Forever and a Day
Every night I relive that day
I relive the dream over again
No, not a dream, a nightmare
Except it's neither, it's reality
December nineteenth 2016
The world lost a great woman
A mother of six young children
And a wife to a man, now lost
It was unexpected to say the least
No one was prepared for this
Not her friends, or her husband
And definitely not me
Beginning Stage One: Denial
At first I slept easy, I was okay
Simply because she would be there
In the morning, I'd wake up
And see her sitting in her place
She wasn't, she must be at the store
I'd go to school run through daily life
Then come home thinking she'd be there
Then I'd find the house empty and bare
Stage Two: Anger
Who could be ready for this feat?
To lose a mother, so young
To lose their best friend too quick
To lose their one place called home
I was not, I am not ready for this
How could she leave so quickly?
How dare she not be here for me?
Why would you be so selfish?
Stage Three: Bargaining
If only we made her go seek help,
When we first saw the signs
If only we got her there sooner
Maybe, she wouldn't have died
Stage Four: Depression
When will this horrible pain end?
Will I be stuck hurting forever?
It's so tiring to cry all day long
I don't think I ever be okay again
At this point the pain can win
I miss her so much it hurts
I don't have her to go to anymore
But I can't do this alone anymore
Stage Five: Acceptance
It's been a exactly a month now
And I still miss you, I always will
But, It's getting easier, and easier
I am learning to keep living on
My friends are are holding me up
They won't let me fall down again
I did it, I found some to keep around
Just like you always wanted for me
I did it for you, and maybe a bit for me
I will continue to make you proud
Because you are everything to me
Don't forget, I love you, forever and a day
Copyright © Gracie Lakewood | Year Posted 2019
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