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Ice Cream

''Loving Ice Cream''

Having ice cream with you.
Relives the entire portrait in my youth.
Like catnip for a cat, the Reese's fun never stops.
Like monkeys in a zoo, one taste climbs above sherbet treetops.

Ice Cream with you,
How sweet the imagery of 31 different treats 
Placid lights topped with peaches in amaretto slushy sauce
Dandelion haven above a marshmallow rocky road
Fireflies flicker around the yummy fresh Lemon Drop Sky
A delightful sundae breeze on the tip of my tongue 
Soft frozen chocolate dessert, nothing can go wrong 

Ice Cream with You
So many to choose from, 
Relish the delicious flavor of Butterscotch homemade rum
There's no other place I'd rather be
Lost Inside this forever hazel green scenery and mint sticks of joy
The ultimate indulgence originates in one icy bite
A creamy coconut cherry delight -served on the side with apple pie
In a cup, on a cone, you my vanilla waffle boy 
Everything-- about-- you-- roams free like tubs of ice cream dreams

Listen to the soft sprinkles of cinnamon sound
The happy feeling that melts when you're around
I'm taking a giant scoop of Ice Cream from your heart
Adoring and Embracing Life
Every time you say the words
...I love you...

by;PD


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Teddy Bear-

My sweet little Teddy Bear...
Mommy gave 'YOU' to me.
Now I never sleep alone at night.
The comfort you gave, when God's sunny eyes ran out of light.

You are my sweet little teddy bear... 
You kept me company throughout the years.
I hugged you, when my eyes were full of tears.
Loving you, squeezing you. 
We both express many joyful dance of cheers.
Together we sang lullabies, without you singing one single word.
We drank from the same teacup, whispered about the pretty birds.
Now listen, as I mumble extra words into your ear.
My sweet Teddy Bear, you are always here.

We snuggled every night staring at the star frame window.
"You held my hand every-time I was lost in my own imaginary limbo.

My sweet little Teddy Bear...
I'm 11 now, and my mother loves me dearly.
Sadly she felt it's time to find me a daddy.
Little does she knows, my daddy visits every night in my dreams.

Shhhhhh!!!
Now her boyfriend visits my room and tells me not to scream.
Little Teddy bear, I never showed you fear before I fell asleep.
Little Teddy bear, tonight I do not want to count sheep. 
Teddy bear, now I hold you closer, and tighter than before.
Little Teddy Bear let me cover your ears, from the screeching door.
Little Teddy Bear, he said he will hurt mommy If I tell anyone.
Little Teddy Bear, I know you see and hear everything!!!

by; pd
You're A Little Kid Again (contest)
The View of an 11 year old


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365 Days

"This is dedicated to all who understand this. Whether we like it or not." -D.J.E.

I wasn’t gonna write this

But

Emotions are stirring high
Cannot believe
How much time has passed

Still feel your presence

Memories
Of the slowest death
Ever felt
Running parallel
To these present seconds

An ugly revelation
Tainted the sunshine
That bared on our souls
365 days ago

So many tears
Had filled the ocean
Of despair
For love’s river
Were held back by presumption’s walls
Uncertainty
The dam’s of what could have been

Here I stand
In this present moment
Your essence still lingers
Like the flakes of a dandelion b r e a k i n g 		f r e e
From its home

Tormented echoes of “why”
“How come”
“Please don’t go”
“I love you…I love you so much”

High pitched resonations
Float upon
Rafts of secondary importance
And yet
This heart still knows

For it will always recall
Its truth

Promises
Empty
Played me a fool
While you held hands
With inevitable

Crossing fingers
With diffusion
Across my shoulders

Left me uncomfortably numb
All my rights
Unreserved

And all the while
I
Simply
Believed

In tomorrow

Because
My foolish hopes
Continued to warp my mind

Maybe if I didn’t look back when you walked away
Like the rules said…
…No matter.

These soft acoustic riffs
Replay in my head
You were my “Wonderwall”
“You could’ve been the one…to save me”

But I overcame
For I
Saved myself

Didn’t want to be an inconvenience for you

Colors of Fall
Your favorite season
Kinda ironic
You were like Summer & Winter

Knew when to turn up the heat
Make me sweat

Each new arrival
A summer equinox
Each departure
A rainstorm

But, when it was over
Nothing but cold
Blizzard languages
Frostbitten
Even solace’s bandages
Could not heal

But, I weathered the storm
And would do it again
Cause it was for real

…

Here I am
52 weeks have past
Occasional recollection
Of that hourglass
With no more sands
Buried in dragon’s chest

You are in my silent prayer
Always

But
Know this

Even though you are contained
Within my heart’s asylum cell block home
I loved you
With all that I had

So much

That you will be the only regret
I will ever be proud of.

© Drake J. Eszes


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You kissed him in front of me

You didn’t notice my tears.

As you both kissed each other
like two lonely plungers
who just escaped from plumber’s solitary confinement,
your eyes open and wander up.

You didn’t look across that banquet hall
with my feet planted against wood polished tendencies.

Its creaks motioning time towards yellow-signal identity.

As my breath declares sudden death
against lake’s dripping reflections…
…you didn’t think to set your photo album on private.
 
Advertising lust
wrapped in pretentious cloak
sewed in recycled fibers of “love”.

With ignorant enablers speaking chic-flick tongue,
“Oh My Gawd! I’m so happy for you! I wanna ovulate!”

As I, put my head down
returning to this moment in time,
I had to let my song…cry.

Lenny Williams begins to exude “cause I love you” chorus,
as I walk towards bar
sensing your seductive retinas
stroking against my Latin swagger.

Your ring finger
chained by 3 carat, naïve cut, diamond
motions an intense, streaking caress
against wine glass filled with Zinfandel sin.

Because you know I am your addiction.

Your diabetic lips never forgot
that taste
of my
brown
sugar.

But, you didn’t notice my tears.

I wish you had.

For all this time, these tears
were of joyful splendor.

Because solace holds my hand
with candlelight warmth.

Slow dancing with my soul
in mystery Salsa sway.

While you stand on home plate,
holding your 2nd place trophy,
with 3 strikes against you.

A reminder that my heart,
was flexible enough
to dodge
a bullet.

© Drake J. Eszes


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Paranoid love

Tell me that this fear is just paranoia in my mind, 
we're not straining, we're not struggling, 
we're not sinking, we're just fine. 
I'm not perfect my dearest, but damn have I tried, 
and I'll try harder but I know I'll have the same results every time. 
Do you want me all the ways that I am? 
With all the struggles and the tears and the clinging to your hand. 
I fear your getting further and Im left on the shore to stand, 
watching you in the distance with a bullet in my hand. 
Tell me all this worry, its just clutter in my mind, 
tell me not to worry that we're doing just fine. 
Cause Im scared to run you off and I feel Im falling deep. 
And Im so frightened of these thoughts that its getting hard to sleep.
All I know is that the heart wants what it desires, 
because of you the match inside has turned into a fire. 
And I feel the broken glass thats sticking from my skin, 
Wondering if you'll remove the pain or push it back in. 
My hearts frantic wondering if you feel the same, 
pleading and begging for more than just a saying, 
but to feel and to see that im not alone, 
with being in this love thats overwhelming. 
Once I told you that we didnt have a spark, 
but you were lighting up and I was sitting in the dark. 
And this fire, this blaze its wrapped in desire. 
Im terrified to lose you, I think I might die or, 
maybe disappear from all the pieces falling out, 
im going crazy but when i open my mouth, nothing comes out, 
and I cant explain to you why I just need to hold you close, 
why every time you leave Im scared to let you go, 
why these tears are building up behind my eyes, 
all I know is that the heart wants what it desires 
and it desires to be your wife. 
So tell me in my panic, that your words are true, 
tell my my dearest what I mean to you, 
tell me that this paranoia is all within my mind 
we're not struggling, we're not sinking tell me we're just fine


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I LOVE YOU

I wonder why
It's always so strange
                               to say
    and not just strange
        but almost a gulp and a choke
               even at a letter's close?
Just 'love' is not so hard
It's the YOU
"I    (gulp    choke!)   love YOU"
There!
I can say it silently    in my mind
      but!    face to face
                                or
          over the phone?
Gulp!
Choke!
YOU is so personal
Like    inserting your tongue when kissing good night
Like    accidentally brushing
                                     her leg
                                            under the table
"I love YOU" starts all sorts of mild    even WILD ideas forming
Face it
I am demented
DERANGED!
With some it drops off the tongue
                        as easily as    saying "Hi"
I wonder though?
What's back of those eyes
When his wife says to me
                                 "Love you"
When this happens
I always screw up - look at her husband
          then answer
Gulp!
Choke!
"Love you too"


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Unforgiving

You think you know him
But you refuse to see
The artful way he abuses me
He captivates my mind
He traps my soul
He pins my arms to my side
When I tell him just to go
He uses knife like words
To slice me with his tongue
His eyes are like daggers
Causing me to come undone
Harsh fingers press against my face
Proving im a Doll
To play with as he choses
Or throw against the wall
He taunts with cruel intentions
To make my heart bleed
Playing Devils advocate
Once I cry myself to sleep
Soft and bitter sweet
In an instant he turns to stone
A heart as cold as ice
Mean down to the bone
But you refuse to see
You glance the other way
And listen to his words
You join in his game
Each word he says is now a jest
Each look is a mistake
And when he grips painfully
He just meant to play
Close your eyes to his work
It really is an art
But no matter how you spin it
Inside he is an abusive jerk


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A Lesson on Love to my Future Daugter

It will hurt like a tattoo guns sting
as the ink infiltrates your skin.
Your first love will be like a tattoo on your heart,
buried deep,
always remembering the blessings and pain he gave you.

Be with a person who fills you with fluttering hummingbirds
even after the first and second and tenth kiss
who drinks the nectar of your demons and sucks them lifeless.

There will be men who you think will carry you forever
but after so long of holding
your feet above the water
they will throw you down. 
They will not reach out a hand to pick you back up.
They will turn cheek,
kissless and forgotton.
You will stand with dirt palms
and fall back into his inferno.

There will be loves like this,
who convince you to prick yourself with safety pins,
the ones who carry guns on their backs
but never shoot to protect,
only to hurt.
The ones who drink all the water,
leave you parched in the desert of his mistakes
telling you that they are your own.
The ones who shoot arrows in your lungs
and you lye bleeding 
believing that the color of your blood is true love for him.
The hour hand will spin around the clock
too many times before you leave him.
It will hurt. 
You thought it was true,
but after the death of it
you will realize you deserve someone so much sweeter
than a bitter apple. 

Love the one who doesn’t cheat you blind,
but instead comes to you with truths in his wretched palms
and waits for you to
forgive,
but never gives up and never stops wishing that the past could rewind
that he could change the things wrong that he did to you.

Love the one who feeds your heart warm apple pie,
who cries in front of your children,
who drives them to school and hugs them when they get home.
Be with someone who doesn’t ask for you to change
but instead loves your mistakes
cradles them within his fabric lungs
breathes them in with a grin.

Love is an interesting thing.
You will be thrown out of a moving car to the side of the road.
Some will come running back to you.
Don’t jump back in the front seat,
just run
and run 
and run 
and run
until you find someone who buckles the seat belt for you.
Drives five under the speed limit,
takes things slowly and waits for you to be ready to accelerate.

Daughter,
I am here for you.
Remember me, the one who loved you first,
the one who will never stop loving you.
Come to me after he breaks up with you.
You can cry on my shoulder,
and ill wipe your tears with my sleeve.

Daughter,
Find a love who loves you the way 
that your father and I love you,
the way that your grandmother loves you.
Find a love who already considers you family.
Who meets you
and looks into your ocean eyes
and drowns peacefully into your heart.


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I got your message

65 minutes reduced to 120 seconds

Bright lit room
White glossy tone with flowery curtains
Upon window's darkened vision

Your radiance emanated in celebratory gesture
As my eyes fell in love
All over again

But your smiles were too bright to see me cry
Dry heaving sadness gasp

As I looked down...I became the great
Pretender

The smile pretender

You wore a dark blue blouse, w/body-fitting jeans
Tall, plus-size model stature
My walking fantasy

Dark brown locks of joy slow danced upon flesh that

I

No longer embraced

You had something to tell me
"I'm getting married to a man who called me, sexy.
We work together in the same building, so everybody knows."

Spanish music behind the scenes
Your witty humor against song
Crackin' my smile within sadness pores

Showing me blank invitations
As I leaned in, inhaling this broken emptiness
Writing out words with her voice
My gentle grin, the eraser

Tears in Cold War mode

Heart enunciating disconnection bliss

"This wasn't how I wanted to see you again"

As satin comforter tries to soften my falling
Falling...into true love's innocence

The same comforter that covered those tracks
Asphalt scarred remnants from the bus you threw me under

"I always wanted you to wake me from my sleep
But not like this"

You became my dream, come true
Becoming dream again
In 120 seconds

...

He may have called you "sexy" with words
But I called you "beautiful" with heart

Yet you will never value how deep it was

Well, at least you can rest assured
That I got your message

© Drake J. Eszes
"True love never dies...even if the recipient never reciprocates." –D.J.E.


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All My Secrets

He says that I remind him of
Some old country song, I think
He doesn't really need to know
"How many arms have held you
And hated to let you go"

I'm dizzy, up there on his pedestal
My character is flawed
Wings tattered, flesh a bit scarred
Stars twirl around the bumps on my head
I think he sees the dark of me, but instead
He says he thinks he's found
An "Angel flying to close to the ground"

Some days I ooze with personality, or
Become his worst reality, a little bit rebel
Alot flower child, mostly free spirit
Sometimes gone wild

Each new day begins again
Some things he'll never see
I'll be keeping all my secrets
Just between you and me




!st Place Win in SCAT's "Secrets" contest  06/29/13


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A S-I-M-P-L-E Yes or No


                       


Ink spills purposely on paper forming letters of certain alphabets to vowels and consonants. Though speechless, one puts forth effort to enunciate and pronounce aloud the syllables carefully to articulate loves interest. Do you want to be my one and only Love Interest?
Pace INK-U-SCRIPT 03-07-13


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Again, and again

The doubt and anger are here again
No surprise, my new friend
Believed I could keep it all away
Now it’s about to steal me away
Come steal me away. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Hearts are craters, deep as wells
Fill them up and hold on well
Sand and mud, the liquid seeps
Dirty tears and sorrows creep
Creep in to swallow me. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Told you, I told you. Remember I did?
This time it was raw, nothing I hid
Unacceptable loathing and regret
Nothing to explain, at least not yet
You will see though. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Consuming distraction, love that I know
It’s dying already with no place to go
You won’t agree and you won’t see
It will never be enough for me
You will hate me so. Again, and again

Why can’t I change the parts that I hate? Stupid, lying beautiful face

Let me go, for I am already gone
I’m sorry to make you believe this long
Hopeless rage, directed at you
Walls constructed to block the view
But you will still want me. Again, and again.

I can’t change the parts I hate, and I’ll never be happy again. Again


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Love Making

Ohhhhh Electic touch shock my body awake
Arched back and gutteral moans
Shivers sweep my skin like circling tongues
Ohhhhh scream beautiful wild sounds
I can not lie still, nor think
Thoughts escape me and I - I - I - ohhhhhhhh
Ohhh Rapid touch 
Torment me till I am begging
No, no, no more I can not take it
I shake my head in mock protest
Unable to contain, control -
I have no control and ohhh
Oh yes, oh yes, yes, yes 
yesyesyesyes oh yes, ohhhhhhhhhhhhh
Toes curl and eyes squeeze shut
Tingling body my face is flushed
My head dizzy and I am ohhhhh
Ohhhhh, ohhhhhh, I am high 
Inibreiated on your touch
And ohhhhh, ohhhhh you have not yet
Even entered my warmth with your
Ohhhhhh, your touch drives me to the edge 
The edge of sanity, 
Shattering the world into a jaged blade
And I forget whatever words I am about to say
Ohhhhhhh, mmmmmmmmhhhhhhh, ohhhh I am blabbering 
I am ebullient, I am oohhhhhhhh - overflowing
Quickly you slide between spread thighs
Slick and wet with sweet ambrosia 
Hard your pelvic hits mine and it is ohhhhhhh
Ohhhhh I am losing my mind
Rapidly I am approaching - approaching - aahhh
Ohhhhh, ohhhh, God yes, God, 
Head thrown back, nails pulling your hot skin closer to mine
You ravage my body over and over
Waves flooding my senses - so overwhelming 
You pound into me faster and faster
Till it is impossible to tell where one orgasm begins and another ends
Ohhhhhhhh, my brain is numb with hot sexual desire 
My lips are wide with laughter, sweet bubbily giggling,
Bottomless, Abyssal moans - voluptuous and husky 
The squeak of lascivious screams piercing the night


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Engaging Thoughts

i don't care
to see morning wink
from beneath the gray film
that leaves the day
undeveloped,
it's easier 
to pretend
that night
has yet to end.

night's black 
is the only veil
yet to cover my eyes
and i'm tired 
of playing wife
to the unworthy,
tired of hiding
behind the thickness
of gray moods.

it's raining again
scribbling night's color
upon my cheeks,
kissing my lips
with day's aftertaste,
yet i pretend to smile
when love looks my way.

in all reality
i'm too old to care,
too old to dream of...

today,
night still holds me
in the negatives,
this day's still undeveloped
yet my mind
isn't anymore,
and my last thought
before anything can blush
is to be walked 
slowly down the isle
in satin and bows
pretending 
to be the bride
i never was
as you lift 
the veil of white
and kiss me
one last time
and pretend
to miss me.


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Thank-YOU--- To My LOVES

My Dearest Most Only  Beloved LENORE , there is Someone I want YOU to meet
My Heartbeat My LIFE My WIFE Let me escort YOU , to YOUR ”  Golden Throne “
YOU are my Queen , My everything : My Forever : please  come up and take YOUR Seat
This is BARBARA JEAN She put a LOVE seed in my Heart, as YOU can see it’s “Grown”

I fly Like a Cloud , The wings which flutter from my Heart cry out loud Barbara, I LOVE YOU
OHH!! LENORE L E N O R E, My LOVE If I knew the same words of  Heavenly Love You know
May I speak in Tongues  that YOU understand : May I show You  A Forever LOVE; as YOU 
Knew
Look at my Heart that’s Barbara Jean standing there  : Look to your left, Eternally I sit in that 
empty chair

YOU know I LOVE You Forever But here on Earth my Heart screams for Companionship and 
LOVE
Barbara Jean knows YOU as I’m sure YOU know her when You look out the window of Heaven
YOU can see my Heart beating anew , as it does for YOU I do not feel guilty ( or maybe I do)
How long has it been since I’ve seen YOU? I have never seen Barbara Jean, I have felt Her 
LOVE
How long has it been since I heard YOUR voice? in Barbara’s  POEMS my Heart does rejoice
I can hear the whispers “I LOVE YOU” from Heaven , the  song “I LOVE YOU” from Earth
I am such a lucky man  to know two LOVES, Heavenly and Earthly FOREVER and ALWAYS
I LOVE YOU LENORE : I LOVE YOU BARBARA JEAN Thank-YOU for taking  my Heart in YOURS

Inspired By LOVE Dedicated to my LOVES : L E N O R E  and  B A R B A R A  J E A N


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Unshed Tears

Slice me with your tongue,
Razor blade wounds,
To suck out all my poisens,
Sweet lonely lullaby,
Accusing eyes of sadism,
Picture perfect prodegy, 
My Deadly Sin,
A bitter taste of arson,
Burning in my vital organ,
Your the pyre that burns away my mortality,
A sip of tea made from Lilly of the Valley,
A shadow of Death stalking,
With odd angel like wings,
A Numbing kiss like Drowning in Morphine,
My Oblivion,
Sweet arms to rest in till my vision no longer holds,
Eyes neither like Hell nor Heaven,
Cocain Addiction,
That Drip of Drugs into your system,
Intoxicated blood stream,
I'd rather not dream,
And instead get lost within - Your paralysing,
Your Paralysing, Brain lapse,
Your moving too fast,
Stay slow and dreamy,
Dancing silhoutte,
Like a burning forest fire,
Pain throughout my veins,
Ravishing and Beautiful,
A voice torn from my throat,
Dying joyfully,
With my last sight of you. . .


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To My Love

Dreams, 
Forgotten in a sea of agony
Remembered in waves of regret
And the terror of letting go

Love,
Given freely in the warmth of a kiss
Taken quickly in anticipation
Of pain promised to pass

Her warmth surrounds me
Her strength becomes my own
Her skin holds the memory
Of the familiar touch of my hand

Her lips
Wet and wanting

Her eyes
Open and waiting

Her arms 
Accepting and mournful

Her body
Needful and forgiving

Lust,
A wishful gift of life
Unable to be ignored or pushed away
As we lay together

Dreams,
Forgotten in the blanket of night
Remembered in the light of day
Increasing the terror of letting go


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A Candle In The Window Of Desire

She sits thinking,
How wonderful it would be,
To have her love, her destiny. 
What unfolds in her life, 
makes it all worthwhile.
To be with that man, that extra mile.
Her tree has it’s birds, butterflies too,
That visit each day, making things new.
Her garden does grow,
Bringing beauty all around,
Flowers in a row,
Some so profound.
She gazes at her walkway,
That leads to her door,
And imagines him there, just as before.
Such a good time they had,
In this beautiful land,
Always good, never bad,
As they would walk, hand in hand.
Now he has gone back,
To the land of his birth,
But their love did not lack,
It gave life such worth.
A candle in the window,
Her desires all around,
The light does glow,
For the love she has found.


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The Heart

Just a moment ago there was laughter
The aching longing had since past
When you walked into the room
My heart simply gasped 
You were everything I was missing
There was no room left for denial
I leapt across the room
To be in your arms for just a short while
And while I was there my heart felt full
In my eyes you shined like a jewel 
A warmth spread through me like wild fire
Leaving happiness to chance and desire 
We abandoned joy once we left through the door
Harsh words snapped against teeth
Pride wounded and tempers flared
We drove in silence tires screeching
If we fought we didn't care
You ignored my words and explanations
While I clung to my seat
I ignored yours and began to retreat
Into my mind away from the world
Away from the pain and the anger burning red
Wondering if I should just expect you to bite off my head
When you finally cool off you say sorry
But my hope falls flat on your apology
I curse all the reasons and my refusal to give in
I bury the tears in my eyes and hate the stubbornness in my head
Only remembering the memories of another life
Where I gave in every night to the fight
Sorry became just another word
Love didn't give a care in the world
I watched the flames die and turn into embers
The embers fade in the cold of December
I watched love die and swore Id never give in
Then you caught my heart and made me love again
And we've been fighting - Dividing
Well, I don't want to let you go
And if I still sound angry 
It may be because I'm scared as hell
Praying we weren't better off friends
Praying that our love will fare 
Better than the rest of the world
I act like a tough woman
but I have the heart of a fragile little girl


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Golden Skies

With love I look at you
And see your eyes transform 
To gaze into depths
Which carry a secret storm 
A ring as dark as night
Around a golden sky 
With speckles of dark stars
That bring my lips a sigh 
They hold the world's wonders
A box of sins and hurt 
A glimmer of light
That glows just like hope 
With love you look at me
And I see into your eyes
Your soul bare and naked 
From me you do not hide 
Their gentle with a sadness
They shine as you laugh 
They hold both parts equal 
Experience of life and death
You stay hidden to the world
But you open up to me
And in your eyes my Darling
I see everything there is to see
With soft lashes they appear
Angelic in their own way 
I watch as they close 
And your anger drifts away
Unclothed I see your soul
In the doorway of your eyes
I could stare into them forever 
Lost without a sense of time 


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The Biggest Jerk

Two days without 
The biggest jerk I ever knew
Two days without him
God, what am I gonna do. 

I'm lost inside this house
going crazy out of my mind
I don't know what to do with myself
Exasperated for hours at a time.

I'm not spilling tears
Just awaiting his return
I'm not feeling fear
I'm just lonely for his arms. 

Out the window
My eyes continue to gaze
Searching for his car
Looking for his face.

Headlights pull in
Flashing at my eyes
My heart beats harder
My spirit lights afire.

My feet moving 
of their own accord
Running, leaping
Barreling into his arms.

Smile breaks
Like the light
From clouds
On a sunny day.

Eyes Glow
Fireflies of sapphire
Twinkling in the dark
Like a diamond heart.

Fingers reaching
Touching and rubbing
Pulling closer
Feeling whole at once.

Lips busying themselves
To smother with a kiss
Where does it end
Where does it begin.

Two whole days
Without the biggest Jerk I know
I don't want to do it again
I don't want my love to go.  


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Smoke And Mirrors

Let's live in a fairytale, 
you can chase away the dragons, 
who's smoke breathes to life, 
the nightmares in my dreams.

I can be your Princess,
You can hold me in your arms,
Like a Knight in shinning armor,
And hush away my screams. 

No more wasted time,
with smoke and mirrors,
You're not a Court Jester,
lets speak the truth.

Will you say a sweet goodbye,
Or will you not shed a tear from your eye,
There's a dagger in my heart,
The icy pain is all I need for proof.

Diamond teardrops from my eyes,
Hurry dear, they say you must be quick,
To capture each before they dry,
The tears of when a Gypsy cries.

Are you, nothing more than a collector,
Do I hold no beauty in beggers clothes,
Lets face reality my love, you are no knight,
And neither a Prince if truth is to be told. 

And I am no Princess,
Did I once have you fooled?
Though once we lived as such,
Our love has ever cooled.

Must I break through,
Past the freezing layers of your heart,
To see if the thought still pains you,
Of us being forever apart?

I must open my eyes,
And live in the truth,
That dragons do not exist,
And are just fiction of the soused. 

You will not ever save me,
from their tongues of flame,
But burn me with your own,
And make me feel my shame.

You will not shield me,
from poisened arrows that fall,
but with the anger in your eyes,
I'll feel as if they've broken through the castle walls.

I was once, the Juliet,
That led you to your death,
Venom rampent through your veins,
Revenge seems to be your quest.

At each word you say,
It feels as though I'll die,
My heart breaks and shatters,
And you show no concern of why.

And yet at night you pull me close,
Whispering sweet nectar to me,
That makes me wonder,
Must we still live in their reality? 

Is there hope left for our fairytale,
To have a happy end?
Love like a fairytale, or Harsh Reality,
No time left to pretend, I must know the end.


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I LOVE YOU TODAY

I LOVE YOU Today, though Your so far ; so far away 
My hands Caress You ; as one would the petal of a rose
Gently I wipe away the morning dew drop ; in reality a tear
I touch You with my smile : my beard tickles Your cheek
My Heart beats to the music of LOVE, pounding to a crescendo :
My baritone voice , enticed by the pounding Heart, sings I Love You
My eyes see YOU everywhere, the soft clouds, the cool shade of an Oak
In the sea, rushing to the beach : but mostly in my mind where beauty grows
The doors are opened : yet You stay , that I may LOVE YOU TODAY
                                     “ N-- O-- W”

          Inspired By Barbara Gorelick’s POEM --  “NOW”
Dedicated to Barbara Jean  with Today’s LOVE -- Everlasting


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Found Love

When first I came to know this world, my eyes were young and hurt,
And O're the years I came to know, the expression in my heart,
I fought my way through love and pain, through heart break, and much worse,
Until one day I found a man, who could love me at my best and worst,
He would drive me to the point of insane, yet bring me back to laughing tears,
He could make my eyes weep in shame, yet hold me close and i would heal,
18 years, it took to know that I would never leave his side,
For when I was born I knew this man; Inside my soul, the knowledge survived,
I found him after 16 years, And knew I loved when i reached 17,
Now the age of womanhood is apon me, and if asked Ill respond,
it is his wife I shall gladly be,
Sweet eyes so young, but aged too,
my love today, I explain to you.


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Asphyxiated Love

Something changing, shifting, fading...
Lackluster, the heat has gone cold.
Open portals closing, drifting, dreaming...
Trepidation, the eyes to the soul.
Someone wishing, reaching, feeling...
Imploring, a quick and tantalizing grasp.
Deadened passion, avidity, and lust.


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I fell in like with you

Inspired by one of my favorite bands, Rise Against, and the song is called,
“Ever-changing” (Acoustic). Please listen to this song if you don’t know of it. It’s raw &
powerful.

“Have you ever been a part of something? That you thought would never end. But then, of
course, it did.” –Rise Against

“I fell in ‘Like’ with you”

With her smile
I melted unto oblivion’s redemption
Candy coated perceptions, windows’ gap
Seeping brilliance refreshment

Uncertainty resolution, polished
Absorbed into closeness sun
Yet these eyes still…see
Butterflies taking notice, missing you…as you stood in front of me

Strong, yet soft legs
Foundation of my face to rest upon
Scars…fading
A cremated sin 

Yet, elongated moments of silence
Created abruption’s new face

The face of change
When she turned to me and said
“I’m not sure, anymore”

Emotional lullaby, rocking me to sleep
New battles with spectral flashback
Trying to get under my skin, a drunken tick facing demise

Phoenix’s sunrise, rejuvenating my recycled defenses
Yet, today, these rays just aren’t bright enough to burn sadness away

And with these sounds of storm clouds & Fall on horizon’s breath
These grounds are so familiar, yet bittersweet
This heart doesn’t want to be enlightened by karma today

It wants to be held for how it shines now

Denied…distance wins again today
Slavery whipped punishments in miles and blocks
This must end

Because I try to keep lines open to get a call from you
Yet all I hear are booty calls with busy signals

And yet something has kept me here too long
But can they leave me, if I’m already gone?

Something has kept me here too long
Karma’s laughter

But, through it all, I will shine

…

How I wish my mere presence can bring joy’s tear to her eye

Sadly though, now, the lines are drawn
Yet I wonder if this feeling is gone
Have the best parts of this…come and gone?

…

Maybe I’ll never know the truth

Perhaps she was misguided by jealousy’s deprivation
Deteriorating heart’s splendor

While I fell in “like” with her

Perhaps “Better Man 2.0” appeared from Cloud 9’s fallacy

While I fell in “like” with her

Perhaps
She held onto the past

As I, drawn to waterfall’s edge
Allowed myself

To let go…and F
A
L
L

© Drake J. Eszes
“We adore those who hurt us. Yet, we hurt those who adore us.” -Anonymous


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Pasionata

My beloved Drino, Take me to the memory a neverlasting dream which lived in yester yesterday long before destiny took its toll and footprints marked separate paths Take me back to that December night where we ran holding hands to the cottage down the hill by fields of evergreen I am there, You are too Kissing snowflakes from my lips as melting moistness falls upon silk wisps of auburn hair How can I not remember your palms' gentle rub brushing raindrops which trickled ever so slow across the inner of my thigh Ahh !I can still smell the scent of your warm breath upon my neck's nape ~Honey and lemon I can still hear that hush hushed whisper beneath the tender of my ear Still live the feeling,of your fading kiss upon each flutter of my lash My beloved Drino Carry me back to those sheets which still know the voice and the colour of your eyes Let me travel to the cradle of those arms and perfumed wine Let me travel to that smile within the blossom of your heart Threaded petals on a cheek where scarlet velvets never sleep Let my slippery fingers slide to the soft hairs of your back as you unbutton my last piece of innocence As the corners of your mouth fulfill with juices from the ripeness of pink peaches As i open up to fire and you enter in flames My beloved Drino, take me to that night where i tickled your wilderness where you sank in my deep Take me to the moment where our sins were so sacred and lust carried no shame
Not for the contest.. But tnks Cyndi Macmillan for your 'Spice box' adult content contest had been an inspiration. Ps..I had to delete some spices after i posted it Hope its still liked : )


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Drowning Deeply in LOVE

                Lips touch the tip of morning with the awakening
             of thine eyes,
           accompanied 
           by inexhaustible
            thoughts of only 
             you. Drifting away
              from abed, thoughts
              trace in tandem with
             thy body in lost sight
           within the flat-bottomed
         vessel. Water pouring
       down accreting to the
     seductive oils
     forming to
      crystallized
        foam.
          Drowning
            deeply
               in
                 Love.


Pace, G
INK-U-SCRIPT

08-02-2012


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A Letter To Mrs. Frankenstein PhD

Tonight I speak to you,
with a sober mind that
keeps my memories vivid,
and a melancholy mood
that reflects the deepest
darkest depths of my
dangerous depression,
Sealed with heartache

 Stamped with the hurtful
indiscretions of a man made
ignorant by the reality of a 
loss that eradicated his soul,
Be it prudent to allow my
reminiscence to fade into 
the infinite background of
forgotten brooded teenage angst

My memories are empowered
by love, and by such an emotion,
have denied my will and become
personified to the point of eternal
embodiment, grabbing my tongue
and squeezing out ink used to
express the immortal affection of
its own first and only creed,

Thus by the mutual compassion
once held by our hearts alike,
The monster of your imagination
was born to a world incapable of
comprehending the love of a 
creature for the love of his creator,
A creature who hides his face
for he is hideous without you,

Crushed by the harrowing
lightening strike of being 
condemned to a life without
the bolt of love that gave him
breath, he becomes the lost,
Yet he devotedly searches for you,
as I do, as we both breakdown
screaming and crying out loud,
in harmony, "Creator, please...
Love me again.."


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Jungle Love

Your sweet nectar
wraps around my senses
like jungle vines
steady drums beating
Your heart near mine

Your strong hands
hold me suspended
by my waist
Just enough pain and strength
against my supple skin
For my taste

The musk of your
sculpted body and the forest
has me going wild
But yet, the tender way you
protect me, reminds me of
Being a child

A safe familiarity
with a strain of animalistic
seduction
Your invisible hold over me
leaves me arrow poisoned
Unable to function

My long dark hair wraps you
with smells of coconut and ocean Sun
your locks full of mud and enemies
Blood
together, my warrior
We make One



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Sunshine Flowers

The Daffodil, peeks at the yellow rays of the Morning Sun
She raises her head  :through the withering snow mound : with Dazzling Beauty
The Daffodil , Sings in harmony; Arise for I am : the Spring
The Golden weed, the Dandelion , reflects the yellow Halo Floating in the Sky
Knowing Life is short ,the Dandelion dots the Summer landscape
With Her Halo turning White, She calls the Wind and flies through the rays of the Sun
Goldenrod waits until summer is  nigh o’er before waving elegantly 
To the Yellow orb, warming her roots, She melodiously  Sings Forever be Your Glory 
The Goldenrod , humbly  Hums Hymns : to the very Eye of  a Loving GOD 
Yellow Roses speak of the Memories : “watching  the grass “Sportsman’s WAVE””
She sees the Glory of Nature : more Beautiful with each Magnificent  : Sunrise
Yellow Roses, petals so Silky Soft, holding in “ Remembrance “  a long Lost “ LOVE “
The “ AquaRose “ that Grows, in the deep Caribbean Sea “4 miles North of Aruba” 
Screams For the Sun, from her watery Grave, Yet she shines in a sea of  “ Sapphire   
                                                 " Blue " 
The Depth of the  “Blue sea, the Blue Sky above” Shadow  the glow of Sweet  
                                            "  Sunshine "
       Inspired by the Contest : " Flowers " : Sponsored by Francine Roberts
             Dedicated To my LOVES : " Barbara Jean "  & " Lenore Ellen "
              Author's Note : I Hope this is Read the way it was Written
                  YOUR Liege ALWAYS, LOVE : HGarvey Daniel Esquire
                                                7th Place win


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A Beautiful Reverie

Here I lie beside you
My heart goes thump.thump.thump.
My soul dances inside you
Reveling in the texture of your own.
Electric and flowing 
The currents of our love
Glow like neon lights
Illuminating the hope in my eyes.
Though we're not moving
I feel so incredibly alive
Invincible to my past
Untouchable by all who lack
That gentle touch of when 
You lean in and brush my face
Your lips grazing my skin
Softer than a butterfly.
And then you gaze into my eyes
I fall into your depths 
Twirling like the autumn leaves
Melting into your smile 
Your soul reminiscent of summer.
You pull me into your arms 
And for a moment I'm lost 
Breathless and in awe
Staring in the face of pure exquisite love 
And there you are - holding it 
Glowing in the moonlight of my stare.
My heart beats - its drum pounding away
Echoing a song thats lost its words
I touch your cheek and smile
My hands cant stay away
My lips s l o w l y, draw near yours
Hovering, and then - 
Part, a soft warmth against them.
My eye lids pulling shut
Dragging me into a silent heaven
I pull away - and what seemed millennia
Lasted only a moment, a second in time
But this is our love
This is what you do to me
You make me invincible and fragile
Lost forever in a beautiful reverie.


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Once Upon A Time

This is a poem about the future I'd love to have with the boy of my dreams.
None of this has actually happened yet (besides us falling in love with eachother) but it's how I would like it to happen.

Once upon a time, I became the luckiest girl in the world. I fell in love with a gorgeous boy with blue eyes, and he actually loved me back. He was like my prince, he treated me like his princess and would do anything for me. Today, we're united as King and Queen. It's been years, but walking down the aisle I'm still staring at the cutest, most perfect guy I've ever seen. When our lips finally meet after parting to say "I do", it tastes like Heaven.

Once upon a time, I married a gorgeous boy with blue eyes. And today, I saw those perfect blue eyes light up when he first held our little girl in his arms. She's got her Daddy's blue eyes and just a little bit of her Momma's brown hair. She's going to be spoiled and loved more than possible. She'll know we support her no matter what, and she can tell us everything. It will be perfect.

Once upon a time, one set of blue eyes became two, and we were made into a family. Now, that second pair of blue eyes is walking out the door to college, with a suitcase in one hand and a boy's hand in the other. He better love her and treat her just as well as her Daddy does.

Once upon a time, I fell in love with a gorgeous boy with blue eyes. His hair has dulled and grayed but his eyes are the same, and they've seen a lifetime's worth of happiness and love. My baby had babies with the boy she walked out the door with, and I can tell she loves them as much as we loved her. Now it's her time to live.


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Moon bridge

The moon so bold seems cold
with a halo of midnight glow
I sit mesmerized as the night grows old.

I bleed still, even after all these years
and I wait again through the night
aching in the depths of my soul
that no other seems to know
the Loneliness that has become my companion.

In the darkness we wait and confide in the other
our deepest fears as memories fade
in and out each season of change
            the nostalgia tempers the wars of pain
this tempestuous foe of ours
         wails at the gates of midnight
howling the warble of humanities last grace.

How the comfort of minds and hearts
turn from light to deep dark in the face 
of eternities long time clock...

I ache with wanting, with need and passion
          it is a lie that time heals and wounds scar
each night is fresh like the first
                              when I faced realities shock.

Who can wait with me?
Who can hold this hound at bay?
Who can cherish what little love left in me
             and make the broken whole?


I ache to be loved again as the love that burns
and waits inside of me. 
Who can comfort this emptiness and fill the void
                that so many leavings have left?

Cherish and love to honor and protect
             but who can slay these demons that hold my heart in wrath?
Who will walk the sulfur clouds of hell to save my mind
     and deliver my world to the gates of heaven
      with life, not death bridging the distance of pain?

I sit and wait at the floor of the moon each night
waiting for that bridge to carry me yonder,
      this moon who hangs heavy and ripe with the yearning of my soul
with clouds aglow as if I could sweep them across a canvas
   with the brush held in your hand

I rage at her as I wait, but still I wait and weep
as Loneliness and I keep each others company
wishing the clouds of that great moon could truly create
a way to find the lost, a pathway to home, lit by the legacy our love.


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Today Not Tomorrow

I have been untrue
To myself and to my heart
I waited for the questions to answer themselves
I waited for the possible to become probable
I cowered down behind shadows
Even they shied away
I cowered down behind lies
Even they unravelled
I cowered down behind those cowards
Even they left in disgust
Beneath the slime and muck of time
I lie shivering in the cold
Today I have said I, but never you
Selfish is the soul that speaks
To itself as it leaks
Lies and deceit upon the shelves
Shelves covered with hearts in jars
These hearts that cry out the truth
Their own echo is all they hear

I avoided the truth
I avoided confrontation
Today I opened a door
Only to shut another
Time is a whore
Time is the whore we all know
The whore that stole it all
Bottle up a heart in a jar
She will reopen it some day
As she has reopened secrets
As she has stolen them back
As she has taken my ego
As she has taken my confidence

Today I wait
As I have waited before
A day passes as time laughs
As shadows scurry
As lies fall apart
As cowards roar
As time cleans out
I shiver more

My love to you is ebbing
A wait after another
I question my wait, how I rot in this seat
I question my wait as I hide behind deceit
And yet I thank you
For on this day I know
I have wasted away before your gaze
And your recognition is yet awaited
Today I watch you get stolen away
And hope for time to repeat
For if only a second before I could have reached for you
But now I wait
To wait again
I am selfish
I have watched
I have gazed
I have dreamt
I have wondered
I have left you there in that dark alley awaiting my arrival
And I say

If only this seat had wheels
If only this dreamer had heart
Now I wait, for the moment I will rise
And I wait

For the moment you shall beckon
I shall cast my shadow upon the steps
I shall shed my skin of lies
I shall roar with vigor from within the cowering forms of many
And time shall stare with awe
Wings I shall grow
And together we shall soar
Through days and nights we shall dance
As time bleeds its envious blood
Today I ask for you at my side
Tomorrow I shall be there at yours
This selfish capsule of a soulless trap
Shall be a soul once more
With all those forms casting shadows
Soaring above the clouds of dreamers
Paired off, laying on the moon
Howling for the world to hear
Today not tomorrow
I shall be true

© Samir Georges 
2005


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Memories etched in the sand

Sifting warm sand 
through my fingers,
shimmering fine grains 
glitter my palm.
Sand,
filled with life’s memories
of nut brown days
of summer.

A soft silk breeze 
formed dunes
with our dreams 
that summer
when we danced to the stars.
My heart laced yours
listening to the sea
undulating waves of emotion
as we kissed 
on the velvet strand.

I still hear
the rhythm of the ocean.
Waves tumbling in unison,
a sweeping sound 
gently caressing
as we lay silently 
listening to sand
shifting over stone
to the faint chiming
of seashells.

My first love
a sea salted embrace
on a breast of sand.
The memories
forever held
in the sand
in glitter on my hand.


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my sun rises in the east

to wake every morning
and feel your breath on my cheek...

to open my eyes
and see your soft lips...

to hear our two hearts beating as one...

to touch your skin
and run my fingers through your flame red hair...

to watch you open your dark Slavic eyes
and see your smile grow...

to whisper "ya tebya lyublyu"
and enfold you in my strong arms
every morning
forever...

knowing that i could never feel like this
with anyone but you...

you are the warmth that melts my heart...
the light that guides my way...

you are my rising sun


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Loving and Breathing (Dilemma of The Broken Hearted)

Inhaled at the age of innocence,
with a breath that lies between stars,
with immortal depths that have no
ending as my lungs forever expand,
Exhalation has become unachievable,
due to the obstruction of faith
of a boy for his very first dream,
Chest heaving as a heart aches,

Is love a tree or the deepest ocean?
My breath or my reason for holding?
The questions unanswered since the 
dawn of man and emotion alike,
Thus the bittersweet conclusion
appears that love equals the two,
Yet how does such beauty create
a pain that suffers from insomnia?

Expendable only to a few torn souls
who have breathed the sweet intoxication
of love, and caressed the linger of its enticing
aroma, and suffered the sting of its departure,
Leaving hearts which cannot withstand the
agony, to exhale affection for everything in
its entirety, crushing the hope of such youths,
yet this warning takes nothing from its appeal,

For to breathe love, is to touch enchantment,
As romance itself in but a breathe shared 
between two spirits rewarded for persistence,
With the risk of being proven fallible,
which leads to tears and pain entwined,
Must we not embrace the risk as reward?
For those as myself, who answered "no"
are condemned to the most fragile breathing,

For each breath hurts like the last
One love, one lost, one breath in all,
Breathing her in as if she has become
the last breath of oxygen in my life,
For she has, she has become my only,
due to a choice made for the perfect love,
Yet my painful irony has become, breathing
and loving, with each one, keeping 
the agony of the other alive forever


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Broken Butterfly Wings

Broken Butterfly Wings
Empty playground swings
tear filled, wide-eyed
Infants sigh
a choking stolen 
silence fills my being
as my love walks away
from me
I see everything wrong
with the world
once more


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Your Kiss

Fluttering, my heart goes as you draw near
Stuttering, the words that come from my mouth
Warmth, that flows through my body
Sweaty, my palms start to become
Wet, my lips are as they wait
Heaving, my chest goes as my breathing grows deeper
Trembling, my hands can’t seem to stop
Quivering, my body from head to toe
Staring, my eyes at your soft lips
Holding, my face in your hands
Hot, your breath on my lips I drink in
Pausing, before our lips touch
Fading, everything around me
Softly, your lips meet mine
Closed, my eyes stay as I get lost in the moment
Melting, into your arms I start
Searching, words to describe what I feel
Parting, my lips with your tongue
Dancing, our tongues begin
Gasping, for breath between each kiss
Eagerly, we want more
Exploring, our hands all over each other
Intense, as we look into each other’s eyes
Passion, in every move we make
Wishing, you could feel this inside me


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Romeo and Juliet (Our Story)Pt 2

Years and years have been lost to time, thousands of days,
 nights, and morrows seen and despised out of immense ache,
The Juliet of my early youth is no more, transformed into a
stranger, yet my love dies not! Though I plead and beg for
her to recall and rekindle the love affair of many moments ago,
She bears news of her plans of wedded bliss to another, news that
I curse my eyes for seeing, ears for hearing, and heart for knowing
is true! With desolate heart and soul, corrupted mind, and disregard
of future as that of a mad man, I fall to my knees and scream,
"God and heaven alike, I defy and deny you both! For no
father of mine would rip asunder my motivation for humanity!
Nor does any paradise remain alive without her presence!"

Be it his decree that I hurt for eternity both alive and deceased
then be it my decree that his life and love never was!
Thus I have become what I am, with no rue nor shame,
For I am not the tender Romeo that once lived and breathed,
No more do I dwell in her heart or mind, and no more do I wish
any essence of a Romeo dwell inside my soul, for my Juliet
is buried and lost in abundances of new days. No day, nor night,
nor morrow is good for me, Sans trust, Sans faith, Sans morality,
Sans love do I wish to have or hold, Dead but still breathing I am,

Condemned to memories and dreams of  elated yesteryears, 
denying my own will, but loyal to that promise which cannot
be broken by even the cold lifelessness of heartache, I shriek,
and yawp, and yell, and raise my voice beyond the sting of pain, as
I wake each night, bleeding the same sound from my lips,
"Juliet!, Juliet!!, Juliet!!!" Repeated until my eyes are dry and
my voice is drained to the most silent of whispers, I force out,
over tears, over ache, over agony, over all, in one last breath,
"Juliet"


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Coke Bottle Promises

Sandy grains
wash over and over
a discarded glass
bottle
leaving what is left
smooth as silk
to my fingertips
touch
like a childhood 
memory
thought over and over
once more
and as I look
out into the unyielding 
sea
I recall your promise
words
I recall, over and over
again
like the waves splashing my
tan feet upon the sands
for you are overdue
love
to return to me
as I kiss my love note
to you
and toss the bottle once
more
into the dark blue abyss
below
my coke bottle
promise
forever and only
yours 
I do stay
 honest


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Boxed Life--She Sleeps with a Nine

Boxed Life

She sleeps with a nine
waits for his face
his distant return
too close
looming

A tragic slime
smooth stranger
smoother lover
pried into her life
obsessed
frantic
impossible to reject

she lives 
twisted
a boxed life
pulled by strings
too tight

An explosion is inevitable
the storm's coming
and she knows it
so she sleeps with a nine
and waits for his face


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Romeo and Juliet - A Collaboration with Annalise Brigham

I thought, love, I would never find.  And then suddenly, I was spell bound
It would blow your mind! For the love I have for you is so profound
You came into my life way back when, and like magic you stole my heart
The love was universal poetry and I would follow you from the start
I would follow you to the ends of the earth; beyond the rainbow’s bend
If I die before you, I’ll rebirth!  ..For you are my Juliet and I am your 
Romeo!

I wasn’t looking for love, just having fun, sharing some inspiration
Never thought I’d come to love again, this was not my expectation
You say I stole your heart, well, mine got stolen too!
And yes, we did write beautiful poetry which forever stands as good
I’ll always be your angel in and out of time, because of this special bond
And should I die before you, I’ll return! For you are my Romeo and I, your 
Juliet!








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Carbon Monoxide (CO) Week 2: Carbon Cabrona

Smokeless inhales hurt.
I cough tar on my shirt.
As my black lungs breathe,
Shrilling exhales wheeze.

Cabrona
Falls me
Down to
My knees.

The nicotine cracks
My will.
My composure
Spills.

I want 
This.
I must 
Have this.

I sink
Into
The brink
Of madness.


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Life On Hold

Claim your own joy
No more waiting by the phone
Hoping for a call that often never comes
He is not the completion of you
You are a whole person

These lost hours can never be reclaimed
Stop asking questions for which you have the answers
Do not pour your love into a broken glass
He is not worty of a love that is so pure

He feeds on your soul
Time to close the buffet
Claim your own joy
Discover the intricacies of you
Realize you are lovable
Don't count his failure as your own

Your time is now
You were never meant to live your life on hold
Claim your own joy
Let your laughter explode
The one you are meant to Love will hear it
You are made for better things
You deserve so much more
Yesterday will not be tommorow


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Careless

I slept
full of hope and dreams
I awoke 
empty and forgotten
Careless as I was back then

Morning sounds
swirling in my ears
Pointless thoughts
filling my head

"She can."
but will she ever again
"She is."
though no longer for me

I stood
alone and stiff
I walked
slow and without purpose
Careless as I was back then

The smell of spring
mingled with sunshine
as the touch of day
warmed me no more

"I was."
but I threw it all away
"I did." 
though I do not know why

I hoped
for a day without me
I cried
where no one could see
Careless as I was back then

Was this longing
joyless and caretaking
awaiting its chance
to bring me home again

Or was I lost
forever here like a wounded angel
Despaired and angry
the evening came again

Without warning
Without love
Without consumption
Without her

"In her arms,"
I wondered as the sun slipped away
"would I feel whole again?"
my hurt had wasted another day

I laid down
empty and forgotten
I slept 
full of hope and dreams
Careless as I was back then


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Groundswell Girl - Named by JB

Enter a storybook tale
Where I can be 
The heroine you hail
Lucid dreams of soft reflection
A touch heated with lust and desired protection
A breathe a gasp as we succeed 
Join the fairytale with me
Valiant night within dark eyes
the right movement and I make them shine
like moonlight on the steamy hot spring
care to follow for a little dip with me
Trailing like the water at my fingertips
Grasp me around my hips
As close as the breeze on my skin 
Whisper lies as I let you in 
Lips mumbling up my thighs
bare heart exposed to the sky 
fire burning in my veins
Am I a mistress of this lust or simply a slave
Trembling with desire
Take me till we've lost count of the hours
enter this storybook tale
Where I can be the heroine you hail


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Carbon Monoxide -CO- Week 3: Talkin' 'bout My 'noxide

The steady pull
of temptation--
a tease on
my resolution.

When I can sleep, 
I take what dreams 
afford me.
In these dreams,
my 'noxide comes
to ward me.

Her smoke is an invitation.
my conscience
falls for
the con science
of my imagination.
I give in
and reality spins.

Between the sleeps, 
I lie in sanity. 
I wonder:
Did I give into 
my humanity?
did I'd err?
Is that
smoke in the air?


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Once Upon A Car Ride

Feel like that woman
Screaming, he betrays
They're stealing her
They're taking her
And everything shes kept safe
He Can't protect her
Not strong enough
Not brave enough
Nor man enough
To understand her horror
And how she will remember
The rest of her life


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Drowning in your Desert of Lies

Tell me all about her
Is she beautiful?
Is she simple in her complex way?
Is she all you want and need?
Is she your everything?
Tell me is she beautiful?

Is she that pretty picture in your mind?
The one with whom you spend your time?
I bet she’s perfect
Is she the sun, the moon, the night, the day?
Is she the dream you wish would never go away?
Tell me is she beautiful?

Tell me is she special?
Is she perfect in her imperfections?
Is she fragile like a rose?
But yet so unbreakable
Tell me is she beautiful?

Is she the reason you can’t hide
The smile that’s stretched from eye to eye?
I bet you love her
Is the one who holds your heart?
The one who lies within your arms?
I bet she’s wonderful

Tell me am I beautiful?
Am I strong in my weak-hearted way?
Tell me that I’m worth it
If I fall on my knees and cry
Will you stay?


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Carbon Monoxide (CO) Week 1: O.D.A.A.T.

Chain smoke until
I'm in care of the CO.
There's one left, still.
I smoke it really slow.
"It's the end," I anticipate
As the last inch evaporates.

I can't get
Over it;
It's over before 
I know it.
Butt, I can't quit.
I'm possessed with this 
Obsession; I'm addicted.

My lungs have oxygen,
Yet I'm suffocating inside.
I can't breathe again
Without my 'noxide.


