,
As you walk away.
If I had one more chance it could be,
Would be different.
I’m sorry for the disease I’ve caused,
As I slipped through your body,
Unresisting and sweet,
I got carried away.

Carried away with more than I could take.
I’m sorry.

What is worth the fight,
And what should you let die,
This hallowed ground, 
Speaks between dimensions,
Beckoning without a sound,

We are not perfect but we are perfect together.


Details | Lyric | |

In Your Love

Every time you kiss my lips 
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Like a never ending abyss
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Every time you whisper I miss you
I am drowning, I'm drowning
In your love,  in your love.

Life doesn't seem dangerous
When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
Don't take it so serious
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
I don't care what they think of us
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
In your love, in your love

~ Leonard Napierskie


Details | ABC | |

All You Did Was Toy With My Emotions

You said you wanted a relationship
well days turn into weeks 
We fell in love 
Your Son is great
We look like an american family
but your just to busy
Maybe your to busy for me
Or to busy for a relationship as well
I do not like the feelings 
I'm having but I can no longer hide them
They got to cum out 
Weather they are good or bad
Please forgive me for what I gotta say
But I gotta say it
It's Over 
I know we said forever
But I got to end this
I will always love you 
Because I promised
We only be friends
You ant got time for any thing more then that
I'm sorry
But it gotta be this way 
I love you.


Details | Free verse | |

Missing Someone

Shall I call?
I shan't, or won't or am too fearful
of my own rapidly fading shadow.


Details | Classicism | |

Unfaithful Remorse

When I come home, you pretend to smile,
But inside you cry, all the while.
You know my thoughts are not of you,
Just hope some day, I'll love you too.
I know not why I treat you so bad,
For, you are the truest love I have had.
If you shall find the room to forgive,
I promise my heart for as long as I live.
All that I have is this simple request,
Let's live from this day, not from the rest.
But if this hurdle should be too high, 
I will cower my head and say good bye.
For its happiness and joy I wish you to see,
Not sadness and pain as when you're with me.
So, have a nice life, and hope that you find,
That prince of a man you once had in mind.
Maybe with time, and the lesson I've learned,
I can renew the vows that I have burned.
To show my love for you of course, 
And to help you see my unfaithful remorse.


Details | ABC | |

I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.


Details | Rhyme | |

Mausoleum

For you our love was neither strong nor real
But I had both wild fears and odd hopes.
And now in my soul there's a mausoleum, 
It's a remembrance of the joy we lost.

How can I bury all those golden feelings
That you woke up in my heart? Though they died
It seems as if they were alive and breathing.
How can I write them off? I do not understand.

There is a cold and gloomy mausoleum
That is inside of me and that is simply me.
Let people call me stubborn, odd or silly -
For me your fake love oath was like a wedding ring.


Details | I do not know? | |

Scoldin myself, hating myself

Scolding myself, hating myself,
I have to go on. What else is left?
Did you love me? I don`t know.
I said “farewell” and you let me go.
If you just played, then it`s all right.
I went away and it was my right.
I fell in love. It was my fault.
But if you loved me, why did you stop?


Details | I do not know? | |

Without You



Without you,

worn down, weary,
staggering into tomorrow,
dissolving my todays, grim, dreary,

I crawl, slipping out of my skin,
flinging laughter, joy, contentment,
into the gaping abyss of life's dustbin.

Without you


Details | Rhyme | |

Your Wrong

I walk on eggshells hoping he does not explode,
 into a burst of anger that only me he shows,
 that he wont say that word i know is going to hurt me,
 and if i try to fight back i know he will desert me,
 so i lower my voice and plead quite quietly,
 for the pain to go away even if it does not leave silently,
 but no matter how i react i know it will not matter,
 because then he begins to yell so loud it makes my body shatter,
 i know this is not right but i cant find the strength to leave,
 im scared of stepping forward because im afraid my heart will bleed,
 its been stabbed and bruised and its aching with every beat.
 what happened to the girl i knew her head is now always at her feet,
 no one understands her everyone believes his lies,
 and even through her tears no one answers any of her cries,
 blame is shifted backwards she takes it on her shoulders,
 she wished someone would of warned her someone would of told her, 
everyone says that she is wrong and to blame for his own actions,
 her jaw drops in shock at his supporters' reactions,
 she is not allowed to talk or to of herself defend,
 if she dare try its over its the end,
 its a losing battle she possesses no sword no armor,
 a free ranged target for him its easy to harm her,
 he has no remorse nothing to regret,
 because if she speaks against it a blaming scene is set,
 she is wrong for making him feel guilty and pointing out the truth,
 because then she is overreacting and she is wrong for feeling used,
 so in the end of it all she is the cause of his misery,
 and he says he is better off without her and that he wants to be set free


Details | Blank verse | |

Once Whole

Whole at one time,
but now scarred, broken.
Dreams are all faded,
reality shining through.
Constant, weary battle,
tears are shed for you.
Might I dream again,
be made beautiful,
renewed and joyful?


Details | Rhyme | |

If you're reading this

If you're reading this
while trying to be strong
trying to hold on to whats right
while ignoring all thats wrong 

If you can look at your skin
and find his mark
yet know it can't compare
to the one that's on your heart

If you're reading this
and it's hard to breathe
as emotions you harbored
are wiped on your sleeve

It's time to make changes
and admit the pain you're in
admit you're worth way more
 than you'll ever be worth to him

Don't wait til it's too late
and we both know what I mean
I was once right where you are
my life in painful words on a screen

So from one girl to another
It's not too late to fix
you still have time to walk away
If you're reading this


Details | Lyric | |

On The Brink

On the brink of crying,
on the brink of dying,
what are you gonna do?On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
You’ve gotta listen to your soul now, too.

Now think of this situation,
This is a poem, but also a conversation
If you don’t want to hurt those around you
You’ve gotta help yourself first then the other few

On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
What are you gonna do?
On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
If you don’t wanna hear the truth
Then you better not do something stupid, but instead new
On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
What are you gonna do?
On the brink,
On the brink,
I’m on the brink of cryin’
‘Cause inside I’m
‘Cause inside I’m
‘Cause inside I’m dyin’
I’m on the,
I’m on the, I’m on the brink.


Details | Free verse | |

Is Love Worth It

Why am I so lost?
It is complicated.
All these thoughts
Running through my head.
I hold myself together,
Fighting back tears,
I am frustrated,
That my mind is settled on you.
You touch me,
I smile.
You kiss me,
Feelings start to emerge.
You hold me in your arms,
I am falling for you.
It is hard,
Love is blind,
It dictates your life.
Love is misleading,
He will never know the truth.


Details | Light Poetry | |

A Crying Shame

It's a crying shame,
When love cuts you deeply,
When you don't want to hear my name,
And when you pretend to have been over me.

It's a crying shame,
That I still love you,
Especially after all the pain I've been through,
That you've given me through and through.

It's a crying shame,
How we both know that we love each other,
But don't want our appearance to falter,
So we hate each other out of our love.

It's a crying shame,
That you lie about me,
That you blame me,
That you hate me.

It's a crying shame,
That hatred devours you from the love you once felt,
Torturing you so,
Just let it go.

It's a crying shame,
That I try to hurt you because you hurt me,
That I am filled with anxiety,
I have to try to just let it be.

It's a crying shame,
That you have me to blame.
And I think about it everytime I hear your name.
It's all a crying shame.


Details | Bio | |

Unspoken Words

Your standing by my side today
your words i don't believe
you said you wont give up that easy
and yet your going to leave

I cannot say good bye to you
as you walk to the door
cause good bye means forever
and its happened to me before

You still await unspoken words
as tears fall down my face
and I sit here deep in thought
With your words of gentle grace

I cannot say so long to you
as you walk to your car
cause so long feels like eternity
and that is way too far

You said you will think of me
and that i will be fine
soon i will be whole again
but it will take some time

I did not say a thing to you
I just bowed my head and cried
you put your hand upon my face 
and something inside me died

I pull away from your hand
a tear from you did drop
and when you leave i pray to God
my heart will not stop

You grab my hand with your heart
I touch your face and tear
please my love leave in silence
for good byes are what i fear


Details | Quintain (English) | |

Done

The words "I Love You" spring from your lips,

But, actions show that I'm barely a friend.

Your "Love" poisons in little sips,

The way you act is hard to defend.

Why do you even bother to pretend?



I have tried and tried and tried again.

I just don't know what you want me to do?

You are as stable as quick sand.

I gave my heart and soul to you.

It kills me to say, we are through.


Details | Free verse | |

Forgive, please forget

I lie here looking at the ceiling,
Then I look to your word,
It didn't have much meaning, 
Trusting you is almost absurd
You left me broken promises
I know I'm better off
No more kisses
I need to write you off
I'm a creature of habit
I  know I'm not that tough
I have no heart to be compassionate
You stole it, left it in the rough
I'm Forgetting how your voice sounds
It truly makes me sad
yet still want you around
I still know what we had 
Why'd did you ever leave? 
Why couldn't we have been enough for you?
Now you wallow in sorrow and tell me how you grieve
love isn't for the weak I give the devil his due 
Now you suffer twisting, contorted pain
the worst mistake of your life
takes me back to lovers lane
You really messed up and I'm to alleviate you of your strife?
You think you deserve it?
….
…..
…...
…....
…..I do.


Details | Free verse | |

Open your eyes

Open your eyes ..
Love is a shadow constricting you up close
And when you sleep it lays next to you..

Love is a force that drags you, possesses you, 
And fills you up with memories of today for a life of tomorrow..

Love is a sword cutting through the soul..
Leaving you breathless for eternal moments that will never come back 

Love is like a feather blown by the wind, 
And injected in our hearts by a single wish... 
To never be alone!

Love is an aura..
We all have one, yet we can't see it or touch it,
We Have to believe  its there, and it will show up..

               ..to give us a chance to trust, to build, to fall,  and get up;  over and over again!


Details | Ballade | |

Tell Me Its Real

Your tear drop fell into my palm,
I held it as if it were a jewel to my soul so calm.
My thumbs whipped away your troubles and sorrows,
You poured your heart out to me like never before, like it was stories.

I listened very carefully and silent,
Your voice sounded as if it was frightened. 
So understand when I say that you will not need anyone anymore,
Anyone to listen to you, or even smile with you, and I say it from the core. 

Now a little refreshment for your thought,
Tell me that this is what you sought.
Did you see this coming, us being so close and in love like steal to steal,
Now one more thing, please tell me what we have is real, tell me its real.


Details | I do not know? | |

This bitter love

For the years I have stood hear,
It has brought me many tears,
Loves bitter bite inside my heart,
I love so much it tears me apart

The only thing he sees is hate,
He can’t see this love is great,
I sometimes wonder if he sees,
That love whispers in the trees

I don’t know if he hates or loves,
As he wants to be above,
I no longer see it in his eyes,
As he thinks I say nort but lies

I wish this did not hert so much,
Like a fire to the touch,
Sometimes I wish that I would die,
So I can’t hear him say good bye


Details | Couplet | |

Watch

Watch as your wishing star flys through the sky,
The way that your faith has been burned up so dry.

Watch as this barbed wire coils your soul,
The way that we love until we're burned in coals.

Watch as the dragon so fiercly stands tall,
The way that you know your opinions wont fall.

Watch as our beautiful family is built,
The way that we know that our roses won't wilt.

Watch as the wings mounted upon your back,
The way that a brilliance you never will lack.


Details | I do not know? | |

Forget us but not me

You know what
Just forget me, 
being with me, 
nothing good can come through. 
But one thing I promise is, 
I will never ever forget you. 
The memories we shared, 
the time went by too fast. 
They're all a part, 
of my tearful past. 
But we both knew we couldn’t continue, 
under these conditions. 
There was so much love there, 
but too much distance. 
Please forgive me, 
for the choices I’ve made. 
I just want you to be happy, 
but please don't let the memories fade. 
I have cried myself to sleep, 
time and time again. 
And I'm just waiting for the one day, 
that maybe we can be one again. 
It's just right now, 
is no time for pain and love to mix. 
With all the distance and hate from both of out families that was there, 
it's just impossible to fix. 
Maybe we can happen again, 
sometime later in life. 
Just move on for now, 
don't be a sacrifice. 
You are too amazing, 
to lose forever. 
I'm not going to forget about you, 
not now not ever. 
No one knows, 
how much this is actually hurting me.
Free from this pain I call myself, 
is what I wish for you to be.


Details | Rhyme | |

Just a friend

Forget the times he walked by
Forget the times he made you cry
Forget the times he spoke your name
Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand
Forget the sweet things if you can
Forget the times & Don't pretend
Remember now he's just your friend


Details | Lyric | |

Lovers Departed

Lovers departed
Like two souls unwanted
Sent to Hell in a hand basket
To make it out on your own
Futures are uncertain
Hope can be lost
Place faith in the fact that
What could have been, never was

Hearts and minds tend to fight
An epic tug-of-war
All you ever wanted 
blew out the front door
And now all we do is search
For Mister and Miss Right
But did we just maroon them, each other, on shore?

Long words abandoned
For those softer on tongues
One plans the future,
The other plans today’s fun
Why can’t they both
Simply cross the other’s path
It’s for not lack of trying
Until turning one’s back

Memories have faded
Yet others return
Was it a fair exchange 
to receive the good for the spurned?
The wrong days will cut you
With fears and regrets
Sometimes we hold onto
What no one thinks is best

In the foggy uncertain
Only time can unfold
If happiness awaits 
Or you die old and alone


Details | Free verse | |

The Hardest Thing To Do

I’m with a partner, on occasion, if I’m lucky,
But just as luck is, it’s never there for long.
Family and friends are always around,
Yet no matter who’s there, alone I am.
Always the lover, never the loved,
The hardest thing to do, to hold onto myself.

Happiness is false, the mask I must don,
To show that I am there, I can be relied on.
Family and friends, true to their name,
Treat me as such, their not to blame.
Partners it seems, their purpose is to do,
Treat me like the dirt that lies under their shoe.

A matt to be trodden on, left on the floor,
Used as their need takes, ignored until then.
Beaten occasionally, then dropped back to the ground,
Looked upon in disgust until I’m needed, yet again.
The dirt is ground in deep, forced into my fibres, 
Yet I endure this torture, trying to find a measure of peace.

The dirt ground in, festers inside, filling me with sadness, anger and hate,
Begging me to turn the tide of my fate.
Use them first, before they can use me,
Give into my dark, become an arsehole, let them see.
With all I have been through, it would be easy to do,
But what would happen to me?... I’d loose me too.

So keep to my morals, treat as I would be treated,
Get used and discarded then used a bit more.
Keep taking my punishment, dreaming of peace,
However it comes, happiness or death, what ever my fate.
Painfully hard, resisting temptation,
The hardest thing to do, to hold onto myself.


Details | Lyric | |

I've Got Pain Inside, But No One Cares

When you smile at me i laugh at you
When you laugh at me i smile back
I try and hide the pain and agony I feel
So i left this earth and went to Mars
to live closer to the lovely stars;
you might not think it's true

You say you know me 
you act like you know me
you even talk like you do,
but that's not true

You talk about me like you know me from deep inside
you have even tried to have that denied
but sooner or later i'm gonna die
and no one will care

To you and them it doesn't matter anymore
'Cause I'll be under the soiled floor
I'll be forgotten;

never spoke of
I'll be hurt and killed because of love
no one will miss me 
i'll die with no one's sympathy
they won't even ask what happened to me

Livin' alone i think i hate myself
It's like i'm on the top of a never-ending bookshelf
feelin' as if i'm gonna fall any second now
I'm gonna die and won't remember how

I'm sayin' to the world "good-bye"
now i'm gonna ask you this:

Can ya hear my shouts and cries 
can ya see the tears in my eyes 
can ya hear, can ya see, can you feel me?

baby, please...help me
take the pain away
so i'll never deal with it for
another day


Details | Acrostic | |

larki


                »-(¯`v´¯)-» Ek Larki Thi Dewani ce »-(¯`v´¯)-»

                           Ek larkay pay woh marti thi..

                           Nazrein joka kay shrma kay..

                            Galioun say gozra karti thi..

                           Chori chori chopkay chopkay..

                                Chitian lihka kerti thi..

                           Kuch kehna tha shyed us ko..

                                Najanay kis se darti thi..

                                Jab bi milti thi muj se..

                                Muj se poacha kerti thi..

                                PYYAR kesay hota hai..

                                Yeh Pyyar kesay hota hai..
    
                                       EK Din.........?        

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Details | Rhyme | |

Brittney Sweet Brittney

Brittney sweet Brittney
why did you leave that day
why would you ever 
want yourself to go away
I know they said
you weren't in love
but I know what ya'll had 
was a love from above
I guess maybe it was your time 
to be gods angel
but Brittney you left us all
mixed up and strangled
you were only fifteen 
when you took your last breath
I guess they really did 
put you and Sean to the test
you said in a note your love
was like Romeo and Juliet
a love ones heart 
could never forget
Sean said even death 
couldn't do your love apart
This you meant because march 20th
you stopped your hearts
together you lay there in silence
as I weep and ask god for his guidance
Brittney sweet Brittney 
why did you have to go away..


Details | Free verse | |

Four to Blame

Blame it on the sea
That crashed upon the sand,
And washed away my heart
That I had drawn for you.

For my heart is what you wanted,
But my heart I could not give.

Blame it on the rain
That fell upon the words,
The words that told my love
That I had written down for you.
 
For my love is what you wanted,
But my love I could not give.

Blame it on the wind
That blew upon my life,
And scattered all my dreams
That I had dreamed with you.

For my dreams are what you wanted,
But my dreams I could not give.

So, if you sit there lonely
Blame the sea, the rain, the wind,
But if these three seem not enough,
Blame it all on me.

For I am really all you wanted,
But myself I could not give.


Details | I do not know? | |

in my own tears

ghost from the past 
time is moving so fast 
trembling in my own tears 
trying to fight all my fears
standing in the rain 
felling like I just got hit my a train 
wishing I could turn off my brain 
I have nothing left to gain 
all I fell is pain 
haunted from our memories 
I fell they have become my enemies 
I see you even when I blink 
it really makes a guy think 
what happen to us
I cant believe I mad such a fuss 
I wish I had your trust 
you are still my high school crush 
seeing you still makes me blush 
your better then a royal flush
people think they have what we do 
but know one ever will 
being with you is a thrill
being with you is real 
I wish we where going uphill
you where the only one who could fulfill
four you I would have captured bunker hill
but right now your just a ghost 
haunting me, taunting me, and flaunting in front of me 
how i wish we could still be 


Details | Couplet | |

Lonely Love



Details | Rhyme | |

About, Me & You

You & me, so long we've been together,
Why can't you see?  Look inside..  I would never,
Ever want to be, a traitor to my lover,
You're the mother of my child, there could never be another.

I love to think about the day when we first met,
The day you walked into my life, how could I forget?
I let you deep into my heart, now my mind's set,
Because I love you, there's not a single regret.

It's never black and white, we are both shades of grey,
Now the world is full of colour and it's a fine day,
You extend my power, nothing gets into our way,
They say that love is blind, but this vision's here to stay.

Now this feeling's been refined, in the fires of time,
That have raged through our hearts, all along the line,
Your smile shines down on my face, so divine,
It's a crime to wastle a love, that is so sublime.

I can be the rock, that weathers the storm,
When the cold creeps in, I'll still be warm,
I'm no Millionaire, though I'm richer than you know,
Because I've got you Girl.

When we were broke, we still didn't choke,
The hardtimes fell, but we saw it as a joke!
We worked and played hard.. but we saw the smoke,
As the pressure awoke, to bring stress and to provoke.

Opposites attract, because we both come back,
It's a fact that I missed you, be we never ever lacked,
Any reason to react, you'll agree, we're both cracked,
You high-jacked my heart!  So start showing some tact!

Let us stay this way, today and tomorrow,
And any other day..  there are plenty more to follow,
We've no debt to pay, no reason to borrow,
We've got a light to shine, in the darkness of sorrow.

It has been so long Girl, we've gotta be strong,
And let time make right, what once went wrong,
I'll sing you any song..  in my heart you belong,
I just know we should carry on..

I was the rock, that weathered the storm,
The cold crept in, and I was still warm,
I'm no Millionaire, but I'm still richer than you know,
But now I haven't got you Girl..


Details | Haiku | |

Love Hurts

Love hurts as i look around wondering why
their was ever love in the first place why 
does love hurt so badly when you dont 
want it to love hurts alot with out knowing
why it does or why their is ever a such thing
as love in the first place love just hurts.


Details | Rhyme | |

Why

Here we go again, you yelling and my head doin spins.
Now both so loud…both tryin to win.
A battle not ment to be, between two who have something so unique;
Now hot biting lips and at times can’t speak.
B_tch is a word I try not to say, I know it burns but what else can I say
You choppin at me like a tree, molding me like clay.
Into who you see in front of you,
Doing stupid things I wouldn’t think to do.
But you know what “f__k this” “I can’t take it no more”
How strong can a man be, when he like nailed to the floor.
And you can take it how you wanna
Cuz that’s where we at right now,
Cuz don’t forget what you throwing
Also hitting like kapow!!!
When all I wanted to do…was just lay down.
So could you please just stop and think of this
You and I in this frantic twist.
All I want is my baby’s kiss.
Brainstorm…and imagine me,
Think of my eyes and what they see.
Something not working that used to be.


Details | Rhyme | |

Curse of a Princess

Fairytales,
and butterflies,
in this story,
we begin with lies,
promises,
we never kept,
I should have held on tighter,
when you wept,
small mistakes,
on both our parts,
added up,
to shred our hearts,
creeping shadows,
behind the flowers,
in what we thought,
were our finest hours,
talking grass,
crystal snow,
in our lie of love,
a hidden foe,
the evil witch,
her claws aimed to kill,
t'was she who pushed you,
down the hill,
a broken crown,
a forgotten well,
to live without you,
was her spell,
an evil curse,
she cast in spite,
although we loved, 
with all our might,
kept apart,
by what was said,
in regret,
our hearts bled,
watch from afar,
speak in vein,
a curse taken course,
inflicted pain,
and so it began,
with love and lies,
our fairytale ends,
and we both die...


Details | I do not know? | |

Somethings never change

He turned his head,
Winked and smiled,
He leaned in and kissed me,
All was good for a second,
Then I remember I couldn’t bear to love again,

I stepped back quietly,
And said I’m sorry,
As his frown came upon his face,
He asked slowly, “Is it me?”

My heart fell to the ground,
How could I explain my heart was much too weak,
Stupid little boys had hurt it before,
They said things, I couldn’t forget,
I’m sure if you looked closely,
You could see my tear scarred face,
And the crack that could never be replaced,

Yes, this man in front of me was quiet amazing,
Beautiful actually,
Which made it worst,
All the girls would want him,
Then I’d be alone again,
People as great as him,
Should be consider a sin,

He turned his head,
Winked and smiled,
He leaned in and kissed me,
All was good for a second,
Then I remember I couldn’t bear to love again.


Details | Narrative | |

THOUGHTS ON THE MATTER

Written for Grace Keithley-Lee to express her thoughts on a particular matter

THOUGHTS ON THE MATTER I want to express my thoughts On this matter at hand A matter concerning A relationship of a good man Though it’s not my business To interfere or say what’s what He happens to be my brother I feel his pain down in my gut The relationship started off With so much love flowing They were the perfect couple And all could see them glowing Their happiness was an example That inspired me all the time To know that a good relationship I certainly would also be able to find I did find my true love About three years ago At that time their love Was still perfectly so I really don’t know Where it all went wrong A seemingly perfect love Now ending and saying so long It really matters not why Or what the reasons may be We should wish them the best In both their separate journeys Sure everyone has their sides To the story as it now goes It is really just between them Their feelings no one knows We should not speculate Of who did what or would Or even dig around for the dirt We should only remember the good There is good and bad in everything That’s one thing we all know is true They both need our support because Breaking up is hard enough to do There is no need in degrading To either one or the other The cruelty of the words Are painful to my brother Sometimes relationships Just need to come to an end Even if both are good people We can still lose a good friend Things were said in a hurtful way And were not really necessary Now I’ve also lost a close friend And that really does hurt to me Just a note now that it is over It was her choice to walk away I choose to remember the good No matter what any others say I ask all of you to please Let them handle it, if you will With moving ahead in their futures Letting their hearts to begin to heal Florence McMillian (Flo)


Details | I do not know? | |

Eventually

frowns show depression
smiles show an expression
tears show the pain
and kisses are in vain
his heart is not for you
though you don't know it
but soon enough his actions will show 
it


Details | Rhyme | |

It is a painful game

It is a painful game.
You seem to like it. Why?
My feeling`s sick and lame.
So will your one survive?

I need a piece of bread
But I am given sweets.
You want a helping hand.
Don`t tell me you need wings.

I called you “dear”. It`s true.
Don`t make me say “I lied”.
Why so? Why me? Why you?
And is it wrong or right?


Details | Lyric | |

Was it you


1st Verse:

Walk on by me if you see me
Let me pass just let me go
All those things we had between us
Just the past now says so

In the moment it was real
At the time we could stand still
For a love we thought would last
Never forgotten by the past

Bridge:

The love we thought could never die
Has evaporated to blue sky

Chorus:

Saw you today
Couldn’t believe
Was it you standing there
Did my eyes deceive?
Never thought I would wonder
Always thought I knew
But now I don’t know
Is it true?
Was it you?

2nd Verse:

Turn around walk the other way
Strangers is what we are
Knew each other inside and out
Now just a distant star

Time and space, left it behind
Gave our hearts to another kind
Tweaking dreams not breaking seams
Changing faces Wiping slates clean


Details | Blank verse | |

Fake Reality

You see those girls, always,
wearing bright colors all over
and they have too much
nonsense to chatter on about.
The ready, pre-made smiles,
and perfection shines from them.
They have "so much" to offer.
They are the cover of society,
and everyone loves them dearly.

