Mask
I stare blankly
And without purpose
As I try to hide what’s going on inside my mind
I think about telling you
But decide against it
Because I don’t think you’d care
So we talk about the weather instead
Just another conversation
Another day of concealing
Random words make random phrases
And they all mask the problem
I produce a fake smile
As you hold this conversation with excitement
Thinking it’s the one we’re supposed to be having
I wish I could tell you everything
So you’d understand how broken I am
You deserve an explanation
For my dying eyes
My Fading smile
And my infrequent laughs
I don’t even know if you’d care
Or if you’ve noticed any of this
But in case you have
I’m sorry
But I’m not okay
And I’ll tell you about it soon
Copyright © Ashley Spinale | Year Posted 2016
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