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Happily Ever Disaster

I looked up and there you were
My prince
My fairytale
My happily ever after

You stood by my side
You made me strong
You made me believe in you
I trusted you

I looked up and there you were 
My enemy 
My deepist fear
My worst nightmare

You brought me down
You broke me apart
You made me give up my hope
I loved you

I looked up and there you were
My living hell
My darkest night
My happily ever disaster

I'm saying fairwell


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Angel (A.K.J)

You do not know this,
but there are nights
I willingly fall to the ground,
knocking the wind out of myself,
staring up into infinity,
wishing someone up there
would send you back to me,
As if I deserve it,
As if you still speak my name,
As if time could be conquered

Yet, I allow myself a fantasy,
A breath held for a memory,
In hopes of feeling innocent again,
For innocence became us in childhood,
Blood was unknown to me
For love flowed through my veins,
Heart pumping the shine of your smile
through my entire being in circulation,
Laughter is heard, as stars are seen,
Each twinkle holds a moment of us,

As time has torn us asunder,
Life has revealed new loves,
new loves inspired anger,
anger ensured your hatred of me,
Thus, I became what all now see,
A child changed to cynic,
A poet who hates emotions,
A man who desires no faith,
For nothing moves me now,
Yet my words still know you,


A million apologies failed,
No sense in repeating failure,
No reason to cry more tears
if none will show you my humanity,
My pain now motivates my attitude 
Thus, my soul is forever lost,
Despite the aforementioned change,
I still miss you daily, in misery,
with regret that lasts an eternity,

Hope for us, is my hope for heaven,
A paradise I have experienced before,
As I embrace the magic of the moment,
I briefly disregard my own logic,
hoping for an answer from nowhere,
For a chance to desire to change,
to see again, to trust again, 
Praying to a god I no longer believe in,
to protect you and never melt your wings,
for I could not recognize you any other way,

I repeat,
You did not know this,

Yet this lets me know,

Heaven or hell,
Life or death,
Angel or human,
God or no god,

I have my opinions,

Yet two truths are proven,

You are an angel to me,
and... I Love You.


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A Letter of Love/Hate

This hurts too much,
Even though at times
Its the best thing ever.
However,  the pain I feel right now 
Is destroying all that I am. 
I feel worthless and dumb. 
Vunerable and used. 
I also feel loved and special. 
Beautiful and wanted. 
These feeling are so extreme in every which way possible.
I love how I feel when with you
I hate how I feel guilty when we part
I love looking in your eyes
I hate when mine cry
Your fingers along my face also touches her
Those lips that drive me crazy
Are sleeping against her neck tonight
I love who I am around you
I hate what I have turned into
I love the way you make me feel
I hate that she must feel that as well
No matter how good it feels
This pain is too much to bear
I love you
I truely truely do
But the hurt is not worth
The random few moments of bliss.
Goodbye, my love-hate lover
Goodbye





**Note**
This is a letter/poem I wrote for someone special. But it moves me so much every time i 
read it, I thought maybe someone else would enjoy reading it as well. 'To write is to share 
with the world, how we all feel but never speak of'     Lisa


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A Course for Two

In a cafe
somewhat blase 
(I suppose)

A glass pendant glows
above You and Me;
a newly created pose.

Our eyes reflect no guise:

Whisper to me in sweet libation,
drown me in Chianti conversation,
with no pause.

Our lap cloths desire the impure:

the dessert of When and Where 
within,
We scoff at the (Maybe)
of decadent bare skin,
never demure.

Dare we continue this course for two?
Finish the glass, my dear:

The blase cafe, no longer in sight,
I propose we collide in Twilight
tonight.


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If you name a poem something cheesy like--- Venus --- it Will only get twenty reads

"What's your story?"
she questions,
"you seem interesting."
wildflower
in eyes
I reply, "NOW."

often people become confused
by such a unique response
not this one

she's a beauty
shiny minded stone
lives warm under veins
lacks definition of alone

alone she stands
tallest green blade
unscathed
each time the oily blade passes above

erect 
she stays the same
tingling pulses exhale her pores
she'd rather sink
than have to think the way of worldly whores

still...
malice skips her
no ripples in the lake
dripping from her face
sunshine slips across tangerine cheeks

gold flows throughout waves 
streaming locks
sky clear eyes surprise those
choosing to be consumed 
by her entice

hands free of envy
no webs to spin
hips unmolested
thighs slick
turpentine

be warned
she will divide you
no voodoo 
or silly twisted games
though safe may escape you

blemish-less
untangled...
the girl
she
Goddess
baby of zero maybes
KNOWS
how?
she knows

as clarity lent us its giant umbrella 
her lipstick smacked my tongue 
from there
we never looked back



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Why do I bother ?

                             Why do I bother waking up
                            when everydays the same 
                              life has no purpose
                             while we are estranged
                              
                            Why do I bother going to sleep 
                            when all I have is nightmares
                                 
                             Why do I bother breathing 
                        when  I just end up gasping for air
                       
                              Why do I bother eating
                               when all I want is you
                              
                               Why do I bother bathing
                             When everything feels so dirty
                                   
                         Why do I bother talking
                       when I just feel like screaming

                              Why do I bother living 
                             When i feel like im dying
                              

                                By,Jessica Bowie
                        


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Room C13

I raced through my chores, braided my hair in cornrows
Meticulously washed my body, daub the back of my ears
The insides of my elbow, and my wrist, with my then cheap perfume
There my pulse beat, no longer fluttering like a butterfly
But racing away at 5 horsepower speed

I put on my favorite dress, navy blue with tiny white polka dots
Red buttons going down from the neck to the hem
Flowing skirt falling from a cinched waist to mid calf 
Finally I slide my feet into cream patient clogs 
Adorned with red petals on the sides

“Mom I’ll be back soon”.  I said
“OK dear, walk safe and don’t stay out late”.  She said 
Through the door I dashed and across Pancho’s open lot
Anticipation taking control of my pounding heart
Each step I took carried me one step closer
But in fact, felt like I wasn’t going fast enough

I hurried along the Spanish Town to Kingston main road
Going west to Jamaica School of Agriculture 
Where in its core lies building C room #13
Within room C13, awaits, like the earth void of rain
My man, my lover, my friend

I entered the portals of JSA, the guards smiled with me
Knowingly!  They knew me enough by this
Not to enquire of my reason for entering
I climbed the hills, though smooth the road
Entered campus grounds, hardly a breath could catch

With racing heart and panting breath, I entered building C
Up the stairs I swept like a queen entering her throne room
Tap, tap, tap, on the door of #13, the door swings open
There standing before me, a magnificent specimen of humanity
My lover

Tall as the pine tree, dark as mahogany, and oh, so handsome!
He took my hand, and I entered his web
Kisses me as if I was his oasis, his fountain of cool clear water,
To quench his dry and thirsty being

I felt sweet drowning, like a moth to the flame being pulled
Sweet whispers, heart-stopping kisses, frantic hands
And, and, and……
Never forgotten memories of you, sweet, dearest David


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R - I - P

I love you, what a lie!

I could see the strain on your face 
when you uttered those words

Love’s reflection is about joy,
you looked like a man who just lost his best friend,
that’s probably what you thought
when you said goodbye to your bachelorhood...

alas don’t worry, I’m not blind,
I sensed the tacit words,all over your face
I’m tired of being strung along
I’m not a puppet and you’re not my master…

tell me you love me the one minute
the next you’re hanging on some other 
woman’s lips as if you’re breathing patterns depend on it!!
It’s over, I’m done! Pack up and go on your tombstone, 
the words liar and cheat will be embedded in bold!!


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3 Steps

I see you
3 steps away,
I could bridge the gap 
In an instant.
And then what?
Would I gently kiss you?
Would my tongue trace your lips
Creating tactile memories of your warmth, of your taste and the wet sweet abandon of our passion......
Would I gently place my hands
On your face
And explain my love 
With nothing but the mirror of you in my eyes?
Would I place your hand on my breast
And let my pounding heart speak the words to your fingers...
I love you
I love you
I love you
You would know
Without question
Through my touch 
That you have me
Sacred, spinning, free,
Please....Make me your love
Press your soul to me
And I shall return in kind.

You are so beautiful to me.

2013 ©
Ruby Honeytip


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To love again

Three years left me 
Bruised and broken
Sitting in a pile
Of what use to be myself
But you stumbled back into my life
A man become from 
The boy I knew in childhood
And offered me your hand
My instinct whispered of my past
It spoke the lies he once said
And I sat there with a lit cigarette 
Puffing on the smoke
I wondered what was truth
You knelt on your knees
And I saw the truth was you
Tenderly, nervously, I laid with you
My hope, my trust, my heart
You found a way to hold it all
You made me laugh,
Around you I wouldn't flinch
I started to fall
Terrified
But I started to fall
Every Instinct screamed
Telling me Id hit the ground
That you would be no where to be found
But you were just as scared
You fell and I wasn't there
Too caught up in my own hurt
I forgot to see your worth 
My eyes squeezed tight
Afraid to see the ground rise
I opened them up
And there you were
Arms wide and ready
Strong and steady 
Teaching me to love again


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Romeo and Juliet

(A Collaboration w/JAM)

I thought, love, I would never find.  And then suddenly, I was spell bound
It would blow your mind! For the love I have for you is so profound
You came into my life way back when, and like magic you stole my heart
The love was universal poetry and I would follow you from the start
I would follow you to the ends of the earth; beyond the rainbow’s bend
If I die before you, I’ll rebirth!  ..For you are my Juliet and I am your 
Romeo!

I wasn’t looking for love, just having fun, sharing some inspiration
Never thought I’d come to love again, this was not my expectation
You say I stole your heart, well, mine got stolen too!
And yes, we did write beautiful poetry which forever stands as good
I’ll always be your angel in and out of time,  because of this special bond
And should I die before you, I’ll return! For you are my Romeo and I, your 
Juliet!

~*~

For those concerned:  This is JAM's Proposition and I obliged...now I already know that this will generate all the talk on Soup!!  Have fun guys!


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After The Storm

I watch from my bed as the wind howls, 
Twisting the trees into unnatural shapes.
Too much water falls from the sky, 
And cascades over swollen gutters,
To surround my house,
In a waterfall veil.
The wind howls and screams, 
As it forces it's way,
Through tiny spaces in my window panes.
Mayhem is outside my window.
And I am warm and safe
Thinking of you
With a smile on my face.
Nothing can take away
That I am loved by this man
With his song in my heart
He pulls me in tighter
As if to protect me with his words
And I am as filled with calm
As tomorrows sky.

I am in love.

© 2013 
Ruby Honeytip


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Heartache

My heart has been broken, shattered like glass
My soul misguided, led from its path
Each new lesson becomes harder to learn
Love is a flame of fire, stand too close, and you’ll get burned
The doors that free me, emotionally, they remain closed
You can find me in the garden of the wilted rose.
Each petal is a memory slowly fading to black
The pain inside constantly reminds me where she’s at
Just a single thought wages a war in my mind
Heartache has been among us since the dawn of time

©2/18/11 


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I Carry Your Heart With Me

I knew when I opened my eyes,
That last night was my last night here.

I felt it in my soul, as I lay there,
Listening to the breathing next to me.

I cried in bed knowing this would be hard,
But when is love an easy thing?

I mustered just enough energy,
To get my things and leave.

Though I was crying on the inside,
I couldn’t answer why I was leaving.

I couldn’t even say goodbye,
I could only walk away.

And If I can’t have his heart,
Then no one can...


_________________________________
For Nathan's, 'The Opposite Sex' Contest


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just breathe

five days of ecstasy
followed by seven days of anguish
trying to catch his breath
his ghosts, get there first
and he crashes

as reality sets in,
sadness overwhelms 

memories scattered throughout his room
serve as bittersweet comfort
forcing a smile, while on the verge tears
he begins to pick up the pieces left behind

he cues the music
songs not so familiar,
but ring true to his ears
classics for them in the making
he can't help but listen
and wonder if she can hear

as his head hits the pillow
he realizes, 
he can no longer smell her,
on his sheets,
or her comforting touch,
underneath

but he remembers her voice,
telling him to breathe

one day at a time
a motto his father lives by
now his life support
a reason to push thru
and wait for that one perfect day

he can finally grasp forever
in a not so distant future
he just has to remember to breathe


©DamienMichaels2009


©©


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Ultimate Sacrafice

I have found a pureness within him that my soul thrives for.
I am driven by the desire to please him without boundaries.
His image holds the power to freeze my movement, the vibration of his voice holds the power to tremble me. 
His heart holds the power to break me, his soul holds the power to expire me.
I believe in him for his intention and desire.
I believe in him for who he is and his worth.
I believe in his now and his future.
I believe in him for his knowledge and his potential.
I believe in his skill as a provider and his force to become.
I feel he is somebody I had once lost.
I feel between us a bond stronger than mankind can create.
A fate unknown, undecided, I give myself to him to have, to do with it what he will, to make it his own.


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And So I Saw...

The passion in their eyes
The sweetness in their kiss
They calmly hold each other tight,
Afraid to say goodbye
Yet they remember, gratefully,
The next bell will unite them again.

Why does this make me smile so
And bring warmth into my heart?
Maybe witnessing this gives me hope
Maybe now I can finally see.


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Mystic Walk

I took a mystic walk with you,
     a haze of violet, and sapphire blue

You reached out gently for my hand
    and I began to understand -

The universe, in all its glory
    only a part of life’s long story

So much more will we behold
    sparkling new, of ancient old.

You deeply looked into my eyes
    visions - memories- other lives

of you and I, your hand in mine,
    in love, but running out of time…

When I met you, remembrance was there
    but this lifetime won’t be so fair -

It seems the work we have to do
    must come before love burns anew.

But… 
     I still see you in my dreams,
           on twilight walks…. by crystal streams…

Promises of timeless love,
     as sure as stars that shine above.


Come… 
     take a mystic walk with me,
             in spirit dreams our love is free -


For in this place of timeless time…

        I am yours…

               and you are mine.


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The Way You Make Me Feel

We haven’t been together that long
But my feelings for you are strong.
I love the way you make me smile 
When you look into my eyes,
The feelings I get when we lay side by side.
I love it when we play fight cause deep down 
Inside I know you will never hurt met.
I love the way our bodies touch and the 
Softness of your lips when they touch mine.
I love almost everything about you.
I really love that you are willing to 
Change the things I don’t like.
When we depart each other my joy quickly 
Goes away and I begin to count the days 
When we see each other again.
I know I may not show my feelings for you
The way you want but baby believe me,
They are there and I truly care.


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WHAT DO THE STARS TELL A LOVER'S HEART?

Profound silence
felt and revered,
stirring an awesome emotion,
which stillness repeals
whenever brightness shines;
and the primroses' scent spreads the delight
of the mild season.


What do the stars 
tell a lover's heart...palpitating
in tranquility, amid shadows
that advance with the pretty fireflies?
Dream, and reprieve from the loss...
hoping that love doesn't lay at rest,
but chooses to celebrate
'till after the evening, and tell romantic tales.


The invisible crickets chirp, 
somewhat awkward to the ears,
I'd rather hear the coos of the owls,
which are richer and more harmonious in sound,
but where are they in this darkness, unless
they are mating in the willows of the lake?


Our blanket is spread on the wide Sheep Meadow,
with a superb view of those Manhattan's skycrapers,
towering over us as sentinels in castle's towers.
Juliet wanted to taste this freedom,
embracing and kissing her handsome Romeo,
not fearing anyone intruding in her paradise,
unwilling to leave anytime soon;
and unruffled, she would continue to love him.  


What do the stars tell a lover's heart?
Accept the lovely rose that he offers you, and adore it,
because it has no thorns, to make you bleed in despair;
Sing with him a beautiful sonnet that Shakespeare wrote
for his lover who crossed the Atlantic ocean,
when ships took months to reach America's shore.


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Did you not Notice?

Did you not notice I was slippin,
                       cause you didnt catch my fall.
                        Did you not notice I had fallin 
                             cause you didnt help me up...
                                 so I stayed there for awhile.
                                 Did you not notice I was drowning,
                                   cause you didnt offer me your hand....
                                 so I sank to the bottom.
                               Did you not notice  I was dying,
                             cause you didnt try to revive me.
                            Did you not notice I was Dead,
                         Cause you werent at my Funeral.
                       Did you not notice I was in Hell,
                    When i would haunt you with my soul caught on fire...
                                   and you didnt put out the flames.
                           ... And im just Wondering how did you not notice?
                                                

                        By.Jessica Bowie


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steph

I can’t help but thinking of you.
don’t have to say a word just want to be with you,
I look at you, you make me smile. 
friends think I’m crazy, all I think is WOW,
I look at you, chills run down my spine,
always thought you were beautiful and fine,
life has changed since I saw you,
which makes me want to be with you, 
looking at you is more than a dream come true,
words can’t explain of how I feel about you.


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Create my Heart

Create my heart, create my heart fore it is reborn, care for it, caress it, make it as joyful to your extent, you are the only one that can move my joy. Kiss me, kiss me and never pull away, how I enjoy your beautiful love touch, how I earned your love is beyond me, just be close to me and only that is what I desire, such warmth at a cold time, how it changes my every action with such warmth. We may separate at times but our warmth shall remain the same, you are close to me by heart and how I hear your pound as it beats louder and louder when I approach you with a plan for us. Us is who we are and never I or you and you create my heart to your desires, as I to you, create my heart my love, times change and I don't want to lose you, create my heart.


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His Eyes

Silly, small, smiling sweet How did I get so fortunate to meet This man, this boy, cute and fun I couldn’t have found a better one Happy, smart, following through How could this feeling ever be true He talks, he walks, says everything right Could it be, I’ve lost the fight Weird, needy, spoiled and sick How could he like this ugly chick Never moody, always good Retreat? Yes, I think I should Neurotic, selfish, evil and strange How could he change my awful ways Valiant, strong, simple and wise I believe he could when I look into his eyes


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everyday in your heart

No matter how bad my day has been
I always look forward to seeing you again
you make me happy when i'm sad
you can make me forgive when i'm really mad
It's because of this I will never give up
I will never lose hope
When you feel as though your world has fallen apart
Just think of me and i will be in your heart
If things always seem to go wrong and you start to lose hope,
Just take out this poem and read it again
And no matter how bad your day has been
You will find that you still have my love deep within


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Embrace pt. 1

When you look into my eyes, you would probably
see another soul wandering aimlessly.
to a sea of nothingness, but I am with you,
I feel like my soul is clinging to your love,
and heart warming embrace.

When I look into your eyes, I see a free spirit,
looking for a companion. And you have one,
though I am not the most embracing soul,
but I guess you don't care.

My heart beats for you, my arms embrace you,
my eyes yearn to see your beautiful face.
If you were gone my soul would abandon me,
and plunge into the sea of depression,and
sadness, so I need your embrace.

So here we are, two souls clinging, to each other,
and not letting go. Because I need you, and you
need me. There will be challenges ahead, but
we are ready for them, for we cling to that


               Loving Embrace!

By Joshua Pickett  @ 2010


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Dedicated To Mr.Right...Who Ever That May Be..

we talk...
it'salways good
so much already understood
we spend time...
i like being with you
..i want something more...
more than a dream..
more than a vision..
i'm looking for more..
more than just words
more than a promise
more than a feeling..
i guess i just want...
you...


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Forbidden Fate

Every night I lay awake
I think about you all the same
Your eyes like stars
Your mind like mine
Your smile so gentle
I don't know why
I should have to suffer this
Pain of rejection that you give
Because you said one time
There was never a chance
Oh how I wish to hold your hand
And dance away the night alone
With you, my love
My hearts yours to own
Just say the word
I'll be there
I'll do my best to answer your prayers
I'll do my best to make you smile
Even if just for a while
I long to hold you so very close
And I shed a tear for this verse I wrote
Cause I know that we will never be
Together forever as I know we should be


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Racism Is Your Problem

       Some people think what we have is still taboo,
And it's obvious when we enter a room.
       A few eyes seem to watch our every move;
But that makes me pull closer to you and appreciate your value.
       They're unaware the stares can't shake nor break what we have,
We just shake off the dirty looks and laugh.
 
       The ignorance of some people say white, black, Latino's don't mix.
I say that's something this country needs to work on and fix.
       I've wondered why society stereo-types by race.
People don't lack human emotion despite the color of their face.
       A shame we are unable to see, that all are one in the same.
Yet as a nation we prejudge the individual without knowing their name!
 
       This is a new day, a new era.
And yes Sara, I would follow you to the back of the bus.
       I would give up my seat to you just because.
If you could not eat in that restaurant, then neither would I!
       I would fight for your civil rights, do or die!
That is the depth of our love.
       Who cares if others find it "unheard of."
There would be no stopping you and me.
       We would walk hand in hand down any street in Mississippi!
 


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In Your World

So I wonder why you liked me in the first place, Its not like you act like you ever did now. I fell for you from the first time we touched, And I really thought you cared. Apparently not, though. I don’t really blame you; I’m not that great, But you acted like you cared. Cared about me. Did you really? Do you? Whatever, I can’t get you out of my mind But apparently I don’t even exist in yours.


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First Love

We treat it like a marble 

in our pocket for a while 

we win it 

we lose it 

but no matter where it goes 

it always holds 

the warmth of our hands


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One Soul

Eyes met
Souls a spark of recognition 
Children, with the love of a million years 
How could it be 

Since the moment his eyes touched her skin 
she looked like an angel of light 
A beacon to all that was right

From the second her eyes touched his 
he was like a warmth in the night
comforting yet dangerous 

Eyes met, they knew each other 
Skin brushed, their love erupted 
Betrayed by age and distance 
Thoughtless resistance

To tell the truth I knew 
that they were each others souls 
But is it too late to make them whole?


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Sunshine (I Wish)

I wish you were mine, all mine.
     So I could bathe in your sunshine....
          I wish there was something I could say or do.
               Ask questions, take my answers under review-
                    Consider it an interview....
I wish you would be open-minded enough to give me a chance.
     I'm willing to go in blinded giving you love in advance.
          Me + you combined together = romance....
               I wish you would think about me like I think about you.
                    Let go of the old and try a little new.
                         Listen to your conscience and follow through....
I wish you would whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
     Then kiss my lips softly and take my body beyond the stratosphere....
I wish your heart would respond without fear.
     We could have a bond that would recite works by shakespeare....
I wish things weren't as they are.
     On prisonpenpals.com you will find 'A Fallen Star!"
I wish you would digest the meaning in this titles headline.
     I just want to bask in your sunshine....


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Love like cocaine

Slice me with your tongue
Razor blade wounds
To suck out all my poisons 
Sweet lonely lullaby 
Accusing eyes of sodomy 
Picture perfect prodigy
My deadly sin 
A  bitter taste of arson 
Burning in my organ 
Your the pyre that burns away my mortality 
A sip of tea made from Lilly of the Valley 
A shadow of death stalking with 
Odd angel like wings
A numbing kiss 
Like downing in morphine 
My oblivion
Sweet arms to rest in 
Till my vision no longer holds 
eyes neither like hell nor heaven
Cocaine addiction 
That drip of drugs into your system
Intoxicated blood stream
Id rather not dream 
And instead get lost within your paralyzing - 
Your paralyzing - brain lapse - your moving too fast 
Stay slow and dreamy 
Dancing silhouette like a burning 
Forest fire, pain throughout my veins 
Ravishing and beautiful 
A voice torn from my throat
dying joyful with my last vision being you


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I could run

I could run 1700 miles
With just one breath
One intent
I could fly across the states
With my arms spread wide
Flying high
I could make it there
In just one hour
Or less
Fall into your arms
Smile in your kiss
Bask in your warmth
Your eyes light up
We could dance beneath Louisiana trees
As The stars burn like tea candles
I could run 1700 miles
Fly all the way to your heart
In my dreams


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A Night of Pure Love

Drooling for my luscious garden,
Your tongue licks
My sweet smelling mist.
Fingering my pink petals, 
I moan.
Whispering and screaming.
Drunk and delirious.
Raw from lust,
We lie together.
Lazy, languid, dreaming
Of days to come.


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I Am Writing To Tell You

I am writing to tell you
that I don't love you.
I never did.
I never will.
I don't miss you at all.

The truth is,
I never found your adoration
anything but arduous.
Your kindess cliched.
Your compliments thoughtless.

And it has become obvious to me
that your love for me
was merely infatuation
with who you thought I could be.


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Barbara Jean

My LOVE must be infinite ; in so many uncountable WAYS
Until Forever  Until the sun is dark :moonlight a mere silhouette
In YOUR LOVE my mind, my Soul, My HEART, MY EXISTENCE
My breath can breathe the very essences of Your everlasting LOVE
LOVE inhaled : sending me the Heartbeats of a Forever LOVE of YOU
How does my Heart LOVE Thee so much , when my eyes have never seen YOU
The Face of an Angel : the alluring Voice of a Siren : Skin; the smoothness of Silk
Earth  Brown Eyes with a glint of Forest: Hypnotizing  Mind. Soul, Body and Spirit
I feel the Loving Warmth of YOUR embrace Beguiling Sunset Pink-Red Lips Which:
Beckon the carnal soul, the deep rooted  LOVE blooming, growing, Entwining YOU
             Entwining me to an Everlasting -ALWAYS FOREVER ETERNAL LOVE
             B  A  R  B  A  R  A           J  E  A  N        M Y        H E A R T B E A T
               In LOVE : Dedicated to my Heartbeat : Barbara Jean    "XOXOX"
                               


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Getting Serious

I wonder: 
Can I look into your eyes and mean it 
when I say that knowing you 
will make me never long for another?

Let me say (instead?): 
There is (with you) a greater degree 
of contentment and commitment 
than I have ever allowed or enjoyed.

I could say: 
My love for you is focused as logic, 
giddy as champagne, warm as a hot tub 
and bright and burning as a laser.

More honestly: 
The strain of love’s a medley of changes – 
no lullaby, but a rising, swelling dedication, 
that bridges to an unwavering march.

Surrounded by elaborate and colorful pageantry
that winds a route completely impromptu
for which we are totally unrehearsed,
our hearts, drumming within the cavalcade,
synchronize to the parade’s harmony,
while we hold each other in steadfast step.


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Scissors

Snip away the flesh.
Blood spits
on the unforgiving floor,
stained,
soaked in,
to the point where the tile bursts-
soul helpless, gas exposed 
and the poison kicks in-
pounding
pulsing,
running through the intoxicated veins-
that now bulge 
from my gullible skin,
hypnotized thoughts,
addicted to devotion.
A pain so good it lingers
as if ripping out each organ
one 
by one.
Then the taste of regret thickens-
a sweet intensified swelling-
of what could have
what should have been.
But instead of leaving for death 
you clench tight your warm, soft hands
around the scissors,
and carve it out,
chest exposed,
broken.
It always belonged to you
and though you verify,
wanting security, 
proof. 
It was always you.
You still emphasis the fact 
it was different this time
time taught how to forgive-
yet you aren't welling to see it through,
risk,
put yourself out on the tightrope.
Instead of casting your spell 
you flee.
And then, purity is revealed.

Mirror image of yourself,
alone, 
on the ground,
lifeless,
breathless,
eyes-
a distorted fuzz, 
the same, gentle brown-
Petrified with recognition
realizing what you avoided,
what you forced away
came raging, smacking you in the face.
Blood caressing your forsaken goals,
your broken promises
and vital unspoken words.
Never have scissors accessorized so perfectly,
resting gently upon your empty chest
reflecting acceptance, 
forgetting reason.


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Note to Self:

Don't cry,
It won't do any good.
Stop thinking of him,
The pain will only get worse.
Try not to remember,
You'll only hurt more.
Don't think of the way your hand fit into his perfectly,
Don't remember the way his eyes twinkled when he was happy.
Forget how he would get angry at whoever made you cry,
Forget his awesome smile, his warm hugs.
Shy away from his name,
Push him into the depths of your mind.
Move on, stop wallowing in self-pity.
It's not like you were going to be together forever.
Even if you thought you would be
Just forget all the days you spent together,
The amazing dates you had not so long ago.
Face it; he's not coming back.
Stand up straight, and walk forward.
Be brave.


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Smile.

By my side,
walking hand in hand
through a field
of rainbows
and bumblebees
and sunshine.
Happiness,
once lost far in the distance,
is so close
I can feel it,
touch it,
taste it.
Within my reach, finally.
Stretch.
At last,
happiness is within my grasp.
:)


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She still loves him

He beats her body and bruises her face
She still loves him
He controls her mind and shatters her dreams
She still loves him
He starves her for days and locks her away
She still loves him
He lies to her and steals from her
She still loves him

No longer afraid
No longer controlled
He feels her slipping away
The bruises are fading
The pain is gone
He feels her slipping away
With all her strength
With all her courage
She boldly says
“I don’t love you anymore”


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-Bittersweet-

I was naive to believe you'd always love me
Living in my dreams until you stabbed me with reality
Your dagger's still lodged in my heart
Every now and again, for your amusement
your words twist it ever so slowly
Tear's of blood trickle down my breast
Pain is unbearable, leaving me immobile and screwed
Turning my mind bitter and mean
You were nothing but a dream
A fantasy that I thought I could hold onto
For a split second, I let emotions take over
Spinning me in every direction
Should of awoken before my life had no meaning
With no one to love me, and no one that cared
We both know now I'll never be what you need.


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Losing You

Liquid tears
fallen rain
down my face
emotional droplets
caressing skin
bittersweet hearts
cracked in half
drowning passions
in a sea of blue
floating away
stranded feelings
oceans streaming
soaking sand
dissolving dreams
crushing hope
into pieces
of losing you.


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fake smiles and lies

I have tried,
For months I have tried,
to let  go of your haunting memory.
I can’t.
Behind every fake smile I give,
I blindly hope I give an aura,
of being happy.
I am not.
I fall asleep at night,
only to find you haunting my dreams.
The life I wanted to have,
the love I needed,
it’s all slipping so far away.
I heard about you and her.
I was engulfed with sadness.
I was supposed to be me,
not her.
There is no one to blame,
no one to accept this burden.
I bury  it deep inside,
hidden  behind,
fake smiles,
and  lies.


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True Love This Time

Down the narrow stretches of life,
We glide.
Love and our partner,
Beside.
Timbers growing,
Strong,
We can never, 
Go wrong.
Reaching,
To the Sky,
So pleasing,
To the Eye.
Whispering through,
The trees.
Only trying,
To please.
Carry me,
Away.
For here,
I cannot, Stay.

Now searching,
Never finding,
Never ending,
Never winning.
Missing,
What once was mine.
Longing,
For such a long time.
Wondering,
Who’s next in line.
Wanting,
True love this time.


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That Girl I Love

Many people think that love is fake,
I'd beg to differ,
I know it is real,
When you finally find the right one,
You may always be in pain,
But look when you love someone you accept the pain,
That's what I've done for you Jennifer,
I've taken the pain,
And I've given it,
But the wait for you is worth it all,
Forever and ever more


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The Days

The days have come and gone,
Since then i have felt forlorn,
I could never have told you what i held true in my heart,
I was afraid that we would part,
For i wouldn't know what to do,
Because without you,
I am a lost soul,
I just wouldn't know where to go,
When we were together,
I could never spoil the moment, i felt that it was better,
If I had let us stay as we were rather than see what we could've been, 
I didn't want to jeopardize you just for you to have seen,
That i had loved you, that i always had and always will,
I just needed for you to know that i cared till
Till the end of infinity and the end of time,
I just knew that we were perfectly in chime,
For you are all that has ever mattered to me, 
You are my world and my everything, nothing else mattered to me, not even my 
TEE,
You always occupied my mind,
To the extent that i wouldn't have noticed if i had signed,
Away my life along with everything in it, i would give up everythng and anything for 
you,
I would give anything to be with you just once more i would give away my life and 
everything in it too,
I'd do it just for you, so if you didn't know before, you do now, 
I knew that i loved you the first time i met you, i don't even know how,
But all i know is that my love for you is true,
Because i love you for being you!


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My Heart Will Go On!

M y heart was not perpaird for this!
Y ou caught me so off gaurd.

H ow could you leave my life, like there was never any love at all.
E very time I remember you, the pain contenues.
A fter all we have been through, you departed.
R ed roses you gave me, said you loved me.
T onight I cry for you.

W hat you have done for me, has opened my eyes. 
I will never forget this for it has been my life lesson.
L ook at me.
L ook at me, you have made me.

G od forbid this, but it is what is now.
O h how I want you back.

O ne day I might forgive you.
N ever will I stop loveing you.


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Audrey (End-Line Word Poem)

You are an amazing woman                              AUDREY
No one can come between me and                        YOU
I can be a "butt" sometimes but you                     KNOW
So damn compatible are you and                            I
Soon I will give you a warm and sticky kinda        LOVE
Poetry Soup knows about me and                          YOU
Just remember I'm your king and you're my       QUEEN!


*Thx 4 contest Dane Ann through your contest I hope I wll
be able to make my butterfly smile again! 

*For Dane Ann Smith Johnsens contest  End-Line Word


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Blind love's imagination Blue....

If roses are red,if violets are blue
then why can't I touch the colors of you

If sugar is sweet,as your love is true
then why can't I taste your nectar of dew

If time means patience,good things who wait
then why do I feel as an anxious state

If the moon is silver,if the sun is gold
then somewhere inbetween,you I should hold

If the sky is blue,as the sea is too
then also as I,feelin' blue without you......


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Oh Sara Lynn...

Oh Sara Lynn...Why should I even try and go on?
       Many nights I sit on this hill and cry since you been gone.
Oh Sara Lynn...Your departure I try desperately to analize.
       Well into the night I wander even as I watch the sunrise.
Oh Sara Lynn....I lay back on this hill where we first made love 
       From that day forward your body I could never get enough of.
Oh Sara Lynn...I can still taste you on the tip of my tongue,
       And the sweet smell of you still lingers in my lung.
Oh Sara Lynn...My lovely sweet Sara Lynn,
       How I wish we could go back and do it all over again.
Oh Sara Lynn...The yearning in my heart is so hard to ignore,
       And it constantly tears me apart when I think about your move to Baltimore.
Oh Sara Lynn...I pray you'll return to me real soon;
       So we may continue our passionate intimacies on this hill under the full moon!




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Barbara Jean

If only I knew the concept : LOVE
Could I express such Love to YOU?
In words That last FOREVER
Eternity ; ALWAYS
A Love that WHISPERS
Heavenly BLISS
BARBARA
My LOVE -
 Y O U

             Dedicated To Barbara Jean Gorelick


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Love (is like dying)

Love is like dying,
There is a weeping story for everyone to tell,
A cry and wisper, no matter if you go to heaven or hell.

Love will choke you with words,
Words that can burn or soothe your heart.
Just one saying and it could all fall apart.

It will steal your soul,
And make you feel alone.
If you fall into the hole,
Dont plan on going home.

So forget about past lovers,
And all your cries untold.
Remember all your memories,
For their the ones you hold.

You try to run from depression,
But it follows in your shadows.
Listen to my suggestion,
And like lightening love crackles.


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You and I

You walk all over her like shes your mat
You tell her you want her and then change your mind
You have her hurt feelings countless times before
YOU WILL PAY!

I am this girls number one best friend
I am the one she came to after you left
I am the one you should fear right now
I am the one who is going to break your face

You are the bastard
I am the justice
You are the one who deserves the pain and hurt
I am the one who's gonna give it to you

You are the one who gained nothing but lost everything
I am the one who became a shoulder to cry on
You are an idiot
And I have had enough of you


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Hand Me A Drink

   Hand me a drink and pass me one more........

Let me pass out before you leave with that whore!
Dont tell me her name or where she comes from.
Don't wake me when you'r night out is done.

   Hand me a drink and pass me one more...........

Please don't wake me when you close the door.
Don't come home wearing that other girls scent.
Don't be upset when you hear me vent.

   Hand me a drink and pass me one more.............

Make sure I'm dressed warm before I hit the floor.
When you awake and I'm no longer their,
just know I left because you treated me unfair.

   I asked for a drink and I asked for one more............

So I could kill my pain and forever shut the door.
The door I shut lies beneath the ground.
and when you miss me, its because true love you had found.
When you visit that forever shut door.........

   You'll ask for a drink and you'll ask for one more!!!!!


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Night Wind


I will release
Words of my soul
With flair
 
And tinted: red--
The color of 
My purple heart

Into the night
Where wind breathes
With its might 

And melts
Them, in your lips
With no one 

Hears us 
Except, the stars 
Winkling-- 

In agreement
With our 
Silent gasp.


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If I Had The Guts

I know i have kept a lot from you.
I know its not fair. 
I know i should tell you.
I know i have to tell you.

Maybe i can tell you some, but not all.
Maybe i can keep it secret just a little longer.
Maybe i can hide it from you more.
Maybe i can get the guts to tell you everything.

Everyday, i wanna tell you.
Everyday, i hope i get the guts to tell you.
Everyday, i feel bad for not telling you.
Everyday i think about you.

Sometimes, i dont want to tell you.
Sometimes, i just want you to know it all.
Sometimes, i wish i never knew you.
Sometimes, i wish you were all mine.

If i had the guts, i would tell you everything.
If i had the guts, i would tell you how much you mean to me.
If i had the guts, i would tell you your the only reason im alive.
If i had the guts, i would tell you my biggest secret.

Just knowing that i love you.
Just knowing that you may or may not love me back.
Just knowing that i care.
Just knowing that you probably dont.

Breaks my heart.
Breaks my soul.
Breaks my dreams.
Breaks my life.

If i had you, my life would be complete.
If i had you, my life would be perfect.
If i had you, i would be happy.
If i had you, i wouldnt have to search anymore.

I know i should tell you.
I know its not fair.
I know i have kept a lot from you.
I know i should tell you.

But, i dont have the guts, 
The guts to tell you i love you,
The guts to tell you your the reason im alive,
The guts to tell you,
I need you in my life.


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Bouquet's of Love

**************************************************************************

Unfolding gently these flowers amid the garden of her fragrance; perfumed petals

Velvet their touch to be tasted by soft lips; ever yearnful, for their perfect love...

**************************************************************************

..."Sweet Bouquet's" *


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What Was And What Will Be

I cry until my entrails are laid out before me.
I watch the vultures,
My insecurities feast on my nerve ridden stomach.
I’ve repeated the cycle for many days.

My love forever stains
This sea of linens which was once our home.
The call of the sirens is strong
And resisting drives us mad.

How do I know my attempts are not in vein?
Is this futile?
The upkeep of this tree outnumbers the fruit.
I do not blame nature.
I allowed this.

As soon as I walk away you fully blossom.
I was always cursed with bad timing.
I must now focus on my own flowers sprouting
Before I plant anymore seeds.

You will continue to grow
As you always have.
And I’ll still marvel at your beauty from afar.
What a grand tree you were.

I retract my own roots and return to my bed.
I reminisce until I drift away.
Becoming a prisoner of my head.
Seeing pictures of you and me
And dreaming of what was and what will be.


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If I Love You

"If she loves you," they tell you,
"This will be a problem."
I am una niña, a little girl-
And you are too old for me,
Too young to know
What you're doing,
Too careless to be cautious,
Too Hispanic to be safe
In a place so diverse that
Teenage boys
Are always classified by race-
You are too beautiful 
To be resistible.
But I promise not to love you.
I promise not to need you.
I won't kiss you where 
Anyone can see, and I
Won't cry when you leave me-
Yes, I know you will,
I'm not so young as idiocy-
I can be your secret,
As long as you are mine...
And if I write you love poems...
I'll write them in the dark.
I'll recite them to the shadows,
And no one has to know.
You never have to know
I ever lied.


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Love Knot

Just relax my love,
And allow our hearts to intertwine.
Something special was sent from above,
And you feel it...our hearts are combined!
I feel so blessed,
To have you standing next to me.
A love knot deep in my chest;
And I feed off your energy!
I refuse to give in or tire.
Emotionally, I've given it all I got!!
Your love is fuel to my fire,
And I've become tied up in your love knot


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Our Skin

This is a poem of skin,
for my boyfriend who is not my exact shade but equally brilliant and equally enlightened.
He extracts my darkness, 
takes from me my undeniable fears,
placing my tortures,
wearing them on his sleeve,
for his color bears the weight of agony,
of wretched past blankets of ignorant fools
who shadowed themselves from ever doing a damn thing about the separation.

This is for him.
He wears his skin better then I wear mine.
He conquers my struggles before they can even reach my heart.
Brave and beaming with un-moon lit skies,
for pores like portals,
opening himself for the world to look into history of wartimes-
Through skin-
Through skin-
Through skin-
For humans-
For humans-
For humans.

This is for my boyfriend.
My skin. Your skin. 
All this history,
Hung from ropes-
that tear weathered men into corpses
and survivors into broad shouldered, level headed, fighters of equality.

Puppeteers play with our teeth.
Wording our mannerisms into stereotypical allegories,
and fables we have all heard before.
We all have installed into our chests rages of racism-
miles of superiority,
of bare backed proposed authority.
Reality is here.
History is here,
But often not taught well enough to understand the difference
Between moving forward and standing still.

This is for you.
You, the one with skin.
For you with history.
Why do we call dark skin people of color.
We all have color.
We all burn bright.
We all bring light
To the universe with the energy of our presence.

You, over there,
with tears of deep lakes
and uncharted survival skills-
put me on your map.

This is for you.
For skin.
For color.
For shade.
For agony.
For rage.
For freedom.
My skin.
Your skin.
Our skin.
Our skin.


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Maybe, I love you

Inferno
Entry
Soul’s window

Liquid satin
Blanketing sin

Unintentional embrace
Spoken word
Spoken soft
Spoken
Whisper

Speechless

Longing

Longing
Tears
Held

Hold me

Hold me
As if God
Condemned our tomorrows
Suddenly

Ventricle screams
Smile rediscovered
Eyes unwrapped

Even after all these years

Rush
Waves
Crash

Song of infant
Church Bells

Desired

Discovery
This belief
That maybe

Just maybe…

© Drake J. Eszes


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Final Adieu

Final Adieu

Let another sun set,
Let another flower wilt,
Let another autumn cast its gloom,
Let another tear role,
As ye part, and bid
The final adieu.

Suyash Saxena
St. Stephen’s college


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The Breakup

Waiting. The minutes groan arduously.
Somehow, perhaps – my heart fails to beat
with the rush of your momentary attention.
Perched precariously on spikes
Flesh colored, yet artificial – 
Manikin fingers, fidgeting.
Mournfully drenched in factious apology.
Our eyes meet briefly, then dart with bashfulness,
Choreographed precisely. 
Words uttered repetitively from wine stained lips 
Fill the tortuous silence – hesitantly.  
Your hollow ghost memory, porous and unsubstantial.

'We can work at this, ' you finally choke
An unfamiliar innocence, grasping -
Your voice childlike in its simplicity.
And for a second, I recognized that old stranger. 
I muster a skeptical nod – and smile limply, dismissively 
Fingering the rim of my glass. 
'And deceive ourselves with promises made before?'
I winced with audacity – impatient of your feeling,
As the words ripped your heart out clean.
You clear your throat in an effort to speak -
Those words never did surface...
My acid tongue, an all too familiar indulgence.

I raise hesitantly, your gaze fixated as I shrink.
A tormenting embrace, clothing saturated in your scent
Sodden with tears unshed.
Humoring your touch with finality – 
An unspoken understanding sneered behind the mask.
Face taunt with incomprehension, as sorrow squeezed out the substance.
I avoid the depths of my black dying heart, defiantly.
Anemic with reluctance – I usher the door
A smiling parody of phantom reminisce -
Poisonous and seductive. 
An enormous tear got away,
As you lay fragile and broken – bereft.


I’m sorry.


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At my window, I wait for Love

Black and white
two beautiful shadows in the night
I am waiting on mine
in my window, I wait for thee
once the clock strikes one am
then two, then three

I feel a deep rush within
like a wave hitting the sand
where are you?
I am waiting
the thought of your lips
so close to mine
wrapping me, in a bind
your love

your spirit of love
enslaves me in secret chains
nowhere to leave to
but wait here for you
in my window, I wait for thee

the cold, old house creeks
the hush of my sleeping dwellers
I dare not speak your name
into existence
until I see your form
creeping, slowly
toward me, boldly
like a lion stalking its prey
circling my heart, ready to pounce

covertly crawling your body
onto my woven nest of wool and feathers
you whisper, "How I have missed the taste of you"
my body has ached for such familiarity
waiting with the moon
for you to return to me
in my window, I waited for thee

Silent solitude no more
my window is my lovers door
hold me in such tender embrace
no second of tonight
available to waste
his hands trace my body
like a painter with his brush
the moon casts a silver glow 
over our warm naked bodies

fingertips graze my lips
gently, as if glass that can break
"pull my hair" I tell him
all my waiting, I want him to give me
all that I can take
every winter kiss
he plants on my back feels
like frostbite

the clock strikes 5 beats
too soon
as we watch the silent moon
shine over our love
in the window I waited for thee

Migrate into the darkness
from this cold dark mansion
only to return tomorrow
a warm kiss to keep you warm
into the night in which you came for me
midnight madness will strike again
tomorrow, in my window, I wait for Love...


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PINK ROSE

The rift
They say comes from deep
within.
But I beg to differ
Isn’t pink a compromise between
red and white?
At times even slightly
approaching lavender?
So why should it not
make a concession?
An indulgence
A consideration for the niceties
of the heart.
Dear pink alloy
So pure yet so imprudent.
Or is it that the alloy which was
refuses to acknowledge the alloy
which could become?
How my heart yearns for
your sweet fragrance!

Spread your petals and
Bid me inhale.





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You take me higher

I love a boy with soft eyes and a lost soul
The one that makes me feel
Like I'm never alone. 
At home when I'm in your arms
After the storm you're my calm. 
You put me back in the clouds
That's where I am with you around..
It's the place where I rest my head on your chest
Falling asleep to your voice is the sweetest gift. 
Like waking up to a new day 
Your startled heart, beating in my ear 
As your alarm makes us both jump.. 
We smile and I cuddle back up to you
Five more minutes is worth more than it's time value.. 
You look like how the sweetest cologne smells
Filling me up til my lungs expel, a smile onto my face.. 
With you is my favorite place. 
We can build a castle in the sky, wasting time..
Swimming in eachothers eyes. 
I will be your cup of tea, you'll be my variety.. 
We can have everything. 
And when the sands of time bring death about
We will die but I have no doubts
That in the end we will still fly 
And live in our castle up in the sky..  ~


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I'm Afraid of being played...So I pushed you away!

I'm Afraid of being played... (Before)

I’m so afraid of being played… 
                                    You have been here before…
So afraid of being betrayed…		
                               So You kept one foot out the door…
I’m so afraid of letting go…		
                                    You paid very close attention…
So afraid of what I know…		
                               To Some things I didn’t mention…
I’m so afraid of what I feel…		
                                    So You have never been surprised…
So afraid you are not real…		
                               You thought You knew a lie in disguise…

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So I pushed you away... (After)

I’m so afraid but I tried…	
                                     I never gave You a real chance…		
So afraid You thought I lied…	
                                I thought I knew You at first glance…
I’m so afraid You were wrong…	
                                     I know I made myself doubt…
So afraid but You brought this on…	
                                I even tried to block You out…
I’m so afraid You made me run…	
                                     But You were here to stay…
So afraid I thought I was the one...
                                 Now I've pushed you away…

Lay


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That was just a dream

We went together
To a place                 
Where roses never
Wither

A place where flower
Birds and nectar
Sucking bees
Sing a meliflious
Song of love

We sat there
Under cool shades
Of sinously
Swaying trees

We stayed so close
That we could
Feel the moving
Of each others lungs

And our hearts 
Did beat to the same
Rhythm of love
But that 
Was just a dream


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HAVE YOU EVER DANCED WITH YOURSELF

Have you ever danced with yourself?
I have.  I did it tonight.
Somehow, it just felt right,
Although it was dark and it was late.

I checked the weather forecast of my heart
And the climate of my soul marks: “Happiness”,
An unbelievable sense of joyfulness
That will stay within me, even if we are apart.

Because we were made for each other,
“apart” simply means “I’ll be right back”.
It’d be silly to turn our backs
On this great combination of lovers.

Lovers in love, now and forever.
Sharing dreams and goals that we know will come true,
Since anything is possible if I am with you,
Sharing a life in which fate brought us together.

Have you ever smiled at yourself?
I have.  I did it tonight.
And it feels perfectly right
To be yours and to enjoy being under your spell.

 
(What I’m really saying is: I’m in love…
 What I’m really saying is: I love you.)

© Karina Galvez
www.karinagalvez.com


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Touch

Close your eyes.
	Let me kiss you
softly
on your neck and hold you.
Let your body fall back
into mine
	as I kiss your cheek,
your jaw, your neck
and I hold you.
Feel my breath on your neck.
Feel my heart
	beating
against your back as you
melt into my arms.
Open your eyes as I kiss
	your lips
tenderly, gently,
tasting you and sending
	shivers down
your sides,
and feel
	my love 
for you.


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Trust In You

At the tender stage of relationships,
the hand offered, lips not kissed, the bloom
of inner soul tautly wrapped 
just one more red rose bud to flame open,
women who are yearning for affection
see the bamboozle offered by the slick
as just one more abomination
to learn about love.
They show their distrust with scorn.
They attempt to cast their gaze away
but if touched lightly, as if dusted
with a light snow, they cease to struggle
as if they felt just, too, too cold.
They turn up lips, curious to see the taste
of someone kind, someone soft.
If cherished like every velvet petal of rose,
inhaled, enclosed, caressed, enraptured,
the relationship is no longer in doubt.


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Give Me Back My Shirt

You stole my shirt again
The one with stains
Beneath my armpits

You lied and said 
The shirt somehow fell 
Into your suitcase

A dark black shadow 
That hurled itself off a cliff
And landed inside your
Sad blonde soul

And when you sleep alone at night
In the naked stretch of your wine-soaked skin

Do you smell my harsh manly aroma
In the pillow of your theft?

Do you wet yourself in the taste of 
The baby felons we might make?

Do you imagine yourself wearing 
My body
Upon the sharp thrusts of my 
Contempt
And
Love?

For a liar, a thief, a fetishist for 
Fabric
That revives memories 
Of lust long faded

You stole my shirt again
The one  that has faint traces
Of your drool, in the way you 
Drip yourself upon me 
In the hot slumber of your 
Babbling incoherent dreams

Give me back my shirt
It was a present from my sister
Who rarely bought me anything
Except for a blue cotton candy 
Vivid blue
Like your icy sullen eyes 
In the childhood 
Of my lonely
Indelible 
Lament


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Pink all day

              
               The old cashmere sweater in my cedar chest 
                always warming my soul on a winters day 
                
                Ice skating with your true love hand in hand
                frosty breath brings a warmth to your cheeks


                Anticipating that very first date 
                first glance the color lightens your way 
                
          
                as if Cupid decided this will be a day like no other
                celebrating in stars above Valentine days Forever

             It is the day God took hold of your heart and beat it for you ~


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Only in You

Through the lonely woods, I may head,

Upon the autumn leaves, I may tread,

At the secluded horizon, I may stare,

And only you, I may see,

In those symphonies of silence,

In those melodies of calmness,

In those euphonies of quietness.

 

By the silent lake, I may lay,

Till the twilight fades, I may stay,

Then in reclusive silence, I may walk,

And only to you, I may talk,

Through those toungueless emotions,

Through those wordless attachments,

Through those voiceless sentiments.

 

In the lone meadow, I may wander,

Along the untrodden paths, I may waver,

In companionless seclusion, I may hide,

And only in you, I may find,

The depths of oneness,

The bonds of togetherness,

The cozy feel of coalescence.

 

In the wilderness of emotions, I may die,

At the merciless daggering, I may sigh,

Through a million wounds, I may bleed,

And only in you, I may seek,

The balm of love,

The warmth of affection,

The heal of inseparability.


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MY HONESTY CAUSED A MESS

If I had lied like everyone else who achieved their goal,
I could have spared myself an useless headache,
and it seems late to realize that my honesty caused a mess!
There was a table for two sweethearts
in the finest restaurant, my first date supposed to have been perfect
with all the enthusiasm and the sorrounding athmophere:
a boutique of roses and scented candles! 


The girl's name was Amenda with big eyes of sapphire,
the boy's name was Andrew a little outspoken but funny;
everything went smoothly, the food was superb and the waiter
with an Italian accent was humorous and helpful,
but happened next is something nobody would believe.


Amenda had too much wine and started to talk non-sense
asking me, " What kind of work do you do?" 
I promptly replied, " I am a chief ! " and boasting with pride,
silly words flowed from my mouth, " You should see me
in my uniform...everybody loves it! "  Amenda with angry eyes
yelled, " Everybody...including the dumb blonde
and the red headed who order food just to see you? "
I jolted as if in a powerful earthquake, " How do you know that? "
But she with a malignant glance exploded, " I saw them
flirting with you while they waited for their order! "  


" Oh, pretty boy, you brought me here to listen to your aspiration,
I must be stupid enough to believe everything you say? "
I stood up, pushing back my seat and swore, " I never intented to lie,
Amanda...I am sorry for getting you upset, and if my honest caused a mess,
I apologize with all sincerity. " Ah, you even mention the word sincerity:
here's you reward, fool! " And splashing a glass of wine all over my sharp suit,
she left...while the crowd started to laugh, thinking it was a movie scene.  