I'm the girl with the scars.
The girl who can't always smile,
who sometimes can't be nice,
and doesn't like wearing makeup.
I have problems, and can't always
paint over them with happiness.

Which of us is more real?
Someday your silly dreams
will vanish without a trace.
and you'll face reality.
One day, I will face it too.

Or perhaps I already have?


Details | Free verse | |

Moonlight Bliss

Sadness overflows
glorifying this time
when the sun loses
its battle over the
night.
When this heart
feels devoid of
anything happy and
the light of
this being loses
its battle over the
night.

Tonight,
I feel you slipping
away into the darkness
of this moment.
Still,
I will wait for you
to emerge in the
stillness of this night.


Details | Lyric | |

Crater

Hold me tight, like tonight was our last day.
If I could have imagined everything
Then I could just walk away.
If I could imagine anything,
Then everything would be my darkest dream.

And I, I can't close my eyes
And fall from your skies.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
Watch as I fall away.

Lay next to me so I can see all that you hide.
Without you here I lock myself away.
And no I won't, I won't give up this fight.
To get up and just walk away.
I can't lose everything.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
And now out here in space,
I wonder what impact I can make.
Watch as I fall away,
Watch as I fall away.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.
Now watch as I fall away.
Watch, watch everything, now as it falls away.


Details | I do not know? | |

Within Me


Within Me

Flowing through the rivulets of my everyday thoughts,
memories of you surface, gasping for air, breathing in,
permeating, absorbed by the pores of my ageing skin.

Famished, greedily gulping mouthfuls of fractured life,
awash in distant yesteryear, when your feathery kisses,
banished the vacuum, dispelling my anguish and strife.

You are eternally carved, and embroidered into my soul,
I wash ashore, smashing against the boulders of the now,
seeking solace, begging for absolution with my empty bowl.

The book of fate is sealed shut, the tea-leaves have been read,
nothing remains within me, the burden of smiling has been shed.

Now I am stranded, between dreams and the empty years ahead,
searching for forgiveness, in the miles I have yet to wearily tread.



Details | Sonnet | |

A sonnet for Johnny

Your love is music to my soul,
It is more lovely than any 
melody that replays in my 
mind,
Notes fly through my heart that 
was once coal,
I was blind
Now I can clearly see since 
your rhythm set me free,
Soft wind hums through my 
ears
As you sing to me,
Your soft voice drives away all 
my fears.
But love never lasts in one's life 
time,
Pardon me as I lay down my 
guard
While you walk a mile in pursuit 
of a heart breaking crime,
You played me like a card.
and I awllowed all of this pain
Never again will I play this 
game.


Details | Rhyme | |

So Sad

Her face was slashed with a knife.
She was evicted from her life!
The gashes filled with blood, 
he thought he was such a stud!

The constant bashing on her brain,
made him go even more insane!
What did she do wrong?
Except for singing a song
that he didn’t like at all!
So, she had to take a fall!

When the police came round to call,
he knew nothing at all!
Said when he came home,
she was already in a zone.

So innocent all of a sudden,
but something he has forgotten.
What about the doubt,
maybe someone heard a shout!

What will he do?
Go & kill them too,
or will he start to run,
& in the end,
just kill himself with a gun!


Details | I do not know? | |

Tearing Apart

Torn from the thoughts of yesterday
Torn from everything i thought I loved
Torn from a love that I thought was true
Sealed shut with lonely, scattered, depressed fears
Sewed up with the needles and threads
Made up of confusion,  hunger, lost, and pain
Scared of new love and thoughts
Moving rapidly into my path of nothingness
I want to feel again
I want to feel real love
I want to feel the closeness
That's the hunger of my heart
But who am I to expect this
From someone whose heart's been harmed
I feel the sadness that lurks there
You remind me everyday
The more I ask of you
Is not my place
But I will hold on
No matter how badly the stones of sadness hit
I will resist
No matter how shattered my heart gets
I will wait
For you to let me in
Love you with the fullness of my heart
And I will not hate


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Paper or plastic: either Heart will still throb

"Love me," he said.

"NO."

-She laughed-

"Trust me," he said.

"No!"

-She cried-

"See me," he said.

What?... Why?... What's the point? ... Why are you here?

*so many real questions with plastic answers.

"Okay," she said.

-She caves-

*as quickly as the candles were lit, they blew out.

"I'm sorry," he said.

What happened to it?

What happened to what?

What happened to...

"I will always protect you."

"You don't understand how much this means to me."

?

It does, eh?

*Where's the flowers at?

"That's what I thought."

END.

(Damn Cave)


Details | I do not know? | |

You Don't Even Know

You kept making promises
And i kept believing
How stupid of me
Im sorry that I fell for you.
I cry over you
Its a daily thing
Sad songs constantly on repeat
Every one reminds me of us.
I want to be happy again
I want to love and be loved
But you just had to enter my life
And break my heart so I could only love you.
Is this part of your little game
Make me believe in you and our love
Then break my heart and leave me here
To suffer though this and ruin my love life?
You have done all of this
And so much more to me
But thats not even the sad part
The sad part is you don't even know..


Details | I do not know? | |

Don't

Don’t leave me here with nothing but tears.
Don’t hurt me and not expect fears.
Don’t say you love me, and then leave me.
Don’t think that saying sorry will make everything okay, 
Because I’ve heard it so many times in every single way.
Don’t tell me who I am and how I do, because I never told you.
don’t say that you didn’t  know I was true because as of now I am through with you.



Details | Rhyme | |

Set Up To Fall

It happened so fast, what went wrong?
You wanted to stay, apparently not so long.
As long as you said, wasn't this short.
I guess it was a game, love was the court.


Details | Free verse | |

In My Bedroom Walls

A place for a myriad of pastimes
From bliss to despair
The pictures that hang here have a luminous glow from the rays that shine from 
the sun
Sometimes I stare at the them wishing I could escape into the picturesque 
setting where I am free from all my demons

My bedroom walls
Where my secrets lie 
They see my sins
They hear my cries
Just one more place
Where my dreams have died

Ghosts from my past
Awaken me at night
I hear the howling
Of the wolves that lay in wait to tear my flesh
They violate sacred grounds
Like vultures they feed off me until all that is left is bones

If these walls could speak what would they say?
Would they scream my confidences like Banshees and give their mistress away?
Or will they remain silent? 
Mysterious chamber of slumber where both romance and horror have performed
Where I keep myself hidden
Only they have the key to unlock the truth bestowing serenity on my soul
These bedroom walls don't crucify me for my wicked transgressions
In my bedroom walls I don't have to masquerade or put on a costume to conceal 
my imperfections
In these bedroom walls I am free to be me


Details | Free verse | |

Healing Scars

The putrid scars left from the past
Like most things, will never last
Finding a lover who binds them with zeal
In hopes of letting their other half, know it is real

But do not ever take the fear or the pain
Of another with thyself as to blame
For it is not the one who is presently their
It is you that is the sight of fresh, loving air!

Oh God, the thought of losing that half
Of a person’s heart, which was built to last
The scars that are healing from the wicked before
Never again to feel the pain that was endured

The lashing out in suspicion is mere self defense!
It never means that one’s heart with you, is tense
After the words that are spoken comes sorrow
For what if the words make all gone by tomorrow

It is a terrible thing to think of that lost
Everything is done to keep this heart, not matter the cost
So forever remember, there is love in this heart
Never trembling, nor fading, nor spreading apart


Details | Rhyme | |

forgive me

If you read this, leave a comment.
for Bree is mad at me and I'm trying to show
that i do love so very much of her.
this i hopefully, the love of her life. Alec.
thank you







please, Bree
forgive me
can't you see..?
that i love thee?

For i made a wrong choice,
of using my own voice,
and saying things i should not have said.
for i was drunk
worse than an a punk, you called me.

I know your hurt,

over what i announced,
but  let me assure you,
i do dread,
the things i said,
when my head was in a tizzy,
with the stuff that makes me dizzy
you're my busy, busy bee,
taking every part of me
you're my glee
forgive me,
please.

-  love tenderly Alec


Details | Free verse | |

What Her Heart Had to Say

I lost what I was looking for
When love to an unschedule detour
So bent upon the illusion of control
That you mixed your lies with our love
And concocted a remedy so toxic
That now it hurts even you..
Irony
Now you expect me to believe
It took countless tears and the dust from my broken heart 
Just for you to realize that I was the best thing you ever had?
hmph.. Well I hope you make friends with loneliness
Because pain has already pushed me away


Details | Rhyme | |

Broken Time

Here I write another rhyme, amongst the broken time.
I drown myself to sleep, just to dream of you.
If I continue to weep, will we begin anew?
No time for farewell, as I close my eyes.
Down into darkness I fell, as I whispered goodbyes.
I feel the broken dreams, scratching at my heart.
I continue my broken screams, until I fall apart.
If death could breathe, it would live through me.
I cannot help but to believe, this is the end I see.
The whispers surround, drowning me in regret.
The end is what I've found, 'tis Death I've met.
I've written these last notes, in my final moments.
This misery I forever tote, confines me in silence.
I've left this note to help me get through, my feigning suicide.
I've always loved you, but now the angels have cried.
I promise I'll remain true, yet somehow my hope has died...


Details | Romanticism | |

At the moment. . .

Long ago before many days and months,
At the days we shared everything,
There was a twilight- that
Noticed the things we did. . 

Other than that none spotted our chats.
And the allocated time to
Assign our remotely done works
There U pulled me unto u. . 

I lost not only myself but
Also my customs of originality
Never ever wondered it would happen. . 

We laughed, we cried, we played by
Imagining our every sweats was true
My nail marks in your chest
Your lip marks on my cheeks. . 

Could not judge it right or wrong- since
We’re paired as couples in each dreams
Embraced our weakest shape links
We got lost along the ways. . .

Never comes the days wherein-
	our hands together in my bed,
	your arms around my waist,
	our affectionate kisses at surface,
	your pull dragging my wrist,
	each of ours admiration and motivation,

	our doting numerous nick names, 
	a very silly fights
	and a tight hugs after them,
	hot spellbind looks.

	Lost myself in subconscious migration-when 
	U hypnotized my eye balls.
	whilst these all happened for abundant days
	including our mutual breakup. . 

Became conscious only after everything got over 
Every single moment flashed within a micro second,
when I saw u through my bus window at yours-where
U was found acting asleep with hands enclosing your face
And realized I was vanished at the moment. . . 
						~ Hannah


Details | Free verse | |

My mister,,,,,

My mister right
My mister wrong 
Break my heart, and put up a fight
Then sing me a sad song.
Say you over me.
Then start crying over me. 
Say I ain't nothin to you, 
But I'm your everything too.
The memories you done forgot.
Then say they preserved and won't ever rot.
Say it won't happen again 
But over and over.
Same old thing.
Running around in circles.
But I'm ready to move ahead.
As I lay down in bed 
My mind drifts away..
Wondering how life would be if you woulda just stayed.
Without You, i dont know what to do,
Wish I could say I was over you,
But be this just ain't true.
Why did you have to be split.
Couldn't fix it with a first aid kit.
Half I love.
That's the half from heaven above.
Half from hell.
Deciving lies didn't ring my bell
So you had me fooled.
Head over heels and dripping drool.
Even though you were mean and crewel.
Still I'm in love.
Although you tell me to cut my wrist
I still care.
Your still my baby boo bear. 
Your my angel
My devil
My missing piece to the puzzle
Give me a little bit of everything I need.
But now your gone, this I hope you read.
Maybe get on the same page up to speed
And don't take advantage, greed.
Cuz honey this killin me.
Listen to these words be.
Regardless of what I do. 
Those promises I made remain true.
I'll save my heart for you.
The promises I made stay true
You my mr wrong. But you my mr right too. 
I hope we can work this out because
I miss you.
I want you.
I crave you.
But most of all because
I love you.
Both parts of you because it's who you are
...Even though it's got me torn.


Details | Rhyme | |

No More Teardrops On My Face

I don’t want another teardrop on my face,
I don’t want to feel like I’m out of place.
Not knowing what is in store, 
But I’m always thinking about you more and more.
What is this world coming to?
Will there ever be a real me & you?

Lying awake on my bed,
Feelin’ like the universe is inside my head.
Having a million things or two
To think about that involves you.
I’m debating internally,
On whether or not you’re the right one for me.

I don’t want another teardrop on my face,
I don’t want you to leave my heart in last place.
To think that we would no longer be,
Puts my heart in so much misery.

I don’t think you know how much I love you,
Even after all that we’ve been through.
You’d think it would be destiny,
Even though we’ve been through so much scrutiny.

Please, no more teardrops on my face,
I can't stand feeling like I'm in an emotional race.
No more, no more,
I don't want to be in an emotional war.
No more, no more,
It's bad enough a feel this sore.


Details | Lyric | |

Walk On

If I could write a story,I'd write about the past.
The masks and all the words I was afraid to speak.
It would be a story without moral.
I've learned nothing from this journey.
The chapters would be short and simple
In the form of thoughts and riddles.

If I could write a poem to heal myself
I'd un-bandage these wounds
And let them bleed on my page.
I promised myself I wouldn't wait.
I wouldn't have hope but thanks to you
That's all I know.
I'd pack all these things and give them to you,
Because I know patience and love are both virtues.
But if you burned them as physical memories
You know I'd understand.

Wave steady and ignore the tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Wave steady and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk around and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

There's no shame to sing your favorite song
To save your life.
I'll sing all that I can sing,
And I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.

Walk on and ignore  this tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Walk on and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk on and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

And I'll sing all that I can sing.
I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.


Details | Quatrain | |

Story of My Life

A tear fell today,
The first one in a while.
I had made a promise
To only think of us a smile.

I'd say I'm sorry,
And I won't do it again,
But I'm sure I'd be lying,
Because when I think I can't, I can.

I can still cry a little
And miss our happiness,
Especially on days or in moments
That are even close to this.

Every night I dream
Of when we'll be happy together
And every day I wake
To the reality that you want her.

You tell me everyday it's temporary.
You swear that it's all for the best,
But it hurts because I swear you're lying.
I think you are just like the rest.

I thought you were better than that.
Sometimes, I think I still do,
But then a day like today comes up.
Story of my life. It's nothing new.

You'd think I'd be used to it.
I'd adjust to ruining my own happiness,
But I honestly don't think I could ever.
I don't want to get used to this.


Details | Rhyme | |

Lies

What can you say to me that I haven’t already heard?
You haven’t even said anything, but I know your every word.
You’ll tell me that you love me; you’ll tell me that you care;
You’ll tell me that through anything, you will always be there.

I believed it once, a long time ago, 
On a star filled night like this.
You told me you loved me more then anything, 
But I never felt it in your kiss.

Why is it I still dream of you?
I can’t get you off my mind,
But the love you claimed so strongly before,
I still cannot find.

I think about you every moment, 
But you don’t even see,
The pain you caused so long ago,
Still hasn’t let me be.

I need to leave this all behind,
A life of pain and sorrow.
So save all your wasted words,
For the girl you’ll love tomorrow.


Details | Narrative | |

Not the Better One

She’s the better one
Beautiful and what you deserve
Comparison is not an option
A rock to a diamond
I make little to none shine
And she can make mountains
Upon a hill of grind

Full with hate of what I've become to day
Disgusted with the monster
That’s been created an atomic bomb
And I feel all the shame
Wishing to change everyday
I am a nothing compared to that

Perfect is what she is
Cute is what you two are
Monstrous is what I am
Killing is what you’re doing
Burning away every dream is what’s happening
She is better one
Wishing it was me
She is the better one


Details | Free verse | |

House Of Cards

I forget that I’m in trapped in a house of cards
until the wind comes blasting through
And I’m left again with nothing
Nothing but grief and this pile of all that I knew

I had to forget how much I cared for you
Something no one should ever have to do
Can you remember? Do you remember?
Those darkly happy days when you felt that way too?

Love so many bitter times unrequited
Two hearts broken----too broken to break anymore
You’ve become my dark horse in this race against time 
And I hope to God we’re not about to lose 

Futile 
Infantile
And all around absurd 
Is what this nightmare without you has been

We shouldn’t have to work so hard
To fall flat down on our faces
again and again

I wish you’d come out of your shell
and back to life in the warmth of my arms once again


Details | ABC | |

I was a fool

Your nothing more then a lier and a dog
In you made me believe you wasn't going to do me wrong
Now I sit here as a fool
Reading these letter that you sent to her
As my heart breaks
I can't believe you would do this to me
you even looked me in my eyes and said baby I wont cheat
I was a dang fool to believe you
Cause Now I lay here with a bottle of wine with a broken heart
Thanks.


Details | I do not know? | |

A Lover's Nightmare

I dreamed I lost love
that i never even had
it hurt so much
you just wouldn't understand

my dream turned into a nightmare
when i found out my lover wasn't real
when my friend told me i just couldn't cope
pain and only pain was all i could feel

i cried my eyes out
and my friend comforted me
it turned out he was just a computer program
my heart locked and only he had the key

i can't believe he was just a hologram
i really can't because we kissed
he brought me eight roses
the four others weren't even missed

he was really sweet and kind
but he wasn't real and my friend knew all along
she hinted and that's how i figured it out
and that was when everything went wrong

i didn't get to say goodbye
before he had disappear(ed)
what was first a lover's dream
turned into a lover's nightmare


Details | Free verse | |

Album From The Heart

I can't get her off my mind, or my heart
And second verse same as the first
Chorus Lost in my head and the hooks won't come out
Lodge so deep in my subconscious
My heart beats to the melody of our favorite song
You see..
I feel..
but heard, her voice so sweet, like an angels laluby
able to slay the savage beast ive caged inside
locked so far away but still got out
then in she came, and I found out
She could very well be
the best thing thats ever happened in my crazy life

But ive miss read the lyrics, for far too long
looking for where i went wrong
only to find love is just a sad song.. played by me
And now i have a close friend, trying to fix
how love met pain, this toxic mix
rid my mind of all these tricks
Now I cross my fingers hoping this isnt just a remix
to my heart beak album


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

my last words to you

my last words to you in a place where i once dwelled, there lived a boy i loved so well, he took his love away from me, and now is willing to set me free. i even know the reason why, the other girl was prettier than i, i ran for home an cried on my bed , an not a single word was said, my mother came home from work that night , an searched for me left an right, she came upstairs,my door she broke, and there she saw me strung by a rope. an on my jeans there was a note that i had wrote, it read: dig a grave, dig it deep, with marble stone , from head to feet, and on my grave, place a dove , an tell the world i died for love.


Details | I do not know? | |

do you

do u love me
      or 
do u care 

what would u do
         if 
i wasn't there?
 
is this love
      or is it
 lust are u someone i can trust 
?
 
can u fix me when im broken
         using
  words still unspoken?
 
if my heart was in your hand 
           would you
  love me and understand,
 
 understand the words i speak 
                 and
  understand the things i seek?

Do you
Would you ?


Details | Rhyme | |

MY TEARS R MY PAIN

MY TEARS R MY PAIN!!!

Never wanted things to happen this way
For U it was always just a play
How come I never understood
Trusted U more than I should
Still thinking wat could have U gained
For the tears I drained

Never wanted things to happen this way 
U were supposed to be My only ray
Ray of love, warmth, affection 
But Malice within U 
Altered all feelings, Emotion
I Had in my Heart ingrained
Now its just Tears pouring like rain

Never wanted things to happen this way
Thought U r the shoulder I would lay
My hands on in despair
Give me nothing but care
But all this was just a dream 
Now wiped out in vain
With My Tears, Now feeling so Insane






Never wanted things to happen this way
Ur sins would be accounted someday
U would feel the pinch 
Of wat U Have to pay
M sure
Coz, I knew My love was pure

Ur memories R like stain 
Would never be able to scour of My brain
I perceive My life would be opaque pane
Always on the brink of sharp cutting vane
My eyes never gonna lit again
The Tears underneath 
Gonna be only My N My PAIN !!!
					
					-----yashu


Details | I do not know? | |

Life Happens

It ended today.
I didn't know what to say.
I looked in her eyes, the truth was tearing her away.
We hugged, said goodbye, and I surely know why.
But that doesn't numb the pain,
All I can do is sigh.

We laughed and kissed
We hugged, we dismissed
all the stupid s*** around us, we didn't miss.
Problems came and went, it was always worth it though.
But the stupid s*** caught up, and suddenly it showed.

The happiness we felt was almost too good.
Its gone now, but everything remains as it should.
I'll miss it deep down, until the day I die.
But the sorrow doesn't leave me to ask why,
Because I know, life happens, it's just time to move on.
Just time to move on.
Life Happens.
Move on...


Details | Blank verse | |

Alone With No Sense Of Direction

I am a lost person, but I am not alone.
I make choices in my life and I choose to let go.
I need a change of space, and my lyrical notes,
The beauty and the face should fade, but more I want to grow.
The nobility in life is sad, when madness is a nuisance and insanity a fad.
I have some regrets, some I can't forget,
but If I can't forgive myself, then who will forgive my sins?
I'll give it my all, and pray I win.
I'll keep my heart locked and throw away the key,
never let anyone inside, so I can remain free.
Can I question a higher power, or would I be dead,
The scum of the earth, creating poetry that is read,
by the mindless masses, blaming the heart to death,
I hope this will heal me, burning the past, 
The beauty in the innocence, never really lasts.
I have a feeling tonight will open my eyes, 
and guide me too the light instead of lies.
I'm praying to god that you are how I think you are,
because I need compassion, not just a broken heart.
I don't know why I like you, but you seem to close to part.
Please don't leave me here, surrounded in the dark.


Details | Rhyme | |

Forever & Never

you promised me forever
now i guess its never?
i looked at you and believed in love
now i dont think it was anything but a bluff.
i believed you loved me
now i can truly see
you want her instead of me
i just wanna flee
away from this world of love that i knew
its all turning blue
your the only one i want
but you left me in the dirt
i lve you forever
you love me never.


Details | I do not know? | |

new trend

 new trend


Details | Light Poetry | |

ADDICTED TO YOU by Collice Rodrigues

I wish to breathe my last breath in your arms

You’re the one to kill me with your charms

Everybody coaxed me to avoid you but no

You’re that someone who I just can’t let go

 

This world is cruel it has always made me cry

You take me to heaven and teach me to fly

You taught me how to deal with my pain

Without you barren would my life remain

 

You take me to a different world as I hallucinate

And all the pleasures of life you begin to recreate

I’m losing my senses someone tell me who am I

I know I need you but I don’t know why

 

Your absence makes me restless it’s you I need

I am an addict and you are marijuana my weed

I got addicted to you that I intentionally chose

Now that I’m addicted I don’t mind an overdose

 

-Collice Rodrigues

11/11/2010


Details | Ballad | |

So Many You's

Now you’re gone, She  had the strength to let go…
A smile . Behind the face . Yet emptiness “n” hurt too
Peace at last . Yet so lonely . She missed the real you .
He’s long gone , destroyed with the bottle.

It wasn’t all bad, This she knew . Lost in the bottle…
It was hard to accept, Lonely too…
All the different You’s ,It was so strange…
She knew it wasn’t you . It was beyond your control..

The scars from your own abuse . Alone
The bruises. The Beatings the emptiness too
Lost childhood, Identity gone (you went to war –
Came back a different you)

A lost love broke you too, Then you hid in a bottle.
And lost the true you, it hid your pain and sorrow,
Just lost to a bottle…

The person you became . Wasn’t you this she knew
The bottle first . Nothing else . How it hurt her, 
Just lost in a bottle, 


She watched you change, Knew it wasn’t you .
Didn’t mean She didn’t love you. Or didn’t care …
She just couldn’t see it through, She lost the true you…

She watched you . Destroy you . Lost in a bottle
And couldn’t watch . Or take no more.
Cause she loved and lost you to a bottle.


Details | I do not know? | |

All I Know

I want to Hug you & Never let go
I want you to Hold me tight in your arms

Squeeze until our Hearts no longer Beat.
"Thy Shall Not Live Nor Thy Shall Not Die Without You By My Side"

You seem like you Care for me like No other
You seem like im Interesting
You seem like you See me as Beautiful

Sometimes theres No Words that describe how I Feel About You.

 All i know is the I Dont Want To Lose You.


-Brittany- (comment and rate if you dont mind. i like to hear what you think..thank you for reading :)  )


Details | Lyric | |

Black Widow

1 through the door
2 through your heart
3 through your head
4 colors in my eyes
Red, red, red

1 clash
2 rings
3 words
4 sirens
Shrieks of red, red, red

1 bed of white
2 saviors
3 men at my side
4 grievers
Tears of red, red, red

1 room of rock
2 rings around my wrist
3 eyes in my head
4 days before forever
Stains of red, red, red

1 room
2 sides
3 on one
4 on the other
Crying out red, red, red

1 decision
2 stabs of pain in my side
3 cries
4 smiles
The judge says red, red, red

1 boy
2 people
3 arguments
4 solutions
Mine was red, red, red


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Your Vanity

Misery weighs down your eyes, as you begin to read.
In this dance of lies, you'll forever lead.
If you can't stand, I'll see you on the other side.
Take my hand, for now the son has died.
I'll reach under the skin, and steal away your disease.
I'll fight and win, as Death becomes a tease.
I fell into fantasy, as I feel your touch.
Swallow your vanity, for you cry too much.
The string of white lights, a full moon casting.
The shadowed nights, are never lasting.
Forever wandering, these cold dark seas.
The world squandering, crying the harshest pleas.
The voiceless won't rest, as they continue squalling.
On this endless quest, I continue falling.
Fall children, dance with every death boy and girl.
The monster will fight again, yet we're all so coy.
Lets fall to our knees, and begin to pray.
Do they hear my pleas, down together we'll lay.
Unrelenting omnipotence, nuturing malevolence.
Angels and Demons, bow before the other.
The unknowing sons, begin to kill their brother.
Leave for me, the crumbling headstones.
Ignore and leave me be, for death has shown.
Leave me to sleep, in this desecrated sanctuary.
In these dreams I weep, yet I tarry.
Will you be my love, will we watch the world burn?
What are the thoughts of, for the dead forever yearn.
No I don't want to die, no not tonight.
I can no longer try, I don't want to fall into the light.
As I climb the stairs, I reach toward the stars.
The heart tears, as it feels the scars.
I begin my ivy climbing, for the voiceless call.
It's the matter of timing, for who will begin their fall?


