It’s my life not expecting you to understand it
A man who when he was a boy his mother abandoned
Alienated like I arrived from another planet
While you were with your family joking, laughing and eating a peanut butter sandwich
I was moved from foster families and children’s homes
Surrounded by people but feeling alone
Everything I go through is some kind of building zone
Treated differently because I’m not wanted or loved by my dad, sister mum or brother
Feel like everyone trying to get to know me is working undercover
So the first thing I do is run for cover
Opposites attract I’m cold inside does that make me summer’s lover?
Being uncomfortable makes me comfortable
I feel safe being vulnerable
I’ll be the first to say I’m dysfunctional
Am I supposed to lie and say everything all great and wonderful?
Should I already understand and know it all?
You belittle me but I’m still growing tall
You wanted me to catch but you didn’t even throw the ball
An insomniac and I know Money can buy a bed but not sleep
But how much would a meaningful hug cost me?
I could wish and pray to the sky
But that’s just not me
Anytime love got me
It seems that Luck lost me
So I Push away the people I want to stay by my side
The ones who are worth your tears won’t make you cry
I could do 99 good deeds for you
But you would count the mistakes I make in life
So I don’t even try no more
I don’t cry no more
Love no one trust no one, **** them all
If you want to walk out my life. Here let me hold the door
I think about her
I think about her
When am sick
I call her name
I can't forget her
the sweet of my heart
I really love her
And her name is my dream
day and night
I will praise her
All days of my life
At the time of my death
It will be a war
to separate our love in sorrow and toil.
She's my sweet,
the light of my life forever and ever.
I really love her with all my heart
the pole of my rib
from Adam and Eve
the woman was great
She's my home
She's my love
When am sick i call her sweet
to get back in life
Oh! she's my salt
She's my lamp,
I don't know where to hide her
with her beautiful face
I think about her
I think about her
my love, my friend.
i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric
so much weight on my shoulders
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal
so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion
i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over
i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating
is your life so complicated
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value
that you dont see inside of you
just another day for him
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles
till he found a way through all the turbulence
Thank you for the beautiful memory
you left on my mind
you are not dead
but you are not here,
to me you are gone,
cos i cant feel you the way i used to,
everything you used to do are left untouched
the space you ocupied is empty,
our yesterday is fading away like the rainbow
so beautiful but so short,
how can i forget the endless yesterday?
when you are here with me.
in loving memory of my sister (you are not an angel but you did what an angel can do,you fly to heaven.)
This is the day which the lord hath made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it.
But we rather be sad in it
We rather hate in it
Kill, Steal and Destroy
Boast about our joy
Money, Cars and Cloths
Tell us you got all the hoes
Why do are women want to be hoes
Why we dancing on poles
Men don’t you know women are a key ingredient to our souls
Women don’t you know you know your worth more than pure gold
Platinum, Crystals, and Diamonds
This is the day which the lord hath made;
We will rejoice and be glade in it.
That is the only way we are going to save our planet
We have to make our way, because we are here to stay
Hold on to what is right, believing in your rights
Love is the only weapon you need to fight
Because This is the Day where everything change
This is the Day where we are only calling on one name
This is the Day where we all get to see them fancy things
This is the Day where there are no more nightmares and only dreams
This is the Day where you will see greener pastures and blue streams
This is the Day where we all are announced kings and queens
This is the Day Heaven begins to sing
I'm Drowning in my Sins
The Devil have me in a Spin
It Never Seem Like I'm Going to Win
I Pray to God to Forgive Me, but my Sins I seem to Repeat
Lord Don't let me Suffer in Defeat
I'll kneel down and Kiss your Feet, But in this Battle Im Losing Me
My Soul is Living Free
Knowing in the End Torture is Forever Bonded to me
Keep Inhaling The Smoke and get Thrown in the Fire
My Deepest Desires gets Me Thrown in the Fire
So does that Mean My Mind is Messed Up?
My Spirit Messed Up?
Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirt within me
Forgive Me For My Thoughts
Forgive Me For My Desires
Every Day Im Sinning I Feel like Im Getting Closer to The Day I Expire
Wash Me Clean
Make Me New
Bring Me To the Light and Let The World Hear My View
As we stop, I pull out my jar of Vic's vapor rub
I put some up my nostrils, this job you cannot love
But it pays the bills, I make my living
Trash day is when people are most giving
They are selfless when getting rid of what they see as junk
Whew! That smell from the back of a garbage truck
I spot a pair of shoes for my kid
I will wash them first, get rid of the odor of rotted squid
My niece's birthday is coming up soon
I found a playhouse with dishes, forks, cups and spoons
It's family night tonight at home
The unknown video I found will be shown
Finding the right stuff is a matter of luck
It is just my point of view from the back of a garbage truck
I found a half a bucket of KFC
I take a smell, it smells as fresh as can be, what a surprise for my family
Two hours later, the family can't keep their meal down
They are so ungrateful about the food I found
I am on a strict budget, I have to find a way to save a couple bucks
More dinners will be found because I work on the back of a garbage truck
The rain is starting to pour.
The clouds are turning gray.
All my hopes I had in you .
are slowly fading away but fast.
Always thought this would last.
you said believe in you.
I gave you every chance.
and this is all you could do.
Was take my heart and throw it away.
Say things that don't mean nothing.
touch my hands I feel nothing.
Kiss my lips and your numb to me.
numb to me.....
Even as I sit here in pain-high as a kite,
I can't help but think of this madness which is my life,
I've endured more psychological trauma than the average individual,
and if you look deep into my eyes I'm sure you will see some residuals
This shit ain't cool and I'm no fool, I'm just trying to get by,
constantly asking God for help as I gaze up at the sky,
sometimes I can't help but wonder why he made me this guy,
there must be a purpose for all of this and I have no shame when I get high
I stay fly, all the time-trying to ease my mind because this shitty situation is just a moment in time. I'm going to stay positive, I know it's real and I know it won't make my problems disappear but at least I have a smile on my face and no more tears as I move forward year after year..
A few bars I just dropped in the booth not to long ago.
Check them out.
Tom & Jerry The Kidd chase money/ angry birds make my bills look funny/ shooting banks like Stephen curry/ math equations I handle in a hurry/ for the paper I go crash dummy/ I bet a silver spoon taste yummy/ wasting coins like a tsunami/ history of Clyde and Bonnie/ OK/ pull up in a nigga set/ but before I rhyme on, gotta get my lick on/ I flex like a bicep in a arm/ you betta have luck when you wear yo charm/ hold up/ LB quit brainstorming yo words, verbs, nouns, and adverbs provokes me to take action like a verb/ ain't speaking money then it ain't word/ OK/ them trappers call me BooLansky/ Gun shine state representer/ old bills wearing suspenders/ so how I can fall out of rhythm/ I'm tripping off this Seagram/ but how I can I trip when high/ Abraham my main Guy/ prices on heads that killers buy/ I learned three ways to use buy/ uh/ LB NASCAR paper which sea, as long as my lids see, and I ain't talking about no lids card, paper connects on da iPod, Put God first believe in God LB