Here's my deepest reflection on telling little, white lies,
" Guys, on your first date...don't say what you actually do for a living,
invent a profession that brings in tons of money, like a surgeon or attorney;
go ahead and have fun, and the more excited you get her,
the more she'll believe you...who wants to be a loser on his first date? "


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The When/Where

My love 
For you 
Is not confined 
To the line 
Of this space time continuum
This feeling 
Is not linear 
Or even spherical 
In fact 
It’s just like a tesseract 
No matter 
The floor 
Or the door
You are where I am at 
Got me trapped 
Wanting more 
Got me reeling 
I am not blind 
But my mind 
Is not seeing properly 
Got me thinking 
About the nature of reality 
How this lovely feeling 
Is beyond anything
Such upheaval 
I need to transport you 
To a level 
Far above the clouds 
With my love 
Where we can be 
Our own entity 
Beyond mortality 
Completely wholly 
Combining the two halves 
Of our soul 
The illusion 
Of this temporal institution 
Fades 
Revealing the true state 
Of our union 
A fusion 
Of chromatic schemes 
Of eclectic dreams 
Mi amore 
My love 
You are my everything

p.d. you truelly are the when/where of my exsistance.


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Oscillation in a static realm

Oscillation in a static realm. Stalking desolation, a haunting reminder of 
transcendence. Sporadic fractures paint a decadence flourishing confined mortal. 
Omnipresent the triumvirate, yet fallow diversity feigns a collapsing periphery. 
Malleable beings vivisect the strings of eternity for clarity divine.


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A Curly Kind of Love

Hours 
Spent 
Straightening her 
Tangled blonde hair

Thousands
Spent 
Taming her
Wild
Golden locks

Ages 
Spent 
In front of a
Dishonest 
Mirror

That lied 
And lied again
About her
Beauty
Within

Don’t you know
Those curls are a treasure
My curly friend?

When I play with them at
Night

Again
And
Again

Wrapped round my fingers
Feeling your original curly sin

Don’t you know 
Those curls are a pleasure
My curly friend?

As they tickle my 
Soul
In their 
Serpentine
Intent

I want to mess your 
Proper blonde
Into a wild naked disarray
Curls and more
Curls
A field of windswept
Growth

I want to bury my nostrils
Into the heady bare 
Perfume
Of your silent
Curly 
Oath

And 
I 
Won’t 
Let 
You

No, 
I 
Won’t 
Let 
You

Defile those curls

Again











 


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Sudden urge

A  SUDDEN  URGE 

I suddenly feel the urge 
To tell it all
You want to taunt me 
Go right ahead 
My own mind haunts me
Jump out of bed
The wicked one  said
Soon I will be dead
Fearing my life
Ending it all
Enable me knife
My name you do call

As dumb as they come
I frost all the air
You heat up the light 
A game, I strip and you stare
A game with no love
I do not play fair
I' LL still send you a kiss
For not wanting to care
I call it a  truce 
Just toss the coin in, my dear
The last fresh air I use
I know you will be there

A puppet you say, 
Abuse me you may
In time it won't matter
i am yours any- way

Tormented, I' m not
Later  I' LL rot
Watching over me
Is that all you got?

A sinner by day, a sinner by night
Spilling the milk, spilling the beans
You have my attention, you know what I  mean.

by; The Lovely POET DESTROYER



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Messed Up

Pass by me
 Her footsteps whisper
Pour coffee
 Black it talks
Stir the spoon
 Heated walks
Sit down stare
 here her cry
Just another man
 A man am I?
Ground the finger on the table
 Peel myself another label
Jerk
 Dick
Just cause I kissed this random stranger
 Now the hospital is full
And she's the doctor with my prescription
 but I wanted try the new flu shot
And now I'm sick, and my insurance stocked
Comes on in
 On red eye junction
Hard to see her 
 Hard to function
Want to talk
 but only listen
Stare on down
 My coffee vision
Swirling black
 Says to stand up
Be army strong
 Be army tough
But in the end that numbers sad
 Loneliest...
I've played that band
 And now I sit behind her back
Wondering how much longer before she acts
 Please forgive me
Let's just pass this one up
 And then she stirs
But then she walks...
 Man
I really messed this up...




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Falling In Like

I love it when you hold me close, and always want to play.
How in the morning you message me; on every single day.
When you call me every night, before I close my eyes-
Or always tell the truth; never any lies. 

When I get to see your passion with every story that you tell,
How even when you’re angry, those feelings never dwell. 
I love that you protect me, from everything around;
That even when I’m lost, I know that I’ll get found. 

I love that whenever you start to drive, you make me kiss your cheek.
How my stomach gets butterflies with each sweet word you speak.
That you cuddle me for a moment and then turn on your side,
That all of your accomplishments and family give you pride. 

I love that you support every decision that I make,
That even if you’re embarrassed of things- you’ve never acted fake.
How you always want me to be happy, no matter how I feel.
That even when we make things up- it’s never been more real. 

How you always make these plans, that often tend to change;
When you smile at my senseless jokes, and when I’m acting strange.
That you always say I’m pretty, even when I don’t think that it’s true-
How you think that I’d want anyone else; when all I want is you.


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My 3AM Wake Up Call

You’re a 3AM
Wake up call
With another sob story
About the latest boy 
Who pumped you
Then dumped you
And left you 
In a sweaty lonely pile
Upon another 
Empty bed

And you cry 
Baby girl tears 
All over my phone
And you wonder why handsome
Boys
With shining white  teeth
With full heads of curly black hair
With six-pack stomachs
And  tight muscular
Rear ends 
Can not be more like 
Mature 
Older 
Men

“Just like you,” 
Baby girl says
“Just like you.”

And you cry 
Baby girl tears 
All over my phone
And you wonder why reckless
Boys
Who party all night
Who down countless vodka shots
Who shout “muthafukka,” “dude,” "beotch,"
And other raucous
Victory chants
Can not be more like
Mature 
Older 
Men

“Just like you,” 
Baby girl says
“Just like you.”

You want me to empathize
You want me to criticize
The nasty boys 
Who took you for another 
Cruel and pointless ride

You want me to father you 
In a way he never did

But I’m sorry
Baby girl
I’m sorry

I can’t

Because I admire and envy those 
Boys
In the prime of their life
Not yet defeated
Not yet haunted
Not yet beaten 
By the disappointments that
Await

They are a national treasure
A precious resource

From the exuberant crude shouts of
Irrational wild boys
Come the builders of shelter
The providers of sustenance
The conquerors of enemies
The explorers of frontiers

From the exuberant crude shouts of
Irrational boys
Come the daring adventurers
The first one into the burning house
The last one out of the burning house
The one still standing when everybody else
Fled

From the insatiable loins of such
Irrational wild boys
Come the fierce wild girls
Who dance insanely upon tables
Who run naked through the streets
Who make love without limits
In open fields
Upon damp grass
All through the night

From the insatiable loins  of such
Irrational wild boys
Come the fierce wild girls
Who cat-fight for their lover
Who kill for their children
Who wail passionately for their dead

From such boys
Baby girl
From such boys

You were born into the world

My crazy baby girl
You were born into the world
Like father, like daughter

And if I could be that young wild boy 
Again
The one that you hate
And love
In such a maniacal way

It would be an honor to be with you

An honor to hold you
An honor to love you

Until my dying day.


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Hidden Treasure

Hidden Treasure
Hidden, locked away
A last resort
A compromise
When your well has gone dry
You search endlessly for me
Certain that my presence 
Always awaits your lonely soul
Underneath your dreamscape 
Here I remain
Your reality
I will be your mirror
When delusions are before you
For you I bear this cross
Because my heart beats for you

Just a memory to you so often
Your buried treasure lies here
Waiting to be discovered


 

©  2008 Courtney Dyer


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Mamita

He turns me into
A wide-eyed little child
And he is my favorite game-
It goes like; he holds me close,
His fingers in my hair...
His breath is steady, matches mine,
His heart beats in my ear...
Now if I stroke his skin
With my fingertips, will the 
Beat of his heart quicken?
If I press myself more closely
To him, will the warmth
Of his skin rise?
If I trace the outline
Of his lips, will he murmer
"Mamita..."
Softly?


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This Thing Called Love

Twas just the greatest treasure,

that Mankind has ever found. 

Yet its bounty is not hidden inside a chest, 

nor buried underground, 

It won,t be all piled up and shining in a mound, 

You won,t need a key to unlock it, 

in fact it,s not even bound, 

Yet it can be found, 

by just about anyone, 

from a panda to a hound, 

You do not need x-ray eyesight, 

nor ears that hear the slightest sound, 

No, this thing-a-ling almost anyone can bring, 

In fact its all around. 

It comes from deep, deep, deep inside, 

with blessings from the Man above, 

It comes sometimes in an instant, 

sometimes it nestles in like a glove, 

What is this one thing, 

that makes you want to sing, 

and live peacefully like the dove, 

It introduces all Queens to her King, 

Why of course, 

this thing is Love.


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Consumer Complaint

Stop resenting me
For the way I shop
The things I do 
To make sure 
My  food is fresh

I confess I feel blueberries
In my fingers
To make sure they are firm
Not too ripe

I confess I shake 
Cans of spaghetti and ravioli
So that I know 
The sauce is not 
Congealed

I confess I pull  frozen waffles
From the back of the freezer
Less likely that they thawed
And refroze into 
Oddball shapes

I confess I smell trout
Before I buy it
Placing it against my nose
In the most unabashed 
Way

Spare me your hate 
About my consumer habits
When I know it has nothing to do with
Food

As long as I bring you warm release
In the darkness of your desires
Pull your tangled hair the way 
You like 
Bite your darting tongue 
In mad hunger 
Deep appetite

As long as I reawaken the 
Woman 
Primal animal hidden 
Within
Turn your heat into a river
For a long passionate
Swim

As long as I attend quickly to your
Every lusty command
The craving of your nympho
Insatiable 
Demand 

Then  I can squeeze french bread
In quiet and peace
I can sniff cantaloupes
Without suffering ire 
Or grief

I’ll take you tonight 
In that filthy way 
You like

Until then

Leave me alone 

I’m shopping.


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Empty

And when I learned that you died
How can I describe
The empty
Empty
Empty

You were my boxer in the night
Sparred with you 
About every aspect of
Life

My secret tonic
Made everything
Feel alright
Got me through it all
All the frustrations
Disappointments of 
Life

And when I learned that you died
How can I describe
The empty
Empty
Empty

We called each other friend
Even when
Our bodies came together
That single
Lunatic
Moment

That single 
Lunatic
Time

And it felt so 
Full
You made me feel
Full
How can I describe 
The full
Full
Full

My life was full
When you laughed
It felt so full even
When you 
Cried

The times I was mean

And my body left
Your body
After 
That single
Lunatic 
Time

And so we pretended 
We were just
Friends
In the end
We pretended
Then

And now you’re 
Gone

And I can barely speak
Or write 
I can barely write
A 
Single
Meaningful
Poetic
Word

And there’s a quiet room
In my mind
Where your laughter
Once
Played
My innocent child
Woman
Gone 
Away

How can I describe
The Empty
Empty 
Empty

How can I describe
The empty
Empty
Empty

How can I describe
The
Way
I
Feel?


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Distant Love

The hours dwindle slowly by- 
When I want you by my side. 
Longing to feel the warmth of your breath 
As you kiss away my pride. 
 
The anger melts away, 
When I'm held within your arms.
My balance quickly faltering;
As I fall for all of your charms.
 
The weeks are always longer-
When I don't get to have you near.
Wishing that I could run to you- 
The distance heightening my fear. 
 
The hours go by rapidly-
When you are finally home. 
 Leaving me all by myself;
With my thoughts to roam. 
 
The cycle starts all over- 
I'm wishing that you were free. 
Longing to feel the warmth of your breath. 
Until you come right back to me. 


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My Love

My Love



I love you much, my love, therefore I beg you
Give me that which till today, nobody have asked you
Don’t puzzle, I hope, you’ll help me in this regard
Best beloved and well wishers have supplied essentials
Of lovers always if we turn back too pages of history

Don’t worry; I'm not hurting you demanding your life
Your assets, requires you much rather than to me
I don’t care darling what other guys evaluate upon my asking
Because I don’t see more valuable things than that 
Which can easily, you can offer me

Even it doesn't hold any cost just some dedications 
Which till today no one has dared to offer?
I love you heartily so I want to take stand in this regard
Projecting out as if in the hill some inscriptions in ridges
To draw the attraction of demonstrators 

Don’t afraid, I’m not wishing you to make you show piece
To others at you or my cost, you’re my every thing
Why should I believe you in that easy way?
Definitely my intuition invokes me from within
You will offer me that instinct for my pleasure

Cause, I've noticed in your bright appearance
Deliverance of love is in different mode
Your juvenile desiring to oblige somewhere in the custom
I believe, as we are reared in the same village
In the same brink of the river.

Many times we have rained with completely
Our cows and herds also could not differ them
Swollen brooklets have helped us to unite body
Catching in hand hugging you and adding your body with mine
While crossing you know we used to become one

You can guess your feeling would have crossed the height of Himalayas
To understand, what body wants to be done? 
Your drowned eyes and dropping down drops of water
Used to provoke effort

Beyond that down through the throat, running paths for drenched water
Was explicitly witness, the curved part would be seizing more for that
As a trunk of elephant’s those beautiful thighs
Used to give witnessing purity ascribe for judgement of love

Slowly, crossing plain, stepping towards hills and 
Demarcation of two grassy lanes, when used to welcome
To separate, I know my pinches would cleave you
With high breathe. My love, I love you, I confirmed my decision to you.



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YEAH, I LOVE YOU

I'm not afraid to say I love you even though
I'm kinda shy sometimes,
I'm kinda wimpy sometimes,
I'm kinda scared sometimes,

But I'm not afraid to say I love you 'cause
I'm kinda Bold sometimes,
I'm kinda Cool sometimes,
I'm kinda Fearless sometimes,

I kinda want you sometimes
I kinda need you sometimes,
I kinda......


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We're To Be

I saw what we would look like:
Those two Lilies living lively in close proximity;
So close, in fact, their identical buds stare into
their mere reflections of passionate pastal smiles
and blushing petals like the powdered cheeks of a middle school affectionary -

A glimpse of us displayed
in the large field - two Dandelions
uncommonly rooted within centimeters of each other,
Close-cornered so in that their seeds,
Like an arranged marriage, coupled in the wind's 
breasting breeze -
Yet as sure as death, to be split by unsure currents and rushes
of High and Low pressures.
Known Pressures;

I thought I caught a glance
Of what possibly could've been there-
growing azaleas
masked by a single magnolia:
self-infatuated, blinded by selfish desire (or wishful thinking)-
an image of what
we were to be.


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That Very Kiss

You walk down the hall, your head feels light and airy. 
Your smiling and you’re not sure why. 
Then it comes to you, your love your life your all is waiting for you.
You run to the arms of your lover. 
You can’t help but feel the electricity run through your body. 
Your breath gets short and your lungs feel heavy.
You entangle your lives, your heart, your energy and your souls. 
That moment, that picture perfect moment when your heart races away from you. 
That very moment will be etched in our eyes and minds forever and always. 
This feeling is the feeling of a thousand lives. 
Many years you wonder if this is the one, the real deal the Twin Soul of life’s lessons. 
 In that moment, you know this is it. 
How can it be anything other? 
When your soul tells you with emotions never felt before, you listen. 
This is a love I’ve never felt, in all my years my lifetimes and trials.
 I now embrace in the one I love and can say with all my hearts true love.
 I Look forward to building a future and a legacy with the one meant to walk the path 
with me. All this from that very kiss.


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Catching Cadence

Along the crossing of a river bank I see currents enchanted by your smile even rainbows mimic your spotless splendor Words slip from my sluggish thoughts as i paint your nature with poetry The truth of your beauty, already written Nothing else should replace like wings need not rest on another wings to fly or rather a dew to your rosy cheek I am here, wandering with the carried waves catching cadence of how unknown rhymes are made out of your turbulent tides I threw gazes at the stars shining on you and emotions evolve out of how much I want you to “be mine”


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Animal

Get the Animal side of yours
I no longer want your kindness 
It's cute to be shy sometimes
But All the time, its ridiculous 

I want to feel the heat
I want a strawberry night
with chocolates and candles
I want you to get everything right

I want you to be a bad boy
For a night, get your aggressive act
I'm being bored of your gentle caresses
I just need more that that

Get Angry, Get passionate
Stop being super nice
Little jealousy will make my day
You are becoming a frozen ice

I loved the gentle way of yours i know
But, I'm starting to lose my mind
whenever we are in a fight
I'm the only one who is always mad

I want a change for one day
I need to see the dark side of you
I want to feel that you are a human again
Don't be scared, please just do 


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The deterioration of distant deities In a vicious solvent

What do you need?
Loneliness
Behind your heart’s curtain
Standing defiant
Kneeling slowly
Flowers of hope
We have sowed in flesh
Withering
Under narcissistic necessity
In An atmosphere 
Made for self protection
Clouds consisting of consciousness
Evaporating 
Lost like empathy

Apocalyptic accusations
Fingers of fate
pointed
Producing
Stressful souls
Sharp words
Rip and tear
All meaning
That lives
When your eyes open


Let me burrow 
To secrets
Held so close
Gasping for your breath
And dying for your life
Let me in


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One Minute Man

A bouquet of flowers,
 Or the calm of the woods
 
I felt  one eyed willy in my rib
In an instant you became the minute man
In my midwinter dream
I smile and then I kiss your neck
As you whisper, honey “I hope you’re not upset.
Darn! I am so ashamed of this one minute man.
Viagra is all I can say…..to you

I still love you. Happy Birthday


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DECEPTION

Hand in hand and
Eyes to eyes,
Promises unending
As if from the heart,
Pregnancy struck
Then hand out of hand
And eyes apart from eyes
Leaving the girl in stark anguish...


BY: CHARLES MELODY (LIGHTNING INK).


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Secrets Men Share About Women

I will tell you deep dark secrets
That only men share
In private conversations
Where no flower is allowed
To bloom

A woman can be like a video game
Rejuvenating
Makes us feel like boys again
Yet we sweat and toil 
Huff and puff
A man’s work 
Dedicated to scoring points
Until we hear her 
Piercing 
Wailing
Bell

A woman can be like a  lawnmower
Fill her up 
With the sweetest oil
Grasp that fragrant hair
Tightly in hand
Pull her forward
In a rough yet tender way
Until a lingering kiss 
Ignites her motor
Rewards us with
Those powerful 
Tremors
And
Vibrations
Lets us know
“Job well done.”

A woman can be like a roller coaster
Ride her up
Then 
Ride her down
Wild excitement 
And
Abject fear
The perverse delight in
Wondering if we will 
Survive
The  perilous journey 
Or be
Thrown 
From the track
Destroyed

And my woman
My love 
Who 
Washes me  in her
Most private
Perfume sins
Who
Whispers obscene 
Confessions
In harsh gasps
Hot breath bullets 
That shatter my brain
Who 
Is a living contradiction
Both
Tyrant 
and
Socialist 
Bringing obedient 
Albeit
Willing
Slaves
To share our love
Primal desires unleashed
In communal ways
That would  have made 
Karl Marx 
Renounce his creed

My woman can be like a fountain
A watery refuge from 
The steamy oppressive night
Hit the right switch
And she’s a squirting delight
Close your eyes
Listen
And you can almost hear
Dancing music 
Synchronized to 
The contractions and expansions 
Of her gushing love
Resuscitates your 
Weary body
Heals your tormented soul
Bathes you in the 
Spring 
Of 
All that is good
All that has any meaning 
In this
Life

 


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Romeo and Juliet (Our Story)Pt 1

Heavens smiled upon my being
at the tender age of ten and four years,
For the elation her beauty projected
through my blind eyes reborn sight,
Thus by such a miracle the eyes of mine
decreed that she and she alone was beauty,
For within her smile, upon her lips, and
more so within her soul, she declared me,
and me alone to hence forth be invited to
dwell in her heart by the name of Romeo,

Our affair, though innocent, became fueled
 with the intense desire of a hell flame, yet,
was equated with the youth and innocence of
a rosebud, and as a rosebud, bloomed to display
the enchantingly enticing emotion of love,
Creating scenes of romance that neither Shakespeare
nor any other poet could express with diction,
Thus, as I write of reminiscence, with words
that woo my will of wonder, despite the beauty
within such words, I degrade by virtue of degrading,
the true scenes of romance born between 
myself and my love within those moments

Thus the scene remained as such, until that day,
That wretched, unbearably cruel day of reality,
in which my Juliet was forced to depart from
the shelter of my affection, by the will of the parents
that created her for me, moved to a new life, a better life,
for new work and more gold, miles and miles and miles
away from the comfort of a love perfect by definition,
Bidding farewell broke my spirits, my heart, but never
my emotion and affection for my fair Juliet, thus I declared,
forever and forever and forever again I shall remain her Romeo,


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Your Eyes


Your Eyes

Your eyes...
Speak to me of your love
A gift from God up above
Kisses so gentle, so true
Holding my hand under a blue sky
You touch my face and wipe a tear from my eye

Your eyes...
Such a beautiful shade of brown
Your laughter...
Your humor...
Your love...
Your kindness...
Never let me down

Your eyes...
Tell me a secret I hold deep within my heart
A love so true, and never makes me blue
"Babe, you say. I'm so in love with you"
I realize we've had some rough spots along our way
But honey, God will see to it
That our love is here to stay


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OH, HOW I'D LOVE TO

Oh, how I would love that, starting today, you would become my skin
So that I could take you places where I have never been.
We would ride from rose to rose, our souls floating in the wind,
And when the time to rest comes, I would lie on your chest,
And we would meet again underneath this same strange sky.

And through a long, long kiss,
A kiss as long as your body,
I would realize that not even a dream
Could have been more tender.

Oh, how I would love to be perfumed by your breath,
And to know that there will be no parting,
That parting that makes us leave each other at a certain time,
Since people think that Love requires a moon
To allow its honey to run freely through our hearts.

And through a long, long kiss,
A kiss as long as your body,
I would realize that not even a dream
Could have been more tender.

Oh, how I would love to turn you into my guitar,
So I could hug you freely and make my poem out of you
And have your loving words become the caresses of my night,
So that the breaking dawn would compete against our light.

And through a long, long kiss,
A kiss as long as your body,
I would realize that it’s no dream,
And I would tell you that I love you.

© Karina Galvez


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Lost Words

Speak the words that I so long to say.
They explode in a rush, my words fly away .
I left behind my previous worlds
I try to express to her, there is no words.
I look at that smile and her eyes don’t lie.
They dig in so deep I begin to cry.
Emotions run high like a million galaxy’s away.
She is my everything, my all that brightens the day.
When I go to bed and I lay there at night.
I feel her love and then grip it tight.
I drift of to sleep with her in my bed.
I know  I’ll be dreaming she’s all over my head.
I welcome these new feeling and let them show.
I promise you this I will never let you go.


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At First Sight (A.K.J)

 She never heard this,
but sometimes, I remember
the first time I met her,
A 5th grade boy, seeing a girl,
who defied the laws of reality
with the abundance of beauty
that was given to her alone,
One that helped me know myself,

With one glance I was awakened,
an ignorant young suitor who knew
only that a fairy-tale was set in motion,
and that life now had purpose,
If only to hold this vision within me
to alter my perception of creation,
A vision of perfection that can only
be equated with sublime grace,

For if man could witness heaven
in a dream or in a premonition,
Then at best, man would know
nothing of what my eyes beheld,
For I, a boy who never believed in
perfection, was stunned by the
sight of it in definition, saying,
in that moment, " Dear god,
Why was I alive before now?"

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My days and my nights -- translation from my Arabic poem

This is a lousy translation of my just-as-lousy first attempt at writing poems in Arabic. I've only been learning Arabic for a year and a half, so there goes the cliches; the sentiment is genuine and heartfelt though. It was too painful to say the things I want to say in English...so I turned to Arabic. It's also a lot more concise in Arabic. 


You came back to me, in my dreams

On the day that

My eyes first knew you

O, how I wish it was today!

O, how I wish to return to that day!

 

My hand remembers you

My heart remembers you

You are in everything I see

The tree under her we sat

The cat that ran between our legs

 

Once, once, once…

Once you were with me

O I do not forget my days and nights –

A month like a year;

A night like an hour.

I cannot — I cannot!

I cannot forget my days and nights (with you)


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Thoughtless

Starry nights remind me of 
those time 
we stay up all night 
waiting for shooting stars 
to weave our dreams with, 
those times when your love 
is unceasingly flowing 
like the river 
and that 
holding hands seem 
the only thing that matters 
in this world, 
those were 
perfect moments I 
thought would last 
but then 
Van Gogh must be right 
to paint the stars with 
shades of blue and gray 
for you have left me 
with tears 
and broken promises 
and I will forever wonder 
if wishes 
under shooting stars 
do really come true.


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Thinking of Turtles

thinking of turtles
I go straight to fables: The Tortoise and the Hare -
and how slow and steady wins the race
that same old story, been there, done that
think back think back - I’m back in grade school now
Mom didn’t like dogs and cats,
so she got us a turtle        which died in weeks
probably not a good idea   -
one small shared turtle passed around
among six pairs of small eager exploring hands

I think that to live a really long time
a turtle needs to be gigantic
like those huge ones on Galapagos. .  .
how I loved learning in junior high geography
things like how those tortoises can live longer than my grandma
and how folks can ride atop their hard shell backs!

riding riding. . . now I’m back in high school
riding in a boyfriend’s car, sure I must have been
snuggled close to him, but maybe not
he was really into rules and I can’t remember
when wearing seat belts came to be a law!
Alvin was the name of this tall good looking guy
a year or two ahead of me in school
but in a different school from mine
across the Mississippi in a town of Illinois
his hair was dark and wavy, his eyes were brightly blue
even his nose was perfect, and he was so sweet
when he invited me to church camp across the river

for hours playing handsies covertly on our pew
we listened to religion droning on and on
and my mind was not on God
later at his house, making out
I never would have let him get too far
but I could tell he thought I was too fast. . . 

I remember thinking as he drove me home
how slowly and carefully he maneuvered that car
how    slowly    he     articulated    
 every     word    he     spoke
and it entered in my mind
this religious rule abiding boy with the perfect face
and lips that gave such perfect kisses
drove, talked and probably thought
as slowly as a turtle

Alvin never dated me again
I wonder sometimes what he’s doing now
and if        slow        and       steady
won the race


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Offended

Offended 
is ignorance
a lack of understanding
silence 
is not for everyone

humans speak
and do things 
different than you
or your faction
true 
or untrue
or stretch truth

what's the worry?
stressing 
over someone else's beliefs 
takes you away 
from your own routine

offended 
is a waste of energy
needed for nothing
causing dangerous sparks
within one's mind
one's heart
one's soul
becomes contaminated
with preoccupations

vengeance breeds furious
often unexpected actions
of ill-will occur 
or changes for the worse 
creep 
in the shadows of good
growing
taking over
"spiritual kudzoo"
none could tame

extinguish your dealings
with petty rage
of another imperfect being's mouth
cancer vanishes easier
with early detection
MOVE ON!
or at least learn
from your polar opposite 


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A Feeling That I Knew Too Well

A feeling that I knew too well;
With every word you spoke I fell-
Falling deeper into the bliss;
Longing for your every kiss.

Without you here my heart grows fonder;
Around the park I start to wander-
And think about how you make me feel-
The longing starting to become surreal.

Giving meaning to my life,
You lift me up from pain and strife.
I thought it was a feeling that I knew-
But with your guidance the passion grew.

Spiraling up with every touch-
Never wanting to leave your clutch. 
Waiting for your familiar glance-
Missing you with every chance. 




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IF I WERE A BOY

If I were a boy, even just in a dream. 
I'll give my girl flowers everyday. 
I'd let her know how much she's loved 
and assure no tears fall from her eyes. 

If I were a boy one day I wake up, 
I'll kiss her eyes 'til she drops. 
I'll lay her down in a bed of roses. 
I'll carry her 'til we reach the heaven's door. 

If I were a boy even for an hour. 
I'll tell her exactly who I am. 
I will not cave in the shadow of my past. 
I'll give her the happiness that lasts. 

If I were a boy, 
I'd keep the love on fire. 
I'll respect my mom, sisters, and wife. 
I'll be my kid's greatest model dad. 

If I were a boy, 
I would be a real man. 
Who knows exactly what makes a man, 
who can't be moved by other woman.  
 


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We Never said Good Bye

I love you in spring… 
When the sun kiss the dew upon virgin grass
When robins build their nests high up in tall trees  
And soft rain quenches the thirst of the rich, black earth
Making music with watering cans on the patio floor
That lulled us into slumber on lazy Sunday afternoons

I love you in summer…
When surf dances atop playful, swelling waves
Its wild and loud roars drowns out carefree laughter
And mimicks our frolicking beneath the blazing sun
Inviting us to share warm nights beneath dazzling stars
Wrapped as one, gazing the moon in the southern sky

I love you in autumn…
When brisk winds hurry to undress proud elms
When casual walks and a fire signals the end of day
In love, we never notice the fading sun light
Then comes the day when ‘jealous fate’ interferes
And time swallows the many years we’ve been apart

Soon, winter comes and I will love you still…
When frigid weather lingers long and chills the bones
Can lovers’ hearts call through corridors of time?
Perhaps, deepest love dissolves invisible walls?
At last, you’ll find me here, somewhere in between
And who knows, it may be like we never said good bye
~*~


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In Your Arms

I don't know why I can't stop thinking of you.

I know you don't like me, at least I don't think you do.

I know that I like you.

And everytime I see you I want to jump in your arms!

I believe that you are the one for me.

i just wish that you knew how I felt i just wish i could tell you what you mean to me....


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Whatever You Say, Dear

It's Friday! And it’s “Girls’ Night Out"! His favorite dinner and wine we shared! We give each other a little bit space, at least, once every other week Any given night, always a special treat, we may choose to cuddle instead Whatever desires the other may have, each makes sure to prioritize That’s the routine in our love nest; it’s just how we sail this boat Dressed in stretched jeans; curves seemly more pronounced and I feel burning eyes upon me Yes, I know that look so very well, but tonight, that can’t go down To put him off, I attempt light conversation; to sort of change his unspoken suggestion I nonchalantly ask, “What game are you planning to watch, Love?" With a silent, hope, that craving eyes would deflect Deliberately, I avoid his intense stare, speaking loudly, a language I know too well Too late! In just two steps he’s all over me; and I melt like butter in the sun “Can’t you call? Say you’ll be a little late, hmm?” He whispers in my ear “No, Love, the last time I did that, we fell asleep, remember?” “Look, I’ll set the alarm, just one hour will do; I’m missing you already”. Like a kid, he begins to pout and guilt raps at my heart’s door Planting warm butterfly kisses the expanse of my neck Murmuring low, words he knows I love to hear And though I feign disinterest, persistent hands unrelenting “Will you call and tell her? Will you, or I’ll call if you like?” He may be unaware, though it’s hard to tell, as there are no secrets which I can maintain In my mind I’ve already begun to disrobe him; my favorite dance flats cast aside On the verge of giving in, I raise up my head to gaze those smoldering eyes In that instant, I’m captured; cornered, again His brilliant smile from lips so soft appears plastered on his chiseled face Fully aware he’s won like so many times before He picks up the phone, hits speed dial with one hand free; The other is wrapped snugly 'round my waist as I admire his one track mind “Hi Caitlin! Listen... …Yes, she’ll be late. Now, how'd you know?” And her laughter rings throughout cyber space as she's made a prudent guess “That’s fine, I just know!” She replied, still chuckling. “Ask her to call me before she leaves, will you?” “Oh sure! Whatever you say, dear.” ~*~
For: Francine's "Whatever You Say, Dear" Contest


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Pump Starved

I Hope You're Reading These,

Because Although We Cannot 

Be Together, We Made So Much 

Sense...

I Will Always Love You


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I'm No Rat

What a ***** to find time to creep into another woman's bed
or maybe a rat to scurry under my feet for cheese and bread
askin for two shots ina each her toe, knee, chest, and head
Mi na ramp wit dem tings deh fi nobody but my own
My mother told me dat every man will chase fa gold
He'll climb til his youngest grandchild is grey and old
So why be one rat when you can be a Queen
mek him reach fa yu instead of looking cabinets between
 
Queen had to brush my teeth and wash my face
I had to fluff my pillows and pray for the day
Reminiscing on the bull**** that i just had to lay
Another day on this mutha****in paper chase
As horny as i thought i was i felt my walls pulsing
when i read " till her pussy dry and swollen"
But as i read on... i realized someone was cloning
Remaking the same NIGGA over and again
 
The life of a rap star. Does that mean you pimp
Does that mean I can ask you questions just like that hoodrat *****
You say you like what you see but you willing to fight yourself
One taste of this Queen melt yo Pimp Heavyweight belt
I told you your style was dope that i hadn't seen one in a while
a while meaning a year, said behind the same sly smile
Maybe that's the b.f you speak of that i'm creeping you with
the one that you reminded me of... with all these hot lyrics
 
I stay searching for real niggas because they seek me out too
They want a reminder we still exist even across a border or two
my single ass skipped the class on Game but made it to period two
the class on Guns, Poetry, Money, & Family.There were only me and you.
I thought.... Well damn, Any other real niggas but just a few?
Am i the only female left? Does no one have a clue?
That sex is all good from jump and beyond but money got me boo
Even if you aint got the green, ****, help me get on too
or point me in the direction of who to talk to
I'm getting a little Too fresh, it seems, for you
let me switch up my sexxxy back since I only gave you verse two


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'The Joker's paint brush'




The lines of the once perfect dream now faded
In its place distorted and crooked images
Now play mind games with their hearts
Drifting away from everything that is real
Their once tranquil lives now in turmoil
 
Do they just paint over the distorted lines?
Rein in the emotions that make them blind
Try and go back to the simple life
Forget the adrenalin
The pulsating need
To delve into things
Most likely not to succeed
 
The dice has been rolled
The cards are on the table
The joker’s the one
With the paint brush in hand


©180320121045


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Argento Toccare - Silver Touch

We sit here together on this cliff
watching the stars shine like lost
tears of inner light.
You look at me; my eyes are 
blushed with the brightness of the
dim light of the retiring sun.
I smile shyly, softly blushing a
gentle pink hidden by the weak glow.
You whisper a sweet joke, I laugh.
You watch me contentedly thinking
of nothing but the beauty of my
forgotten glow.
I feel your fingers floating over my
skin,
I feel sparks of lightning flooding my
veins with your secret emotions,
they leak through your deep,
compassionate and loving soul.
You slowly approach my face,
you reach my ear, you begin to whisper,
"Io amare voi, lei",
suddenly I find myself trapped within
your sensitive lips feeling sweetly poisoned
by your deep ocean of love and affection,
trapped within your beautiful touch of 
gentle silver rain,
the rain of the forbidden truth of our
lustful minds,
lost in a galaxy of refreshing light
embraced by our hearts,
forever condemned to behold
the passion of love.


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The Hunger Games -Poem #2

Two wonderful boys
I am torn
One I must fight
One I may never see again

One my best friend
One I barely know
One I hunt with
One I must be in love with

One I spent my life with
One I may have no time left with
One who can't let me go
One who loves me so

What do I do
Do I have any choices
I don't think I do
I make my decision

One who I will
break the heart
One with who a 
new life I must start


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Je Te Veux

Summer skies of shadowed veil 
Leave soft evening cries as twilight pales
Flirting eyes and open looks give sweet spoken ties
Random smiles tell of well placed replies
Yes , hold my hand it softly caresses 
Come closer it says as it softly traces
Je t’aime , feel my warm embraces
Replacing caution held in refrain 
Yearning looks spark the flame

Though we come ten thousand miles 
The journey begins with one smile 
Our garden calls and we dance and play
The roses and  palms sing their song 
We dance and play , for we do no wrong
We glance and smile 
Suddenly still, our hearts beat as one 
Quickened pulses stir the embers
The looks of joy replaced,
 remembering the night while swiftly retracing
 our pattern of desire fanned so brightly
We  close together in delight saying
 Je Te Veux , I want you


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Unspoken Love

She saved herself from pick up lines though she looked vulnerable
She's sooo lovable her heart definition could ruin my poetic abilities 
You cannot put a price on her she's not billable
If only her lips where adjustable my soft poetry would define her inabilities and weaknesses for the mute to scream happily ever after  
She's untouchable i O you an explanation
Her tears tattoo broken spirits uploaded on instagram
She's no twitter baby though followers invite themselves its unbelievable
I could throw nice verses in our conversation but i'm afraid i'm love blind 

I'll tell you more about her if you ask me....ask me nice


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Power of Your Love

To a Bride and Groom

You have the power
over my love
to make my day rain or shine
it all began the day you asked me
"to be mine" and I wrote my name
in blood, on your hearts
dotted line
the power of my love
to fuel what feeds within me
pounce on me as a tiger
humble me as a mouse
your strength envelopes me
as if standing in an unbreakable
glass house
you have the power
over my stare, as you glare
into my inner spirits soul
those who dare to try to divide
I heed them to beware
the power you have over my love
leaves me content, without a care
floating together, we share, in
true loves enchanting bliss
what started years ago, with a friendly
hug, is reincarnated within every
new days kiss




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Phantom Affair

I wonder where you are
even though you sit here by me.
In your eyes there is a distance
I cannot perceive. 
Your thoughts are far from me.
I cannot compete with that which I cannot see.
Is she here with you? 
Does she whisper in your thoughts?
Does she walk through your dreams?
Is this phantom desire only an apparition? 
Or a soulless heart who seeks to tear us apart?
Should I not suspicion?
Should I panic at the thought or seek appeasement
for my broken heart.


dedicated to  a friend.  










	


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My Fairy Tale

You are my shadow in my weakest days
Giving me light in my darkness way
Sheltering me from harmful pains
Thereby listening to my untold story

Through this optical lines we communicate
Distance never appeared as an obstacle
Witnessing our secrets talks
Mediating two souls to be one

Behind those words and advises
Like chocolate kisses so tender and sweet
You lighten my burden spirit
Took away my fears

Friend as we often called each other
I could never imagine it could be more than this
Being there could be more for me…
To have your Love isn’t great enough?

Once a upon time there was a friend called “YOU”
Now my fairy tales of Love do come true….
Wish upon a star forever “Me and You”
And we shall live happily ever after….



@lemp3082008


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Your Presence

Your presence I feel oh so near, it help me to relieve 
some of my fears of all my everyday cares, I feel your
presence eveywhere.  Whenever I walk down the street,
I can feel the patter of your feet.  I can feel you walking
next to me telling tales of what I mean to you and thinking
about all the things we used to do.

Your presence is so close, it's as if I can smell your fragrance
right under my nose.  I am thinking of your smiling face all
next to mines, telling me how you will love me until the
end of time.  Your presence is oh so strong and as I travel
throughout this day it lingers on.  When I decide to stop and
dine, it's as though I feel your hand right next to mines.  

When I sat down to eat, I can see your eyes staring into
mines, and you sitting there sipping on some wine.
Your presence means so much to me and this is the
way I want it to always be, me feeling you and you
feeling me until forever and eternity.


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The Runner

If ever a frailty should be rued,
then my emotional resistance of
those who hold my affection dearest
to them, is the sin that equates my soul
with the essence of a Hitler, and condemns
my name to the highest degree of infamy,
While my heart longs to be understood, my
fear of abandonment dictates my legs to gain
distance as each loving gesture is offered in
repetition, Persistently they reach, only to be
disregarded, and embody me within my shame,

Friends and family alike, endure the coldness
of my introverted haven, staring into my eyes
in hopes of disconfirming the projected emptiness
that flows from actions, words, or lack of both,
As they hurt from me, I scream for them in silence,
A deafening continuous stream of soundlessness,
that elevates my withheld pain from ache to harrowing,
Yet they can only assume the contents of this confession,
For my words go directly from mind to paper, and 
never see the eyes of those who need to know this tenderness,

To express such powerful statements and risk the familiar
sting of neglect or abandonment once more, is a fear that
surpasses every shameful tear, haunting my thoughts as
a reminder that lives on insomnia, thus I remain devoted 
to a faithful vow of solidarity that keeps me sane and sheltered,
Moving at a constant pace, racing against my own fright, holding
every term or phrase of endearment within, and running from a
past that will not be relived by my decree, Alas, with mortal lungs,
 mechanical legs, and a heart that lies somewhere between the two, 
I run,
for and from, 
the feeling I desire most....


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Two Line Thoughts

Sometimes you must lose all you felt you once needed
But all you ever feel is cheated

You can't pull diamonds from the sky
There is no constellation prize

You’ll never be happy, never complete
To you there’s only a drive to compete

Fixing the game to undo yourself
Wishing you were somebody else

My non-Newtonian, liquid heart
Turns to mush and falls apart

I was sitting there still, back to your flaws
You went for the kill and loosed your claws

Spices tracing through my blood,
Earthy smells and petrol mud

Shining like brake lights on a wet night
Seeing red and looking to fight

I know everyone thinks I'm paranoid
But one day I'll catch it on Polaroid

Corporate loans and indecision
Hinder the upper-class’s vision

Lightning reminds you that nature is pretty
And parks are not forests surrounded by city

Spinning brightly, the atmosphere shines all your stars
As you dance on the highway between blurring cars

Traded the love sting for tears on a string
Burned your old photos and shook out your wings

Lost to the winds that dried out your skin
The planes that have fallen are pulling you in

The trains that rolled through, soon dragged you away
With their sun-worn graffiti and staggering sway

To those who mislead you, take no notice
Walk your own path, soft and pure as the lotus

Courting a desert to take your last breath
Relinquishing moisture to camels of death

It isn't win-win when losers contrive
Convincing each other there’s no need to strive

Whenever I’m speaking, I'm not who I say
Not now, not ever, not day-to-day

About inspiration, uncertainty moves me
Or at least I believe that this is what soothes me

Inside your purse you could misplace a car
A tangle of items much like a bazaar

If blood has spilled, it's but a drop
Forever until humans stop

Generals need a lot of attention
And in general I can't stand pretension

Amazing moments dot your life maps
As mediocrity bridges the gaps

Scribbling out some irrational scheme
Strange and evolving communist dreams

Hiding every glitch and flaw
Grooming to be son-in-law

And all the nihilists come to sing
Pointless songs about nothing

Sometimes a wolf will believe he's a sheep
If left too long dressed up in fleece

Like the phantom itch of amputees
Jealousy fills him, now you’re with me

Encoded nightmares from the past
Will keep you safe unto the last

Then into a hard-wired state of delay
This splintered electric decay


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Walking hand in hand

Walking together hand in hand
   down the country road together.
We have no place we need to be
    just enjoying each others company.
Sharing our thoughts on everything.

Knowing that this is where we want to be,
     together lost in each others thoughts.
It is magical in some ways we speak and
      think so much a like.

It is as though you dropped out of the sky
       one day I was lonely than you came.
We both love the animals that seem to find their
      way to my house and they are unafraid.

We laugh when we walk together and it rains  we
      have no umbrellas to keep  us dry but it's okay.
There ahead is a tree with big leaves we run laughing
      taking shelter than we embrace and the our love
for one another explodes no shame, no guilt.

Walking together hand in hand down the
      country road heading back to home.
Both silent in our thoughts but knowing we love
       each other until Death takes us away.


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We Were Drunk Once

Movies played but seldom watched
As we entangled on the couch
Intoxicated by each other, we drank wine to clear our heads
Things were simple in those times

You were red-eyed and freshly mangled
I wanted so badly to make you smile and forget her
For a time I think I succeeded 
We were blissful in our distraction
Playing grown up as we discovered each other

Long nights where sleeping was forsaken
We preferred to lie intertwined 
Talking 
Smiling
Laughing
The sun would rise and you would leave, reveling in how the hours had escaped us
Smiling at the pink tinged sky
Only to repeat the process nightly

Then we traded places
I am the red-eyed one, and another tries to help me forget you
Sometimes he succeeds
Perspective feels like a cruel joke
Could have
Would have
Should have

Someday he will have red eyes too
A cycle perpetuated


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It's In Our Jeans

In beautiful and well stretched blue jeans, we walked
Accompanied by perfectly charming shirts
Smiles infect as our fingers locked and sway
Through the pavement to the dance hall
Where glimmering colorfully fragmented lights
Acknowledged our presence
And ordered the best beat of the year
As we bend to answer the call of melody
Wonderfully carved waist freezed all sights
As it gradually moves, all eyes move
I held her close and whispered
Your dress is the best
She replied "Yours is amazing"


Author: Joseph Osita
For Nette's contest:” It’s in the jeans"
13/06/2011


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Three Forty Five Connection

Three Forty Five Connection


Wednesday afternoon? I don’t remember
Technology---helper drives me crazy
Not a magic mirror you brought me
Yesterday afternoon? I don’t remember 
Seeing each other, both were smiling

“Does he feel what I feel?”
“I guess he feels”
Or he..., “does she feel what I feel?”
“I guess she feels”
He brought funny staffs 
And I brought big smile

Both were disturbed by two different eyes
God made him it green
And mine is black

I did stare and show thousand glitters in my eyes
For him to say, “that is my response for your gentle smile”
He did cute gestures far from distance,
The puppet show for me to smile.

“Do I need to laugh? Yes I smiled!”
He is the only one who made like that.

Couldn’t distinguish how far our gap
Because He molded him as doll
A doll that he made
Oh! Yes! 
They were four!

Lucy and Johny, Sussy and Cassandra

The heart shape lips formed into a kiss
Transparent wall met from thousand miles
Color and culture, height and weight
Status and condition are not important
Who cares?
Distance is not significant?!

Crazy afternoon, 3:45, 5:45 time to say goodbye
Silent morning, 12:45 called him to rest

Both heart rebelled to turn off the...
Both were decided to give each number and...
So... Who first to utter? And he then...

“When do we see each other again?”

Hands’ clock killed the moment
Unstable condition...
What ah! Oh why?
Connection trapped by the world wide web problem.


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On bended knee

On bended knee
I hope you know
Of how much I feel
my heart bestow

For now I offer
my hand my love
a golden band 
and pure white doves

Perhaps you'll arrive
in princess carriage
what ever you want 
the perfect marriage

Through happiness
and sickness too
I've one true love
and that is you

So if you'll say yes
and marry me
through all my days
I'll cherish thee


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Masquerade

You saunter through the double doors
Head held high
Chest puffed out
Putting on airs
You think you’re so clever, so deceiving
Showing up baring the most ornate mask
But I see right through
The mask that you wear tonight
You think it will conceal
You think just tonight
In this hour
You can be somebody else
But you’re dancing with the Belle of the Ball
This is MY Masquerade
And this is the 147th event
You just don’t recognize me
Because I wear a different mask each time
Your mask is cheap material
Sequins missing, feathers askew 
Such feeble attempts
I smell your bravado
Putrid and reeking, stinking up the air
But I see right through
I’ve donned masks my whole life
That’s why I am the bearer of this sash
That you see around my neck 
“Strongest Person I Know”
But I allow no one to gaze under the mask
Sure I play the Belle oh so well
But if you all saw beneath
Saw WHY I’ve had to wear masks
You’d strip me of my title
You’d rip off my sash
Break the pearls from my neck
You’d run for the door tonight
Quicker than Cinderella at the stroke of midnight
That’s the beauty of a Masquerade
You can pretend to be something you’re not
When one guise becomes worn
When it loses its sparkle
It’s glamour and charm
That first catches your eye
Well it’s quite alright 
Because I have a treasure trove 
BURSTING with masks
Grab another and keep dancing
Twirling the night away
Never skipping a beat
But when the music finally comes to an end
When the door closes and the final guest departs
Empty wine glasses are seen scattered all around
The only sound is the echo of my heels
When the confetti lies lifeless on the floor
That’s when I remove my mask
Exhausted, worn and weary
When I gladly, almost desperately 
Take off my tattered sash 
And throw it beneath my feet
Because I’m not resilient and strong now
I feel weak, frail and reclusive in my realm
That’s when the tears start to brim
That’s when I wish someone else held the title
So stripped and naked
Alone to clean up the mess
Everyone else has left behind
But there’s no one to there to pick up the sash
Just me and the sound of my tears
Echoing as they hit the floor
Almost fearfully I pick up the sash
Dust off the confetti
Smooth out the wrinkles
Before placing it back around my neck
As I throw my shoulders back
Standing taller than ever
Wiping away tears that no one saw
I walk back to my trunk
My trunk of the most decorative
Ornate, obscuring masks
Finding another to wear
As I prepare for the next façade
The next Masquerade 


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Granted


Fresh spring cut grass separates the toes,

A soft breeze guides the air,
Gently caressing her angelic hair,

Illuminated as if even the sun belonged to this divine presence, 

Captivating gazes to my core leaving me transparent,
Eternity skips ahead leaving me to recount my woes,


Cold wood shivers forgotten slippers,
Heavy sighs rejuvenate the stale ambiance,

Consumed by an expanding shadowed audience,
Evaluating my cracked soul for pleasure, 

Left to lose all composure, 

Even the sweetest can turn bitter.




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The Truth About Love

Love is not easy
Love is hard
Love is time apart
Trying not to drown
Praying to stay loyal
Holding on to lover's promises
Dreaming of reuniting
Crying tears of hurt and joy
Thinking of you constantly
Asking God for all the best
Love is difficult
Love is not easy
Love is hard
Love is faith
Love is hope
Love is trust
But love is beautiful
Oh, so beautiful
And love is worth it
Oh, so worth it
Love is in God's Hands
Love is protected
Love will come back again
Reunion again
For God is love
In Jesus' Name
We pray
Amen!


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May I Buy You Another

Eye contact at a bar,
Laughter mixes pheromones,
Irises dilate as dark euphoria sets 
Two unavoidable actions in motion.

His double action Adams apple pumping
As her lips glisten after a tongue bath.
Lightning cracks inside, deafening logical rhythm,
Channeling energy into porcelain-like
Vessels of desire.

Muscle tightens under skin, defining
Halted passion, sensual urges, and plasma thirst.
Blood pumps into veins, temperature is in flux,
Perceptions re-imagined, recollecting interests.

She sees his primal fierce eyes, sculpted body
Under a new light. A canvas to etch her
Screams in with red polish. Painful,
Pleasurable thoughts invade, creating 
Memory before action.

He smells her fragrance, he feels her breaking 
Resolve submitting to him. The chemistry of his 
Anatomy pulling, swimming, clawing at each 
Fiber of her being. Her skin’s cold and moist,
His, warm banana nut bread.

First embraces, friction, resistance, motions
In oceans of soaked sheets. Powerful
Contractions, condensation on windows,
Perspiration dripping beads over

Limbs. Forcing self upon self is 
Maddening, to conceive, to imagine
Hard sounding drums pounding
Soft harmonic beats into one

Human melody. 

Exhaustion, the wasteland of battle,
Blood and lipstick swirling eyeliner into
War paint. Carcasses lay strewn, scars
Ridden across back and thigh. 
Tears fall down cheeks out of pure
Joy and affirmation of lust.

May I buy you another?
The best choice of words
Made a dream come true
For whom?


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Destined To Dust

It's The Hardest To Write When There's
Nothing But Momentum Driving The Misery.

                            - Every Single Day is The Same -

Each Limb Protruding From My Torso, Which
May as Well Just Be Headless Flesh and Muscle.
 
                            - Wouldn't Make a Difference -

I am Destined To Dust, as are We all, The Impact
I Have Created Will Follow Me Only To Soil.

                            - The Decaying of Empathy-

Every Particle, Every Fibre of My Entity Screams
At The Exact Same Time With The Same Voice. 

                            - Somebody Set Me Free -

"Dont You Get It Boy?" They Scream To Me, "Don't
You Get It? We are Nothing, You... are Nothing"

                            - ...Without Her -

Time Seems to Ten Fold The Scenarios I Create 
So Speedily, Causing Small Cracks To Appear Vast.

                            - All Cavernous and Crumbling -

Walking Past Pictures of Your Childhood, Hands All
Covered in Cloudy Residue, Wondering Where it Went.

                             - You Have Nothing -

To Fall From Grace You Must First Reach it, But I can't
Hold Myself Accustomed To Such a Privilege, Not Yet.

- Maybe Death Will Verify My Existence -

- Just Like She Did -


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In My Community

Our Ancestors fought to the death,
Just so we can live a brighter day,
So before you light up that blunt of meth,
Think about what you’re giving away,
It was a glad day in history when Obama rose to victory,
The first black president was all we knew,
Dark skin is in!
Haven’t you heard?
That even in our community, 
You can get burned,
It’s a sad day when people would rather stay home and “Crank That Amber Cole”,
Than get up and run to a poll,
In our community,
Rockin’ Luis V is better than having a college degree,
And teen pregnancy is not only a trend,
But the single motherhood that follows should end,
Young girls learn of a wonderful prince to take them away,
Nothing should change thought their mothers prince didn’t stay,
And as the tears fade away,
She grows stronger every day,
In our community,
Fighting is no longer a word,
You argue with someone and shots are heard,
Girls showing places the sun don’t show,
So how do they expect the community to grow?
Where love is a figment of imagination,
Making a young child question her creation,
Young mothers would rather buy the iPhone 5,
Then satisfy her baby’s cries,
While her new man’s eye,
Wander up another girl’s thighs,
In our community,
Where #team dark skin vs #team light skin,
Makes others not love the skin they’re in,
Love, lust, hate, and trust,
Giving a rose on Valentine’s Day is no longer a must, 
Where bad is good and good is bad,
Who would think to see their grandmother sad?
Her hurt and pain,
Shows how our community has lost everything her parents fought to gain.