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You became Shallow moster

Why
I let you back again
thinking you have changed
but instead 
you've changed into this shallow monster
your not the man I once loved
you became angry
you express your words
threw abuse
all I ever done 
was love you
I never thought 
I would never regret 
saying I love you
But I do 
I can longer love you 
Nor love you back
you are total 
different person
I've tired to make it 
work more the once
all it have's caused is pain heartache and stress
Please do not try stop me
As I walk out that door
This is how it should be
This is good bye.



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Lost Love WLM March 29 2011

I feel so hurt
And so much like a jerk
For I have lost my dream
Just let it out and scream
What did I do
Can I ask you
Am I to be alone
All I can do is groan
I ask God will it ever be
Does she really want me
Please Lord let her call
For me to be that is all
I am so stuck in a rut
Do I just give up
Can not hold back the tears
The return of all my fears
I hope to see
That she really needs me
I will never know
For she will have to show
Can you give me my best friend
Or have I lost her again
Tell me did I sin
Should I just give in
I am at my wits end
Knowing not where to begin
I sit here and moan
At me just throw the heavy stone
Please, oh please hit the mark
Then I know it will break my heart
I always feel the use
Finally I remember the abuse
My feelings inside
Will never subside
Why not go ahead and fall
With my life just end it all
Does anyone really care
That would be so rare
For all I feel is lost
And in the end that is the cost




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Anthem of the Broken

A promise whispered so sweetly,Who could 
have ever known? Slowly, I let go of the past 
For you. Let go of everything and started anew. 
Unfortunately, our first kiss wasn't your last.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

I never thought you'd end  up playing this game.
Those walls I put up, they came down for only you.
I'm alone, you're gone. But I can't help to remember 
How it used to be. Remember the man I once knew.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, this will be,
This will be,
The anthem of the Broken.

Nothing can change the past, nothing will bring you back.
This heart's just been broken too many times before.
So many scars and so many stitches tell the story of who
I was. I only want to be able to walk away from this affair. 
 
You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, the anthem of the broken.

I watched you walk away, watched you move on like we 
Never happened. You never looked back, never gave me a chance
 Just kept walking, Didn't know What to think, 
Couldn't understand why I fell for your lies, why I agreed to this romance.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Oh, Broken into tiny pieces, so small and delicate.
It hurts me more than you'll ever know to pick 
them up. tiny pieces of glass cut my hands as I work, 
Trying to repair my heart, why did I have to love you, dick?

Now I know the truth, Now I can see through your lies, Saw how 
Every promise you made was fake as soon as it was spoken.
Here I go, standing in a wasteland, watching you leave
And softly signing the anthem of the broken.


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Hope Ur Doin Fine -based on a true story-

I USE 2 THINK WE’D ALWAYS BE 2GETHER
U N I FOREVER BUT LUV IS LIKE THE WEATHER
AFTER THE RAIN IM DOING BETTER THAN I EVER DID
DON’T WORRY BRAT I GET ALONG U KNO IM STRONG
JUST ANOTHER PROBLEM GONE AND I JUST KEEP MOVING ALONG
I DON’T LIKE 2 DWELL ON WUT I DON’T HAVE
BUT I WAS RIGHT THERE IF U EVER WANTED ME BACK
IM ON A NEW PATH MORE SERIOUS BUT STIL LUV 2 LAUGH
I NEVER HAD IT LIKE THIS I TRULY FEEL BLESSED
GOT THE LORDS HAND ON MY CHEST
THANK U FATHER 4 EVERY BREATH
NOW IM OUT 2 DO MY BEST
I UNDERSTAND WE WERE IN LUV
WE WERE A CRAZY/BEAUTIFUL MESS
MADE EACHOTHER UPSET MORE TIMES THAN WE HAD SEX
BUT IT WAS STILL LOVE I KNO ILL NEVER FORGET
ITS NOT THAT I STILL MISS U OR THAT I STILL LUV U
I JUST REALLY WANT TO KNO WHY DID U LET ME GO

...It was so true I was so deep in luv with u...

I KNOW THE STORY WE TOLD 
IT WAS OUR TIME 2 GO DIFFERENT WAYS
AND I FEEL MESSED UP CUZ I PUSHED U FURTHER AWAY
HONESTLY I WANTED US 2 STAY 2GETHER
U N I FOREVER BUT LUV IS LIKE THE WEATHER
AFTER THE RAIN I HOPE UR DOIN BETTER THAN U EVER DID
I KNO I DON’T REALLY GOT 2 WORRY BOUT U ONE LIL BIT
U CAN HANDLE ANY TYPE OF BULL*****MRS. INDEPENDENT
I TRULY FELT U WERE HEAVEN SENT
BUT NOW I SEE WHY U WERE MENT FOR ME
2 HELP ME WISE UP N SEE THERE’S MORE 2 ME THAN MEETS THE EYE
TRANSFORMING MYSELF N2 A BETTER MAN
I UNDERSTAND MYSELF BETTER THAN I HAVE BEEN
I DON’T KNO WUT HAPPEN IT ALL SEEMS LIKE A DREAM NOW
AND EVERY ONCE IN A GREAT WHILE I THINK OF UR SMILE
DAMN I REALLY WISHED I COULD OF MET U AT THE END OF THE AILE

...Theres nothing I wouldn’t do 2 have you by my side...

IM OK IM DOING FINE IM TAKEN CARE OF MINE
THIS IS JUST A LONG THOUGHT FROM MY MIND
I MISS THINKING ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME
BUT IVE GROWN IM JUST THINKN CUZ THIS LONGEST WE LEFT EACHOTHER ALONE
LIKE ME I KNO U TOOK MY NUMBER OUT OF UR PHONE
BUT THAT’S A LIE UR STILL THERE SPEED DIAL #5
I LOOK AT IT AND SEE WHY I KEEP PUSHING MYSELF MORE
CUZ NO MORE WILL I LET A GOOD THING ESCAPE FROM ME
I LOVE THE FREEDOM BUT ITS BETTER WHEN I HAVE SOME ONE NEXT TO ME
CUZ ITS GOOD TO HAVE THAT SUPPORT FROM SOME ONE U TRULY CARE 4
BUT IM NOT LOOKN OR WAITN 4 THE NEXT GIRL
THERES TOO MANY SUCIAS IN THE WORLD
I AM LOOKN N WAITN 4 THE NEXT WOMAN
THEY’RE A RARE BREED 2 FIND N I THOUGHT U WERE MINE BUT ITS FINE
I SURE MINE WILL COME AROUND IN DO TIME
REALLY BRAT I HOPE UR DOING FINE

...But now I got to say goodbye, goodbye.


'11 B.K.M.jr


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Dance

Take your hand and put it out forward,
Than swing out out to the side, c'mon don't be a coward. 
This is fun, now swing your hips from side to side,
Remember all the times you couldnt express yourself and you cried.

But now your can swing your legs and feet any way you want,
Look for that new move that you looked for your whole life like a hunt. 
Grab someone by the hand and let them join you in that awesome moment,
I promise you, you will love this feeling you are about to feel.

Turn up the music and dance your heart out,
Move to the beat and go wild and feel like your out of sight. 
This is your moment, don't let anyone take that away for you,
This is not happening too slow and i tell you that that's the truth.

Put some head phones on and go to your own world of greatness,
Bust a move like you never did before, I promise it's harmless.
Make your heart feel what I am feling right now and take my hand,
I promise that I will make you smile and scream with joy and stand.


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NO TEMPTING, BLUE ROSES

Is there such a flower as a despised blue rose...
the one I desperately chose
to sign end under a sad story,
which had neither passion or glory?


With tears so rageful, she thought it was the final goodbye;
why I didn't choose a more charming rose with a different color,
perhaps not as red as her unfaithful heart? It wouldn't have been a lie! 
Ever since, I have shunned and hated blue roses despite their splendor.


They tell me that the reason for my unbearable loneliness
is the urge for touching a face slipped from my grip and will;
if I am to blame...why did I love her with intense sweetness,
and nothing was returned besides a promise so brittle?
 

Let me see only red and yellow roses...but no tempting, blue roses;
I couldn't relive moments rejected by a woman so deceitful and ravishing,
and she smiled as they did, but that trust was distant from the beginning...
marring the lovely appearance of that blue rose standing out from others.


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Forever is really never

Remnants of the past cast shadows on his points of view an attractive conversation with no literal honesty Pained at the cause those scars that remain Those lies on your breath smelled of raw sewerage Tears showed every crease where rivers flow my heart has melted in the middle of your road now requiring tow. I remind myself that everything ends badly or comes to a close though my hearts without resolve when your forever is really never when what I really needed was this lever to take your weight off my shoulders ~I haven't stopped growing~


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why

why do fools fall in love
fall in love so easily
why do fools fall in love
fall in love so deeply

you say you love me
maybe you do
but you dont feel 
the same way as i do
Im in love
Are you in love?
(do you)
I dont think you do

oh,
oh,
ooooh yeah

why do fools fall in love
fall in love so easily
why do fools fall in love
fall in love so deeply

why do fools,
fall in love....
why do fools,
fall in love....

oh oh oh oooh
yeah yeah yeah
oooh... yeah....


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Three

Like a magic lantern lit against the curtain
of my quivering eyes, I return to the night
when autumn was sweet to us, and shut out
the rising tide of winter so that we could pretend
we had fallen into a second spring,
where trees did not bloom but turned to fire
and the rains were gentle kisses from the sky
and we could see our breaths, but we never felt
we needed more protection than a jacket meant
for summer nights, and the occasional embrace
from someone who wanted you beside them.


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Left in pieces

The broken pieces,
through which i see,
have the power,
to render me,
helpless to all,
invisible to you,
here i stay,
shattered anew,
this makes no sense,
what broken thing does?
treading carefully,
i'm shattered because,
i crossed a line,
made a mistake,
pain envelopes the pieces,
with each breath i take.


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Depression Kills

I don't know how long it has been since i heard your voice, 
I don't know why i left without a word, but it was not my choice.
You wished me away, so i left without a word,
you told me to lose you, that's all i ever heard. 

Tears ran down my face with every thought of you,
not being able to see your smile, it would punch me though.
My chest has a whole, that you put there,
it hurts some times, but its not like i care.

I been hurt to many times before to feel anything at the moment,
I thought we had some thing special, but at the end you broke it.
So now again i am all alone and I have no shoulder,
my life is empty now i am beginning to feel allot colder. 

You showed me what people can be like, some thing like you,
people that hurt others and than walk away like they had nothing to do.
But they don't know that they just ripped some ones heart out,
and your left alone, once again, bleeding on the ground.


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No More

Fake a smile.
 Just for a little while.
 Hide all the pain.
 Hide in the rain.
 Storms surround.
 Can’t see around.
 Dark Fierce clouds.
 Thunder frightening and loud.
 Tornadoes, ruining everything in its path.
 Showing the world its mean wrath.
 Hurt filling my soul.
 Just like cheerios in a bowl.
 All this holding inside.
 Falling, never rise.
 Ready to explode.
 Ima Coke, about to drop a Mento.
 Broken, Shattered to pieces.
 But babe im tired of you treating me like feces.
 Throw me out,?
 Thought I was the one you were supposed to care about.?
 You left me in despair.
 Heart so broken—Can’t be repaired.
 My life,
 Now filled with strife.
 Never be the same.
 Not likin’ this game.
 Build me up Powerful, Strong
 Then tear me down, it’s so wrong.
 To write me a song
 Then tell me it’s too long.
 This pain
 I never wanted to gain.
 This storm,
 It’s got me torn.
 Wish you were still here,
 Maybe join me for a beer.
 I take a look in the mirror.
 And see me jumping off a pier.
 Wishing death would come near.
 Wishing the Reaper would get into gear.
 Death seems better than living in fear.
 …Better than sheading a tear.
 Six feet under
 No more Thunder
 No more Tornadoes
 No more rotten potatoes.
 No more Lightning strikes.
 No more wrongs and rights.
 No more rain pours.
 No more.

For Contest entry: Depression


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He Said She Said

Was he the truly faithful one 
Was she the one who strayed
Was he the wandering eye that left
Was she the one who stayed

Two pointing fingers
Two telling tales
Two lives
One true example 
What caused the ultimate demise
Of a love that both once cherished

Each goes around
Each hold a grudge
Each hate
Each loves in silence

No one true reason 
No one true cause
No give a damn 
Is mentioned

Both ones to blame 
Both ones the cause
Both wrong for different reasons

Farewell to thee
Farewell to love
Farewell
No reason given


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I'm Sorry I Ever 'Loved' You

Love So simple right? WRONG! Tears, Heartbreak. Watching the one you love, be in love with someone else. How much can one person take? I'm not sure how much I can take. These decisions I make, These words that I say, Are all for you. I hope you understand, I can no longer just be your friend, not with all that we've been through. So my last words to you are, "I'm sorry i ever met you" :'(


Details | I do not know? | |

BREAK THIS SILENCE...

Open your mouth
and break this silence.
When was he given a licence?
This is your body,
You don’t always have to be sorry!
His hand on your jaw
Makes your face purple and sore
Is marriage,  a war?
Is this why you have come so far?
No money, just drinks, and bars!
Tacky  wowmen  and fancy cars.
he will learn
when the tables have turned
To hold you tight 
Instead of fighting, and  arguing
all through the night. 
You have to be brave,
You are not his slave
Feel proud to say
I made my move, i did not stay!



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His hunger

His hunger:

Would you offer your jaw?
Would you offer your lips?
Would you offer your tongue to feed the hungry wolf in wait?

He howls in agony as he lays in the blood red brier bush.
His limbs contort as he transforms into a Herculean beast.

As he opens his amber eyes, he sees you, His thirst speaking from the deeps of his stomach.

You plead trying to reach the human inside.
“I would offer my heart to the tortured man behind the wolfs eyes.”

It grows silent, his face twists, and his body shakes.
With one slash your blood spills across the brier patch.
Your soul now sleeps with the wild roses as he feeds.

The wolfs hunger subsides but the man inside dies, haunted by the sound of your sweet voice that cried.

“I would offer my heart to the tortured man behind the wolfs eyes.”


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Self

I look at her and weep.
She didn't know the pain ahead
and I do, but can say nothing.
Her happiness is fragile and fleeting,
her hope resting in it completely.
Oh, how she will break soon.
her sun extinguished and dead.
And so I wonder at the one
who looks at me right now.
She knows my future and
knows if my new hope will die,
just like the one I look at.
Will I break again one day?


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So Sad

Her face was slashed with a knife.
She was evicted from her life!
The gashes filled with blood, 
he thought he was such a stud!

The constant bashing on her brain
made him go even more insane!
What did she do wrong?
Except for singing a song
that he didn’t like at all!
So, she had to take a fall!

When the police came round to call
he knew nothing at all!
Said when he came home
she was already in a zone.

So innocent all of a sudden
but something he has forgotten.
What about the doubt
maybe someone heard a shout!

What will he do?
Go & kill them too
or will he start to run
& in the end,
just kill himself with a gun!


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BENT SHATTERED AND PROUD

She doesn’t remember what
she loved about me
so i hold her in my elbows
as if she needed someone to save her
and i hate that i’ve always believed in
things i couldn’t touch

tree house ladder i climbed you
with the weight you swung into me
told the sky
glow heartbeat
glow strong
glow window pane
hold me tight with your seatbelt arms
i am hammock swing
stardust cough
xylophone fingers
bruise easy rock swing
the meaning of yes
the language of whales
she doesn’t remember what we felt like together
she pauses like maybe i won’t see myself in hers
bones i shift
and the city deserts me deep
and indigo sky knuckle down nosebleed
i resorted to creating new memories with you
by looking at old photographs
and pretending i had been in them
glove compartment hawk heart i pulled
sky captain kite punch like
you name me adventure
name me skip trunk keys scrape
name me stranger
like elevator kiss
like storm clouds
like hummingbird heartbeat
i said i like who i am as a person
and you pulled away
as if my skeleton wasn’t big enough to hold both of us
you wore apple core lips
like i should never be sad
that i spent all this time kissing someone who
didn’t want to be kissing me
as if i tasted like relief
like you wanted to cut me into your esophagus
and hush
like quiet city
like loves becoming a plea bargain
like spit me out as a watermelon seed
you say lets get married and name all of our children ribcage
i pull through her thumb locked
and aware of all the times she said apologizing would
just sound empty
and i whisper i hope if i’m getting old
it’s because you make time nonexistent
do not cantaloupe smile
do not flashlight heart
do not risk what you cannot promise on me
do not wear me like we are the same size
i’m building life with slice wounds on the bottom of me feet
deep enough to hide hopes in
so i can wear them into the ground
how to reach from my heart
so you don’t apple adam promises that
sound like
i never lied to you
i want you to teach me
to glow heartbeat
glow strong
glow windowpane
with blood in your
mouth like you thought climbing trees
could teach us to fight distance
remember to hold me
like you know how to shake
remember to keep everything at arms length
remember to palm scoop crayfish
remember to break me
like you know what you cared for about me
these are my confessions on a street corner
bent shattered and proud
I promise to never use words like always 
refer to you and I in the future tense 
or reveal wishes before they come true 
because every person I’ve ever loved 
has said I was the best thing 
that ever happened to them when they left me.


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ONLY FEW PEOPLE KNOW

That she is not mine
She is just another girl
Looking for a gold mine

I said she’s not my girlfriend 
She’s yet another kid
Looking for a father to befriend

She’s one of the many girls
Who knows not what they seek in a man
But just to belong; a hopeless craze

She’s another one of them
Who prefers them hard and en classe  
Not those looking on to Bethlehem 

She’s just another of their set
Ruled by biceps
And an Abs forming the whole six set (pity I have none)

I said she’s one of them
Who squeal at the sight of Bentley
Wishing they had a guy with such mayhem

She’s yet another dreamer
Who thinks am not good enough
And  will rather fall for a smooth schemer

Maybe she’s right in her conceit
But my mum says otherwise
Whose claim then shall I greet

Whatever
As long as you know she’s not mine
Maybe then you’ll know I’m single 


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Pay back

When you love someone it tears you a part,
All you do is cry and cry,
And notice you have a broken heart,
You love him and he loves you,
But he doesn't seem to care?
You hurt deep inside,
It's hard to bare.
All the pain you keep inside,
You feel it everyday,
You cry and scream,
Wishing that he would feel the same,
Now a few weeks past he wants you,
But look at all the things bad he did do wrong.
It's hard to say no but you have to because
He broke your heart,
Now you have to brake his and tear it apart like he did with yours


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Fear of Free falling

Pounding against the shore
My heart beats 
Filling up my face, my hands, my cheeks with heat
Tears begin to role.
Tumbling down, like fireballs. 
Passionate …igniting, reviving as it goes
Why oh why! Am I at despair?
Vulnerable! Exposed! My heart stripped bare
An open book for you to read
Yet shaken up with despair I feel
The thunder of doubt begins to creep
Never have I embarked on this before
Yet unknowingly, deep down I yearn! I crave for more
A sea of contemplation, an abyss of hazy expectations
Pounding against the shore my heart beats
Filling my face, my cheeks, my hands…
As you go, with heat
Rising me to utmost crest 
Elevating higher then Mount Everest
Loving you more all the way
But yet! I dare not undrape my sentiments
For you, like others might not cradle them
For fear of freefalling
Yet….i hear your heart shrieking out my name 
Half shocked, half heart, I am to blame.


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I was such a fool

I lay here hearing the wind blowing against my window
Thinking How much of a fool I was 
When I let you go
I feel like such a horses butt 
Right Now
You wont even talk to me
And All I want to say is
I'm sorry 
Could you ever forgive me
And my foolish ways
Because Baby
I need and want you
I can't do without you
we are stitch together
Baby
Could you ever forgive me
For being such a fool
Cause I love you.


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LIES

your allways on my mind 
but you make me cry 
i wanna die  why do you make me cry and feel like shit
you say you love me then you make me cry over and over
why o why what did i do so wrong
the moments i need yo the most you make it worse 
the moments wheb you need me the most im here and help you
i should go but im dumb and stay 
i stay and cry because your not just mine 
i know theres others 
but im dumb and belive what you say 
you lie and i cry 
i say i love you 
you say it back
but in your mind its not real  
why do i stay i need to leave but i cant i love you but to you love is a four letter word so i have 2 words for you GOOD BYE!!


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3:30am

3:30am\
12/12/12
By: Sami LaRose

No longer do I sit on the edge of my of my bed waiting for your phone calls at 3:30am;

That relationship is dead.

It's nice to say I let it go

As time went on I knew I was bound to grow

The loneliness has turned my heart to stone [or so cold]

But the Florence sunlight came in helped me let you go, she helped me to learn how to grow

Self-healing and no longer self-medicated

Healthy, happy, young and free

These are the things in which we often take for granted, yes; but not me.

So take a chance and maybe a fall, because you never know, life really is worth it all.


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The Love That Hurts

The greatest joy I have ever known is knowing you are calling on Monday at five thirty in
the morning before school.
"Hello, how are you?" and "I'll talk to you later."
Every word from hello to goodbye is cherished.

Your smile makes me warm inside, and how much you mean to me puts tears in my eyes.
I really think I love you. Actually, every fiber of my being is pretty sure I love you.
Warmth and acceptance and peace and deep contentment...
But there is a drawback.

I fear to loose you.
You are across the country, a thousand miles away, and I've let you down enough to
encourage you to focus on your college work, because that's important to you. and because
of that, it's important to me.

Except I can't encourage you to leave.
I can't encourage you to go.
Reader, my dear friend, as selfish as it is, I can't loose you.

I always thought that when you found the one you want to be with, the love would make
everything work.
I never expected it to hurt
Because as much as I love you, it would destroy me if you were lost. And I think about
loosing you a lot.
It's crippling, and horrid, and with something as unrealistic as daydreams, I know what it
feels like to burn. I can't imagine what it would do to me if it actually happened.

I am afraid to love you. I'm afraid to pick up the phone sometimes when you call, but not
for any amount of money in the world or any incentive would I ignore that phone.

The reason for that is that i love your laugh.
When I'm talking to you, you help clear my mind and I can think.
And the biggest reason, Reader, is because I am happy when I talk to you.

I love you. And you are precious beyond words and you are everything to me.
I have a love that hurts and it scares the crap out of me
And I wouldn't trade it for the world.


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How could you

She sits there wondering
waiting
If you'll ever see
She's tired of waiting
crying
How could you let this be?


Locked in the system
a victim of reality
Lost to the unknown world
She sits there
Trapped in her fantasy


She stares out the window
Missing your heartbeat
Longing for your arms
But you won't ever see
You've left her to live here
die here
Drowning in a wordless sea


So many people
around her
but she can't ever tell
She's walking alone now
always
just a hollow shell


They tell her to listen
Move on
With her twisted life
She can't find a reason
a value
nothing but the blade of a knife

It's not the answer
she knows this
but the pain is just too much
You left her to bleed here
lie here
when she only craved your touch

Up in the air she raises
the blade oh so high
So many people
she's leaving
without a single goodbye

Plastic as a doll's toy
her smile was
But you couldn't see
That all she ever wanted
just you
but you had to leave

She sits there wondering
waiting
If you'll ever see
She grew tired of waiting
of crying
How could you let this be?


Details | Free verse | |

The Wayward Cafe

I sat in a small wayward cafe,
the smell of coffee beans being crushing into submission
tickled at my nosterls.
The sounds of tin cans and cups
some of them being stacked and others
drop with a violent crash.
The tables all red and round
There sat the women, with their novels, tea cups and coffee mugs
sharing small talk of innocent love.
Some women quiet and others talking.
All of them drinking something.

The cool air blew through the windows,
what a mess that wind made.
Blowing papers all around
and blowing the women's hair back.
A man sat there, writing away,
with an endless cough, a tickle at his Adam's Apple.
Then again everyone had a cough.

I sat there reading poetry, writing poetry, embracing poetry
with a pen in one hand and my head in the other,
gently resting of the red round table.
I wrote of the cafe, the women, the man with the endless cough,
that shattered your ear drums everytime he put his hand to his mouth
and coughed away.

A woman who sat reading way,
drinking lemonade and sometimes
taking long glances up.
She was waiting for someone, I could tell.
I looked at her and she at me,
and we both smiled.
Then a sudden silence,
she looked away from me.
A man, who had an ego,
(Then again, doesn't every man have one)
brushed my shoulder and pushed me away.
He apologized, not sincerly.
They kissed and hugged,
I went back to writing with a frown.
They went away in love, I guess?
And I sat all alone in that
lonesome wayward cafe.
Nothing to keep me company, but smell of coffee and tea
and the laughs of the women sharing small talk,
and that one man with Earth shattering cough.


Details | Quatrain | |

Move

Hope you find all you desire, 
In your world filled with denial
Before you grow you must plant a seed
And that requires trial

Effort means little when you simply speak
It's actions you must prove
Amazing how different things can happen
Once you actually move

I'm taking this situation to heart, 
And letting God mold my fear, 
Before it was to lose you,
and now to God my worries veer

Our struggles may appear alike,
But one thing you must consider
At the end of the day I have the Lord
And you continue to grow bitter

You can't hide your problems, can't ignore your thoughts
For each of us has our vice
Covering the issue up under the rug
Will only create the same mistake, twice


Details | Rhyme | |

How Can I Cope?

