Summer is here once again.
The breeze is warm,
I smell salt on the wind.
The same sandy beach between my toes,
The same waters I learned to swim.
Sun burn on my nose,
To the Ocean I dive in.
I submerse myself in the waters of the Atlantic
Warmer than the West Coast Thankfully
Cold, I simply cannot handle it!
Further out I paddle faithfully,
For my mother ocean to keep me sane,
this is my therapy,
to soothe this migraine.
This place gives me energy,
a weakness with a name.
Pleasure Island, NC.
A place hidden with fortunes
and undiscovered fame.
Never could I stray from the ocean
my passions would never be fulfilled
and I would never be the same.
Dedicated to my Dad on Father's Day 2013
The man who introduced me to the ocean and educated me about it and gave me reason to love appreciate and respect it.
im livin in a world, where all eyes on me.
trying to curve my own route.
but route 66 keeps finding its way to me.
ive been plenty sick, in all the events layed before me.
even when i reflect to my lowest points
i dont regret any of the choices
That I’ve deployed in my era
A lot of it by error, but hey
We live in hell conditions and there ain’t no air condition
Or any guidelines when life throws you in the sidelines
But when hindsight twenty twenty hits
You’ll begin to understand life’s a bunch of equations and you in the mix of it
An you’ll have to think twice, before running into a situation and becoming the best of it
it’s what got me here, it’s what got us here
Ran with my thoughts blazing up to her place and
Guess what happened next
She opened up heaven’s gate
And just before late I slipped out
I’m a Grown ass man
Doin his thing, waitin to blow up like an old land mine
In doin what he drools over
But time after time
Something decides to creep up and cover the light
Lost my way
Then I revoked to ever know, I ever thought that way
But in the in between time, that in the mean time
Spent a lot of time
Gettin pissed off just to medicate and lift off
Don’t need Don Perion to sip off
Already had my way with the bottle
Even thought to get back with the trouble and rejoin the hustle
That’s just what happens to a man who really knows his old ways
Whos tired of making ends meet and ponders getting back to the streets.
Memory sets in and he remembers an O.G. saying
No matter how tall your pockets stand when you ball
Eventually times gonna make you fall
And I as I pull myself together
I don’t wanna end up like the twin towers rubble
I mean no offence to nine eleven but at that time I probably could have used a reverend
But all that’s irrelevant now
because i live with a different perspective now
there you go you made it to the end :-) comment if you like, constructive criticism wanted as well.
i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric
so much weight on my shoulders
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal
so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion
i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over
i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating
is your life so complicated
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value
that you dont see inside of you
just another day for him
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles
till he found a way through all the turbulence
Glimpses of epiphany
Once, a long, long time ago
I was filled with cares and woe
I thought that I was going to die
And the fear of it, it made me cry
As life became a misery
Self-pity came enfolding me.
And then one day amidst the trees
Something did take on over me
The trees lit up like Christmas lights
Glistened silver, sparkling bright
And I fell beneath the mystery
My heart all filled with untold glee
A whisper seemed to fill my soul
The world seemed pure, and sweet, and whole
And I knew, I had no doubt at all
That everything is wonderful
And since that day a peace has been
Making my world so serene
20 July 2013 @ 1725hrs.
For the Glimpses of epiphany epiphany contest
Its bad enough that everyday I walk down memory lane, &&' It really puts me in alot of pain. I've been doing the best that I can, but I am who I am. I'm getting tired of everyones exspectations, people always pulling me in different directions. Even when I'm falling down, people still push me on the ground. I'm gonna keep trying, no more lying. No more games, done mentioning names. Being two-faced isn't cool, it just makes you look like a fool. I'm never looking back, that life was wack. I'm done trying to make everyone happy, when they treat me so crappy. I may not have alot of friends, in the end, but atleast I don't have to pretend. I'm gonna be true, with or without you. You'll see, I'm done letting people get to me.
