Sadness and heartache
overwhelm my body. My arms
are heavy from the emptiness
they feel. Where is the child I
was to hold on this day. Why
must I hurt in this terrible way.
Why must my heart be filled
with darkness and despair.
When will I see the light again.
Please just hold me until that
day is here. Please just love me
and let me know you are near.
I feel an emptiness that cannot
be filled. My mind overflows
with painful memories. I cannot
make them go away. I fear that
this pain is here to stay.
Dreams that are never to be
fulfilled. A piece of myself that
will never be real. A loving coo
that will never be heard. Never
a laugh or a cry or the awaited
No first steps to be taken. No
first day of school. No first time
at bat, or catching a ball. For
my son, there will be no firsts
I am lost in a grief that is all
my own. Shedding tears for a
life that will never be known.
With a broken heart, full of
sadness and fear. I love you
sweet Matthew. Mommy will
always be here.