When I first met you
I didn’t know what to do
You were everything I wanted
And I thought you loved me too
But unfortunately
It wasn’t meant to be
Oh, god why couldn’t I see
That you weren’t the guy you pretended to be?
Do you have any idea how much it hurt me
To see you standing there
With track marks on your arms?
Do you know how much harm you’ve caused me?
The stress you put on me is too much for me to bear
It isn’t fair after all the time we shared together
I thought you’d learnt to trust me a bit better
To see you waste away like that
Is one of the hardest facts I’ve ever had to deal with
At least you tried to deal with it
You went away and came back strong and fit
We tried again
And of course it came to an end
You bent over backwards just to please me
But you just couldn’t just let it be
Can’t you see?
That you meant and still mean everything to me?
But how can I cope
We’ve tried again and again and there isn’t any hope
I just want you to know
That I will always care


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Reality

perfection, who would have thought him perfect?
without his words, i know no other truth
reality,
the mother of my existence, you gave birth to twins
euphoria and agony,
oh agony!
reality,
i ask for only a moment to bury myself inside
his soul, his mind, I want to be with it, of it
i need to breathe him, fill my lungs with love,
with life,
why can't I?
REALITY!
oh to cast you back to the depths of hell, demon!
to come into a life, just to taunt...
there is no hatred so pure, as the one i hold for you
for you today,
reality,
you have taken away my heart,
that was your wicked plan all along
was it not?
well,
reality,
without him,  I have nothing left to lose,
no sanity left to keep me afloat
so,
reality,
today you have been defeated
i have always held the key
it's almost tragic, oh
reality,
do you realize you cannot exist
without me?
so say your prayers,
as this war comes to a bloody end
we were both martyrs for the same cause-
reality.


Details | Ballad | |

Josette, Drive the Faerie out of me

She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me


Details | Free verse | |

The methadone girl

She could hardly drag himself along,hovered between life and death,
so frozen that her hands are insensible to any feeling
and atrophied heart works only for the casual trade.
Plucked at hair with rage as these morning habits die hard,
spiting blood,residues of the night before.
You toiled in vain because you think you've met her several times
and your soul finally realized your ambitions.
But she is the methadone girl.
The cheap shoes worn out,trampled underfoot by the crowd,
wasted by the long illness,languished from indifference.
Dice with her life everyday,the perspective of sadness,
gain nothing or something in her mind,
watching you to keep your reputation free from all slurs
The drainage happened at the age of eighteen
only dent in her pride was forever.
Fool her with promises,exchange arms and legs with money,
skin burns easily so be an animal,defy the pressure-gauge.
Rolling on souls again.
Overawe us into the silence.
The silence of methadone.


Details | Free verse | |

Motley

Are you happy?
Look at what you’ve done
Gone and made a motley out of me
Like putting on a show
Giving all you wanted and needed
Just an entertainment to you
Tell me are you happy now?

You laugh at the bells
Tinkering on my head
You chuckle as the tears
Streak down through
My checkered makeup

Who do you think you are?
Sitting there laughing
As my heart is breaking
Can’t even say you’re sorry
For what you’ve done
Who do you think you are now?

You build me up
Just to tear me down
I can start to feel the cold
See the great shadow
Of the wall that is going up
You supplied the brick 
I’ll supply the mortar
Together we will make it unbreakable

But I’m done playing the fool
I know how I got here
But I refuse to stay
I exit stage right
Run as fast as I can 
To the other side
To the other side

I throw off my hat
And hear the bells sound 
When it hits the floor
Wipe away the makeup
I’ll never wear again
Gonna write a new start
No more acting
No more plays
As I bid you good-bye
As I bid you good-bye


Details | Light Poetry | |

Why?

Why is this feeling happening to me?
Why am i feeling sad,
When I should be feeling glad?

Why do I feel abandoned by the people I know?
My friends,
My family,
The ones I love?

I know they care,
Or at least they say they do.
So why do I feel this way?
Devoured in sadness, like the ocean's blue?

Why is this emotion killing me?
Why can't I find my way out?
Out of the darkness, and into the light?
I need light in my life.

So why do I feel this way,
The way that I do?
I miss that one special person,
The one that I would say to "I love you".


Details | Free verse | |

Forgotten Memories

I can't seem to remember it
Remember the days that seemed so blissful to me
Now I feel like we should just split
My new year resolution you will agree.

But u can't seem to understand
The thoughts and feelings I try to convey
And now I'm standing on this vast and empty land
Waiting and waiting to be taken away.

I'm thinking and pondering and stressing
And I'm not eating nor drinking nor sleeping
Plus the fact that I'm working and working and working
Amazingly I still can't stop myself from thinking.

I have forgot about you
and all the things we used to do
Now all the feelings I get are blue
Sorry but this time round we won't make it through.

Back to the days we were happy before
You've painted for me very fine sceneries
But I can't seem to appreciate anymore
For they had faded, my forgotten memories...



Details | Haiku | |

I Can Not Take The Pain

i can not take the 
pain no more i love you very 
much i can not ever tell you because 
you are taken and so am i i know 
you will be happy with her and i will 
stay with the one i am not happy with.


Details | Rhyme | |

Dear My Sweetheart,

Sweet as your gentle kisses were I cannot recall, 
For now my sweet, keep naught white but my pall, 
Listen not to my ghost who haunts men’s eyes, 
But whisper to me now, whisper your goodbyes.

I have nothing more to give but my holder, 
Do not keep our flame alight, please let it smoulder, 
We can be no longer, just you and only you, 
It is fair and denying that, would be untrue.

Never wonder, never dream of being bound again, 
My mind has gone, for I am bane, 
I wish it were different but my sweet, 
I dare say never once more shall we meet.

I hold to you my candle, it's flame is weak, 
Let it keep alight, let naught drop nor leak, 
Understand my wishes, and put your heart at rest, 
I love deeply, let me end my quest. 


Details | Rhyme | |

Bloody Ties

I steal, what I feel, make no mistake –
I charm, without alarm, to covet what I take.
I hide what’s inside, to abide what’s at stake.
I lie, and will deny, any wrongdoings I make.

You use and abuse your way through this life.
You cheat and defeat those plagued with strife.
You fail, and impale, those closest to your heart.
You wallow in the shallow, shredding ties apart.

We fret over the net, which safety has vanished.
We wail at the stale courtship now banished.
We hurt as we flirt our disaster, daily we plummet.
We trek through the wreck reaching death’s summit.

They say we’re astray, and our minds are broken.
They wonder, why blunder, a mirage of unspoken.
They chatter about clatter, with prejudice abound.
They sneer and they leer, that together we astound.

I’ll take the bane, and disdain and try to explain.
I’ll take the lies, masked in disguise and abstain.
I’ll take the tears, through the years and constrain.
For I made my bed, built of crimson nails and black lead,
and forever in my heart will you remain.


Details | Senryu | |

That September Day in 2001

Two thousand seven Hundred and fifty victims Murdered, Rest in Peace My entry into Nathan's 9-11 contest http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/america.php


Details | Rhyme | |

Much yet to be written- PART I

Not a day will go by, that I don't think about her. But when I think of her lies, I just want to hurt her.

When a man has given all, he can't push any further. And it's a very short process, that drives him to murder.

So choose wisely your steps, and your pathways through life. Stay aware of your options, and always think twice.

For when a mans life resorts, to the edge of a knife. It's a tell tale sign, he's grown cold as ice.

Now it's a sick twisted world, we find ourselves in. Driven by hate, and swallowed in sin.

The mentally strong, may call those like me weak. But you tell me now, who's humble and meek. 

For if you've never hurt, the way that I do. Then you're no expert, on how to get through.

So you place your faith, on inanimate things. While I place my hate, on cold reality.

But who's to say who, truly knows anything. And who draws the line, on what's giving everything.

For one hundred percent, is one hundred percent. And my hundred percent, is what I resent.

If I hadn't given all, I'd still be on my feet. But here I am hollow, left in defeat.

So push me as far, as you think I can go. Then open your eyes, and enjoy the show...

   CONTINUE ON PART II


Details | Rhyme | |

The Hope That I've Lost, The Hope That You Give Me

Why must I feel so alone,
I know you are right here,
Why is my future so fogged,
Yet I can see you clear.

Why must I feel broken- dead,
When you breathe in me life,
Why even when I feel happy,
I attract the knife.

Why do I feel empty,
When you fill me with such joy,
People say I need a man,
But you are not a boy.

How can someone love so much,
When they just hate themseves,
Why do I feel so alive,
When I here funeral bells.

How can my heart be so broken,
But mended by you,
How can I trust anyone,
I know our love is true.


Details | Rhyme | |

Protection

I was once captivated by the things you would say.
Just seeing you, would brighten up my day.
Now it seems as if that has all changed?
The only thing you do, is cause my heart more pain.
I wish I had known who you really were.
It wouldn't have been so hard.
The agony inside me, makes it hard to breathe.
The impact you had, was so hard to believe.
Now the walls are there, forever guarding my heart.
If only they had been there, to protect it from the start.


Details | Rhyme | |

If Only You Really Knew

I cant go and I can't leave 
I'm sadly broken from within between
I know that I probably should go
but every time my heart keeps telling  me, "no!"
you've changed so much, 
and you've lost your light,
now your filled with anger and spite.
you've stolen my happiness and my pride
you call me names and watch me cry
all my tears, sinking into all my fears.
you sit back and laugh with all the guys
joking like my misery is your biggest prize
when I met you , you were something so special,
something that shined like a ruby or crystal.
now your dull you should be ashamed,
your a little boy , you will never change.
god will give back what you've been giving
take this as a lesson in life's finer living. 
kindness and compassion can go a long way
maybe you should remember that, it could help you out some day :) 



This is actually a song that I wrote, Hope you enjoy! :) 
                                                 With Love,


Details | I do not know? | |

I Had This Feeling

I had this feeling
that nobody else could feel
and then I ask my girl
if what I was feeling was real.

She broke my heart
and then she tore it all apart.
So if my love wasn't made for you
then why'd you break it in two??

I had this feeling 
that I would die alone
and if it was ought to happen
it would happen at my home.

It would happen very slow
my heart would cry for you
then die for you
no one could ever love you
exactly how i do.

If you can feel my pain
then you should know its getting hard to explain
and my heart doesnt play no games
so im going insane.

I had this feeling.
I had this feeling
in my heart 
telling me to walk away
to a better a day.

I had this feeling 
that love would come my way
but it wouldn't be today.

I gave her my heart and she forced it away
on Valentines Day

I only had this feeling
because she left me with a pain
in my heart.

Im just sorry it had to be that way
over the past 60 days.


Details | Free verse | |

Of two hearts

                                 Harrowing the heart


                     “Will you be my Valentine” she stuttered,
                      lips melting in a heart-shaped blush.
                     “Yes sure” he lushed , clasping her to his clement chest
 
                  And sure…

                     the red god, collapsing in the west
                     spotted him, arrowing 
                     in frenzied abandon
                     the furry labiated heart,
                     wedged tightly between another’s heaving hips .           

						


 	                  Homing the heart


                                 A spotted butterfly
                    flutters breezily towards its nest of whirring wings .

                                 A coral train
                     snakes electrified towards its station of expectant workers.

                     And I….
                     sit here harping on a hapless heart without a home 

									


Details | ABC | |

I will always love you

As I lay here with covers over my head
Hiding from the world 
Listening to the rain hit my window 
My eyes starting to feel heavy
I haven't slept in days
From missing you
You said we would grow old together 
But Now I'm left here growing old by myself
What happen to forever
After you said you promise
You would never leave me
Now I lay here broken
With Memories of us 
Lay heavy on my heart
You crushed ever dream and hope 
I had for us 
When you spoke those three words
It's Over
I wonder How that made you feel 
Was you happy that you hurt me 
Or did it hurt you too
I guess I will never know
Sense you ant telling
Guess this is goodbye forever
But always rember I Will Always Love You.


Details | I do not know? | |

tears in the rain

Rain 
the best thing about the rain is that no one can see my tears 
in the rain you can hide your fears, 
in the rain I can hide from my peers,
the best thing about rain is I have a excuse for not going out,
in the rain no one can see me in doubt,
in the rain i can pout 
the best thing about rain is no one can hear my cries 
in the rain I can hide my lies 
in the rain I cant see your eyes 
the best thing  about rain is people don't call
in the rain no one can see you crawl 
in the rain no one can see you fall 
the best thing about the rain is it reminds me of you 
standing in the rain I wish I knew,
standing in the rain I wish it wasn’t true 


Details | Rhyme | |

miss the crystal tears

i hope for rain,
i long for a smile,
i wish for a dream,
that i've missed for awhile,

i hope for love,
i long for sun,
i wish for joy,
i've missed the fun,

i hope for me,
i long for wishing,
i wish for you,
who i keep missing.

love and glitter.


Details | Free verse | |

Stand Up And Fight {Poetry In Motion}

a womans humanity remains strong
regardless of the victimization
simply stand strong to opposition





Tribute To Abused Woman
Never Give Up The Fight


Details | Free verse | |

You got me

I’ve been thinking about you.
 You know know know
 Im hitting my all time low low low
 Wonder how you’re dojng
 Here there’s no point for proving
 Baby, I just really care.
 Baby, don’t act like it’s rare.
 25 hours
 8 days
 You on my mind.
 You got me lost with nothing to find.
 You got me struck by cupid.
 You got me actin stupid
 You got me in love.
 You, got me thinking you’re my angel from heaven up above.
 You got me hurting.
 My Heart—You got it pouring
 Out in several little text messages,
 Trying to call you, isn’t this a presage?
 That you’re the one for me,
 That we’re meant to be.
 This you had me fooled.
 Doing whatever for you like a mule.
 Don’t see how you could be so cruel?
 Saying go away forever,
 When I though that’s how long we were gonna be together.
 Not even a goodbye.
 Leaving me with a Painful Lonely sigh
 But I guess it’s my fault.
 For opening up my vault.
 For letting you in.
 Let you begin
 Where I end.
 Guess I never should of called.
 Got me cryin, startin to bawl.
 Guess I shouldn’t of texted.
 Shouldn’t of even messed with it.
 But I miss you too death.
 But I love you till my last breath.
 It just became so hard.
 After I showed you my last card.
 I hope you understand,
 I'll swim in the water, you keep the land.
 Have a good happy life,
 Without me as your wife.
 Only the best for you,
 I just wish you knew.
 You're on my mind.
 You got me lost with nothing to find.
 You got me struck by cupid.
 You got me acting stupid.


Details | Rhyme | |

What Are We Fighting For

Tell me what are we fighting for?
Because I’m growing weak and weary
Tell me what are we fighting for
Because my eyes are getting teary…
Tell me what are we fighting for….

For the smiles that have begun to fade
For the laughs that have turned to cries
For all the great memories that we made
Now drowned by failed attempts and tries

For tender words that captured our hearts
Words that now only leave behind scars
For bitterness that has pushed us apart
Or the memories we made under the stars

Can you tell me what are we fighting for
Because I am losing sleep
Tell me what are we fighting for
Because the pain cuts too deep
Please tell me what are we fighting for….

Have we forgotten what made us so great?
Have we forgotten all that we shared?
How could this love ever turn to hate?
Please tell me can our hearts be spared?

Here we are fighting each other
A closeness that we once cherished
Is now a weapon to hurt one another
A sad tale of a love that will perish

What happened to fighting for us?
Did the hope for something better get lost
To make us wonder what we are fighting for?
Tell me what are we fighting for…


Details | Rhyme | |

The End of Me

Dissect me until my blood flows.
Maybe then the pain will go.
Tear me into pieces.
Maybe then the anger releases.  
Cut me open till the blood drips. 
Then I may feel your lips.
Steal my tears till my eyes go dry.
Then you might see how I try
Stab deep into my heart. 
Maybe then we won't be apart.
Fall high off that edge.
Maybe then to me you'd pledge. 
Fire bullets straight into my brain. 
Hopefully that will end the pain. 


Details | Free verse | |

all you think about

time is pasting by and the same thing is happening 
nothing no nothing have change
and to me it seem like all you think bout is the world 
everything that have nothing to do with you but the one who is sitting in front of you 
but you will never know if that person is gone or here
because you not paying them no mind 
what you dont understand that the unimportant thing will be here for a short time 
but the thing that matter the most will always be here  
but all you think about is your self 
your money 
your job 
your friends 
your car 
your clothes 
and so much more
but not the one who going to be here when all them thing are gone


Details | Free verse | |

Stop, Please, Wait

Did I do something wrong?
It seems like we don't talk.
Everything is changing.
I don't want it to.
Stop.
I miss your voice.
The way it spoke to me.
Everything is leaving.
No words said.
Not even Goodbye.
You are walking away, as I start to cry.
Come back to me.
I'm not good enough...never was.
This life, this love.
It's not us. 
You are perfect, someone special.
Even though I'm to late.
At showing my feelings and hiding the pain.
I'll give you the best of me, if that's what it takes.
I'll give you the worse, if it means that you'll stay.
Please.
Just love me.
Don't let me fall.
Take me as I am.
Wait.
I'm taking my time.
I'm scared. 
'Cause losing you means losing myself...


Details | ABC | |

You hurt me

You tell me you was not sure what you was thinking
Well same here
I wanted to give it a other try
But all you can say is your sorry
It will never be back the way it was before
Because you've hurt me
You told me you never ment to hurt me
Well you did
And I can not forgive you for it
Cause I know now your love was just a lie
I'm sorry
Boy I don't know these games...


Details | Couplet | |

The Monster

The monster became a living, walking nightmare
my dive into insanity, no longer perfect, containing a blank stare

I should resist, the monster will find me, run away with me
Pretend to hear my meager complaints, force me to see what I'm afraid to see

Blame and guilt, volleying right and left, up and down
It's crashing me closer, with every step, I'm falling to the ground

It's all a game, just play along, play the game, play it well
Brimming confidence, dissolved in thoughts, of what? I won’t tell

Demons, devil born souls, run quick, run fast, stand my ground
No sense of fear, n sense of foreboding, not even a slight sound

High speed, pursuit of hell, bent on going, bent on crashing
Giving into the power, life's faster, lights flashing

Crash and torment me again, my eyes close after all
The beginning of the end for me, feeling numb after the fall

Is there a way out? I'm different, distant and moved on
Listen to the water, calling, coaxing into death, I'm gone

Endless, empty cloud; dreamless oblivion; oxygen, exhalation
Am I dead? Still alive? Broken into pieces, I need motivation

Reality closes in, walls me in; until there’s nothing there
Death comes behind me, containing a blank stare.


Details | Lyric | |

Goodbye, My Almost Lover

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I don't want to think about you
Please, just let me be.
Goodbye, my heart of romance
Goodbye, my missing piece
Don't worry, hearts will heal with time and, 
Don't worry, cause you've set me free.
Goodbye, my dreams of future
Goodbye, my plans for life
I'm sorry to forget about you
Please, don't ask me why.
Goodbye, my loving hero
Goodbye, my army soldier
I'm trying not to think about it
Forget all that I've told you.
Goodbye, my ruined soul
Goodbye, my broken heart
I never want to think about you
I want us to be apart.
Goodbye, my distant memory
Goodbye, my aching love
Don't worry, I'll be fine without you
There's nothing left for you to hug.
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I don't want to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?


Details | I do not know? | |

How?

How can I forget the way I loved you?
the way you made me feel
the way I was myself when I dated you?

How can I forget how you loved me?
the way you said you loved me.
the way you just broke my heart in 2 


Details | Free verse | |

She was the sicissors and I'm the glue

Lotsa feeling coming back like in my lost poem ‘Brand  New’
Staying up late looking on the streets way past curfew
Oh all the sympathy I’d get if you even had a clue.
But I’ll keep it between me and god as I’m praying in this pew
Maybe talking would help but I doubt your going through this too.
Ever been so in love your ready to say, “I Do”
Just to find out that person doesn’t really love you
Heart and mind melt while your soul turns to goo
He still wants his old girl  even though he said they were through.
Starting to see in black and white colors losing hew.
Thought he’d be better with something better and new.
Got me feeling all alone like a tiger locked up in the zoo. 
Still together and wanting to stay too
Just not sure where this relationship is going to go to
Do you love her?
Or do you love me to?
Will I ever be your one and only?
Like you are mine/
Or are you getting my hope up to high to
Ever float down.
I wanna be your number one
Not your number two
Especially to the one who
Means absolutely everything
To me. 
My world. My sunshine.
The one I don’t ever want to lose.
Seems like I’m in crazy competition with the past
Baby here I am trying to make us last. 
I’ll hold you.
Protect you.
Wipe your eyes too.
We can be apart of the few
Who
Got that real and true love.
Stick together when it’s the same old nothing no longer new
Stick together no matter what we’re going through.
She’s your first love,  and that’s okay.
I’ll understand if you’ll always love her too.
But please make me your number one.
I’m sick of being your number two.
In a blink of an eye all these thoughts race through
My heart mind and soul all now in a yucky goo
But maybe my goo
Can be your glue
Fit together all the broken pieces doing whatever I can for you.
So I’ll keep it o myself, my pen, and my paper.
Because I don’t wanna start this fight again tonight
Just stay close and hold me tight.
While I’m 
Hoping
Wishing
Praying
I’m what’s right for you
And you’re what’s right for me too


Details | ABC | |

You Lied

I thought I knew who you where
But I guess I was wrong
You never loved did you
you played me 
I found out you 
Got and still was in trouble
For having sex with a minor 
When I found out 
You sicken me
I can't stand to be around you
How could you lie to me like this
I thought what we had was real
But instead you used me
What you did you think
That you wouldn't get caught
Well you did
I wont you gone
Far far far away from me
You make me sick.


Details | Senryu | |

Long Summer Days Soon

She had a baby
today.  She's only sixteen.
Long summer days soon.


Details | I do not know? | |

Life

Life is Complicated

Life is NO Fairy Tale

Life is a Ticking Time Bomb

Life is Not Easy



-Brittany- (comment and rate if you dont mind.. thank you for reading)


Details | I do not know? | |

My sunshine, written for a friend to share

You are the bright sunshine
That brightens every day
I know that I screwed up
But I wanted to stay.

I just should have listened
To the warnings you gave
Is our relationship
Worth us trying to save?

I know that you want space
I’ll give you all you need
Please don’t give up on us
One more chance I do plead.

Every day on the job
The “cop hat” that I wear
I’ll learn to leave it back
Not bring it home I swear. 

Controlling as you know
Working hard to change that
Please don’t just walk away
Or even turn your back.

I’ve searched deep in my soul
Heard the things you would say
I just wish I’d listened
And not pushed you away.

The feelings that I have
Run deeper than I thought
I did this to myself
This pain I feel I brought.

In your life I could be
But on you it depends
Perhaps if nothing else
We could be real good friends.


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

A Smokers Smoke

The sickness enters your mouth and your lips wrap around the smoky filter,
You light your lighter and spark the sickness than feel the jitter.
You inhale the sickness and exhale your life,
The smoke travels into the air and feel your life's cries. 

As you hold your death in your mouth, the smoke travels all around your face,
Huging every corner of the masterpiece that God has embraced. 
It cooks your skin and burns your lungs, you know that but still do it to be proud,
Be proud that once your done killing your self your troubles will go unfound. 

Now your head is buzzing and swimming in a cloud of smoke,
Making you and teasing you to take another toke. 
You follow its every command and do as your told,
You are a slave now of a demon that commands you all so bold.


Details | I do not know? | |

I wish

I wish I was your only one. I wish I could still be your hun’. I wish I still felt your love. I wish you were here, because I seriously need a hug. I miss you, but I will never tell you… ~PeacemakerHeartbreaker102196~


Details | Free verse | |

The Hurt I Felt When We Broke Up

I never meant to hurt you
That is what he said
I never meant to hurt you
But right to hurt was led
I was led down a path of insecurity and doubt
A path that trampled me until I too wanted out
I wanted us to make it to the end, you and I
I wanted us to both want to cross that finish line.
But I cannot drag you across that waving flag;
I cannot drag you and one day regret I had.
I wanted you to love us,
but you never truly did;
I wished for you to be in love with me,
but that wish was just too big.
So here I am 2 years later wondering what went wrong;
Here I am 2 years later in the midst of a sad love song. 
So while he’s “trying not to hurt me,”
he could’ve tried two years ago. 
He could’ve tried before I decided to let my defenses go.
You never meant to hurt me?  What you think you’d do?
Tell me that you wanted out and I would say, “Me too!”
No, that’s not the way it works
when you hide your true feelings. 
That’s not the way it works
when you don’t know with whom you’re dealing.
I was dating a figure, a cartoon who said what I wanted to hear.
A mix between Santa Clause and Papa Smurf who always brought good cheer!
But spare me the “Ho, ho, hos,” I’d rather hear the truth.
Spare me the “baby, I miss yous” cause I never saw the proof.
You lied to me, you’re a liar because of the stuff you didn’t say.
Because of your two years of lying, today I feel the pain.
So you never meant to hurt me? Ha. That joke’s funny…
Why don’t you go down the street and tell it to that girl, honey!
In the meanwhile, I’m gonna be OK…that’s a matter of fact.
And oh…when you realize that I was the one please don’t come back!


Details | I do not know? | |

You

Accusations and fabrications,
made without foundation,
have pulverized my heart.

Your insecurities and fears,
your jealousy and tears,
are tearing us apart.

I've given you all of me,
so why the hell can't you see,
it's been you from the start?

No matter what I say,
you’re gonna doubt me anyway,
but it's you who owns my heart.


Details | I do not know? | |

Guilt

He compels a smile to alleviate me
but his eyes are merely 
green tinted windows
into his anxious soul.

