Forever and a Day

Every night I relive that day I relive the dream over again No, not a dream, a nightmare Except it's neither, it's reality December nineteenth 2016 The world lost a great woman A mother of six young children And a wife to a man, now lost It was unexpected to say the least No one was prepared for this Not her friends, or her husband And definitely not me Beginning Stage One: Denial At first I slept easy, I was okay Simply because she would be there In the morning, I'd wake up And see her sitting in her place She wasn't, she must be at the store I'd go to school run through daily life Then come home thinking she'd be there Then I'd find the house empty and bare Stage Two: Anger Who could be ready for this feat? To lose a mother, so young To lose their best friend too quick To lose their one place called home I was not, I am not ready for this How could she leave so quickly? How dare she not be here for me? Why would you be so selfish? Stage Three: Bargaining If only we made her go seek help, When we first saw the signs If only we got her there sooner Maybe, she wouldn't have died Stage Four: Depression When will this horrible pain end? Will I be stuck hurting forever? It's so tiring to cry all day long I don't think I ever be okay again At this point the pain can win I miss her so much it hurts I don't have her to go to anymore But I can't do this alone anymore Stage Five: Acceptance It's been a exactly a month now And I still miss you, I always will But, It's getting easier, and easier I am learning to keep living on My friends are are holding me up They won't let me fall down again I did it, I found some to keep around Just like you always wanted for me I did it for you, and maybe a bit for me I will continue to make you proud Because you are everything to me Don't forget, I love you, forever and a day