Liar's Truth

When have I lied? It makes me wonder if to be hopeful is a white lie of sorts… I have often lied to a child who sat and cried in despair Telling that child it would be alright when I had no way of knowing. Have I lied to myself that I’m happy or sad? Have I pretended I’m of use to others? Has that been true or was it a lie I suppose that’s up to you? When my sister was born I hated her, was that a lie, FOR SURE I wanted to hate her to blame her for all but I knew that wasn’t true. I grew up a bit and then I saw she’s the best person I ever knew. I lied when I cried to my husband and told him I was happy. Happiness ha! Safe I was … cloistered like a parrot in a cage held there by my own fears. I’m happy now sitting here all alone in front of this screen is it a lie? I wonder…. [can you hear me scream]