I see right through him.
Remorse twists my stomach.
I burn him with an accidental fire
that the Atlantic Ocean cannot tame.¬¬¬
I'm a pyromaniac
despite my will.

There is nothing I can do 
to stop the burns thickening on his heart.
Should I hurt him with my evanescence
or with my infinite, unspoken lies?

The prospect of his misery
torments me.
I care.
Why can’t I love?

He knows he is my silver medal,
that I don’t feel 
the felicity I claim to.
But what can you do when you love another?
Another who does not love you.



Details | I do not know? | |

Letters Of The Heart

Dear Claire,
I Miss you and need you. I can't wait much longer.
Its getting cold and dark. I'll come back tomorrow.
To stand by our tree. So we can run away and be free.
Yours Always,
Eric


Dear Eric,
I miss you so much. But my father is a riot.
Wont let me go no were. He's locked me in my room.   
But I'll escape. I'll come see you. So wait for me.
Yours Truly,
Claire


My Lovely Clarie,
I'll Wait! If it takes forever, I will wait!
And we will never have to part again!
You are my love. For now and For ever.
Yours Always,
Eric

The day passed and Eric waited. 
But there was no sign of Claire.
Eric bowed his head and slouched down.
"She said she would make it. 
Whats keeping her so long?"

Just then a voice broke out.
"Eric!"
Eric lifted his head and saw his Love.
He ran to her with arms open wide.

He caught her in an embrace
And she held on to him As if to dear life.


"You must leave." She whispered in his ear.
He looked at her puzzled.
"My father isn't far behind.
If you won't leave, He'll shoot you down."

Claire's tears slide down her face
Begging him to go.
Eric smiled painfully 
knowing it would only hurt her if he stayed

"I love you Claire. I always will.
From now to Forever.
Don't forget me. 
I Love you Claire."

3 MONTHS LATER

Dear Claire,
I heard your married now. I'm happy that you found love again.
I haven't forgot you. And I never will.
Congratulations and farewell.
Yours Always,
Eric

20 YEARS LATER

Eric walks outside and sees a girl
She smiled at him and waved.
Claire. She looked so young and pretty.
Like she always did.

"Hello Mr. Eric.
My name is Maya. You knew my mother Claire.
I came to tell you thank you." 
And she handed him a box.

The letters that he wrote and copies of her own
Tears filled his eyes.
As Maya went on by.
After 20 Years he finally got an answer.

After 20 years he finally got that Letter.


Details | Classicism | |

Noone Will Ever Take Your Place

Everyday I listen to songs that remind me of you,
 I miss you so much I feel lost I dont even know what to do
 This is the hardest thing I ever had to go threw.
I would give anything just to have you back, 
But I know thats not gonna ever happen so I dont know how to act.
Now your miles & miles away,
 If I had one wish it would be for you to stay. 
I just hope your happy and okay.
Since I cant tell you I love you to your face
 I'm writing you this poem to let you know 
our memories noone can erase and in my life
 noone will ever take your place.


Details | Free verse | |

Of two hearts

                                 Harrowing the heart


                     “Will you be my Valentine” she stuttered,
                      lips melting in a heart-shaped blush.
                     “Yes sure” he lushed , clasping her to his clement chest
 
                  And sure…

                     the red god, collapsing in the west
                     spotted him, arrowing 
                     in frenzied abandon
                     the furry labiated heart,
                     wedged tightly between another’s heaving hips .           

						


 	                  Homing the heart


                                 A spotted butterfly
                    flutters breezily towards its nest of whirring wings .

                                 A coral train
                     snakes electrified towards its station of expectant workers.

                     And I….
                     sit here harping on a hapless heart without a home 

									


Details | Haiku | |

I Love You Alot

I Love You Alot
But you Dont
Know I'm Their
My Heart Cant
Take This My
Soul Is Not 
Thier For Now
I Am Sad And Alone
Thanks To My Love
And My Heart To
Become One. 


Details | Light Poetry | |

Rejection

It's funny 
How things can change 
And in so little time 
Can completely rearrange 

It hurts 
To get rejected 
And get 
To feel neglected 

Need to 
Get myself together 
And before the night turns in 
Feel better


Details | Rhyme | |

LIES

Lips moving like a black hole sucking away my heart. Ill conceived thoughts to cover what you are doing Every thought goes against what we had at the start. Saying words to keep me here, but I must be going.


Details | Tail-rhyme | |

Cold Stare

Just friends we’d say but we were getting so close
I’d be on phone with you or think of you all day long.
Totally inseparable until the evening my lips froze
Ever since, busy you’d pretend, recording your song.

Despite your ignorance, thinking you’d be uncomfortable too,
Month later I give u a buzz and you tell how bad at it was I,
Wish you’d understand I was so scared, nothing I could do
Totally non committal you were; love, u said, was a far cry.

And all this while as I missed you, my heart used to ache,
I would curse myself and dream of how things would have been new
Trust me baby I’d given up anything, for just a kiss retake,
Would have been in your arms, was waiting desperately for your cue.

Now I mourn, the years I spent loving you, as you trampled my heart.
Unfazed how’d feel you say “babe get over it, it was just a mistake,
Don’t spoil our friendship; also I am dating this gal, she’s really smart”
To my face, and all those moments together suddenly seemed so fake.

My life’s already falling apart; it’s hard to believe you’re gone.
Trying hard but I get so bored with everyone around, feel I no longer belong,
I don’t know how to really console myself, how to really move on
Because am Afraid to fall in love again, someone like you might come along.


Details | ABC | |

You wouldn't start new, Even though it was the best thing for you

Betrayal at the end of a long list of emotions
Felt because of your longing kiss 
The best saved for last 
The one that trumped all other in the past
The hardest one that will surely last 
And it has finally come to this 
We had a great run, on that we do agree
But everything must end 
As the anger will replace over whelming love
Until the day i wake up and fly away never to be the same
But this is the path you chose
This is the answer that you gave me
When you said love is all you can see 
So is this what makes you happy?
Not running away with me 
For your presents only coldens my heart 
And your once mind stopping green eyes
Just make me remember how we fell apart
You said you wanted to start somewhere new
Somewhere are love could be true 
Yet I stand alone with three thousand miles between me and you 
So how do I make you go away 
Without hating myself in the end 
How do I let you go without letting you know
It's all your fault
The answer is simple, I don't 
For the rest of our lonely lives 
We will both remember each other
We will remember the pain
And forget the joy of having the person that truly understands
Yet not I understand,
Why you always said we were pure evil 
For what else but that,
Could watch as we killed ourselves
And as we killed the hearts of each other we called home 
For no reason, other then 
We were already dead


Details | Free verse | |

Long Distance

When day and night goes by, I wonder to myself
Is there a moment in time in a day where I am important enough
To make you pick up the phone with your hands
Move your fingers and send “Hi baby, I miss you”

When your lips move and a smile curls up your face
Is there a moment in time where your mind is flashing my face
Or is it something or someone that is more important than me
Like friends, university, gym, even basketball

Though we are 3954 miles apart, but my heart still beats 190 for you
My mind still run through all the moments I had with you
Picture perfect moments, where you heart beats next to mine
I wonder if you ever think about it, or was the moments we had was just too heavy for your everyday life

Baby, you don’t understand the pain I went through
When you mouth the words “maybe I just love you as a friend”
You don’t understand how much it kills me
When you say “lets stop Skyping everyday”

The words pierced into my body
Cutting through my paper heart, while I find a way to breath again
Tears ran down my face, while I find the right words to say.
But whatever I say, the only thing you replied is “It for our own good”

You’ve grown you said, but the only explanation that ran through my head
Is that you’ve grown out of me. 
While i’m stuck here wondering all this, head spinning, tears rolling,
You, 3954 miles away, smiling.


Details | Classicism | |

Me No More

When will this stop, how much longer do I have to take all your bull,
It seems like everything I do is not good enough for you.

I'm tiered of falling asleep at night covered in my own tears,
I'm tiered of being your doormat, your one and only that you take out all your anger. 

When will all this stop? I am running out of words to make it all better. 
Only if you can feel what I feel. You would die already if you walked through what I walked through. 

I'm not giving up cause that's just who I am. I'll fight, unlike you give up and throw it all away.
So I'm fighting now, and there ain't *****you can do to stop me. 

The beast is released, get ready for a nightmare you only dreamt of.
You won't see me the same ever again. 

I'm dead to you, you can't call means tour own anymore. 
If someone will ask me if I no you, I'll deny it with a passion.


Details | Lyric | |

Just A Fool

I'm just a fool who writes words on a page
and dreams of singing on a stage
but to no avail
someday I'll set sail
and yet- he stares at me
like everything's a freakin' fantasy
and I am left with this aching in my heart
Cause I know I'll tear him apart
Why do you do this to me?
This isn't an everyday fantasy
Stop pretending we could've been together long
For you and I- we don't belong

Now I feel like I'm ranting to nobody
A whispering to an evergreen tree
that doesn't know my name
or from where I came
and yet- something peaceful stirs
among the 'pokies' and sticky burrs
happy memories that even now can make me smile
and let me hold on to him for awhile
Oh why do I have to be this way?
I should've moved on to a brighter day
I need to stop pretending my life is full of misery
I know you're stronger than me


Details | I do not know? | |

I'm Not Worth It

Stick to your second thoughts... 
Im not worth your time.. 
Im not worth an extra phone call every week... 
Im not worth a single text... 
Im not worth a single kind word.. 
Im not worth it..... 

You got what you wanted... 
And i hope you had fun.. 
But the fact that everything you said to me
Hurt me
I guess it doesn't matter... 
Im not worth the pain im feeling now... 
For YOU! 
But then again who cares right? 

Im not worth a single ounce of your feelings
Because you have other things on your mind... 
And im not one off them...


Details | I do not know? | |

Just can't

I hear you calling my name.

Why don't you just get out of my heart?

I see you with another girl.

Why can't you go away?

Im trying so hard to vanish you out of my mind.

But you keep showing up.

Playing & Braking & Teasing my heart.

Part of me is dying for you to leave.

Part of me is Dying for you to stay.

Can't you & me 

Just leave each other alone??

-Brittany 
(comment please if you dont mind; i like to hear what you think.... thank you for reading)


Details | Rhyme | |

Circular Life

Running to hide
Hiding to run
My life is a circle
When will this rotation be undone
Everything I do 
Its the same song and dance
A sheep in wolf's clothing
Yes a wolf at first glance
I can't help I am addicted to thrills
No words to describe how it feels
Honing my skills
Turning my heart to steel
Making my case to fight the devil
Stone versus stone
Fallen Angel versus Fallen soul
The thrill to shake the bone
Love made me
Then love destroyed me
Stuck with nothing to lose
And nothing to gain
Vengeance is what I choose
Standing alone 
Forgetting everything I've ever known
I can break this rotation
But it has to be now or never
All because I loved her
And she left me for dead
Destroying my heart
And messed up my head
Circular life
I am back to the night
I am back to fight


Details | I do not know? | |

how can u

how can you lie next to me and tell me you love me 
when you don't know how to treat me 
How can you say you care, when your actions show the opposite
how can you say the things u say to  me if you truly love me and care for me
you are cold and cruel and,
 you cant love me cause you don't have a soul


Details | I do not know? | |

but because we do not know

but because we do not know,
and we live in this fear
do we not engage in conflict
or try to love
my dear,
it goes like this
your hands are soft
they are quick
unflawed
and natural 
and unnerved
yet i am drawn to them
like the light
draws the moths
and i think
but because i will never
fully grasp or understand
the yearning
the hunger in my belly
the hearts burning
to conflict with you
and exchange this idea
(we will never know)
why i cannot
grasp
the form of love
i seek so desperatly
and need
without knowing




Details | Free verse | |

Forever She Dreams

“Forever She Dreams”
By: Christian Shepherd

I want her back in my arms,
to feel her breathe on my neck.
Her every breathe detectable on my chest.
To hold her close from leaving me.

Watch her as she sleeps,
to hold her close in a slumber so deep.
Watch as her expressions tell a dream,
her temporary reality.

Tell her to "sleep tight love,
I’ll see you in the morning."
Wake up to her by my side,
without her my heart unforgivingly bleeds.

I don’t want to be without you, 
the thought brings melancholy.
I want you with me, 
"please don’t leave me,” I plead.

But its too late for pleas,
fate has already made its judgment.
Now she is forever gone,
and I am empty.

I still bleed. 
I wish I could go back to her.
Savor every moment i took for granted.
But for now my heart still bleeds.

Lying at night kills me,
looking over where she slept.
Seeing her figure in the shadows,
knowing only that it is wishful thinking.

Still i reach over, hoping to find its rest.
I pray that rest may be her shoulder.
The shoulder that I used to cry on.
The should that now could stop my pain.

Then anger stirs inside of me,
"WHY HER! COULD YOU NOT LET HER BE!"
She was mine, not yours,
its not fair, let her be, bring her back to me!

There’s no way, fate has made its choice,
and now forever she dreams.

So for now…until the blood runs out...I bleed.


Details | Ballad | |

Blinded on My Wedding Day

Convince that you are the one for me.

Persuaded that I am the one you need.

Deceived that you desire my love.

Refused to see the truth so I wait.

Believing that your heart is not filled with hate.

I cry for my Heart that I am not confused.

Praying to God that I am not just being used.

Blinded by the, Yes I will marry you!

Consumed by the, Will you marry me?

Walking down the aisle to meet my groom, didn't realize it was the day of my doom! 

Oh! What can I say. Blinded on My wedding Day.


Details | Rhyme | |

You make monsters just for fun

Look what you've gone

   & Done

     Now,

Tell me that you can see-

   Exactly

 What it is -that you've 

   unleashed-

That was burried,

   Hidden

Deep inside of me-

 

So entreanched in hate & 

     Anger

Because that's what you've left

     For me.

 

     Inside,

 I can it feel growing-

The seeds you so thoughtlessly 

    Sowed down 

   Within my soul,

Dont you realize you cant mess

   With a girls emotions

  With out having it all 

   Start to take its toll-
 
             Erin Anderson-04/20/2012


Details | ABC | |

Sorry for letting you go

When you love something so much
And you believe that he or she 
Will do better without you
Then you should let them go
But if him or her comes back to you 
Then you know it was meant to be
But if he or she doesn't 
Well you should begin the process
Of letting your heart heal
From the pain
I know how it feels
I been their once
But now he doesn't even talk to me 
Cause I Left 
While pargent with his son
Which I didn't even know
Man I regent ever saying goodbye
But it's just a life lesson 
I have learned from 
But all I can say is I am sorry.


Details | Sonnet | |

Sonnet 1

Love taketh my heart and soul
    it recaptured my trust
never again shall I stand sole
    for your love, is lust
I learned not to love
   Thy heart cast melancholy melodies inside
Thy love is love that is only loved by the man above
   For love isn't a vied
My heart seems to haste
   yet I suffered
Unquestionably your love can be replaced
   When love comes to push and shove, I defer
As lies come across my ears
   As much as my pulverized heart been through
I learned to put off love as it corker, belittlement, and depressed me for years
   Thy heart day by day grew


Details | Rhyme | |

Velvet Night

Sitting here with thoughts of you;
My heart twisted up with pain.
A soul as black as a starless night,
My mind full of questions once again.

I withdraw into the velvet blackness;
Chaos is swirling through me.
My heart collapses upon itself,
My mind bursting to be free.

I cry out in my anguish,
Mind shattered on the floor.
Blood splashed out everywhere,
Painted upon the doors.

As I come back to myself,
I curl into a ball and whimper.
Before you came into my life,
It was so much simpler.


Details | I do not know? | |

Heart broken

It’s hard to find someone new, When all I see is you. It’s hard to move on, When I want you to be the one. I see you everywhere I go, I heard your voice. I smell your clone. I taste your lips. I dream of your smile. I wake up each night, With tears in my eyes. Of course, Another dream about you. You’re the one I want. You’re the one I need. You’re the only one, Who can finally heal me. Forgive me. Hold me. Kiss me. Love me. Tell me you miss me. Tell me it hurts. Tell me you need me. Tell me you love me. I miss you. It’s killing me. I need you, Because I love you. I miss your laugh, Your smile, Your kiss, Your touch, Your voice, Your arms around me, Your eyes looking back at me, Your everything. It’s not about finding, A perfect one. It’s about seeing, Imperfections, Yet still seeing a perfect being. I messed up, Imperfection number one. But I hope you can look past, And see, How much you mean to me.


Details | Free verse | |

Love Part 2

Forever, will I die for you
Forever, will I love you
I will love you forever
It may take that long
Before you finally stare right into me
And release me from this prison
I've made and lost the key to
It's hanging around your neck, love

While I hear you crying in your sleep again
I wrap you in my arms
And pray you feel me there again
It will be okay
I'll always be here, my sweet
I'll never leave
Years now, since you saw me last

You hold your reasons in your hand
Too many, though not enough
Gently, I come behind you
And kiss your neck
Whisper nothing
But surely it's enough
As you drop your reasons to the floor
Quickly stand and turn
I know you don't see me
Until you fly into my arms
Tears screaming from your heart
Words so lovingly hateful
I was right here
I'm still right here
I'll never leave
Please, believe
All I have, everything I am
Was right here, waiting for you
To see my light and wash ashore
Please, don't turn away again
Let's just stay here together
Forever tangled up in
Love


Details | Tanka | |

can't fogive

i do not want to,
nor, never will fogive him,
for he has hurt me
and i just can't forgive him,
for what he has done to me


Details | Rhyme | |

Candle in the Dark

She’s a Candle
Glowing in the dark…
A lighthouse 
Pointing to the shore… 
Through gloomy days that seem so dark 
Through tempests that rage and pour 

She’s the Oasis 
That quenches my thirst…
The passion 
Burning in my veins…
My heart swells within my chest 
My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my pain

She’s the mystery 
I never can solve…
The balm
That soothes my tears…
My goal, my zeal, my sole resolve 
With her I mock and taunt my fears

She’s the kiss 
I can’t forget …
Yet the very one 
That broke my heart…
My love, my soul, she did reject 
My dreams, my hopes, she knocked them flat


Details | Ode | |

Prayer To My Self

Walking away might be the most hardest things for a man to do, you cant even imagine what that feeling can do to you. Falling flat on your face would be better than to look shameful, even walking around naked around the streets would be cool. But like any story in life goes, there is always that one person that will help you get back on your feet and walk again. No matter how much you fall, no matter how much you stumble upon a struggle, that person will be there with you till the end. Give love and thanks to this person who never leaves your side and helps you put a smile on your face everyday. When the day comes to an end and you know that the person has to go, all you can wish is for your special person to stay. Mine has walked away on me, I was so blind that i couldn't see. She wanted everything for her self, for me to change and be what she wanted me to be, but i had to let her go and never see this person again, cause it would only be worse in the end. Writing this is more painful than getting your body tattooed, writing this is more painful than getting over screwed. Writing this is more painful than words, writing this is more painful than razor sharp swords. No matter how much you try to let it out it just wouldn't come out, the pain is way to deep and its almost like its tattooed on your bodies gout. haven't i been hurt enough in this world, i just don't understand why i am being treated like this, is it cause i am better than you and have nothing to look forward too but my blue and black handkerchief? The cut was way to deep my dear, you just cant imagine, i have been cut and bruised for the last time, i can promise you that. No one will ever touch this body or hurt this soul ever again, if you wish to try so, go ahead and check it, but before that go ahead and get yourself a casket.


Details | Rhyme | |

Close your eyes and listen to the music

Close your eyes and listen to the music,
Coming from my semi-precious soul.
If you touch my dream, you`ll make me lose it.
Go and go on falling like a stone.

My sharp tongue is not for summer flowers.
I am buttoned as my moon is left.
And your long-lied letters lacking vowels
Are not readable but being kept.


Details | Couplet | |

Remembering Back...

Three and a half years
After “we” parted,
Remembering back
When “we” first started.

The laughter and tears
The times that we shared,
Remember back
How much we had cared.

You would take me out
We’d go on long walks
Remembering back
All our sincere talks.

As I think it out
Asking myself why
Remember back
Was it all a lie?

A couple months passed
We got back in touch
Remembering back
I loved you so much.

We realized time
May bring change of heart
Remembering back
Our very first start.

No more hurt you said
And no more lying
Remembering back
In the rain crying

Awaiting your call
Or knock on the door
Remembering back
My heart sure did soar.

Accepting it now
You never have cared
Remembering back
Everything we shared.

You just want to hurt
And play your own game
Remembering back
It won’t be the same

Goodbye forever
The memories will last
Remembering back
It’s all in the past.


Details | ABC | |

Guess This Is It

The heart was made to love
But how do you know your in love
When the one you love 
Doesn't love you
Nor want to be with you
Just only hurt you
You made me feel things 
I never have felt before
I'm confused lost and hurt
All at the same time
Not even sure 
If I really know who you are
Cause when we do go out  
It feels like you don't even wanna be with me
Then you start talking about all the partying you do and other
You Never do anything like
That with me 
We just go to parks,get ice cream, or movies
We really do not do anything fun What have's happen to us
Our relationship have changed so much 
Over the last couple of months
I guess you don't love me anymore
So I guess this is goodbye
After all we been threw.


Details | ABC | |

It Happen

Can believe it happen never thought it would
All the stuff we been through
Thought we would be together forever
But you was not there even through our loss you were nowhere to be found 
I went through it by myself
I went through depression because of our lost love and child
I am so tired of going up and down around and around
Our relationship was a full speed roller coaster
Always thought we would beat the odds 
Never thought our relationship would lead me to so much pain and tears
You left me thinking if you ever had any real feelings for me
I hope you would come back but you never did
I felt lost without you
Never thought you had it in your heart to be so cruel to us
I finally had to get it in my foolish head that you were gone forever


Details | Rhyme | |

A Touch of Brass

I thought of you yesterday, just as I did today.
I relished in the romance, wondered why you couldn’t stay.
I reminisced our past love, as tears began to trickle way.
I wallowed in dark misery, at a tattered soul you did betray.

You always said you’d love me, protect and do what’s right.
You never promised to hurt me, nor disappear within the night.
You forever proclaimed your love, with warmth instead of plight.
You distanced yourself loudly, never willing to put up a fight.

We attacked each others charisma, our characters beaten down.
We sheltered ourselves in anger, where neither hope nor love is found.
We smiled upon the evil, upon the darkness and cynicism abound.
We soared through a life of bitterness, never once touching ground.


Details | Epic | |

To A Troubled Love

Sometimes you seem to be the 
person,
I once knew and fell in love with,
And sometimes you just seem to 
appear,
To be a perfectly stranger to me.
Which Causes me to wonder,
If I should be here or not,
Because it makes me wonder,
If this thing we have is really meant 
to be.
In your heart and mind,
You never see what is wrong,
Cause you only see the green 
pasture,
Instead of the thickets and thorns,
Our relationship will never get any 
better,
If things don't change,
And we both work on clearing out 
the painful parts,
Because it will keep us both cut up,
   with hearts that are torn.

Sometimes I really wonder if you,
Want this to work out or not,
Cause you say one thing but,
Your heart isn't really in this,
Like it used to be,
And hasn't for a really long time,
Which brings me back to the 
question,
If this is meant to be?


Details | Free verse | |

The One

My urges take control of me But I repel from expressing true feeling I lay awake on a sleepless night Dreaming of forever completion with a female People my age tend to take whatever comes to them And end up with players and loose blondes But I know what I want And my life is like an endless search for it Which I am willing to devote myself to Even If I die with the burden of my virginity My friends say I lack taste in women But in reality they are the ones without taste I'll find the one someday The one that stands out from the crowd And believe me It will be a beautiful moment And I will treasure her forever But is that really long enough...?


Details | Bio | |

The Color Red

At the beginning it was all so great,
but now i am walking away from this state.
I loved ever moment that we spent together,
I thought we would go on like that forever. 

But i am sorry to say that you have torn my heart apart,
I was praying on my hands and knees from the start.
Praying so that this would not happen,
but it happened and it ain't stopping. 

I beet my self in the chest now for letting this go so far,
I wish i could just forget this all to remove this scar.
The scar that you left on my soul is way too deep,
everything poring out of it is nasty and smells so creep. 

I know that people say to "Forgive and Forget",
but i can do only one thing, and its pore it out without a fit.
So i am done with this hell people call life,
i am on the edge of this earth waiting to survive. 


Dedicated to the one that broke my heart. 
No names will be spoken.


Details | Quatrain | |

Goodbye For A Season

Goodbye to my bestie,
My lover, Husband,
To someone I never wanted,
But without, I can't stand.

Farewell to my happy,
The kind without reason,
To my truly better half.
Hello to lonely season.

I wish it not to last long,
But the blink of an eye,
Before we say hello again,
And give us one last try.


Details | Free verse | |

For Chris and Chelsea

For Chris and Chelsea
           For my friends
        Who died in a horrible end

Say goodbye to whom you love,
Away you chase this dazzling beauty
You so willingly fell in love with.

Her gorgeous eyes
Captured your heart,
Her mesmerizing voice
Stole your breath,
Your love aches for her 
In your arms.

Anything
Is what you're willing 
To do for her.

Chase her into meadows and grasp her hand,
Fall on the beautiful roses
With her on your chest,
She's yours
Forever.

 


Details | Free verse | |

Just One Drink

What did she say when you told her you still loved me?

Did she turn away or try to disagree

Did you think about her or how she would be?

No you were only thinking about me.

 

She stands there now, all alone

Facing her fears of the unknown

Turning her head on what she's once known

Realizing now, she's on her own

 

With no one around to help her choose

She stands her ground, not ready to lose

Her head held high while hearing the news

To accept her fate, she must refuse

 

She tries and tires with all her might

To win you back every night

She has no plans to give up the fight

Any hope is out of sight

 

Her heart is now filled with hatred 

Will all the love that you desecrated

With just that one sentence that you stated

Her entire life is now dated

 

Did you ever stop and try to think,

Just how far she would sink?

