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I Wish I Were Her

We have 72 hours to make this place presentable or we've got nowhere to live. Or at least not here. 
He helps with nothing. I sit, disappointed-again. Over something he's done. Again. 

I wish I were her. Heroin. I wish he lied for me.  I wish he wanted me with the same amount he does her. I wish he deceived his loved ones just to have me for a few hours. I wish when he was with me he felt whole. I wish I could make him lust for me as he does her. 
He makes love to me, and for long periods of time, but only because of her. 
Her narcotic charm is unmatched. Anything to do falls second to her. 
I need him to be happy and treat me nicely without the presence of her. Because when she leaves I pay, and dearly. 
I can't take him away from her grasp. He always goes back for more. 
Even if he says he is finished with her, I know I'll see some sign of her back around shortly. I know he doesn't need her. But sadly, I feel he doesn't believe the same. How long will he insist on this triangle love relationship? How long will she linger around us, if only in just thought? Forever?
I know in my heart that she trumps anything I could ever dream of giving or doing for him. Doesn't he see that she is nothing? She destroys. That is all she is. A homewrecker. Toxic. Death. Suffering. Pain.
Is this what he Longs for?

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No One Notices

Her heaven will be a love without betrayal
Reality is an ugly, misused state
Of which the world should have never been

Around and around we go
Day in until our final day out

It rains the tears have mixed
So this wetness of my face you cannot tell 
Which is which

As I walk through a crowd of busy people wielding cell phones and umbrellas
I am all alone
No one sees me, really sees me or notices
Until I'm gone

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Suicide Schemes

I wonder again why I have talked, uninterrupted
Until I am blue in the face
Convincing as I may be
You still believe
You're nothing more than human waste

Empty threats, locked doors turn into quiet space
So I kick and kick until the door breaks through
On the floor I find you
Anger such, an adrenaline rush
But no sign of you cold and blue

Different scene- you run straight out the door
Staggering bleeding from the wrist you cut
Eating poison to lure- me back in but
How many times will I chase you out the door?

I'm calling your name urgent
Then tired and sore
Because I've played this game too many times before

How many more police reports?
Worry turns to wonders of what this is all for
And all you seem to want is more

How many times for you
A helicopter in the city
Wasted time, attention, pity

How many times will I let you back inside
When your running came to an end and it became impossible to hide?
Taking refuge back home you come inside

Naked we get into the bathtub together
"Let's get you all cleaned off."
I take a washrag to the dirt and cuts on your skin with a touch so soft
You begin to cry, a whimper so
You hang your head

No more defense
The things you say begin to make sense
And I realize you're back.. It's you!
That sickening twist I never wanted to accept as truth

Because that anger I tried to hold on to
To show you that this I would not allow
Was for someone else
Surely it wasn't for you who is sitting in front of me now

My anger and frustration melts into something much more pure
Derived from the love that I have for you 
And you crave it 
Say "More, please more"

How many more apologies will I accept?
Or secrets from me should be kept?

Things I say in one ear and out the other
My patients wears thin
I somehow always find a way to get it back again

This poem was written 2012

Rest In Peace 
Nicholas D. Lovelace
5/21/88 - 12/07/16

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Wasted Days

A canopy of green
Branches overhead 
Encase us
As we speed through and around the curvy road

Into the unknown..

X   X   X   X   X

The unknown now I know
And never got to see the beautiful trees,
Only drove there to drive back

Another useless day
Arguing, wasting away
A day I'll never get back

Just like last fall
I was excited to see all the different colors
Of the trees as their leaves fall
As they prepare for winter
Who knew death could look so beautiful and alive?

But the same thing happened

Another pointless day
Wasting days
Days I'll never get back

6/15/16

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Hate Turned To Happiness

“All I want is to grow old with you.. to watch our life unfold, our dreams one by one come true. All I want is to love you forever..”

Wish I could be so naive
And believe all these lies
The ones told straight to my face
With clear, trusting eyes

But I've played this game before
And lost too many times
I'm afraid that if I lose once more
My heart will grow cold, unkind
And I don't want to be like the rest
dishonest and disloyal
A cheater at my best
I don't want to play this game
The one you all live by
Getting over on each other
Friends and enemies combined

I'd rather just be me
Instead I have to hide
Sometimes I feel as though
I was put in the wrong dimension
The evil that I witness daily
Is almost too much to mention
But let me clear things up-
I'm no saint among sinners
But sometimes the one who loses the game
Really is the winner
That blue ribbon.. or the trophy
Mean nothing with hate and greed in your heart

But every time I speak my mind
They laugh at me and tear me apart
And no one wants to be the friend
Of the freak who stands alone
So I'd watch them all laughing, joking around
Silent as a stone
And wonder what did they want
What did they hope to see?
Why must people play these games?
And why always, to me?

