Eddy

I try to see back before to who Eddy once was just barely before when the bending began Eddy was after all a cute child wide eyed hugging kissing and kind Somehow horrible happened It tricked and trapped his mind Loud shouting screaming sounds parents preaching pain through domestic degradation careless communication fraught with frustration Pass the potatoes please then spilled milk smacking sensation belt welts broken eggs no bacon Get up go clean up never ever interrupt battles brief and abrupt ranting and raving mom misbehaving Eddy helpless and in need of saving experiencing what no child should be braving Learning man lessons before he started shaving He can't depend on dear dad who pretends perfection in his ship shape barber shop where his jolly joking rarely stops Important friends doctors and cops humorous happy back slaps Eddy feels hidden looks and subtle attacks Shoe shine simple comic book quick When the shop closes Tearful Eddy gets another licking At two times five even Eddy starts kicking his hurt turns into fists swinging runaway day trip escaping Then away he starts staying getting into trouble time not enough praying rules that need breaking Who he'll become there's little mistaking what he wants he happily starts taking He can't shake the mistakes Travels life fast with worn brakes Tears turn into lakes He has and has caused many heart breaks Sometimes past prisons Are to hard to escape I think of my daddy dear Eddy and my soul shakes Sometimes time ticks Other times it just takes! Inspired by a comment made by John Hamilton after he read my poem "between the words of my father". My Entry for S. Grace's "Mental Illness Contest."