How close she was to the brink?

Or how it could all end with just one drink?

 

Just one drink to end all the pain

Just one little sip to break the chain

Just one to do the job, to her disdain

Just one and she will die in vain. 

 

You don't even care to attend her funeral

To you she was just a girl that you could treat cruel

How could you be such a fool?

You don't even know of the fire you've fueled. 

 

You come to my door and ring the bell

You send thousands of messages to my cell

Repeatedly the words "I LOVE YOU" you yell

But for all I care you can just go right on to hell 

 

I don't want you anymore you Silly boy

I am no longer your stupid little toy

As for the loneliness you feel now, I hope you enjoy

Because you had your chance and my love you destroyed. 

 

I am my own person without you

I no longer rely on your every move

I am no longer clueless on what to do

I know now I can move on to someone new.

 

As for the girl that you threw aside

I hope you think of her every time you cry

You're the whole reason that she died

If you wanted someone to love, she would have been there by your side. 

 

She would have loved you the way you love me

But you never opened your eyes and seen what there was to see

I'll never love you no matter how hard you plea

So wallow in your self pity, you'll get no remorse from me

 

I hope you drown in your misery

Thank God that sad little girl is finally free

Thank God I knew it was time to flee 

This is goodbye, so don't bother calling me.


Details | I do not know? | |

Torn happily

So I see that you have moved on...
From me and our memories.
I'm happy that you found love,
and somebody that gives you things that I never gave.
May you cherish these memories that are now being made.
With your new love, your new hun...
Since I am no longer your number one.


Details | I do not know? | |

Finally

Finally I can let you go,
Why keep u?
You don't deserve me,
You never did.
Always using me,
Used me for what you want,
Which was anything.
You wasn't fair,
but hey life isn't fair right?
You was there for me in the beginning,
but u grew from me,
I was there for you,
Through every problem we had,
I comforted you,
Gave you encouraging words,
Everything I did was out of love,
It was my duty as a spouse to you,
But u hurted me,
Forgetting about my pain, 
You always wanted things your way,
Going through for three years,
You wouldn't imagine the stress,
The pain,
The deceit i went through,
Trying to forget my past,
I was loving you,
But u said It wasn't enough,
And you sure didn't care to help,
You always thought about your needs,
Your life that included me as a comforter,
Not a lover,
So think about you now,
Go with whoever,
Forget our engagement,
Forget we ever met,
Because I am going places,
Places that you would imagine.
Woooooo! 
Finally I am free!!!


Details | Rhyme | |

leavin you behind

im goin on with my life
and leavin you behind
i love you still
but i will not go crawling back
you gave me alot of love
but also heartache and sorrow
maybe itll b better tomorrow
you hurt me bad
and it used to make me sad
and then it changed
i got mad
youll always be my first love
you used to be really special
and finally im goin on with my life without you
and leavin you behind


Details | Free verse | |

THE QUEEN OF MY LIFE

Omofolabode MAKEs ME PROUD
Than anything I ever could achieved,
Seem to be so small since she arrived.
Angel winds an angelical formation.

Breathing seems so hard to do,
Suddenly, the promise of love has gone.
Omofolabode, I now understand
The time we made love together.

Why do I love you like I do?
You should have told me
Like a sunrise, like a rainfall
You make me feel funny

When you come around.
What I find out is joy.
She makes me feel happy
Like velvet to my skin

And I often wonder why?
Someone as flowed as I
Deserve to be as happy as
She makes me
To long for omofolabode
The queen of my life.


Details | Rhyme | |

Realize, Remember, Regret

That moment when you realize,
what love should be,
what you lost,
what you didn't see..

That one memory,
that you cant forget,
that haunts you,
that makes you wonder why you met..

That piercing look and,
she makes you melt,
she teases you,
she makes you question all you've felt..

That end result,
you'll never quite recover,
you'll always regret,
you'll always wish she were your lover..


Details | I do not know? | |

Smile

Alone you walk?
Is that what you claim?
Maybe it's you who's left it this way?

I've seen pen to paper write
the deepest of thoughts
and the darkest of secrets

It's been too long since our hearts did beat
a bliss filled sense of numbness
yet we find it only in ignorance

I'll walk alone, yes all alone
but only to see you walk
hand in hand in another's embrace

So allow me to take your lonely path
and I'll smile as I give you away


Details | I do not know? | |

Character

Your character deceives me
Always misleads me
One minute I’m your friend
The next minute I’m your foe
The thought of you
Makes my liver quiver
My heart shivers.
You were my confidant
Now I’m your adversary
We had a good friendship
Now you’re not even worth, being an associate
I wanna say goodbye…but I can’t
I’ll never forget you
The gleeful person you were
And the impudent creature you have become.
08/15/05


Details | I do not know? | |

In the Middle of the Road

I am standing here
In the middle of the road
Watching the spot where you disappeared
Watching the spot where you aren't anymore.
I am standing here
In the middle of the road
Listening to your voice echo in my head
Listening to a voice I won't hear anymore.
I am standing here
In the middle of the road
Touching the spot on my cheek you used to kiss
Touching the spot on my cheek that won't be kissed anymore.
I am standing here
In the middle of the road
Remembering the memories we shared
The memories that won't have brothers and sisters anymore.
I am standing here
In the middle of the road
Alone.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Lies

I wake up in the morning, The smell of your perfume lingering on my skin, I roll over to see if your body still lay there, & I realize everything I loved vanished. I just have these images and scents stuck in my head, I have everything you ever gave me packed away, I look through it again and again each day. Trying to piece the puzzle together, & figure out why we drifted apart. I want to know if you still think about me like I think about you, I want to know if you still have the things I made and gave to you. I just wish I could stop smelling you, Stop thinking about you, Just everything about you brings me to my knees, & I am begging you please, Please just let me forget you. I wake up the next morning and realize, Everything about you was lies.


Details | Classicism | |

Ramon

I miss you Ramon, I wana see u so I look
outside across the street, You were the most
realest big hearted person anyone could ever
meet, With u not around I feel incomplete I miss you
with every heart beat. I still think ur gonna call
so I always look at my phone without you I 
feel so all alone I miss you Ramon I wish u 
could come bak home.Honestly I dont know if
I will ever be okay all I know is it gets harder &
harder each day.No amount of time will heal I
know I'll be missing u still. Some people just dont
understand & i dont think they ever will


Details | ABC | |

You said no

When I got down on one knee
And gave you my ring 
I meant forever 
 Now all I got 
Is my ring 
And a broken heart
Because you said No
I loved you
I thought you was the one
But come to find out your the one who 
Was going to hurt me
You made my heart hurt when you say those words
Take them back cause you know you don't mean them
I never thought this day would come
Where you would say No.


Details | Free verse | |

If You Only Knew

Dustin, 
My best friend, My x boyfriend, and the one I’m still in love with.
I know I have a boyfriend and he just happens to be your best friend too, but if I had the chance to tell you everything I would.
You and I still love each other like we did 3 years ago, but there’s nothing we can do about it.
I cant leave my boyfriend because I to scared of everything that will happen. 
I do love him and I do love you, but Who do I love more?
The one weekend I Saw you this year was the best weekend I've ever had.
We walked around like there was nothing else going on in the world.
The biggest smiles on our face, My lipstick on your lips, and the love in our eyes.
You and I even sang together on the park bench for the world to hear.
Shinedown is our favorite band because we both fit like perfect puzzle pieces in all their songs. 
I can't describe the way you made me feel with your big blue eyes, and the way you lifted me up like I was as light as a feather.
I know people might say if I love you so much then why don't I leave him. 
My answer is simple: I'm scared of being hurt… again.
Sure, every girl is sacred of a heart break but this girl? 
The bipolar , depressed, starving, love hungry, emotional, girl isn’t just scared she's terrified.
I do I love my boyfriend, but I don’t know who I love more.
Sure Dustin you broke up with me on my birthday 3 years ago, but we all make mistakes.
So for this years birthday you got me a beautiful “J” necklace, the color of my birthstone.
I know it might not sound like that makes up for it but the way I feel with you makes me feel invincible.
Every night we would go up to the hill, smoke a cigarette, and just hold each other. 
So if I had the opportunity to tell you  one thing that I regret not telling you.
It's that I love you and the way you make me feel more then everything in the whole world... except for Tyler, my boyfriend.
I'm sorry Dustin.


Details | Free verse | |

That Single Word

Today I texted you
Wondering what was wrong
And why you were avoiding me at school.
"We need 2 talk" I hesitantly sent
And waited for your reply.
"Ok" you said,
"Lets talk."
So I asked you why
You were acting so strange,
And did you know how much
You were hurting me?
Then I waited a minute
And sent you another.
"Do u... not want me anymore?"
It was several minutes before you answered
And even then it was vague.
A single word,
Small, yet powerful:
"No."
I took a deep breath
And cried a thousand tears
Because with that single word,
Small, yet powerful,
My heart was shattered
And my life ended.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Rose

bullets, and hearts
lifeless bodies piled in carts
a lonlely mortition chewing over sweet tarts,
ironic, bitter sweet
blood can boil if you can bring the heat
and the dead can move, provided with a heart beat
black roses on my grave
mourn my loss on this day
blood dripping from my heart every which way
injured, batterd, buised and tattered 
you destroyed it all like it never even mattered 
falling roses in the sky
drops of blood spatter my eye
i told you i would love you until i die
my word is true, i was nobody until i found you
but you dont love me do you
bloody petals on the floor
you say nothing because you love me no more 
heart beat stops
face flops
knees weak and my body drops
exctacsy to heartbreak 
fearless too forsake
death is welcome but never comes
your the woman to seduce, but never succumbs 
to entrap but never loves 
it makes no sence like poisonous doves
looks to thrill 
designed to kill 
you say that you wont but i know that you will
your heart constricts mine till it lays still
your auburn eyes can paralyze
your intoxicating presence washes over me like the tides 
lips so beautiful, do they speak nothing but lies?
so seductive you hold my heart as it dies
cunning and deceptive crocodile tears instigate angel cries 
the personification of beauty 
the face of an angel 
the heart of the devil
your siren song, sang to my heart sweet and long 
draws me in, i cant resist for it is too strong
i want you to love me
to breath me
im writhing 
and seething 
seeking
and weeping
thinking as im dreaming
on what my dependence on you is meaning
i want to hate you but your part of my being
and now i am seeing
that i must catch the falling rose in the wind
present it to you, and steal your heart then
The blood on the petals are angel tears
for the fallen angel has realised her fears
she has fallen for a mortal 
a boy
who was nothing more than a toy
being played to her ploy
and she takes this defeat with joy
the blackest heart has been turned pure
fallen angel fell for my lure 
my arrow aimed at her heart oh so sure
and she is mine.... forever more


Details | Choka | |

BEFORE IT GETS DEEPER

Let's end it right now 
before it gets deeper and
we won't hold on delusion...
would you rather feel
the agony of pain, or
accept this goodbye and leave?


I've tried to say it 
aloud, but courage was missing...
I wanted to shout and cry,
and admit we should
break up to avoid many
painful memories with tears.


Were you not reading
the signs on this loveless face? 
Wasn't it kind of suspicious
why I didn't touch you
enough when darkness drew near...
felt so rejected and unloved?


It's morning and you
are sleeping, chasing new dreams,
I must go so silently...
oh, forgive me, love
I cannot see you shiver 
as sad words cause a heart-break.


I didn't wish it had
turned out the way it just did,
isn't it better to let go
than be deluded?
Look me in the eye and end
it before it gets deeper.

 
Written by Andrew Crisci
for Russell Sivey's contest,
" Relationships Breakups "


Details | Prose Poetry | |

MIGRATORY

I dreamed she housed her love in the shape of a living bird. How much do migratory creatures know, I wonder, of the weather on the other side? A week ago, the heart that is in my body from time to time leaves me a note I don’t answer. Can we at least talk? it asks, and I think “yes,” and then I lay down, exhausted. In the letter I finally write back. I don’t even apologize, I don’t think. “With you gone, it’s like I’m gone too.” That’s all I say. Words are harder to come and I myself am migratory, though these days lacking in wings or feet. I know nothing of the weather on the other side. I don’t even speak the language that I want to understand. Living as opposed to what? Her living bird made me wonder. Living in what way? I’m watching our wings, hung, ready for tomorrow. I’m looking for a place to put my arms.


Details | Rhyme | |

My lovely and cruel angel

You subverted me into hell, 
My lovely and cruel angel.
I have no right even to yell.
You`re treating me like a stranger.

You wanted me to fly over
Right to the stars. I got frightened.
Now it is you whom I`m calling
`Cause by your light I was blinded.

Angel, my angel, I can`t bounce
That I have wings. I`m too earthly.
I was in heaven with you once.
It was when you touched me softly.

Now I`m in hell. My heart`s aching.
You are my only salvation.
You will be back and you`ll give me
All your blessed love and your passion.


Details | I do not know? | |

One Single Stupid Second

It’s so funny how 
One moment everything is fine.
The sun is shining
The birds are tweeting
Just another perfect day.

And in one second
-one single second!-
Everything you have worked for
Everything you live for
Crumbles away around you.

You were
Having fun
Laughing
Singing
Playing.

Then- in a stupid second-
Everything changes.

Now you’re in 
Total hysterics
Screaming
Crying
Panicking.

The car came down too fast.
There was no way he could have ever
Seen it coming.

He crossed the street 
Just at the 
Complete wrong time.

Then he’s gone.

Breathed his last breath 
Just a second after
His head smacked the ground.

People were praying.
Others were getting people
Out of the way of the 
Paramedics.

But I knew he was gone.

You can feel it heavy in your heart.
You can feel it twisting your gut.

And part of you just knows
He is never coming back to kiss you goodnight.


Details | Rhyme | |

Thanks For Giving me the Strength to Leave You

I wish I could tell you what you long to hear,
Instead I find myself choking on words held in for too long...
You act as if things are as simple as "I'm sorry..I'll change"
But this time I remain steadfast and strong...

I let you tear me down,
Until there was nothing more than a fragile child,
Too afraid to speak or move,
Even to scared to smile..

You beg and you plea that I will return,
The tears stream down your cheeks,
I ask myself why do I care how you feel,
When you never seemed to care for me...

I tried to open up to you,
And ask why you were pushing me away,
I tried to fix things before they got too broken,
But you didn't care about what I had to say..

I was the one trying to hold us together,
You always kept me at arms length,
When you shunned me and ignored my existence,
Little did you know it was causing me to grow in strength..


Details | Free verse | |

Let Me Be The Secret You Promised To Keep.

I'll count the minutes till the end of our lives.
I'll breathe again just to stay alive.
I'll let you hold my hand and take me away.
Tell me something never told before.
Hold me round the waist and
Kiss me where i'm sore.
Give me everything i need,
All the feelings i adore.

Blow away the tears i cry
and tell me it'll be alright.
Stay close by my side
Its too hard to say goodbye.
Hold me and promise never to let go.
Let me be that secret 
No ones supposed to know.

I'll stay with you forever if you 
Promise not to go.
I'll be your one and only, 
And the everything you ever wanted.
I'll hide with you in a corner
Until the day ends.
I'll love you forever 
Your more to me than just a friend.

I'll count the times my heart will beat
And remember all the breaths i take.
I'll cound the minutes till the 
End of our lives.
I'll stab my soul just to see if its real
Then watch the blood drop
Like a thousand knives.
I'll bear the pain and let it heal.
I'll spill a tear down my cheek
Waiting for you to blow it away, and
Say it'll be alright.

I'll do anything just to be with you.
Never leave me, never go.
Forget everyone around seperating
Our worlds.
For this love of ours, is beyond
The love i know.
You'll stay in my heart from 
Now till foever.
Deaf from the words others say
I'll sit here and wait for the day.

When everyone will stop looking
And stop careing, because now, i'm yours.
And i shall wait,
And i shall cry,
Counting the minutes until i see you,
Counting the minutes till the rest of our lives.


Details | Free verse | |

How Do I Let You Go

What will be
Will be!
I know of this, first hand
Your life was taken away
So abruptly!
I will 
Never forget
That day!
Till the day 
My body dies
And
I am with you, again!

“How was I to prepare myself?”
With 
That kind of 
Life changing, event!
You 
Didn't warn me 
You
Were permanently leaving!
I hope 
You know 
How much “I love you”
Know
You will never be forgotten!

I don’t know 
What 
Has got into me!
Consciously
I feel you
Inside me
I see images
Of your face 
So clearly!
Am I crazy 
To believe in this, my love?

“Are you still with me?”
“Is my imagination 
Playing cruel tricks
Running rampant
As
I talk with you
As if 
You were by my side, right now

In my heart and mind
Your face etched
Imprinted
Like a blue print
That never fades
Your foot prints 
Still remain, beside me
My heart beats
Eternally
Trying to make sense of everything!

Forgive me, my love
For being so strong in my feeling
For it has been a long time
Since I lost you, my friend
Something 
I haven’t
Quite
Got over!

My heart 
Having 
A mind of its own
Aching 
To be with you, still!
To see you
To smell you
To touch you
To taste you
One
Last time!

I want to say “Goodbye” 
Once and for all!
As 
We have
Brought out
The best and worst 
In each other
Rivers run deep
When it comes to you and me!

We have had our fair share of fights and arguments
Stubborn disagreements
All of them
Meaningless
Now
You cease to exist!

I miss your lingering touches
Your hand, stroking my face
Your big, blue eyes
Looking into mine
Your warm lips
Your rough, unshaven face 
The way you
Passionately
Kiss me
While
We make love, till dawn

I miss
All those nights
You kept me 
Safe and warm!
I miss
Your
Loving embrace
I miss
Your
Reassurance!
“Am I ever going to feel the same, with another?”
Just
As 
I felt
In your arms, my love?

How
Do I let you go?
How
Do I set myself, free?
I am ready
To love, again!
With 
‘Our eternal love’
Supporting
And 
Guiding me
Especially
In times, like these!


Details | Sonnet | |

Blind Love

The romance between them female and male,
From her dying inside from all the pain.
Their love like a moon shining oh so pale, 
And them thinking they were going insane.

From the late nights of fighting and crying,
To the dates that went wrong in both their ways.
They both found out of each others lying,
And cheating that took place the past few days.

Punching and kicking, being tossed around,
The bruises, the blood, the black-and-blue eyes. 
She shouts and screams when she falls to the ground,
The neighbors don't help when they hear her cries.

But on the wedding day nothing is said,
And the truth came out when they found her dead.


Details | Free verse | |

lost love

As i feel my heart pound
i think to myself
is it worth sharing
or opening up?

i walk away, letting the dear slide down my cheek
and refuse to look back
i will not look back
i look back.

i know im in to deep
as my heart starts to pound
all i see is her smile
as i walk home

As the smile lights up my face
i say to myself i wont call 
i will not call
i call

instead of hearing the familiar sounds, that ring so sweet
i know  in her voice things have changed
i need not hear the words
which i have so long ignored

i will not cry 
i refuse to cry
i cry.


Details | Rhyme | |

Half-here

Half-Here
Look at me, my laughter and smile
     my curled hair, my dressed up style
facade that you rarely see through,
     only the close and very few

 try hard to fill the cracks with light,
         But beneath it is gloomy night 
 My love, my everything, my bliss
         My heart - Stole my happiness

Our troubles, I thought not much
        In the end, you cooled to my touch
Remember the good times, you said
        Mind blinking, I was aching  to mend

I was ready to go forward, but not you
        Holding back, not ready, I knew
I wanted to give you me and more.                                 
         But your distance brought, only tore

 Why did you keep me so long?
      I was so deep in your song.
Didn't want this - wasn't me - why?!
      It was you, that made my heart cry.

If ever you want your first whats real
       And we both know how we feel
Even when you run, run far away.                         
          I'll be  the one - i'll stay

 Til then, I was wrong, I thought forever 
       No more happy times, no laughter
Behind the mask, I'll hide the broken
      And real love, again, will never be spoken


Details | Free verse | |

What now

I’m sorry I am who I am
One minute we were laughing and fine
What did I do wrong this time?
I was your best friend and you were mine
My loving you is starting to feel like a  crime.
I have tried over and over  to change for you but I don’t think I can
I knew our relationship always had some issues
We were the modern day romeo and Juliette 
I just did not think you would cause me to use so many tissues
Answer me what did I do wrong this time?
I'm laying in bed with my pillow all wet 
Those nights I spent up waiting for you just to talk till past midnight
I know your secrets, I have kept them all these years
They were just small memories, but I need to forget them now we’re in a fight
I know all of your deepest darkest fears
I guess you don’t know mine
Do you know what I feared most
My biggest fear is losing you
Guess what? I’m scared
It's coming from my heart and it's true
All I ever wanted was to know that you cared


Details | Light Poetry | |

Why The Teardrops?

Why the Teardrops?
Why the Pain?

Why the Teardrops?
Am I going Insane?

Why the Teardrops?
Why all of the Heartbreaks?

Why the Teardrops?
Was it all a mistake?


Details | Epic | |

About Kameron by Taylor

I stood in the room staring at that hard wooden floor.

Thought of him and then closed the door.
I looked back up and everything was black.
Suddenly I knew the pain was back.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Black and gray rags were scattered everywhere,
And all I could do was stare.

But he loved me .
I knew that much.

I sat on his bed and noticed that the tears started to shed.
Then I saw a very dark closet.
I heard our song and wanted to pause it.
I felt my heart slowing with the rhythm.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Light began to shine through the enormous window.
I looked over,
And there...was a shadow.
The giant black drapes turned blue.
I thought to myself:"This can't be true."

Because I knew he loved me.

The roses came back to life.
And the bed turned white.
The rags turned into his clothing.

The music slowed and I didn't know what I was being shown.
But I loved him.
A light came from the closet.

A light that was brighter than any of the stars in the sky.
I saw a figure,and again,I started to cry.
I saw his face,saw his smile,
And knew that this was our special place.
And he said I love you.

Those three words meant the world to me and him .
And I said,
...I love you a whole lot more.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Maelstrom in my heart

Unsure I stand,
Of how to feel,
Distraught within, without,
Although I planned,
To be as steel,
I'm soft without a doubt,
A 'she' has come,
To bend my mind,
And claim my smitten soul,
Stole my freedom,
And so I find,
I'm robbed of self-control,
O siren maid,
Such strong dark spells,
You have cast on my heart,
A heart that has strayed,
From where it dwells,
Will surely fall apart,
Where can I go?
What can I do?
When will this madness end?
If I feel so,
Then so must you,
Or do you just pretend?
You give me pain,
But take my peace,
A poor exchange for pleasure,
I struggle in vain,
To earn your kiss,
A fool beguiled by treasure.


Details | ABC | |

I Thought You Changed But You Only Lied

When I let you back in my life and in my heart
I thought you change
When you say I love you again 
I thought you ment it
But when I see differnt and your face posted on other ads
What am I susposse to think
No I ant Jealous or Protective
Just don't wanna be lead on
And be left with a other heart ache from
you just do not get or understand
I sit here re open...


Details | I do not know? | |

Set Me Free

Catch me when I fall from the wall.
Erode my misery of feeling so lonely.
Shatter the words on being all alone written in stone.
Free me from the spell of my own hell.

Bring me a chance to find a peace of mind.
Make real my dreams of how happiness seems.
Give the thoughts on being strong-spirited more meaning.
Remind me of how my inner self has always been free.


Details | I do not know? | |

The Grime

She stands by the door waiting for 
her to come, the days finally here 
going home with her mum. 

She's 4 now, almost a year to the 
day, since the childrens aid workers 
came to take her away. 

When she was taken her mom was 
addicted to crack, pulled in by the 
streets and not looking back. 

Mom hustles the streets, living blast 
to blast, hoping this  will help her 
forget her past. 

But now her heart is filled with 
sorrow, "don't worry honey ill clean 
up tomorrow." 

Tomorrows come and go but she 
stays on the street, the drug that's 
too hard  to beat. 

Then it happens a sign from the 
gods, something makes her defy all 
the odds. 

Her boyfriend arrested sent off to 
jail, won't be a while til he can get 
bail. 

Now the light goes off in her head, 
she realizes that the street will soon 
make her dead. 

She leaves downtown and rebuilds 
her life, she can't believe why she 
caused all this strife. 

After a few weeks she gets a visit 
supervised, and she changes herself 
seeing her kids eyes. 

She goes back to school and gets 
her own place, help from family and 
friends she rehabilitates. 

Her boyfriend from prison promises 
her the world, says when he gets out 
it will be them and her girl. 

7 months go by her man gets out of 
jail, now this is not the end of the 
tale. 

Now the little girl stares at the door, 
which I'm sure she's done many 
times before. 

Todays the day, ribbons in her hair, 
pretty pink dress her mom will soon 
be there. 

She hears the door handle and yells 
"Mommy",   door opens its not what 
she expected to see.

The lady walks in sad look on her 
face. The young girl knows she won't 
be leaving this place. 

"Sorry honey, mommy can't make it 
today",
"Why?  Where is she?  What did she 
say?"

Her mom sits in the crackhouse, 
drugs in her hand, staring across the 
table at her freshly released  man. 

"Does anyone have a pipe I can 
borrow?"
"Don't worry honey ill clean up 
tomorrow!"
 



Details | Tail-rhyme | |

The Day

The day is still young
But it has been long.

All but the last breath of mornings fresh air
has left and gone.

The sun is sighing beneath the weight of work
yet still the world carries on.

Life moves forward never pausing for directions
leaving me behind like an old forgotten song.

All i wanted was her, to be mine, and mine hers,
but all i received, the feeling, was wrong.

Even in the end i can still smell the clinging scent of perfume
on her blouse, as she leaves me alone to face the oncoming dawn.