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WHEN I LOVE

When I love, I go all the way
I don't hold back and I don't look back
I give my all and I love with all my heart

When I love, I go all the way
I give it all and its unconditional
My love is true and not a single doubt

When I love, I go all the way
With all sincerity and total devotion
I give all my body, mind and soul

When I love, I go all the way
In sickness and health, I will be there for you
I give all my love, to the end of time.


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Run Into Love

You make me smile even when the sad songs come on.
You make me laugh with every chance you get.
You don't even have to be here for me to fall for you.
I've played the backseat for too long.
Maybe now it's time to run;
Time to run into love.
What do we have to lost?
This is only life once.
We are only young once.
And I believe I am starting to fall for you.
What do we have to lose?
Let's dive in together,
Holding hands,
Into the unknown.


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i still cry

many days have passed us by
yet as if the same i cry
no less loss or memory took
tis all the same just like a book
my heart it bleeds in the same places
still kissing pictures of her faces
driving around remembering traces
of the love our lives had made
i had the key to your heart
long before i knew i was a part
and when i put the pieces together
the puzzle was my glory and treasure
a love that could not be measured
second only to heaven this pleasure
a union that had Gods approval
but yet it was so unusual
you knew i loved you when i kept it secret
for so long you let me keep it
then one day you needed my touch
you had told me before; that you did'nt have much
but because of my heart i would'nt listen
my mind and my soul were too busy wishing
and then one day suddenly, i knew you were mine
a few days later we spoke for the last time
one week later i heard you were gone
you had to leave for your heavenly home
i cried that day in the dust and dirt 
here was my torment that i knew chased us
with days and months i measure my hurt
but after time God showed me clearly
that He loved us. it must have took a lot
for Him to show me Himself
but with His Holy Spirit He put her soul on my shelf
so when i think about her, God and i
i still can't help myself, i still cry



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first kiss

there is nothing like the taste of a first kiss
the sweet smell of bubble gum while still in the mouth
while hiding behind a trash dumpster in kindergarten at recess
kissing the boy of your dreams at age five


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Love Thing

She will not say she was Predator.
She knows she was
(She has that throbbing memory to
remind her)
But it's in her intuition,
Her breath (her life)
To be Victim.
Let her play the part.

"It was like a game of chess
Against myself and I;
I won
And thus I lost-

We met by fate
Intertwined by what we loved
The ice gradually cracked and broke
And I wanted his flesh on mine,
His breath on mine
But he wanted me wholeheartedly.
ME!

But I was too torn
I am torn to pieces.

Yet I consented knowing...
Knowing...
I will break everything
So long as I'm broken
And without action,
Without thought,
He was made broken
And now he breaks everything.
A pestilent sick that penetrates.
How was I supposed to know he would grow ill?"

Now nod.
Smile until your jaw cracks,
Else she'll bicker
Til you do.
Don't show signs that you tracked her lie
But show pity...
She doesn't deserve pity
But smile with pity
Pity that the b**** lied to you.

That she deserves.


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Micaela on a Fretboard

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First star to your empty Night

I want a love that
fills my veins like
liquid fireworks
sweet like sugar and 
cinnamon
strong enough to knock
me off my feet, like a 
mighty ocean wave, yet
gentle and magic
like the forgotten lyrics
to a nursery rhyme

I want our spirits to soar
into a bright forever
like two yellow balloons
released, by the
tiny, sticky hands
of a little child
I want, my man, to know
my true self
like the words to a favorite
song on the radio
to feel me, all that is me
rhythm bound from a beaten
street drummer

I wish to be a bright guiding light
as the first star
to your empty night
A familiar love, as
traveling back to a childhood spot
your first love kiss...
first bully fight...
first playground crush lost...

I want a love
that encompasses
my senses, envelopes me
from nothing, like the
steam from my rose petal tea
filling my pores
leaving me
rejuvenated and refreshed

A love, whom steals my worries
as a thief in the night
and greets me with doe- eyed
kisses, once rounding
up a fight

I speak these words into the 
universe, to send me a love
to call my own
what path will my soul mate
travel to me, mysterious 
mystical journey unknown


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Dance in the Rain

There you go again crying in the rain.
You pour your heart out and your tears
fall like raindrops from heaven.
You turn away from this world and
contented yourself with isolation.

The rain became your refuge,
your only friend.

If only you have looked back.

I was there crying with you in the rain,
the sole witness of the tears you have shed.
The one who's dying to reach you within
those walls you have built around you.

There I go again running in the rain.
For this heart constantly cries and goes to
the past that was us,
And memories became my only friend in isolation.

The rain hid my tears,
And I pretended to enjoy the droplets hitting my face.

If only you have reached for my hand.

I was just there patiently waiting,
For you to see, to feel
that I'm crying for us.

But then,
the rain may have been too loud,
for you to hear the sound of my tears
falling in the ground.


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Secret Lover

Engulfed deep within beauty
Of shades and light
Within textures I cannot feel
Curious of simplicity of such purity
Reaching out, to try and grasp it
Awakened in the truth of forbiddeness

Teasingly she caresses spiked green hai
And kisses curves of bodies
Jealous of her lovers
I wish to pull away
To no avail, as her face brightens
Closing my eyes, trying to silence my heart

Her color and spirit consume me
Tugging more at my dark life
Slowly transforming into a new form
Her body over me and pressing down
Whispers of such melodies
I cannot hold back my passion

Each day she embraces me
No matter her mood or emotions
She never leaves me
As I continue my daily routine
We exchange air kisses
Melodies follow me during the day
And at night I leave my window open
So she may enter and hold me tight

My heart still dances
When I see her face
And though our love unseen
Our relationship forbidden
There isn’t a day I am without her
My light, my dark, my love, my song
The dearest of my heart- the sky


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Thoughts of Him

                             






                                 As she sits drinking her coffee on
                                 the swing soaking in the summer day.
                                 A smile appears on her face when
                                 the thoughts of that summer day passed.
                                
                                 *remembering, when she met the stranger
                                 at the park years passed.
                                 They laughed, talked, and walked together
                                 hand in hand.
                                 He craved their names on the big oak tree.
                                 It would be there for everyone to see.

                                 Suddenly, she hears a crash as her coffee
                                 cup falls and shatters on the patio below.
                                 It jolts her  back to reality once more.
                                 Sadness on her face now the smile gone.
 
                                 *Thoughts of him the stranger comes back
                                 to her mind tears falling as she remembers
                                 him saying to her-------We can never be, For
                                 I am a Married man------.


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The Rain

I remember the first time I had acknowledged the rain
Wrapped in your arms, what a cosy scene!
The rain drops had caressed and made a mess of my hair
but I didn't seem to care because you were near.

The rain had made the moment a little more special
A little more memoriable, a liitle more pleasurable
I have discovered in your eyes, LOVE
when I first acknowledged the rain.

That picturesque moment would never be forgetten
It was like a moment frozen in time, a moment that would like a good movie be rewatched or recorded over and over again in the mind.


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This is Not Goodbye

One day
I got the text
Said you wanted to be more than friends
Sent at around 10:30 p.m
My heart soared and I knew 
I wanted you right then
One month passed
It went by so fast
As your graduation yearns forward
I treasure my time with you
Every kiss counts
Every word lasts forever
Lingering in your ears
Every touch is more than what it seems.
Today is your last day here at school with me
June 1st, 2012
The letter and gifts and the love keeps us together
As we talk I remember every word you say
This is not goodbye
Because we are meant to last forever

For my amazing boyfriend who I love very much <3


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Dream

Sleep, Think, and Dream myself to you, 
is what I do out of devotion. 
Long lingers of school buses and 
library books that took us and taught us "home". 
A word which became more for meeting you, 
and harder to remember for knowing you so well. 
Yet I often slip from reality and indulge this 
false definition, derived from the optimism 
of a  hopeful heartbeat.


Then I wander through the wonder years, 
and cherished moments of selfless smiles 
and obvious affection, poorly cloaked 
by friendship and often revealed in a series 
of glances, that taught me the reason 
behind a prayer. Abating the sting of every 
melancholy thought, and transforming the 
diffident words of a silly boy, into beautiful
 phrases of endearment, 
offered to a woman from a man.


Thus, I dream of you as the virus and 
the remedy, dark and bright that keeps 
my mind balanced. Pondering a poison 
by daylight, and recalling the cure by nightfall. 
Drowning in your absence and breathing by 
the sight of closed eyes, that grant me a reason 
to inhale deeply and exhale slowly, during a held 
moment of pure elation. Running from reality 
until rest arrives, allowing me another chance 
to sleepwalk my way back, 
into the only dream I know.


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Detox

Stare into my blood shot eyes
As I lie on the floor in rage,
Nothing reduces my symptoms,
Not one thought takes the edge off,
Thinking myself into sickness
from lack of having my newest addiction,
My stomach turns and tightens inside,
Soon my coughs will become vomit,

Take it away or return it at once
before dizziness takes control,
My head pounds with my pulse
My body shivers from cold sweats
I want it back, I need it back…
As my hands begin to tremor
My vision becomes dreary,
I have flashbacks, I am losing it…

Please, just one more time,
Let me feel its rush, its magic
I need to taste it once more,
It calls to me, it makes me invincible
when the rest seems to be too weak,
Finally, I feel its power enter me
Finally my withdrawals are less vicious

My symptoms disappear as I feel whole
Once more, I can function awhile longer,
Once more, my addiction is in my hands
In my head, in my veins, soothing me,
Yet, it still tastes sweeter,
It still gives me a head rush,
From shaking on the floor, I now rise,
I am finally complete again,
For she has said, “I love you”


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My Nest

Love is my nest.
It holds me
where all the world I see.
It saves me
from the ground
which my soul will never meet.

Up in a forest tree
hunters scattering in threes
they'll never catch me
I have love.
I am perfectly happy.

relaxed I am
I do not stress
for there isn't life
without my nest.

who cares what's below?
I am above.
love is my nest
My nest is my love.


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Happy Anniversary

I speculated in my head
what sort of token should I give,
to the One I love the most,
my dearest friend, partner, soulmate,
on this special day.
I could not decide
upon a single day that would show
my deepest thoughts, love and desire.
And so I pen these careful words
on a two cent piece of paper
to show my greatest gift,
my love for you.
Happy Anniversary, Baby.


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Both parties involved

Do I believe in change?
I do, for when I first meet
a love, can not be made until
a change comes from both 
parties involved.

Then the promises for tomorrow
come we are much wiser at this
point we finally fill love with joys
of yesterdays, today's and tomorrow's.
Then our love becomes a memory forever.


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not all men are the same

You want to live for something
but afraid of that four letter word
'Love'
Someone hurt your heart it made
you locked it away, and up tight
only you hold the key.
Someday you'll meet that person you
want to be with but your will be afraid to
'Love' back.
for he might just hurt you again like the
others.
You want to share with him the fear of 
why it is so hard for you to be close and to
'Love',
him but you decide it is worth the risk this
time. 
So the heart was unlocked,she was very
careful opening it a bit at a time.
'Love' no longer bothers her because she
learned not all men are the same.


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The Princess Knife

Sorry I hurt so much
its all for you.
Ive got a little bone inside me
that breaks everytime...

I need to be sheltered like you
in love
in love

Im just not that girl
Im standing here reading aloud
with a little too much panic
and a little too less glow.

Im never gonna be her
but she shakes up the cage im in.
But she wont take me home 
shes only here to cleanse my wounds.

Sorry that the bitter taste fills me in, like a balloon.
You have got to slowly come at me, cause you know Im feral still.
And after all this time
and after all this time.
in love 
in love

I dont like you in his arms
all broken-wings and shooting sadness.
But I wont have you any other way.
Im just looking on and peeking in
and I listen for my newest pseudonym.

I need to be sheltered like you
in love
in love

I need to be sheltered
in love

I need to be 
in love

I need love.


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for stephanie

this is not what i wanted
this pain in my heart
all i do is wonder
is there pain in her heart
this dark cloud i'm under
follows me day and night
and there's something inside of me
screaming somethings not right
this is not lonliness 
but something new
this is how i feel
when i cannot be with you


(inspired by, "Better, The Devil You Know")


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I Wish

Hello everyone after reading quite a few of your poems today I was inspired to write 
this one on the spot... I am at work and it took me 2mins to compose. I welcome 
feedback and I have about 50 poems from about the age of 14 to upload 
eventually… Love this site and you guys...


HERE GOES....

I Wish

I wish I could give you free reign to explore my mind to understand my motives and 
intentions
I wish I could do the same with yours so that every expression I utter you would get 
the meaning without misinterpretations

I wish I could explain ‘a feeling’ indeed so you would know exactly how I feel
I wish I could taste literally an emotion so somehow I could re-create that portion

I wish you could know, how much you would grow if only my wish could come true

...


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Just the beginning

Regret… My reply to "HE"; a poem written for me by SOS!

Where to begin… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I enjoyed you immensely even back then You meant more to me than just a friend The closer we became The more I felt it would end… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We always had fun Never thought about the long run No commitments to each other Yet we were more than friends... We were lovers… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Too good to be true... Just look at the clues Remember "no expectations" Remember we are "just cool" Remember these were our rules... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We both had issues and I didn’t think twice I was soft and gentle offering wisdom, experience, and advice Personal experience reminded me of the pains in your life I knew something was wrong... I felt something was just not right... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ But we had nothing to lose No future in sight How I wish you trusted me I needed you to shed some light… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ What were you feeling How were you dealing That your heart needed healing Revealed what you were concealing… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Left to answer these questions on my own Left in the dark all alone Left with the door cracked in “Danger Zone” Left with fear of the unknown... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ FEAR TOOK MY HAND AND LEAD ME TO ROAM... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I’d been hurt just a short time before My heart was hiding behind steel doors Somehow you cracked it and let fear in Fear is powerful and fear did win... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THANKFULLY THIS WAS JUST THE BEGINNING... THIS WAS NOT OUR END... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Only time will tell if our wounds are healed Little by little we break the seal's of fear Little by little we open up and reveal What’s in our hearts and what we truly feel… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We have learned from the mistakes of our past Taken a new direction; created a new path Neither one of us is hiding behind a mask This time will be better... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THIS TIME I HOPE IT WILL LAST... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Lay


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Lullaby

Darkness envelopes us, like the sheets that drape
As we lay together, welcoming Night’s Slumber
Like ivy that entangles, our bodies entwined 
Skin on skin, so smooth and soft
Your chest a pillow, inviting my head
Your heartbeat like a drum, resounding in my ear
Beating out life
I taste the sweetness of your breath, warm on my cheek
Your hand trailing down my back, fingers getting lost
Combing my hair
Feeling your chest rise with every breath
Like warm milk to a babe
Like a soft song floating in the air
You are my lullaby, lulling me to sleep
As Night’s Slumber washes over me


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spectacles

Show me who you are and i shall paint out broken columns on the valleys of her back as if such figure is un-common
i have found no beauty bending as the vines that are her hair and the frailty of man upon her back is what she bares
bleed her body for the harvest let them feast upon her soul for the nurishment of mother is leaps beyond so bold
she is like the flower growing in the deepest of dark forests,amongst the ivy and hemlock but her skin is much too porous
to concern herself with games that tantalize the men, as they marry on crusade it is her children that she tends
sheath your swords with her ambition and tip your arrows with her will, craft your armour from her strength and in the battle you will kill
come now children from the pasture and lay each upon her side, suckle gently at your mother although theirs pain she does not hide
though the water leaks from rooftops her leaves are thick and block the rain, as the water level rises cling to her branches with no shame
she is the stone upon the beach, once a mountain pound and breached
yet still her disposition clear to love her children that are near

inspired by Roots Frida Kahlo, 1907-1954


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Seasons

Springtime comes the skies are clear,
The days are happier than ever because
I have you in my life and when I spend 
the days with you I am complete.

Summer comes and our Love grows strong.
When we are both working I find my eyes
filled with tears because you are the one I
want to be with and 3p.m seems a life time.

Autumn comes much too quickly but we laugh
as children when we play in the leaves together.
The damp air makes us cuddle close together
under the blanket as we lay and watch the falling
leaves of red, yellow, orange and brown.

Winter winds follows quickly. we run and throw snow
balls, go sliding, ice skating then we sit watching the
falling snow as we drink our warm tea. We are
so happy like a painting on a canvas that can't ever
be changed That is us paintings the seasons.


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The Sailor

She watched as her
heart set sail,
Not knowing what the
future held for him,

Her mind wishing
fair winds and a
following sea, 
Her emotions ebbing
from stability , 
But she knew it was
only right ,
For her heart really
belonged to the sea,
And the sailor
smiled cause he knew
that with her
blessing he was
finally free, 
So silently she
watched as her heart
set sail ,
And shed a few tears
as her sun slowly
fell.


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The Whisper of Flames

He is a fire.
I fell in love with his eyes,
How they're like chips of charcoal
The space of a spark away
From igniting...
I remember how he first held me-
How he murmured in my ear,
Speaking words like a whisper of flames...
But the whisper of flames is always 
Accompanied by the crackle of burning logs 
As they collapse-
I never made the connection that the whisper
Of his voice in my ear would mean I'd have to
Listen to the shatter of my own heart
As it cracked-
My heart was a clay pinch pot
Molded perfectly to the shape of his palms-
I told him to keep it close to him,
Not realizing that he was not only
The creator but the kiln-
His heat snuck into all the cracks
And weaknesses under my surface,
Until I smashed into a hundred tear-shaped 
Fragments under the pressure because he-
He is heat...
And I was always too fragile not to get
Burned...


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Your Touch


Sitting here thinking this through, What happened to me and you? dont want to loose your touch, you have no idea, this hurts so much. I love you more than you'll ever know, the last thing I want is for you to go. Why is this the way it's gotta be? Wish you knew what this is doing to me. We lay side by side, never out of sight. Yet I don't remember the last time you held me tight. Miss the way you look at me, Miss the way it used to be. Look at me, what do you see? Why is it always me who, reaches out for your touch, you're right here and yet I miss you so much. I wish you knew what this is doing to me, what happened to what this used to be?


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Under the Cancun Sun

Under the Cancun sun,
on the Yucatan peninsula,
relaxing at the Blue Bay Club,
sipping Margaritas.
Glorius early morning beach,
I set out for a morning run,
soft white sand tingles beneath my feet,
under the cancun sun.
This unsurpassable paradise,
the Caribbean sea of turquoise waves,
I dreamingly feast my eyes,
upon this magical place,
right beneath the Cancun sun.


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My Skin, A Warning Sign

People warn me
That as a girl,
I should be careful
Of dating guys
That aren't white...
Me being a white girl,
That is...
White girls, to them,
Are a status symbol;
Haven't I noticed
That black rappers
Like white girls?
Yes, well maybe
To them blonde hair 
And pale skin
Might look a lot like
Gold and silver when
Seen under club lighting;
Personally, I would like
To think that I am
More person than
Precious metal- 
My boyfriend's skin
Is brown;
He views me through
Direct sunlight
And we talk about
Being human-
He tells me that
He loves me
With the lights off-
He tells me that
I am beautiful
When he reads 
My poetry...


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marking time....to my friends on poetry soup.- the Lord helped me fight death and won.

i don't want to be just marking

time.  i died on november 20,

2008, during surgery.  i was

on a vent when i awakened 

december 2, 2008....my sisters'

birthday. what made me llive

i'll never know.  i know there

are things to do on this side

of death.



i have no time for marking time.

i have a stupid bag hanging from

my side now.  i am supposed to

"get comfortable with it".  well

that was a laugh.

that was a laugh until i thought

of the people that had these

things with no hope of ever

getting away from them.



i am so lucky.  14 days i laid

on a vent, then 22 more.

i came home 3 days, 



then 


i had
great pain in my chest...
.
well this is great i said,

a pulmonary emboli, 15 more

days, three days home.



then back to e.r. blood pressure

too high.  this bought me 

4 more days in e.r.



i am home now and finally 

have spent 19 days home.

i feel every pain and i feel

every time that i feel good



yes, i am never marking

time again.....there is

something about fighting

for your life and your sanity

that straightens things out.



i don't recommend it but

i wish i could let your hearts

know what i know.

janetta


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ME

Me …. 
By Anoush Harrison-Jackson

What’s the matter with ME?
Better yet, what’s the matter with YOU?
I am comfortable with ME---------

My eloquence, my ethnicity, my social demeanour,
My laughter, my insight, my shortcomings,
My shape, my grace, my pride,
My beliefs, my values, my devotion to my CREATOR
These are the things that COMPOSE me

So what’s the matter with ME?
Better yet, what’s the matter with YOU?
Don’t try to dilute or even defile me with your
Perceptions of how I should be………
Don’t try to ridicule or belittle my efforts
In a bid to confine me to where you think I should be— “my place”
Or “my fate” in the society (so-ci-ety)
So what’s the matter with ME?
Better yet, what’s the matter with YOU?
I am who I am
I’m, simply put, just ME!
Who are you?


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I admire her no secret

She had to have been heaven sent and it was evident
By her beauty and her temperament
So beautiful
Her very essence could make you emotional
And so graceful
The stroke of her cuticle could turn the harshest heart playful
So natural
That to her casual
Is basically relaxing 
In his and her matching flip flops romancing
subcosciously dancing
pirouetting 
Over obstacles 
Turning their damaging effects comical
So tender
Theres not a day with her I cant remember 
Like cold nights in november
hearts warmth melted away the winter
So basic
When she throws fits I apply logic
And deal with it since those lips movements
turn my mentals fluid
So amazing
That while the rest of the world is raging
We in the tub bathing
navigating each others creations
without relations
just playin 


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Chelsea's Poem

Chelsea's Poem

Chelsea, there are no words to describe how beautiful I think you are.

Chelsea, I just wish I could tell you how much I want to kiss you.

I wish I could tell you how good you always look, how I want nothing more then to hold you in my arms.

I wish I could tell you how I want to take you on a date, and, show I'm the one for you.

Chelsea, Chelsea, can't you see? The perfect one for you, is me!




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Dialogue Between the Little Miss and the Angel Prince

The Little Miss:

kiss kiss your little miss
and she flies flies up into the skies
away away from troubles array
to love to love her angel prince above
to love to love Armando above

The Angel’s Reply to the Little Miss:

"there was a girl precious as gold
she was found by a prince and told
that life itself was getting bold
until he found her in the world

"and he kissed kissed his little miss
and they flew flew up into the blue
away away from troubles array...


"...to love and hold each other above"

Written by Elaine and Armando


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Internet Intimacy

Those love letters

emails,

across the globe

kisses,

reaching two souls.

still,

these dreams are hollow

their  presence is

missing.


Reality bites when

technology doesn’t permit

physical interraction.

Only words, words and words

travel through the wires.

Interconnected dreams

allows rapturous romance

For Technology cannot restrain desires



for all those who are willing to unite with their long distane love...


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Sunshine Valentine

Romance is in the air,
like the blowing breeze.
Love is everywhere,
from the sand to the sea.
Upon the earth the sunshine kisses,
the garden where rose petals glisten.
Hearts beat with a happy tune,
of valentine sunshine for me and you.
The symphony of love is soon revealed,
a valentine love is very real.
Sunshine valentine sparkle your gleaming rays,
shine them on my heart and never let them fade.


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Letter from a Classic Archetypal Dope, January 4, 1960 - Part One

   Part One

Now as I account for myself
I know the fight is over
   You made me feel if I was worth saving
I was worth having
And I knew as the man flattered to grow
    He also learned the crafts of
       clinging on to his sleazy self

When we have to account for ourselves
When we have to take stock of the unaccountable
When we have but ourselves to account for
When all but you and I alone are left
                            standing
Amid the crowds that hover at our presence
                                      in your eye
Amid the lashing lolling tongues

Amid the squelching claws of distrust
And the deriding press of after thought
What are my lean-throated words
What are my bleating pleas of
                                            what
When we have to account for ourselves
In the awakening stillness of other judgment worlds
What account do we have for ourselves
But the rabid thirst of a search
When we may have met in this or that town
But in this land and in this continent
  This world
     This incarnation
This temporal crevice

You in the fresh burst of discovery
I in the aftermath of debunking rediscovery
Time was then held alike that summer
Growing only to fruition in our recognition
My senses were growingly numb from blunt use
  burning when the electric fondling
   dared enter and worry the concealed corners

I saw you then
 Not as the strapping dash of bubbliness
 Nor as the plaitted innocence of schooling youth
Trundling the scenes of covertly revisited crimes
Forming with others the dutiful mannered habits
  Nor as the tall preening blot of shyness
    at the hedge of a group picture
Fronting a personality
Dicing friendship
Simulating elder precepts
Feeling your maidenhood pulsate in reveries
Testing its beat upon hidden hay heaps
Nor as the pure shaft of consciousness
Thrusting into the wake of frightfulness

I saw you
Only as a parcel come to me in mortal need
In a prelatic bestowment of fruits and tins
The salt and pepper of spicy tables

I saw you come to me
  in disguise well wrapped and well meant
I saw you come to me
That low day of my life
As a parcel bound in the selfless vines of veins
  As the blood of transfusion
    As the hope of persistent verse

It was one big inconsumable heart that arrived
Unnamed and unasked for
And I stood and stared
   Stared and stood
No longer in unbelief
I did not live from victuals coursing through
I lived and thrived from gorging one
   Insuperable unknown heart

(Continued in Part Two)


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You Make Me Whole

Here I am again,

I'm so far away from you,

I've fallen apart,

A scattered mess of what I used to be,

I always tried so hard,

I thought I could do this by myself,

I've lost so much since I began,

I've fallen apart,

But you remind me of who I am,

When I see your face,

I know no other love,

I know I'm yours,

You're everything I know I lost before,

I fell apart,

I came to you a broken mess,

Because you make sense of who I am,

You're all I need to be whole again.

I love you...


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Kiss Me

I'm always telling you how I'm 
feeling....
 Why don't you kiss me?
I'm always telling you what I'm 
wanting....
For you to kiss me.. :*

I want to feel your sweet, 
gentle lips....
I want our lips to intertwine... 

I want to know that your mine 
<3

Kiss Me,
Show me what your feeling,
Show me what your wanting...

Unless.... Me is not in those 
categories :-/

I want you to open up to me
I want you to know that we will 
be <3

Kiss Me :*


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Stormy Heart

Heavy flashes smother summer, fierce skies threatens thunder
Drowned window pane mimics her heartbreaking, crying its related pain
As she saddens, storm drenching, suddenly there was more tightening
She grabs holding pillow tightening, tightening breath she attains
Drenched pillow under her face, squeezing her heart in grief she attains
                          Heartbroken from her lover, emotion can not refrain 

He however is heartbroken because he too lost his lover
His anger growing louder as his heart beats insane
Eagerly he wished the sorrow-fiery heart would mellow
Light from sky composed of yellow-yellow for the bolts sustain
The dark cast of dramatic breakdown shows its sustain
                          Heartbroken from his lover, emotion can not refrain 

The clouds clashing bolts suppressing-unevenly in the stormy roaring
Outcast seen-lovers seen and believe owned hearts beat each moment unexplained 
Soaked lips pressed together, lovers fight to remain forever
Stormy hearts violent as the weather, each heart beating a hurricane
Tear drops falling faster than the rain, yet letting go of feelings of vein 
                         Heartbreak gone and can refrain


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The spell life cast on relationships

What happened to relationship compromising
Instead they become equally mentally damaging
practicing the art of being demanding
When they should be actively searching for understanding

When they could be workin on openness 
They remain focused on personal business
And the mistakes grow relentless
Entering late to be rebellious

But noones jealous
Both with their time selfish

They've mastered keeping their hands and bodies to themselves
These chapters reaching lands where everybodies love shelved
And with no antidote to break this spell
It works its magic from twelve back to twelve


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Valentines Box

Once again I’ve let myself become like a little girl in school
Passing out valentines 
Giving “my heart” to everyone around me
Only to come back to my seat 
And find my valentines box empty
Shaking it to hear if a flutter of “a heart” rests inside
But the box is hollow
Is it so bad to want someone
Someone to want me as much as I want them
To want someone to feel for me what I feel for them
I long for this,I yearn for this
For once I’d like to go back to my desk
And find at least one heart
That someone chose to give to me


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Dear Dad

Dear Dad 				
Why don’t you love me? 
The small brown eyed girl asked her father as he beat her at night,
 then with a smile in the morning he’d scoop her up in his arms to play.
Why don’t you love me? 
The bigger brown eyed girl asked her father as he walked out and
never came back.
Why don’t you love me? 
The young brown eyed girl asked her boyfriend of two years,
As he walked out the same door her father did eight years before.
Never to return.
Why didn’t you love me?
The older brown eyed girl asked her father at his funeral.
As she leaned over the edge of his casket and kissed him gently on the forehead,
Tears running down her cheeks.
Why couldn’t you love me? 
The oldest brown eyed girl asked as she lays Jasmine’s and roses
On her father’s grave.
Only a row down from her old boyfriend’s,
With love that never dies.
And her question is answered in the wind, 
As the answer is whispered in her heart.
How could you love me?
If you couldn’t love yourself?


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I Need You

I wrote this for my hubby :)



I Need You
    by Amy Swanson


My heart needs you...
      like water, life
           you are the soil
                my love grows in.


My soul needs you...
       a spark of light
           within my darkest moment
                  you illuminate love.


My body needs you...
         your soft caress
             you tenderly kiss away
                   the outside world.

I need you...
         my other half
              my reason to be
                   only you make me whole.


I love you.


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Tiger

Slinking, quiet, bodies
So much power in those muscles
Don’t get caught in the dark with one


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Who Will LOVE

Who can Love? ALL
Who must Love? ALL
Who will Love?

Love is like that light you see in darkness
Like the notes you play that just sounds right
It's like the triumph you want to caress
It's as beautiful as the stars at night

Love it like that piece that completes the unfinished
Like the sapphire, stands a masterpiece parcel
It is that model that just keeps being furnished
Love is like, like that song that later becomes an anthem

Love is that fantasy that dominates every woman
It's the pivot that holds the world
That platform grinding the heart of a man
It's a dream, better to have than to let fall

Astonishing like the Apollo's Great Step
Connecting like the Bill Gate's Software
Legendary like Micheal Jackson's conquest
Tremendous like the Mount Everest

You CANNOT extinct Love
It eats into the fabrics of those it wants
So, WHO WILL LOVE?
.... EVERYONE

Inspired by Kay Amor... (Even though she might never get the chance of reading it)


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Coffee Love

February
Swirling flakes
Needles on skin
Icicle nostrils
The Coffee Shop
Sitting there
Sweet tones of conversational music
Eyes like twin lasers
Target my heart
Deep connections 
Insides bursting
Endorphins raging
The girl of my dreams
Animated, flighty
Feisty, bouncy
Hair long and curly
(at that time, now long and straightened)

“I drank too much coffee”

I heard that right?
Is she interested in me
or just sensitive to caffeine?

After 14 years
Still drinking coffee


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Your Aura (A Collaboration with Elizabeth Shannon)

The energy around you felt amazing, encompassing my very soul.
You were like a drug I was craving, and I lost all self control!
So intense was my desire, it was like a molten river flowing with need.
My loins were on fire, and the longing in my body language you could easily read.
I was burning to intertwine in your light, to swim in that pinkish hue.
I was yearning to make you mine, and ignite the sweetest passion from you!

The energy was beyond explaining...
Consuming my very being;
Like a drug if I tasted you once...
I knew without you I'd be sick...Fiening.

Mistaken with the many men syndrome.
While cupid continued missing "we."
Our connection is undeniable,
Still love is hard to see.

You've captured my attention,
and you've held all my senses hostage.
Your aura is pulling my whole essence towards you;
Mentally and physically I think you know what to do!

Note: Elizabeth wrote 2nd, 3rd, and 4th stanzas.  She is a good friend who is incarcerated at 
the womens prison in Raleigh, NC  To contact Elizabeth write to her directly: Elizabeth 
Shannon #0919740, 1034 Bragg St. Raleigh NC  27610


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Rave the Day

I went another damn day
Say what you say again now
Then go away
Sift through what’s left of us
Compile a short note for me
Find yourself the good one tonight
When I’m back you might know
Wound up in your cold again
Knowing when to breathe helps
Your language still contends
Body always wins with me in the know
Share your spitting thoughts in me
Parade my sickness like it’s your own
The carnage always looks grim
Colors are always stagnant here
Brilliant way to win, losing
Sadness will always shine for me
Who? What did he even mean
Too kind some would say
Differ the rest, go easy on this
Sit down for the end please
I’ve found the only good I’ll ever have
I went another damn day.


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He Stops my Heart

He walked into my life and into my heart and marked his territory
And I had no options, no choice but just to accept
That somewhere out there
Under my nose existed someone
Who would care enough
To make me smile
Laugh my heart into a knot and soothe my soul
Put me to sleep by simply saying the word “sleep”
Sweep me off my feet literally
Have me gasping in amazement
Pleasant surprises
He wasn’t joking
Trips at night, back and forth and back again
I reflect and it moves me to tears
He stops my heart
He puts the smile on my face
When I have really bad days
When I’m really upset and the world is about to turn upside down
His voice, his presence, his anything and everything makes it all okay
Little did I know that my idle talk of “lets run off together” when I was stressed some years ago would mean oohs and aahs and wows and a painted smile across my face.


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That Special Someone

We are all searching for that special someone
Long lost friend. Or a True lover for example
The person of your dreams....
We are all searching for that special someone

Some find their special someone when their young
Others find it when their old
But whenever you find your special someone
It feels like gold
Some people devote their lives to it
While others let life fly by
Although I haven't found my special someone
I'll be so happy when I find mine

When you find your special someone
You fill an empty space inside you
You could be rich living in a mansion
With fast cars and buff bodyguards
But one is not truly fulfilled
Until he finds his special someone
It doesn't have to be love
You decide who your special someone is


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what if

what would you say?
what would you do?
what if...
what if we were supposed to beat the odds and be together??
what if love should prevail?
what if our love is enough?
enough to show the world that we dont care?
would you be willing to take the chances?
do you believe that?
that we are enough...
that we are meant to be?
i believe that. i believe we can do anything.
anything we set our minds to.
love shouldnt come easy
its gonna have problems, bumps, problems and things that mess up.
but if we make it...through the bad, the good are that much better
everything we go through, all the tests we pass, the ones we fail...
they make us stronger and shows us what we need to fix..
can we make it?
do you think we can?
we just need to believe it
believe in our love and each other...


what if....?


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Broken

With her hair in tangles, her body bruised, her clothes torn. . . 
Her virginity is gone.

A single tear is drawn
and slowly it falls. . . 
and slowly it falls. . . 
and slowly it falls. . .
As it's journey ends, her eyelids close.

And as she sits in the cold, black, darkness of the night,
she opens her eyes and mascara lines her grief strickin life.

Her hair in tangles, her body bruised, her clothes torn. . . 
Her virginity gone.

She slowly slides the black stockings over her thin, boney legs.

What has happened is done and what is done is never to be erased.  
For the memory will be forever embeded in her brain.

She never thought such a crule act would be brought upone her. . . 
But it was, and it ended up being a tornado of broken.


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Fairy Tale Reversed

This is the story 
Of a real life fairy tale
Everything so perfect
Everything so right
But like the saying goes
All good things must end
This is the story 
Of a fairy tale reversed

Neither of them looking
But their paths crossed
What started off as friends
Quickly became deeper
They started to share
Started to thaw out
The ice around their hearts
Put there by others

They showed each other
Parts no one has seen
Both saw something amazing
Deep inside each other
Something broken
Something beautiful
They opened up
To let light shine in

They laughed together
They felt real happiness
They healed together
Things dearest to them
They shared together
Both selfless and giving
Both caring and loving
Both scared and trusting

But all good things
Must come to an end
Because things like this
Are too good to be true
And the fairy tale story
Started to unravel 
The fire started to die
The magic starting to fade

She just couldn’t escape 
What others had done
Couldn’t undo the hurt
Couldn’t peel back the layers
That kept the real her
From being able to live life
Couldn’t escape the thought
That he would do the same

She started to struggle
She started to hurt
She couldn’t get past it
So she started hurting him
The one she searched for
All these years
She started hurting him
To deal with her own pain

She tried to convince him
He deserved so much more
That this wasn’t fair to him
That she wasn’t worthy
Of this kindness and love
He started to pull back
She saw it in his eyes
The breaking point is near

After years of searching
For this fairy tale story
Finding, living, loving it
She sabotaged it all
Convinced he would hurt her
Like all the others did
Afraid of failing him 
Afraid of not being good enough

She hurt him a little more
Each time they fought
Thinking she was incapable 
Of being loved like this
She cursed those who made her
Who left her as damaged goods
Now the best thing she ever had
She was pushing away

When the clock strikes 12
He will be leaving her
Taking away the magic
All the memories they shared
The life she dreamed of
Turning back into reality
She had it all in her hands
And she let it slip and fall

A modern day Cinderella
Who made it to the castle
With her fairytale prince
For the happily ever after
For a life she always wanted
Only to lose it all 
Back in rags and soot
Dreaming of what she had and lost


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A Needy Woman

I just need to be held
I need to be caressed and blessed with your unconditional love
I need to be taken care of
Not like an invalid, but like a fragile piece of art
Wanting to be adored, admired and set your senses on fire
I need the space between us to grow closer like hot cheddar between 2 slices of bread
I need you to be sweet to me like juicy melon on a summer day
I need you to cherish me like found treasure from the ocean
This here, is what I need


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I Never Knew

I never knew that you loved me so, 
you never really let me know.  You
always tried to pretend that you were my
love until the end. 

Then one day when you confess to me,
that all I was in your sight was a tiny
little pea.  That you know how much damage
these words did to me.

I never knew you thought so less of me
and now, I know this is the way it will be.
You never told me not once before that 
you were planning on walking out that door.

I never knew you had all these feelings and
emotions about me inside of you, they are
so terrible until I am really afraid of you.
Is this something you planned to do?

I never knew a person can pretend so well
and all along was nothing but hell.  You made
me think that I was alright with you and there
were nothing going wrong because you were
true.  

All of this has been corrupt, now I got a taste
from your bitter cup and it is enough.  Now
my love I never knew that you were the one
I loved so much and yet in still you caused
me so much pain and hurt.


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Under the broken Moon

Under the Broken Moon
your eyes meet mine 
liquid to a silver spoon
late night cab ride
Amy Winehouse on repeat
with each minute, my hear skips a beat
candle light scents linger
as well as your smooth long fingers
up and down my bare back
like clockwise
you attack
my neck, like a vampire
under the broken moon
with eyes, black and dark
a hammerhead shark
obscure and mysterious
you circle me, your prey
I think of the ways, you will contort
my body, and have your way
melting, slowly, into your muscular
body, until the whispers
soak into the next day
under the broken moon
In the hallway, I hear a creak
silent slumber betrayed
be not my loves defeat
eyes wide, silent, still
minutes drag like hours
none to be spared
I bite my lip
struggle to hold back a
deep moan, as you
pull my long brown hair
under the broken moon


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My ASTONISHING Love

I cannot begin to expound this breathtaking damsel
Grossly beyond definition, synonymous to a priceless parcel
An embodiment of perfection, fashioned with the master pencil
Dominator of her peers, born to exceed the greatest counsel

A baron to beauty, the synopsis of impressing
Her face, so precious a crystal, immoderately dazzling
Her eye's like a sunrise at twilight, stunning and mystifying
Her voice, sonorous and mystique, fabulous and arresting

She's a masterpiece, kick-starting the hearts of many at toll
Features actions that dance to the hidden language of the soul
Her words are like rain drops, piercing into the fabrics of minds, modifying roles
And her love, the humiliating wonder that I shall continue to extol

Instantaneously, she could be an inane trouble maker
A complete and elaborate example of a truculent overtaker
Unleashing the influx of a pestering disorder
Still, her heart vociferously overrules the purest of waters

She's my invaluable jewel, my love for her is abundant
My inevitable achievement, every other girl made redundant
My incandescent comforter, I'm truly highly exuberant
My incontrovertible blessing, yesterday, today, and constant


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My Crush


My crush is a woman, who's not even interested in me.....

She's not even close to my age, but, to me, she is so beautiful, why can't I get her to notice me?

She inspires me in ways I can't even describe, I've written more then I ever have since I've met her....

Why can't I get her to notice me?

Why can't she understand, I want to be more then friends.

Why can't she see I want nothing more then to hold her in my arms, make her feel safe, and, shower her with kisses.

Why can't she see, how much I want to be with her?


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14 Days

14 more days until I start to feel butterflies as my plane lands…
14 more days until I walk out of the terminal….
14 more days until I see you smile when you see me….
14 more days until you embrace me in your arms….
14 more days until I am on my way back to your place….
14 more days until I walk into your house….
14 more days until I get ready to go to bed in your bed….
14 more days until I feel your soft lips press gently against mine….
14 more days until you are laying by my side…
14 more days until you hold me close…
14 more days until we fall asleep in each other’s arms….
14 more days to feel your hands in my hair…
14 more days to feel the warmth of your body…
14 more days to feel safer than I do now…
14 more days to feel like nothing could be better…
14 more days to feel you breathe against me…
14 more days to feel your hands on my body…
14 more days to feel your lips kiss me tenderly all over…
14 more days to feel your hand in mine…
14 more days to feel your heart beat when I lay on your chest…
14 more days to feel you embracing me on the beach…
14 more days to hear your voice in person….
14 more days to hear you say my name….
14 more days to hear you whisper in my ear….
14 more days to hear you laugh…
14 more days to hear us laugh together…
14 more days to hear you read to me…
14 more days to hear us play music together…
14 more days to hear the sound of us together….

14 more days until I am right where I need to be.


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When she smiles

When she smiles, 
Buds open to flowers

When she smiles
Innocence spreads 

When she smiles
The joyous embraces 

When she smiles
Intoxication descends

When she smiles
Its starts to rain

When she smiles
Moon outshines sun

When she smiles
My heart smiles too

When she smiles
Beauty emerges

When she smiles
Colors dances

When she smiles
Cupid wakes

When she smiles
Poetry becomes

When she smiles
In love we fall

When she smiles


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dedicated to the smile of a 'woman', Mature, simple, beautiful, independent yet full 
of love to share and life…, i may want to continue with 'Whisper Beyond Age'


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Summer Steam

Thinking back now my dreams are eerily reminiscent
Of every mistake I made in my decent.
Of every joke and priceless muse,
Every smile that she gave me, as her mind I perused.		

I hate summer, it never gave me hope or want,
‘Till she came in, giving me memories that still haunt.
The sight was so familiar, an air of innate grace,
The mix of unrefined Circean beauty, painted so perfectly on her face.

Oh, Wanton lust, adoration unbound,
Betraying my every move, I could never gain ground.
It happened, we happened, the unceasing desire was filled,
But with a single mistaken word of betrayal, my fate was sealed.

Still I wish for it, to take back that un-kept promise,
To return to her, what she readily gave to me, a glimpse of solace.
What takes years of readiness, sometimes a lifetime to find,
I had for just one moment and then left it behind.

This reoccurring dream keeps telling me that I shall never find,
Not one moment of hearts peace, no more placation of mind.







Brokenness 
Contest Judged:  10/24/2012 12:00:00 AM 
~~2nd place~~


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The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


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The girl dreams are made of

Her glance
Does entrance overwhelms any circumstance
Makes weak legs dance right out their pants 
The horses on her carriage prance

Tongue tied and speechless my mind no defence quite exquisite is her greatness
Her beauty ceaseless like flawless beaches where she visits all show meekness
She blows me kisses that knock me senseless now my emotions are defenseless
I brought a witness that guy was finished heart fully melted less then a minute

When she does speak it enters deep so far the reach it tickles feet
A voice so sweet hummingbirds weep could stop a politicians speech
Her elegance is like a substance God created only for her consumption
Her essence like mental sustenance an unimpeded confidence eruption

She has a smile built to tame wild In midair froze a crocodile
She has a style that was compliled angel led roads since a small child
To feel her touch almost to much
I've seen the wounded drop their crutch.

Sha'ntez Jefferson


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Transforming your exotic Kiss

What kind of lust is this?
Firey daggers of romance
Two-pronged on the table

Your heart at significant crossroads
Fearing he still grips the pulse of dreams

Believe me, when I come full bodied
My stance is definite
Along your quicksand embryo

We've danced through armaggedon 
Reality and the pillows of thought
Plushy laid upon your sleeping grove

Watery graves in thrall beyond the ruminations of language
Music deftly played continues its vast beat
As you and I merge together


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Forbidden

gypsy fruit spilling
across crimson lips 

strained through stockings;
captured freedom imprisoned

we walked today,
you were not there 
as time slapped
the second hand;

restricting the reality
of speech
	held by your breath

tightly formed by my arm
all the while
words fell
on the pavement;
	smashing the forbidden cracks

distance becoming the 
ashen- faced- spider
stealing sleep;
onyx eyes
melancholy wisps of wine
fixed directly
upon the cynical curse
	without Parenthesis


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Crossed a path in vain

We were once a coupled one
Desperate, hungry trying to have fun
In spite of your freedom, you still pick me
This is the inspiration causing glee
Feel me purely satisfied only to flee
You will love my comfy ride indeed
Come to me and shower for free
All you need is to stand by me
You have given all to give to rid
Single-handedly made me live
This song you sing is clear to me
Like Anita Baker said, “You belong to me.”
Wipe away those tears for us
This is not going to be another bust
Or is this the fate of our lust
I can hear the ones hiding again from me
We could only imagine what they mean
Fate tore your heart again apart
We need to talk about this art
Make them flee away and far, you’ll see 
We could discuss them over tea
Rid of me is what you get
When you hide in the shadows, your new pet
Take my heart and make him see
I never thought you would do this to me
We were once a coupled one.


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Letter from a Classic Archetypal Dope, January 4, 1960 - Part Three

        Part Three

Did you not notice then
How uneasy I was in the eye of abundance
How hiding from the surfeit of joy
From whose very object I
Learned not to cry

And so all through with fear
Fear opening fresh fear
Without respite, without cause
Deft day handling stolen night
Within the walls of our breath
   Smarting, whining
   Nudging through illusory pretences
   Waking and making our presence
   Forever shy of ourselves
As if all this were not true
Heart closing on heart
              Excreting gratitude

You have done your part
What more could I ask
Could you then blame me that I fought
Every step of your way to me
For what I was worth to you
I was ready as a knave to soot

And when indeed you took a man 
You took to bed a goon not a man 

Though we account for ourselves
   and whatever we have accounted for
We do not take ourselves apart
   and when we have to account for ourselves
      between you and me
Then what we have to account for is three
You, the goon, and the man or me

But when we have nothing to account for
There is but one lonesome count

And so you came to me
   A thwarted child
       and you told me

         "You .... Me"

© T. Wignesan - Paris, 1957 (from Tracks of a Tramp. Kuala Lumpur-Singapore: Rayirath Publications, 1961.) Rev. 2012.


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When I met you

When I first met you, 
It felt lik I had known you from the start,
I told you my secrets,
and I what I didn't want, ever,
I bet you thought, 
it'd never end,
who would have thought,
we would become more then just friends.
Over a period of time, 
I got to know the real you.
A boy who was so caring and true.
You've survived your life, 
with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you I'd never leave,
because of the feeling that I had inside.
I know you, 
lie nobody else I've ever known,
and sometimes I wonder,
what would I do if you were gone?
So I have decided,
time will answer all my questions.
If it is meant to be, 
time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together,
you can always me me smile. 
Will it ever really end up being, forever?
I guess I will have to wait.
Time will reveal, what lies ahead,
but always remember what I have said.
Meeting you has changed my life, and I really love you so,
the feelings I feel for you, I am never letting go.
Remember me always,
and I will too.
I always think of,
me and you.


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Like Branches

I’ve looked back
Remembering days
And the ways
Our voices persistently sway…
like the branches

And the nights—
Recalling the bright city
Lights
Upon the sidewalks
We told ourselves
We’d walk

But never did

The quiet that followed
It was the least expected

And I was waiting for the crickets
To end this tongue-tied trance

The summer faded
Crickets killed by frost
An endless trance,
That I had never lost

And it all returned one day
Just to be up and taken away
Determined I stand
To return to that land
We’ve discovered.

The crickets never came


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'Leaving behind his heart'


All along he knew this day would come 
where he had to choose 

he never knew it would come so quickly 
it just snuck up on him

fragile, 
emotionally not ready 

How do you say goodbye to 
the one thing that means everything to you?

Just to make others happy? 

If he could walk away, he probably would 
guess the book was not written that way

his happiness - 
not on the agenda 
everyone else takes priority

I have to walk away from you, 
wish I could stay
just remember
it is not you - 

life dictates this is not where I should stay

please take care of my heart 
like I know you will
you're the only one 
I’ll entrust it with--


010920111135


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Rose Petals

Glowing and white, pure liquid flowing
My heart is expanding.
And I hear angels singing a song that fills my soul.
Rose petals are falling.

A slow steady walk, a gentle loping grace.
My smiling man in all black
So gorgeous. So perfect.
So mine.
My face is shining.
The angels are singing.
Rose petals are falling.

A steady warmth
So strong, and so deep
That gentle heat fills me to my core
And I find myself falling

Falling…Falling….falling.


Rose petals are falling.


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To assert their love

He and she are meant to be
Both minds articulate, a compatibility
So much affection, but neither assert
Both seem afraid of getting hurt
Take a chance with Cupid’s bow
If they do not try, they will never know
It is better to have closure, knowing you did your part
Than to stay around thinking with an open heart
Ignorance is not bliss because they would have much less
They should rather take the chance and pursue that happiness
As two birds, sing as they rest
As two lions, roar before they rest
The two of them are meant to be
Stop the dreams and make it a reality.


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MISSING


So, the saying is truer “Absence makes the heart grow fonder” When we’ve fallen as lovers We can’t look aback as a loner Time clocks would seem slower Consider every beat by the hour So precious you are We long to be together Distance had become longer Communication gap must not be wider The missing becomes wishing And wishing becomes missing What is there in loving Certainly is your company The intimacy which goes with ecstasy That brought us assuring and trusting Has been mutual, and all odds and dangers Sometimes makes the circumstance graver And the challenges regardless matters No means to counter, rather remember Missing has to be weathered Lest it withers But when finally with each other The temperature’s higher!
3/8/2012


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Itch

twitching
like an addict
waiting watching
to hear from you
because this itch
needs scratching
i need something
you have
to get my fix
to suck adrenaline
into my parched veins
the high that calms
my anxious
strung out psyche
i hate myself
my trembling fingers
that dial your number
then hang up
i hate
knowing that high
owns me
that high of your voice
your touch
your glance
i can't reach
that itch
that desperate itch
only you can scratch


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First love, you know silly things happen

Sometimes silly things happen,
like that, now, old night,
when we named a star,
just to enjoy the following of the cliche,
the sibling from the one that brought us apart.

Hearts filled with the whole innocence from,
You being the one,
and I being the best one.
What contained bits of the irony of us calling our first love,
"forever",
knowing with our premature fascination for words that,
first,
is the start of a sequence,
is what comes before all others in time or order,
which was indeed what it was.

And sometimes not so silly things happen,
like us growing apart.
or mainly, growing,
for us to realize that we were - actually - not that into each other.

But back then, in those minds and hearts of two young and naive preteens,
we would believe anything that came from the others lips,
those lips that were our firsts and till then our only ones, or so we said...
to keep up with our diminishing innocence.

Do you...
do you remember how our star was called?- I asked, that one last night.
hoping you did remember, knowing you didn't.
To receive the expected answer,
which just confirmed what I already knew, 
and apparently,
you did too.

After that kiss you said good bye,
and never looked back,
which was actually fine,
cause I had already done that,
just that,
well,
not out loud.

Now you know,
sometimes silly things happen,
like me saying it now,
Thank you my first love,
I'll never forget those lips of yours,
goodbye.




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My love for you

Do you ever feel like...
You have made the wrong choise?
You...are hurting someone...that...you love...
I feel like that everyday...when I see them...
I had him all to myself...and...I took him for granted...
And now all he does is let her hurt him...over...and over...
I would never do that...again...I already went through it once...
But she does it over again everyday...I dont see how...
How she could do that and still breathe...
I love him so much it hurts...hurts to breathe sometimes...
I feel like Im...broken...in half...
The one half says, "forget him..."
The other one says, "steal him away..."
I try to listen to the one who says forget him...
But I usually hear the one that wants me to steal him...
Cuz he is the one I am supposed to be with...
I might be 14...but I know...
I know that I'm in love with him...
That he loves me
That we are supposed to be together...
I also know...I will die before she hurts him again...
Even if I die trying to stop it...
Let's just hope that it doesn't come down to that...


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An Unfinished Story

Step by step,
hand in hand,
I was always there for you.
Ups and downs,
lost and found,
I was always there for you.

Even though you never believed in us before,
and you chose the most hurtful way to slam the door,
I was always there for you.

You moved on quickly, never looked behind,
even though I smile today, it still hurts when I rewind.
Through happiness and pain,
every loss and every gain,
I have always been there for you.

The question still exists, the question about us,
my beautiful dreams went up in dust.

Now that you are here in front of me,
it brings back a rush of old memories.
You say hello, you said goodbye before,
I still believe that we could have had so much more.

Step by step,
hand in hand,
I will always be there for you.
through lows and highs,
till the day I die,
I will always be there for you.


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Reunion


teen-aged love in the dark,
as if a dream...

strokes my night with school days, 
'till dawn streams in

.......................................................................................................................
For David William's Contest: Twenty/Twenty
By Carrie Richards 2/26/12


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Today. Tomorrow.