A: I’ll call him AARUSH, ray of sun;
B: And she’ll be BEA, a happy one;
C: COLCHAS is bronze from head to toes;
D: His oaktree brother, DARA, grows;
E: Alive is EFA, she’s a one;
F: And FFION is our foxglove son;
G: There’s GUY, our clever boy the guide;
H: HAKIM, he’s wise - can’t be denied;
I: She works, Our IDA, round the clock;
J: JOANNA says her God, he rocks;
K: Alert, our KACIE tops her class;
L: LATISHA, such a happy lass;
M: As MARCO thinks he’s Mars the god;
N: New baby brother NEO nods;
O: He’s OLAF, proud of kith and kin;
P: And PAULA, she is small and thin;
Q: My QUEENIE she’s a queen - beware;
R: He’s ROAN with the reddest hair;
S: While SADIE, she’s a princess; wild
T: TALULAH, she’s an awful child;
U: As URI is a boy of light;
V: VERONICA, her picture’s right;
W: And WENDY, she’s a friendly soul;
X: But XANDER, he’s a fighter though;
Y: YVETTE, she’s like a yew so tall;
Z: And ZAK, the purest boy of all;
And now I’ve named the little dears;
I must get started – volunteers?
I’m 43, single again and live in England. I don’t have any children (as far as I know, LOL).
For Cyndi’s Z is for Zaria contest
O geometry O geometry how lovely are your angles!
polygons we love to tile!
polyheadrens make us smile !
O geometry O geometry how lovely are your angles!
make sure to sing it nice and loud
so they ALL can hear it!!!
birthday is not just a day.
its the day,
at first which we made our parents feel happy and proud.
its the day where all wonders entered,
all our family members heart.
smile on face.
tears on eyes.
no words to expose.
instead of words, you exposed their life.
for your birth in this world.
world was filled with happy.
my heart filled with you and your memories.
happy birthday dear.
Smile smile smile
As you always smile
Your face created
That suit you baby a lot
Like elegant cut
You don't need a makeup
You only need baby
Your brilliant smile
No need for lipstick
Wear baby your shining
Your sweet smile
To my heart
Da Vinci art
And I love that
Keep your smile
As you always smile
I HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR FIFTY YEARS,
BUT IT SEEMS I JUST MARRIED LAST YEAR.
FIFTY YEARS MIGHT SEEM LIKE A LONG TIME.
BUT SUMMER NEVER SEEM TO LAST A LONG TIME.
THERE IS NOTHING THAT BRINGS SO MUCH HAPPINESS IN MARRIAGE.
AS THE THINGS YOU DENY YOURSELF FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR MARRIAGE.
NEVER EXPECT YOUR MARRIAGE TO BE ALL ABOUT LOVE.
FOR MANY A MARRIAGE HAVE CRASHED BECAUSE OF THE OTHER LOVER.
A PESKY BUTTERFLY MAY PERCH ON YOUR BEAUTIFUL ROSE.
EVEN THOUGH THE GARDEN IS FULL OF OTHER LONELY ROSES.
THERE ARE MANY THINGS YOU CANNOT CONTROL IN YOUR MARRIAGE.
BUT TRUST IN GOD CAN DO WONDERS FOR YOUR MARRIAGE.
THERE IS NOTHING LIKE A HAPPY MARRIAGE.
BUT THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE HAPPY IN THEIR MARRIAGE.
HAPPINESS HAVE NEVER WON ANY WAR.
IT IS SWEAT AND BLOOD THAT WINS WAR.
THEREFORE START EVERY DAY WITH A PRAYER TO GOD.
FOR YOU CAN NEVER WIN ANY WAR WITHOUT GOD.
Look around you
See the faces surrounding you
All with different uses and tasks to do
What if it’ll be your last view?
A bitter truth no one reviews
No matter how long we stay, the end will definitely come knocking
A time to really have all the rest you’ll ever need
Being alone with your deeds and virtue
Whether the good or evil
Alone and awaiting judgement
People singing melodious songs
They tell you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger,
Blatant lie, cause what doesn't kill you wasn't meant to kill you.
We wonder and ponder
But at the end, all they do is lauder.
Not knowing death is like thunder
Striking and leaving a donga
Leaving us in confusion
Live life as a traveller, but take only what you’ll need along the way.
Funny how when you die they start listening
A journey worth taking for those who know.
Tell me, are you not willing to go?
For all the bounties and all the grace
All the sights, smells and the tastes
Will be forgotten without a trace
As if frozen in time and space
When you see his face.
You asked for mercy, that he gave.
Death, the undisputed slave.
We come making everyone happy, then leave making them sad.