Details | Free verse | |

The Notion of Leaving

I entertain the notion of leaving
For a day or for a year
Is really no matter to me
The idea of a wandering star entertains me
Orbiting your thoughts
But never quite landing
Or at least not long enough
To hold your attention
Or your hand
Until the day
That you notice your satellite missing
And you look up
Only to find me
Next to you

I entertain the notion of leaving
And never coming back
To see the sea and smell the ocean
Watch blue skies turn to black
The thought of sadness intrigues me
Much as pain is for fun
I’d like to see someone mourn me
As a friend, a brother, a son

I entertain the notion of leaving
Perhaps just for these words
I entertain the thought of you reading them
The things you wish you hadn’t heard

The music builds to a crescendo
And I wish I could make up my mind
I wish I could do what I want to do
And leave no trace left behind

I wish that no one would miss me
As I wish the whole world would
The thought of being alone scares me
Much more than thoughts of death could

No, I shall not go today
But who knows what tomorrow may bring
I doubt it will bring you back to me
But I guess I’ll just wait and see


Details | Rhyme | |

CANDLE OF LOVE

CANDLE OF LOVE
I was silent
Still thought U would hear
My wish My desire
My plead My crave
Within My soul for U 
Ought to be heard, so grave

I was ignored
Still thought U would see
With those elegant eyes
Innate love confined in My heart 
Budding steadily
But U never realized

I was far
Still thought U would feel
My being My presence
My actuality My existence
Like how I 
Always felt Ur essence

But now I know I was wrong
U never saw heard or felt
MY sentiments My feelings
My passions My emotions
N so the Candle of love
Within My heart
Now just bound to melt 


Details | ABC | |

rewind and breakout

this shy shell, must be broken. I need to be set free. What my heart desires, lies in the past. That one moment that one chance taken away by a broken shell and time that moved way too quickly. Take a step into the past change it. Speak up and let it out but it's too late my chance, just a blink in the past.


Details | I do not know? | |

It Was Me

It was me
who made you cry
i ignored the truth and told you lies...

It was me
who wondered why
you had to leave without saying goodbye...

I really did you wrong
so now im all alone
wishing your heart was my home...

Now I'm a king without a thrown
nowhere for me to go...
my queen has shut me out
im about to scream and shout 
but im only left to pout


Details | Lyric | |

It's Saturday and 2:00 A.M.

The helplessness I feel
increases as we approach the door
I can’t take this missing you so badly anymore
I grab your waist to pull you in real tight
then I hug you with all my might
And sadly I must kiss you goodbye
and resist the urge to let tears in my eyes
because it will only make missing you that much worse
This distance between us is such a curse
Slowly I walk towards my car
turning to face you with every stride
as I sadly wave goodbye
Reluctantly I open the door
and blow you kisses to say goodbye once more
Sadly I must drive away
and watch your figure disappear
And with each mile
as you grow less near
I start to miss you more and more my dear


Details | Light Poetry | |

LONELINESS by Collice Rodrigues

He is not lonely who does not have anyone

He is lonely who is alone though he has someone

Loneliness never took away my shine

It only took the things that pretended to be mine

 

I have been sitting there on that dark bench alone

I have felt loneliness running like a shiver to my bone

It’s the most frightful feeling it’s frozen, it’s cold

The worst of your memories will it unfold

 

Loneliness is better when we choose it our self

It’s hard to accept when we get it by someone’s help

Loneliness can make you want to lie in your mothers arm

It can make you the only chicken in the poultry farm

 

Loneliness can make you desperate for a call

It can make you mad enough to talk to a wall

Loneliness can make you sick of living

It can kill your faith till you stop believing

 

Loneliness is like the night that slowly creeps upon you

Its victim is everybody it doesn’t even spare a few

Loneliness can make you crave for attention

It can steadily engulf you against your intention

 

-Collice Rodrigues

25/09/2011


Details | I do not know? | |

A tale about one doll

Once upon a time there was one doll.
She had big green eyes, and her nose was small.
Tiny were her hands, feet and plump red lips.
White was her smooth skin, rosy were her cheeks.

The doll was so cute but her friendly smile
Was not full of warmth, was not full of life.
Nothing in the world could make this nice doll
Leave her cozy shelf and be just a girl.

Please, don't think the doll had no heart and soul.
She dreamt of a friend being all alone.

And at last he came. Yes, he really came.
And he told the doll: “I don't want to play.
I need you for life, not for any game.
I love you. And you? Do you feel the same?”

The doll's heart woke up. Innocent and shy,
She told him: “I'm yours. Be forever mine”.
And a gentle kiss swept away her mind.
The doll left her shelf and became alive.

No longer was her smile painted or dull.
It was bright and so warm and happy now.
He called her his cute and sweet lovely girl.
He told her he loved both her face and soul.

He took her small hand and asked for her heart.
And she gave him all, everything she had.
Happier than all people in the world –
This is how the doll felt being his girl.

He made her his own, he made her alive,
Filled her soul with love and then … made her cry.

Yes, this fairy tale didn't last so long.
It turned out his love wasn't so much strong.

Having got her heart, he stopped being nice.
She would him warmth and would get back ice.
She would give him all and she would be hurt.
“You don't understand”, - this is what she heard.

He told her that she was still just a doll.
He told her that he wished a real girl.
He said he had no plans about her.
Then he left his doll, having said: “You'll cope”.

He was all her life and her only joy.
What was she for him? Was she just a toy?
It turned out it was painful just to breathe.
Poor little doll, do you want to live?

Yes, your eyes are bright – they are bright with tears.
And the smile is sad on the painted lips.

Poor little girl, how long will you live?
You've learnt how to love – learn how to forgive.
Learn how to forget that one who's your all.
Girlie, learn again how to be a doll.


Details | ABC | |

This Is It

Our relationship is like a 
Rollar coster 
We are up
Next thing you know 
We are right back down
We don't make love anymore
All we ever do is fight
I just wish things would go back the way like they was before
When we first met
Things where great then
But now thier not 
What have happen to us 
We both changed so much
I guess it's best for us 
To split and go our own way
I will miss you 
But this is  what best for the both of us
Cause it's not healthy 
For either one of us 
To fight like this
GoodBye.


Details | Lyric | |

point of no return

I gotta make a sacrifice
I might just have to take my life
becuz I've fallen into deep
into this pain you left me

so plain to see, so vividly
its obvious how you treated me
tell me honestly
did you really love me
cuz its not wat it seem to be

im at the point of no return
my heart turn solid rock
I just cant return
to love another man
like I loved you

"The lesson of love is learned"

im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return

ever since I left
my life took a step back
you been on my mind
but I dont want you back

I wish I could forget
I wish I could forget you
but I cant forget
the perfect storm you
put me through

im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return
im at the point of no return

"The lesson of love is learned"


Details | Free verse | |

im never coming back continued into why did i go back

Im never coming back
smart ,creative,generous you are ,
but theres more to you than that
your insecure ,angry and drink to much
I needed your love ,but you didnt know how to give it
I wanted you more than anything ,but you werent feeling it
I loved you ,and it showed... but your eyes were closed
you didnt see me so i dissapeared ,so now your eyes have come to be open
and your wondering where i am
but im gone
 and im never coming back
_______________________________________________________________________________.....
Why did i go back
why did i go back to you ,cause everythings the same
as always... u lured me in with your charm, just till im willing to stay
then u trap me and hold me in place and mistreat me just the same,
you appear charming and sweet but underneith your cruel and controling
on the inside i say all the things to you i dont have the courage to say
and on the inside i hate how i love u more each day
i hate how im conflicted between the lines of love and hate
and i hate how i cant seem to stay away 
so i sit here in the mist of your bull*****once again
and wonder ...why did i go back


Details | Ballad | |

What have you done

Unraveling threads of a desperately mending heart, I cry out “What have you done!” weighed down with shame, with untamed grief the anchors attached around my quivering feet.

Scornfully you mock my pain your heartless blacked eyes clanging at my blood drenched hands, nails layered with burgundy.

Thou paled and anguished, scorned and abused these tiny fingers frantically gather the broken shards that where you. With each slight hurt and every cold and calculated word the jagged glass drew crimson streams.

“What have you done!”

With love so bright, a luminescent beam of  pure serenity I know mourn.
No longer a lover or friend, forever a foe a minis to my rapidly beating heart.

Even though I stand laced up in cold metal chains, I pity you, pity with no end, casting my regret to the changing wind.

Tears, I’ll drowned myself in dying sorrow, the kind that never ends.
Simplicity of burden that is all I gain.

Trembling blushed hands, heavily wounded pride, even the department of faith is the love token you bestowed unto me. Now, snicker with accomplishment.

But behind these tear filled blue eyes my soul still flies.
You can only cross me, vex me, and wound me so many countless times.

New faith will be received over time,  pink thread will lace the torn partials of an aching heart, and the love from even a stranger will triumph over ever pain, clotting the wounds you inscribed on my skin.

Exciting anticipation, what an unexpected thing!


The account of you a memory now in my life’s ledger, A blank page layered with your name.
A memorial for when in love you should never have to utter, “What have you done.”


Details | Free verse | |

fate

the bruises you made
the cuts i made
you forced me to do it
yet you don't know it
my heart breaks in two
as you break my dignity
my soul fades away
every time i saw you
I would end my life
if you didn't
but you ended your instead
yet i should be sad
i'm not
yet i should be crying
i'm not
instead i'm happy
instead i'm laughing
is it so bad?
you deserved it in my opinion
you had it coming
fate watched over you
every time you hit me
and finally fate hit you bad,
right in the face.
i'm guessing fate was on my side
i'm happy now
yet fate watches me everyday
i'm still happy you're gone


Details | Rhyme | |

As I Type Here

As I type here
Thinking of you
Off to Arizona
Two planes flew
Fountain Hills
Where they stay
At home I miss
You for 10 days


Details | Free verse | |

Greatest Fear

That girl you see, she's standing there
She hides behind her pretty hair
She cries inside but smiles without
She gives the whole wide world a shout
Reminding them of the scars he left her
He cries aloud, because he knows it's over

In a crowded room she feels alone
She taps her heels three times
but she can't go home

He was her escape, her only way out
So she misses him without a doubt
She's tried moving on but she can't let go
She tries so hard not to let it show

She cries herself to sleep at night
'Cause she's unaware and not ready to fight
Another battle in this dark, cold war

She knows she'll never be the same
It takes all she's got to keep from going insane
As she finally reaches her breaking point

A once white rose was painted red
Reminding her of the tears she's bled
Her bright smile once lit up the room
But now her sadness turns the whole world blue.

In a dark room she tries to find the light
but there's not an ounce of hope in sight
The world as she knew it was crashing down
But they couldn't even hear the sound
Of her voice crying out for help
Someone save me

Now she's crying for the whole wide world to hear
That her reality, is her greatest fear.


Details | Free verse | |

I Almost Couldn't Believe It

I almost couldn't believe it 
When I heard the words you spoke 
Because I didn't want to. 
I didn't want to admit 
That you were really letting me go, 
Like a leaf on a windy day 
To travel alone 
Somewhere without you. 
I almost couldn't believe it 
When I called myself "single", 
Because after us, 
"Single" means "alone". 
Yes, I might have my friends 
And my family to back me up, 
But that's not the love I want. 
I almost couldn't believe it 
When I walked away from you 
And let the tears flow 
Down my cheeks unwillingly. 
I almost couldn't believe it 
When I heard the words you spoke 
Because I didn't want to.


Details | I do not know? | |

Daydreams

daydreams of you coming back
make my heart tear and crack

in these dreams you come to 
me 
you look me in the eye and say 
"im sorry"

you say our love was somthing 
real
somthing you truly still feel

i start to wonder what this 
means
but in my heart 
i know they are simply
daydreams


Details | I do not know? | |

Never Gone

I can’t get you off my mind
you’re running circles in my head
I try to just forget you
 I’d be better off instead
but it’s like you’re glued inside my mind
or tattooed onto my brain
I try and I try to forget you
but you just won’t go away
maybe this just means something 
maybe this is all just planned
or maybe I’m just crazy
either way I don’t give a damn
all I know is your still in my heart
but gone from my life
you’re gone forever 
but will never leave my mind


Details | Ballad | |

Sacred Lorelei

The night has befallen me Rescue me, unchain me Sacred Lorelei Bleeding a passion of royalty Forever I'll follow your Argentine cloak with the most deadly pacts beautiful Witch Sacred Lorelei Tell me did the ravens Hear my cry My misery's plea Sacred Lorelei Was this all just upon a dream Lucidity becoming reality of my Sacred Lorelei A fiat of darkly desire from a most beautiful witch unchaining the burden of my misery All for my Sacred Lorelei


Details | ABC | |

The pain you caused me

As I lay here bed
listening to rain 
hitting window 
All I can think about
Is the pain
you've left me holding 
you say wanted us to be together forever
was that lie 
when you kiss my lips 
you say it was kissing a piece heaven 
was that a lie as well
when we made love for the first time 
you cried 
I held you to make all you tears go away
but now as I lay here in bed
with tears flowing from my eyes
that you caused 
can you make them go away
because right now
I feel like the pieces of my broken heart
can never be together again
because of the pain 
you caused me ...


Details | Rhyme | |

anti-v day

love is dead,
and come undone,
people steal hearts,
just for fun,
rip them out,
and let them bleed,
no more tears,
there is no need,
for a day,
to sit and cry,
for the lost love,
we all let die.

happy valentines day. bwahahahahaha


Details | Epic | |

Breaking Through The Walls

Missing past loves,
Can hurt you in so many ways,
But makes you compare,
Everyone to that one love.

Which can be good and bad,
In so many ways,
Because no one can compare to that one person,
But it can keep you from being in situations,
That you should not remain in or stay.

Some people are good,
And some are just out to hurt you,
However, you must take your time,
And judge carefully,
So you know who is true.

Yes, life has its ups and downs,
And you must take each time,
As a learning experience,
For if you do,
And listen to every noise,
That hits your ears,
You will hear those sounds are very important sounds!

Some are Cries of love, anger, hurt, and cries of pain,
But if you don't listen carefully,
And hear any of them,
Nothing will matter in your life, 
And the most important thing in your life,
      Will fly away like a dove.

Then it will be the same old road,
Over and over again,
And unless you change,
It will continue to repeat itself,
And you will put a wall up 


Details | I do not know? | |

My bisexuality

If it wasn't you, would I have to hide it?
If it wasn't "wrong", would you try to fight it?
Would it change anything on your part?
Would you give me a deeper look?
It drives me slowly crazy,
My eyes always needing to look your way
Just because its not the "normal" way,
I'm afraid of you turning away. 
Would I still get wrapped up in your eyes?
If I was allowed to really look?
Would these stolen glances lose their touch?
Would I lose these feelings of forbidden lust?
Would I ever regret it?
If i ever tried to forget it?


Details | Lyric | |

Staring at Your Picture

Needing to fall asleep
but I’m staring at your picture
Missing you my dear
wishing that you were here
and trying not to weep
at the fact that you’re not near
I hope that you are sleeping well
and dreaming the sweetest of dreams
Know that I’m dreaming of you
your touch
your kiss
your embrace
your smile
your smell
your eyes
and your face
Know that I am missing you
your laugh
your sighs
your “I love you”s


Details | Free verse | |

Till Death Do Us Part

I lay awake, at night
Hearing your spirit, calling me
I feel you, deeply
Another time, another space
How, do I bring you back home?


Details | Blank verse | |

How

How can I forget you,
your smile, your kind words?
How can I stop dreaming,
stop hoping and wishing?
Your voice, your eyes, your hands
always present, stirring memories,
each sweet thing said in my mind
like a broken love song.
Memories burning, scalding
and springing suddenly, violently.
So many rotting promises
and half lost wishes
and yet...
I can't let go.


Details | Lyric | |

I have

I have gotten used to
coming home to be alone
I have gotten used to 
not questioning where you go
and I have gotten used to 
a short call to say hello
but I have not gotten used to 
the way my heart feels ohh so low

I have leaned to be okay 
with talking only briefly
our schedules don't match up at all
but someday you will see me
I have learned you never come
when you say you will
and I have learned not to expect 
the actions said by you

I would like to be taken out
just once in a blue moon
I don't ask for much you see
just to be with you
I would like to lay one night 
knowing you won't have to leave 
I would like to wake up to 
you sleeping next to me.

But no, you can't
not right now
maybe in a year
should I wait when my heart breaks?
every day I feel the tears
I am lonely and in love
with someone who loves me
or so I think, 
but where oh where is he?


Details | ABC | |

you played me

You say you love me 
But then again 
you hurt me
How can I trust you 
when you act this way
I gave you my all
You gave me nothing
But pain
Heartache 
And my emotions played with
it's like some sick twisted game you like to play


Details | Free verse | |

Senior Year Nightmare

Drooping decorations
and graduation mayhem turned to
tears and depression after
fight with high school steady.
The memory of prom date from hell
will hopefully disappear.
The elaborate hairdo was
furiously brushed out,
and the uncomfortable formal
packed away in the attic to be
given to charity next year.
The sweet whispers of love and 
the notes passed in study hall
behind the back of old Mrs. Jenkins,
the talk of a wedding the following summer,
became heartbreaking memories
when Tiffany Blake came to town.


Details | Epitaph | |

A CHERRY PIT

              Time continues flowing
             but very little changes
             besides location; there
             have been no provocations 
             nor much rain for even grain

             Life with out emotional pain
            would be better if there was
            somewhere to go every day and
            someone with whom to share it
            preferably with out having a fit

             Except for being happy this day
            or even once and awhile how can 
            I not sometimes feel as if a cherry
            pit that has fallen into grits?


Details | I do not know? | |

Hello? War In Here

It was one of those moments 
The ones no one ever views in real life 
Well I was cleaning my closet out 
And I found empty whiskey bottles 
That we'd shared for a while 
Hidden under all the clothes 
You left through the years 

It got even worse 
When I found that old picture 
Of us sitting down, both 30 pounds lighter 
We used to be so young 
With our big hair and first packs 
This is when it all started 
When it started to get blurry 

It was insane to see 
How much we would take from eachother 
At 3 am I thought of how you were in bed 
And noticed I would take my turn 
Only when I was on the fix
Only when we were together 
Not for anyone else 

It was plain to see 
That I took my anger out on you 
I put all the blame on you 
My first joint was shared with you 
And since then I passed through the gates 
Only to find my dependence on them all 
It's all on me, just leave me alone


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You've got skeletons in your closet I've got hearts

No one does it better than I.
Be they outgoing or a touch shy.
And to sit and think about it now,
And I tend to really wonder how
I got in the business of stealing hearts.

Whispers of a life draw them in.
Sweet smiles and laughter keep them pinned.
And in an instant, I think we could be.
And then I remember we're dealing with me.
Trapping souls forever is a tricky art.

I've never set out to hurt a soul,
But when I leave, they're never whole.
And I sulk for two or three.
And then I move, 'cause I'm me.
In the end, I break them apart.

Falling in love is never my plan.
But then again, such a dashing man.
And I guess I have a charming way.
And I guess I make them want to stay.
Is there ever an end to what I start?

I've never asked for all these hearts.
I was searching for the missing parts.
And then I wake up one day and see.
And then realize it's not meant to be.
When composing love, I'm your Mozart.

I'll come into your life, and make you fall.
I'll take your heart, I'll take it all.


Details | Rhyme | |

Fragility

Come and search my pockets
Nothing- you will be left in shame
Save the broken pieces of a fragile thing
That once was called by my name

No longer am I that pathetic thing
I refuse to be associated with so
The shards are dropped in the trash
I pick up my bags and I go


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Beauty and the Unpublished Author


Far away in a little town tucked in the corner of a map
Lives the girl who ruined his heart
And broke his life

While with him she would smile and laugh so sweet
Tender as only she could be
In his heart she lit even the corners so deep

With time she became his definition of life
In all he did he had her in mind
Life wasn’t life without him seeing her smile

As moments grew into weeks
The flower of his heart started to reveal its wilt
In her eyes no longer was the sparkle he was used to seeing

Winds carried awful odour of their disorder
Tales went round of her illicit exploits behind the counter
The man with the shop at the corner savoured all the honey she offered

At first he dismissed the whispers with laughter
But soon he discovered he was the only one on the other side of reality’s border
Yes indeed, another prince had taken over

Trouble was how sincerely he loved her
Problem was that even she had only love to offer
Issue was he hadn’t yet sold a dime of the books he authored


Details | Free verse | |

I wish you did

You talk about how you can never find her,
or how you can't seem to keep one around
I try to hide the fact that I am that girl,
because I know that in your eyes I'm not.
You say that you want a girl that laughs at all your jokes,
 If you notice,
I do.

I let you cry on my shoulder, EVERY time you get hurt. You say that you want a girl that you need a girl, that's there for you when you need her One that makes you laugh when you don't want to. A girl that you can be yourself around.
If you notice, I'm her. If you notice, I'm everything you said you want. Do you notice? Not one bit.
But I wish you did.


Details | Free verse | |

burned love

fury burns within my heart...
my still beating heart burning
from the inside out
screaming to finally be free from this pain
eyes dry 
head aches
stomach churns to thought of no longer
there being a you and me
the flame now a distant memory 
along with the love we once held..
i once let you escape from my grip
but claimed you back...now
you let me slip away this time..
promise in the pouring rain that 
we wouldnt let each other go..
now shattered and lost in the gutter
crushed, washed away...gone..
love burning down 
heart crashing down...
chances disappeared...


Details | Rhyme | |

The broken fairytale

Once upon a time there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
So true was such their love,
There wasn't anyone who disapproved.
 
It had been love at first sight,
A fairy tale since that day.
The maiden had found the man of her dreams,
No one else needed to have a say.
 
They had done it all,
Candlelight dinners, shyly holding hands,
Kissing in the rain, dancing around trees,
Leaving intertwined footprints on white sands.
 
But it wasn't just another love story,
It was uniquely special like every other one.
They had eyes for no other but one another,
The best part of their lives had just begun.
 
They traveled around the world,
And she kissed her man at the seven wonders each.
People would smile at the storybook couple,
As they counted stars standing on a beach.
 
With her, he was the man he wished to be,
The one who wouldn't think twice,
About pulling her up to dance in a crowded train,
He'd protect her, keep her happy at any price.
 
He'd see through her weak smile,
All the way to the tears inside,
He'd whisper sweet things in her ear,
Hold her till all the tears dried.
 
Though they did have a fair share of problems,
They always came together again,
No matter what happened,
Like raindrops on a window pane.
 
On a rainy day, she had sat waiting,
Wondering about the surprise he had promised,
But he never came,
For the winds of fate had suddenly changed. 
 
Five years after that day, she found herself alone,
Sitting on the porch, counting stars on her own,
As she recalled the day he had been taken from her,
'An unfortunate accident' on the next the papers had shown.
 
She hadn't cried on the phone, she hadn't cried on the way,
She didn't even cry when she had to identify him,
Not a single tear or a heartrending sob.
She just stared ahead with an expression so grim.
 
It was only when she had received his belongings,
The remnants of his last minutes, did she react.
She screamt and cried, laughed and wailed,
For among others, was a diamond ring beautifully packed.
 
His surprise, the laughter in his voice,
The excitement, the secrecy of the evening.
He had been right, it had left her breathless,
But he wasn't there to see the sorrow it did bring.
 
Even now her eyes brimmed with tears,
As she looked at the ring as it sparkled,
And thought of that time when there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
 
- Miliya Parveen


Details | Free verse | |

True Reality

Why is it
I am always wrong?
Something
I have always done?
Why is it
I am 
Never good enough
In your eyes
In challenging times?

How many times
Do I have to say
“I love You?”
What will it take
To convince
That mind 
And 
Heart 
Of yours?

What can I say
That will ease 
This jealousy
And 
Resentment
You feel towards me
When drinking 
Too much booze
Killing what brain cells
Are left
In that stubborn 
Head of yours!

How long 
Will it take
For you 
To believe in me?
For I know
I am a fool 
Staying here, with you!
Feeling desperate
Lost and lonely
Dreams squashed
Emotionally drained
When ‘we’ need to pull together
In union ship
To make 
This bond strong
Between us!

'Uniting as One’'

'Love Conquering All'

“Well!”
“So, I am told!”

I love you more
Than this
Arguing and fighting!
But 
You refuse to understand
The love I have for you

My head 
Tells me to stay with you
But
My heart knows
I cannot!
For
I have asked you 
To be kind to me
I have asked
You to open up 

Your anger and rage
Continues growing
Out of control
Taking over
Like
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde 
Burning bridges
Being ruthless
Always
Out for the kill!

I need to break away!
I need to clear my head!
I need to experience
Love and longevity
True togetherness
With 
The one’s I love!
My heart needs to experience
‘Healthy Love’
My heart deserves the best!
You now
Belong in my past
I am no longer the person
You once knew me, to be

Your insecurities
Your inner demons 
Far bigger
Than any of the love
You choose to acknowledge 
Or 
Feel from me!

You can believe this 
To be true
If nothing else!

“Love thy self”

Share
Without personal gain
Being 
Your Primary Motive!
Know Love 
Be Love, in Action!

Be honest
Have empathy now
As
I cut these cords
Of emotional bondage
That 
Bind us together 
True Love 
No longer 
Our foundation!

I stand on my own
Knowing
I have learnt the lessons
You have come to teach
I now know
What love isn't!
“I thank you”
For showing me this!