What would you say if I asked you to move in closer?
Lean into me.
Let me be so close I can see the dust on your eyelashes
and smell the fresh cut grass from outside.

Lean in closer to me
So I can pick out all the shades of brown in your eyes.
Let me be so close I can feel your breath
Against my cheek.

Hold me a little closer so I can FEEL your smile
Roll through my body like the waves of a tsunami.
Keep me so close so I can count every glint,
Every sparkle in your eye.

Speak to me of dreams and emotions
So I can fade away into something beyond this idea of reality
Where there is no one but you and I
And the nothingness around us.

Stare at me again with all of your intensity
And hold your gaze.
Allow me the time to wink at you
And smile in childish fulfillment.

Cling me to your skin and wrap your arms around me
And tell me how you feel.
What you see.
So I may know that tomorrow is worth striving for.


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I'll have you in Armageddon

I know you don't fancy my advances,
slim pickens don't describe my better chances.
Got a snowball's chance in hell,
but it fits me just as well,
I know we'll see Armageddon.
But, I've yet to learn my place,
I will try to win your gaze.
-I'll have you in Armageddon.

I know you picture me revoltin’,
and you despise my goin’ through the motions.
You threw out my best bouquet,
there's always next Valentines Day,
I know we'll see Armageddon.
'Cause I know that come what may,
I would do it anyways.
-I'll have you in Armageddon.

When the land drys up, and the damn goes bust,
we will see Armageddon.
But, no matter what the case,
come the day the end of days.
-I'll have you in Armageddon.

When the sky begins to fade, and becomes the Judgment day,
we will see Armageddon.
As he wash away the sin,
you'll see a smile upon my grin,
because the fire and the ash,
can't distract my one thought that,
when the Lord wants it all back,
I will take solace in this fact...

I'll be with you in Armageddon!


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your perfection

You moulded me to your perfection then bounced me around the room 
to show ownership of me to your friends

So I purred and smiled and batted my eyes

Acted asthough I enjoyed it

I loved all of them the way you taught me 
So you were pleased for a while
For a while I was safe

You bent me out of shape and pushed me as far as I could take
So I tried to smile and bat my eyes but I couldn't help but cry 
It made you happy for a while

These chains swing and hurt my wrists as they break and cut my veins

I'm lying here alone unclaimed
I wish to feel the hurt again 
I want the tears upon my face
The cold gleam in your eye
I need you to be happy for a while

The darkness stinks, I'm in disgrace all used up a broken face
Bones are broken beneath the skin
I love your smile you've such a grin
Now at least your happy again


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With You

The water gentle and still
Silent and calm
The sun setting nearby
I sit here with you. 
The sand sprawled messily for miles
And you and me among them
We sit and watch and I love you
I sit here with you. 
The sailboats full of dreamers
Pass by in the orange light
A crab crawls by night 
I sit here with you. 
Your skin burned from the sun 
And new freckles appear on your face
I count every single one
As I sit here with you. 
On a blanket from decades ago
Full of as many memories as years
And just as many tears
I think of them as I sit here with you.
I clear my mind each thought 
Until only one remains
And that’s you next to me 
As I sit here with you. 
I never want this to end 
But I know that it must 
All silver must rust 
I think as I sit here with you.
In your arms tonight 
I’m feeling more than alright
I feel free and right
As I sit here with you.
You wriggle your toes in the sand 
And I'm in your arms
Feeling so alive
when I sit here with you.
Years will pass before we come back here 
And that blanket will be torn more each year
And I fall deeper and deeper in love as I sit here
As I sit here with you.
I must be crazy to be falling so hard
But long ago you captured my heart
And I knew it was you from the start
And now as I sit here with you.
The waves crash down 
And you ask me to dance
And you spin me around
As I fall in love with you.
And I don’t know if this will be enough
But we’re getting tangled up
And maybe even falling back in love
As I dance with you.
Your fingers in my hair
You’ve melted away my every care
And there’s not one moment to spare
As I fall in love with you. 
I want to capture this moment 
And replay it forever
I’ve never had my heart beat so fast
As now when I dance with you.
And the moon comes out 
And you still spin me around 
And I kiss you so proud 
That I fell in love with you. 
This moment goes sober
As your eyes gloss over 
And you sink down lower
And I fall in love with you 
You pull out a ring
And all I can think 
Is you make my heart sing 
I’m so in love with you. 
You spin me around 
We go one more round 
And the sun already went down
But I’m still dancing with you 
This has to be a dream
I've never been so happy
And no one’s ever loved me 
I think as I dance with you 
The moon waves goodnight
And I loved tonight 
Let’s do it one more time
So I can keep falling in love with you. 
Just another chance at that feeling 
So I can feel it everyday 
And feel the motion of the waves
And the way it felt to fall in love with you.


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One Minute

If you should ever return
with promises
of long walks and holding hands,
with the thought
that your heart would cease beating
without my lips
kissing yours,


Then I surrender
this soul
to the journey 
of our forever.


If for one moment
you remembered
the rain and the tears
shared in this tragedy 
of long ago,
and woke up with dreams
of me
chasing you along the secret spaces
of heaven we shared,


Then I'd cease to believe
in broken promises
in rain-soaked tears 
cried for you
and the darkness
you shaped around us,
and in everything sad,
like the moon
during my desolate walks
without us.


If
for one minute,
your heart would beat for me
again,
then this lifetime would be
that minute of forever.


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Pieces

(Jordo)

He approaches her slowly
She is filled with butterflies
Bubbling through her
A smile lights up her face

The warmth of their embrace connects them
She fits against him
Together their bodies are molded to perfection
As he holds her he closes his eyes, sealing the moment in his heart

As they walk hand in hand 
His unhappiness engulfs him
Creating awkwardness
She feels it and knows, this won’t be easy for either

He edges closer to her
Her heart beats furiously
Their shoulders touch as he takes her hand 
Lacing their fingers together

He turns to face her, their eyes locked on each other
His bright green gaze deeply into her pale blue
He leans in
Lips meet, hearts burn with fire, he pulls away

They both close their eyes
Willing this moment to last forever
Both know its time to let go
Their existence together can be nothing more than a fragment of their imaginations

He takes her chin in his hand
Bringing his lips to hers
He pulls her close
Their kiss passionate and magical

As they break apart, she fights back tears
Although it has to be this way
His words still cut her deeply
Leaving painful, invisible scars

She watches him as he walks away
Tears streaming down her cheeks
And her heart shatters
Into a million little pieces


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Light Switch

Light switch: a toggle in which to turn something on or off...

Some would call it a gift
Others would say a curse
But I have dwelling inside me
A switch, a toggle if you may
That most don’t have 
And many wished they did
When I make up my mind
To flip this switch
That’s it
No more
I’m done
The end
There’s no turning back
Something inside dies
Withers away
The roots rot
And whatever’s left
Blows away in the wind
It’s a way of surviving
Easier switching off
Disassociating
Than to keep getting hurt
Let down
Disappointed
Than to have faith in someone
Only for them to toss you away
People aren’t born with this
It takes consistent, diligent effort
To make someone choose 
To install the switch
Or choose to continue to care
Years and years of building up
Until one day 
There’s nothing left to give
All that one can see
Is an unsurpassable valley
Full of debris and garbage
Where others threw your faith 
Your love
Another piece of you away
Once I flip it
The tie between us is severed
Singed
Never again will I choose
To let you near enough
To touch me
See inside of me
Take another piece of me
I’ve flipped the switch
No illumination of me
Only cold, lonely darkness


For the contest: The Secondhand Emotion


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i cant take this

i cant take this
i can do this no longer
i refuse 
i wont think about you
i wont remember that time
i wont think about how you hurt me
all i will remember is my friend who hurt me
because thats all you are
your a friend...
somewhat of a friend anyway
i cant even imagine how dumb i feel
you make me feel like i left myself..
left myself and went to another body
when we were done...i didnt even know me
thats the worst feeling ever...
not even recongnizing yourself..
what does that mean?!
you made me forget myself!
your not going to do it again.
im done.
no matter what.
mark my words.
D.O.N.E.
im done with even you.
im done being the one that is wrong all the time
im done letting you walk all over me
im done not being me for someone that doesnt even want me
the real me...not the me you made me be...


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HATE ME NOW

Hate me now when you can still find your way back home
Hate me now to see what is good for you
Hate me now when your view of me is not what you see
Hate me now in the morning for your meaningful afternoon
Hate me now in this sunny noon so I can melt with the sun set
Hate me now before the crack of dawn for your redefinition
Hate me now for what I didn’t do for you
Hate you now for all the things u didn’t do for me
Hate you now when I can also find myself another home
Hate you now for all the promises you never live up to
Hate you now for I see the sun shines again for me
Hate us together for all the thing we didn’t achieved


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Checkered

I tried to regain whatever
it is that remained from
the shattered glasses
that broke the stillness
of that night.

I tried to smile again
and forget about everything
that makes this heart go into a 
place
where butterflies flutter in the 
breeze.

I tried to forget about
that day when the rain didn't 
stop falling
just when you decided not to 
come.

Time will pass.
The white statues by the park
will crumble but not
the memories of the walks we 
have spent there.

Time will pass.
I wish our memories would too.


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Painful Goodbyes

Painful Goodbyes

I want to stay with you

but trust me when I say I have to go.

I don't want to leave but my time is over

and we can't go on.

I always will love you

though your tore my heart in two

I can't find what possibly went wrong

but i have to accept that now you are gone.

No more sweet, soft, good night lullibies

cause now we are exchanging painful goodbyes.


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To my lost Mistress

Humor dispels rumour
You can't but want to stay happy though
But Lo
If the rumor be of you
Thank God your presence still lingers
Stupid stuffs all around 
It's a call for the ultimate
Walk on high, and pad your shoulders
Walking tall is the first step
Of course, forget not you've got a rep
Please, please I pray, mind them not
Even the blind that seeth not
Perceives and say she's hot
Please my fair lady, mind them not
What you are they are not
The reason you see they are wrought

Our affairs here are soaked
We tread days in flitting haze
As exams beckons 
While we are yet to cross rubicon
We only look to creator of unicorn
Not to look on us with scorn
For exams sneaks
While we sit at the bar taking steaks

Pray thee I, maybe your prayer 'll do
As we look to the day....
Let's regale ourselves with the thought of you
While we see ourselves only in dreams


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Secret Crush

Lately I’ve been getting kind of shaky
When you get near me
Even the sound of your name
Makes my head feel crazy
And I can’t help but to smile

Now I find myself lost in my thoughts
Every time I think of you
Just being in your presence
Makes my heart race
And I lose the words I want to say

I wonder what telling you
What I feel would make you say
If I took the chance of showing you
What I feel about you
Would you think different of me?

I could always keep this to myself
And you’ll never know my secret
But that just wouldn’t be right
So I guess I should do what I must do
To tell you how I feel


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i love you too

looking for our place on the line of like or love 
emotions soaring in the sky like a lost dove
the one lonely bird just trying to make its way
the little bird just needs one friend to make it stay
having this companion is more than enough
but one without the other, and life gets tough
two doves on the line of love, trying to get through
when all the one wanted to say, was i love you too


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Our Poem

Tonight we will start our poem
We will grab ahold of each other, writing love letters.
We will kiss, letting the words flow from our mouths
We will hug, giving the stanzas room to roam
We will embrace each other, giving rhythms to rhymes
We will love each other, giving meaning to letters on a page


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Candra and Idunn

There he stands across from her,
                With the invisible wall between them, 
                          Knowing that chance to be together would be the cost of deat,.
                                   So they stand apart from one another in two different dimensions,
     That neither can reach,
         Never will he touch her Beautiful  face,
             That shines like the moon in the swallowing darkness, 
                Never will there lips touch that he has kissed many lifetimes before,
 
Never will she feel the warmth of his love, 
      Which once sustained the lonely coldness of her empty heart,
          Never will their bodies touch with the fiery passion they longed for, 
              These desire have been has denied in this lifetime,
                        And powerless to change their own destiny,
                             They stand apart whispering the word of love.


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As I Am

I never promised you perfect. 	
I can promise you drama, bad jokes, tantrums, and tears. 
I can also promise you moments of quiet reflection, infinite trust, passionate reconciliation,   
      and unconditional love…no matter what. 
When I love, I love completely; body, heart, and soul; I know of no other way. 
Push me, kick me, cut me to the bone; you will not break me. 
I thrust when I should parry; advance when I should retreat. 
I am not wounded and broken; some damsel in need of rescue. 
I am a beautiful, frustrating, complicated mess...and I like it that way. 
So save your judgments; open your mind...and heart.
Love me…as I am…if you dare...


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This Boy and Me

I loved a boy
His name was Free

He had eyes of fire
When he looked at me

We lived by the sea
This boy and me

Given to kindness
To all and me

But with a dark past
This boy, not me

Sometimes we talked
This boy and me

Sometimes he loved
This boy to me

We grew old together
This boy with me

He went above
This boy, not me

I went below
Not this boy, but me




I fought to see him
This boy named Free


I will always love you
Said this boy to me

"You sinner"
Said god

"You hypocrite"
Said me

For you loved your son so
But forbid for me

To love a man the same
As you did me

For I give my soul
To this boy named Free

A thousand fold
I would give it to Thee

So don’t condescend
Nor throw the stone

Lest the first sinner
Be better than me.


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Late Night Thoughts

Midnight,
More feelings, new thoughts.
My mind swirls around you, 
But my feelings don't matter to 
you.
When my feelings don't matter 
to you,
They almost no longer matter 
to me. 
Nosy minded, curious to know,
Who my heart is set on. 
After you find out it's you, 
It's old news. 
No cares, just silence. 
Awkward glances. 
No talk. 
No matter. 
Hurt, I'd step away from my 
feelings. 
They don't matter to you, 
To anyone. 
Your cold quiet swallows me 
whole. 
I'm almost drowning in my,
Midnight.
More feelings, new thoughts.
I wish you'd just grab my hand,
But you're numb to me. 
Unknowing. 
Midnight. 
More feelings, new thoughts.
It's just a crush, no big deal.
SNAP. 
Walk away, for good.
Maybe. 
My feelings don't matter to 
you. 
They don't matter to anyone. 
When they don't matter to 
anyone, 
They almost,
Almost. 
Almost no longer matter to me. 
Almost, 
Midnight. 
More feelings, new thoughts. 
At least we're friends. 
Not enough.
If we're friends, 
I have feelings for you. 
You're interested in my 
feelings,
Aren't you? 
Until you find out it's you. 
Walk away.
Awkward glances, no talk. 
You're so mean. 
But I wish you were my mean, 
Midnight. 
I want to tell you, 
I haven't. 
Because I know what will 
happen. 
SNAP.
Walk away. 
But You know that too,
So why do you ask? 
It's you, 
Midnight. 
Shhh.


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When a GIRL is quiet

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
Questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
Around
When a GIRL answers "I’m fine" after a
Few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be here forever
When a GIRL calls you every day,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL texts you every day,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
Without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
Her future. When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
Than that.


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Stephen

Words can not describe how I feel
when you put your arms around me.
When you kiss me, I am whole.
When you tell me that you love me, I still get butterflies.
When you are not with me, I feel empty - 
incomplete. 
You bring me so much joy and love 
even when it is tough to deal with me.
You are the sweetest man to me, 
you put everything ahead of you.
You make me smile when i cry, 
laugh when I am angry.
I trust you with absolutely everything
I know you will never hurt me.
You are truly an amazing man.
You are my best friend, 
my love,
my forever.
<3


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I Do Not Want To Be Afraid Anymore

I want to be your guardian.
I want to be your resort when you're at you're lowest, 
I want to be the wings to lift you to a safe haven.
I want to be the only existing thought in your head at night before you fall asleep.
I want to be the one to make you happy with yourself.
I want to fold you up and embrace every fiber of your being.
I want to protect you from everything, including yourself and me.

I do not want to be the object holding you back in life.
I do not want to be what you waste your time on,
doing all of the above mentioned things,
when you could be spending your time on meaningful things.
Such as loving yourself. 
I do not want you to know as much as you do about me,
my weaknesses, the struggles I face daily with myself and my inner demons.
I do not want you to know these things because I'm scared.

I'm scared of you using these against me some day.
I should be afraid, or at least I think I should,
because that's all that everyone else has taught me to be.
I do not want to be afraid anymore.

Of course I really do want to be what you waste your time on,
and of course I really do want you to know all the things you know about me,
I'm just afraid.
I do not want to be afraid anymore..

I thought being with you would fix me, would mend my broken pieces.
I was wrong. You can help me, but only I can entirely fix myself. I am afraid.
I'm afraid of change, I'm afraid of being so dependent on you.
I do not want to be afraid anymore.

I guess I don't know what I want.
Because the only thing I've spent my time on wanting for the last year at least, is you. Every little thing about you down to the cute little
mole above the right side of your lip. The little hairs that develop on your chin if you don't shave for a couple of days.
Everything about you drives me crazy. You possess all the things I look for in a person
and I didn't even know I wanted all of those things until I met you. 
You've treated me better than I ever imagined I deserved to be treated. 
I could never fathom I deserved to be treated with such kindness,
because all I've ever known is the hatred from myself.
I don't know what I would do without you in my life.
I'm scared of what would happen if you weren't there.
I do not want to be afraid anymore.
Hopefully, I don't have to be.


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Done For Good

Her look that day,
Should have told me everything she could not say.
Unprepared, I stared.
She walked away.
As she tossed our ring,
I felt the sting.

If I’d known then
How I feel today,
I'd heal the abscess and my heart’s decay,
Before her affection left me there that day.

JS Lambert


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It Looks Like Love to Me

You smile
You ask
No easy task
To put it into words
I look
And see 
Then say, it looks like love …to me

It’s that blanket on a winter night
You wrap around me oh so tight
The way you want to make things right
Honey, it just has to be, 
It looks like love…to me

You laugh
You say
There’s no other way
To be just who you are
I smile
Happily
Then say, it looks like love …to me

It’s the way you take me in your hold
You never let our love grow old
There’s not one doubt, for me I’m sold
Honey, it just has to be, 
It looks like love…to me

If love was ever one person
Then babe it would you
There is no other word for this
That’s why our love holds true

You look
Then smile
All the while
You never look away
My eyes
They see
It looks like love… to me

Yeah, honey
It looks like love… to me


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Boys and their Deceit

Why is life so hard?
Problems coming like a pack of cards!!
Family trouble, car trouble,
the worse is boy trouble.
Using their words as their swords.
They call you, they text you,
they say you're their babygirl?
But that's not true.
They say they love you,
from their brains, not their hearts.
Some boys are such a pain.
Why won't they go away?
They play with your heart,
then throw you away like dirt,
Why do we go through pain?
Because good boys are rare,
Bad boys cheat on you,
they break your heart.
But in the end,
 they want you back,
Why can't they leave me alone?
Because they think they're the best.
Like if, give me a break,
Boys are such a pain,
it is best to abstain.
           xxx


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Dear Diary--

Dear Diary...
     In class today, those dreamy eyes of grey
     They looked my way!! O My Gosh... No way!!!

Dear Diary...
     Remember that boy just across the aisle?
     Another glance at me....or...did he smile??

Dear Diary...
     He asked to borrow a pen from me!!!
     I thought I'd faint...I thought I'd pee!!

Dear Diary...
     After class today, he walked me out
     He likes me....wow!!! ...I want to shout!!

Dear Diary...
     He asked me if I'd go to prom next week
     What'll I wear?? Geez.. I'm gonna freak!!

Dear Diary...
     The dance was dreamy, was in the gym
     with paper streamers....and me with HIM!!

Dear Diary...
     The lights were low, he held me tight
     Had major goosebumps all through the night!!

Dear Diary...
     The evening ended, last song was "Misty"
     Guess what dear diary?....."THAT'S WHEN HE KISSED ME!!!"

Dear Diary...
     Two weeks have passed, and we're going steady
     But a new kid's in town, well ..his name is Freddy.

Dear Diary...
     He's really cute, he likes me too!!
     Oh dear diary...What should I do?????





Inspired by Mr. John Heck's contest "Egads...My First Kiss"


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Polarity

Polarity, inception within a feigning ascension. Bleeding continuity grasps doubtful 
insanity. Paths diverging into a convoluted bereavement, a stagnant validity.


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How Do You Ask a Question

How do you ask a question
That you know will end in a fight
That you know will breed anger
But it may put to ease
The sickness I feel
The thoughts that plague me

How do you ask a question
That sits tucked away
In the darkest of corners
But is always present
Always on the brink
Of spoiling and turning things sour

How do you ask a question
That seems so far-fetched
That makes you question yourself
If you’re seeing things not there
If you’re just a little crazy
If maybe there’s truth to it all

But I can’t deny this feeling
Uneasiness that eats at me
Impeding fear of getting crushed
Debating whether I really want to know
Because it’ll ruin everything
How do you ask this question?

I’ve played the role of The Fool before
Being ignorant of what was happening
Blinded by what I thought was love
Unwilling to see the ultimate betrayal
Best friend and lover….of many
I won’t play The Fool again

Please tell me how to ask a question
That puts trust on the line
That puts love on the line
Before it becomes too late
Before it eats me up inside
So I won’t play The Fool again


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If lonesome had a name

If lonesome had a name

So strong are the words left unspoken

So many nights I still lay awake thinking

There must be a reason my pride.....fear....sense gets the best of me

Will this be worth it in the end?

Succumbing to emotions can never happen

Feelings are out of the question

But.......

Sometimes I long for your grasp.....your gaze.....tender stroke on my delicate
skin......soft pressure on my lips........subtle vulnerability of your hand placed in mine.

Then I come to my sensible being,  tell myself its better this way

Because something won't let u be ready........affectionate......emotional......mine,  nor I

But oh how I long for you in my night.........day.......dreams.........heart........soul

If lonesome had a name


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HER

I want to taste her.
Not anyone specifically,
I just crave to know 
what it all could really mean.
I would fall for her. Knock down these Berlin sized walls I have up. But my world sucks because Her is just a figurative way of discribing something that may never come.


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Boardwalk

On the boardwalk, skies and waters a majestic blue
On the boardwalk it’s me and you
Together hand in hand.
Together we just bought this square of land.
Monopolizing from
People who landed to hear the wave’s drum
People who landed to hear the ocean rumble
Making it last.
So this game doesn’t go to fast.
Richer by the time
People land on the boardwalk and pay a little more than a dime. 
This is the boardwalk palace.
This boardwalk for my king.
And I shall be your Queen
On the boardwalk, skies and waters a majestic blue
On the boardwalk it’s me and you
Together hand in hand.
Profiting more than money from this land.
More than beauty, riches, and power 
But the one thing that really towers
Love 
And the memories
On the boardwalk, skies and waters a majestic blue
On the boardwalk it’s me and you
Together hand in hand.

(FOR CONTEST ENTRY) Scottie dog–Vienna Bombardieri Iron–Richard Palmer Race car–Destroyer~Poet Thimble–Anne Lise Andresen Top hat–Brittany Caldwell Horse and rider–Skat Shoe–Alicia Lorraine Mathes Wheelbarrow-Christina Vasquez Banker- Joe Flach Police officer-Nancy Jones Monopoly Person- Carolyn Oclaire


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The Sweetest Thing

We sit back.
You wrap your arms around me
With our bodies pressed against each other
You plant kisses on my neck
So delicate, yet so intense...
This is where I want to be.

You explore my body, so gently.
Your touch leaves me breathless
Craving each and every part of you
But taking only what you will allow
Hoping you will give me your all...
This is the sweetest thing.


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A trauma that won't go away

I still  think the world of you,
 Just so you know.
Spaces between my fingers, 
 Where yours used to go.
Your arms that held my waist,
 Are replaced with aching pains.
I put myself in my cocoon,
 So time will heal my open wounds.
But the scars still remain,
 A trauma that won't go away.
Since we've been apart,
 I've been writing only the words of a broken heart. 


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From the Restaurant to Your Van

We tipped the waitress too much,
both feeling inclined
to spend our saved-up good right then.
And as the woman at the door
said, "You make a really beautiful 
couple," I stepped out

into the uncertain evening: 
the seven-block voyage 
from the restaurant to your van.
In thirty-something degrees, your 
right hand hibernates deep 
in the pocket. The left, however

dangles free. Like a white crane 
with open feathers, it spreads 
against the black of your pea coat
and my fingers want to strangle 
that bird, but a sign flashes 
"Don't

Walk."  
Your knuckles are lonely notches: 
the vertebrae of a fetus 
hanging limp. And I'd hold you
for nine months if I could,
in the belly of my palm

but we're approaching the corner. 
You dig for your keys
as I wonder how many minutes
are left on the meter.
How many coins it would take
to make time stop beating on.


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The Man With Blue Eyes

There once was a girl
That had beauty and grace
Though beaten and broken
Had a bright smiling face

There once was a girl
Who felt aged and wise
Her heart was as large 
As the stars in her eyes

There once was a girl
Who longed to be loved
Though she never quite 
Found it till the man with blue eyes

He was strong and sound
He was older and wiser
Wipped the tears from her face
So trusted the man with blue eyes

There once was a girl 
Who fell for the lies
Beliving and trusting
The man with blue eyes

There is now a girl
Her smile erased
Her heart splitting and bleeding
A lesson she learned 

From the man with blue eyes



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Cheaters

Why do people cheat??
because it makes them feel,
or look good among their peers?
No, they do it because they are stupid.
They don't care for the promises they make.
They are not faithful.
My ex-boyfriend was like that.
But the difference is,
he cheated on me,
with not just one girl,
but three girls!!!
Why would someone do,
something like that?
I cried for days when I found out.
I stopped talking to him.
It was hard,
but i did it.
Because i had to.
No one deserves to be treated like that.
This is a true story...
I have had a broken heart once,
he was my first boyfriend,
and I don't intend to go through it again...


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Acid Rain

Once a upon a time, I stood next to you
Hand in hand, secure and safe
On firm ground, so tall, so beautiful
 in the glowing light of the sun
Like living in a fairy tale
But fairy tales are just that…tales
And the magic began to fade
Your words were once rays of light
Now began to pollute the air around me
I try to speak up and put up a fight
To use my strength and courage
You were like smog settling over a city
Nothing could keep you at bay
Trying every way possible
To clean up the damage done
But it was all in vain
The sun disappeared behind the blackness
As the clouds rolled in
No longer feeling safe
No longer feeling secure
I put on a rain coat
Hoping the rays of light
The goodness that was left
Would defeat the storm on the horizon
But the first drop fell
And then the flood gates open
I open my umbrella
Huddled underneath
Fear of the unknown
Building deep within me
Your toxic words now like acid rain
Begin to eat holes in my umbrella
Leaving me exposed
As drops start to singe my raincoat
No longer protected
Putrid, melting plastic invades my nose
Your words burning my face
Burning my heart
Drowning out my voice
No longer beautiful
I began to corrode
I stand in the rain
Leaving wounds that will scar
No longer standing tall
I hang my head 
As I stand in your rain

 


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As Delilah snips a piece of Samson's hair

I remember that valley, Samson.
I warned you then—I don’t like cocky-boys, 
so you worked in that right amount of modesty. 
And those sturdy looks could conquer hearts
and Philistines; if they wanted to, when,
they wanted to.   

You remember that valley, Samson?
When you listened 
to whatever I had to say. 
We went out for dinner or drinks.
Samson and Delilah…
We ruled on every corner like Kings.
Forever! Inked on our arms
instead of rings.

I never asked you to promise me 
the things men do when all they want is 
taking advantage of you.

Why is God always on the side of men
like you? And I loved this hair, Samson,

good thing it’ll grow back.


Character:  Delilah
Samson and Delilah (1949 film)
The screenplay, written by Jesse L. Lasky, Jr. and Fredric M. Frank
Poem by Mike Butler


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One Less Broken Heart

Every life tells a story.
An open book of love, joy and mourning,
wind, rain and storming.
Search for the truth,
sweeter than the passion fruit.
Some things are better left unsaid.
Silence instead.
One less broken heart for me my friend.
Gone, gone away from me,
like the autumn leaves that fall from the tree.
So free, so free.
Time will find a way to numb all pain.
Don't call my name.
The red rose you gave me wilted in the rain
What a fragile song of misery,
this life that told a story.
I am tired of the luminous glow that fades.
The brilliance in my life that you erased.
Run, run away.
Far away.
Like the eagles fly, one less lie, one less lie.
Yeah! Every life tells a story, 
like an open book of morning glory.
One less broken heart for me.
Gone, gone away from me.
So many fish in the sea.
Big fish in the sea.


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Creating Memories

A year of hearing your laughter
Seeing you smile
Of seeing the beauty within
Your scent you leave behind
Getting to know the terrain of your body
Learning each of the looks you give
The little things that make you irresistible
The happiness you’ve brought into my life
Living each day together
Getting to wake up next to you
Years worth of walls
Crumbling to the ground
Sharing things no one has ever known
Feelings stirring deep inside
Reviving what once was dead
Feeling a love like no other
Experiencing so many things 
Together for the first time
Helping one another
To strive for our dreams
And seeing them come true
Overcoming our demons
Standing by each other’s side
Learning what makes each other tick
Drawing closer on a deeper level
No one knowing me any better
Giving to each other
The things we’ve always wanted
From another and never had
A year of making memories
Memories both good and bad
And seeing us make it through
The bad times to come out stronger
Seeing each other grow in God
Getting to see God bless our lives
Looking back on the past year
We’ve both become different people
Bringing out the best 
Encouraging each other
A year of creating unforgettable memories
And if I had to do it all again
To get to where we are right now
I’d do it without question
Just for a year of creating memories
Memories with you…


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Playpen

They talk and talk
Running in circles
Trying to make sense
Of what they have, between the two of them.

They both have a lot of baggage, I suppose
Old wounds that haven’t entirely healed
Memories that tug at them when they indulge in reminiscence
Tears they have never shed, anger they have never expressed.

They are a bit like wary children,
Meeting for the first time across a playpen
Wanting to play, but cautious too
Awkward and shy, not sure what will happen
If he isn’t good at peek-a-boo
Doesn’t like to color the flowers pink and blue
And many such things which she likes to do.

Or worse yet, what if he is mean and a bully?
Pulls her pigtails and makes her cry
Destroys her drawing, draws a mustache on her pretty butterfly?
So she is cautious, and quiet as a mouse
Peering at him through her lashes, too shy to tell him to come close.

He, on the other hand, tries to look bored and impressive
And like he has done this a million times
Like he knows a lot, lot more than he actually does
The alphabet, the spelling of his name, songs and rhymes.

He has met girls before; and thought they were silly
Squealed too much, wore clothes that were too frilly.
This girl was no different; she wore a pink bow and carried a dumb doll
But there was something about her, which made him think girls weren’t so bad after all.

She, on the other hand, had never talked to a boy before
Nor had she ever wanted to
Boys were aliens to her, those loud sweaty things
Who eat their nose boogies, and always have something naughty to do.
But this boy, with his big floppy bunny ears;
Something in his voice and his laugh, too
Made her want to sit next to him, and pat his hand when he got a boo-boo.

So they sit, on far ends of the playpen, sneaking peeks at each other,
Making up their minds to ask the other to play together
And changing their minds the next instant-
Maybe it’s not a good idea to be so blatant.

Maybe they will become friends, before the bell rings, before the day is over
Or maybe they will be strangers forever.
However it turns out, they will be okay
Because that is children’s way-
They always end up finding someone with whom to play.

Neither of them knows how they feel about each other
Or if anything at all
All they know is that they want the other to stick about
At least long enough for them to figure it out.

So that is the story, of two grown-up children
Trying to make life happen
Reaching out for something that looks golden
But then again
Even if it they end up mistaken,
They’ll eventually find the right person
Somewhere in this big wide playpen.


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his sister

i have a best friend and he is really happy
and is loved by everyone around him
especially his sister

you see usually brothers and sisters 
fight all the time
if you have one then you know what 
im talking about

but his sister is paralized....
it happened to her
that one and a million chance
that someone would get hurt
and it happened to his sister

now he takes care of her and shes almost 21...
her whole body is paralized
and he just informed me that
she doesnt have much longer

he loves his sister more than he
loves himself
he is so wrapped up in helping her
and he refuses to give up on...
his sister


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Letter from a Classic Archetypal Dope, January 4, 1960 - Part Two

             Part Two

From that moment onwards
Not when the fingerless muscles unclasped
    the indented bones
But from that moment of knowing
   from that very moment of sustenance
That day of human unbelief died unsung
And the depth of human grief buried long
      bestirred a momentous song

It willed within me it were man
   Some kindly soul no less
But in surfeit laid aside
   The biscuits of distaste

It willed within me it were some organisation
   Hurrying to the bed of despair
With the spare crumbs of conversion
   The Holy Infant to succour

I willed then it were a friend
   From want of excuse to teach
His fooling heart to bleat
   Robbed his conscience of a treat

I willed and willed and never
   In my thankless memory
Sat the image of my enemy
   The fulcrum of my singular division

And when that day I delved into my depths
   To find the words of irreproachable thanks
I saw you turn and stamp the light
   Of my begging steps of penance

I turned, rebuffed
  Should I have turned and gone
Away from the stony snarl of thanklessness
Away from all that I saw in that
      One inseparable act
Away from my insurrection
From the illimitable doubt of humility
Far away from all the coquetry of cunning

No man was divided more
   Between himself and self
Between life and cherished death
   Astride on the unwelcome threshold of emptiness

Had I come out of dying
   And yet the chained stick of fate
Was certain to unravel for me
   No less, no more, the vicious sting of hate

And revived with urgency's gratitude
Twice over, reconditely, I was blessed

(Continued in Part Three)


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A Blank Sheet of Paper

A Blank Sheet of Paper
A blank sheet of paper
lies on the table.
It's a reminder
of a life uncertain.
As I take a seat, 
I can't find a thing to write.

A blank sheet of paper
appears in my notebook.
It's a reminder of what we once had.
As I look back, 
I don't know what to write.

A blank sheet of paper
is placed in front of me.
It's a reminder
of what we soon will have.
As I think of you, 
the paper will soon be filled.

A blank sheet of paper
sat on the table.
It was a reminder
of what we had together.
As I remember you, 
I find plenty to write.


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I am not staring

No darling, I am not staring at her curvy hips
Trust me, I am not looking at her luscious lips
No, I am not beckoned by her big brown breasts
Neither am I lusting for her perfect long legs


Her sleeveless, bare-back blouse is nothing
Just like her six foot frame that’s fit for modeling
I didn’t even notice the short skirt she is wearing
Not even her cleavage, shiny bracelet or earring


Who cares if she has spotless, silky-smooth skin
Or that she has a pointed, picture-perfect chin
Baby you better believe me because it is true
You thought I was staring but I was thinking of you


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I Will Kill You

You kissed her so sweet
You respected her standards
You were so adorable and gentle with her
But I never knew you were a monster
A monster that betrayed and hurt
If only I could get my hands on you
To kill you before you can say
I didn't mean it
Are you senile
You meant every word you said
Don't deny it
I'll kill you if i have to
Do you know how much pain you have caused
She is everything
She is nothing like an ugly, lying, slut
You're just a jackass
That's right
I meant it in the worst way possible
Hurt her again
I dare you
So help me God
I will kill you


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Sails torn

Sails torn

Grasped and rent
in the storm
from the ashes
to be reborn
...
We burst
A new and see
The trust we trust
Quenches our thirst

Your breeze, heaven sent
In the strong a fire burn
No flashes 
An uninviting storm

We thirst
To truly be
In ourselves
Seeking trust

I have, there, I went
Lowly borne
Hoping to pass
Avoiding the storm.

rlm '11


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Up to up

Fed up
fixed up
dressed up
turned up
stood up
gave up
p.......up
fed up.

Peter Dome. copyright.2012.


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Dark love revival

Hate, depression, and sorrow
wrap me in a shroud of darkness
suffocating me, making me feel empty
it hurts not knowing happiness
yet there is light, hope to help me through
why is this little light
this tiny bit of warmth
in all this cold 
how does it survive
why does it stay
is it trying to help
is it love, is that why it's warm
is it hope
is that why it's bright
or is it a person
I love in a manifestation of light
It's the girl I love and always will
MY LOVE


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The fighting spirit

How do you settle a major fight with a friend??
I mean a best friend??
Imagine if you had a bff from your childhood days,
and one from your teenage days,
won't you want them to meet??
But what if it turns the friendships sour?
If they want to be together,
but you warn the girl of the past,
relationships of the boy..
What was I supposed to do,
if she didn't listen?
Now none of us are talking..
It is hard,
because we used to share everything together,
now it is just a memory,
etched in my mind,
forever and ever...
       xxx


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She asked me to define whats real

Whats real is the way we make each other feel
Whats real is my heart you quickly did steal
Whats real is my life I'll share with you
whats real is I'll be here to guide you through

All the troubles that plague without options to choose
we'll lock them in cages and call it a zoo
Whats real your my sweet tooth im on dialysis
I've eaten so much and that chocolate is rich

Whats real is together we could brave any weather
through natural disaters well fly we got feathers
Whats real is We've been here before its foretold
I am that image you foresaw down the road


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Love in a shadowy doorway

Well maybe I'll find love
in the shadowy doorway
of a tenement building
'neath a bullet grey sky.

Silver shrapnel will rain
down
soak our leathery feet
watered and overgrown.

Love in a shadowy doorway.


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Set You Free

Set you free I'm on the outside looking in i hear your words, as they're sinking in my head's filled up with your promises but what remains is so much less I'm on the inside looking out i see the signs as they're singled out redflags pop up and the end is near i might be blond, but not dumb my dear SO if you wanna go out and see pretend we're not exclusively I give you my blessing darlin for you no longer are with me I set you free, i let you be I set you free I'm on the edge of no return u take my hand but i feel it burn it's like the devil's keeping score while angels speak & I cant ignore Intuition is something I've learned to trust upon as to not get burned Surgesting hell, I know it's sad the devil's own is someone i had So if you wanna go out and play seduce and excuse your ways into the world of rock n roll where lust rules, love's on hold I'll set you free, i let you be I see you free Oh if you wanna go out and see pretend we're not exclusively I give you my blessing baby for you no longer are with me I set you free, i let you be I set you free, I set you free I set you FREE!


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An Emptiness Inside

~An Emptiness Inside~

Right now I'm sitting here
Staring into space
Feeling so all alone

As tears begin to fill my eyes
And I begin to cry
My heart suddenly feels an emptiness inside
That here lately I just cannot hide

If only you were here to hold me,
I'd feel so protected...
With you by my side

My world feels so sad and blue
Feeling as though I'm forever going to lose you
Our love I thought was forever true?

You told me just the other night
That I was only a simple friend
I then began to believe that our relationship
Was only just pretend

I've pleaded with you to help make
This relationship of ours last
Baby, I beg of you...
Let's not dwell on the past

I'm so sorry if I have hurt you
But never forget my love for you
Was always true

Baby, I pray that I can 
Mend your broken heart
But for now I will continue to look forward
Day by day
Pray continually...
That we never, ever drift apart


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THE KUBO AND THE SEA


The bahay kubo at one side And the sea at the other side Put together is one against one A disastrous..a sanity Well, it depends to someone But, inspiration it can be The connections and the maneuverings Could be definitive The kubo signifies stability, So tranquil, so humane While the sea is a challenge The sea sometime Gets wild, unrestrained But can subside Ride on and enjoin Have faith and have fate intertwine.
Meanings: Bahay kubo is a Filipino term which means a small hut made up of native materials.


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Spoil Me

Is it that such a bad thing?
To want to tell you everything?
I need to hear your voice,
I need that reassurance.
I need you.
I have you, 
but you're busy.
I respect that but respect my need.
Do i make too much time for you?
Or is that me putting you first?
I love you but i want to be spoiled.
Just everyone in a while,
i want to be the thing that comes first and feel bad for being spoiled.
I want to tell you to pay attention to others because you're hung up on me.
I want to feel like you really would rather be no where else.
Everyone once in a while,
Just spoil me.


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I See You-

As I watch the couple
Holding hands as they
Walk the beach
To the setting sun …
	I see you

Watching the empty swing
Sway in the breeze
Pushed only by the
Hand of the wind …
	I see you

When the moon lights
The sky and the stars
Dot the heavens
With their magical light …
	I see you

And when I look into my heart
As I lay at night
And the grin spreads
Across my face …
	I see you


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The Note

The Note
Back in the dusty toe
Of the library cove
Was where we would go
Not with any books in tow
Just the need to let love grow
With you I would lose all control

Every once and 
a while we
Would leave each 
other sensual love notes.

Years later I went back 
After my divorce just
To satisfy my curiosity 
That was about 
To make me choke.

Back in the corner of the cove
In our old Grey’s Anatomy Book
Was where I saw my latest love note,

You left your name 
Your email address
And you’re handsome 
Picture for an 
Old bloke.

My heart leaped for joy
When I saw your note.


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I don't like you but I love You

I don’t like you but I love you!

Yes, those are the lyrics to that popular song.

I hate that I have come to feel that exact way about you,

but why do you;

 tell me my paintings look like a child constructed them,

 push my bangs to the side and tell me to grow them out,

proclaim that I am only pretty in the town we live,

refuse to meet my friends,

and say I should not have children because I am unstable?

It’s as if

you don’t like me, but you say love me.


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The "worst" part of being the other half

It feels like I’m losing you
that connection
it is slowly but surely
slipping beyond my grasp,

I’m scared, I don't want 
to lose the best thing in my life
I don't want to say goodbye
to the other half that makes me whole,

I would miss everything 
about you, about us
I’m not willing to let go
I’m tying an invisible rope
around us unseen and unbreakable

because what we have
doesn't have a name
cannot be explained only felt, 
with no questions asked
and no answers expected... 


6TH PLACE
In my "worst" poem ever 
Sponsored by: PD


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Aeonia part 1

AEONIA-
   AEONI-
      AEON-

Vestal purity, all men succumb- the Virgin whose eyes stare silver beams- crystallizing his very soul. He,  and all who gaze upon she.

   Aeonia writhes behind fallen lids, unable to awake. Betrayal of her psyche-. Silk whispers upon her sweat soaked skin. 1000 nights have come and gone as she still writhes,  unable to awaken.

   Her **** swallows the evil the world has delighted in - all betrayal, lies and sin.

Dripping from between her great legs are left the dregs of green heat,
jealous heat that slides down and puddles on the floor.

   The vacuousness of her ****  has left no good...
fear, hatred and rage are ****ed inside of her... pounded into her birthing, ever birthing animosities.

   Sludgy sperm of bastards evil- threaten to fertilize her eggs. Gray fetuses passing through her pose the question- "Why?"

   She dares not answer, for to open her mouth would invite flies to lay their maggot eggs upon her very tongue...
Still she cannot- dare not open her eyes...not yet.

   Screams! tortured hyena throes of Thorazine echo in her mind.
   Do Not Open Your Eyes!
   Aeonia- and her aeons!
   Ever lay bare and never to see, never to move.
   Aeonia! Why have the gods punished you? Fair one of the crystalline silver eyes?
    
   Time immemorial, leperous tongue dies piece by piece, inch by inch until nay but a smarted stub exists.
Who hears you anyways? No one to hear your cries whore!
   Whore of all women, shall we call you Eve?
   Cocks of man and gods and kings all rape your syphallic cave-
one by one.
   Whore! You are blamed! Oh Aeonia, for misbegotten deeds by every wife, woman and queen!
   Succubi, WITCH! A potion of cat claws and rat maws you brewed, from Adam to the last man standing, you are to be blamed! For his infidelity, his disease, his shame!
   
  


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Ray of Hope

 A season of storms we weathered
Fought against the waves of rain
Tried to build our own shelter
With what we had left
Scattered all around us
Only for it to be blown away
Leaving us naked
Exposed to the elements
Shivering from being soaked
We could feel it in our bones
Weary and worn
Our spirits beat down
Finding no relief
We began to seek escape
In all the wrong places
Only to travel in circles
With no direction
But we kept trudging through the mud
Against the relentless wind
Losing sight of the plans laid out for us
Losing sight of what we held close to our hearts
Only looking at what we lost
Losing the sense to fight
Until we were neck deep
Until we were drained
Until we had nothing left in us
Until it seemed all hope was gone
Of escaping this never ending season
Solid ground was nowhere in sight
Our knees buckled and we fell
Crawling with every last thing we had in us
Until we collapsed
The fight was over
Laying there realizing
What we were losing
That we gave it our all
Fought with all our might
But that we could no longer continue
This seemingly never ending battle
Our vision had become cloudy
We lost our way
We lost everything so dear
Raining pelting down on us
Mixing with our tears
Unable to hear our sobs
Unable to hear our hearts break
Over the roar of the thunder
We done all we could do on our own
The only place to look is up now
Look to the heavens
To see a break in the clouds
A ray of sunshine beams through
As the last drop of rain falls
Glistening like a diamond
We are bathed in light and warmth
Relief washing over us
A single ray of hope
Beckoning us
As the clouds roll away
Seeing the beauty
All around us
That was always there
Masked by a season of storms
Trying to survive them on our own
Instead of seeking The Shelter in the storm
We find the strength to stand
Embracing each other desperately
Realizing what we almost lost
Crying tears of joy
Something happened inside of us
Our eyes were opened
Our hearts softened
Filled with hope
Neither has felt before
Hand in hand
We began to walk in the direction of the Light


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What to Do

What to do what to do
A beautiful sexy woman besides me
My future ahead of me
She want me to stay and stay true

I am expected to take care of my siblings
Little brother needs to be taken care of
Little sisters don’t want to eat chit lings

So what to do, what to do
Do I stay or should I go?
Do I just pretend that it won’t affect me when I leave?
Should I let her know that we can never be?

Should I have never walked up to her?
Should I have never gotten her number?
“Girlfriends at this stage of life are pointless”

My cousin tells me to focus on school
Gotta stay focused don’t want to miss life
Plus if I stay I might blame her for my failures

Life is all about choices, I should pull the band aid quickly
Sure there might be a little pain but that is always expected
That’s what I get for being unprepared, if I am lucky
She will hate me and that will make it easier
She will forget me soon enough right?
Maybe an elaborate plan will be simpler

Maybe I can get her to see my bad side
I can do something horrid
I can accomplish it if the right pressure is applied

 


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little pale lies


sometimes, i get a wave of sadness over me.

i love you, and i want to be with you,

but

you deserve someone

a little less neurotic

and

a little more normal.

someone who is honest when she whispers, “I’m so happy”

under the covers.

you make me happy.

but you shouldn’t have to change me like that.


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The full moon waxing

The amazing way we came to know
We each had some place else to go

where eternal sparks of passion’s fire
too hot to quench with earthly flesh

We understood our wants and needs
Taking eternity into account
never crossed our minds
when we evaluated our lives

We now step back and evaluate
our relationships
our accomplishments
and believe in our choices

We live a life our parents
could not even imagine
but the one thing they taught us
still holds true... the children are the most important thing.

rlm '08


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This Is How I Feel

I have this urge to tell you I miss you, 
as if I have already met you!

So far away from eachother, 
but our hearts are connected together in a way
unknown to onenother.


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I Wish

I WISH

That i did not have to see people on the streets
with no home, food
or even water or money to live on.

I WISH

I could be in a band and be all i can be
like the birds and the bees
and how they fly so freely

I WISH

That her heart wouldnt be broken and maybe if he loved her
she wouldnt have died she would have lived forever in his arms

I WISH

That everyone could get along and that we all could be at peace, maybe the war would end 
and the sound of music can play again

I WISH

that her or his bully would see if they keep up all this hurt and fear that they put on someone 
else by huritng them will soon end the world in sadness

AND I WISH,

My art could sing like the lyrics of a song
and that everyone could see the art teens draw from there own hearts
and there bleeding minds of there souls.


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How I feel when you promise something

I'm not good for you. 
Broken and unworthy. 
You keep me around and I cannot figure out why. 
You are so amazing, so lively, and so different than I. 

I want to be loved by you. 
I want to hold you. 
But I see you there so happy and so care free... 
It will just hurt you to know the person hidden within. 

The real me. 
Not the smiles you see when we speak. 
Not the laughter we share...
But me. 

A lonely child, with fear in her eyes. 
Scared of the world she was born into and scared of the future she might have if she loses you. 
Do you still want me, knowing the little I have said so far? 
I close my eyes wishing you were here... 

But we all know that is a wish that will never come true... 
And it is okay... 
It is nothing new. 
To me at least it is something I feel each day. 
Wanting what is not in reach... 
Wanting for you to be with me.


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Long Distance Relationship: They Don't Know

Long distance relationships are something people tend to judge...
How can it be love if you don't even know his touch?

They don't know how he can turn a song into an embrace
That enfolds me in the warm cadence of his voice

They don't know that a kiss blown from his fingertips
Is still real enough to taste sweet on my lips

They don't know that the first time I let him see me cry
He wiped my tears with all the right words until my cheeks were dry

They don't know that as I'm falling asleep
I can ask him to touch me; he'll know exactly what I mean...

He strokes my hair with whispers and caresses me with sighs
Until my breath slows and I drift into the night

They don't know...
This sweet knowledge is mine alone


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TIME IS RUNNING OUT

I want you 
But you don't want me
I'm tired of wondering
If this would ever be

You claimed you love me
But I can't tell
Love is more than words can't you see
As I wondered about this love

Which made me feel lonely and empty
You ignore me all the time
Saying words that are never kind
I'm tired of feeling in the way that I do

When all I want is to love you true
Your time is running out
And you'll miss me when I'm gone
In this relationship I never felt so alone

It's time to say goodbye
And I wish you well
I hope you find someone true
That would be good as I was to you

D. Smith


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HE'S GONE

He's gone and I'm all alone
Our relationship has left its zone
I never knew that it would be this way
When it comes to the fact of him
Not wanting to stay
I cried at just the thought of it
Not seeing him anymore or being intimate
It hurts to see him go
I don't know what I'll do
I feel that he betrayed my love that was so true
Realizing that in time
I'll have to move on
Wondering how I'll get through this on my own


By: D. Smith


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The Color Black

I ask him his favorite color.
Mine is blue.
He tells me, "Black."
I must have looked disconcerted,
Because he hastens to explain-
Not for a morbid reason...
He just likes the color.
I considered.

Black is
All the sharp and flat piano keys
It's the soft darkness you savor
Before subjecting yourself to
The harsh brightness of morning
It's the color of a kiss
Because you always close your eyes
It's my favorite dress, or printed words, or
The clean line of an brushstroke on canvas
Black is a silhouette against a sunset
Or the deepened shadows before the dawn
It's a night sky or a raven's wing
The pureness of a pool of ink
It's a storm cloud rolling in
As the wind holds its breath
Before shattering the sky
Into a thousand pieces
Edged in light
It's the deepness of the sea 
At midnight

Black is the soft curls of his hair.
Black is his eyes, which shine...

I decide black
Is one of my favorite colors too.


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I'm Letting Go Of You

There's this part of me that wants to let go...
And then there's this Part of me that wants to hold on...

But I can't do both!

This hurts me as much as it's going to hurt you...
But I'm hurting myself by not doing somthing about it...

So to get rid of this hurting feeling inside of my heart...

I'm letting go!
I'm sorry...
But I have too! 
I need too!

I'm ready for a fresh start...
A new life! 

Goodbye my love...



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I Love That Song

Written 2003

First love
never forgotten
no matter how much
changes.
Idealized, as it never was.
But you miss it all the more
when you remember 
all that was wrong.
Things will never be wrong
in a way so right
again.
You and me against
the world.
We lost, didn't we?
Did we really throw it all away?
Leaving us with only
regret.
And I still remember
the perfection that existed
for that brief time
when I hear
that song.


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Love Eternal

When today ends
And tomorrow comes,
That's when I'll let you go.

When tonight drifts
And the day begins,
Thats when I'll move on.

When my brain stops thinking
And my pride starts feeling,
That's when I'll forget you.

When my heart stops
And my breath leaves,
That's when I'll stop loving you.


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Love Spell

Lost in love, playing truth or dare
 Living in a spell bound worlds affair
 Hide or seek with-in a devils lair
 Slipping all around without a care
 
Leaving behind a million cares
 Paceing myself as the music blares
 Looking back through peoples stares
 Hey me and you in the mirror there
 
Us together make a pair
 Practicing for if your ever here
 Wanting only you to end up there
 Wishing wanting without a fear


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A Letter To My Ex

You had me at hello but then 
Something happened in which you let go.
We use to love talking to each other day and night Because there were never any fights.
But now I see that all the things 
You once told me aren’t true.
About how much you love me and 
The things you will never do.
When we talked there was constant laughter
But now it’s like we no longer have anything 
To say to each other.
I thought you were what I wanted in a man 
But I believe I was wrong.
You send them random messages where
You play with my mind and tell me all the things
I want to hear but now, they place fear.
Fear in my heart and mind as if you are doing you 
And is no longer mine.
As I think about the things we could’ve 
Had I’m kinda glad. 
You use to run through my mind 24/7 
But that’s no more.
I feel that you never really cared about me
And now I see.
I know you have school and football to deal with 
But that was never a problem before.
Now, that you no longer make time for me,
I constantly talk to someone that actually listens
To me and enjoys hearing my voice 
And the things I say.
I know you say that your feelings for me are real
But it’s not what I feel.
You constantly call me your
“babymama” but never your
“girl” or “lady”.
But hey you don’t need to because
The things you’re not doing that you promised
Someone else is.