Why are we here in the first place, if this is how we gotta go?
communication from above the air
random as it doesnt compare
the meet of peoples taste
so many exceptions, unknown where it leads
but a friend can call on formiddible times
can suprize and place you up there
on that higher ground
where we all belong
they can be the calling we need
the lift that stands
the love we crave
we all meet at random places
or odd situations
we have the best times
the moments we never forget
the memories we look back years later
and just smile
thankful we had the time
and wish we had all over
again and again
always repeat those days
the real deep and meaningfuls
for what time we may have these tresured lives
that we share
may not be for long
but id never let go of those times
they made me who i am
the path i walked on
i might not see them all the time
but i do think about them
how i smile from to ear to ear
money cant buy that
no one can replace that
so with age comes being wise.. at times
and its those days that we had
makes life abit easier to live
they keep us going
and we never forgot them
Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.
All I will say is how I did my best ever day to say you are my love
Before I go to bed and before I wake up I pray above
Cluing you with the best of my affections that I hope you see
Did you know that everyday I look at you my day is pleasant and that is the key
Everyone that knows me knows that you are the one for me
Friends and family love you as much as I expect to be
Going forward with all my heart I give you my love unexpectedly
Holding your hand while walking and whispering to your ear I love unconditionally
In my heart I expect in return is a smile of faith
Just when we look into each others eyes in love we bathe
Kindly we speak to each other with passion
Life we have together we love our every hug and kisses in occasions
looking outside thinking what a beautiful day as I hear the cars, trucks, buses, and vans go by, but still thinking what a beautiful day, hearing the children playing outside , as the weather people say on the news its hot out today as they say that its suppose to get up to 90 degrees, people are thinking that Missouri having some weird weather, thinking yes that right, one minute its cold then the next minute its hot, don't know what to do, weather to get out the summer things or not, cause this weather can really get people sick, sitting here looking out the window as I wait on my bus, thinking that it might get up to 100 degrees outside today,
by: Sheena Shenia Jackson
Thou shall not pull thy sisters hair. Thou you shall chew thy food.
Thou shall not stay out until Midnight. Thou shall be in a better mood.
Though shall not answer me back. Thou you shall brush thy hair.
Though shall not wear that in public. Thou you shall behave in here.
Thou shall not give me cheek and run as fast as thou art.
Though shall not rush thy homework. Though you shall begin from the start..
Thou shall not scream at every opportunity no mater if thy lungs be strong.
Thou shall not dance in tantrum. Thou you shall stay home where you belong.
Thou shall not eat me out of house and home. Though you shall get a job.
Thou shall not sit round like a bum. Thou you shall turn into a slob.
Thou shall not fight with your sister. Thou you shall give her a cuddle.
Though you shall not bunk away from school. Or Thou shall be in a muddle.
Thou shall not make noise while soaps are on, if you know what's good for thy ears.
Thou shall not blame your brother, Thou you shall see his tears.
Thou shall not ever worry, Thou I am here for you.
Thou shall not ever be sad. Thou you shall be happy It's true.
Thou shall not ever fret, even though we shall have our fears.
Thou shall never be alone. Thou you shall know we care.
Thou shall always have a life, Though u shall be happy and care.
Thou shall not have a problem alone. Thou you will know we are near.
Thou shall not take for granted, That shall be full of pride.
Though shall never wish for more, with thou family by thou side
By Shirley Moody
The cool air,
blowing in my hair,
the sound of bells ringing loud,
sitting down on the soft clouds.
This down right pleasure,
is what I'll treasure,
that no other dream can measure.
These yellow an red skies,
reveals its moment of time,
sleeping in the mid air as much as I please,
the view of the day in the sky,
as clear as the seven seas.
Yet another Year has accompolished
And my Life had not blemished
I am the focus , on center Stage
Coz Its today that I change my Age
Today is MY day ,
I want to scream and shout
Want to say it out loud
I love myself and there's no doubt.
It’s time to unite again
B'coz Celebrations' in the Air
All , Friends and Relatives
Gear up to express their care
I've been a year more older
Its sure I'm not being younger
I can take more responisbilities on my shoulder
And , I don’t want to feel colder
All these years, it has been the same
Desired to get self name
And had acclaimed
Yet I'm the same Musheera again
So much of delight
On this vivacious day of mine
I wish to drive to the height ,
As a Star I shine bright.
