Life
The truth of life is it can take you down
So much hurt and pain it spins you around
Take it from me their will always be
Struggles in life you will see
I grew up without a father
You treated me like a daughter
Your sexual molestation ruined my life
I started cutting myself with a knife
You turned my whole family against me
The only hope I had was preying to god on bended knee
My mother started to call me a liar
Which in return fueled my hate fire
All these years I thought it was my fault I was to blame
But I was fourteen you were the adult it's not the same
You were right if I told my mother she wouldn't believe
But finally breaking down telling my friends was a big relief
I spent my teenage years bounced around
Not making a sound
For the hate that I dealt
Came from the pain I felt
Until one day a family could see
All the pain I had inside of me
They were patient and kind
Gave me a peace of mind
They taught me how to love
And to look high above
But I was to far gone
My anger caused me to do something wrong
Now I am 29 dealing with so many issues
I cry so much I run out of tissues
My depression was under control the past was finally the past
Then I began to work and I could feel it wasn't going to last
I felt myself slip deeper and deeper
How much longer can I hold off the grim reaper
I am not one who is liked by many so it is said
My job hangs by a thread
Everyone trying to get me fired
It's made me so tired
Their is to much anxiety and stress
I felt sticking to myself and being quiet was best
I see now I was wrong
People toss you around like a ping pong
When I open my mouth to speak the truth
I feel cornered in a booth
I have been on medical leave for a year
I fear death is near
I try to keep my head held high
But the stress and pain makes me want to die
The best mother I have even known keeps me going strong
So everyday o listen to my fight song
I can't give up I have to keep fighting
It helps to keep writing
My children need me now
So it's time to stop being a fat cow
No matter how hard life can be
Someone has it worse you see
Get on the phone
Because your not alone
Even when u feel you have nothing left to give
God gave us life so we could live.
Copyright © Theresa Walker | Year Posted 2016
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