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Movie Night

Popcorn popped and pop standing by your side just waiting to be devoured,
Your mate is putting in the DVD while you are waiting to watch it.

Candy and other sweets sitting on your other side already open waiting for there time,
The couch is soft and comfortable packed love and patience. 

Your mate puts the movie on and comes to join you,
he puts his arm around you.

You snuggle up to him and smile,
you eat your sweets like a child.

You both get into the movie and even cry together,
you wipe his tears away and he wipes your and says, "I hope this is forever".

You smile back at him and give him a peck on the cheek,
he takes the remote and turn he movie off and takes you to the sheets.


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Love is here

Love is in the air,
Love is everywhere,
I can feel it, 
and i love this feeling.
Hope it can last,
Forever and ever...


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Tell me

Are we meant to be?
Or is it just a dream?
You & I
Are we meant for love?
Are we ready to say I do?
You & I
I'm just not sure If I'm ready.
Are we ready to say I do?
Or say good-bye?
You & I
I'm just not sure whether to go back?
Or keep marching forward?
Without you
Don't know whether these are my directions.
Give me time to think.
If you can't wait, move on.
Just you.
Know I can't be without you.


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When Lips Meet

Its the anticipation
that hastens the pace of my beating heart.
Eyes locked sending a ray of emotions
stealing a glance into each others soul.
This tight embrace heightens our senses,
allowing for every touch to discover a new patch of virgin skin.
It exaggerates the sensation
as our muscles tighten and relax.
A slight tilt of the head brings you that much closer.
But its a game,
who will give in to temptation first-
and for the first time it may be worth it
to risk it all
and lose-yourself.
O! sweet, sweet defeat
it awakens every atom of your being,
unravels every thought
and gives you purpose.
A perfect union of chaos and clarity,
unparalleled to none.


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Running Away

The blood in my veins freeze, 
the breath in my chest comes to a rapid halt, 
the atmosphere changes, 
I am made of stone - and I run. 

I run as fast as I possibly can; 
away from the possibilities he lies out before me. 
Away from the fears that echo like a song in my mind, 
over and over and over and over and over 
until I think I'm going to go insane. 

I run from the dangers that come with trusting another being, 
from the chance that I could be wrong, 
from everything twisting and turning and forming in my mind. 
And for a moment I am Titanium.


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High School Love

High school love
Is like a new game
The new GTA
The new Need For Speed
The new Call Of Duty
It's all the same

You see it
You want to buy it
Play it
Tease others about it
You go to the store and blow $100
Or find a nice girl and make her feel special
You start playing the game
And you discover it's not as good
As it looks at first glance
You want a refund
But the dog ate the receipt

High School Love is cold
GIRLS are cold
Full of betrayal
Wasted gifts
Shed tears
The flowers would rather die
Than being given to someone
With no emotion


Young love is overrated
I see teenagers kiss everyday
But I'm starting to realise
It's empty, meaningless
And painful

Save your love for someone special
Don't waste it on a player


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Nerves Gone Wild

Nerves in a jar, my life is a mess
I hurt form this world as my poem suggests
Cut from a rose that smells no more
Healing like a dove thats flown shore to shore
What became of our love thats anybodys guess
We forgot about thinking, now about what comes next

Some of the times I will remember more I will forget
It hurts today tommorrow I will give it my best
My head becomes heavy my mind becomes my nest
What to do with all of the love I have here hidden in my vest
Come to my sences my heart in my hand
I think about all of the things that I can
My now today I understand
I can will you the love to better comprehend
From here I wish you the world
The universe a best
Untill you are willing 
The person beside me is only a guest


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Blue

Unparalleled
Twisted
A mirage of everything
You wished to hide from you.
The daunting throbs of
pain breaks into every mesh
of guilt and delusion that you 
have built around you.

You must be silent.

The mystery that exists
Yet dies
with every uttered sigh of 
regret.
The hidden breaks free
Yet unanswered.

You must still be silent.


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Babe

The changes in my ways 
stems from the way I feel when
I look into your eyes, you have 
no idea that my heart skips beats
when you kiss me, well until you 
read this, I can't explain it in any
other way then in poem your the 
only one I want to wake up to 
my day will always start out great 
if your smiling while reading this
then I'm doing my job right because 
my only goal is for you to be happy 
I'm yours always babe


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Mystic

I cannot fathom the ecstasy
nor the pain that your being
has bore into mine.
It is like the bottomless pit
that sinners fear when existence
ends and immortality proceeds.
With you, i am like a child cupping my hands
hoping to catch a droplet from
the grace of heaven.

My love, my deepest desire.
It is I who spends my slumber
only dreaming of you.
It is I that joins the night
my being engulfed in darkness.
It is you that makes everyday of
my waking hour
both
of life and death.

My mystery, my agony.
Tell me, how can this cursed heart
get over the spell that you have casted?
Tell me, how can this drowned soul
recover from the waves that you have
so graciously splashed me.

My love, my forever.
It is I whose being will not cease
to try to make your soul to twitch for me.
It is you who I offer my shooting stars to.
My love, my forever.
My deepest desire who can never be mine,
this soul departs from the mysteries of this
union.
This heart will seek the answers to the enigma
I have kept within the portals of me for so long.
I am forever indebted to the memories of you.
For with you, I have unearthed the magic of
shooting stars, of love
and of learning how to love.


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IF I COULD GIVE YOU



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If I could give you diamonds,

For each time you cried for me.

If I could give you Sapphires‘,

For each truth you helped me see.

If I could give you rubies,

For all the heartache you’ve known.

If I could give you pearl’s,

For all the wisdom you show.

Then you would have a treasure

That would mount up to the skies.

That would almost match,

The sparkle in your kind and loving eyes.

But I have no pearls, no rubies,

No sapphires’ or diamonds.

As I’m sure you’re well aware.

So I’ll give you gifts more precious,’

My devotion, my love and care.


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Two

Two – me and you
Corny, cute, yet that’s my view

True – bold and new
Shared visions of happiness past due

Dare – tension and glee
Anticipated moments heighten the sense

Share – you and me
Am I worthy to join with you hence?


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I Use to Make Someone Happy

I stand alone in an empty world full of people;
Wondering what I did wrong.

I use to have someone to love;
I use to make someone happy.

Now I am alone;
All alone.

There is an emptiness in my heart;
A sadness;
Caused by the loss of my true love.

I can not hide the sadness;
I can not hide the pain.


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One Thing I Should Have Said

One Thing I Should Have Said

You would never know how many times I think of you
Remembering our first date
The first time you took my hand
It was so small I wrapped mine around it to protect it
We walked forever beneath the night’s blue moon
Your eyes were beautiful gems in the faint light
I wanted to tell you so many things that night
So many things that scared me to death
Feelings found during many months of watching you walk by
You didn’t notice me among the crowds
It took so long, such torture to get the nerve to talk to you
One hello between us
A single word that broke the endless ice between us
It gave me the chance to get to know you
To find out your likes, your fears and your dreams
It all led to the first time that I truly saw the real you
That evening pasted with a kiss as soft as a kitten’s fur
We shared many more evenings, many more blue moons
But as they say all good things must come to an end
In the past I have been with other women
Loved them each in their own special way
Yet, after all these years
After all the women and all their kisses
That first date with you is the one I remember
And when I die and go to Heaven
I will tell The Almighty what I want my Heaven to be
Endlessly reliving our date over and over again
Reliving it until I can tell you what I was afraid to tell you
Until I can tell you that I loved you
Then I will be at peace


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The Efflorescence in a Half Moon Love

An immutable desire to see into the night blue-flower scented dawn,
The want to be within fixed proximity to you;
Skin touching; the aroma of a deity,
A Mexi flower emitting from your petals its royal perfume;
From this an inexperienced arousing blossoms.

The moments where,
Soft rouge lips rest, osculate against the skin,
Lips so warm-balmy,
Your petal scented hands pressing amongst my body;
And your sensitive touch I embrace; sensual, delicate.
 
The comfort of a half moon love,
Its crooked, Prussian - blue smile,
Emitting its rays through blossomed petals,
In the flower scented night,
Through her crescent lips,
And the burning of the stars in his eyes,
Witnessing her flowering spirit.
 
The efflorescence in a half moon love,
First is brave and courageous,
Its half bloomed crescent smile lightens you,
Carries you to its height and back,
With an aromatic love emitted from her,
And then when puckered, full moon lips embrace the very tips,
Of the souls voice.
 
Then when calls her kingdom of flowers,
-with her unique crooked smile,
Seals your lips,
And leaves you,
In her field of waving daffodils,
With a half moon love.


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You Never Felt the Same Way

I sit here, 
I read your words,
I cry.

You sit there,
You write those words,
You don't cry.

I'm lost without you,
I'm nothing without you,
I'm alone without you.

You're not lost without me,
You're somthing without me,
You're not alone without me.

Everything I am, you are not,
Everything I was, you were not,
Everything I am going to be, you are not.


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Harmony

You bring rest to my shaking hands
Replacing the churning in my stomach with gentle flutters
Returning the smile I forgot truly existed
Quelling the fires of heartbreak
Just as I was accepting them.

Somewhere a glacier sits strong, stubborn
Yet it allows this gleaming, tranquil river to flow through
Harmony among nature
Love even in those that were believed inanimate.

I fall, a leaf from a retiring maple
The ground spinning ever closer
Before I can reach my impending end
The nurturing cardinal takes kind hold of me in all it's colors
Lacing me through the walls of her nest
Giving me purpose, now part of her home
I am part of her life.

Now those hands that used to shake have long been rested
The beating wings of the monarch are all that makes wake in my gut now
That once forgotten smile now adorns my face at a constant
And those once blistering flames have thoroughly been quenched.

Joy has been returned to my heart. 


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I Don't Care

I don't care if you loved me then, 
This is now, that was in the past.
I wanted you to understand me,
But you didn't seem to care.
This is a little too late,
But this is well worth it,
Getting rid of your memory.
I don't care anymore,
I hurt myself, and so did you.
I'm moving on because I don't care,
I don't care about my past,
Just the future. 
The future with clean air,
And fresh beginnings.


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Glow

Stars shine brightly above me as I look up at the glowing full moon.
A cool breeze is blowing and
A soft music seems to play in the air around me as
I think of what life has given me.

This gift is more than I could have brought myself to ask for.
For the longest time I've been content to be there for others
Ignoring the fact that as I helped my friends find happiness, I have been alone.
Now I find that Life has given me a gift. A thing so precious that never again could I go
through life without it.

Life has given me you.
You, Suki, have become my life force. The very thing that keeps me going.
I love you with everything I have. Granted, it isn't much, but I promise you that it wont
be missed. I'll love you enough to make up for the materialistic things that I don't have.

The moon blurs as tears fill my eyes and I start glowing as bright as the shining full
moon above me and
I find that the music I hear around me that is so heartbreaking-ly beautiful isn't in the air.
It's inside me.
 
I never have to be alone again.
Never do I have to bottle things up for the sake of other people because I know I have
someone who wants nothing more than to have me cry on his shoulder.
I love him
And to the very core of my being I know he loves me.

Life has given me something I never dared to let myself dream of having.

Life has given me Suki.


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From A Husband To His Wife

It's been seven years since i said "I Do" and times got hard but we got through them because I have you. I miss the partying and clubbing, but I love this kissing and hugging. Being in a relationship, you must be ready to commit to the loving, fussing and fighting and the long nights. I gave up these things because I wanted the best for us. I wanted you to know that I was ready for your loving, caring and trust. Years have past and I'm glad we made this commitment because you are the best thing in my life and I'm glad to call you my wife.


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Kiss

What’s in a kiss? 
It’s not the stuff found in happy pills
I doubt GlaxoSmithkline can replicate this one
It’s the essence
It’s the ultimate good 
It’s the feeling you’d get 
Knowing you can jump off a building
 And fall gently to the ground like a feather
On a gold silken pillow
It’s the power to melt the metal cold heart of the devil
Down to liquid oil
Infused with the sweetest fragrance of love, passion
What’s in my kiss is oneness
With the creator, 
With the universe
Reminiscent of angels on clouds playing tunes divine
My kiss gives you the power to hold stars in the palm of your hands
I’ll kiss any tears you may have in mind
And you’ll experience sadness no more
For you, I’ll kiss the clouds on rainy days 
And bring you endless sunshine
My kiss brings the power to touch and feel what is abstract
I captured the beautiful turquoise of the ocean 
The gentle mist and breeze under warm sunshine
The melodic chirp of birds and dew drops from lush tropical flowers
And used these to punctuate
And complete the experience of what lies in my kiss
In my kiss lies my soul
My inner being
 My thoughts unfold 
As pure silken cloth
And comforts
Guarantees
That the reason behind this kiss is forever
And the ultimate aim is to capture the essence
You’ll have no questions of my feelings
Because you’ll know
You’ll feel
You speak, hear, breathe and be
You’ll know that when i gently pull you close to me
 and gaze feverishly into your eyes
 my fingers trace the contours of your face and our lips meet, 
our lives will never be the same
our lives will become one
our lives will become the essence
All this and more is what is in my kiss.


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How dare I

How dare I?
How dare you! 
How dare you expect me to fall at your feet 
Again might I add.
Fall at your feet so that I can be hurt again?
I think not.

How dare you tell me that 
You still love me.
Tell that to your freaking girl friend.
You still love me? 
Then why do you constantly hurt me?
With your smile,
Your words,
Your facade you show the world?

How dare I? 
How dare you! 
How dare you call me the day after it happened
And expect me to be oh so happy to hear that
You made a mistake.
Hell yeah it was a mistake.
I loved you!
I cried for days!

But guess what?
I took a dare.
I dared to move on!
Yes, I dared! 
I dared to fall in love with another boy.
One who treats me so much better.
One who cares about what I feel!

How dare I?
Yes, I did dare.
I dared to forget you.
I dared to ignore you.
I dared to dry my tears 
So I don't have to waste them on 
You

So how dare I?
No.
How dare you.


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Sleepless Nights

Tireless thoughts flowing aimlessly
Unceasing in their constant bombardment
Against my militia of dreams
Retreating back, they are as fast as they are sweet
 
Senses unfatigued
Resilient to wear and Sleep's silent onslaught
Merciless against Slumber's war
Winning every battle with the slight brush of a fingertip
 
Dewey-eyed lust. like mist, evaporates with a blink of an eye
Unanswering;  with motives unknown, it keeps you guessing
Progressing unspoken love.
Restlessly defeated with every flash of ivory
 
Sleep- unwanted but very much needed
I disown for you.

By Nicholas A. Bello


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His Kiss

He touched my face slightly
He kissed my lips so softly 

My heart is in his hands causing,  
my emotions to do a dance

His kiss, commands me to submit all 
my love, from my head down to my feet

Can you believe this? 
All of my feelings, is stirring from 
his one little kiss


Max
02/5/12


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what goes unsaid

You baby, you set my heart on fire
Your love is the only thing worth my desire
Nervous rattles my body, anticipation fills my veins
My love for you is the only way I can explain
Being together is the sole thing keeping me from falling
Because without you here, my life would be stalling
Just steady going through the motions, hoping and waiting
To hear you say those words again, with no debating
To feel your warm embrace, and a kiss upon my face
Nothing means more to me than being by your side
Even if it goes unsaid, ''I love you' is simply implied  


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The Imperfections of Humanity

We are not aware of what we are capable of
nor whether if it's wrong or right.
We sometimes have the will and might
and many of us will stand up and fight.

To show courage and strength
takes determination and motivation.
Wait.....
What am I talking about?

We cheat, we lie, and make mistakes.
We're not perfect in any way.

We weren't made to live forever
but made to live and wilt away.
We suffer through pain and it's hardships
And even sometimes experience love.

Yes, I've had thoughts of suicide
so I can fade away.
Realizing I had issues...
I didn't care.

I've always known who I was inside
and never gave up. 
I'm no philosopher like Socrates
nor do I have a college degree.
But I was raised to be somebody in this world
even if I'm going to fail countless times.

Enough about me.
Lets talk about the human race.

We will get up when knocked down.
We will fight for people we love.
We will live life like it's our last.
We will love ourselves for who we are.

We are only human.
Our imperfections is what makes us perfect.
Therefore, we are perfect in our own little way.


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In the Palm of Your Hand

In the palm of your hand
My heart you will find
Pulsating deep crimson red
Lean in closer and you will find
Tissue damage
From all the times
That my heart has been cracked
Trampled
Dropped
Tossed
Forgotten
Ripped
But you can see too
Where my heart has tried to heal
Wounds are no longer there
But dreadful scars remain
The resounding beating
Pumping life
Doesn’t beat steadily
Because in the palm of your hand
You hold my heart
Fear and security
Love and animosity
Sorrow and elation
All reside in my heart
When you leave your hand open
Leaving my heart 
Vulnerable
Exposed
When you are thoughtless with it
Fear flows through the ventricles
Making my heart 
Violently pound 
Sudden
Rapid
Beating
After near exhaustion
After near cardiac arrest
Of trying to beat out life
Your hand starts to close
Your fingers curly around
My now weakened heart
Enclosing
Clasping
Protecting
My heart from destruction
From falling out of your hand
My pulse starts to slow down
The quakes of the beating subside
My heart relaxes
No longer fighting so hard
To merely stay alive
You can see the muscle 
Contracting with ease
Steady
Certain
Precise
Then a ray of light
Shines through
As you start to loosen your grip
And your fingers begin to retract
See over time 
A heart will grow weak
Unable to sustain
Continued damage
It will no longer beat
That is the power
That you hold 
In the palm of your hand




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It Is What It Is -Tell Me No Lies-

I'll ask no questions -
You're the less is more kind,
But I'm clearly confused,
And seeing I'm blind
To what  you don't say,
The next time now,
You're going to stay?
You were wrong
When you left right?
If I remember to forget,
And agree not to fight,
Hey! while the sun shines there,
Or whatever the stormy weather
As long as its fair,
We can be alone together?


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'poles apart yet the same'


crooked in between the straight lines in full view somehow hidden just like old times but everything is new you whisper so loud my heart skips a beat drowning out the little things that made the most sense the contrasts so obvious and we still pretend to not see them it’s like seeing but refusing to acknowledge that we are the same with differences weaved together
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Big Changes

How can things change so much in twelve short months?
A new home,
A new life,
With my true love.

It seems I’ve loved you forever,
But knowing you’re there,
Everyday,
Has brought such happiness to my life.

Every mundane task to be done,
Each little chore,
I do with love,
And the joy that goes with it.

I feel like a new person,
A happier person,
A complete person,
With you by my side.

And so I will always remember 2012,
As the year my life changed,
And now I wait for 2013,
And the wedding it will bring.


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Thinking about you

from the sky to the stars,
from the land to the ocean,
all i do, all i think,
is about you.
no matter where i got, or what i do
my mind, is always on you.
everyday, everytime, ever second of the day,
all i can do, is think about you.
you are like the stars, you are like the sky,
cuz baby, you are all i see.
when i sea the ocean,
i think of me and you, there, together,
perfect, happy. eventhought it may be in my dreams,
oh baby we can make anything happen. cuz ll i do, all i hear, all i say,
is all about you, and i just want you to know, that boo,
I Love You.


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Don't Get it Twisted

I can make my own money
To pay my own bills and buy my own clothes
I have friends and family for calling and hanging out with
We don't have to kick it and you don't have to call
Solitude is not my enemy
You don't have to love me
I don't need your love or anyone else's
Even if no one else loves me, the Lord has that covered
Don't need a chaffeur, a doorman, or a bellhop
Nor a chef, cop, or mechanic
Blankets and hot chocolate keep me warm
So don't get it twisted I don't NEED you for anything
I just like having you around


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Betrayal

 YOU have left a knife in her heart with your deceits.
 YOU have wrenched the love she once had.
 The beautiful picture of a happy family have now been TARNISHED with your infidelity.

 Your kisses are meaningless and when you caress her, she could  not care less.
 You have stained a part of her that can never return to who SHE once was.

  Lies, deceptions, secret affairs-----these venom have desecrated the "sacred walls"
                            Of a home of bliss, love and cheer. 

 YOU have wrenched the love she once had
 YOU have left a stain, a stain that no potent substance can remove.
 Oh dear, you have left a stain with your secret affairs!


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Life Is Good

Life is good
Life is good
Life is good

Maybe if I keep telling myself that, 
I'll believe it.

I hurt
I ache

But, life is good right?
Life is good
Life is good

My friends tell me to move on,
get over it.

I hurt
I ache

But, life is good right?
Life is good 
Life is good


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For As Long As The Stars Shine

Today the planets align,
Blessing from the celestial divine.

My love is now thine,
Our romance coincides a cosmic sign.  

For as long as the stars shine,
You will always be mine.


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Under the Moonlight

It's a very peaceful night,
under the twinkling starlight.
The sky awakens with golden light,
as I walk along this lonesome road,
under the moonlight.
The road is long, no end in sight.
Turn around, I just might.
These feelings are so hard to fight.
As I walk alone, it's too quiet,
under the moonlight.
Shadows chase me in the night.
You can't catch me, because I just might,
Not look back into the night.
As I walk on home,
under the moonlight.


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Little Red

Full Moon Brimming 
On A Hungry Wolf
Fire still burning 
Words are not enough

Red Riding Hood,
You stopped me where i stood.
The basket you held, looked so good,
I enticed...And you fell... 

In the woods... safe and sound
We could not believe what we had found
Me in denim... and you it lace

We understood, each other so very well
Full moon brimming over with light
Gazing into the eyes of the other

The twin to me, I did see, in You.
Be careful with my heart, my love.

My running shoes are unlaced for now,
So lean back and enjoy the ride.
Embrace all the laughter, our lives allow.

rlm


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I Cherished

I Cherished our moments together.
I'll Cherish them moments forever.
I'll capture our love in my memories
right before it dies.
I'll forget about your love
when you get sick of me
and I can't say that I didn't try
to love you
but Ima learn to forget you
and girl I won't even miss you.
They say love is pain and vice versa
well if you keep this up
our love will get worser.
I can't even talk to you
I don't even acknowledge you.
I'm not even proud of you
I don't even smile for you.
If you needed visine I wouldn't give you
or drop or two
but if you really loved me
I'd empty out the whole bottle for you.
I held your love 
right here in my palms.
I held your body in my arms.
Girl when you got cold
I definitely was the one who kept you warm.
Everytime our love got old
the love was religiously then reborn.
I guess our love rebirth
would be the answer.
does my my opinion even matter?
Making our love work
would of been the answer
but was the love real?
that is my final question
and if it was
it would take you
only a couple of seconds to answer.
Recent Moments. Endless Memories
a deep emotion that's living within me.


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Figuratively Speaking

Figuratively                                                Speaking


   What do you want me to do!                          I want you to read to me

I yelled                                                       I "said"
at the top of my lungs                                  to my dim-witted husband
resting my elbows on my knees                    turning my head away
hands over my ears                                     to drown out the noise

  Why don’t you do that for me?                        Because you didn't ask

I kicked Jesus to the curb,                            (Figuratively speaking)
So what if                                                    He believed words that
I was baptized,                                            drowned hearts
I read                                                         The book,
beautiful words                                            become justified
to her naked soul                                         The steady drum,
trying to fill                                                  His voice
cubicles of space                                          fills my head,
in our overflowing                                        existence
bathtub;                                                      And that we share.




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ON PHONE (2)

The nocturnal phone
Conversation went on 
It became daily
She was down-to-earth
We became fond of ourselves

Our physical looks scared us a bit
Beauty and Handsomeness 
We both took with fate
She wasn’t moved even
When I feigned tribal marks

When I was still ruminating 
What are we into?
She branded it and slam it on my face
“A relationship” she averred gently smiling
I couldn’t go back to the word “friendship”


Alayande Stephen T.
8.10pm
8th of November, 2007

It is a continuation, still for IBK.


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Crystal Blue Eyes

The air hangs stagnant in a diverging struggle. Your crystal blue eyes tear through 
my soul and pierce my heart when I think of life without you. The rush felt with your 
scent eats away all doubts no matter what. As my blood flows through my veins it 
carries the unfelt, buries away the oppressor. I’ve no vision without your crystal 
blue eyes, nothing without you.


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Under the Current

Sleeping
Under the current
We peer through empty window 
Shadows

Twisted thoughts
Of useless wishes
Surrounding our minds
Condemning

Sunlight is setting on the horizon
And a new day, has begun.

And I feel it crawling
Warmth soaking into my skin
My eyes close
As I'm smiling and thinking of you
It's trying to tell me that
My love is waiting
Wanting
So I fasten my pace
To head into a new direction
Twords you

Later we are lying
Caught up in the moment
A silent fan
Spinning upon the window sil
We no longer linger our shadows 
They have been blown away
And the silence is peaceful

But still I fear the madness
Of what's yet to come
Unknown boundaries
Someone always crosses the line
Then the relationship turns spiteful.
Will it happen?
Or will it work
The biggest mystery
Each time 
We always learn to late

But regardless 
Of possible failure
Still we try 
Humans are so intriguing

Under the current
When a new love breaks out
And I feel it crawling
But I already know
Even though it's under the current
It's only a matter of time
Lets just enjoy it.




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I Miss Him Like Crazy

I miss Him Like Crazy and I dont know why, All I got now is the meorierys he' left behide, So baby if you go back to the place we loved to go, Dont look back and cry, Just remember me lying by your side, Dont look back and cry, Just remember Im still the one you sleeped with each and every night, As Im sitting here, I feel a tear and Im woundering why you left me here


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Everythings changing

you once made me happy
now you only make me cry
You usta listen
now you only scream
why are you doing this to me
We once were a dream
now were a nightmare
why cant I wake up
you use to look at me like I mattered
now you just look the other way
you usta make me feel beautiful
now you make me feel undesirable
why do I feel so ugly
you once turned me on 
but nows the attractions fading
I usta love the sex
but now I cant wait for it to be over
what happened to us
I once thought you loved me
but now im not so sure
why did you make me so insecure
I use to feel safe with you
now im scared to death
why did you lie, you said you'd never hurt me
I once thought you were good for me
but now I know thats not true
why did you change,
what happened to make your personality rearrange
when you would hug me I use to melt
but now it just feels hollow
when you would kiss me I use to feel it
But now I dont feel a thing
why is this happening
Everythings changing and were falling out of love
and I feel is pain and regret
do you feel anything
I wish I never got attached
cause then Ide just be numb
and I wish underneith, 
that I didnt still feel that your the one
everythings changing,
and damage has been done


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Close to Me

Come close to me
So I can listen to the beating of your heart
And taste the sweetness of your kiss
And feel the warmth of your arms wrapped around me
Just come a little closer
So I can look into the eyes of the one
Who makes me feel like I'm someone
So much better than who I really am
Let me enjoy the calmness and serenity of your presence
And let me be totally drowned by your affection
Please just come a little closer
So I can listen to the sound of your laughter
And see the joy and happiness of your beautiful smile
Let me savor every moment just being near you
Come here, close to me
And I promise you that you won't regret it


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Insane Design

Don’t know him at all, not really
Nor how I feel about him, actually
But that’s alright, 
A snippet of laughter, maybe a moment or two
Isn’t that enough?
Isn’t that just about enough, for now?

I can be all optimistic,
And feel that he is someone I can trust someday,
But what good will it do me today?

Or, I can be a pessimist,
And fear he might turn out to be a monster,
Hurt me in new ways; make me feel like a fool someday.
But what good, pray tell, will it do me today?

Maybe I should just be philosophical,
And believe that we cross paths with people for a reason
It’s part of some great insane design
So I should sit back,
Wait, watch how the planets align.

Quite possible, that this is nothing, really
Something that doesn’t hold any meaning, actually.
Someone who will become less than a faint memory someday.
Though what good indeed, will it do me today?

Maybe I think too much, 
Assign meanings, interpretations to things which have none,
Mistake for reality the stories I have myself spun.
Maybe I should just try and have fun
Isn’t that enough?
Isn’t that just about enough, for now?


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Does he even know what he does to me

How seeing the smile on his face
How it exposes the dimples he tries to hide
And it goes up to his eyes
To catch a glimpse of it
Makes my heart smile
That all it takes is a few words
To turn my day around
A few words to bring a smile
A few words to make me laugh
He does that to me
Does he even know what he does to me?
How when I am wrapped in his arms
The world fades away
It’s just us there existing
The safety and security I feel
The warmth of him
So comforting
In his arms I feel at home
And for that moment in time
Nothing seems to be missing
And life feels complete
Does he even know what he does to me?
When I look into his eyes
And he doesn’t look away
And stares right back into mine
How my breath catches in my throat
He doesn’t really know 
Just how beautiful his eyes really are
How they see deep into my soul
How there’s a puddle at my feet
From the thawing of the ice around my heart
Does he even know what he does to me?
Even when I can’t think my day can worsen
All it takes is just the right words
From him to change my entire attitude
For him to bring a smile to my face
For him to bring a laugh in my throat
And that he wants nothing more
Than to be here to wipe away my tears
Does he even know what he does to me?
That I still get butterflies when I am waiting
Waiting to see him again
That my heart races and my palms sweat
It’s like sweet chaos inside of me
Then there he is and we embrace
And my hands tremble from it all
My voice quivers as much as I fight it
Because it’s so hard to contain my excitement
Does he even know what he does to me?
That he makes me feel free to let go
To show him the things I’ve hidden away
To want to take off the masks I’ve worn
To feel like I can let it all out and cry
That he brings out the best in me
How he is breaking these chains that bind
How he’s helping to heal these wounds of mine
If he only knew the comfort I felt
If he only knew how fast my heart races
If he only knew how much I want him here
If he only knew he’s the first person I think of when I wake
If he only knew he’s the last person I think of when I sleep
If he only knew this yearning inside
If he only knew how this wall is crumbling
If he only knew how my life is so much better
If he only knew of the happiness he gives me
Then he would know just what he does to me....


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YOUTHFUL GUILT

Youthful Guilt

Penitence embedded his soul
For persuading his lover
To unite their labials:
Not deep but shallow felt.

The hormone spills out
Till he was tensed;
And inside him—
Concealed from the other flesh—
Oozed a yogurt-like liquid:
That makes the world enormous…

The dryness underneath 
Was dampen and reeks—
Of creation gland—
But his inner man 
Imaged in the Cross shrinks:
Evince youthful guilt  


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Bestfriend till the end

I sit all alone thinking of you
and all the things we've both been through
You are my very best friend
and I know you'll be there until the end 

Your shoulder to cry on is now gone
who will be there when something is wrong
When times are tough you've always been there
It shows me just how much you care 

Although lifes challeges have brought us separate ways
you're in my heart till my final days
Nothing can make a person see
how special a person you are to me 

I dreamed of a best friend just like you
and finally my dream came true
Nothing else could ever fulfill
everything you're friendship will 

You understand a side of me 
that no one else could ever see
You know whats wrong before i cry
but if I do, you always know why 

A friend like you is hard to find
you put my problems all behind
You were there when no one cared 
the best times were the ones we shared 

We've been together through good and bad
you made me laugh even when I was sad
And no one else could ever be
as good of a friend you are to me
 
But now until the very end
you'll always be my special best friend.


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A Moment Of Love

October moon shine, 
Full orbed as you were, 
Breaking thru the pine, 
Stir not yonder beacon, past.

Your veil of light, 
Quietly doeth shine, 
As if taken flight, 
Slumber upon the eyes, gleaming. 

Slumber beseech thy breast, 
Full and fresh incite, 
Above thy mountain crest, 
Awaken your bed of pleasure, woe. 

Give love where love taketh, 
Be rich in your pleasure, 
Show thy body bareth, 
With skin so smooth and soft, rose petals cover. 

Essence of your body fair, 
Streaming sweat glistens, 
Incense floating in the air, 
A moan a groan taken in the night, silence. 

Another night of being with you, 
Another moment of love, 
Rest your perch of view, 
While the skies shine above


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I Will Love Her

I long for her touch
Her sweat embrace
The long passionate nights
That marks no escape
Memories made only to be remembered
For nights spent so lonely 
Wishing for her body to be in formation with mine
And for my hands to be intertwined 
Beauty unmatched to the unfaithful realm 
But thoughts be so it is her on mind
This world is too deep to bear
But to lay a mark is so easy 
I long to be back in her bed 
Taking in breaths that matter 
Through night till morning I will love her 
I will love her 


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Kiss Me Like Spring

I love your gentleness,
How your hands
Move like early Spring...

When you kiss me,
It is as if I am a dandelion;
All delicate spider-web
Gossamer threads and 
Finespun silk fragility-
Your fingers on my cheek
Feel like the spring thaw,
As if I am ice only just 
Learning how to move 
Like water again...
When you kiss me,
It is with all the warmth,
The tender slowness,
Of early morning sunlight-
When you kiss me,
It is as if I am nearly
As insubstantial as sunlight...

But eventually even a dandelion
Wants to be blown away-
When a frozen waterfall meets
The Spring thaw, it does wake
Slowly, soft as Sunday morning-
It rises up like a roar, plunging
Down through space until
It is pounding like a heartbeat
That never stuttered for 
Even a moment-
The seasons can teach you
That sunlight is anything but
Insubstantial;
It is heat and passion and
Faster than the sound
Of the shifting winds gasping
To keep up...

I love your gentleness,
How your hands
Move like early Spring...

But sometimes I wish
That you would kiss me
Like late Spring-
I want you to kiss me
Like a dandelion on the wind,
Like a waterfall waking up,
Like sunlight burning through
The dawn like passion;
I want you to surround me
And beat down hard like an
April rainstorm- to breathe
Me like petrichor and hold me
Like raindrops clinging to 
Blades of grass, like raindrops
Soaking into the ground
Until there is no closer...
I want you to make me 
Feel like I'm coming to life.


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the old you

How can love come and go so fast?
I really miss the way we were.
I still love you even though I hate you
I hate that you made me cry
And how it is so hard everytime to say goodbye
I didn't like that last hug
I can feel little heart strings given a tug
I want the old you to hold me 
I want the old you to come back
I want my whole life to be back on track
The ringing is about to stop
No more "I love you, I really do"
No more staying on skype till two
The old you is gone and for awhile even you're not coming back
I wish I woudn't have got mad for somethings so dumb
So that now my heart wouldn't be so numb
If we could have made game plans and talked things through 
Right now I wouldn't be missing you 
The old you would still be here
And I wouldn't have these painful tears


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Dreaming Realist

Like a reaccuring nightmare,
Pondering life from the armchair,

Abruptly submerged in distant memories,
Leaving a smile that could last for centeries,

What if's plauge like vultures on decaying remains,
Feeling as if I'M enranged,

Impossible to dimiss those memories with adapting triggers,
At this point be-friending the liquors,

Dreading as everything said was meant but with much unsaid,
Unfortunately words chose to fall on deaf ears,

Hopeful that no mis-understandings weren't sent,
But to any extent,

I loved you.


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The Shade of Blue

The shade of blue looks so good on you
You are an eyesore amongst the hazy crowd
Ironically even when you face your back
I still find you so damn hot!

The hours flit so slowly
I don’t feel existence when you’re around
I don’t confuse a heartache inside me
Yet I can’t help not getting mad at you

A part of me draws near in any way
Yet my name isn’t a part of your vocabulary
Your world revolves around an axis yet outside my universe
I hate to realize the awful truth of you not noticing me.


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a spec on a screen

i attempt to take a breath as structure slips away,
two lips and a whisper changed a universe today,

patterns contort and minds tilt ajar,
my soul is dumbfounded in sight of this art,


head in the clouds, where home isn't far,
seems ages away, knee deep in the stars,

i know not, the language,
i can not define,
but i know that its coming,
it's growing, it's mine.



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Mocha

I usually find the taste of coffee
Far too bitter for my taste
But this mocha is smooth 
And so sweet

Warm on my lips
And rushing hot on my tongue
Flooding my body with heat
And making me want more

I feel more awake with every sip
But can never get enough
Since mocha coffee is addictive
And if the taste is slightly bitter too

I want it all the more


Author's Note: Do I really like coffee? No. Like the smell, like the ice cream, but tastes icky.
No, this poem is talking about a person. This was written to tease him.
It's funny because he's mocha colored :)


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Star bound

Perfectly crossed
The planets and stars were
Overlooking our love
Gracefully writing our story
Oppositions in signs
To mesh stronger

Perfectly crossed
Are our bodies
Entwined in passion
Tangled in happiness
Mysteries yet to be solved
Within each brush of fingers

Perfectly crossed
Did our souls travel
Reuniting in a new age
Elegantly dancing together
Time spread us apart
To lead us to each other


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you to me

because of you, my heart is filled with joy
because of you, we now have a little boy
i want more of your love like a kid wants candy
your love to me, is an alcoholic's brandy
because of you, i will never give up
because of you my passion erupts
your soul to me, a painter's new work of art
your warm embrace, a winter coat that heats my heart
because of you, i don't have to worry
because of you, i get home in a hurry
your rough but delicate ways oh so nimble
your arms to me like a seamstress' thimble
because of you, I'm never alone
because of you, i will never move on
your love and your passion, my reasons to be
because without you, there would be no me


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Return of She

Broken pieces of glasses
moves around the high-way
while water flows away,
Lights were drizzling
over the road - nearby
woods were mangrove
and someone,
someone was crying
between the hearts

I saw,
her shadow
Standing still scared

Over the walking sands

Somehow, Somewhere She is ....

The Wind
The Blood
The Glass

Bounces and flies

A floating glass runs way ! Returns the long trail


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The Devil's Lullaby

IT HATH TURNED ME AWAY,
BELONG IN PAIN, FOR ALL OF 
 MY DAYS.
REPENT AND REAP THE OATS
 SOWN.
HEAR THE BITTERNESS IN 
 MY TONE.
FORGET TO FORGIVE THAT
 WHICH HATH BEEN DENIED...
AND LIVE! LIVE! SAY I 
 TO HOLDETH TIGHTLY UNTO
THE ENDS OF MINE LIFE. 
 AS THINE MIND PLAYS
TRICKS AND PUSHES ME
 INTO A SWEET SLUMBER
WOOED BY THINE OWN 
 MEDIOCRITY;
THIS IS THE DEVIL'S LULLABY.
 NOW BE AT PEACE AND REST SOON 
YE SHALL STOP LIFE'S PROTEST.


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Chris and Chelsea

Chris and Chelsea
          For their death anniversary 

Buried together
With roses lined with love
From family who couldn't hold their tears.

Never did he think he could survive
Without Chelsea by his side,
He must have her.

A life was taken for his true love
and her engagement ring
That was a gift on the night of her unexpected death
Was given to a close friend,
"Don't let your love go. Don't let her leave. Give this to her."
Chris spoke softly.

The next day he was gone,
Buried six feet under he lays
With his love.


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Polar Opposites

Up and Down
Happy and Sad
Sky to the Ground
Ecstatic then Depressed...
I feel like a roller coaster,
On a never ending track.
A smile is more than I can handle
When I feel attacked,
Ignored and Outcasted
Boiling and Frustrated
Just go away,
So I can die inside.
They push me
And shove me
I break and they leave
No one i trust fully with my mind
Because I am used
He wants me there with him
When I want him here with me
I HAVE to be there and he's not here with me
Throwing me over the edge
Into a never ending abyss
Of heartache and depression
I just want to sleep
Never wake up
So I don't have to deal with this
Emotional Turmoil

Craving to be bound by no one
Instead of attached at the hip
I desire freedom and the warmth
Of the world itself
Not JUST another person

I feel like a wolf trying to become human
My heart is too wild to stay "civilized"
My only fault is me drunk off of love
I wish to be sober for once
And to have a limitless life
...But I don't want to hurt him
I gave him my heart and my body
What did I get?
Material things?
I don't know but it's not something I can hold physically
Will I ever know what life has for me
Instead of my internal suffering...


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Whisper Beyond Age

What has age to do with love, me to her, i whisper
In her eyes I did see love, longing love, caring love
Little warmth in her blossom, little wanting in heart
Some smiles, laughs and some joys to share
i sit in her shadow, a decades younger yet 
in her I find my peace and in her I found my heart
Subtle and robust in emotion, free and care free in love

What has age to do with love, me to her, i whisper
I fell in love, with her bob cut hair and intoxicating eyes
Charming at times, at times captivating my imaginations
A plant of kiss, from her, burned 1000 suns in my body
A touch, embrace from her filled my heart to fullest
Mature she may be, but in heart she is little nymph
Her lovely voice, her stunning smile, angelic ada*

What has age to do with love, me to her, i whisper
Moments have drifted in her warmth, in her blossom
I lost my senses, caressed by her, in her blossom
Gave my whole self in her, felt her wholeness in me
Songs of love together we sang, danced under moonlight
Shared the joy, sorrow, shared the heart, shared the body
Hand in hand, on long drive, long candle lit dinners we sat
When the moments came to depart not in tears we move
For it was the heart, our bonds became one in eternal love

Though our love have separated by vast seas 
Even today, when my heart want to possess I
Close my eyes, I see her, I feel her, smell her
Just a call away, in her ears, to her soul,
What has age to do with love, me to her, i whisper


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Boys and Fools Dedicated to Aunt Dorothy

When I was a boy I thought money grew on trees
I thought my mother could do everything

cook dinner for six children
buy me all the toys I wanted
and do my homework
which she would not

When I was a boy I thought my teacher as my father
I thought he would tuck me in at night

take me to the ball games
answer all my silly questions
and buy me all the banana splits I could eat


When I was a boy I thought as a boy
A five block radius in North Philly 
was my world 

I walked home from school for lunch
played with my brothers and sisters during the summers
and sat on the stump until 9pm
Go over Aunt Dorothy's for family gatherings

Next door neighbor lived alone and gave us loose chain
to buy candy and potato chips
I saw white people when my mother would take us
downtown to buy clothes for back to school

When I was a boy I thought as a boy
One time we put a stray dog in crate and threw it down
the basement of an abandoned house
We would later return to see if the dog had died
but it did not

When I was a boy I was afraid to die
and prayed to god that I would live to age 95

When I was a boy I thought I was a man
but men do not do foolish things

I think of the boys in my life
who think that they are men
but boys do not do foolish things


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Naked

I stripped the layers to my soul
and stood naked infront of you exposed
so you could see all of me
my lies my truths my vulernabilities
but you couldnt handle all of me
just like those ive shown before you
so I dressed my soul back up 
and ill never again let you see
all that is to me
I shut my self down 
from pure honesty
now,you'll only see 
the censored me
Never again 
will you ever see
the real me
youll only see 
what everyone else sees
cause we lost that 
intimacy


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A star

Even through this aching

My joy shines on through

Called me a star in a blighted sky

He called me a star, a star

My aching, though small, fades away


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Would He....If I Were!!

Would he, If I were
be there for me

Would he , If I were
really care for me

Would he, If I were
ever hurt me

Would he, If I were
soon desert me

Would he, If I were
make demands of me

Would he, If I were
take a stand with me

Would he, If I were
walk out on me

Would he, If I were
hit or shout at me

Would he, If I were
try to comfort me

Would he, If I were
simply run from me

Would he, If I were
blame it all on me

Would he, If I were
take the fall with me

Would he, If I were
soon betray me

Would he, If I were
grow to hate me

Would he, If I were
kindly hold me

Would he If I were
take is slowly

Would he If I were
run away and hide

Would he, If I were
simply force himself to cry

Would he, If I were 
take responsibility

Responsibility...would he take
Would he, If I were
face reality

Would he? Would.... he?
If I Were....


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Summer fling or a real thing

Long talks on warm summer nights.
The sound of the ocean waves
wrestling with the clamor of music escaping from a nearby bar.
You hold me close and spin me around to the sound of the slow jazz.
The rush of adrenaline when you drive too fast.
The beat my heart skips when you kiss me unexpectedly.
Smiling between kisses, tickle fights and thumb wars.
The feel of your hand in mine, a perfect fit.
The way you can already read me, like you’ve known me for years. 


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I LOVE YOU

A popular sentence
To guys who want to get laid
A popular language
To ladies who don't want to let go
A popular saying
Which has lost the power behind it
Yet
Sincerely meant
Will heal many
Take away sorrows
Comfort the sad
And ultimately
Save a soul


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Just a Girl

I am not, the kind of girl, to get jelous easily.
I am not, the kind of girl, to give up easily.
I am not, the kind of girl, to love and forget.
Once you enter my world, you will never leave it.
You will always be in my dreams, in my prayers, in my life.
I have loved you from the start, and i will love you till the end.
Guys, well they come and go, and well usually,
i can handel them getting with other girls,
but you, your diffrent.
Im jelous, the girl that has you, well she has my whole world. 
She is pretty lucky to have someone as amazing as you,
and it seems, just a couple days ago,
you wanted no one but me,
and like i said, you will move on, and i made it happen,
i got u with my best friend, eventhough it hurts,
eventhough its painful, anything is worth, seeing that smile, on your face


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YOUNG LOVE AND MISTAKES

We started out so young and in love at 15 but then as we got older things started to go wrong when our hidden love wasn't a secret no more
we had been together for a year or more at the age of 17 we had our first born on the way but she was taken from us to soon after birth our relationship stayed intact but wasn’t the same we grew distant our young love hadn't been the same after 10 month and we were 19 the lost we had was a lot to handle but time had passed we were blessed with our beautiful boy who I thought would ease the pain
but still things didn’t change I made mistakes and you did to fill the void because things weren't rite an you weren't there the way I needed you and your mistakes were drunken an hazed a time or two so we're both to blame for our love that’s been hurt an broken now 3 years later I made small mistakes here and there  an you've still not been there the ways I’ve needed you we’re  both hard head an still young our blessed boy older and more handsome then when he was born sees the Paine our love is going through
we have our small moments of perfection the heart ache an tears are not even I don’t know what to do no more we’re about to turn 24 I miss the way things were before when you loved me the way you did when we first started out I wish I hadn't made my newish mistakes but as this new year has started I wanted a new start an it’s been greatish but as the months have passed  it’s turning bad from the past mistakes catching up with me an our new issues arising I feel our love getting more lost an possible never to be found I wish we could go back and we could prevent our mistakes from happening an our relationship be saved from this lost path but you can't turn back time just try to prove we can be trusted an take a new steps forward and hope for the best


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The patience of distance

The longing that's settled
Tears at my sides.
It grips my heart
Ripping slowly.
Leaving moans and screams
To consume the still 
Quiet air 
That surrounds me.
To feel him,
His touch light
And demanding
Throws me into a haze.
But his touch
Is far far away.


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Shine Bright Tonight

another night I run to you
only for a kiss
and within a whisk, 
you're off 
into the land you want to be in 
I have come home 
to see you leave 
and then I'm left 
here daydreaming
when you say you'll come back 
but you never do
until my eyes 
have already turned blue 
until I can no longer want to think 
you'll be back in time 
for you to see
the light on my face 
when you make me smile
someone has been gone 
for quite a while 
and you tell me to wait 
and wait I do 
until I can no longer want 
to wait for you
oh, if I could stay out 
I'd dream all day 
of things I want to do
but work keeps me this way
and you can dream all you want 
because I've given that to you
but now I want my turn
yet I'm still turning blue 
I keep hearing you say 
great things are coming now
but all I see 
is my bank empty
and me, working 
struggling to buy shoes 
when you 
shine with all your gold 
you buy for yourself 
as I resist from buying pants 
I might want but don't need 
you shine some more 
and I become lonely. 
Oh shine bright tonight, 
wherever you are 
I've begun to not care 
how you'll be a star
because I need to let myself go too
and all I see are diamonds 
shining bright on you. 
maybe if I could do what you do 
I'd shine like a star 
I'd shine just like you.


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Just To let You Know

I’ve eaten the chocolates you brought last night
   in the box that was prettier then the taste of the candy
 
   oh… 
forgive me, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful
 
   but... 
I’m not that kind of girl you know 
  one who is bribed by roses and Whitmans 

   nor...
am I likely to fall for fluid practiced lines
  meant to make a girl swoon and fall in love 
for a careless hour of your time
  with your hungry, shallow anticipations…
of removing my pearls and chemise
 
  you know…
the one who waits with excited expectations
  for your silvery seductions...
just yearning to be seduced 
  by your lover boy’s touch
 
  or …
for a midnight tryst 
  that ends before it even begins
 
  oh yes... 
I see your majolica, opaque heart 
  It reveals the opacity of your dull mind 
 
  nay,...
you interest me not 
  my heart rises to the golden boy
the one who laughs with his eyes
 
  and...
he really does see me with his heart
  the one who listens- who knows the color of my eyes 
he spends $1 on my favorite kind of licorice

  not… 
$20 for a meaningless box of chocolates or…
  roses meant only to impress
 
he's the one who learns quickly 
  he really wants to know things about me
those little endearments…
 
  you know...
like what my middle and last names are
  he knows and sees what I have to offer
it will be appreciated by a true heart 

for I am not an empty headed
  young, seductress 
  waiting...
to sweep you off your feet 
with empty lines and ploys 

  no...
I am not that she 
  who expects fancy gifts 
unloading your checkbook of it's contents
  putting out her soul for sale

  no...
I'm not some plastic Tinker toy 
  you put together and then pull apart
 
  so… 
I think I’ll just wait until he comes along
  If not…
when I’m alone I’m happy 
  the smell of the dogwood
their fragrance in the breeze
  I’m okay with just being me


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You Make me feel like a Sunset

You make me feel like a 
Summer's sunset on a beach:
Watching the bight rays stretch
Out across the waves,
Saying one last golden goodbye to the world 
Before it goes to sleep; allowing 
The stars and moon to take its place in the 
Evening sky, as they sparkle across
The water like thousands of dancing snowflakes.


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BREAK-UP WORRY

Slow Down Now.
Gently applying the brakes of Life.
Worry Not,
knowone or nothing is worth it.
Not even SELF.
Man's radar of worry
is a Self Illusion with no beep.
An uncontrollable thought machine. 
With no gears to cause change for self, 
thoughtless others.
Controlling self is a task tagged impossible
without Divinity.
Why worry about another 
when Sweet Love goes Sour. 
LET GO!
Let Go that someone but NOT LOVE!
Loving Self is a start.
Worrying, Soul hurts.
Peace is in balance
Self-Protects with a conscience.
Peace eyes sustained
sees to feel,
the warmth of hovering Love.
Fret not,
fall deeper into it with your all, at chance.
Pray and Hope for fairy sparks of light.
Love calls,
impossible is Nothing.

©Kofi Asokwa-Nkansah


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Now He Has My Heart

I used to think that you
were the center of my world
But now my thoughts and my words
are thought and spoken for him
You'll always be special to me
and you'll always have a place in my heart
But my heart belongs to him
You're special to me in a way
that no one else can ever be
You were there as I took
those first steps to womanhood
I love you like a brother
but I love him as my lover
Whatever you think of me
just know you're never forgotten
But now he has my heart


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Andrew

This poem, is special
This poem, is going to be the best,
This poem, you will love
Andrew, this poem, is for you. 

Baby, you are my whole world,
I love you with all my heart,
You have stolen my heart,
And i don't want it back.
I love you so much Andrew,
Don't ever forget that,
Without you, i would be lost,
I would not know what to do.
That is why,
I am so afraid to loose you.

Soon, you will have a phone,
Soon we can talk on the phone hours a day,
Soon hopefully you have a webcam,
Soon we can Skype for hours and hours.
Soon i can see your face.

I have hope that you will come here,
So that we can meet,
And be together at last.
This long distance relationship may be hard,
But baby, i know we will get through it.

Love does not have a distance,
You can love anyone,
No matter where in the world they are,
You just have to believe that it will las,
And baby, i believe.
I do more than believe,
i KNOW it will last,
I Love You Andrew.




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Reservation for One

The words plunge into my chest like a poisoned dagger. 

I frantically tug at the cold knife but to no avail as the venom works its way through my body. My mind desperately attempts to wrap itself around the deadening reality, but the slickness of it is too much to handle.

My mind slips and as a last resort hits the panic alarm. I open my mouth to scream but the poison has worked its way to my throat and burns hotter than the 1000 lakes of fire in hell. I want to grab my neck but my panic stricken mind is unable to reason with my arms to perform even this simple desperate request. 

My knees buckle and I trip and fall, backwards I think. Think...thought...thoughts...none are there. Can't think. Brain dead...or close to it. A cold splash, more chilling than the deadly dagger, wakes my brain momentarily, long enough to realize I'm drowning and add that to the list of pain. Still unable to move I throw an upward glance into her eyes. 
my last chance, the ice thin line between life and death, in hopes she will toss me a rope, a stick, a smile, anything. As she turns her back, I close my eyes and invite the ominous death that is now seemingly warm from the coldness of her actions. 

My mind pieces together a few last thoughts of happiness, of her. The day we met, her smile, her eyes, her laugh, the sound of her voice that my ears welcomed with open doors and arms wide open. The venom and water seem to meet each other simultaneously at my heart as if they had reservations, 

I know its time. 

With my lungs filled and oxygen gone, body frozen, mind shut down, I miss her. I manage one last smile and mouth the words " I love u."


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Sunrise

I see your smile,
shining like the sun.
I see your heart,
and it's a big one.
I see your tears,
streaming down.
I see your footprints, 
on the ground.
I see your wish,
for a true friend.
I see your happiness ,
to the end.
I see your caring,
and your eyes.
I see your friendship,
in the sunrise.


