If You Really Knew Me

If you Really Knew Me By Kevin Robey Febraury 16, 2013 If you really knew me, you’d see through these lies The smiles and laughs, can’t conceal my eyes You won’t ask questions, you won’t suspect You won’t see it coming, my final misstep If you read this now, you know it’s true Maybe there never was a me and you So many times, I fall so hard Don’t rise again, joy’s much too far I wish I was stronger, but my mind is stuck I made it this far, based solely on blind luck I know you’d tell me, to take it easy This upcoming part may make you queasy Be kind, and notify my next of kin Leave out the part of my final sin Another one in line with many Proof I was my own worst enemy Join me in my dark and twisted fantasy Of opened wrists, my last reality My breathing slows, as the crimson glistens My thoughts are peaceful, lean in and listen Let’s make this emo, and write a note I’ll even throw in a depressing quote Maybe goodbye, sorry, and such You say I had it all, I say not so much These medals and trophies seem to say That I made the most of every day The truth is I was simply biding my time None of those moments were truly mine You see everything, but I leave with nothing Didn’t believe me, you accused me of bluffing So see me now, as I bleed to the floor Take time and read to me that final score The end is here, the war is won The battle is lost, but wasn’t it fun? Torturous dreams and false realities Were the only real friends to me So it’s time to sign out I promise not to shout Sweep me under the rug Let me go, I’ll pull the plug The end is here, I’m so relieved Despite of all I managed to achieve Don’t cry for me, I’m finally happy This is my last wish, my final plea So I close my eyes for the final time I think to the beauty in words that rhyme My final exhale marks the final scene Knowing nothing is ever, quite as it seems