Happy Birthday To me <3
P.s. my birthday is on 1st sept .
It was the day when I was born
all were happy but I was in Mourn
What a secured place I left
As if somebody made my theft
Idea to stay in Mother's womb
Against the nature it groom
It was safe to be there
With nutritious blood and tender care
Healthy and happy was my life
Out was sorrow,grief and strife
Now when I am born , yet world to see
Have to be happy , accept in glee
I am over with childhood, now in teens
Crushes , infatuation , my future dreams
Adolescent now I am passing by
Years getting over , decades to try
Need to have a married life
Adorable and caring person at my side
Unfortunately pains overwhelmed
A persons entered and crushed my dwell
Darkness surrounded and world seemed Hell
Ruthless person took all my jewel
He captured the pearl and threw the shell
Tortured and slashed , marriage was dashed
Ended with a cry , nothing else but a DEEP SIGH.
My words for you
And they are at morning
What you like
Or may you like
Have you then
Pass your day time
with my song
May it a boost
May you get
How to date
Or may you stay with my song
To know that you are not alone
As my song adore you
And for you my song
The hidden secret
prettiness of your soul
A garden of roses
In your heart
May you're in crowd
Grey and blue
But for my song
You are a star
So feel good
May you don't have
Or credit card
But for my song still
You are star
So feel good
No matter what
But I know in many ways
You are like me
And in your way
You are unique
So wear the rainbow
And put the rays of sun
on your head
And feel good
for my song
You are star
So feel good
My days begins with you kissing me,you
are my sunlight in the morning
when you and Kylarr are near me my day gets better
I have happy days and love, you love is so amazon
I love the way you love me and
I love the things you do to me
You are my moonlight when I am in your arms
I live my life and die For you and our son
That is a happy day for me everyday.
I love you
No peace in life, so much rat race around,
In a world of tension we are drowned,
No time to relax, deadlines surround,
All smiles are replaced by frowns.
Future of the country dangles, politics is in a mess,
Entertainment is also on the rocks,
Match fixing scandals & scams are topics of interest,
Each day a new opportunity for gossip knocks.
The girl child problem, it just refuses to cease,
Rape cases have stopped making news,
Trying to compromise with the situation, with the problem that doesn't decrease,
As issues over the safety of girls continue.
The deadly competition, future of individuals it affects,
All people worried about their families,
Marks, exams, interviews, these are the main suspects,
That refuse to let live a single soul happily.
Worrying about the future, we forget to live in the now,
Worth enjoying are so many moments,
There is so much to smile about, so much to love,
Instead of which over several things we lament.
The chirping of birds, the fragrance of blooming flowers,
The sunrise & sunset over the horizon,
A light cool breeze, or an unexpected rain shower,
The moon, stars all provide our smiles a haven.
The innocence of a kid, the baby's laugh,
The small achievements of their lives,
The wagging tail and the puppies' happy yap,
Can also spontaneously raise a smile.
A mug of coffee, and a book to read,
Or a favourite TV show,
Some time off work, time spent with family,
Will make so many troubles vanish and go.
The presence of a loved one, a hug of care,
Some friendly get togethers & reunions,
The assurance of a trusted someone, saying I'll be there,
Can help to tackle the biggest tensions.
In this fast paced world, we are busy trying to win the race,
Doing our best to avoid loss & defeat,
Amidst all the tensions let’s not forget in our haste,
We have only one life - love it, live it!
