Best Poems Written by Arieal Turnet

My Life

As I sit and look up to the sky I wonder 
why. Why do I go thru this pain
Me a 9 year living life having fun but didn't 
kno my innocents was gon be taking away 
from someone who I thought I can trust. 
With his hands touching me all over all 
because hev wanted to feed his sinful 
needs. so I lived life as nothing ever 
happened n putting on a front like I'm fine 
but inside I'm torn I'm messed up. But I 
was taught to forgive so I did. One day u 
spoke to me n on august 30, 2003 I gave 
my life to you but u never told me It was 
gon be hard living a Christian life Me a girl 
who was chasing after u a p31  who has a 
purpose n a plan to do your will was 
gonna be tested.  Is it because of Adam n 
eve sin or cuz of my careless actions of 
me knowing what do is right. I sit back an 
watch my life flash before my eyes as if I 
have a no care in the world thinking 
everything is a ok. Sins looking why more 
better now than before is it because this 
world coming to an end or is it much 
more. I fall into this trap of sin. Its so  
intoxicating. His lust becomes evident 
when his actions is telling me serenaded 
lies wanting to touching my god given 
body structure to me sitting there 
undressing him with my eyes thinking 
innapropruate thoughts all of this type of 
sin... The attention from the popular is 
what I need to fit in from the boys looking 
at me  to the clothes with the half dressed 
looking like I'm going to the club to the 
shoes gotta have my shoe game up or im 
a lame i cant have that im popular 
remember Gossiping is what I do can't let 
them talk bout me that aint cool. Taking a 
puff of that blunt n drinking that liquor I 
must do to feel that buzz . So in order for 
me to fit in this is what I must do. this the 
life that everyone wants in order to be 
known. I remember in commandments 
you said EACH MUST SHOW RESPECT TO 
YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER but if I do 
that I will lose my cool points do u 
remember im popular n cool can't let them 
know im doing good things because I will 
be rejected.
Knowing its  tearing me down piece by 
piece  n my pure heart will be constantly 
broken am i finding my self becoming that 
person who does the things I don't wanna 
do So one day i met this guy. He's a wolf 
in sheep's clothing but I didn't kno that. 
Life was great as so I thought. Nice dates 
kiss all day making me feel like a woman 
But all that change. Changed to were I will 
be hurt physically with his has destroying 
this body to mentally were im called dumb 
im nothing an slow I'm fat I'm ugly n 
emotionally to no one will ever love me. 
With the constant abuse I gotta stay cuz 
I....... I love him hes my first even tho he 
don't love me. Red lights was blinking real 
bright but Ignored all the signs because I 
was in love he was my first. One day a day 
I will never forget. His anger got the best 
of him so he took it out on me. So he takes 
his hands gripped my neck like he is 
squeezing a bottle its gettin tighter n 
tighter to where I can breathe i tell myself 
don't wanna die so Its been a while since I 
called out to Jesus but I do so say save 
me Lord please I don't wanna die I wanna 
see my gift please please lord save me for 
he knows not what he does. I remember 
that verse HE WHO GOD LOVES HE 
CHASININS an at that very moment his 
hands was on me... So I have a choice a to 
make do I continue to stay in torment or 
embrace my singleness n stand alone So i 
chose to stand alone in the midst of that 
sin a blessing came. A blessing that 
changed me to a different person not goin 
back to the way i used to go but they way 
you ordained for me to go. Yu said the 
road is narrow. So the flesh is at war with 
the spirit like a tug a war. Because you're 
daughter is coming back home

Copyright © Arieal Turnet | Year Posted 2014