Be Good
From early on
I was told
Commanded
To be what I couldn't be
Be good
Be even better than good
Be smart
Smarter than smart
Be careful
I couldn't be nearly careful enough
You wished for me to be extraordinary
Like him
You wanted me to be that other smarter guy
More and more like him
In fact I needed to be more like him than he was
I tried to be that
i thought if that's what you wanted
That must be What I want to be
But where should I start
For I wasn't even sure who I had been
I painted on my "Be Happy" face
Pretended my collection of tears were diamonds
Placed them in my pretending to be normal box
After all I only had time
Time for being all You wanted me to be
I lacked nothing and everything
For I ceased being
Being free
Being real
Being anyone or anything
You taught me how to be empty
To be lonely in a crowded room
To be someone Impossible to know
I wondered why
Why I just couldn't be
Whatever that could possibly have been
I waited and prayed for your departure
Now that you're gone
This can be
Has been
Will be even more
The true beginning of what
Of what I've been hoping for and couldn't Figure out
I think I really want it to be
I pray that you in your long gone place
will witness the birth
of this human BEing
Who knows, if I am lucky, it could "Be Good"
At the very least
Good enough for me!
Copyright © Richard Lamoureux | Year Posted 2015
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