I am not perfect I am not a saint
I have my vices my loves my hates
I am human flawed not unlike most of humanity
I can admit to this quite openly
I cry at times, I laugh equally as much one can see
I'm very much happy complacent relaxed I try to be stress free
Any problems in my life are minuscule yes I compare
To the struggles of others everywhere
Friends who've lost family members the stabbings knives carried by young boys
Those around me still suffering silently their friends don't even know
Why can't it be like the old days
Fisty cuffs no knives or gun play
I strive to be better I move forward I analyse
I wish so much suffering would disappear I hate hearing the cries
I've found purpose in my life I just have to hold on learn not to let go
I was for the longest time a lost soul
empty with so little to show
I now see much clearer so brightly for me the road is lit
I now know my purpose in life & I'm so elated with this
the energy that flows surrounds me
the positive force
I feel alive spirits lifted at last I am free
What the future holds for me I do not know
But where it seems to be leading me I am compelled to follow
Blessed I feel yes blessed be
If I have continual inner happiness I can help others to be like me
Much calmer more clarity I think deeply I analyse
I'm writing these words cos I've truly opened my eyes
Yes one can have ones eyes open but can one truly see
Yes I surely can because as i said earlier I've been set free
I am not bound to the world I don't worship material gain or worldly needs
I have my life my health my inner strength I want to succeed
No darkness surrounds me but so much positive I can't complain
try not to let negativity bombard & disrupt ones brain
Well to be me not perfect Flawed disorganised I do try
To make myself better so happy am I
When you're reading this please i want you to understand
I am moving forward il make myself a better man
So to all I offer my positive energy
Take some I don't mind
but leave me a little yes I'll be fine
I draw this to a close it has soon reached its end
I've found my calling my purpose from now to my life's end
I know what I am now but in the future what I'll be
I'll be ascended I will fly yes I believe this to be
I'll help others selflessly as much as I can
and those that know me already will truly understand
I love this fact the changes slowly I see
i know it won't be instant, ke se rah what will be
My eyes speak the truth honesty in my words
Extra extra read all about it I will not be deterred
from the path that I've been clearly set for me
Unburdened ill head towards light & get to where I want to be
Where that is yet not so clear but the signs are there it shows
All I know it's a wondrous happy place, a place to learn be enlightened I know
I am ready to take this journey I am so ready to grow
So let me get on this mission a challenge I'm sure
It's my life I intend not to hold back anymore
I'm seeing life more clearly now i am free content happy, I will soar &I'm ready to fly xxxx
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the urban poetry collection
Forever together, unaware of their fate,
Happy they were and in blissful ignorance,
But true to their natures they were destined to separate,
And instead of friendship, betrayal was to take place.
The shock of this betrayal shook her soul,
That unexpected treachery struck her blind,
All that was left for her was to flop down and howl,
And hope that her beloved friend would respond in kind.
But that was a hope that went in vain,
Because she was made to be left alone,
Friendless she was now and was left to endure the pain,
With the grief of her lonely life to be quietly borne.
Cursing about why she should lose her only friend,
And why betrayal was to be written in her fate,
All the happy times had come to an end,
And she became as lonely as she could get.
Her life had now become a burden to bear,
Living to her seemed so worthless,
No one seemed to love her, no one did care,
With thoughts of death she became obsessed.
The friend who betrayed her didn’t remain happy for long,
Realization of her sin now dawned upon her,
The feeling of repentance now swept her along,
And she really regretted leaving her friend in a lurch.
Tearful and sorry her friend she went to find,
She wanted all the good times once more,
For now those happy memories had started flashing in her mind,
And she hoped for more happiness in store.
On arriving at her friend’s with horror she saw,
That she had realized her mistake too late,
For her friend lay on the bed lifeless now,
With a sweet, small smile on her face.
To her face which was so lifeless and white,
The smile gave unexpected beauty and peace,
The horrified friend nearly fainted at that sight,
And her flowing tears refused to cease.
The smile on the face seemed to say a lot,
Some important words were getting unfurled,
And in this one smile the dead friend sought,
A way to tell her friend her unspoken words.
“My beloved friend you betrayed me,
And left me alone to live my life,
But life without my friend has no meaning,
And hope that in heaven we unite…”
When we were kids,
The things we did were hidden under the grid.
Young and naïve
We never believe love could be so well hid
But with regret, I’m willing to bet,
And say the older we get,
It gets harder to forgive,
And then harder to forget.
We build our hearts of plastic.
Get cynical and sarcastic,
Becoming lonely and spastic
Then we’d love to feel love, but can’t stand the rejection,
Hiding behind our fears as a form of protection,
Longing for a chase to taste the kiss of affection,
I thought I was close, but under further inspection,
It shows I’m in the wrong direction,
Struggling and running with no detection,
I’d change if it’s not for the seduction.
But then it’ll take a lot of medication,
Just to suppress the intention of the painful detention.
We all need love really, because it’s our way of reception.
