Life

The truth of life is it can take you down So much hurt and pain it spins you around Take it from me their will always be Struggles in life you will see I grew up without a father You treated me like a daughter Your sexual molestation ruined my life I started cutting myself with a knife You turned my whole family against me The only hope I had was preying to god on bended knee My mother started to call me a liar Which in return fueled my hate fire All these years I thought it was my fault I was to blame But I was fourteen you were the adult it's not the same You were right if I told my mother she wouldn't believe But finally breaking down telling my friends was a big relief I spent my teenage years bounced around Not making a sound For the hate that I dealt Came from the pain I felt Until one day a family could see All the pain I had inside of me They were patient and kind Gave me a peace of mind They taught me how to love And to look high above But I was to far gone My anger caused me to do something wrong Now I am 29 dealing with so many issues I cry so much I run out of tissues My depression was under control the past was finally the past Then I began to work and I could feel it wasn't going to last I felt myself slip deeper and deeper How much longer can I hold off the grim reaper I am not one who is liked by many so it is said My job hangs by a thread Everyone trying to get me fired It's made me so tired Their is to much anxiety and stress I felt sticking to myself and being quiet was best I see now I was wrong People toss you around like a ping pong When I open my mouth to speak the truth I feel cornered in a booth I have been on medical leave for a year I fear death is near I try to keep my head held high But the stress and pain makes me want to die The best mother I have even known keeps me going strong So everyday o listen to my fight song I can't give up I have to keep fighting It helps to keep writing My children need me now So it's time to stop being a fat cow No matter how hard life can be Someone has it worse you see Get on the phone Because your not alone Even when u feel you have nothing left to give God gave us life so we could live.