Greater Consciousness

I dripped between the cracks Of my own convoluted mind fearful and excited at the same time Wandering in the small large spaces Wondering what I might find Searching for sharp barbed tiny bits Those unreconciled "it's" All the things I thought were the pits The words that made me feel like the shits You may try and see the me the he the one who wants to be More filled Less empty Fully engaged and free More noteworthy A symphony Less occupied More open and kind Instead my thinking and blinking never quits Why do I spend so much time doing this While others seem so contented in their bliss I sit in a black ink colored shadows instead of enjoying my lover's kiss Looking for the unknown underlined Intertwined with the unkind The visions of one metaphorically blind caught behind The veil of my mind The answers The Consciousness I was seeking Words I am unable to keep speaking Yet now I've begun being Now I'm truly seeing It's within God that I'm breathing No longer seething My heart is calmed He slows down it's beating Light within my tiny big spaces No more sadness He removes all traces I now see forever My mind no longer races I travel in peace to inner places....