Night after sleepless night
I'd lay in bed and wonder why
Until one day I realized
That they were very different than I
Bringing others hurt and pain
Watching as they'd cry
Somehow brought them happiness
Still I'm not sure why

It was then that I realized
Never would I be fully understood
Some were just too gone to recognize good
And even I forgot that good still existed
But then I realized it exists inside if me
Inside of everything I've sacrificed
Or given freely to someone in need
Every single compliment
Every gift that was received
Every hug or helping hand I lent to someone crying on their knees

Not every gesture was appreciated
But that wasn't my motivation
Kindness lives in my heart
And that is my salvation

In a hateful world we always make a choice
So now I ask you
Don't give in to that evil voice

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Stripped While Fully Clothed

The person inside who you love and care for
You knowingly take it all
The good and sometimes the bad
My past, present and future
Something I never had
And all along did I ever believe someone would find my childhood memories cute?

Giving your body away to someone is simple; done every day
Without a name exchanged
But money given- we are knowingly ruled by cash
A cheating husband to the wife at home..
Wondering again what she's done wrong

Every human so corrupt, and yet
Somehow I still feel naked as I speak
But you look at me and smile, I can tell
It’s too genuine and I’m not used to this
I’m being vulnerable, but this
The silliest things it seems
Bring the feeling on, but
There’s a reason behind everything
Every feeling, every word spoken
A story behind the scarred wrist
Or the lonliness and sadness
Which brought on every tear that will ever exist

All I know is this:
When I’m alone with myself 
 it’s only you that I miss

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Love Seen With Blinded Eyes

Since the first time our eyes met I felt a connection
This connection..something unseen yet all along I knew it was there
 Just as real as the raindrops I hear 
They fall to the muddy ground outside
 Sheets of it pounds, pours 
We lay tangled together, my head on your chest
 The rain drumming steadily like the beat of your heart in my ear
 Sweetening the loud thunder and erasing every single fear
And as you hold me everything in this world disappears

 All I have is this moment right here
So real that it almost brings me to tears

 Outside the light flickers through 
But it dissipates and falls silent
 And the only thing I feel in my heart is you
Your presence inside me, surrounding me
 Until I am entirely consumed

For a moment this world ceased to spin
 Seems surreal, like a dream I swear it’s too perfect
I am afraid that when I wake you will not be there

Is this just a cruel game?
  Because nobody ever said life would be fair

 Reality melts away, makes my breath catch
How can fantasy and reality be the same?

 Beauty seen with mostly blinded eyes
Eyes that have seen far too much hate and horror
 Eyes that forgot beauty still exists

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Jaded

I sit alone
 I can't sleep so I ponder
Why it's always me whose left to wonder
  Could I ever trust another?
But it's you who has done me so wrong
Joke's on me 
I was the one stupid enough to stay
Blind all along
 Anyone else would've known what was going on
 
When people take advantage of kindness
I think maybe it is a weakness
Or at the very least, it is
 In a world like this
 Where you'd die for the one behind the gun
Pointed at your heart
And then you realize they never cared
 Again it happens, just like before
Slowly tearing you apart
I miss that girl who trusted, loved with her all
  Too blinded by the good, never knew nor saw
I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.

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A Few Feet Away

Only a few feet away in distance
But in my heart and mind it’s miles
Through treacherous terrain and mountain
Icy cold and frozen

Just a few feet from me is the man I gave my all to
The one I could reach out to
Who I thought understood me
Is now somehow my enemy

Very close in proximiy lies the man I could extend my hand to
I can’t change him nor do I want to
Thought I loved his flaws
Again it seems I was terribly wrong

Only a couple words away is the man I could speak sweetly to
Silence fills the room because I’d rather be alone than plaster a smile on my face
Tonight I will lie alone instead of in his embrace

On the same bed is the man across from me
At the very same moment in time as I 
Might as well have been centuries from now
Too numb to even cry

So I’ll share a bed with this man I thought I knew
Realizing the truth, that we’re strangers in one bed
 I guess tonight I’ve got no choice but lay back-to-back from him
And wonder how someone so close can seem so far away
 Again

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Beautiful To Me

I awake in your embrace
Enjoy the peaceful look on your face
Simply watching you is enough, no need to invade your space
Innocent. Beautiful to me
And I speak to you as you sleep
Truths, secrets and promises to keep
The way I feel towards you.. it goes so deep
As precious as a child's imprint of an angel in the snow
You're so soft and sweet, I hope you know

 And as you wake and smile at me
A sleepy haze
My once cold heart has entirely melted, thawed out and now lit, ablaze
Like the flame of a thousand fires
It awakens with no memory of ever being anything but bright and alive
It is now that I know I have survived