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walk away

If I told you that I cry when we argue
You'd probably say its time for you to leave
You'd say I care to much and I want more
Than what you can give me.
But I'm not asking for anything.
I just want you near me.
I want to be honest 
But you have to stop
Threatening to walk away
If you were gonna walk
Away you wouldn't have let me stay
Something in both of us is not finished yet
I don't know how long this will last
All I know is that I'm not done yet.


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Suki

For three days I have done nothing but smile till my cheeks hurt
And I sit here grinning like a fool.
Three days. That's it.  Three days and I find myself falling hard.

It is like me to love quickly, but not like this.
You have no idea how significant it is that I've dreamed about you.  Including you, only
four people have ever made enough impact to appear when I close my eyes.
I'm laughing.
I'm sleeping well.
I find myself saying Suki just to have that smile spread across my face.
A warm glow fills me that I haven't had in a long time.

I find myself thinking that it should take longer than this. Longer than three days, but
then I smile and think of all the things you've told me that make me want to cry.
You've told me things no one else really ever tells me.
You tell me things that my heart needs to hear, but has been without and I'm just so...so
Happy.
And grateful.
And I think I'm crazy for falling so fast when logic kicks in, but logic leaves quickly.
Whoever liked Logic anyway.
And from here I guess I have only one word left to say.

Suki.





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Rock ... Rock

Rock ...

Rock ...

The dry leaves crackle under our blanket
One of only two sounds that find me
The other is her

Rock ...

Rock ...

Pure and lovely
Wanted and wanting
She is all

Rock ... 

Rock ...

Skin against skin
Joy upon joy
We find heaven for a time

Rock ...

Rock ...

There is no pain and we suffer not
There is only Us
Us and the autumn leaves

Rock ...

Rock ...

I can not tell her sweat from mine
Everything is as one
As our bodies

Rock ... 

Rock ...

I hear my name on her lips
It sounds natural
It feels right

Rock ...

Rock ...

Her hair dances across my face
It smells of strawberries
Strawberries and Us

Rock ...

Rock ...

I feel it and her body tenses and trembles
I see the passion being excised
I see the pleasure become too much

Rock ...

Rock ...

It rolls over me and I lose control
For a moment I feel one with the entire world
I hear her playful laugh
                                  Her shy laugh  
                                                      Her dirty little girl laugh

Rock ...

I fall to the blanket
The crunching leaves greet me 
With dry and welcome applause

I love her
I love her

I think that she loves me, too


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Through His Presence

I’ve walked too long
Through darkened allies
I’ve breathed the smoke
Of hell’s scorn and fury
My anger infinite
Now finite
Through his presence
I hear the birds chirp
Golden nests strung
Orchids’ petals
Morning dew fragrance
Through his presence
Love begins to paint
A picture
Red roses
And streams and brooks
And belongings unaltered
Through his presence
Oak wood creaks
Arms outstretched
Kisses
So bliss
The beginning to
Heritage, family trees
Peaceful tides
Through his presence
Winter’s kisses are lighter
Autumn’s leaves blush brighter
Spring’s birth comings angelical
Summer’s sun filled rays
Shine right through my soul


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Je t'aime

Je t’aime Je t’ai écris dans ma memoire puis je t’ai redigé dans mes pensés avec la plus fine des ancres de mon coeur! Et comme un devoir à faire J’ai finis par te garder sur les images de mes yeux, dans les sons de mes orielles et aux battement de mon coeur! Pour chaque gestes que j’ai pu faire et que je fasse, me reviel d’un toi en moi qui m’en comble et m’en porte! Mais que puisse – je faire? t’écrire une lettre d’amour ou de te rediger un poeme? Car je crains que les mots ne puisse pas te dire à l’absolu ce que ma pensé est, les raison et excuses que je peu en fabriquer juste pour te dire que je t’aime!!!


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Brief Rupture

Although It Will Lead To 
My Contentment Becoming
Constantly Ruptured. 

I Never Want To Stop Loving You...


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Star Death

Out beyond the window
Deep within the sky
My eyes trace the light
The specks of hope
So few in the cascade of night

How can it be possible
To stare yonder
And be swallowed 
Falling in an abyss
Flailing for a holding

Twisting in my gut
An unwanted knowing
Shredding my being
Siphoning liquid from eyes
Destroying all that was

Binding me to the specks
Only able to observe
Undiscovered in the darkness
When the time comes to be your star
I’ll already have become a black hole


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I shall love you as a Stranger

Carry not my love with a sigh.
Let it not drag your steps, pull you from behind.
Weigh not your heart with guilt and regret;
Grieve not over the good and bad Allah set. 

Let my love fall on your shoulders, light as a moonbeam;
Let it be a faintest blush of colour on the canvas of your dreams.
Let it be a breeze that ruffles your outstretched wings;
Let it echo every note you sing.

I shall remember your smile
As I count my miles.
I might stumble, even fall --
Pray for me but do no more.

For such is my love for you,
For it runs pure and true,
For there is One who
I love more than you.

When the passions of this world come to fade,
We shall meet in a far better place --
On a day when there is no shade but His Shade;
When through the Fount of Abundance the faithful wade.

When the Promise is delivered
When we are gathered among Believers
I shall search the eyes of Strangers
I shall come to you as a Stranger
And I shall love you far greater.


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do i...?

you ask me do i love you...
im afraid to say yes...
but i don't wanna say no...
i can't believe im in this mess
..........
what was once a friendship....
becomes a relationship..
what was once a hug..
becomes a kiss...
............
do i love you..?
do i love you..?
do i really love you...?
............
YES
...........
just promise never to break my heart...


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JUST ONCE

What kind a drug are you
So seductive and highly addictive
Just one stroke, one is addicted 
Like an addict I can’t do without you
All you do is dement me	
All I do is dream and crave for you
Yet can’t seem to refrain from you
You turned nights into white nights
Nothing to ponder ‘bout
Only you
Just once


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Placing You First

I placed you first,

Even though you knew not.

For it was better done than said;

That it was truly from my heart.

 

And so I gave them up

I gave it all up for good

Left my mind heated from thoughts

As I lain every night to sleep

 

Thoughts so deep, I could not understand;

Whether I was going mad,

When I took that spit for you,

Or it was just love,

That I had for you.

 

My granny would not forgive me

For I left his funeral so early

To get you that ice cream

Else you would scream

 

Wishing to wake up and say,

"What a dream!"

NO! not a dream, it's a nightmare.

One that i cannot bear to share.

 

I pray you leave me now

My heart you wrecked

Lies in ruins

To think that place you had, but how.

 

I placed you first

Not because I knew you first

I placed you first

Because you were the best

 

And now I rest my words

For I now weep

Good-bye my sweet

Or may I say, my CURSE!


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Paramour

His brown eyes
She still feels them looking at her
His smile
She still see them smiling at her

She still remember their first time together
She still recall his touch
and she fell in love

The world was perfect
the colors were alive and vibrant
She was in love

He was a beautiful stranger
A stranger that caught her untamed heart
She was so in love

She remember how he cared about her
She remember the sound of his heartbeat
or was it just a make believe?

She thought he was her hero
didn't he try to rescue her?
and she gladly ran to him.

She thought his arms are her castle
as her head rest on his chest
there is no sky she couldn't fly

but she never knew..
She wish she had
the shadow of someone she thought he'll never be..

She thought he was her Knight..
but she didn't see..
the same knight whose sword is meant to bring death to her heart..

to him, she was nothing but a Paramour..


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Thank You

Thank you for the memories.
I think about them, whenever
I feel down.
And they make me smile,
as if you were in the room,
with me.
Thank you for that one
phone call.
The call that helped me
get through a bad night.
As soon as I heard your voice,
my heart skipped a little,
and my worries were yesterday.
Thank you for that kiss goodnight.
Your lips move against mine,
like they were made to match.
Sweet, like a honey blossom,
I can still taste you.
Thank you for encouraging me,
to do better, in my life.
Being with you, has made me realize
that I need to start now.
And if it means I become closer
to you, I will do it with no
questions asked.
Thank you for being you.
You amaze me more and more,
each day.
I did not think I could love as
much as I do, right now.
Oh, but when tomorrow comes,
I will love you even more.
So for that, I thank you.


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Marianne's Poem

Marianne's Poem

Marianne, I want you to know, you'll always be in my heart.

You had my heart right from the very start, and, through our ups and downs, my heart was always yours.

I love you more then words could ever express, and, I hope you can feel my love all the way up in heaven.

Marianne, you are, and, always will be my best friend, and, I hope to be able to see you again, someday


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You Don't Know

“Do you like me”?
	I don’t know…
“Why do you wanna be with me”?
	I don’t know…
“Are you mad at me”?
	I don’t know…
“Do you want me”?
	I don’t know…
“What do you see in me”?
	I don’t know…
“When do you wanna move in”?
	I don’t know…
“Do you love me”?
	I don’t know…

I know what I want and need.
	You… but you still don’t know.


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GHOST

It's raining, raining hard.
It seems Life is like a playing card.
I'm waiting, waiting alone.
There's a feeling that cannot be shown.

Walking alone in this mysterious place.
Why can't you see the smile on my face?
"I'm here." can't you see me?
"I'm just beside you." can't you feel me?

I whispered, but there was no reply.
Am I already free? why can I almost fly?
I touched you, but you can't feel me.
You're just there, standing still, close to me.

You come here everyday,
But why can't you hear the words I say?
how long have I been here?
It's the darkness that I fear.

The flowers you gave are still beautiful.
And the candles light gives me reasons to be hopeful.
I'm still wearing my pretty dress,
The wound in my heart is almost painless.

and one day you came,
after tonight it will never be the same.
For the last time, I looked at you.
For the last time, I said I love you.

And the time's ticking,
you have to accept that the shiny light's waiting.
I stayed here,with you as your lovely Ghost.
But it's time to go, so I can no longer be lost.


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I'm Slipping

Someone please catch me,
For I am slipping.
Death is looking like a solution,
But not a path I want to take.

Someone help me,
For I am slipping.
I can't take the stress anymore,
And I just feel like I want to be under the soiled floor.

Can somebody help me?
I can't find myself.
I just want to die.
Many may ask why?

What outcome is good from a life lost?
None I say,
But I want that fading feeling anyways.
I'm messed up in more ways than one.

I'm slipping,
I'm falling,
And I want to never get up.
I'd be thankful once the darkness takes over me.

To be free from all this torment,
To live a life thats as peaceful as death,
Would be a dream come true,
But I know it won't happen soon.




*I won't commit suicide, though....there's too may people I care about....and 4 people that 
mean the world to me: Adalhi, Dillon, Daniel, and Amanda...I love you 4 very much


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Someday

Imagine a boy whose heart you've broken. 
Picture him there, crying, sulking. 
Hands grasped around those fatal tokens. 
That you had left, much like him, broken.

Now listen to his dying monologue. 
For these words shall never again be spoken.

"It was here on this bed I lay, 
Where you said all you need to say, 
As you packed nearly all your things and ran away.
Leaving me there alone, that tragic day. 
Left me kicking, screaming, crying, in a fray. 
You left me in this never ending state of dismay, 
When you left me that way. 

Preaching to a newly understood god, 
'Someday! 
Someday soon!
Someday Maybe!
I don't know, just someday' 

What more is there for me to say besides someday?
For you could not sooth this wounded beast at bay.
By simply saying, 

'I will stay,
End this foolish disarray,
And continue that cold harpening music that we had once played.
Just to save you from sudden decay.
Someday I'll be your forever.
Someday never!
Someday-' 

'Stop! Stop! Stop!'
I'll say. And, 

'Would you do me one last favor please?
Before you come return for these last few things and leave, 
Kick me while I'm on my knees, 
Deny every last one of my final pleas, 
And rip my heart from about your sleeve. 
Would you do me one last favor please, 

And grant this wish, 
For a have scaffold through many a dark abyss 
Of my sub conscious, 
But still have gone a miss, 
In search of that fatal kiss. 
A kiss I had once wished to share with you.' 

What more is there for me to do, 
For you to do, 
For us to do.
We are now dead!' 

Just as he is dead.
Stuck in his own head, 
Because of the words that you had left unsaid, 
The love that you had left unfed. 
He is now dead, 
In his own head.
 



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The Essence of Flesh...

Flesh has a funny way of keeping two people entwined;
It imitates two people, or one person,
Tells one’s secrets, 
But still keeps them safe in the layers,
Layers of flesh like layers of me.

The first layer is soft, golden, and touchable.
So touch me,
Feel the contours of my skin,
Stroke me because you need to,
Because I need you to,
Because the being of your own flesh wants you to.

Layer two takes everything in,
Inhales and exhales systematically,
But breathless in your vigor, catches with your every move,
And sighs and moves as your skin brushes mine,
So thrust and lust so sweet and soft so skin itself might shed its tears.

Third is rooted, thick, and strong,
To protect a frail body like mine from the strength of yours,
But fluid enough to dance and bend,
So long as you’re the one next to me as my partner.

So strange and tenacious is the changing flesh,
Often setting free tiny beads that dabble along and drip from my skin,
So heated, the droplet beads of you and I join
As they run along our legs and down onto the soft sheets,
Releasing the warmth so to cool us.

So then so smooth the flesh becomes,
Fiery inside but so cool to touch,
If touch comes so gently it barely feels,
So sensual and slow, one could experience the weight of a light wind,
While face to face our lips will meet, our legs merge,
Our bodies fall into one another’s.

And it is this very essence of flesh,
This imitation of character, that will tell you what you need to know,
The ease and readiness with which yours will happily enter mine,
That makes us one.


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A Touch of Lovely

Sitting quietly,
Spirit searching for
Quiet Grace
Feeling all but quiet
Tired of waiting
Longing
Wondering about the
Mystery of connecting
With Love.

Then you sit next to me
Quietly.
A stranger, really,
Your thoughts blank
To me
Until the moment
I feel the warmth
Of your hand
On my shoulder, and
Suddenly
You are lovely.


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I QUITE!!!

I quite! im over you. I fell so hard.
I was always there for you when
you needed someone to talk to.
So basically im tired of being just
a friend or chasing you. So if you
want me. Im here. But im done
wasting my time on someone who
doesn't care.


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Fine

…I am fine
I do not deny 
What I felt for you once
It passes
The sun does  turn into the moon 
As my love does fade from you
…I am fine
Though I do not look so
Hair tangled and dirty clothes
I cannot see the reason to hope
I do not pretend as you do 
…I am fine
Forgetting the way you held me
You saved me you felt me
let me do to you the unthinkable
And more
Goodnight 
Lead me into my dreams 
You were not meant for me
To spoil ruin and break
I will not have this on my conscious mind 
…I am fine
These tears will dry
I need you to flea far away from me
So I cannot do more to you
So I cannot separate you into tiny pieces kept in boxes underground 
You mean fear in the morning 
…I am not fine
And I do not pretend to be 


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our soul.....

Your  love is what keeps me going.

My heart beating,My blood flowing.

The precious words I yearn to hear.

Losing you is the only thing I fear.

I have faith God will do us right.

We will not give up with out a fight.

Together we can conquer it all.

Just keep your head up and stand tall.

So many others care so deeply for you.

Don't get discouraged, you know what to do.

Pray to God and keep Love inside.

You can't lose your almighty pride.

Because I LOVE you with all of me.

With out you I just can't be.

You are in my heart forever, we are never apart.

Our souls were latched from the start.


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The Horse Trader

The pounding reins
Of yesterday’s tears
Lead me down
The dreary road of today 

The joy I once found
Gazing into your eyes
Is hobbled by distance
And my faltering gait

Unbridled rides at dawn
A beautiful, insipid memory
Breakneck sprints in the dark
An aching need in the final stretch

The rhythmic rhyme
Of our ride in time
We won the race
But lost our place

Your crop too willing
My flanks too tender
Your mount is running,
Full out, yet you ask for more

(unfinished) 

rlm '11


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The Moment Slipped Away

Falling in love is hard to do, but when I'm with you it seems so easy.
Loving you was better then a kiss.
Loving you was better then a slit wrist.
We laughed, we played we ever cried some too.
The time passed so fast, yet I ended up empty handed.
The moment slipped away and I fell on my face.

We had a fight and my depression got worse.
We cried and yelled to end up with nothing lost. 
You said so many hurtful things, and you think you can take them back so easily?
Punches were thrown, bodies were broken and that small moment slipped away.

The tears I cried soaked up the pain that wrenched in my heart.
The pain once hurt, yet now it's gone.
You picked me up and spun me around.
You put on that fake smile.
You laughed at my pain, you evil lover.
I laughed as I finally saw your true fatal colors.
That final moment slipped away.

-Kallie Mason


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The Alpha Male

Being a man,what do they see?
I see strength, aggression, power.
How about physical force? 
Domination. Pain. Passion. Madness.
What is it they say on TV?
The alpha male...

It's all wrong.

I see passion. I see strength.
But what I see is family, I see love,
Oh I see pain. But only for what's lost,
Not what's inflicted. Being a man
I used to wonder what it meant.

After what they see, they say.
They say "be a man, fight" and
It's true. They say "Don't cry,
Don't be a girl." And it's true.
They say, "I thought I raised a man."
And that. Is. True.

I told you what I see.

How about what I say:
I say "Be a man, fight.
To put food on the table for your family."
I say "Don't cry, don't be a girl
Because your girl needs you
But needs you to cry when you take her as a bride."
I say, "I thought I raised a man
And I did." When my son fights for his family.

Being a man is about loving,
Fighting, directing, surviving,
But most of all, it's about appreciating
A woman.


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I'm Sorry

After having the need to purge my stomach, tear glands
and trying to feel clean by scrubbing like a lunatic...
I have to write some things I could barely think of mustering.
Very coward of me. I know. I have no excuses for
anything I've ever done to hurt you.
I don't like having such an impact in your life... sure the
plus side is great... but you don't deserve this...any of it.
You're better than that. I should encourage you to untie
your heart from this train-wreck...thing. I
can't even call it anything, cause nothing is solid,
concrete.
I sometimes think of how much better your life would 
be right now if I didn't messege you back on Facebook
that day. You'd have more time, money, patience, better
work attitude, probably would've gotten a richer experience
becoming what you aspired to be... less stress, drama and 
bullshit to deal with. I haven't done anything positive, 
except making you smile a couple of times... and wheeze
like you were going to die. But is it worth it?
My answer through your mouth would be, no.
I feel like I've hit the lowest. Rock bottom would be a
pinnacle of achievment at this stage. I have nothing but excuses,
sorry's and sorrow left in my vocabulary.
I don't know what to do anymore... and I feel sick to my bones for 
the things I've put you through. I almost wish you ignored me,
from now on, for your own good sake. I know I deserve that,
along with a slap in the face and a kick to the knees. Even then
I'd still feel horrible.
I don't want to say anything that will make you want anything
from me... know that it's there, but its pointing and asking you
to go your own way, make your own decisions. Selfishly.

I'm sorry.


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Hopefully hopeful

It started in the night
the stars
the cars

It started on the balcany
the sight 
the fright

It started with the adrenaline
Yet soft
and free

It started with the boy
only around
the bend

The move was love
the toy 
that destroys

The action was glue
to follow 
the move

The end
was 
me 
and
you...... 


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Tears

Tears 
Tears roll down 
After eight long years of walk 
Talk we start at dusk you take it until dawn
Moving in beloved arms
Rolling my hand on to your spine love to do it till dawn
Take me to your lap to rest in peace for long 
Roll my hair with ricotta fingers of your feel cheesy 
Heavenly curves you show takes to a different world in winter cold night
Bring your lips-o on mine to have divine feel on 
I realize a drop  tears  roll down from your eyes to my cheeks
To wake me from dream divine
Shattered,
Moist get my eyes,turns dawn to dark night 
Tears roll down
After 8 long years of walk.


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Is Love Worth It

Why am I so lost?
It is complicated.
All these thoughts
Running through my head.
I hold myself together,
Fighting back tears,
I am frustrated,
That my mind is settled on you.
You touch me,
I smile.
You kiss me,
Feelings start to emerge.
You hold me in your arms,
I am falling for you.
It is hard,
Love is blind,
It dictates your life.
Love is misleading,
He will never know the truth.


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To Forget, But Not Completely

To forget your past,
And start your life anew,
is a journey worth taking.

To forget, yet always remember;
For you never know when it might become useful.


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Missing Someone

Shall I call?
I shan't, or won't or am too fearful
of my own rapidly fading shadow.


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In the Raw Like We Were Animals

He that stalks like the prey
Holy steps he takes towards me
Sniffing at the sour air, claiming my scent he travels on

He that struggles with me in a clothes fight
Tearing, ripping undergarments to dignity
Ravishing me like some form of beast

He that makes my heart pound
Drumming my pulse one stroke at a time
Creating a ungentle rhythm

He that my body calls to
Loudly with stares no words
How I wish of him to devour me 


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My Quote about Love

Love is not just what you want to get out of being with another person, but what you want another person to get out of being with you.


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Still take a bullet

My Valentine
 My sunshine
 Thought you'd always be mine
 Today is two years…
 Full of tears.
 Still want the dream we've had
 Although the hurts too much , just a tad.
 VIP you know what this stands for
 MVP you know there's more.
 Crushed . hurt . lies.
 Always more hi's… than goodbye's
 Thought today i'd be in your arms
 This is a wake up call, real alarm
 Never would of thought it
 The price it cost I bought it
 Guess you didn't take my currency
 Didn't wanna think of me.
 Now it's time to think of you.
 Although my love will always be true.
 I gotta think of you...
 Loving you will never stop
 Not when I'm on the bottom your on the top. 
I'll love you more than you'll ever know.
 I'll love you more than I'll ever be able to show. 
Brings tears to my eyes
 To remember those butterflies
 Gotta make you happy.
 I'll be behind the scenes faking sappy.
 No, i won't be okay
 But I'll make it through today 
Speechless, Don't know what to say
 But for you I'll always be there MJ
 Chris Brown, No there's not a right time to say goodbye.
 So I hope you live life to the fullest.
 For you any day any time. I'll still take a bullet.


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Burning Embers

After being together for a time of great length
I have no idea how I put up with you, or where I get the strength
You make me so furious, just so mad!
Why do I put myself through this, if I just end up being sad?
I get a reminder every morning when I turn to your side of the bed.
The passion our love used to have, a fire burning such a deep red.
Years pass and the fire dies down
I look at you and your once glowing smile, turned into a frown. 
What’s changing I really don’t know
Sometimes wondering if it was all a show…
But in the morning, breath stinky and hair a mess
I look at you and know I’m blessed. 
Because behind those eyes I see a spark
Memories of making out in the park
The only time we’d cry
is when we had to say good-bye. 
I see something that’s keeping us alive
During the screaming shouts there is something in our hearts we are trying to revive
We’re trying to rekindle the burning embers
When all of the sudden, not just our minds, but our hearts remember
We lean in for a passionate kiss
And all of the sudden, remember the feeling of bliss.
And who knew that was the fuel we needed,
A blissful kiss our hearts and lips have so deeply missed
To rekindle our fire
To rekindle our passion
To rekindle our faith and trust we had in each other.


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Untitled Lust

My hands fall gently over her desirable curves as I pull her close to me. 
Smooth, shirtless bodies pressed together, push back and forth into the other with each tantalizing breath that's taken. 
Her lips draw near and I can't help but lose myself. 
My mind shuts down, warm, fuzzy, buzzing with hopeful anticipation. My nervousness has complete control, as my body is gripped with this excited frenzy of fear and love. 
Her moist lips connect to mine like sticking a finger in a light socket. 
My heart is on fire. 
I'm on my knees in front of her, begging for her love, her body, her lips, her touch, her mind and her soul..I pull a knife and hand her my world, my heart on a platter...
(figuratively speaking) 

*an explosion of blinding light* 

rips my gripped fingers from her body and sends me hurling backwards, sideways...up? Or down? 
I have no idea. I'm falling from her. 
I scream but it seems to only echo in my mind..... 

I slowly fall to the ground and awaken in my bed to the early morning sun sneaking through my window.


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The Separation of Life

Life as unexplained to the little mind
Grown to the desires of teaching
Separated by the essence of value
The little girl and her silver nugget
Will grow to appreciate all
That is of her demand
So be it the little boy of lesser value
With his silver plated nickels in hand
He will appreciate all
That is earned
Friends these two of a wonderful life
Childhood thoughts bring childhood dreams
However, to the child the scheme is vacant
Unlearned in their willingness to play
Walks and talks these children have
In the room of the open wood
Together in games of Robin Hood.

Tens and twelve’s are coming
Teens will begin a new day
The separation of life
By the saturation of value
A rose for you my love but yet,
You give me a whisper
   “My mommy says I should never talk to you again
You are not as important as I
Can never be as I am
Though I love you dearly
We can no longer be friends”
A growing young man sits in a room
Of nothing; staring,
At twenty jars of silver plated nickels
A single teardrop falls
   “She was to be my wife”
The separation of life.


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Flame

                      

                 Bloom
             Bamboozle
        Taste
    Cherish
   Yearning Passion
Inner Soul
Affection 
   Flame
      Scorn 
           Abomination

        
                    



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Every Mile

The one man that can truly make me smile,
He knows everything in my life.
Every inch, every mile.
He's my one dove,
When i'm surrounded by a world of crows.
It seems life has aimed a few bows.
But he has been swift and flew through.
Now i'm here to make him smile and laugh.
And he is here to help me pull through too.
It hasn't even been a year,
And i feel like i've known him my whole life.
I would do anything for him.
He knows we will always be near,
With plenty adventures ahead, 
All fears fled!


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Define "Love".

My heart beats faster
My lips tingle excitedly
My eyes glimmer
My hold tightens
My kiss deepens
His expression grows warmer


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Prepare For War

Please let me leave this 
paradise
Let me speak to him once 
more
The one who I'd do anything 
for
The one who holds my heart

This alchemy of sin
Will never go unpurged
Get ready to burn
Lilith you are my mark
Prepare for War 
Demon whore

Anubis, my heart is mine
My love's revenge I will find
It's Time for war
I understand now
You are my mark 
Lilith reach for your armor
Prepare For war

I will meet my body again
I'll rip out every nail in my 
coffin
I don't care if it's God I Offend

You've destroyed my love
You've destroyed me
You've destroyed my heart's 
holder
Lilith you are my mark
Prepare for war
Demon whore

Anubis, my heart is mine
My love's revenge I will find
It's Time for war
I understand now
You are my mark 
Lilith reach for your armor
Prepare For war

Only if I could let him know
This curse, this demon
Will not be our doom 

Anubis, my heart is mine
My love's revenge I will find
It's Time for war
I understand now
You are my mark 
Lilith reach for your armor
Prepare For war


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things i should not have done

There’s a chance i took 
to make you very disappointed 
pretty much disrupted the kindness and tossed the patience 
aside 
a glass under the tap, emptying for something colder i guess 
the tag that i came with did not bear the warning, “Do not remove” 
an admission that some things i do with my freedom, can remove me 
can place me where i make sense to everyone around me 
as long as there’s distance there 
i get it now, fully understood 
the smiles around me as of late are perhaps for a mind perceived as lost 
Or, then again, an email about how i will 
“never. . . be right about peoples’ opinion” 
i have no loss for fear in my heart 
and gain from the strange we grew up in 
opinion is an onion 
so many write about for obvious layers 
i choose to be the farmer 
filling baskets and not worrying about what’s under the skin 
peel that back and try crying again 
like only you could, last time you did something bad


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agenda

everyone has an agenda
your words
not mine
yet I offered
my friendship
no strings attached
still
you thought 
there was a price
I gave you my trust
something you earned
my life 
was in your hands
you held it
kept it safe
you protected me
an unexpected turn
was there an agenda then?
if there was
it wasn't mine
I offered my friendship freely
everything else took time   m.j.r. 2008 (c)


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Perfect in Betrayal

The Betrayal was planned,
orchestrated with vehement pride,
This undertaking,
Designed,
with evil intentions,
in mind.

Don’t you know how she feels?
Trying so hard to make you feel better for your cruelty,
She cries for your mistakes,
She apologizes when you yell at her.

How long can she do this?
The wind in her face,
Before she falls,
Before she can’t hold on anymore.

You ignore her but she feels the guilt.
The guilt for your selfishness.
Maybe if she grovels before you,
You will love her at last.
You will respect her as an equal.

You are her only peace.
You are her only friend.
You made her cast away all the others.
Your insecurity, 
Lashes out and bruises,
And she cries,
And apologizes.
As you rape her body and spirit.

She sits enfolded,
in her security blanket of thorns,
Of tears,
As you walk away.
If I had one more chance it could be,
Would be different.
I’m sorry for the disease I’ve caused,
As I slipped through your body,
Unresisting and sweet,
I got carried away.

Carried away with more than I could take.
I’m sorry.

What is worth the fight,
And what should you let die,
This hallowed ground, 
Speaks between dimensions,
Beckoning without a sound,

We are not perfect but we are perfect together.


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why stay

You talk to me like Im nothing 
you treat me like im nothing 
you act like what i have going on in life is pointless
so why do I stay 
yes it true I dont want to be alone 
but I know it have to get worse before it get better 
I know I have to go though some ups and down 
So why do I stay 
Yes I love you and  I am so in love with you 
Yes I take so much from you to go though this everyday
I try to get you to understand that I am a great women
I show you so much and give you more then I give myself
and you still see me as being nothing 
so why do I stay 
you say you going to change 
but a man never change 
I was told that many  times
but it funny because I never tryed to change you 
I just need you to see what you got 
what you have 
and what you did have
because like they say
you cant help someone who dont want to be help 
you cant change someone who dont want to be change 
and you cant fix an broken glass
but there is still a ? that  is not answer 
but I am the only one who can answer that ?
I guess i need to figure it out 
and make up my mind
but it need to be soon or later
Is he really worth me staying
or should  have I left a long time ago 
that the ?


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Paper Back

Slaughtered by the innocent blood lost long ago
Her reputation drops like soap in a male correctional facility
Tying up the oak tree, chasing fancy cars
Her leash finally snapped like yesterdays twig
I'm sorry to see your wife is back
The bomb on this town has been dropped by your top head look
Shrug your shoulders,
Stop whining bro, next time double knot the noose, 
Make sure the doors come in with double locks
Stop crying that the ***** is back 
Do yourself a favor, and just let her in

Love
Bell


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Ice Heart

Cold inside and out
The weather 
My heart
Gloomy clouds
Dropping snow
Painful memories
Consume my mind
Fighting,yelling, break-downs
Not able to move
I'm numb
From the freezing tempature
And my shattered ice heart
Freezing slowly
Wishing I had you to warm me
Cold inside and out
The weather
My heart


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The Image Of Being In Need

The Image of Being In Need

My eyes are covered in gauze,
from dirt scratching 
both of my corneas.

My boyfriend leads me around
otherwise I'd find myself on my 
knees feeling the ground.

He takes care of me
and tends to my needs.

He accidently squirts 
ear wax cleaner
into my eyes instead 
of my prescribed 
eye drops.

Oh the pain,
I thought would 
drive me insane.
No apologies either!

He picks my clothes out
and helps me dress,
too close for my
comfort.

The humility found in 
depending on another
for survival was not high.

So glad I'm looking
for a new guy now,
the image of me
depending on him
for a lifetime
is not a good one.

For he left me
feeling more like
a burden then
a friend in need,
to me that
makes him 
a bad seed
for me.


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CHEAP SKATE


POCKETS TURN INSIDE OUT.LINT BALLS
FALL RIGHT OUT...A NIGHT OUT WITH
YOU IS WITH COUPONS AT MICKEY D'S.
ASKING THE CLERK TO SUPER SIZE A
TAKEOUT MEAL.

CHEAP SKATE:THE FLOWERS I RECEIVE WERE
FROM THE CEMETERY DOWN THE STREET.IT
SLIP YOUR MIND TO TEAR AWAY THE NOTE 
THAT SAID "FAREWELL CAROL" HOW DEAR 
YOU STEAL FROM THE DEAD.

CHEAP SKATE: YOUR CELL PHONE IS PREPAID,
AND YOU HARDLY HAVE ANY MINUTES TO SPARE. 
IT'S HELLO,GOODBYE,SEE YA SOON.

CHEAP SKATE: ALWAYS UP IN MY FACE. NEVER
WANTING TO GO HOME.WEARING OUT WELCOME HAS
TO END.

CHEAP SKATE:I'M AFRAID TO TAKE YOU AROUND MY
FAMILY. TO SAVE MYSELF FROM THE EMBARRASSMENT.
I'LL JUST MEET YOU AT THE MALL. SINCE YOU 
HAVE LIMITED MINUTES ON YOUR PREPAID CELL PHONE.

CHEAP SKATE:I DON'T MIND PAYING SOMETIMES OR
EVEN GOING DUTCH....BUT YOU'RE TOO CHEAP FOR 
ME. A MAN ALWAYS CRYING BROKE.PLESE! LEAVE
ME ALONE. I TRIED TO BE PLESANT. THIS PROJECT
IS TO BIG FOR ME.A MAN BEGGING FOR MONEY THIS 
CAN NOT BE.....I HAVE TO FEED YOU WITH A LONG
HANDLE SPOON BECAUSE YOU'RE A CHEAP SKATE......


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Open your eyes

Open your eyes ..
Love is a shadow constricting you up close
And when you sleep it lays next to you..

Love is a force that drags you, possesses you, 
And fills you up with memories of today for a life of tomorrow..

Love is a sword cutting through the soul..
Leaving you breathless for eternal moments that will never come back 

Love is like a feather blown by the wind, 
And injected in our hearts by a single wish... 
To never be alone!

Love is an aura..
We all have one, yet we can't see it or touch it,
We Have to believe  its there, and it will show up..

               ..to give us a chance to trust, to build, to fall,  and get up;  over and over again!


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ice cream kisses

you take a second look
and laugh at me
as ice cream drips from sunburnt face
and there are no napkins
i come closer to you
kissing you on your cheek
leaving chocolate ripples
and wavey kiss marks as souveniers

august 5,2012


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2012

I dedicate my 2012 to the one I love most...

Ouch! I shake my hand and stare at the door knob in disbelief. 
I open the front door and wince as the scorching late morning sun burns my face. I close my eyes and think back to when I was kid, standing too close to the BBQ as Dad lit it...BIG mistake. 
   I close the door behind me and trip over my towel that had fallen in my chaotic response to the hot mid June weather. 
Confident from my recent gym ambition, I let my towel fall off my shoulder and reveal my newly sculpted body to the world as I casually approach the giant pool gate. 
I swing open the gate and walk in...that's when it hit me...SHE hit me. 
Laying on her beautifully toned tummy...I am a sucker for a woman's stomach; sensual, smooth, so full of subtle detail, the holder of life.
   I shake my head and snap back to reality in time to catch myself from nearly falling over. I lean down quickly and pick up my jaw from the ground in hopes she didn't notice. 
Her cardinal red hair up in a bun, or pony tail...I guess wildly as men do.
I walk by as stable as I can... "don't stare, don't stare, don't stare," I whisper to myself. 

THUMP-THUMP!, THUMP-THUMP! THUMP-THUMP!

   My heart beats so intense I can feel it pulsating through my temples.
I reach the lawn chairs and settle down 20ft from her. Directly diagonal to her right shoulder...her wonderfully shaped, perfectly curved shoulders.
I tell myself to look away but cannot help. 
An intense magnetic force pulls my attention to her, I try with all my being to fight it but cannot advert my eyes. I yell at my brain to drop curtains on my eyes but no response. Giving into her dream-like curved body, the sweet gently sweeping motion from the back of her neck to her luscious, tanned cheeked backside. Her legs are incredible. I continue my stare. A non perverted stare of course. I'm taken back to college art classes. The overwhelming amounts of anatomy classes and sketches...
Never had I seen such flawlessness. 
   Who was this girl laying by my pool? The most incredibly indescribable woman I have seen and yet, I had only seen half!

Just as if I was narrating aloud this profound experience, she turned over and rolled onto her back. 

Dying the darkest, ugliest death, then awaking to ALL of Heaven's golden warmth doesn't compare to when I looked into her blue-green eyes. 
Frozen in that moment in time, I had without a doubt, found the woman I knew I was to spend the rest of my life with.


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Dear, I Can Do Better

You can sit there
Glare at me with your frown
Dear, I can do better
All you do is drag me down
Your words don’t hurt me
I’ve grown accustomed to their use
I’ll ignore you
So I don’t deplore you for the abuse
Your forced tears don’t faze me
As I’m walking out the door
Today, I awoke to realize
I don’t need you anymore


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Looked Over Zone

Ah, the friend zone
An electric fence of limits
A barrier between eternal happiness
And an awkward end to friendship

The excitement in your voice
As her name spills over thy lips
Making my abdomen squelch
While I smile and nod carefully

Replaying every word, look, and deed
She's spoken to you these days before
Dates planned, events all set
I feel envy showering out my veins

Sometimes I wish I got the courage
To tell you how I felt everyday
But when you told me you loved her
I knew quiet I had to stay

A wedding destined for royalty
As we walk down the aisle
Step by step I lead the way
With the bride but a movement behind

Clothed in a title, Maid of Honor
Tears fall slowly drip by drip
Everyone gazes at the love between the couple
Why can't I feel happy too?

The only one to stir my heart
Betrothed to another
Looked over zone
With a secret crush


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Look at me, in my eyes

Look at me, in my eyes
Can't you see my innocence?
Look at me, look at my legs
Do they not look as weak as wet spaghetti?
Look at me, at my figure
I am shivering, aren't I?
Look at me, notice my walk
my talk
my sway
my wave
They're all different when you're around.
You don't just make me weak in my knees...
I get weak all over.
My toes
My ankles
My legs
My knees
My thighs
My hips
My waist
My torso
My arms
My hands
My fingers...
My heart.
My heart is your personal playing field.
Yours to own
or to wreck.
But please, don't do both!
Look at me, in my eyes
Doesn't it look like I've suffered enough?
I'm tired of giving all my love
for you to not return the favor.
Do you even accept my love?
Do you even notice?
CAN YOU HEAR ME?!!!!?
I'm talking to you!!
LOOK AT ME, in my eyes
Can you see my hurt, my pain?
All these years of holding it in...
Then, when I found you...
I thought I found someone...
special.
Someone who would listen to my story.
Someone who would give me advice.
Someone who would console me.
Someone who would hold me through the tears.
Someone who...
Someone who...
Someone who would LOVE me!!
Look at me, at my tears
Can you see my sincerity?
Can't you tell that I LOVE YOU?!!?
... probably not.
We don't talk.
You don't talk.
You don't smile.
You don't show interest.
You won't even look my way.


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My one and only love



My love for you is so great, 
my heart melts for you night and day
Time drags on when your away,



Your beauty is great,
My mind wanders 'til I see you,
Thinking about you is all I do , all i need
While waiting for the moment, for you to say "I do."


The moment when we take the lead, take the lead on life
When the moment comes you’ll be my wife 
Together until the day we die 
You’ll always be the apple of my eye.
My arms around your shoulder 
Then your hand comes to mine as its holder
I still remember the day we met 

I remember the day you told me it was, me you liked
I had a feeling like I had just striked
Striked ten pins in bowling 
And it took a few months afterward for the relationship to get rolling
But then I finally asked you out
The feeling after that was a feeling like i had just caught the biggest trout
The first kiss
Hesitant to do it at first in case i might miss
I go for the cheek first afraid of what you will think
I am afraid that my face might go pink
Then eventually I get over those feelings
I think “damn my pride”
I get over my fear and go for the ride

Then there was our first public display of affection
Then, at that moment I really felt a connection
Though then I was not at all involved
I really felt your loves call

My sweetheart 
My baby girl 
My pookie 
My love
My girlfriend
My Samantha 
Samantha forever


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Just Right

I turn
only to see your face
next to mine
Sunlight
touches the perfect spots
Heat rises
and Eyes lock
at 
the sound of your voice
saying
"Hello Beautiful"
your Lips 
to my Forehead
tell me 
I'm Special
but the faint smell of 
toothpaste and old spice
say
your day was long
your Fingers
sweep the hair from
my Eyes
and I return the favor
your Arms
pin me beneath your side
and 
I feel your Heart
beat in sync with mine
Meant To Be: In that moment, life was just right


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Escaping Depression

Where is the light in this dark world?

I can't find it.

Is the trench I've dug really that deep?

So deep that I can't get out?

 

My hands are torn from climbing these walls

My wrists bloodied from stress

My eyes are red from the tears

Will I ever get to the top?

 

You are there

Waiting for me.

Your hand is stretched out,

Waiting for me to accept it.

 

But this hole is too deep;

My arms cannot reach.

If only I could -

I long for your touch.

 

I'll keep trying,

But only for you.

The darkness is my friend,

But I just can't do this anymore.

 

You hate the way I hurt myself,

The way I cut my wrist

To bleed out the pain

And unleash the tears.

 

So I'll keep going.

I hate to see you like this.

My ways are torturing you,

Adding to your stress.

 

I will reach for these ledges

And pull myself up.

I will keep climbing

Until your hand is in mine.

 

Then you'll pull me up

And hold me close -

Washing away all the dirt;

Chasing away the lingering darkness.

 

But I can never let it all go,

It's just not possible.

This darkness is the source of my pain,

But it is also who I am.

 

If I were to let it go,

I would no longer be me.

I'd be nobody -

A whole different person.

Not the one you know.

 

Then what would you think?

Would you still love me?

Or would you push me back into that hole

So that I can be myself again?

 

So I'll keep a little bit of darkness in a jar

And let it out when I need it most.

That way I can be myself

And yet be light once more.

 

So help me out of here.

I'm halfway up already.

I may still have a mile to go,

but I'm trying.

I really am.

 

I'll be with you soon,

so why are you climbing down?

I don't want you to feel my pain.

I don't want you to go through this.

 

Why did you let go?

Why did you fall?

Now you're farther down than me,

And I'm the one with my hand out.

 

But now you understand how I am.

Now you've felt my pain.

But please don't kill yourself,

Like I've tried to do.

 

The pain doesn't leave

It just gets worse.

You're stronger than me,

You can get out.

 

So climb,

You'll reach the top first.

I'll be there when I can.

We'll be together in light.

 

I love you,

So please go.

Leave me in the dark,

and return to the light

So you can help me out of here

And we can be together happily -

Not brought together by pain.

 

I'm sorry to have hurt you so.

I'm sorry you've fallen.

I will help,

But we have to do this together.


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Come Home

Its you I see 

Its you I need,

So please baby, come back to me…

I would give my all, 

If only you would j return to the place that clings on to your heart…

Its you I see,

Its you I need,

So please baby, come back to me…


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Failing Relations

You say I have one more chance, or your out the door for good.
I think I deserve more than one forgiving hand of yours.
Your jealous of her, but she doesn't mind, she doesn't even want me.
We had a fight, but you don't understand, your just raging on in spite.
It took so much out of me to hear you mad, and to forgive and to forget.
But all you do is hold against me that one last threat.


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DC

DC is
cool air
concrete
and your autumn brown eyes


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MEMORIES

Once more shall I think of our past
That brings me a memory of
This bittersweet love of mine to you
That at one time, I loved you...

I remember those scented crackling letters, 
you gave me...
Is today stained and a crumpled sheet
Those days that we laughed together
Sharing experiences, problems and worries

A day that I saw health, joy and smile from you
A day that I eagerly want your sacred love on me too
A day that I seek your warmth beside me
That half a night, I crave
for the gleam of your beautiful eyes on me...

Yet we have woven endless pages
Of transient sorrows of the past
Together, we etched timeless pictures
In the eternal reaches of memory...

sometimes, I wake
and the loneliness of mine will come again...
Just this sudden aching of mine makes me cry...
a pain crystal clear in my heart...

High up the mountains; 
far across the sea...
Again, I need you today your love on me
Cause you meant so much to me...
You are the best thing of my life...

Always; but always..
Those memories of yours on me...
Happiness will be in our hearts...
If you and I will be together again...


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I Want You To Know

Years may come
And years may go
But one thing is certain
And I want you to know

Throug good and through bad
I'll try to be true
To make you believe
In my love for you

Sometimes it's hard
Sometimes it's tough
And sometimes it feels like
Things just are too rough

So all I am saying
Is that day by day
I'll do all I can
To just make you stay


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Secret Lover's Lane

Young Heart's Fast Beat, Never Let's Go.
  Your Love So Feirce, Can't Stop The 
Pulsing Trembles; Run My Blood.

Forever That Is Mine: Is Yours, As
  Long As My Heart Can Beat N' Never
Skip. He Loves Her Eternity Of 
  Heaven; So Constant And Devine.

"A Heart N' Soul Intigued The Only 
  One They Loved Eachother....  
She'll Gentley Blow Sweet Nothings 
Through The Sky For Him To Reach." 

Hand n' Hand As They Stroll Down A
Secret Lover's Lane..... As One!!


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Forgive, please forget

I lie here looking at the ceiling,
Then I look to your word,
It didn't have much meaning, 
Trusting you is almost absurd
You left me broken promises
I know I'm better off
No more kisses
I need to write you off
I'm a creature of habit
I  know I'm not that tough
I have no heart to be compassionate
You stole it, left it in the rough
I'm Forgetting how your voice sounds
It truly makes me sad
yet still want you around
I still know what we had 
Why'd did you ever leave? 
Why couldn't we have been enough for you?
Now you wallow in sorrow and tell me how you grieve
love isn't for the weak I give the devil his due 
Now you suffer twisting, contorted pain
the worst mistake of your life
takes me back to lovers lane
You really messed up and I'm to alleviate you of your strife?
You think you deserve it?
….
…..
…...
…....
…..I do.


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The Hardest Thing To Do

I’m with a partner, on occasion, if I’m lucky,
But just as luck is, it’s never there for long.
Family and friends are always around,
Yet no matter who’s there, alone I am.
Always the lover, never the loved,
The hardest thing to do, to hold onto myself.

Happiness is false, the mask I must don,
To show that I am there, I can be relied on.
Family and friends, true to their name,
Treat me as such, their not to blame.
Partners it seems, their purpose is to do,
Treat me like the dirt that lies under their shoe.

A matt to be trodden on, left on the floor,
Used as their need takes, ignored until then.
Beaten occasionally, then dropped back to the ground,
Looked upon in disgust until I’m needed, yet again.
The dirt is ground in deep, forced into my fibres, 
Yet I endure this torture, trying to find a measure of peace.

The dirt ground in, festers inside, filling me with sadness, anger and hate,
Begging me to turn the tide of my fate.
Use them first, before they can use me,
Give into my dark, become an arsehole, let them see.
With all I have been through, it would be easy to do,
But what would happen to me?... I’d loose me too.

So keep to my morals, treat as I would be treated,
Get used and discarded then used a bit more.
Keep taking my punishment, dreaming of peace,
However it comes, happiness or death, what ever my fate.
Painfully hard, resisting temptation,
The hardest thing to do, to hold onto myself.


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Missing You

I was with you,
till you pushed me away,
after a while i finally gave way,
i started to date someone else.
oh how weet he is.
but then u wanted me back.
you were gonna kill urself,
if you did not have me,
so what did i do?
well i obviously went back to you.
but now i want to be with the one i was with before you.
he was so much sweeter.
and besids, 
you are the one that pushed me away in the first place,
you are the one i truly want,
not the one im with now,
but you the one i had beforehand,
but i cant do the breakup thing, 
its just not me,
its so hard to do,
so hard to handel,
its like trying to make a baby pig fly.
i will have to do it though.
it will be best for me, best for everyone.
so world, here i come,
i am going to do this,
no matter what.


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I love you

                                                        The words
                                                       "I love you"
                                             Are not for anyone to say from
                                              Their mout to their beloved.
                                      It's a special feeling that you can whisper
                                                    To each other from
                                                    your heart to theirs
                                           without even saying a single word


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Four to Blame

Blame it on the sea
That crashed upon the sand,
And washed away my heart
That I had drawn for you.

For my heart is what you wanted,
But my heart I could not give.

Blame it on the rain
That fell upon the words,
The words that told my love
That I had written down for you.
 
For my love is what you wanted,
But my love I could not give.

Blame it on the wind
That blew upon my life,
And scattered all my dreams
That I had dreamed with you.

For my dreams are what you wanted,
But my dreams I could not give.

So, if you sit there lonely
Blame the sea, the rain, the wind,
But if these three seem not enough,
Blame it all on me.

For I am really all you wanted,
But myself I could not give.


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MEMORIES

When I look back
And think about our time together
All the beautiful memories we've made
It makes me feel so lucky
To be in love with you

All the good times we've had
All the obstacles and hurdles we've scaled
Our ability to handle all our issues on our own
It makes me feel so fortunate
To be in love with you

You've always been wonderful to me
Supporting me in every way
For all the love and affection you've showered on me
It makes me feel so blessed
To be in love with you.


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Friend of Mine

Sure,doing just fine.
Ya, she's a friend of mine.
At least that's what I say.
That's all they need to know anyway.
Let me get it straight in my head before anything else is said.
If you ask her, she'll say the same thing.
Even though that's not what she means.
Moments shared, no ones scared, just go with the feeling inside.
Telling my secrets, my stories before untold,
Now you know.
Trusting hearts and the evening unfolds.
I really like this one,
Brings out a different me.


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Heartbreak Central

Hold me now
I need a break
Help me now
This life I can’t take
I’m tired of feeling
Something you don’t
I’m tired of hoping
Because I know you won’t

Your love is something
I can’t believe I lost
Your hate I relish
I’ll take affection at any cost

Some call me stupid
For not letting go
Some call me ignorant
But I’ve got scars to show

Because you’re what I need
To make my life complete
You’re what I need
For me to escape defeat
Because I need you now
I need you forever
And I’m going to fall apart
If we can’t be together


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missed connection

I often wonder why we have crossed paths 
in our lives.
More often than once, yet we still seem to never
settle.
We live in the moment believing we are gonna be
together.
Something still seems to pull us apart.
Is it faith that God has let us come in and out if each 
others lives, or is it that secret bond we long to 
connect for.
We may never know, always wondering if our paths will
cross again.
If so will this time be what we longed for or just another 
memory to add to our past. 
I guess only time will tell.


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I'm Hell On Heels

It all happened in a flash. 
You came into my life, 
turned my world upside down,
then left me in the dark.
You put me through hell,
I fought to make it back up
to the surface of reality.
I had to survive on my own.
I had to fight the demons away.
I had to strive for life.
Now you're back,
asking for me to forgive you.
Ha!
I grew into a stronger woman,
since you did what you did, 
now I'm going to show you
what hell feels like, 
cause baby, well...
you're worthless,
you're a nobody to me,
you're a novelty painting 
in a run down dump.
You think that with your 
cute crooked smile you will
"win me over"
but not this time.
I have conquered
you're spell,
you're charm,
you're game.
Now I run this show
and well...
you're no longer good enough.
so farewell,
ta-ta for now,
hope you feel the pain you put me through.


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sadness in the night...

In the night, I hear the gentle sighing of my heart, 
A lullaby drowned out by sunlight, 
And only brought to life by the moon’s silver glow…
I sit with my knees clasped, in silence, and listen, 
Drinking in the mournful melody of my lust – 
Of my tarnished but tenacious love
The lament of my heart is beyond beauty; 
But turgid with the black notes of its muted despair 
Quietly, my spirit weeps, and each tear is a prayer for you 
Each silent sob is a call to your own leonine heart 
A plea, from my vanquished soul to yours, 
Begging you to have mercy on me and my loneliness…
Asking you to please come, to travel through the night, 
And hold me in your arms again – 
To heal the scars you opened in my aching ribs, 
In the flesh of my tenderness 
But even as I cry out for you I know you will not come 
You can’t; for, ghost-like, you have vanished – 
Melted into the humid night, into the Vale of my tears 
You were like a glorious dream, gifted to me for too brief a time 
And like a fool, I lost myself so deep in you, 
That now I can’t find my way out; can’t forget your face 
Which lies, emblazoned in fire, inside my shuttered eyes 
Stupid and masochistic to the end I love you now, 
As easily as breathing, and as painfully as purgatory 
And so here I sit, an image of wistful sadness in the night, 
Dying a silent death in a pool of my heart’s bloody tears – 
The tears I cry for you…


 



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Serenade To The Wolf

When we are rendered alone
And don't know where we should go
We new to overcome
The forces who drag us under

Some will persist to stay
But the darkness only grows ever stronger
It's time to anew

Though it gets harder every day
I'll promise I'll always live for you
There's no need to state your pain
I already see it in your eyes
We can break from their lies
Come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me


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His Accusations

Flowers stand
Stretching to meet rays,
Which nurture and replinish.
Winds blow,
Bending and flexing stems.
Roots rest,
Nestled deep in the earth.
Comfortable, content, in its place.

Eyes for beauty glance and beam.
Spring is here!
For me alone,
Colors blanket frozen ground.
For me alone,
They birth new beginnings.
For me alone,
God has given all another chance.

I bend,
Kneeling beside one 
Which I've chosen.
I rip it's roots
From it's survival.
Torn roots, broken stem, loose petals,
It is mine!
Fraile only after moments,
I toss it away
And choose another.