Mom I'm sorry no one showed you love
I'm dispointed in you
I try so hard to show you that I care
that you don't need all those men
to make your life happy
But you don't ever seem to listen
I do and give you everything I have
To make you happy
But all I ever get in return is pain
I rember those lonely nights where I have nite mares
You was never there
I never got to have a mothers day with you
Because you was never a round
I had to learn and do so many things on my own
I Love You
But you don't love me
All the pain the sorrow
All the tears all the scars
All the heart ach all the pain
We hide it all deep in side us so know one will see it
We hide in our own emotions
Sometimes we might look happy but really we are sad
Sometimes we look happy and we really are
How can you tell the deferent’s?
Why do we hurt so much?
There are so many reasons
Sometimes there’s know way to fix it
all of the people in this world have the problem of not knowing what they have until it's gone.
The few people that understand this and have not made the mistake have lived happy
lives.Is's hard for someone to understand their emotions and what they feel and it is the
downfall of many. when you have someone you love and that makes you happy don't screw
it up by cheating or changing the way you act because the way you act is the reason the
person likes you in the first place. You need to cherish what you have because it can kill you
in the end. If your going out with someone you really like say it to them some of the time.
Tell them that you care about them. Show them that they are the only one for you.Don't be
a moron and get jealous if she hangs out with her other friends some of the time just be
there for them. If you have something good cherish it as if it were a gift not a right because
it can be taken away in a heart beat. Love is one thing in this world that has the power to
wound deeply and it cant be taken back. You need to be careful and enjoy what you have
and make damn sure you don't hurt the person there is no excuse to cheat, lie, or break up
with someone just because you want to go out with someone else have a very damn good
reason for it. Don't break up with them in a note or a text tell them to their face and explain
to them why. when you break up with them you need to be nice and don't be a total b&tch to
them. Like I said love can wound in places that cant heal so when you do find someone
cherish them like a golden treasure sent from heaven.
The day I have to watch what I say
Is the day I wake up to see that I lost myself
Ask me why I want to run away As your screaming at me everyday
Ask me why I can't stand my life
When every time I stand up you push me from behind
Tell me the world is at my feet and you will always be there
When I look around and see my family crying to my face and scheming when I walk away
Tell me to fix my life when my life is locked so far away from me I can't even see myself in the mirror
Now ask yourself why isn't she happy
We promise the world when she leaves
Only to dangle her dreams out of reach
Why do my words mean so much to you
When the world can see that you aren't true
But behind close doors you don't have a clue
You told me if I was lost you would find me
But when tears stream from my face and I tell you
Daddy, I don't know what I am doing
Daddy, help me through Daddy please I really need you
A stone face looks at me and says You've been lost for years
I'm sure you will pull through
My hate has been mistake for strength
And your hate and my hate
Broke a soul I can never remake
You tell me emotion are for the weak
We beat them down till they are on full retreat
I lived a life of feelings and friends
And that was when I was at my weakest
So you pulled me back in
But daddy can I tell you have you ever cried yourself asleep
Because your words cut to deep.
Have you ever been so happy that you promised yourself nothing could take that away
Just to see a knife to your throat by the person that swore to protect you
Imagines of the past rip through my future
As every step becomes cold and calculated
Disappointment is easier to handle then success
And pain is more acceptable then love
Now keep wondering why I can't fix my life
When the only things I can count on happening
Is everything in this world that would bring down the strongest person
Tell me to move forward and remember you kept me down so long I forgot how to walk
And then explain to my friends why I Flinch away from everyone’s hands
So how can I be better dad, when you taught me to run and hide?
I wish I could fix myself I've even prayed that one day everything would be ok
But if you and your life for me taught me anything
It's don't hope and don't dream It's better to just pretend
And wait until this life ends
Whilst in sleep it is held close,
for comfort, reassurance and love.
During the day it rests with the others.
Sitting and staring slightly at the passing day.
It is a fond rememberance of our childhood
yet it is carried into old age.
It will always be with you, in memory.
or in the reality of it's presence before you.
It never deserts you, or hurts you ,it never judges or condemns.
It is always there for you, offering solace and peace,
an undemanding constant love.
You know it's unique smell and feel, and defintive softness in your arms.
It looks in your eyes and understands everything you will tell it.
You know it's name, the special name you gave long ago,
as a small child rarely will you lose it, or throw it away
for it is linked to you, to your very heart.
And so it waits, every day,longer as the years progress.
For the time it will be held once more,
and you will feel the love , that is locked in.