You're not alive anymore
I've lost a life, time, you
sing & lie & roar & hide & cry disappear in my brain
& I am waiting tortured for my soul
you emptied & hushed & filled with the world.
I can't sleep like this
alone with dreamless eyes
and silent lips that speak like kisses that lie;
can it end in a day
can it end ever
with bargains & deals & contracts
that go on
impermanent as existence
& solid as a rock.
Give me an axe
Give me hammers & nails & wheels
that roll over me a thousand times
so that I stand straight & broken
with no direction dissected
with ladders & webs of woven hair
& still I am bloodless.
Did you find my vain images
worthy of your critique
Thief------------aren't we all.
Will I ever know you
like a lump of flesh so normal & familiar
I can trace it all with my mental finger
A shadowy figure great & small
I reach into your quiet AWOL emptiness
My Soldier, My Lover
You are still uncanny
I'm still writing war songs.