Hate Turned To Happiness

“All I want is to grow old with you.. to watch our life unfold, our dreams one by one come true. All I want is to love you forever..” Wish I could be so naive And believe all these lies The ones told straight to my face With clear, trusting eyes But I've played this game before And lost too many times I'm afraid that if I lose once more My heart will grow cold, unkind And I don't want to be like the rest dishonest and disloyal A cheater at my best I don't want to play this game The one you all live by Getting over on each other Friends and enemies combined I'd rather just be me Instead I have to hide Sometimes I feel as though I was put in the wrong dimension The evil that I witness daily Is almost too much to mention But let me clear things up- I'm no saint among sinners But sometimes the one who loses the game Really is the winner That blue ribbon.. or the trophy Mean nothing with hate and greed in your heart But every time I speak my mind They laugh at me and tear me apart And no one wants to be the friend Of the freak who stands alone So I'd watch them all laughing, joking around Silent as a stone And wonder what did they want What did they hope to see? Why must people play these games? And why always, to me? Night after sleepless night I'd lay in bed and wonder why Until one day I realized That they were very different than I Bringing others hurt and pain Watching as they'd cry Somehow brought them happiness Still I'm not sure why It was then that I realized Never would I be fully understood Some were just too gone to recognize good And even I forgot that good still existed But then I realized it exists inside if me Inside of everything I've sacrificed Or given freely to someone in need Every single compliment Every gift that was received Every hug or helping hand I lent to someone crying on their knees Not every gesture was appreciated But that wasn't my motivation Kindness lives in my heart And that is my salvation In a hateful world we always make a choice So now I ask you Don't give in to that evil voice