My illusions of love
Blinding me
Colouring my experiences
Revealing
Only what 
'I Wanted Us To Be'
Not
‘True Reality’


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Fear

Wide eyes
Panic
lips hovering right below a scream
hair pulled into a fist
mouth covered
panicked eyes
wide
heart rattling
fear


Details | Lyric | |

Don't Wake Me Til I'm Home Again

The weekend went by too fast
my time with you never lasts enough
Wake me up when I’m home again
My joy has set 
and I must wait
to be happy again
Time ticks by
ever slowly
being so far away
is a torture unholy
Wake me up when I’m home again
Pressing on
for your love
a blessing I don’t deserve
In your absence
the days are long
I grow tired
and struggle to stay strong
I crawl into
bed at night
pretending you 
are holding me tight
Wake me up when I’m home again
Wake me up when I’m home again
Wake me up when I’m home again


Details | Bio | |

What Have I Done

what have i done by leaveing 
the one i love what will become
of me what is left of me to do
is this it is this how its going
to be what else can i do theirs
nothing to lose what have i done
to let this happen the way it did
i could of avoided it and been happy
with the one i love but no i had to leave.


Details | Couplet | |

Cold Comfort

I meet you, and your everything I need,
So ****ing perfect; the man of my dreams.
You have a woman, so we are just friends;
But do you know we can't live in pretend?

She lies to you and hurts you, so you eventually leave.
Greatest day of my life because you came to me.
I'm so happy all the time; always smiling,
But then you go back to her and leave me dying.

And now I can't eat, can't sleep; for thoughts of you with her.
And no matter what I do you won't take my lure.
So now your happy all the time and I'm miserable at best.
How can I settle for anyone less?

You once made a promise that if you were to ever leave,
The first one you would look up would be me.
So now this promise is my comfort on lonely nights;
Cold comfort it is, since I have lost the fight.

I dream of the day when you will be mine,
When my happiness returns and everything is fine.
Even though I'm deluding myself with this,
It's all I have left along with the memory of your kiss.


Details | Bio | |

Another

When we started
You had a girl
But yall soon fall apart
Yall were off and on
And i was there to pick up the pieces
Then when it looked like there could be a me and you
My parents got in the way
So then we began to drift apart
And i was beginning to feel like there was another 
Another better than I
Which is what i felt was in your eyes
She gave it up And you were stuck
I held back 
And you left me hang 
Like I was just another plake
To add to your wall of females
Another prize 
Another heart that was broken 
My Heart


Details | I do not know? | |

My First Love

My first love was a long and twisted road
Never thought I would
But I got the guts to go
Yeah my first love was a long and twisted road

My first love was a rainbow in the sky
I would just sit there
And watch the world pass by
Yeah my first love was a long and twisted road

My first love was a sunset on the horizon
Couldn’t go much longer
Without feelings subsiding
Yeah my first love was a sunset on the horizon

My first love was a down pour of rain
I wonder if God 
Could really feel my pain
Yeah my first love was a down pour of rain

My first love was a sad slow song
The dream would be over
Back to reality before too long
Yeah my first love was a sad slow song

My first love was a long and twisted road
I hit the end
At seventeen years old
Yeah my first love was a long and twisted road


Details | Free verse | |

Rolling Bottle

missing you here by my side, 
having you there in her eyes. 
it just doesn't help me here, 
and I feel I have lied. 
gave you a perception, 
that wasn't too clear. 
and now thats an empty bottle, 
it's rolling down the stairs.


Details | Free verse | |

So-Called Good Christians

You have made a choice. 
You have chosen hatred. 
In our Heavenly Father, 
you have chosen not to rejoice. 
He is who spares the most awful dread. 
  
You have chosen to hate me. 
First it was the “N” word, 
the Afro comment, 
and my curly hair. 
Now you hate me 
for the religion 
that I have chosen to be. 
My faith gives me what is right and fair. 
  
I pity you for all your hate. 
But you made it clear my fate. 
A Mormon to this date, 
a Mormon forever. 
Your rage and hate 
prove my faith and 
choice of religion right. 
Your bigoted hatred
I have chosen to fight 
by giving it light. 
I want it 
in everyone's sight. 
  
Your rage and hatred is your only boast. 
But with it you are engrossed. 
Like you, your rage and hatred 
are nothing but compost. 
Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit 
gives me what I need the most. 
  
And for you, that is just 
too bad so sad. 
  


Details | Free verse | |

Love Part 1

So sweetly apathetic
You lie asleep
While I'm still crying in the next room
You haven't seen me in days
But I'm still here
I'll never leave, love

You wake so suddenly
It touches you again
The cold where I used to be
Someplace deep inside
A place we used to call home
But we burned it down
And it's out of our hands, love

Bitter words and angry hands
Crushes the hearts still gasping for love
But you still haven't seen me
Weeks now, it's been
I'd give anything to take it away
I'm so sorry, love

All I am, all I used to be
It can be yours
If you'd just let me die for you
I'm aching, you're my only purpose
My last proposal, my final sacrifice
Please, forgive me, love
I've been gone for so long
While you were only in the next room
But here I am, now, my precious
All that I am, all I'll ever be
Is yours
Just say I'm the one
The last you'll need, you'll want
The final chapter, the last step
Please, just tell me how much you love me

I'd fall to my knees and beg you to take me
If I thought you'd see me
I'd give anything and take everything
I'm your martyr, love
Give myself to the fire
If I thought it'd keep you warm
Please, see me
Please, discover I'm the only one
A desperate nothing without you
An empty shell without my heart
And it still hangs around your neck, my love

Apathetic empathy
So bitter-sweet to my ears
To hear you say you love me
No louder than an inaudible whisper
My screaming falls out into limbo
Wear the ring, take my soul
It's all to make you smile
Your happiness would be too much to ask
I'd settle for a glance
Just a notion, my one

I'm growing weak, I'm burning slowly
A million miles away, still you bring me closer to yesterday
I adore you
I haunt you
I'm the breath on your neck
As you try to fall asleep
You're my obsession
My only passion
My heaven and perdition
Oh, my love
If you could only see
If you would only hear
How I long for you to love me

If I had only known
If I could have only seen
My God! If only I could take it back
I wouldn't be here
Existing merely as the ghost of your memories

Trapped in pages
Never to reach the climax
Hear the end, find the revelation
You're my purgatory
I'd sell my soul
If I could only get it back from you
Just say yes
Say I'm real
Just turn a little more
Please, see me
Please, see me!


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Mind Of A Psycho

you think you know me but you dont i see what others see in your eyes  you 
just dont know it yet as i slice open your neck with my blade and let 
the blood run down your neck in a stream of blood i hear you gasping to 
breath without a care you mean nothing to me now and you mean nothing to
me later you are no longer the one i can trust you are just as the rest of
the ones i have killed before with this stream of blood flowing into a river
as i walk away holding nothing back letting your body lie their on the ground
without a care in the world leaving you lay their for wild animals to feast upon.


Details | I do not know? | |

First Page Of My Untitled Story

** Summary: A high school boy finds happiness and love in a small, dreary town. Just when it seems like life can't get any better, he discovers that his new love interest may not be telling him everything about herself. As each of her secrets are unveiled, Destery finds himself in a difficult situation that he might not be able to pull himself out of. **

One:

It all started on a bleak, dreary Monday as the hearse slowly made it's way down Weeping Willow Street. Cautiously, it came to a stop in front of Melancholy High. Yes, the school looks exactly as it sounds- Sad. With it's old, deteriorating brick walls and splintery wood desks, MHS looks to be the king of all things pitiful. But as Destery Maddox climbed out of that God-awful car he spotted the one thing that made every guy's time there a little more bearable- Juliette Anderson. She was a dream with long, silky black hair and ice blue eyes that seemed as though they could see straight to your heart. For as long as he could remember, Destery had longed to caress her porcelain-like skin and to feel those soft, rose colored lips against his. Just one glimpse of that girl was enough to make his heart ache like no other. Followed by a heavy sigh, Des started up the crumbling front staircase. Just as he reached the door handle a delicate, almost transparent hand brushed against his. Mesmerized, his gaze ran from that hand up to the smiling face of none other than Juliette. "Hello.", She greeted him. "H-Hi", Des stammered back. Something strange was happening to him. His mouth became dry, Sweat soaked his palms and for not being a man of many words..He was truly at a loss. It was official- His heart was captured. And nothing could break the strong spell of love that was unknowingly cast upon him by that black-haired beauty. Or so it seemed.


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Diary Of Lost Love Part 3, Dedicated to a Lady

She finally tore down what we built
like rolling stones got our hearts
tripping over the hill.
Like a mountain
we finally reached the mountain peak.
Our love fountain
ran out of water
so I never stop to take a drink.
A deep emotion
going through my body
beating on my heart.
A deep emotion
telling me that the rapid beats
will never stop.
I kissed her lips
I kissed her cheeks
and told her the lovely truth.
I rubbed her back
massaged her feet
and told her that I'm forever loving you.
She looked away and walked away
like she never cared.
I chased her left and chased her right
throughout the years.
I caught up to her and finally
grabbed her hand.
Baby girl loving you is my only mission
and my only plan.
So love me kind and love me dearly.
Save me the last dance.
So love me kind and love me yearly
all over again.
They say your ex
is an example of what you don't deserve.
Well my ex I truly loved her
but somehow I found a way
to love to hurt her.
Baby girl I don't deserve ya
I know it's hard but I'm not perfect.
I know you love me
am I worth it?
The pain is unkind
but my heart is burning
and I'm yearning for your love.


Details | Free verse | |

Skin

When I lay in bed
Almost asleep
I feel you on my skin
Like a whisper
I jump and swat at you
Because you could be a spider
But it’s not a spider
It’s the remnants of your touch
I can’t see you
But when I lay in bed
I feel you tickling my skin


Details | Free verse | |

Google

If you google our love,
All you will get is broken links,
Images of broken hearts,
Directions of heart-break valley,
The opportunity to buy someone else love, 
Being able to read my hidden feeling in my email I had for you,
And the news of me falling in love with the person I cheated with you on.


Details | Couplet | |

Ghazal-THE SPELL IN THE POTION

Incited by her Allure Sensuelle...
a vulnerable man is noticed by all.


Quite by nature, I rarely frequent clubs...
loud music turns me into a demon from hell.


She brought me so many Martinis on the Rocks...
I drank them too quickly and took a bad fall.


The spell in the potion must have acted too slowly...
I showed her respect, but she became too sensual.


Discovering the foul play, I was dismayed by her madnesss...
she left in a hurry and disappeared down the crowded hall.


Entered in Jared Pickett's contest, " The Ghazal "


Details | Lyric | |

You Are My Color

As the distance grows
the sorrow grows colder
All I want
is to be able to hold her
Saying goodbye
will never get easy
as I’m growing queasy 
from having to part ways
for days on end
When she’s not here
I feel like a painter
in a world of blacks and greys
no matter how hard he tries
nothing’s the same without color
But it won’t always be that way
one day we’ll say goodbye for hours
instead of days
I know that it seems like a lifetime
before things will change
But I promise
a lifetime is what we’ll have together
once these things have changed


Details | I do not know? | |

When Lies surface

When Lies Surface



When the truth is pushed so far back behind, so to forget what happened
The smallest lie surfaces for fear of the reaction to the truth because we are scared. 

 When fear of the truth occurs, then lies surface,
When lies surface, the truth is nowhere to be found.

Truth is based on the memory, but the lies dwell in the air from the fragile heart. 
Yes the heart is far more treacherous then any other.

Lies feel good for now, but soon to dig a deeper hole.
 
When it starts, makes you sick to your gut. Feelings of rejection to your heart

 Smooth talking of the tongue. Lies just like a whisper in the ear of the one who told it. 

What happened to the honesty?

Lies based on Manipulation and scandal leaves scars that don’t want to be cherished.

 Lies caused by Betrayal are worst then poison caused by love. 

When you feed into a lie like the way trees feed by water to nurture the lie is what makes it 
grow larger.

Guilty just like pleasure.  
The way is lost. 
Guilty is the lie that was there
Time will tell what happens next.

Regret from the lie floods the hearts when it’s in the air.

 Guilty lies is the feelings
The slandered name is affected. Move on with the truth when the lie is left behind
   Let’s show the scars we bought upon ourselves
 The broken hearts we are responsible for.

 I mend the broken hearts on the fences that I caused.
I understand what I did; I blame myself for the pain of the first lie
But i dont blame myself for I pity the lie you stated.
 Truth be told you will see the broken hearts your responsible for.
Not just mine but Gods first. Then yours and your family’s at that.

 You will realize your lies and mistakes eventually, 
And when you do, you’ll break someday
I tried to warn you, before you snap

 I apologize for all that happens.

Even before it happened, even though it’s your lies

I break away, 
I care, but when lies surface you don’t have to push because I pull away

Yes I dare to, How dare you?!
 
Love for you I have is unbelievable but when lies surface then oh well what more can I do 
but pity the love I have for you.

The date is over when the lies surfaced. 
Let the truth shine in where the lie had surfaced upon me and you.

We are not alone anymore, 
Everyone is outside the doors waiting,
Because they know, like I know, the way I broke.
You’ll break away, 
When lies surface (someday).


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Tango Betty

To its' core,
my heart's been infected,
I accepted my feelings,
now I'm rejected,
in your game,
I was just a pawn,
I can't believe,
again you're gone,
tell me a lie,
which I'd rather believe,
maybe it would be less painful,
than getting my heart shoved through a sieve,
my own stupid mistake,
to believe I had a chance,
I was so naive,
not to remember this dance,
dancing to and fro,
avoidance is the key,
I've danced this dance before,
but really, Betty?
I thought you were more,
that you were so good I didn't deserve you,
but if you insist upon this dance,
I was wrong- we're through.


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Details | I do not know? | |

Masked Man

Your name like arsenic burning my throat
A slow death, thinking of you, will bring to me
Your words so sincere, sugar coated placebo
What was it? A change in mind? A change in heart? Or your mischevious ways.
You wear a mask
An emotional blanket used to keep your prey warm before you rip them open and 
feed on there heart.
Staring into your eyes i felt warm, wanted
A fog in your gaze makes everything unclear
your voice soft and alluring, reassuring.
your smile comforting
my eye site is blurring
your silent poison is taking control
The smoke of your words lingure my mind
A big jumble of sweet lies
Im addicted and im not the only one
you feed off the attention you look for
Your like a dark fog that takes the form of a white angel
Whinding me threw the unknown grounds of my imagination
a quite twisting path in the land of love and sourenity
but under every wanted happyness lies a dark secret
The ground we walk is truely dead grass, dead emotion, and dead people
Tombstones row by row
Your just leading me to the 6 foot hole youve been draining my heart into


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only kinda sorta love you

if you wait,
if i can,
but if i can't 
whats your plan?

if she won't
will you stay?
even though,
ill throw you away?

if i do,
but then i go,
when i come back,
will you tell me no?


Details | Bio | |

I'm trying to forgive you

	After all this time, I still have pain inside. I’m trying to let it go, but it’s 
so hard. All the lies are still hurting me. I can’t get over how you hurt and betrayed 
me. I wish I could, I wonder why is it so hard?

	We had plans to be a family, but I guess they’ll never come true. The 
best part of me I gave you, and you take it and left. I loved you from day one, now 
those days are gone because you decided to leave me. All you had to do was tell 
me you didn’t want to be with me.

	Loving you was easy, now it’s hard to stop. I’m trying to forgive and 
forget, but I can’t. I’m glad it’s over, but I miss you. I can’t trust or believe anything 
you say now. Trying to forgive you is so hard, but I have to. So I can stop all this 
crying and live my life without you.


Details | I do not know? | |

Goodbye - an original song

Goodbye...
(an origional song)



oh my darling could it be?
could those words you sighed be true
is love something likened to disease
or the bruises on your knees
landing where no standing flew

{chorus 1}
and you're taking your time
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney
were those words ever mine?
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney.


can your feelings wash away?
like the bars of soap you make
taking shortcuts with no lye
cutting straight to the goodbye
to clean up your mistake

{chorus 2}
and you're taking your time
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney
so i'm drawing the line
hey honeyhoney, i got you where you want me

{bridge 1}
sometimes i still find it strange
i never felt the climate change
til the waters i was swimming in froze up hard
then i had to choose
do i die, or leave a bruise?
but either way i go we end up scarred

the ice may still melt someday
and the stones i threw might sink
beyond the bottom of the lake, through clay
to a depth where they will stay
bruises only made of ink

{chorus 3}
so lets just take our time
hey honeyhoney hey honeyhoney
so we can leave this behind
hey honey honey, someday we'll find this funny

{bridge 2}
we always said that we were meant to be
but your fate made me hate it
now i think that it's true
and the ending too
was written in the stars

goodbye goodbye. goodbye.. goodbye...


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It's to Late

I know 
We only spent an hour together
And then go days or weeks
Without seeing one other
But when I did get to see you
I was like a little school girl
When we went to the park for walks and Ice cream
That meant a lot to me
Even though I might have not showed it
Look at us now
We said all those hate full things 
When they was never meant to be said
When I asked you to marry me
I really wanted you too
But now I sit here with regret
Listen to sad songs
That made me think of you
And I just wanna cry more 
I feel so shame of what I said
Now all I got is pictures of you
I was such a dang fool
When I Said it would never work 
Cause that wasn't true
All I wanna do now is take it back
But now it's to late....


Details | Free verse | |

breadcrumbs

I've followed the trail, 
of bread crumbs,
you set behind,
each step,
now how am i to return home?


Details | Rhyme | |

A-Heart-Broken

Tears of blood is dripping down form my eyes.
My heart feels like a stampede of horse has just
ran over it a hundred times.
It feels so lifeless and weak.
We used to be one.
Now we are none.
Our love was strong.
We can fall off a plane and never hit rock 
bottom. 
A boat can sink, but we would not drown. 
I cannot figure out what I did wrong. 
I feel like a lyric of a love song.
This feeling inside of me,
is this how the rest of my life would be.
I feel so abused.
I feel so used.
I feel like someone just threw hot acid all 
over my body.
Though my love for you will never change,
I know that you hear has been rearranged.
I am still crying because I 
accepted being heart broken
by the one and only that mistaken.
My eyes are now ‘awaken.’


Details | I do not know? | |

Ilion

To the one I see in a star
The brightest of them all and the 
Closest to my heart.

My Evening Star, sweet Ilion,
How you’ve helped me so.
You’ve healed me
And you’ve guided me,
But I’m afraid I must go.

For that one day is coming
So much sooner than I‘d like.
That one heart broken day where I will no longer see his
Beautiful blue eyes.

My Evening Star, so much loved, my
Star of Ilion.
I have but one request-
Take care of him when I’ve gone.

Ilion, he’s my life.
Precious Wolf Boy.
Nicodu Blue.
And when I move to that foreign place,
Give my heart to him
Because I leave it with you.

Ilion, my heart is his,
And it has been for awhile.
I just wish I could hold him,
To say I love him,
See him smile.

Take care of him, don’t leave his side,
Ilion listen to me!
Please just do this one request.
Please don’t leave him.
For me.

Ilion, you take care. How I’ll miss you so.
And remember, dear Evening, I will ALWAYS be there when the night sky is cold.
And when you miss me, let Nick know,
And you both can send me smiles.
I will always catch them, I promise,
And return them ten fold.

I love you, I’ll miss you.
Evening Star, sweet Ilion.
Remember to take care of Nick, but for now, I have to go.


Details | Rhyme | |

Feral Conglomerate

Feral Conglomerate The love i never knew But always wanted For so long i hunted And once it was clear in view It wasn't worth the bullet It wasn't who's desire, what it was Setting seas a-fire, butt because The beauty was little more than makeup deep The mascara and fake smile were cheap The waves crashing down left a trail black and brown But your unsinking smile saved your skin To let you burn the seas again It wasn't the perfection, or the pure Nor solely the inflection of allure Or the allusion of a life gone by Not acknowledging the tear in my eye That's falling for my youth Let down by the truth The love i always knew But never wanted Til i was out of view Came back to be confronted It wasn't the right place It wasn't the right time It never was


Details | I do not know? | |

Hey You

Hey You-
 Yeah You!
 What's Going On?
 What's Happenin' Now,
 It's Been So Long
 (Kinda Like That Song)
 Cause I Miss You,
 And Things Arent The Same,
 Since You Started This Game,
 Of Needing Someone To Blame.
 I Just Wonder if You Ever Think of Me,
 And How Things Used To Be,
 Before I Came To Be 
 Seen As Your Enemy.

No More Joke's,
No More Laugh's,
No More Drivin' and Wasting Gas,
No More"Chuck Norris'll Kick Your Ass"
No More Shrooms,
No More Nights,
No More Coming Between Our Fights,
No More "Lock-Down,*****"
No More Going to Jail,
Or Having to Worry bout' Paying Our Bail.
No More Shopping at the Mall,
No More Happiness at all.
    Cause I Can't Quite Scratch this Itch,
    To Say Cause" I'm Wayne Brady...*****"
So I Just Hope That I Can Hide,
All This Pain I Feel Inside,
Lest That You Become Aware,
Of All My Feeling's Of Despair.
Cause Friendships Just Can't Be The Same,
Ever Since You Got So Lame.
And You Went And Turned Me Blue,
Knowing I Can't Find Another You. 
-Erin Anderson


Details | Blank verse | |

Keel Hauled

 I almost think you're
 killing me inside.
 No, it must be me.
 I'm mentally killing myself,
 keel hauled over wishes
 and wonderings and dreams.
 You say there's no hope
 but my heart doesn't hear.
 You say you're truly sorry
 but I can't believe the end.
 Can happiness truly return
 after such devistation?


Details | Light Poetry | |

ALONE

She sits alone feeling sad
She on her own feeling bad
he had enough and left one day
Why did he leave her in this way

He has no idea what he has put her through
Some may know but very few
Would put up with what she had for all those years
Many years spent alone shedding tears

She wanted so much to be love and respected
Is it so much to be expected
She did all that she could for him
Pampering to his every wimb

Is it so very much to ask
To have a relationship that lasts
All she wanted was to be held tight
And cuddled through the night

Now she goes out every Friday night
looking for love until the morning light
She finds herself picking up
Men only to the next day to drop

Just as quick like a tone of bricks
All she wanted them for was a quick fix
She thought that it would mend her heart
In fact what she did was far from smart

So many men do this to women
Leave and start a new beginning
Not realizing what they have left behind
A broken women left as helpless as a child


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Neglected Glove

Oh, what to do, don't let me go
But if I let you go-
How will you ever know?

That it wash't a lack of feeling
It wasn't a lack of love
My insides are now reeling

I'm sorry, but it's my choice
I have to let you go
Please just listen to my voice


It's not a lack of feeling
It's not a lack of love

i can no longer trust my insides
So i hide in this neglected glove


Details | Monorhyme | |

FREE CEE second coming of an immaculate mis-conception

     THE SECOND COMING OF AN  IMMACULATE MIS-CONCEPTION

I hear preachers claim that Jesus walks by my side
Alas, Jesus has also lasciviously lied
I can’t see Jesus with my very own eyes
Yet with my eyes I read all of His lies

The Bible promises that Jesus always protects me
Until our Lord ultimately rejects me
I know the Son Of Man is supposed to be my Lord
But quite frankly by my Lord I am
       frightfully bored
I am married to Jesus, at least that’s what I read in His Holy Word
Yet now I seek the seclusion of divorce and the freedom of a flight blessed bird

Jesus made a mansion for those he sets free
Well Jesus would rather I live under a rotted and well-weathered tree

Jesus healed the sick and also fed the poor
As for me he has only a well slammed front door
Jesus took water and in His chalice wine was made
Only I was there and know He used a packet of grape Kool-Aid
And if you tell me in His time Kool-Aid wasn’t even known
I’ll tell you that Jesus created it for His use alone
Jesus could have taken his act on the road
But He wouldn’t have been so popular since David Copperfield can turn a tiger into a toad
Jesus took fishes and loaves and fed a whole mess of folks
Well you didn’t hear it from me but He also dispensed eggs with no yolks
And when Jesus created mankind he made trillions of very sick jokes 

Yesterday I bought a Bible but it was way overpriced
and dig the sh*t out of this fact Jesus Christ
They say you came for sinners and the righteous alike
Well my lesbian sister knows that your Mary Magdalene was a hard core dike!
          © 2012….copyright...PHREEPOETREE ~free cee!~


Details | Lyric | |

Come Complete Me (Come to Me)

Here we go
another bleak, dark day again
Here we go
another day that you’re not in
I need you
I need you here with me
I’m completely incomplete
when you aren’t here
Come complete me
Fill this hole in the air
where your presence
is meant to be
Come complete me
make my day whole
like you do my soul
Come complete me
The thought of
your green eyes
turning blue
makes me sad
I miss you
I miss you
so, so bad
I need to hear your voice
I need to see your smile
I need your touch to hoist
my lonely sunken heart
Place your lips
to my lips
Stand inside my arms
Come complete me
Come complete me
I miss you dearly
Come to me
Come complete me


Details | Free verse | |

Diary Of Lost Love Part 2, Dedicated to a Lady

She act like she cares
but she doesn't care at all
love is something she fears
but what is she fearing for....?
She said that she loves me
but that was all a lie.
If you truly loved me
then you would look me in my eyes.
I'm not a fallen angel
or a devil in disguise.
I'm nothing like the temperature
but I want our love to rise.
Our love was so hot
but now it's feeling cold
they called us Adam and Eve
but now were the Princess and the Toad.
Baby girl your so beautiful
I never ever lied.
Baby girl your so wonderful
I love that sparkle in your eyes
but when you left me
the pain corrupted my mind
but when you left me
I wanted to rewind time
to go back and love you
one last time.


Details | I do not know? | |

A Sad Story

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. 
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her, she could see everything, 
including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the 
world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her 
boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just 
take care of my eyes, dear."


Details | Carpe Diem | |

Weep Not Too Long

Love has grandeur and finesse. Sometimes greater, sometimes for less, Weep only for a short while. Move on with harmonies style. When your eyes have tearful drape, New passion shall always escape. Recall the memories that are deep. Gallop ahead, for not long shall you weep.


Details | Free verse |