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second best

youve been in my life for 18 long years 
and all ive ever wanted was to be with you 
you didnt even notice that growing up
i was trying to get close to you
you were my friend for so long
and everytime you got your heart broken 
i would cry for you
you were strong and didnt show it 
but i know you hurt over it
and now that im finally with you 
after waiting so long
im afraid...
you said you would never hurt me
and i believed you 
but now that youre spending more time with her
im starting to wonder.
i wonder whats really going on between you two
if its just friendship after the long relationship
or if there is more that im not seeing
i get so scared when she is around
because you dont see the way you look at her
the way you smile when she talks
the way you are so comfortable with her around
the way your eyes light up when she walks in
the way you say her name in your sleep
it seems so obvious to me that you still love her
how could you not?
you two share an unbreakable bond
and no matter how hard you fight it
no matter how many times you tell me its nothing
i know thats a lie
there is something there
something im missing 
something...something
dont think that im trying to replace her. 
that is the last thing i would want to do
i really do love you
but ill never be her
youll never look at me like that
youll never love me like that
you say you love me...
is it true?
or will i just be
second to you...


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What to do

Im stuck I dont know what to do
I care to the point where I dont want to leave
I cant leave
I feel like I came to far to give up now
but I am to the point where I cant take it no more
you are telling me that
you care 
you say you love me
you say going to change
but everything is still the same 
so what am I to do
I feel like i am stuck betwen a rock and hard place
there no respect 
there no understanding
there no listening
so what am I to do
should I stay or should i  go because I
cant make you listen 
I cant make you see
I cant make you feel what I feel
so what am I to do 
someone please tell me if worth saving
or should I deal with the hurt
and let time past it by
and move on with my life
I need some help 
on what I should do


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it just makes me realize how much i love you

im in love with the picture on my phone every time you call
i just stop and stare in awh
the way you say my name, i hang on to every word you say
hours apart but always together at the heart
we fall asleep at night listining to the sound of each others voice
i dream about you at night and at day
however far away you are it just makes me realize how much i love you


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Your Choice

It crushed my heart to hear
That you were no longer and would never be mine
It seared my soul to see and know
That you were with her and I was once more—alone

I still remember promises
And now they bring me searing pain
Unlike the times my whole being swelled with joy
Now I only further deflate

It ripped me to pieces to see
My place beside you filled with another
My heart is wrung in despair by the thought
That I was rejected—and now I’m replaced

As I sit on the sidelines and cry silently
I wish you would shed one tear for me
Or promise to never forget
Or feel a tinge of regret

But you don’t

You don’t care

You have the choice of letting me go
Or throwing me out
And acting like I don’t exist
And what hurts me more than anything is
When faced with this choice
You  do not blink
With no hesitation
You take it.
Do you know you're slowly killing me?
Sliding a blade into the tender flesh of feelings?
Another pang of pain courses through me
knowing that, of course, you do.
Now I am gone.


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Modern Day Robin Hood

Meet My Robin "Hood"

"Hood" being the key word, the 
man who is a saver of souls 
lacking passion and adventure,

Robin "Hood" swept me off my 
couch where I had grown roots, 
eatin' chips n cookies n 
icecream,

Watchin' re-runs of Atlanta 
housewives and sex in the city,

He took me out into his forest, 
"Hood" full of broken dreams 
patched up with cash from 
crack sales,

Escalades, and weekend 
getaways to the Ramada, to do 
what?

Count Cash, Watch His stash, 
and live like a queen out of a 
box,

To be his outlet for satisfying 
his desire for something 
innocent and pure,

Untainted by the world in its 
greed and lust,

Only to outpour his greed and 
lust on me,

And He loves me with such 
passion, 

the passion most young girls 
seek after in their first quests 
for love anew,

My Robin "Hood" Loves me 
entirely, He consumes me,

He loves my collard greens and 
hamhocks,

My cornbread and crawfish 
pots,

I love his hair, his smile, his 
smell,

The way he knows how to relax 
me and make my heart swell,

Robin "Hood" has stolen my 
heart and only my heart can go 
with him,

My mind and body lay limp and 
distraught still on that 
checkerboard couch,

With the half-eaten bag of 
chips and a spoon of butter 
pecan icecream,

His scent still lingers here but 
he is long gone,

Off to rob the rich in beauty 
and innocence, and give it to 
the poor in moralistic value and 
quality of life,

Although the ride was 
exhilarating, I got off at the 
closest stop home,

No More robbing me Mr. Robin 
"Hood".


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Body Language

You and I
Face to face
So much to say
But Body language
Does the rest of work


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as the lights go out

you said you would give me the
 pitch and valley of venus
  and I would give you
    all her
oestrual moons

suffering through water, crawling hard through august
  drawing with frenzied fort the
    alps and scatters of a 
mystifying faith
  in unfamiliar bodies, our bodies flesh and
    unfamiliar

pretend again against the fisher of men
  with grasping breaths, with ponderous sweat
    we dreams.  seed and soup of shifting
      protean odds
soured minds fettered to the rouse of agitating streams
  of what is true and yet truer still

time wasted or well spent
  end all the same
   to me
like nicked.  a quick cut
  bloody dust kicked up
    from the cut
the electric bump

you said you would give me the
  pitch and valleys of venus
    and I would give you
      her fiercest of moods
her most fiercest
  of moods


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Colorado Weather

No matter where you are
You need 12 layers
Because the sun is shining and it’s raining
At the same time


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Haunting Love

                         
             "A love so tender that it cannot be expressed 
                   in word and mak's the heart ache because of it.”   


              


                                  Sweet half-forgotten memories
                         Resurrected with the whisper of your name
                               A love that could never be tamed
                                              Wild and free
                        My magnificent obsession, my eternal flame
                 Etched upon my heart a love that cannot be written, 
     A haunting that grips my heart with a palpable waves of longing
                      Inevitably changed... never to be the same



 by:    Lori MCClure 
for  A Poem Please




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What can I do to make you see

A month and a day
Since my heart was so happy it vomited blood
So, here, please take this but don't break it,
It's as fragile as porcelain china, maybe more
Because it still distrusts everyone I meet
Even when you hold it, it sometimes becomes sore
It's easy to break, easy to drop
But hard to get into, and hard to open
Can I get a plague from loving you too much?
If I can, I think I've gotten it already
But then again, isn't love a plague itself?
Rip my heart out, please.
Watch it beat slowly as it dies, for you.
If I don't hear your heart beat, then you're not close enough to me.
What can I do to make you see?
That no matter how much I try
 I'm not good enough for you.
What can I do to make you see?
Through the facade that hides my emotions
What can I do to make you see?
That when I say one thing
Sometimes it's really the other.
Can I get a plague from loving you too much?
I think I can.
I think I have.
The only cure I have is you.
So I'll die slowly
As you're absence becomes known to me
Give me my cure
Save me from myself, the other me.
She's got a knife in our hand
I've got the phone in the other
Which one do I use?
Help me!
What can I do to make you see?
That I'm not always alright
That behind the smile I'm crying inside.
What can I do to make you see?
That I need you to save me from myself
What can I do to make you see?
That in your arms I'm escaping reality
What can I do to make you see?
The other side of me


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Thinking Deep about him

He is my prince
he is my love
my strength,
my weakness,
my reason for smiling

You know
He lets me know
How beautiful I am
How strong I am
He reminds me
Am his princess

He brings me back
when I feel like
am losing track,
He helps me focus
even when,
am lost and confused

He is my prince
my love
my sweet love

Am too young they say
To take love too 
seriously
But that doesn't stop 
me
From loving him and me,
We look so perfect, 
him 
and me,

We have been through 
thick and thin
We have made it 
through all this time
We can't afford to let 
go,
We can't just let it go.

You mean the world to 
me
More than these words 
would show
I don't know if its 
getting through
what am trying to tell 
you
I love only you
I want only you

Am embarrased a little,
Am I too open a little,
Should how I feel be a 
secret?
Should how I feel 
remain in my heart?
Should how I feel be 
told,
to the whole wide 
world?
I love you,
I wouldn't mind,
Writing it up high in 
the sky..


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In My Bedroom Walls

A place for a myriad of pastimes
From bliss to despair
The pictures that hang here have a luminous glow from the rays that shine from 
the sun
Sometimes I stare at the them wishing I could escape into the picturesque 
setting where I am free from all my demons

My bedroom walls
Where my secrets lie 
They see my sins
They hear my cries
Just one more place
Where my dreams have died

Ghosts from my past
Awaken me at night
I hear the howling
Of the wolves that lay in wait to tear my flesh
They violate sacred grounds
Like vultures they feed off me until all that is left is bones

If these walls could speak what would they say?
Would they scream my confidences like Banshees and give their mistress away?
Or will they remain silent? 
Mysterious chamber of slumber where both romance and horror have performed
Where I keep myself hidden
Only they have the key to unlock the truth bestowing serenity on my soul
These bedroom walls don't crucify me for my wicked transgressions
In my bedroom walls I don't have to masquerade or put on a costume to conceal 
my imperfections
In these bedroom walls I am free to be me


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Abyss

When I needed you the most - you disappeared.......crawling into the vast belly of this dark, cruel, prosperous world.....leaving me alone to face the darkness and despair, forcing me to find my own light, while you wallowed in your own defeat and misery. But yet I survived, and thrived and surmised it was coming. You will always be a coward who walks the path of convenience and suffers silently for choices you regret. Forever regret, serving yourself a vicious serving of self-loathing daily. One day the darkness will succumb to the light, and the beams will shine upon your old, weak and weary face – but I won’t be there to share the warmth, nor will I celebrate the birth, I will remain distant and far………forever remembering your abandonment…..and forever will I not look your way; this stranger who now surfaced from the darkness, only to find himself sinking back into his dark abyss of loneliness and lost dreams.


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The Meaning of Forever

Forever-

what exactly does it mean

a second, a minute, an hour, a day?

How long does it last?

When does it end?



Forever-

does it really never end?

I beileve not!

Forever never lasts

Forever always ends

Why can't it last



Forever-

That's what you had always said

that's what I had always beileved

what I had always thought

you lied to me.



Forever-

That's what you told me.

I thought I could trust that

what a fool I was

I wish I could have always beileved

What a liar



Forever-

What a JOKE!!!!


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Take A Look Around

You got the key to open every door inside me, Step in and take a look around do you see me floating in the clouds, You got me at hello, Please never let me go, My heads spinning around and round, Keep me in your dreams, Hold my have through everything, Go ahead place a ring on my hand, I truley devote everything to you my baby, I need you by my side, till the day that I die, Protect me from this evil life, Cause you got me at hello, You got the keys to open every door inside me


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Sweetness

The cold shower water,
Falls,
Seductively against our bodies,
Especially yours,
Since your body represents,
A candy shop galore,
And i couldn't ask for anything more,
Because of the sweetness you produce,
Satisfies my needs,
My hunger,
My thrust, 
My lust,
My curse,
Of falling in love,
With a full heart,
Waiting to burst.


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My Addiction

Everything About You
Is Irresistible.
Your Lips, Your Hands,
Your Body.
The Way That You 
Hold Me.
The Way That You
Kiss Me.
The Way That You Make
My Body React To Every
Touch.
You're Contagious.
You're Infectious.
And Yet I Can't Get
Enough Of You.
I Have To Have You 
Always.
Is It An Addiction ?
Or Just An Intense Sexual
Attraction ?
Whatever It Is...
I Just Can't... Stop...
Wanting You !


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Always Remember

Why these feelings
why these bitter thoughts?

Why can't I forget
why do I always remember

I remember...
The times you lied
the times you were honest
The times I couldn't find you
the times you were always there for me
The times you were acting dumb
the times where you were acting like you cared
and I remember the times you were mad

But what I remember the most is the time that you loved me.

Now I wonder why we ended that???
The end is what I want to forget.


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My Midsummer Rainstorm

Loving him is like
Being in love with a
Midsummer rainstorm- 
He's got a soul born of thunder
And lightning-
Got caught up in his whirlwind, spinnin'
Into the circle of his arms- 
Dazedly-
But he always looked so- calm- 
Didn't he?
The eyes of a storm always do; 
But when you get close enough to 
Hear the wind-blown 
Whisper of his sigh, 
You'll feel the energy swirling 
Under the surface of his skin
Like fireworks
All ready to burst into shimmer-
White-hot sparks 
Burn in the dark-cloud shadow
Of his smiling eyes-
Like hurricane warnings flashing
Between hot and cold- like
Thunderbolts and fury of a downpour
Sudden enough to leave you gasping-
You get swept away before
You have time to get a good grasp
On your heart...
Loving him is like that.


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Cat

If you have a cat it’s fluffy and shy
It’s it not your cat you stay away from the
Litter Box
Blah


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I See You

I see you
Stealing glances
From the corners of your eyes

I see you
Staring through closed eyelids
When I'm looking the other way

I see you
Not your body
Not your movements

I see you
Not your gestures
Not the armor you wear

I see you
Like a single cell
Under a microscope

I see you
Without my eyes
In the darkest dark

I see you
With my heart
I know you see me too.


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The Silence Speaks

And the silence
Speaks words that were never said
Vowing to never be forgotten
Until we lay dead 

In the quiet
Our eyes close
Holding in the moment
For what it’s worth
Only to breathe in deeply
To let it go

Outside, in the dark
My gaze wanders afar 
What do our futures hold?
No longer bound
But never whole?

Rending a heart
But sealing a mind
Finding ourselves
Now that we’ve found time


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Sunset Bleeds

I have paralyzed myself with its beauty
Distant dreams are unimportant
As I practically fly through every mystery 
Where my inner self meets my soul
Despite fears, confusion, however,
Reluctant, I could not speak 
When we have forgotten how to speak
Life relaxed in abandonment
We consider the option of total denial or insanity
The world is not perfect 
This a prison of truth
Now I know what the actual world feels like
As I consider the option of prayer
I will be this way only a moment
As sunset bleeds into the lake


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Letter To My Kryptonite

If one touch from you should
ensure my fall from grace,
Then clip my wings and 
forever make me tame,
Wipe my eyes as I bid farewell
to a paradise slowly forgotten,
with the elatedness of a dying
sinner seeing the clouds part,

Should your lips be lethal to me,
Pucker pleasant poison, and rid 
me of my life in one last moment 
of romantic bitter sweetness,
As pleasure and poison become
entwined, I resist with the will
of a man addicted to his demise,
Thus by your lips my will is broken,

Be it so, if I must go by your hand,
for your love is my last temptation,
and the choice of life or love
sadly does not leave me torn,
For I chose you before the choice,
with no seed of seduction needed,
As my mind better knows you as my
last breath, my heart knows you best,

Therefore, my fate has been sealed,
by the power of a racing heartbeat,
A touch, a kiss, a memory in time,
I trade, to be yours one more moment,
As your love inspired my life, it shall
be the rush that stops my breathing,
and my first plea remains my last,
kill me softly, and love me forever...


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Moving hearts from sadness

Rest me of your sad sounds
Listen for a moment to the silence
Arriving in you in bounds

Beg me for a wanted look
Seeing and missing is knowing
Leaving blank pages in a book

Share yourself like broken bread
Taste a notion of bestowing
Staying thoughts to my fleeting head

Join yourself to our wary madness
Touch of love for guidance
Moving hearts from sadness


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Not good enough for you

I’m not the man I want to be
For you and me
Thought we could be free
Like doves in love
Now push came to shove
And I lost my dove
The one
Never good enough
Thought I was this great guy
Guess I live life too high
I just want to get by
Not lie
But I lost your trust
Lost it all
No words describe
The hate
The pain
I suffer
Wish I was good enough for you
Soon enough you’ll say we’re through
Don’t know what to do
Because I’ve lost you
The one
That I love
Like no one else before
Now I lay on the floor
Hope you don’t head for the door
But I guess you can’t take it anymore
So I lay
Motionless
On the floor
Watching you walk away
No life left
Without you
Soon enough you’ll see my blood
Flowing from my wrists
For this true bliss
Oh how it’s you I will miss.


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Hollywood Beach Gulls

       HOLLYWOOD BEACH GULLS
Regrettably the sun was setting low
on wings of gulls all red and fiery eyed
they plucked the popcorn from our waiting hand
as if we  had a dream to give to them
or sang a song they might have understood.

There in their shrilled descent they had such grace
my heart lept to an all time vibrant shrill
and wondered just how far their wings could fly
if only words of love could let us soar.

But words of love are only past regrets
of humping on the beach for me and you
after the gulls have found their nesting place
and making it on their own. Will I die
another death without the touch of you?

That bastard seagull. Wasn't he the shame
of Hollywood Beach that sunny afternoon
we met and we made love for real?
Not in St Johns
where I lived a mile from you
But in Hollywood Beach
where a drunk can be a drunk
but in goodf company
But we were just too drunk to remember,
like everyone else on the beach
all of us down from the great St Johns Blizzard,
doing what Canadians do best
staying drunk long enough to forget it all
when we got back home.
But in St Johns, we had the bitter cold as an excuse
for being drunk all of the time.

On Hollywood Beach, the gulls all knew
We didn't need an excuse,
we just did it.


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Together I Hope

Time is swift, timely wronged-
To find you know seems unfair-
My eyes betray my senses-
What I asked for inside my heart-
I’ve found in you three times as much-
What to do I do not know-
I have had hopes, my heart been broken-
I’ll be gone for times on end-
Journeys take me far from home-
Can’t come back to this small time town-
But I wish, to come with me-
Our hearts, truly, will surely be-
Able to hold each other up-
Your eyes inside my heart burns true-
When I close my eyes to you I see-
What could be, what I hope to be-
To work around each other’s flaws-
This we know of heavenly laws-
Let us see what begins to happen-
Us together I hope inside-
My soul is deep, and kept hidden-
By my outside looks, outside demeanor-
At least I hope you know-
Because I hope I’ve clearly shown-
I’m not a bad guy my motives are real-
To this I hope you only may feel-
To think of my kindness seen inside my smile-
To see clearly for a long time, yet for a while-


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Obstacle Course

I’ve had struggled through long nights of sobbing.
Days of questioning, 
Wanting reasoning. 
Mental threatening. 
There were things I just couldn’t answer, but still seeked. 
I set boundaries for my self but still cheated, still peaked.
When someone comes along to help you see things for what they are, 
They present you with something valuable. 
They present you with a new outlook, 
New mindset, 
New hopes and dreams, 
A new start, not to mention an open heart.
They help you strive, 
They help you cope. 
They help you live. 
I used to stumble through life as an obstacle course, 
You've helped me view it as a playground. 
I play tag, you’re it. 
Not to mention a perfect fit. 
I swing high, through the sky. 
I’m telling you, I’m madly in love with this guy.
I jumped through the air,
 and I’m yet to hit the ground. 
Don’t let me down, just always be around.
I dance with the clouds,
 And am led to a new journey. 
Light of the feet is light of the heart. 
You’ve been doing your part.
I can be alone with my own thoughts,
I have more friends
I give myself a fair shot. 
I can’t explain how you’ve helped me improve and turned me a new leaf. 
After years of work, I’m sure I’ve caused you grief. 
I just thank you for not giving up you see, because when I wake up I can finally breathe. 
To sum it all up, my world is finally right. 
I believe in myself so much may just take flight
I finally land and I’m not just anywhere.
I’ve placed my feet,
Right next to you, the only place I want to be.
You’ve fixed just about everything for me. 
I used to stumble through life as an obstacle course; you've helped me view it as a playground
And you’re playing on it with me.


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I Love You

I Love You People have come and gone Through the years and tears Staying for a while then moving on Making me wonder what is wrong with me Never finding the true heart To rest upon my hearth Then one day lost in cyber space I saw you reaching out Words of honesty and care A man true and fare I knew I wanted to know the truth I saw Therefore, I reached through cyber space to you Full of fear and wonder I risked it all Not knowing if I would fall Fall, I did, and so did the walls No pedestal for you or me Just who we are True and real Walking side by side through it all I will love you through all that life brings The good, the bad, the laughter, and the tears The love will always be there for us to share I love you


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I Don't Understand

I still love you.

I know I do.

I have to let you go.


You said you rather have what we have 
then nothing at all.


My heart cries for you.

My Love for you has not died.

My best friend is gone.


You didn't want to hurt me, I know;
but I'm still in pain.


I don't understand.

I know we were something.

I just don't know why I'm still waiting for you.


You have her, and I'm happy for you, really I am.
I just don't understand.



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Moonlight Bliss

Sadness overflows
glorifying this time
when the sun loses
its battle over the
night.
When this heart
feels devoid of
anything happy and
the light of
this being loses
its battle over the
night.

Tonight,
I feel you slipping
away into the darkness
of this moment.
Still,
I will wait for you
to emerge in the
stillness of this night.


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the year

one year ago the darkness started to cave in
I was losing control until she came along and pulled me out
she saved my life and gave me hope and a strong sense of 
love and compassion and now here I am this year starts tomorrow and its been 
the happiest time in my life 

 Cheyenne I love you


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backstabber

The moon seems somehow hollow tonight; 
It’s light ghostly and intangible – 
It peers at me like a baleful eye, marking me out 
Spotlighting my sad state of solitude 
‘Look at you, all alone,’ it mocks, in clangorous tones, 
‘See how he has deserted you – the one who ruled your world.’
Oh yes…see how he has abandoned me, 
The brash and beautiful traitor; Satan-snake in the grass…
Furious, my shoulders stiffen, the muscles in my back twinge; 
Outrage boils in my guts, a seething whirlpool of bile and venom
And as I remember your face, your haughty stare, it hits - 
I am overtaken by the nausea of wounded pride 
And the worse – oh so much worse – pain of a freshly massacred heart 
It is so powerful that tears of agony sting my eyes 
I am forced to bow my head so my hair falls forward, 
Curtains my face so the cruel moon won’t see me cry… 
You know, beautiful brute, I think you’ve killed me this time 
I can even feel the hole you left…the one you gouged in my heart
My probing fingers can detect it, leaching misery into my blood, 
Spouting black despair like desert oil…
And as for my trust, well, that’s all in tattered shreds; 
A bloodied battlefield banner, lying crumpled on an airless day 
I can imagine, sweet, that wherever you are you’re gloating 
In one fell swoop you annihilated my heart and soul 
You put me through the agony of sleepless nights, 
And endless days unable to eat for wishing you were here 
And at the end of it all, when you did appear, all you did was stab; 
Was plunge your knife into my exposed and fragile spine – 
And twist…and twist…and twist…
Until I slumped, weeping and worshipful, onto the glistening moon-washed floor… 


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Brokenhearted

Give love to receive love,
give respect to gain respect. 
Give love a shot, 
don't waste life.
The bravest and riskiest thing you can do:
is to keep putting your heart out there,
and getting it broken,
until you mert the right one.
It takes strength and courage,
to never give up.


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What Her Heart Had to Say

I lost what I was looking for
When love to an unschedule detour
So bent upon the illusion of control
That you mixed your lies with our love
And concocted a remedy so toxic
That now it hurts even you..
Irony
Now you expect me to believe
It took countless tears and the dust from my broken heart 
Just for you to realize that I was the best thing you ever had?
hmph.. Well I hope you make friends with loneliness
Because pain has already pushed me away


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Do not try to date a writer

Do not try to date a poet.
She will know that you have read her poetry, 
That you know her sadness runs wide
And shallow
She has spread it like oil
Spilling across a street
You can see the light reflecting in it
Like rainbows
She will hate you for finding it beautiful

Do not try to kiss her
She will fall in love with you
And hate you
All at once
She will write poems about your lips
And their tenderness
And their force
She will kick back like you are 
Gagging her.
She will scream.

Do not love her
She will think you an intruder.
She thinks herself weak and you
A predator.
She will seal herself up
Run hot candle wax over her poems
And when the seal breaks
And she spills into your hands
She’ll curse you for not being able
To hold her
Together.


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Peckers

The babble of youth grouped in gaggles like pecking geese pricked by the silence of the unabsorbed, garbed in the flesh or cloth too large or too small for their burgeoning minds. Gangly limbs akimbo intent, inward…looking outward flung like a sling-shot’s stone… forward brimming with all too human DNA. Stilled… a pensive brooding deepens bonds of childish chatter break as Mother Goose clucks. Heads are stabilized by, held up by white-knuckled fists, free-hands continually rove the groomed while grooming furrowed brows knit scattered kernels of thought. The soft-shelled few gaze glazed, dazed contemplate the ground unfulfilled ponds of thought mine the mirrored depth the hooded eyes of the limb-crossed capping a fountain of chi…


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Sound Asleep, I leave you

In my veins, I feel it.
The velvet that runs deep.
My thought are often crowded,
But you open me up with ease.

The rhythmic hammering in my chest,
takes flight when you're around.
A unyielding elation showers me,
My body begins to shake.

Your head is moving closer,
And our hands are interlocked.
Your voice is simmering at the tip of your tongue,
And I breathe in something hot.

You're perfect, he whispers.
I listened with intent.
His palms were getting sweaty,
And his breathing began to even.

Sorry, I whisper to myself.
A instant flood of guilt.
Discreetly, I rise and gain composure,
As I peep at your face.

Sound asleep I leave you,
Peaceful and carefree.
I know that you are dreaming,
And I hope it's about me.


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I'm Walking Alone

I’m walkin’ alone.
Singin’ the same old song; our song.
No it don’t hurt anymore. 
I don’t care if you’re keepin’ score.
Listen: I’m no longer your problem;
Don’t care if you want me to be that anymore.
I just want to walk alone.
Don’t follow me home; don’t run into me by “accident”.
*****like that just ain’t cool. 
You think you’re a rogue; but your pumpin’ up your low, low ego.
Don’t toy with my heart;
Don’t mess with my mind;
Don’t handle my soul with your vice griped mind.
Just let me walk alone.
Stay away from me;
I’m just an emotional bomb ready to blow right up.
One touch would do it.
Don’t show me affection; It’ll just hurt me more; Maybe even break me. 
Just leave me alone; 
So I can walk alone.


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His Forgotten Valentine

There's a promise that he made,
As he kissed me in the hallway.
My cheeks were a reddish shade,
As he promised to forever stay.

My heart I have given to him;
I expected to have his in return.
As the lights around went dim,
My love had crash and burn.

In facebook I saw his latest post
With a picture of his newest girl.
It says there, "I love her the most,
And she is 'My Valentine Girl'."

I wasn't sure how I should feel
We were over for many years.
Seeing that, my world stood still
And I remembered all my tears.

I have offered him my forever,
Yet he still left me all alone.
To forget my love, will I ever?
'Coz this pain runs to the bone.

His promise that's been broken
Is buried deep within my heart.
His kisses had left me shaken,
I was not prepared to be apart.

I was supposed to be the one
That he now calls his Valentine.
Instead, I turn into this no one;
I became his Forgotten Valentine.





*For 'The Forgotten Valentine Contest'.
*Written February 11, 2013


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Healing Scars

The putrid scars left from the past
Like most things, will never last
Finding a lover who binds them with zeal
In hopes of letting their other half, know it is real

But do not ever take the fear or the pain
Of another with thyself as to blame
For it is not the one who is presently their
It is you that is the sight of fresh, loving air!

Oh God, the thought of losing that half
Of a person’s heart, which was built to last
The scars that are healing from the wicked before
Never again to feel the pain that was endured

The lashing out in suspicion is mere self defense!
It never means that one’s heart with you, is tense
After the words that are spoken comes sorrow
For what if the words make all gone by tomorrow

It is a terrible thing to think of that lost
Everything is done to keep this heart, not matter the cost
So forever remember, there is love in this heart
Never trembling, nor fading, nor spreading apart


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TO SORANIA,WITH LOVE

Am not an aesthetic
poet.
I've no apollos
laurel in ode.
Too fragile is my
tongue to tell your
face;
For your look I dare
to speak.

Play me that
Amphion's harp
That in your mouth
dwells
For your sake I
shall be paris
For the Helen's face
you wear
I shall draw
Menelaus up again 
To Trasimene Field.

I shall seek the
Delphian Oracle
That your heart I
may fathom.
Shall I employ Seba,
the questionnaire
That the discretion
of your choice I
win.

Sorania, my Helen
I am Ovid to his
Flea
And as jealous as
Oenon
Lead me to Venus'
chamber
And your dream I
promise be.

I stand by the
promise of Jephthah
To be your Romeo in
life and in death.
   


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I Have Forgotten What I Did Last Night

He asked, "What did you do last night?"
I murmered that I stayed home and is that alright.
Remembering dreaming about him, my spirit taking flight.

"Were you with him?" he now began,
"Him who?" for that question I had no plan.
"That guy you like, I saw you together in Iran." muttered him.

For his question an answer I couldn't decide,
To go into length and from there on out, no longer hide.
An honest answer and to save my pride.
Or just shrug it off and keep my answer stuffed up inside.

I shrugged and said I had forgotten
Forgotten, you were in a jam
Were you lost or in the slam
Nope I just plain forgot
There is no plan no plot
I was with him, you I taught
Him I sought


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House Of Cards

I forget that I’m in trapped in a house of cards
until the wind comes blasting through
And I’m left again with nothing
Nothing but grief and this pile of all that I knew

I had to forget how much I cared for you
Something no one should ever have to do
Can you remember? Do you remember?
Those darkly happy days when you felt that way too?

Love so many bitter times unrequited
Two hearts broken----too broken to break anymore
You’ve become my dark horse in this race against time 
And I hope to God we’re not about to lose 

Futile 
Infantile
And all around absurd 
Is what this nightmare without you has been

We shouldn’t have to work so hard
To fall flat down on our faces
again and again

I wish you’d come out of your shell
and back to life in the warmth of my arms once again


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My mister,,,,,

My mister right
My mister wrong 
Break my heart, and put up a fight
Then sing me a sad song.
Say you over me.
Then start crying over me. 
Say I ain't nothin to you, 
But I'm your everything too.
The memories you done forgot.
Then say they preserved and won't ever rot.
Say it won't happen again 
But over and over.
Same old thing.
Running around in circles.
But I'm ready to move ahead.
As I lay down in bed 
My mind drifts away..
Wondering how life would be if you woulda just stayed.
Without You, i dont know what to do,
Wish I could say I was over you,
But be this just ain't true.
Why did you have to be split.
Couldn't fix it with a first aid kit.
Half I love.
That's the half from heaven above.
Half from hell.
Deciving lies didn't ring my bell
So you had me fooled.
Head over heels and dripping drool.
Even though you were mean and crewel.
Still I'm in love.
Although you tell me to cut my wrist
I still care.
Your still my baby boo bear. 
Your my angel
My devil
My missing piece to the puzzle
Give me a little bit of everything I need.
But now your gone, this I hope you read.
Maybe get on the same page up to speed
And don't take advantage, greed.
Cuz honey this killin me.
Listen to these words be.
Regardless of what I do. 
Those promises I made remain true.
I'll save my heart for you.
The promises I made stay true
You my mr wrong. But you my mr right too. 
I hope we can work this out because
I miss you.
I want you.
I crave you.
But most of all because
I love you.
Both parts of you because it's who you are
...Even though it's got me torn.


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Love Coaster

It's perfectly natural to have these emotions.
I just wish I knew why I was so uptight. 
Maybe it's because I'm pushed in that
direction, sometimes, I don't know. 
What I do know, is that I need to focus
on what I am doing here, with my life. 
Everything I need to accomplish, to 
be exactly where I'd like to be, 
right now.
And that would be in my lover's arms,
from when the sun goes down, until 
it rises again in the morn. 
All I want is for both of us to not be
worrying all of the time, and just 
know that we love each other. 
Not to allow things to take over
how we truly feel.
I want us to be happy, content,
comfortable with everything.
In time, that will happen, but
patience is a main key, here.
I think love will either destroy you,
or make you stronger.
Right now, it is making me a 
lot stronger than I used to be.
It is making me do things that
should have been done, years
ago. 
And now, I'm ready to start my
life with this person.
But that's just my view point on
things.
I need to be around him more,
for him to determine if I'm 
"the one", or not. 
Although, I know he does 
love me. 
And I love him, unconditionally. 
I just need for him to have faith
in me because I will pull through.
That is how much his love means,
to me and he already is aware of it.
I just need to remain calm, think 
clearly and do what needs to be done;
and it will be.


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Album From The Heart

I can't get her off my mind, or my heart
And second verse same as the first
Chorus Lost in my head and the hooks won't come out
Lodge so deep in my subconscious
My heart beats to the melody of our favorite song
You see..
I feel..
but heard, her voice so sweet, like an angels laluby
able to slay the savage beast ive caged inside
locked so far away but still got out
then in she came, and I found out
She could very well be
the best thing thats ever happened in my crazy life

But ive miss read the lyrics, for far too long
looking for where i went wrong
only to find love is just a sad song.. played by me
And now i have a close friend, trying to fix
how love met pain, this toxic mix
rid my mind of all these tricks
Now I cross my fingers hoping this isnt just a remix
to my heart beak album


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My Miracle

Like an angel
Sent from above
He swooped down before me
And taught me to love


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Lucky charm

Breaks an egg and out comes the sun
Begging for forgiveness
For lighting
Ducks sailing on the spikes
Women watching them trough keyholes,
Light diffracted into Meduses-
My happy face
Circularly deformed-
The brave man behind lens
Is the sunset’s zipper
Of the blue eye spot-
Her face – mechanic eyes
Lied on the floor, naked-
A pomegranate breaks beside her-
Lucky charm, said someone –


(originally written in modern Greek and released in February 2006 from Nocturnal 
Publications – translated here by the author)


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Betrayed

You always said you love me
Me and only me
You said you never hurt me
Said we'd get married
Live happily
But you betrayed me
All those girls you dated
Dated while you were with me
I talked to you about it
You told me you had nothing to do with them
Told me I was the only one
But what now
I'm on the verge of dying
And to have a girl tell me you're dating her
You betrayed me
Again and again
But I didn't consider it was partially my fault
My fault for ever believing you
You betrayed me


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Christmas gift

After all the waiting, this day has finally arrived
And this christmas spirit has finally revived
Waking early ready to see wonderful boxes and bows
But there is one small present topped with a rose
One quick glance and her face glows red
Worried because of the tears she might shed
Slowly unwrapping the neat little gift
Very pleased, she feels her weight lift
Unsure of what to do, she whispers 'I love you'
With a warm hug and kiss, he says 'I love you too'
 


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Rain



We walk together,
Our shoulders touch every now and then,
The rain pouring down your umbrella.
The cold bites.  We hardly talk.
But we find pleasure 
In smelling the rain.


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Blessings

Blessings

		By Ayesha Karim

God has blessed me with so much.
A mother who is there for me,
A grandmother and a close knit family who love me,
Friends who I’ve shared my sorrows, successes and trials with;
Friends I can call on the phone go to the mall or catch a movie with. A cute guy named Mike who I am dating the first guy that treats me really good that I’ve been on official dates with.
Mike always pays on our dates.
I have been blessed to have my education especially beyond high school because of my Madness(mental illness) since I was fourteen.
I have an Associate’s degree and next May I will graduate from college with my Bachelor’s degree.
I count my blessings as the expression goes “(Count your blessings)”.
I the Poetess Ayesha Karim will become a known Poet and a children’s book author.


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Butterflies

It takes just one look
Just one blink
My stomach flutters
Butterflies flying all around
Making me look dumb.
But I don't care. 
You make me happy 
Oh so very happy 
How long will you stay?
Are you going to leave me?
Prepare me please.
Tell me before I come off my high
Before I start to fall
My butterflies will die...
The caterpillar will never hatch.
No new feelings.
My heart beating it's normal beat.
No fun in that...
I want the feeling I have now.
Please stay with me
And hatch the butterflies


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BENT SHATTERED AND PROUD

She doesn’t remember what
she loved about me
so i hold her in my elbows
as if she needed someone to save her
and i hate that i’ve always believed in
things i couldn’t touch

tree house ladder i climbed you
with the weight you swung into me
told the sky
glow heartbeat
glow strong
glow window pane
hold me tight with your seatbelt arms
i am hammock swing
stardust cough
xylophone fingers
bruise easy rock swing
the meaning of yes
the language of whales
she doesn’t remember what we felt like together
she pauses like maybe i won’t see myself in hers
bones i shift
and the city deserts me deep
and indigo sky knuckle down nosebleed
i resorted to creating new memories with you
by looking at old photographs
and pretending i had been in them
glove compartment hawk heart i pulled
sky captain kite punch like
you name me adventure
name me skip trunk keys scrape
name me stranger
like elevator kiss
like storm clouds
like hummingbird heartbeat
i said i like who i am as a person
and you pulled away
as if my skeleton wasn’t big enough to hold both of us
you wore apple core lips
like i should never be sad
that i spent all this time kissing someone who
didn’t want to be kissing me
as if i tasted like relief
like you wanted to cut me into your esophagus
and hush
like quiet city
like loves becoming a plea bargain
like spit me out as a watermelon seed
you say lets get married and name all of our children ribcage
i pull through her thumb locked
and aware of all the times she said apologizing would
just sound empty
and i whisper i hope if i’m getting old
it’s because you make time nonexistent
do not cantaloupe smile
do not flashlight heart
do not risk what you cannot promise on me
do not wear me like we are the same size
i’m building life with slice wounds on the bottom of me feet
deep enough to hide hopes in
so i can wear them into the ground
how to reach from my heart
so you don’t apple adam promises that
sound like
i never lied to you
i want you to teach me
to glow heartbeat
glow strong
glow windowpane
with blood in your
mouth like you thought climbing trees
could teach us to fight distance
remember to hold me
like you know how to shake
remember to keep everything at arms length
remember to palm scoop crayfish
remember to break me
like you know what you cared for about me
these are my confessions on a street corner
bent shattered and proud
I promise to never use words like always 
refer to you and I in the future tense 
or reveal wishes before they come true 
because every person I’ve ever loved 
has said I was the best thing 
that ever happened to them when they left me.


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alone

a unique vessal alone in a world of clones 
no love 
no companions 
no nothing 
...forever and ever...


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Where Did It Go

Love my heart yearn in every color,
I try to grab it with my fingertips,
Trying to image it in my mind,
Trying to recollect the feeling,
The warmth the radiated my body,
The happiness that filled my smile,
The joy that swallowed my tears,
Looking in every corner trying to find it.
We had it once where did it go?
My heart is hollow where our love us to be.
It disappeared without a trace or essence.
Leaving we in this maze
 Where there is no entrance or exit.
Closing my eyes dreaming that it will come back.
But I wake up in reality where I have nothing.
Do I keep trying to find our love?
Or just remember it as a memory?
Is it better to love?
Than to never have love at all.
Was what we had love,
Or never love at all?


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My Pulse, My Heart

With this heart of mine,
To show you love.
A crown on my princesses head,
To show our loyalty.


Let these hands of ours,
Show our friendship forever.
Let these words I speak,
Forever be true.


You're my pulse, my heart,
And I love you.


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I Knew



You walked away
With a laugh and a wave
Like nothing was happening

Complaining about the lack of beer
With the promise of a call.

But, I knew.

I knew there would be no call
I knew that our time together
Was over.

You never would have
Admitted it.

But, I knew.



Josette Davis Key               2014


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sing me a lullaby

Sing me a soft lullaby
to hush away my fears
Pull your arms around me
Wipe away my salty tears
Sing to me of muddy shoes
And someone asking for a dime
Tell me who rips your heart out
And handles it with care
Sing to me of angels and a whisper of a prayer
sing to me a lullaby
That ill sing my unborn child
Hold me tight and brush my hair
Away to see my smile
Sing me into slumber
Where happiness exists 
Sing me a soft lullaby
And ill finally get some rest 


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him

his love
is sweter than honey
nothing else matters
he's my one
and only
every word whispered 
sofly in my ear
he makes my heart beat....
triple time
soft candy kisses
my mind goes crazy over him
sitting
waiting
thinking....
of him
wondering when he'll come around
hold me in his arms tightly
he loves me
he really loves me


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LOST......

i lost you once.
i lost you twice.
now i lost you forever.

you were always 
there for me.
even when i was
mad. i wish i
could have done
the same for you.

when i lost you
i messed up my
life. but you
moved on and
thats ok. i did the same thing.


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The Courtship


he walked with me for miles.
talked with me for ever.
kissed me with sincerity.
held me till I felt strong.
surrounded me with loving
and protective arms 
and with much tenderness
left himself burried 
deep within my heart.



I wrote this many years ago 
we just won't say how many.


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I'm Breaking up with you

For the smiles you brought, I am grateful,
The times we shared, I will never forget.
But the lies you spoke will haunt me,
And your cheating you should forever regret.

Unlike you, I know when time is up,
When to let go instead of lying.
So now it is time to bid you adieu,
For I am tired of trying. 


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Pleading Insanity

I think of you
almost every second of the day
why did you have to invade my life
the way you did?
I was doing fine
before you entered
I was in control, I had a good
idea of what I wanted
from life, now I'm lost,
sometimes totally confused
that is unknown territory to me
considering someone else's
needs instead of my own…

I must be going insane, 
but I like this feeling
of not knowing
because when I go home
at the end of the day
I know I'm going home to love
and nothing tops that feeling... 


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The Box

I am in pursuit, of a box
That I will find later or sooner
Based on the rumor of rumors
I follow the not so yellow brick road
To pursue this beautiful box that over flowed
With ever thing I needed to make a better life
But the location of my box is a mystery
And lost in the history,
I contemplated the the victory, I'll achieve with defeat
But losing is for quitters, and winners never cheat
So I search for self-innovation
In hopes this box just might find my dedication, appealing
I've walked the walk and fell the distance
Just looking for the proof of existence
I mask my emotion but over looked subsistence
Yet still I insist.... This box is real
I searched and I searched and there she was
The box I've longed for has finally become
As real as real and as real as love
But the matter of the fact was so I thought
Yet asides the fact I took a chance
Opened the box and upon first glance
Was an I.O.U. and a tear of a virgin
I closed my eyes to my world end
But then came the glow of the prize inside
A radiant beam that pleasures my eyes
A golden puzzle piece worthy of none
But he who's created it and he who's come.
Now with that, I hold this puzzle piece
Close to my heart, and felt complete
So long I've searched to feel what I feel
Now with a kiss I ask, Do you feel real.


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Lets Make A Promise

Lets make a promise. 
I fly away,
While you stay. 
I Take the chance,
While you take the dance.
Go ahead,
and take the bread.
I want you to live,
Past till you can drive.
If anyone has to die,
Then why,
Be anyone but me.
Lets make a promise. .
You live,
While i die.
You live out your dreams,
While i get caught by the beams.
Because baby,
Just maybe,
You were meant to live,
Forever.


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SOMEONE

She’s not an inch away from me
But I see her in obscurity
Her eyes are speaking
Yet it’s hard to say

No change at all
I can even hold her
And yet she refuses
I can’t catch her thoughts

I understand with patience
I try to find the words
But what the ink blots isn’t enough
To paint what’s in her heart

She breathes with a smile
And closes her eyes
The time she opens them
She sees you still

The day can be a bore
But quite not for her
She thinks of you everytime
So could you lend her her thoughts for a while?

How could she deal
With something she couldn’t accept?
How could she fight
A feeling that already defeated her?

How could she explain
Something unexplainable as love?
How could she reason
Something that has no answers?

And so I thought…

Love can be annoying
To someone at work
It can be painful
To someone dumped like junk

Love can teach hostility
To someone broken
It can be a glimpse of insanity
To someone with a fragile mind

Yet it is something beautiful
Something sweet and bliss
To someone I know…
- someone who is in love with you –
…and that would be me.


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Dance With Me

One hand on your hip and the other hold your hand so soft, your body pressed against mine like a craft. Our bodies move together like a duet, you probably never done anything like this i bet. Your eyes pierce deep into my heart, i knew that you were the one to do this with from the very start. I know that this will be remembered till the end of time, so all i want to say is thank you that you even gave it a try. The music is all that we need in this moment, its just going to be hard to end it. So dance with me my friend, all the way till the very end.


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New Relationships, New Standards

Another piece to someone new.
Hopefully they procede with caution.
Please dont hurt me
My heart has been though enough
Show it love, kindness,
Cause it to soar...not fall
Failure would cause utter destruction.
Well, for me anyway.
But I have faith in you.
I have faith in us.
Dont lie to me. I dont deserve deception.
Take me into your arms when I'm afraid
Get in front of the danger
Just dont let me face it alone.
Offer me your aide
Rush to me when I cry.
Very strict standards
Understand what your getting yourself into...
Love me with the best of your ability
Even when I'm mad..
Kranky, or when I scream
You have me now...


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So Over It

Maybe it was what you said
Or what you didn’t say
The calls and texts that went unanswered
Maybe it’s your failure to commit
To a social engagement you initiated
I’m feeling like I’m not worth your time
You interrupted this stint of solitude
That I was content with
Got my hopes up but now they’re deflating
I don’t even know why I’m mad
I’m way too used to this
I guess I thought you were different
You just keep letting me down
And you wonder why I’m single


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make it through

the dark path into the untouched night
filled with horror, baby hold me tight
trees reach over the path to trap us
this winding road, dead ends to daze us
its horrific game is being played well
these woods hold me like a prison cell
bright red eyes stare us down through the dark
strange noise pierce our ears, not a good journey to embark
to make it through, all i need is you
to make it through, would mean our love is true


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My One And Only

Hes my one and only.
The shine to my sun.
The smile on my face.
The beat to my heart.

He makes me happy when I'm sad.
He makes me smile for no reason.
I see the passion in his eyes,
Just by the way he looks at me.
He makes me feel like I belong.
Hes my only true love.

Hes my boyfriend,
My best friend,
And my soul-mate.

I love you Thomas.


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Young Love

I am scared to know you actually cared
To let you in so quickly
I can't help myself
For it has already happened
Scared to believe your words to be true
Excited & giddy
To have found 
An apparent match in you

I didn't want to care for anyone
I wasn't looking for love
But some things can change so quickly
If you're not on the same page
Not feeling the same way
Stop saying things
That lead me to believe differently

I'm scared now to believe
Someone would actually care for me
Saying you will miss me
Do you truly know what that means to me?
You not aware
That I care so much for you already
In such a very short time

Do you feel the way I do?
Hearts connecting in harmony
Or are you playing high school games
If that is true
I want out of your trap
Release me from this trance
I didn't sign up for this

Are you hiding behind a joke?
Teasing
I can't believe you,
Only to have my heart broken
I hide from my feelings
I don't want to admit anything to myself
For if I'm wrong
Only believing in a lie
The pain may already be too strong

I desperately need to know
What is the catch?
Running out of time, to figure it all out
I try to find the disguise 
You're hiding behind

Or do we really have something going
Something special
Uniquely created & Heavenly ordained
Will we even give it time to bloom?
Time to see
What God has in store
In the end
For you & me


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Dangling

I don't even know what happiness is, 
anymore.
Today, you broke my heart.
Even if we talk things out tonight,
what about tomorrow? 
You're so much like night and day,
who knows if we fix this....
How you're going to react, when 
the sun comes up again. 
You know how much I love you,
and am willing to fight for us.
I just wish you had the same
feelings as I do. 
This is so difficult right now,
that I can't even think straight.
I have never been so hurt like
this. 
I thought I was, but the way
I reacted today was off the wall.
And I had every right to behave 
as I did. 
You gave me barely any time, to
even sort out my thoughts when 
I came back home. 
You gave me a time limit, which
isn't easy on me, when it's being
done on your own.
So where does that leave us? 
You ended things with me today,
yet you still want to help me.
I don't want to just be your friend.
I don't want to go one day without
telling you that I love you, want you,
need you.....
But right now, I feel like I'm dangling.


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She Knows Me

Tall trees and winter’s dismay
Empty hearts and cattle calls
Trusting no one save you and 
Scattered love on forgotten walls

I love the way her lips
Curl when she tells a lie
A secret agreement between lovers
I promise and she cries

I think I do

I know she does

Killer’s eyes greet the morning
Lusty moans and sweaty brows
The thin line threatens to break
It’s far too late now

Rapture unforgiving as the night
Jumbled in a mixture of cement and love
The city is unforgiving
Love is as lust does

I know it now

But dare not speak

This is bigger than me
Cataclysms and tumbling virtue
A heartless fool I would be
If this lie is true
She has me now
What can I do?


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Feelings

Heightened heartache harms my soul

Torturing trends leave me Trembling

Monumental moments are now memories

Forever forgot its function

Never known by noble means

Always assumed to be an alternate


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One Week

One week of waking by her side
Falling asleep in her loving arms
Waking with a smile upon my lips
And a lover in my arms

One week of watching her every move
Soaking up her every smile
Hearing her every word
And sharing with her every thought

One week walking through the parks
Strolling down the streets
Holding her hand
And never caring what looks we get

One week of playing 
Joking back and forth
Playful laughter
and cute little arguments

One week of scary movies
Cuddling together on the couch
Laughing as each other jumps
And hiding the other from the monsters

One week to spend in her life
All the little things are precious
Each moment a brilliant gift
Each mine to cherish forever
And others think it's silly


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wierd

stomach feels so wierd when i hear your voice
damn its those butterflies again
same with when i feel your touch
or see you smile
smilin' bright as day
even when the clouds are gray
i giggle uncontrollably around you
i get nervous
why?
....because bay you are cute wit a capital
C-U-T-E

(lol i got bored =p)


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Stars In The Night

You said never
And It was my own fault
You wouldn't trust me
How many times had we had that talk
Yelling at each other 
Fighting at night
Fighting for each other 
Does it matter who was right
I said never
And it was another's fault 
I wouldn't trust you
Another had broken my heart 
Clenching our fists
Straining not to hit the walls
Breaking through barriers
Clenching our jaws
You swore I wouldn't get in
I couldn't touch your heart
You looked into my eyes
Forgetting one essential part
You fell with a kiss
And when my tears first fell
When I opened your first 
And your fears first spilled
I looked into your eyes
Seeing what was hidden in the dark
The remainder of a flame
Beating in your heart
I'll cradle it's warmth
Till the embers glow bright
And your love burns
Like the stars in the night 


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fruit of youth



 Fragments of tender loves,
summers of springs; which
were young, long ago

Raindrops so fragile,
so fragrant
the first of lasts 
winter's snow

We inhaled the air
as it lifted us, to a newness
that is never new twice

Season's lusty whispers 
as flowers unfold,
we danced
the robin's ravish song, 
Still, 'tis you which remains 
in memories dawn

tasting slowly to savor 
the sweetness, I still can taste; 
vivid youth, of the fruit 
devoured the first time from my plate

 


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My Love

Love so true and so desirable
You make me so strong and make me feel invincable
No force in the world can stop me
I'm the thing that thrives a tree
You breath life into me everytime I see you
You are my doctor make me feel brand new
Still dream about you can't get you out my mind
If I could fly over mountains I would climb over them
I know you feel the same way
Look at the creation that we made
so beautiful and lovely
Glad your by my side , I love you honey

Dedicated to:
The love of my life
Love you Kenzie


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Missin' You

I miss you, miss you
your spirit comes over by text and it 
brightens my day
I miss you, miss you
and I pretend you’re on a trip far
far away and you long to come 
home to
me
I miss you, miss you
and can’t stop thinkin’ ‘bout you
‘cause you’re the one who I love and 
I can’t help but hope/know that 
deep down inside that you
love me too
I miss you, miss you
so much that I think your with 
me every step of the way and we end up
together in our own little world just gf and bf
forever
But that won’t happen I know ‘cause
you are torn from me by another and 
you say you want me but it’s hard to tell
if you mean it so I’ll only say that I’m 
Missin’ You


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I am not

I’m not blind 
I just don’t want to see the world outside your heart’s barriers
I’m not afraid 
I just don’t want to have to face life’s harsh full ups and downs 
I’m not crazy
Im just in love wit a man hu knws how to love me ryt
Im not running 
Im just movin into a better place; into ur heart
Im not weird
They just don’t understand me like you do
In all my years of life 
Ive never met a man to express himself the way you do
And now you’ve got my hearts equation
Tuned into ur diraction
Surrendered to ur objection
Im loving u lyk I love my oxygen
So dnt cut the chord on us or I’ll suffocate


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The Wayward Cafe

I sat in a small wayward cafe,
the smell of coffee beans being crushing into submission
tickled at my nosterls.
The sounds of tin cans and cups
some of them being stacked and others
drop with a violent crash.
The tables all red and round
There sat the women, with their novels, tea cups and coffee mugs
sharing small talk of innocent love.
Some women quiet and others talking.
All of them drinking something.

The cool air blew through the windows,
what a mess that wind made.
Blowing papers all around
and blowing the women's hair back.
A man sat there, writing away,
with an endless cough, a tickle at his Adam's Apple.
Then again everyone had a cough.

I sat there reading poetry, writing poetry, embracing poetry
with a pen in one hand and my head in the other,
gently resting of the red round table.
I wrote of the cafe, the women, the man with the endless cough,
that shattered your ear drums everytime he put his hand to his mouth
and coughed away.

A woman who sat reading way,
drinking lemonade and sometimes
taking long glances up.
She was waiting for someone, I could tell.
I looked at her and she at me,
and we both smiled.
Then a sudden silence,
she looked away from me.
A man, who had an ego,
(Then again, doesn't every man have one)
brushed my shoulder and pushed me away.
He apologized, not sincerly.
They kissed and hugged,
I went back to writing with a frown.
They went away in love, I guess?
And I sat all alone in that
lonesome wayward cafe.
Nothing to keep me company, but smell of coffee and tea
and the laughs of the women sharing small talk,
and that one man with Earth shattering cough.


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It's Not Your Fault

The thing about life
is that
it can end in an instant

When the rope of the
harsh words
wraps tightly around your 

Neck squeezing tighter
and tighter
you just want to jump

To end it all to end all
the pain
and the hatred and words

It is not only the words
that push
you over the edge

It is too the fists and
the feet 
that slam into you

Over and over
without
a break with out letting up 

Making you break down and slide down
the wall
and cry and cry and cry

One phone call can 
save a
live, stopping t